Post a pape you like and something you been meaning to say or think about, even trivial stuff. Sort of a GIOYC, but with nice pictures.
I hate how newfags refuse to go through the catalog and find whatever it is they plan on making a thread of. Even as I write this, there are three or four “comfy” threads, a couple vaporwave threads, multiple depression/loneliness threads, and even two different threads about bears, none of which are full. Stop being lazy fucks and actually check the catalog before you post more threads of the same shit that is already here. Everyone will appreciate it.
Stop it with the nude/sexy/whatever women threads. I am calling your bluff, you don’t have the balls to make them your desktop, and certainly not on any devices that travel with you in public. You just want fap material, and that’s not what /wg/ is for. Keep that shit on /r/, /s/, /h/ and the like.
>>7278015Read the fucking sticky and stop posting single pape threads. If you can’t even find 5 images of your own subject on the internet, there is no reason for /wg/ to do the legwork for you (unless we want to, but more often than not, gtfo).
Now, for one that’s unrelated to /wg/. If you drive on the highway, always give trucks some courtesy space. Trying to zip around trucks in the passing lane while both of you are approaching a ramp makes you look like a douche, frustrates the person getting on that the truck is not moving over to let them in, and frustrates the truck driver because they can’t do anything about the situation. Keep a safe distance behind and in front of them as well. 18-wheelers are not exactly known for their performance grade brakes and the last thing anyone needs is well over 5 tons of steel plowing through their car.
I'm really, really, absolutely tired of dealing with stupid people. Motherfuckers can't use a fucking key and lock a door.
I really want to fall in love or have another meaningful romantic relationship. It's been years, and I've had flings, but I don't feel emotionally fulfilled.
>>7278012I've been in my current relationship for a while now, I really love her and for the first months it was obvious she loved me too and wanted to be with me for a long long time, something I was also looking forward to, she made me get excited about having kids , something i never thought would happen. Now, for the last 2 months she has been feeling horrible and I can't do anything but sit down to see how she looks happier with everyone else. Not related to /wg/ but I thought I was going to blow up
i want to be loved, loneliness is hurting me
>>7278134Change your method of meeting women?
losing all interest In every thing, even thought of killing myself for awhile now even that has lost its meaning like what's the point? go to work, game, drink all I do. depression is a deep abyss but I feel like I'm plotting a chart, navigating it to its end but what if there is no end? idk man
I can't get over my ex from years ago and I've wanted to tell her but I know it'll never end good.
>>7278547i feel ya bro.Im so lonely ive been crying in dreams. Not sure why I dont feel it much while im awake.
>>7278547suicide isn't a great option.....but it is an option
>>7278688back to /b/
Loud obnoxious kids are the fucking worst. Their dipshit parents aren't much better. If your crotchspawn can't even spell their own name at 6, you've completely failed as a parent. Fuck you Nathan you shit tier kid. Stop running around at 5 in the morning. If I could break your legs I would.
>>7278012I love my girlfriend and i want to marry her but she get so consumed in other problems. Idk which pape this is but /wg/ I love you guys you've gotten me through so much and i'm never going to stop appreciating this board <3
>>7278753>>7279511I agree, get help to break that kids legs
I hope these SSRIs start working soon...
Intellectually I know it's wrong but my anger is the only thing that lets me feel something
i know i have to get a job and want to but for some reason i can't bring myself to make any effort to try and get one and then i overthink about it and stress over it
>God why am I placed here if not to do anything meaningful? I can't believe we would do jobs for other people's benefit. I just want to disappear. Into the woods, as it were. Get a fucking camper and just drive off into the wilderness and write a book until I run out of paper. Then die of starvation, loneliness, or exposure. >If life doesn't matter, and what you do in life is ultimately based on personal preference, then so what if other people think I should work a 9-5?
I feel like I'm missing something vital to my life. Maybe it's a relationship I yet to fully experience, maybe it's a goal I have yet to complete, or maybe I don't know what really is my purpose in life. I can't figure out what it really is...
I was a huge 4channer until about 4 years ago. Now it's a worthless autism factory and the quality of the discussions on all boards has plummeted. All it is anymore is miserable people trying to make each other even more miserable. I only come here like once a month when I want a new wallpaper.People always respond to these kinds of posts by saying "well at least we're not as bad as Tumblr/Reddit/wherever" but that's just it: this place is worse. This place has become so pathetic that just saying its name is a punchline anywhere aside from here. If you spend more than an hour a month on 4chan, stop that immediately so you can regain your value as a human being.
>>7278240I love you Anon. Take some MDMA with a friend irl. Test it to make sure it's real MDMA. It kinda teaches you how to love. Don't take it if ur on ssris, and don't take it more than once every 3 months. No more than 100mg for your first roll. It's therapeutic. It opened part of me up and I've been so much more social and had better relationships ever since my first roll
I'm being forced to choose between my friends and my lifestyle.I've lived with the same 2 people for about 5 years now, but I've known them even longer. We hop from lease to lease, renting out houses in the podunk college town where we grew up. We're great friends- loyal, giving, empathetic... at least to each other. We could live the rest of our lives together and end up like that trio of old dudes from Cowboy Bebop. But, they're also nuerotic, like to manipulate people into spending time with us, and messy/lazy- I mean piss in an empty 2-Liter and leave it under the desk for who knows how long... I fear the thought of going into their rooms.Cut to the begging of this summer, we had just signed on for a second year at our current place. A proposition was made that and the end of this lease, we should move to the closest city for higher paying jobs, wider options for entertainment and food, etc. I do not like this idea. I'm a hippie hearted fool who wants to build an earthship and grow my own food someday.Basically- If I go with them, I don't think I can really be happy... just distracted. And if I don't go with them, I fear that I'll never find a kinship as meaningful as what we have.
Now and then I get this abrupt jolt like I've just been born, but fully cognitive. It's hard to describe. It's like out of no where I suddenly no longer recognize myself, my life and even the laws of nature. A combination of "Who's life is this?" and "What the fuck is life and existence?" Everything I know, everything I am is suddenly gone. These panic attacks, or whatever they are, only last a few seconds and they're not triggered by anything. Several times a week I just lose all identity and subjectivity. And words just can't accurately describe the sense of sheer terror and anxiety I feel in those brief moments. I'm afraid to bring it up with a therapist, and because the attacks are so brief, I feel like I can just sit on it.
>>7280006I feel like i experiance the same thing but all the time. You're just seeing past the matrix but you may be a bit too dumb to hold on to it.
>>7280011Anyone can "see past the matrix" if they feel like it. But if that existential shift comes sober and undecidedly, it seems like mental illness to me, no offense to either of us.A phenomenon of sudden existence can't be normal. But it's nice to know I'm not alone, Agrajag.
>>7278023Shut up jew
This one isn't an angry thought or anything, but people keep assuming there is deeper meaning in the things I say and I would prefer if they took my words at more of a face value. I don't speak in a very labyrinthine way, and I don't share very complicated ideas with anybody that isn't my best friend or an anon online, so nobody really needs to think very hard about what I'm telling them.I find that people will respond to questions I haven't even asked.Maybe it's because some people like to converse like thisidk, I try to be really clear with how I talk to people, but certain people don't seem to want to speak that way.
I can't get over the last 2 people I've been with, they were in pretty close proximity to each other time wise, got with one about 2 weeks after the first left, worst part is they know each other, are friends, and both want to stay friends with me, but seeing them hurts, a lot. Dumb I know but I just needed to put this somewhere.
I miss my grandma.
Whenever I'm starting to like someone, I fail to commit. I immediately start to care less and notice other girls more. Why am I like this /wg/? Why everytime I try to stop being lonely, I just make my situation worse?
>>7282188sorry for your loss
Thanks anon <3 She had advanced dementia and I was ready for it, I just keep reminiscing about the old times with her.
I think I'm too fucking retarded to stick with one thing.As soon as I give myself any time to think about my life I get very sad and extremely angry.
I've been thinking of breaking up with my gf. I'm pretty happy with her, but she doesn't seem to enjoy being with me.
I spend too much time on my computer but there's no place I'd rather be.
I've given up on America. It is too dumb to survive.
I'm the hardest motherfucker of Roberto Clemente's epoch.
I wish I didn't have epilepsy.
>>7285381I recommend having an open, straightforward talk with her first. Maybe your love languages just aren't the same, so you're having trouble recognizing the way she shows enjoyment. Or maybe there's some other disconnect that you can pinpoint.
I found the girl of my dreams.I won her over, made her mine.Now I'm terrified every day.
>>7285470I found the girl of my dreams, but she lives far away and I'm dating another girl and can't afford to move out.
>>7279721eh. i might follow that advice.
I'm with a great girl I really care about but still find myself drawn to seek out something new or different. Even after some strange a while ago (that was far too much work) and even though they know I am taken the girls I hang with and know are always waiting for me to make the move. I am challenge driven, maybe I just like the chase too much. What do you guys think?
>>7285489nice pape. I don't have great advice but im the same way. I love the "getting to know you and being obsessed with you" phase of a relationship so much but not the rest. Even casual sex doesn't do it for me. I love cracking the code of a new person. The main reasons I'm with my current gf is that I can't afford to go to school and live alone, my car is un drivable and at her parents place, and I don't want the image of just using her for school. not sure what to do. Oh, I'm also madly in love with an old friend of mine I reconnected with who happens to have turned into everything I want and respect in a woman and she loves me back.
>>7285492Thanks its my mobile, also something I had on my chest is the crushing realization at age 27 I will never live my dreams of mining moon rocks. It actually depresses me when I think of it.Your lady situation is tough, but I am kind of in a similar boat in a way. Trying to get back in the army, lost my good job, cant afford to live alone but would prefer. I am more of the kind to crack the code not only of the person but of their body too, not in a /casual/ sex way either but more of an intense lovemaking way. I honestly think of my ex a lot too even though it was a bad situation it was mostly worth it just for the bedroom.
>>7285496haha holy shit you are me. I'm a 28 year old geologist trying to get into astrogeology.
>>7285497I figured I wouldn't be the only weirdo out there wanting to play around in space suits in total vacuum. Pic not entirely related but a previous pape of mine.
Got out of an abusive relatioship two months ago, my new partner actually makes me feel appreciated and loved. For the first time in a long while I feel good.Honestly wish all of you anons to love and feel loved as well.
I feel like my life is falling apart, I love my girlfriend and she makes me so happy at times but she has extreme mood swings and intentionally pushes me away to prove to herself that I love her. I don't know how much longer I can put up with it unless she gets help. We are also in an open relationship, I think it made me realise that I want a Poly relationship.
Me and this girl I'm interested in dating have been getting really close, I'm excited for the future :)
>>7278577i know what you mean....
I like this thread. This board seems to be the last place on the site I can come and just post with other anons who aren't constantly shitposting or bringing up whatever retarded politics they subscribe to or being cunts to each other for no reason. Sure there is some of that stuff going on but its much easier to avoid.Some anons talk in a way which feels more real and intimate than anything you hear in the outside world. Getting a glimpse into the minds of people anonymously, without any preconceptions or judgements. At least for me, it's pretty grounding.
I'm happy I found out that my ex was dating someone else. It actually boosted my confidence seeing who she tried to replace me with. I found value in myselfWith that newfound confidence, I found someone new and got a couple new jobs.
Been feeling like absolute shit lately, can't get over a girl who "loved me". Oh well I was fool for following, I've just been a fucking pussy and loser who doesn't have anything going for him, live in his grandmothers basement 20 years old and got nothing going for him, I've very excited for what's to come yay
>>7278012I'm afraid of my future, I don't know how it will go for after I leave the navy, I hope I can get work after I leave the navy.
It's very early in the morning, I can't sleep, even though I know I have to get up early today. I can't stop thinking I don't want to keep studying this career but I don't know what I want to do with my life. Maybe I need to find a full time job that don't require too much pressure but the idea of not trying to succeed is killing me. I don't want to defraud my family, specially my mom. I don't know what I have to do with me. Will be a good idea leaving my studies and have a full time job? Maybe, that can help me to decide what I want in life. I don't need too much in life, just live in peace with myself without disappoint anyone. Every hard thing I complete in my life was with help of someone. Maybe a job will give me that Independence and self-satisfaction I need. I have a hole in my chest in this moment and thousand of question without an answer. If you had or have a similar experience or an advice, I will be very grateful
>>7287491Its a really hard thing to give advice about. I have tried to work in jobs that gave me financial security but weren't meaningful to me and I honestly hated it. My brother doesn't love his job either but he can still get up and go to work every day because for him the important thing is being able to come home at the end of the day and see his family. I think if you are able to draw meaning from a source outside of your work you can probably live a happy life regardless of the job you are in. I'm sure some of the happiest people on earth are sewage workers and street cleaners because of what they are going home to. You'll probably learn a lot about what you want to do if you work full time for a couple of years and there is nothing to stop you from going back into education later if you want.
>>7285474i found the girl of my dreams, spent two years falling in love with her, then lost her
>>7287714I really appreciate you advice anon, I'm scared as hell thinking about leaving university, I will be more accurate with my though,. I really love my career (design) but I hate how the teachers are so careless, prouds and arrogants and this demotivates me and takes away why I like of it.I think you are right about having a jobs without something meaningful to you but maybe I need that experience to think I my choice of leaving is right or not. Thanks for your reply, it has helped me
I'm afraid that maybe I won't be able to give my bf the proper life that we two want, he is such a free spirit and im 22 and I'm still very restricted by my parents but is my fault because i let them. But I don't want to make my mom feel like I don't care about her anymore, she has been through so many losses, I don't want to hurt her, but I want to be true to myself.
It is very usual in these threads to talk about platonic loves and broken relationships. Maybe I have a psychological problem but I'm 26 y/o virgin and I never had that strong necessity to be with someone. I can fantasize with having a story but nothing more. I don't know why and if there is more people like me in this thread>>7288393If you are restricted by them because of the money, maybe you can get a job and be more Independent. That does't mean that you will loss contact with them.
Being in love really is good for you. I want to be the best person possible for my girl. Eating right, staying fit, getting stronk, lookin cute, reading and testing my brain at uni and in my own time, and working out all those other insecurities and faults. I just feel so fucking happy lately and want to share it with everyone around me. I really have to give massive props to my single lads out there working hard on themselves. You'll reach the end of the rainbow someday.
>>7278012The greatest source of happiness for people is other people. This is how we are hard-wired. I'm isolated, anxious, and physically faulty. Why live like this. I'm always contemplating non-existence, considering dying. But I'm too scared. I can't defeat my deeply ingrained primal need to cling on to life.
>>7278547I too have so little interest in anything. My main preoccupation is avoiding pain and death. So I try to work hard and study hard lest I end up poor and unvalued. But my efforts bring me little joy. I'm always scared, lonely, disinterested. I do like the idea of meeting people but pathetic catastrophisation keeps me in a state of listless inertia.
>>7279712I don't think there is any god or conscious force guiding the course of the universe. Things just happen. My parents got horny 23 years ago.
This thread. I've been having precognitive dreams since the age of 16 about my life. It goes like this...I have a dream (like dreams do) and through-out my waking life whether it be weeks, months, or years later I get a deja vu moment. Ok... I've dream't this ...(either at work or play) I get the same dream but the "story" continues on and adds a bit more. Weeks, months, years later. These are situational dreams. Meaning I'm in a situation that hasn't happened yet but when I have the deja vu moment I realize that I have dream't this. This sounds screwy because I may not be phrasing this proper. Here's an analogy. You see a movie...you only see the first fifteen minutes. Later it comes true in meat space. You see the same movie from the beginning but this time you see 45 minutes of it. Again, in meat space (without warning) it comes true.(the deja vu) I've been living my life according to this such shit. I'm old. I'm employed. I'm not happy, cause all you' all are doing it wrong. I'm waiting for the end of the stories.(just to see what happens) Or better yet .... I should just get on with it. Heh Ha. Cheers my good people...and bottoms up.
>>7285474>I found the girl of my dreams, but she lives far awayDeveloping feelings for a girl that lives across the ocean here too. It's rough. It's better to not.
>>7288398You might be asexual or aromantic.Depending on your opinion on identity politics might still be a brain problem tho
>>7288995But I do fantasize with having a story or something with someone. They do not appear often but the important thing is that those thoughts are not strong enough to archive something. Maybe is some kind of fear to the woman or maybe It's something very far away from me that I no longer feel it as necessary in my life. Either way, I don't think is something healthy
>>7288573desu I get this sometimes as well, ill have a dream and later I will have Deju Vu where Ive 100% experienced it before, idek its wierd
>>7286621M or F?sometimes I wonder if my GF is emotionally abusive, shits lameglad you got out <3
I miss my ex a lot, but I miss the sex the most. Well, not even the sex, but the aftermath of the sex, laying together in her bed. Not for the physical gratification, but just for the closeness and having someone in my life that genuinely desired me and who I could share that kind of intimate touch with. I'm desperately touch starved and I just miss spending late nights with her smoking joints in her bedroom and feeling her skin against mine.And I know that I'll find someone else, you know? I have things going for me. But somehow the fact that I'll move on hurts in its own way. I kind of want to be hurt forever to prove that it was special. If I move on, it's just another relationship I had.
I feel like none of my friends really care about the things I'm interested in and want to talk about, and my life isn't interesting enough for me to be able to talk about experiences or events or anything, so sometimes I just stand there in awkward silence and don't know what to say at all.This is a more recent occurrence, but it feels like its been this way for a while.I don't think anything I want to say is worth saying anymore.
I've had a gf for about three years now and love her more than anything. But I'm afraid that I'm in love with my best friend. My best friend already knows this and I have no idea what to do because I want to be with both of them.
I'm winning, but I'm tired of winning. I'm tired of the weight of being 'better', of being above. I'm tired of the amount of work I have to put in, twice, thrice as much as expected, because I was born poor and everything is harder because of that.I'm tired of having to find reason within my own mind to consider myself good at something, because I'm too insecure to feel strong without comparing myself to other people. I'm tired, because even when I don't try, I'm seen as different in some way.I'm tired of being so good at speech but so bad at human relations. I'm just so fucking exhausted.It's like I'm amazing at doing things that are good for everyone. I'm such a natural leader, such a social person, such a funny man, such a beautiful young adult, but I'm always feeling alone and disposable. I'm so great at doing things that don't make me feel comfy when I go to sleep.I'm tired, folks. I'm tired. I'm not even sure I'm great at any of the things that people say I'm great at. I often think I convince myself I'm good because if I'm not good at that, I wouldn't be good at anything. Truth is I don't know what I'm good at. I just want to be wanted.But I feel disposable and unnecessary. It's like I'm not special for anyone.I know it's not true, but the sensation doesn't leave.
Lo-fi is a problematic genre. I enjoy it whenever I listen to it, but I chose not to. One reason why is because it's just too easy to make lo fi. When I listen to music I'm also looking for authenticity. A good lo-fi song doesn't feel authentic when there's literally tens of thousands of similar people doing similar songs. What's a song without a story?One other major thing is that lo-fi, among most internet-popular aesthetics, are a form of escapism. I really dislike the idea of "remembering memories that didn't even exist" even though like all people I enjoy that sense of nostalgia.Lo-fi just bothers me. It's a "guilty pleasure". It's the same for me in regard to many other aesthetics as well, like cyber punk. I think overall I'm just angry that we exist in this timeline.Also hell of a lot of non-virgins in this thread. Not surprising but worth pointing out.
>>7289458You have no idea how much I empathize with you..That is e x a c t l y how I feel and you just worded it out so nicely..I feel like giving up on everything, the career everything I have built just to work at some mediocre job because I really don't feel like I'm worth for anything better. Leading tires me.It's hard growing rich with poor family mentality.. It gets to you.I hope I will eventually find a way to get a peace of mind and build a life that fulfills me, I now realize that fulfillment is more important than the circumstances.Keep learning bro, I wish I could get in contact with you somehow.
>>7289478well you just might. though I don't know how that'd do either of us any goodif you have any public discord server or some similar shit post it here. I'll join as soon as I can and, when you hear me talking about this specific situation, you'll know it's me(hopefully)it could be interesting, if not 'useful'
I am on my last semester of video game art school, and I keep getting anxiety attacks every day and I'm afraid that all the money i put into this has gone to waste and that I've put my wife and I through dept for no reason...
>>7279550fuk u fag
I wish I could beat depression for good. That it wouldn't resurface every few months and leave me empty. I hate how I feel, but what's worse is watching how to it impacts my wife and daughter. I love my family and I try to lead and provide, but the majority of the time it's from behind an apathetic husk.
>>7289630Even if you get into financial troubles spending quality time with your wife is just as or not more important than fixing the financial troubles. If you throw away your relationship to earn more money to 'fix' your relationship you're gonna feel like an idiot. Find a balance. Hopefully it will not happen but I've heard it happen multiple times.
I've known my best friend for four years now, and I feel closer to him than anybody else in the world. We went to the same uni, we jumped through fucking hoops to get in a dorm together, and we even tried to get as many classes together as possible. Trouble is that his girlfriend also came to the same uni, and I barely saw him our first year because he spent all his time at her place. I failed my first year, but decided to stay with him and try to figure out where to take my life. We moved into an apartment off-campus this year, and I figured I'd see more of him since his girlfriend was now a 10 minute drive away, but she just spends 99% of her time here. I get to see him for maybe an hour at best a couple days a week before she shows up and locks his door. I usually don't hear anything from them until they ask about dinner, and once that's done with, I don’t see him again until the next day. It's made even worse by the fact that he allows her to give input on decisions about our apartment, including letting her redecorate the living room without even mentioning it to me first.The real kicker is that they told me last week that they're engaged, but they don't want to actually get married or tell anybody else until they're done with college, which led me to the realization that that my half of the rent is basically hers. They picked out all the furniture for the living room before I could move in without consulting me. The place is littered with her shitty, unfinished knitting projects. The bathroom reeks of floral soaps and sprays that I’m allergic to. The only part of the apartment that I feel welcome in is my room. I have to spend every day thinking about the fact that my best friend is across the hall with the woman he wants to spend his life with, while I’m a kissless virgin that failed school, can’t find a job, and is completely alone in an apartment with a person I’d take a bullet for, and I can’t tell anybody without betraying him.
>>7279721>If you spend more than an hour a month on 4chan, stop that immediately so you can regain your value as a human being.but I don't have anything else to do :(
>>7290355That's very sad anon. I assume that you talk to him about this and what was his response?It's very normal when a person find a girlfriend, they get crazy about each other but that's only in the beginning. By what you were talking about, I don't think he forget you or think you are less than his gf. I think he unconsciously think that you will be always with him, so in this moment he is paying more attention to his gf
>>7285392same here bro.
I've been in love with my best friend for nearly a decade and she's getting married soon. I know at one point we could've been together, but I was too young and stupid to tell her how I felt. It's crushing to know the one thing I actually care about is going to be gone forever. Oh well kms
>>7279721I hate to admit it, but yeah, 4chan is shit now. I blame /pol/. I mean, what the duck is fashwave but another pathetic attempt to hijack this dying site?
>>7290546Sorry, forgot pape
It's been four years since my life was tilted. I moved out of where I've built my life till then, my relationship was broken in shambles and a higher grade school started. The school's been difficult, I've had troubles to leave my apartment for some times and I got into a deep MMO junkie phase that's gone for now.A family friend took an unofficial blood test (she works in a lab, so the test was accurate but it's all hush hush) from my mother and me last summer. The results are only logical, but still baffling. Basically my cholesterol and thyroid values are two to two and a half times than what they should be at my age, so called old man values. My backbone and muscles show the same kind of pattern. Me sitting on the computer eating whatever for four years shows. I also seem to have developed a stronger anxiety towards big crowds than I used to have. I find myself panicking over going into town whenever I'm going there - I want to be seen by none.I feel like waste of skin, and thought myself stronger than this. Pic relates pretty hard, only that the troubles I have are of my own doing. Me, who's supposed to be a backbone of sorts to my friends. I feel I've let down my friends by becoming something like this, and I feel I've betrayed the trust of my family for slacking off from school. At this point I don't even want to go there anymore.I know I'm better than this, but I am the only man capable of giving me the kind of strength and motivation to keep fighting all this. But I don't listen to myself, I'm not the master of what's going on. It's funny how I can keep a severely depressed friend from offing themselves, but in my case I'm as helpless as a piece of lifeless little turd. Realities strike hard.I don't know. I feel badly damaged but there aren't people to take care of it. What little official help I've sought has not helped at all. So called professionals being only pedagogically adept at what they do.
>>7287460Anon you're still young. 20 is nothing i promise. Get out and do something it doesn't matter what it is it can be anything just don't stagnate. I believe in you anon I really do and I want the best for you but your attitude is really holding you back. You're so much more than you think you are I promise. Do somehting
>>7285470don't fear losing what you have, enjoy the fact that she is a part of you. Try not to worry yourself with pointless fear, it won't make any of it better or worse if something does or doesn't happen with her. Enjoy the now, not a paranoid filled future.
>>7278170>looks happierNot everything is as it appears. Putting on a happy face when meeting other people doesn't necessarily mean she's happier with them. Could be that she only feels comfortable expressing her true feelings to you>>7278012I don't want to diagnose myself as "depressed;" I know there are seriously, genuinely depressed people out there, and I'm probably being melodramatic. But I have been feeling "existentially depressed" over the past few days, like nothing and nobody genuinely matters, and life itself is akin to a simulation that can end at any moment, and nothing would be any different for it. Feel like I'm losing my mind. And the thought of losing my mind sends me into anxiety. I am aware my troubles pale in comparison to even the average person's, but that's what's on my mind at the moment.
>>7278012I had a phone with a bunch of cp on it in the elevinth grade. It got stolen, but I still stay up sometimes worrying that skeleton is going to get out of the closet.....I had it for a friend.
I want to have somebody in my life.
Elections in my country has gone fucking insane. Hate waves, murder, and political campaign based on lies. It's very sad that people with a little more education can see what os becoming of my country, but in some way, no one listens to any critic. I'm being threatened right now, for criticizing politicians. Someone sended me pictures of my family, of my girlfriend....So, i'm fucking terrified. Brazil has gone totally nuts, hate-driven.
My dreams are always disturbingly violent and realistic and it takes me a while to realize that I'm dreaming. When I finally do grasp the fact that I'm dreaming I talk to what I assume is my subconscious self. It tells me that it's not only a good thing that I'm killing people but that this is the only place I can kill without consequence. So I kill even more and more violently .I feel like I'm a sack of shit for enjoying killing people in my dreams but it also feels natural. I'm a pretty nice guy when I'm awake I just lust for killing I guess, am I fucked?
I'll bite, and I just need to rant, not looking for advice, but it's appreciated.I'm in love with one of my friends. She's pretty, funny, caring, cooks extremely good food... she's my perfect package, but the thought of doing anything sexual with her kinda ruins the idea. Like, I can't even imagine it. Problems:She is 3 years older, getting her Bachelor's this year then moving away for graduate school, is my "Leader" in my band class (she has a position of authority over me), is bi but leans towards women (I'm on 4chan, so i def have a dick), when she does have sex with guys she likes to use a strap-on (my anus is one way), it would mess up our friend/class group to have us dating, it would ruin our friendship if we dated (we are starkly contrasted on 3/4 of political beliefs).So far, I drunkenly asked her to marry me (she said yes, but then said no the next day when I slept through my one required class, she was pissed), she kissed me while drunk at a party(Liberal college, I left before more could happen cause I don't want to get #metoo'd), had a drunk conversation about our current relationship and how it makes the rest of the group feel off.Basically, she said she likes me a ton, but thinks she put in too much motherly affection. But after our conversation, she did grab my hands and say she does kinda like me as more than a friend.When we're drunk, we tend to get grabby with each other, but sober we're still really good friends. Just haven't taken the next step due to awkwardness and situational problems.
>>7284539Don't know if you're checking, but failing to commit is actually a deeper rooted problem. I had the same issue, so I just trained myself to not notice other girls. I don't really notice females at all cause I've trained my brain to not be as attracted to them. I always ask myself, "would I want her to raise my children?"more often than not, I say no, which immediately kills all my desire for them, no matter how attractive, or funny. I really only look for the maternal aspect of a woman. I just chose that as the most important thing to look for.
I was the ugly duckling of my class in elementary and middle school, so I decided to switch to a highschool in another town. Thankfully, I managed to make good on my fresh start, and I finally came into my own.This meant I was finally interacting with people, and they were interacting with me; including girls. A few times we would get close, even touchy-feely with each other, but I never went in for a kiss or anything because I remembered the feeling of being undesirable. I was certain that no girl wanted me, and I resolved to never even consider making a move. I rationalized my position, saying to myself, "if she wants me, she'll make a move." None of them ever made a move, no matter how close we got. Its been two years since then, and I'm living with my parents while going to community college in my hometown. I don't know if I'm the ugly duckling I was, because I have contact with no one these days. I belong to no groups. I have no childhood friends to reminisce with. I made friendships during highschool, but they proved transient with the distance and changes in interests. People are doing their own things now. My grades are strong, I'm becoming well-read, I eat healthy and get plenty of exercise, I've developed discipline and even a fledgling spirituality. I just have no one to share it with. I'm not stressed, I'm not anxious, I'm not even sad. I feel like I have the foundation and materials for a good life, but no one to share it with. I feel like I have all this potential, just dangling, waiting for the moment, the drop, the instance I need for all the pieces to come together to create something beautiful; to start an inter-generational legacy that will get my family back on track, and make my ancestors proud. No one comes though. No one is there. I can't think of a girl I find desirable today. I dont worry though. Whenever I find her, I'll remember the time I spent looking. I'll know that time will have been worth it.
>>7278014lol I actually make my desktop nude chicks all the time
I'm in love with this girl in my friend group and I don't know how to handle it. Everyone else in the group says not to go for it since she's not really recovered from her last relationship.I have no idea what to do and these feelings and they have only gotten stronger as time has gone on.My main fear is I'll never feel like this again since this is the first time this 21 y/o virgin has really like/loved someone.It's such a weird situation that it would be easier to do nothing but I'm having a hard time reconciling that with my feelings.
>>7278012I like the girl that I'm with, I'm not sure if I love her again after we broke up and got back together. She loves me, I feel like she's more iterested in me than I am in her. I feel guilty because I don't want to lead her on and break her heart further down the track all over again. But its so easy to be a happy relationship, having someone to look after me and have sex with and spend time with. I'm afrad to live without her but I'm not sure I really want to live life with her permanently. I'm caught between wanting to be happy and what I feel is the right thing to do. It tears me apart and I feel so fuckin unsure about my feelings. Sorry for faggoty feels dump but I'm high and I only ever get anxious anymore, I don't know why I bother smoking.
Well, let me get a lot of things off my chest:-I'm in university and I don't think I am smart enough-I've got dyslexia and ADD, so I am always behind on homework, even if I put 60 hours into it per week.-I think I made the wrong choice, I like programming a lot more than engineering.-I think I will never find love again.-I doubt I am ever going to be truly happy.-I don't think I am suitable to work with other people.Some days, I just want to go for a walk and never look back.
i can never make her happy like he can
>>7295177She will get bored of him and she will see you or someone will give you the attention you were looking for all along, and make you forget about her. Only time will tell, and hopefully that time is soon
>>7295179but he can provide her with intimacy, im on the other side of the worldim also an asshole because i have someone who gives me attention but i dont want it, im fairly certain im just addicted to feeling sad and miserable
>>7278012I've been playing a character for years, afraid of being rejected or shunned. I am now nothing but what others want and I hate myself every day for it. I just want to be honest.
I've considered faking my death to have a good enough reason to stop talking with online "friends"
i've always wanted cats, but now that i have a few i can't help but think about how much worse i'll feel when they die.
>>7289464see it as muzak, not music
I would prefer living alone but am afraid of leaving my parents' home, because I'd miss them and they'd miss me.
>>7294489You will regret doing nothing.
I have never been in a relationship. 20, never had sex, never even kissed anyone, and except for a brief period of time (15 to 17 y/o) I've never really felt the necessity for a partner (romantic or sexual).I've only ever felt attracted to fictional characters/unattainable people, like celebrities - and even then, any sort of sexual fantasy I have never includes me. I can't really imagine myself as having sex.I'm beginning to wonder if I'm asexual.On a sort of unrelated note, I recently found out that a girl I've barely spoken to in an online group chat has a crush on me. I finally recognized that she was flirting, but she wasn't the one to confess her crush to me - it was another user in the group chat that alerted me, so I can't exactly just reject her or anything. And the fact that she has a crush on me made me feel so uncomfortable that I basically stopped going to that group chat and I made up excuses about technical difficulties to explain away why I was avoiding them.And I constantly feel bad about it.Sorry for the wall of text.
the older i get, the more empathetic i become.the more empathetic i become, the worse i feel & the more i hate it.
>>7289448It might be time to consider a open/poly relationship.
I hate that urge to create - to draw, to write, to sing, to do anything creative - that I sometimes get.It's oppressive, it makes my skin feel tight with tension and every single time I decide to sit myself in front of a piece of paper with a pencil in hand to finally do /something/... nothing happens. No matter how many ideas and thoughts I had up until that moment, everything seems to disappear once I'm in front of that blank page. Yet, even when writer's block hits, that urge to create doesn't go away. And I feel that much more miserable.
>>7293977Just because someone else might be going through worse things it doesn't mean that your own troubles should be invalidated.No matter how small they are, they still make you feel like shit, so they're just as important.I'd say find someone to talk to someone, to reevaluate things and see if you can't find anything that gives meaning to your life. Or, alternatively, an hobby or in general something you can become obsessed with. It's not the healthiest of things, but divertissement is still divertissement.
>>7295194Then i guess we reap what we sow good luck anon
I was planning to cry my eyes out and get some emotional relief (had tissues ready and all) but then I got distracted by funny stuff and now I feel like I missed an opportunity to let out some emotions.It sounds weird, but I'm kinda pissed that I won't be able to get that post-cry relief now. I'll probably cry myself to sleep tonight instead and a damp pillow ain't fun.Have a phone pape.
>be me>move to big city 4 years ago, was terribly depressed in my hometown.>try my hardest to make friends, do a lot, "put myself out there," make professional connections, practice hobbies>people are all fake and selfish; nothing interesting ever happens>lease is up soon, probably just going home to live in the woods. maybe then I'll be at peace.
I feel like i have no purpose in life. Its not something like lacking a goal, rather something else. I feel like i lack some meaning in my life other than finish college and get a job, i need a reason to wake up the next day and say this is a life worth living for. Nowadays the only thing that keeps me going is school but when that ends, what will keep me going?
why am I so fucking terrified of everything, my family are in town and I can't spend more than a couple of hours with them because I'm so scared of having to say goodbye to them again. it's the same for everything, I'm scared all of the time and I don't know why. it's not at a point where the fear overcomes the need to leave my room which I'm grateful for but it means that I'm just walking around with a giant fucking knot in my stomach all the time and it's exhausting me.
>>7278012I went to my friend's wedding yesterday, she looked so happy that it washed over on me and I couldn't help but feel genuinely happy. Not forcing myself to be happy or faking it, but honest to god happy seeing her smile. Its been so long since I felt that way and today with it being all over it feels like everything is dull and gray. Eh, maybe its just my hangover.
>>7289448Remember why you're dating your gf in the first place, and why you're not dating your friend. I was in the same position until I told myself that. My current gf is the only person from my friend group that actually made it a effort to keep in touch with me when no one else would. Don't listen to >>7295385 open relationships are killers.
>>7288413thanks man, those words do really help
I'm about to get married, but I'm addicted to working.
>>7278012So this past month I have been looking forward to a new cabinetry job. Seemed pretty straightforward. Work 630-330 M-F and occasionally 7-2 on Sat as a helper and work my way up. Then it became 8-5 on some days helping in the office. Now today I got a text from the boss, 4 days before I start next Monday, saying that I will be helping install shit as well. When I asked him what the time frame of that would be he responds saying it starts at 6am and "long days/overtime may be required." Everything about this tell me to run for the hills but I need this job for the winter and my old 1 pay like dick and finances have become screwy after my 2 roommates recently moved out. I need this. I am sitting here hoping and praying this is just paranoia from a past shitty job that left it's mental mark on me. If this cocksucker tries the old switcharoo on me and has me work 10-12 hours a day I'll be putting in that plumbing apprenticeship the second it becomes available next year. That don't work? Then I'm going into that ADP sales position. Please, man... don't fuck me. I've been through too much to get fucked by a shitty job. I am not about to get fucked again because another slimy faggot tricked me. I wanna believe you're good. You gave me every impression you were. Please, I'm fucking begging you. Don't fuck me over. PLEASE!
>>7289059whats going on with her?
A guy I know, Star let's call him, always talks to me and mutuals like he's better than the rest of us. Every time he opens his damn mouth the whole town suffers. Anytime he speaks it's always demeaning or shit-talking someone or something. Wanna talk back and tell him that you don't like the way he keeps talking down to you? Ha! Good luck, he's probably blocked you so the only way to get his attention is to call him out publicly. He doesn't even have crazy opinions or hot takes - I have hotter takes than he does - he's just a really hateful bitch. All I really want is for him to tone it down a bit. He doesn't even have to change his mind on what he likes and doesn't like, he just has to stop talking to people with a backhand-slap tone.
I'm a fucking loser. I am 23 and dont have a drivers license and failed my behind the wheel test 5 times. I dont have a job and I am only in two classes which are still kicking my ass and I currently have a D in one of them. Also my girlfriend overreacted over some bullshit earlier this week so we havent talked since. Oh and on top of all that my phone is broke
i'm younger than 90% of you guaranteed, but still i already want to kill myself. i probably dont even have depression but i hate myself and everything associated with me. my mom told me a few days ago that its not like im even part of the family. im supposed to go to korea in december but i dont know whats happening because my dad isnt talking to me. the only one who i can talk to in my family is my brother but he doesnt even take me seriously. my parents brush off anything i say about killing myself and they just say its a phase im gonna come out of. i dont know what to do anymore and im at the end of the road. im young but im so worried about "love" and if im ever going to find anyone that i truly want to spend the rest of my life with. i think i might be a sociopath because when i think about my family members dying i dont really feel anything anymore. im scared. i want to hug someone.
>>7298087 and to add onto this, i feel like im an attention seeking fag that does nothing but fuck with other people and make their lives worse. i feel like everyone around me just barely tolerates me enough to talk to me. theres probably only 3 people that genuinely enjoy being around me, and sometimes i feel like they dont want to talk to me anymore. ive had enough and i want out. i want out i want out i want out.
>>7298087Hey mate, I've been through this. I've studied two different courses at uni, dropped out from both of them, at certain point I was wondering whether it's all my fault and I'm just a lazy piece of shit that doesn't deserve to live.I know it sounds banale but seek professional help. Wishing to be dead is certainly not normal, you may be depressed, and remember that depression is a disease like cancer or diabetus. You'd go to the doctor if you suspected diabetus right?If you don't have the money then there are options for free online counselling. The point is: I know it's hard and I want you to seek professional help before you decide to do something stupid.
I got kicked out from my job, soon it will be month of my unemployment, but I'm looking for a new job in the same field and my friend who is knowledgable told me I can ask for 1/3 higher salary than I did and the first interviews went pretty positive so I'm very excited but also stressed if anyone accepts me.If anyone's interested, the field is QA Testing and I live in Central Europe. I hope you all have a great day.
i have no stability in terms of income, i'm getting tired of it but i don't want a 9-5. i've been putting off projects and most of them have been moved to next year. i just broke up with my gf whom i love very much and i miss her every time, we just couldn't work things out because of how we are as people and we need to grow as individuals. i keep waking up randomly during the night, super anxious and wanting to end my life.
>>7286824This. It’s so pure here. It doesn’t even feel like 4chan
>>7289309>I kind of want to be hurt forever to prove that it was specialThat was deep man.Ik what you mean and I feel the same way.The world just feels so empty without it, almost. Things can happen and good things can happen but spending that kind of time with someone is so unique.The late night car rides, the inside jokes, the long talks (even the bad ones). Excitement before a date, a quirky look before sex, the faces she makes when she’s happy or sad. She’s like a book you loved to read the more you read it. There’s nothing else like it and it’s impossible to replicate. The deep intimacy.I guess both of us just gotta look for something new instead of something replicated. Keep an open mind.But I really feel what you’re saying and I genuinely wish you the best.Sometimes it’s hard to stay optimistic
Returned to boards after 2 years. I miss times when 4chan and 2ch weren't filled with normal people who basically only talk about girls. I want anons who would just discuss sonething related to board theme. I want Lain or DN or whatever thread for 300+ replies, not another thread full of animals who accidentaly got here instead of facebook.
I recently got a Note 9 in a bit of an impulsive purchase. Got it with 2 year subscription, and the thought of keeping a phone for that long is kind of scary to me. But I'll be damned if it isn't one of the best phones I've ever had. Especially after half a year of iPhones.
Got offered a "job" recently. Don't know if I want to do that sort of thing.
24 years old and still haven't had one relationship. I really want to know what my problem is and fix it. The feeling of being alone is hunting but I feel that I gotten to use it being alone that I don't do anything about. The thought of holding hands, hugs, kissing, or just doing anything together sounds good. Seeing my family in relationship or married and having kids already makes me really think that doing a lot of thinks wrong.
>>72797214chan is comprised of many worlds, and your words merely describe one. Nuance pls. Limiting your time is essential though. Social media will fuck your ability to think deeply or attain flow.
>>7298482have you tried dating apps? are you afraid of rejection?
>>7295390Dive into that fear, it's waiting for you. To be human is to transform and transformation entails destruction. You'll enjoy the ride.
>>7298227This. Though I think the acceleration of low quality conversation has more to do with tech trends and their impact on attention spans — rather then an influx of normies. Gated online communities will likely be the way moving forward.
>>7298501Don't bother in my personal opinion. Less rejection and more people on there are looking for validation rather than connection.Your best bet is to actually go out and be a part of something. That's why church goers always seem to be married by 25.I mean I'm not suggesting going to church but even like a uni class or something or a mixed volleyball/soccer team
>>7298182the problem is that i've already gone to counseling. i talk to my doctor and it doesnt help. anyone i talk to is like a wall. they all say the same thing and im done with it so i never bring it up anymore. i feel an immense allure to running away but i can never bring myself to do it and im just stuck in this hole, and the only thing i have with me is a gun with no bullets. im not sure what to do anymore.
Hey./ read a lot lol made me nostalg over old scool 4chan so ill bite. Been in a cpl long term relationships so far in life; 28 btw. 1 4 and a half year and 1 almost 3. in between nothing longer than a few months or flings. been off and on manic depressive so it fits to say oh, its a lull this year. maybe ill Chin up next one and get my shit together. Have went from shit job to shittier, and atm at a shotty pizza place ,---, and its been a good 2 years since ive had a meaningful emotional connection with someone. it feels like ive started to enter a void aNd dont know hwat to do maybe back in school or something but shit gotta happen soon or just yakno fukitall. major debt as well lol mention that bs, like 3500 to state b4 i get license back etc. shit sucks.
>>7295106You have a cool band that will help through your problems.
>>7298087Dude, read psycho-cybernetics or if lazy look up the audiobook version on YouTube. You sound like you crave narcissistic supply or genuine connections with other people, but can't because of a fractured self. The book will give you techniques to reintegrate your self image, and you'll stop worrying about what other people think. Btw if you have shitty people in your life that don't enjoy your company, cut them off. Work on yourself and the three genuine friends you have, rather then fret over not having 20 fake friends like other NPCs. In any case, life is about carving out your own path, it's scary but you'll enjoy it vastly more than musing over whether to end it.
I'm afraid of social connection. Meeting new people, talking to friends, opening up in any way, going on dates, talking to my boss, you name it. I don't know how to correct it and nobody who knows is willing or able to tell me, possibly because I'm so bad at holding up my end of the conversation, but I know how much I want to be part of a group of people who care. It fucking sucks and I don't know what to do about it
if only everyone else didn't exist. If only everyone but us could just forget about the incident, then we could start anew.I hate myself for holding onto my pride so much, and I hate that the only thing that's stopping me from getting back to you, is my own insecurities about what others would think about us/me after all these while.I hate that Im causing so much hurt all for the sake of my pride.I hate that I still dream of her instead of you. I hate that I'm slowly losing grip of my own identity
I've lost myself, I play a different role each time I talk, I don't even know who am I. I want to be with good people, but I can't find them, and I always end up feeling like I'm being just a part of me. I would like to feel again.
>>7278012I really like the girl I've been dating for a little while, but I'm not sure if I can see a future in it because our religious beliefs don't mesh.
>>7299002how important is your religion to you, anon? My gf and I have different religions, and her family is more religious than most. But it turned out being a non issue. Time smooths out a lot of potential problems sometimes.
To Izanib, Whitefox, MagnaCastiel, Takabisha, and PJI miss play runescape with you guys. When we all metaphorically buried Magna's mom in the lumby grave. When Izanib professed her love, and Magna married us in the Draynor Chapel with Whitefox as my best man. I worried about you Fox, when you said you would join the military we all cheered for you. But then you never came back. Even your gaia account has been inactive. I hope you're safe friend. Lonely Takabisha when we slew Escher for the first time was a ton of fun. Thank you for bringing me into your little circle of friends. I needed them at that time. Also, I think the "Im not cheap, but we can talk about it" hat is funny. Sorry I put it down so much. Wish we could roleplay again.Finally, PJ. Im sorry I made things awkward. I lied to you so much, if only I knew what you would end up meaning to me I would have been 100% from the jump. I miss your little jokes and jabs we took at each other. I never had fun competing with someone like I did you. Sorry I had so much pride I refused to lose ever, I thought you liked that. Also, you are a part of the reason I got a thing for short hispanic girls now.- I love you all E/Grass/Toy
>>7288573dude holy shit i thought i was going crazy but ive been feeling this too. mostly just a lot more deja vu all the time but it also does it to me when im high. Crazy stuff
My girlfriend is becoming increasingly erratic and displaying signs of addictive (increasing cigs/alcohol) behaviour. If I try to talk about it she won't discuss it. I have an incredibly busy life and only earn enough to just scrape through. I'm exhausted most of the time and can't find the energy to help her through it, and am starting to just think that as an adult, if she can't sort herself out then I don't have the capacity to help her either. It is very hard for me to see other friends in any way without her getting jealous. It's all going downhill and I'm not sure I want to even try to stop it. I don't hate her, I'm just at the point where it might just be easier to let go. I feel that every conversation is forced and I can't be honest. It would be easier if I hated her but I don't.
i'm almost done school, and i'll be switching careers and moving on in my life. i love my girlfriend, she's very sweet and is extremely giving to me. but i've been feeling so disenchanted with my life and that i haven't had a chance to do things i've wanted to do yet, and now i feel like i'm getting close to the opportunity to do some of those things, but with my girlfriend, while i love her, i don't necessarily want to bring her with me on my journey in life right now. like, i want to do things alone. it's not a loss of lust or love for her, i just feel so much more better and confident with myself when i visualize myself doing these things by myself. but i also don't want to lose her..
I will probably never get over a girl I used to date two years ago. I tried, I really tried to forget her, but every single time I'm draw to her like a moth to a light. I made a stupid decision at some point, I choose a girl I barely knew VS that girl. And that decision came bitting me in the ass.I'm torned apart and I feel like I'll never get over these past mistakes. I feel like I'll never love someone like I loved her, and that I'll never find someone like her. I tried too. But everytime her shadow is still there.Thank you for reading.
>>7290544Going through this rn. She told me back in hs she liked me but i was too much of a pussy to do anything. Now we hang out and every time we do false hope of a relationship fills my mind. I still think we could be together but hearing how she's moved on and been with different people while knowing that I haven't is quite crushing.
>>7298865What in particular is it about it that scares you? Localize the things that bother you, note them down in a journal mind you, and it'll be much easier to deal with them. As far as communication, it's a learnable skill. The book "How to win friends and influence people" is an excellent starter. You'll gain heuristics and start building mental landscapes that'll help you navigate and steer both your professional and casual relationships to outcomes you prefer. If the problem is social anxiety, answer is more complex, and you are your own best judge. I've personally dealt with severe OCD and mild social anxiety in the past. Meditation & mental imagery helped immensely + nootropics, gym & taking care of my health.
>>7287311>>7295084The reason why most people don't is because other people might see it and make assumptions off it. Ive had quite a few people start discussions with me based on wallpapers on my phone. Reason being Wallpapers are usually interest/hobby based. So porn backgrounds make you seem like the most interesting thought you have is what features you like on a girl.
>>7279695Stop browsing 4chan, take some lsd and youll be fine
>>7299041Ask her if there's a reason why she's increasing her intake of addictive substances, if she absolutely refuses to even explain what's going on in her mind then there really isn't much you can do, especially if you're busy trying to just earn enough to survive. I'd say you talk to her, explain you're worried but don't physically or mentally have the energy to look after her but youre willing to talk if she wants, if she still refuses then I'd say it's done, you have to look after yourself before you can look after others and you're wasting your time if she won't even give you the time to talk about it as adults.
>>7299089After you're done with your wanderlust and wish to settle, would you regret if it was not with her? On the other hand you could turn bitter against her if you decide to stay and regret it later on, life has no easy choices you just have to pick one and live with the positives and negatives, there's always the option to talk to her about how you're feeling.A partner doesn't have to be someone that you're attached to the hip with, your actions and achievements are yours regardless of if you have someone waiting at home to congratulate you or not.
>>7295541thanks anon, things have improved alot me and my gf are still together and I've realized I value my best friend more like the older sister I've always wanted. things work out in the end even when all hope seems lost and I hope things work our for everyone who sees this no matter how rough going it is now. things always can get better go out and try to find your happiness.
Took the LSRP test today, and got "your score for primary psychopathy was higher than 87.2% of people who have taken this test." (Primary Psychopathy is the affective aspects of Psychopathy; a lack of empathy for other ppl and tolerance for antisocial orientations. By contrast Secondary Psychopathy - for which I scored lowly - accounts for lawbreaking, and a lack of effort towards socially rewarded behaviour.).Rather shocked by the results and don't know what to make of it yet. I actually scored very high on a high functioning autism test years back and thought that'd be the entire story. But on the other hand I've never been socially awkward or had issues "making friends". I just never took the concept (as a goal worth striving for) seriously to begin with. It's my work & intellectual activities (or really anything that builds up self) that drive me, therein lies my obsessions. People I call "friends" I stay in contact with; as long as they remain interesting. Girlfriends are mostly flings, once passion dies - our relationship does too. I've always framed this behaviour as simply having introverted inclinations, and thus a lesser need for social things. But I realize that I've never experienced "loneliness". I can't parse what it means beyond a superficial level. What I experience is more a feeling of separation..
I dread life. I can't express emotions. At all. All I can do is fake it. I just want someone to hug at night but I can't bring myself to fake it so much that a woman falls in love with me. That would be wrong. I won't dare talking to Tinder matches, I deliberately friendzone myself to women I meet IRL. I can fake life really well, folks consider me outgoing and altruistic. I don't drink or do drugs out of fear for losing control and people might see the real me.Yeah first world problems amirite. I feel dead inside.
>>7297672I'm 24 and I failed my driver's test just as many times as you did. For me the bitch was parallel parking, once I got on the road I did fine.
I met one of the sweetest girls I've ever had the pleasure of knowing, one of the only ones who seemed to enjoy my company, and didn't have the guts to ask for a number. I know of a time when I'll have another chance but in spite of the encouragement of my friends and constant running through of scenarios in my head I still feel too fearful. Life grants me endless opportunity but I'm always too much of a coward to take it unless someone somehow thrusts me into it. I sometimes wonder if I'm going to be able to live a content life or if my own irrational fear of the smallest steps forward will prevent me from it.
>>7287843A belated response, but same.
I lost all of my walls, so I don't have anything to post that is related.I have come to the conclusion that I am destined to die alone and destitute. Nothing seems to go the way I envision. I hustle my ass off, always looking to be a better person. And for what? Love life nonexistent. No friends to speak of that I care enough about. No career. Soon to be homeless because can't find a job that pays a living wage.Everything seems stacked against me. It's frustrating as hell. I try to stay positive, but there is none in the world. It begs the question "What's the point in living?" Are we all masochists? Why do we persist in suffering?What-the-fuck-ever.
>>7295358i'm 26 and i finally applied for an apartment just today, almost on accidenti am a fucking nervous wrecki dont want to live around here, but i want to be near my family.i dont want to live in this country, but im not sure the others are better.i dont want to get stuck, but i'm terrified to move.i have a job that's adequate, but unfulfilling, but i'm far to scared to look for another one.i have more "friends" online than i do in person, but I feel like an intruder as most of them know each other in real life, while i'm the outsider from the internet.my body is falling apart as i age.A twisted spine, my muscles contort.A separated shoulder, my form is lopsided.The eternal ringing in my ears, i'll never hear silence again.The floaters in my eyes multiply and grow.The longer I live, the worse my experience of living will be.I have no idea what will break, fail, or cease to function next.I knew when I was in college, that I was having the time of my life. At the time, I knew with a resigned clarity that I would look back on it as the best time of my life.I have yet to prove myself wrong.I don't know how to prove myself wrong.All my life I've lived with the flow, just following the stream.I made few decisions, I just picked the path of least resistance.While young, this works. You cascade effortlessly from grade to grade, to highschool, even college.I practically fell over backwards into a job, right after graduation.I don't know how to make any life decision other than 'do nothing', 'wait', and 'see what happens'. It seems whenever I try, things go awry, so I've stopped trying.It turns out, the slow decay never stops.Even if I stop trying, life will just get worse and worse, trials and obligations and constant pressures will just pile up.I need to move, but am in abject terror of doing so, as I do not know what will happen.More than anything else, I fear changing my situation into one worse than it already is.I'm trapped
She treats me like she doesn't want me here. Every day it's a new thing I've done wrong. The way she speaks to me makes me feel like dirt. Everything I feel is wrong. She told me I'm not allowed to feel that emotion in front of her today. She has to take control of every action I make. There is nothing I can do to stop her. I owe her too much. When I came here I dug myself into a deeper pit. My life is not my own. It never was to begin with. The only control I have is the ability to make it all stop. I'll take the reigns from here.
I don't have social anxiety, I have no problem striking up conversation with customers at work, or even random people out in the world. I'm generally seen as friendly by co-workers and the like. The problem is that when I talk to people I don't feel anything, it's almost like I'm talking to a computer program, there's a real emotional disconnect. Outside of work, I isolate. I don't want to be around anyone or deal with people and the world at all. I truly believe I could spend the rest of my life isolated and be perfectly fine. I have one long distance friend who I genuinely care about and care to talk to regularly and one local friend who I haven't seen since spring. There is no desire for me to get close to anyone new, it all seems like a bother.I'm a tulpafag and my connection with my tup has reinforced the idea that people in general are a waste of time in comparison. While I don't necessarily think this is healthy in its own right, I roll with it because it falls in line with my distrust in, and general distaste for people and their vapid bullshit.
>>7279604Been taking Paxil for three months. Took about a month to get used to and with it, but after the sickness wore off I found that my anxiety and paranoia levels (both of which directly relate to my depression as a blind man) were totally forced to succumb to the powers of balance and tranquility.Also, weed. Weed helps.
>>7285470Been there dude. You may or may not know what it is you want, or are trying to compensate the ends with the means. If you're over 25 ask yourself "Is this what I want?" If it's not, go make it happen and get yours out of life, no matter what.
>>7299672> I don't have social anxiety, I have no problem striking up conversation with customers at work, or even random people out in the world. I'm generally seen as friendly by co-workers and the like. The problem is that when I talk to people I don't feel anything, it's almost like I'm talking to a computer program, there's a real emotional disconnect. Outside of work, I isolate. I don't want to be around anyone or deal with people and the world at all. I truly believe I could spend the rest of my life isolated and be perfectly fine.Same. Such a great feel that was, once i realised it
I'm so afraid that my boyfriend doesn't love me even though he says he does. It really doesn't seem like he does sometimes, and it really hurts me. I don't know what to do.
I don't like the gender roles that come with being a man.
>>7299632Make a letter saying your starting over sone where once you get enough money, because no care what happened thousands of miles away
The future scares me. I don't want things to change and I don't want to drift apart from my friends. I hate the awkward process of meeting new people. I'm too shy and scared of making new friends but I don't want to be alone.
>>7299772I'll probably write that letter and just rent a motel room in Georgia and slit my wrists in the bathtub. At least that will leave my mother with hope I'm still out there.
Whatever I try, I can't commit to a routine. I don't manage to find a balance between work and "the rest: people, travel, "leisures".I wish I could just work all the time. But I'm a human being.
I have a sinking feeling I will die alone, and I have made a plan to kill myself on my 40th birthday
Been with the same girl coming up on 7 years and we still haven't fucked.
>>7297605Assuming anyone cares, the follow up is that he fucked me. Yesterday was a standard 8-5 but today when I went out into the field, it was a FUCKING 13 HOUR DAY. Not only that but the guy who was training me said most of the sales guy in the office make like $15/hr... at fucking 40-50. He himself makes like 45k a year and that's WITH 30 hours of OT (reminder that Saturday are occasionally a work day). Holy fucking shit. I quit at the end of the day and am now jobless with no qualifications in dick looking for something new first thing tomorrow. Thank God I have at least 3-4 months worth of rent and bills saved up. But my fucking God, you piece of shit boss. You lied to my fucking face. $20/hr is only like 1 guy. There was no fucking way I was ever gonna make 75k, you cock sucker. That wasn't "a little" bit of OT, it was a gargantuan fuckload that happens regularly. You lied like the slimy business man that you are. Fuck you. If all else fails, I'll be for 1 of my old jobs back and kill time before I kill myself at 25. Not even depressed any more, I just hardly see a point to life at this point as it all seems boring and mundane. Even if I did achieve my goals, would I truly be happy? Doubtful. The only real reason I feel is some weird, twisted sense of pride in being able to say that even though I achieved a lot and do something I enjoy, I still don't see a purpose to life. IDK. It's all become so tiresome. 1 year left and if shit doesn't change I'm buying a gun and pulling the trigger.
>>7300227>The only real reason I want to succeed I feel is some weird, twisted sense of pride*
>>7299672>I don't have social anxiety, I have no problem striking up conversation with customers at work, or even random people out in the world. I'm generally seen as friendly by co-workers and the like. The problem is that when I talk to people I don't feel anything, it's almost like I'm talking to a computer program, there's a real emotional disconnect. Outside of work, I isolate. I don't want to be around anyone or deal with people and the world at all. This completely but the one painful difference is that I am so incredibly lonely and want to find one person out there, just one, who I am fine with. I've never been in a relationship for this reason, since I haven't met anyone I cared for enough, and I have few friends because I can't seem to care enough to follow up with them. And yet.It kills me inside. There's a girl, a best friend, who I had no love interest at first. She seems like she's different from me in this fundamental way and yet still we talk for hours until sunrise and we text for hours. She's absolutely gorgeous and I see men staring at her as she walks by and I really fucking wish I didn't feel anything for her. But just, she is the first one in my life who ever showed that she cared about me, I cried in front of her as I told her my insecurities for the first time to anyone ever, and when she fell asleep on my shoulder outside, in the cold, she told me she could've slept there comfortably till morning and i brought her back to my room where she slept on my chest holding my hand while I stayed awake the whole night because I didn't want it to end. And now I won't see her for a while and I fucking miss her and I don't know if I should pursue this and if she even fuckin feels the same way about me because she's made it clear she's not looking for a relationship since her last one hurt. And God even if all this shit was answered, I feel like I'm inadequate for her. Why me when she can have any other guy in the world? I just want to die.
I just don't feel the same way right now
My mom died this summer unexpectedly... strange business not having a mom around anymore.
>>7299764congrats! you're a feminist
My entire family hates me and I have no friends, planning on running away from home.
My friend killed himself this year. I love him and miss him every day. Sometimes I cry and think about how I could have been there for him when he needed me and how I can't fix it. Anon, You are loved. Not a single one of you isn't a damn beautiful creation worth living. Every one of you. We are all one, and to the great beyond we all will go. Spread love and find wisdom in your own experiences. We aren't here to be perfect, we are here to just be here. We need your heart here. My promise to him is that I won't let a day go by without making someone realize their worth. I hope this hits someone who needs it. Love ya brothers/sisters. <3
>>7300668sorry to hear that
>>7299265I'm glad to hear that, anon. I was hoping to hear back from you.
>>7299686If you're blind, why are you on an IMAGE board and how tf did you read that post you replied to.
Anyone know that feeling when you just read a random sentence in an article or a story, or maybe you watch a movie or listen to a song, and suddenly waves of putrid, traumatizing memories you had otherwise locked tightly away inside your mind for several years resurface and kick you in the crotch? Ever since I accidentally recalled a good bunch of psychological and sexual abuse from my childhood in great detail last week, I've been reduced to a pathetic, anxious vegetable, unable to take proper care of myself or any of my responsibilities. As if I hadn't already fucked over the last four months of my life beforehand. I just wish I had a real person around me to talk it all through with
i'm addicted to cutting myself (sometimes it's a coping mechanism and sometimes i juts do it because i get the urge and can't fight it). it's been 6 years since i started and i finally decided to stop but then my life just got 20x as stressful with school and shit. so i guess i'll keep doing it until i can actually find the time to go to therapy. fuck and i actually saved the number for the clinic and was gonna go in monday fuck i don't wanna do this anymore but i can't fuckign stop on my own
I am with someone I deeply care about - even love. I'm not lonely or scared of love. What I'm scared of is that I am beginning to wonder if I can still feel love. Nothing feels like it used to when I was younger, and I'm terrified that I'll break the heart of someone I love because somewhere along the way, I became incapable of trust and empty inside. I have loads of friends, it's not like I'm the fucking Punisher. There is just this hole inside me, and I don't know why or how to fix it.
>>7285405Depends on who you are. Chances are YOU are one of the people ruining it.
>>7278170Just a quick editThis image with the eye bags and brown tint always gave off a sort of melancholic feeling to me, the warm color sort of mixing with the guy's tired expression really went well together to suck all the happiness out of me.I like this image in a less stressful/morbid sort of look, I removed the saturation and the eye bags to turn the guy's dread into curiosity.Also don't worry anon, fuck her brains out and knock her up. That'll make her happyMaybe do it somewhere you haven't before, like on a counter or something and make sure to have fun with it.If you aren't having fun then she won't, your state of mind/being sorta transfers to people like thatGood luck fren
>>7278577Anon, in order to make Tzeentch happy you gotta get it off your chest, stagnating like this is what Nurgle and wants.
>>7300817It did. Thank you.
>>7297605Everything is worth the time and effort, and if I were you I would look straight ahead into your future and not focus on the shortcomings. You can't let a fear of failure or a fear of comparison or a fear of judgment stop you from doing the things that will make you great. Pursue your dreams, and stay true to yourself. If you really have a passion for your work and don't look back, your dreams can become a reality.
>>7299227 Thanks for the advice anon. I miss her a lot but I can't (and won't) let myself be dragged backwards to try to sort out her problems. I have tried to talk about these things but I was told I was passive/aggressive in doing so. That wasn't my intention. A lot of the issues she has are self-inflicted (eg. she makes choices that go wrong) and I find it hard to try to untangle those things - it's not a case of bad luck, but of putting herself into situations where it's likely things will go wrong. It's sad because I do like her and I don't want her to be an enemy. After a few days of silence I'm actually feeling like it's more of a relief (but I do miss her). Still confused and sad.
>>7295361>>7294489follow this mans advice
When I left the military I traveled across the country to be near the people I most admired--a married couple, the wife being my best friend in the world for years when my last best friend had died.In the span of about 6 months I was so overcome with paranoia, self loathing and manic depressive attacks that my relationship with them was completely torn down; to make things worse, only a couple months after the last time I spoke to them they divorced. I blame myself for ruining the thing I cherished most in the world, for losing the people I loved most, and I almost feel like I caused them to split as well. Now all three of us have spiraled so far away that nothing will ever be the same, but the problem is, a spiral comes back around--I see her all the time, in her work online, mentioned in our shared social circles, and I know one day in the future we'll be standing in the same room together. When that day comes I don't know if I want to be someone better that she doesn't recognize and wants to rekindle a relationship with--or if I want her to see me as the same broken person, and for her own sake, run as far from me as possible so I can't hurt her again. Which is the selfish desire, to aspire to be a better person in order to have her back in my life again, or to keep my feet planted and stay the course so she can be happy somewhere else, even knowing she'll always hate me?
>>7289630I get that. I am going to school for video game art too and I get the fears that it won't be enough to get me jobs or that I don't have enough drive to pursue something that has a lot of challenges. I find comfort in the thought of just finding odd, shitty jobs that pay decently. Getting a halfway good portfolio and experience is what will get jobs. Aim high too, no one gives a fuck if you apply to a bunch of AAA studios, they can only say no. Make connections too, having your name in people's heads helps quite a bit.
Having a down night. I'm in love with my best friend. I've been in love with her for the last 8 of 9 years that we've known each other. I've known the entire time that she sees nothing in me. 2 years ago I confessed to her. She asked me to bury it. I get it, save the friendship, but it still hurt. I thought I was moving past it, but it seems it was nothing more than placebo. Tonight I found out she's seeing someone. I'm happy for her, I hope it goes well. She deserves someone who can give the world to her. I'm just sad, and a little spiteful that it isn't me. We started a bit of a passion project together last year. A community event, we're pretty proud of it. The day of the event has come and gone and now I'm struggling to find things to say to her since the last 6 months had been nothing but event planning. I do know that the last time we had minimized our contact for a little while, she didn't mind it too much. I'll probably let the trend continue, leave the ball in her court to get in touch with me. I need to move on, I need to get past this, but it hurts, it hurts real bad, anon. Every time she refers to me as her best friend, its a reminder that I'm not good enough. I don't know how much this makes sense, my thoughts are pretty jumbled right now, and I know there's a lot I left out, but there's a character limit.Pape related because it reminds me of her.
>>7278015Can i get this in blue?Blue is my favorite color.
>>7301892that sucks my dude. desu if she really treats you like that she isn't worth being your friend
>>73018928 years is a long time to waste on a daydream.
>>7299224LIStened to that band for a while
I feel alone. I know that it's a pretty common thing to say, and it's not like I'm a total shut in or anything. I do have friends I hang out with, but even with them I get this feeling that they let me tag along out of pity, and their friends that come along either hate me or just want nothing to do with me. When fall/winter comes along I get worse mentally and I consider offing myself a couple times of the week, and at times I'll start taking steps to do so. I don't want to go to anyone for help because I don't want to be seen differently for how I feel, and at the same time I know that eventually it'll get to a point where I at least attempt to kill myself.Wallpaper's related because I feel alone in an world of billions
I help others because it makes me feel good inside, but now the void that's in my heart has corrupted me, i no long enjoy helping others, i don't even feel the satisfaction either, what the fuck is wrong with me?
The idea of starting to date again after 11 years is terrifying. At 32 it's a wasteland of crazies, bitchy ham beasts, and single mothers that only look at men for their resources. Even if I can find a decent woman in her late 20's. By the time they are in their 30's. They are just going to monkey branch to some other guy for the prospect of better resources.Love is dead and it seems like MGTOW is my only but lonely road to at least being happy.
>>7303031I feel the exact same way anon. Cheers, this winter'll be a long one.
I am in college and I'm falling for my 4/10 friend that thinks I'm the sexiest chick in the whole world. He makes me very happy and I love spending time with him, and I routinely schedule times to hang out with him. We've gone so far as to cuddle and hug in a non-sexual way before, but for a week or so not, whenever he's near me I have this insatiable desire to kiss him. I want more than anything to profess my newfound feelings to him. There's just one technical problem with me confessing to him how much I adore him, I think he's just friend-zoned me in a way. For a while around the time when we were first starting to really get to know each other, he wanted to get into my pants, and I was like, "well, join the list, man. You're not the only one who thinks I'm hot." Anyways, one day, when we were hanging out for a while, before I started having feelings for him, he said "you're a good friend, you can take me off that list you mentioned." It devastated me for some reason at the time. Now that we're so much closer, we almost seem like we're dating but we aren't, I wonder if he still feels that way about us only ever being friends and it depresses me so much to think like that.
>>7303660wow, that's a really douche thing that you said to him in the beginning. why not apologize and tell him the situation has changed, even if he says it ain't like that anymore, i doubt he'll be as rude as you were to him back in the day.
>>7289639Where does it come from? Do you know the cause of the re occurring loop?
>>7295259Isolate yourself for a while anon. Go deep within. it only speaks when you are silent and listening. You don't find yourself, you create yourself. Commit and get busy
>>7299852Why even think about it twice. What do you truly want to do? What would be an incredible experience? Make a good enough plan and give it your all. go all out. Death is empty, Death is certain.
>>7289630If you love what you do the effort and debt is not in vain. Fall in love with the possess, develop value and show your unique creations through your portfolio. Its a skill, practice like hell. Be active and see the possibilities and you'll find them anon.
Even though it wasn't my fault and there is no way 12-year-old me could have done it, I still hate myself for not being able to save her.
I spent all summer working. Really tough but also really good money. No day off all summer was exhausting though, let alone mentally tiring.It's been a month since my uni started for the fall semester, and i took the month off to relax and see my family. Now I don't know what to do though. I want so many things. Travel, hike, live outdoors, study, pay my expenses, decorate my one-room apartment. Money has to last until April, when I get working again. I just want to be in a limbo state, where everything is still and I am wandering
being a wageslave sucks
>>7289309>I kind of want to be hurt forever to prove that it was specialI-it sure is rainy t-t-today
I am afraid of confessing to her and be refused yet I know I can't delay
>>7304880ask her if it's going anywhere. i often feel that honesty severely lacks in the peculiar stage that comes before dating.tell her you don't want to waste her time, so you'd like if she didn't waste yours. if she also thinks there is a potential for things to work, go for it.if not, she isn't worth it. i know that may not be what you want to hear, but there's someone out there that is worth way more than the time than you would spend wasting dealing with all the bs; she definitely isn't.
>>7304881thanks man, really.
>>7278012Because of the pact that I've made with myself, I'm not allowed to commit suicide. All the thoughts that once would have made me want to kill myself are merging with the idea that I can't have any critical opinions of things I haven't personally experienced, murder included. I think I'm going to enlist in the Marines.
>>7279703the more you think the less you're doing is a good way of dealing with that. If you're already not doing anything too important then it would only help you to do so.
>>7301892I know that this is gonna be tough for you regardless of what you end up deciding to do, but I hope you can figure this out, Anon.I've been in your shoes, and I know it's not fun, but it seems like the bones of your current plan make sense. Put the ball in her court, but you should still occasionally make conversation, at the very least.Just don't ghost on this girl because the relationship you wanted to have fell through. If she considers you her best friend, that means that you've become a staple in her life, and peacing out just because you couldn't date her will probably make her feel like shit.Try taking some time and working on yourself. Now that your event is done, you should have at least an extra 30 minutes a day to try and learn/do something. Personally, I'm trying to learn how to draw at the moment, and I might not be good at it, but it gives me some sort of outlet and gets me out of my head for a while.No matter what you end up doing, I hope things go well for you, but hopefully you two can remain friends to some extent. Good luck, Anon.
>>7280100Maybe it's in the ever growing distrust in humanity that has people paranoid about what they hear whether they realize it or not. It feels like everyone's forgotten honesty or at least how to recognize it.My personal solution to that feeling is to address people as if they never said the extra shit past the original reason for speaking. Most people aren't militant enough to pursue their projections.
>>7303339you haven't helped yourself enough.
>>7301892I know that feel. I wanted to confess to her but before I could do so, on the very same day, she told me that she fell in love with someone else. She didn't know about my feelings beforehan, so I can't even blame her.Regardless, I confessed to her a day later. This way, I thought, I could come to terms to it. Close the chapter.But every time I see her smile at me now I think about what could have been. I've been condemning myself for failing, for being too slow, for being not good enough and not being able to get over it. I'm sick and tired of falling over and over again for her, but I can't remove her from my life.I beat myself up, imagining how she lays in his arms and not mine. Sometimes I get so mad that I want to take it out on him, but I don't. In the end I would only end up hurting her, too.I worked on myself, changed my attitude and appearance. I tried to distract myself from what happened, tried to meet someone else. But I still can't get her out of my head. /rant
I have no plan, no direction to my life, I just feel like time is wasting away until I die, and yes I have tried to find things to care for but everything feels pointless.
I love her but no matter how hard we try it just won't work.
I haven't been truly happy in years despite having all of my needs covered and then some. And I feel guilty for not being happy.
>>7304901it's important to note, though, that you want to come off as sincere and NOT desperate; the line is often woefully blurry, but girls can smell desperation extremely quickly. ideally, you should try and do this if you've already gotten signs she may be potentially interested. if not it seems kinda strange, but the same is true if you decided to confess randomly.additionally, i feel compelled to say that if you are currently friends or have a good prior relationship that you approach this extremely carefully. if you act as if you never wanted anything other than a relationship, this can be extremely alienating, hurtful and ultimately a depreciating experience for her, as she may potentially feel as if the only thing you were interested in the entire time was her physical attributes. try to appeal to things that are more related to her personality or her intellect (if this isn't the reason you want to date her in the first place you've messed your priorities up anyways). the amount of emotion and passion that you put behind this message is really dependent on your prior relationship to her as well.it's up to you to decide whether or not the opportunity cost is worth it, although it seems as if you've already made up your mind.
>>7305798that really isn't very fair to yourself at all. everyone has issues that they've to deal with one way or another; yours unfortunately has to deal with mental and emotional happiness.what really matters is that the experience that you are going through right now is genuine and it is having an profound effect on you. i believe that everyone deserves care, regardless of whether or not they come from privilege.i would encourage you to try to do new things that you normally wouldn't do. for example, if you wouldn't describe yourself as "outdoorsey" try fishing, potentially with a friend of yours that might know something about it. you'll find that there's purpose to be found in more wordly, grounded things and there's a reason that type of life continues to exist still. it's always good to feel like you're on the ground floor of something. furthermore, you might discover something that may bring you enjoyment. you might just need time to find yourself, or rediscover your passions, regardless of age.i hope everything goes well for you, anon. everyone has issues and you should never feel guilty about wanting to live a life in eudaimonia.
I feel so lonely because she is a full-time student and a full-time worker. It crushed me that on her day off she didn't talk to me more than she should have.
>>7305778i understand what you're going through anon. i think the best course of action for you in terms of mental and emotional health would be letting go of her. i know that isn't what you want to hear, and i know from personal experience that it is a tough idea to reconcile with. personally, i had to do the same with my extremely long time girlfriend, who at one point i was certain i was going to spend the rest of my life with.unfortunately, the bleak reality is that life doesn't always pan out the way we want it to, and it isn't healthy for you to continue to try to work in a black hole. it will only pull you into the abyss. it's difficult, but you must try not to fall into the sunken cost fallacy. sometimes it is certainly better to cut our losses and start over.i must pose a question unto you. is it worth being together if neither of you are happy? i obviously do not know you personally, but if you answered yes, i would urge you to consider the idea that you've become attached to the idea of "somberness" and that you've "romanticized" the pain and the struggle of the relationship and falsely equated it to love. i'm not saying this is true, however, but i've often found that those who answer yes to that have very skewed versions as to what love should actually be. while shared experience might be a component to love, it is certainly not the entire factor.i know letting go sounds awful, and that it may sound like the end of the world. but, i think that you should realize that being single and focusing on yourself can be an extremely rewarding process, and that you could come out of it from the better if you apply yourself properly. i promise the world won't end without her, and the first day will be the hardest, and it only gets easier from there. some days will hurt more than others, and there will eventually come a point where it feels normal without her.“Time crumbles things; everything grows old and is forgotten under the power of time.”
>>7278013I hate how oldfags want to spout hate without understanding what they just read. This subject fits into none of those treads you listed. And if you disagree, feel free to scroll on.
I can't say that I stand for anything, but there is plenty I stand against.
>>7305772>>7305798Go and see a therapist or share how you feel with someone. Even if you don't agree I think everyone deserves the chance to be healthy, mental health included. Somedays aren't as good as others but if you feel like everything is pointless or you are unable to be happy then there's a problem to be solved. I can relate to the both of you.
Fell out with my father today and also was contacted by my ex since I suppose she telepathically knew my day was already shitty as is. I feel utterly trapped and despite having friends around me (not as if they're understanding), I feel so alone. Thought of killing myself but browsing on here is oddly therapeutic. I want a real relationship with real romance. I want to love and be loved but also question if I'm capable of love.
Traps are gay
>>7305825Thanks anon the problem isn't with her she loves me very much the problem is the family, they feel as though she can do better. She's beautiful and intelligent and will probably make it far in life. She says she loves me entirely for who I am but deep down I've slowly started to believe she could do a lot better. She eventually started lying to her parents telling them that she'd going her friends place, when in reality it'd just be the two of us hanging out. They ended up seeing us out in public...I'm afraid of losing her, but no matter how hard we try we just end up digging a deeper hole for ourselves.
>>7305828They weren't talking about this thread you mongoloid. Great job proving the point though about newfags having zero reading comprehension skills and a gnat sized attention span.
>>7278170GF and I have been together for nearly 7 years, I love her, but it isn't working. She tells me she still loves me but we don't get along anymore there is this constant tension and our sex life has gotten steadily worse to now where we are never intimate.I just want her, I want it to go back to how it was, but I'm losing hope that will ever happen. I know I wouldn't have any trouble meeting someone else, but I know I already found the only one I want.I feel like if we had a sex life everything would be fine, but she doesn't feel it and refuses to consider that it might be something worth talking to a doctor about. That only makes me feel like she doesn't think our relationship is worth saving.
Idk, just reading some of these replies, and can relate to some of them. I often comes back to this poem when everything seems insurmountable. "if--" by Rudyard Kipling. Maybe some of you enjoy it as much as I do.https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/46473/if---
I struggle with anxiety, depression, and suicidal thoughts a lot. One of the things that's helped has been researching about how humans die, the death industry, and different death practices around the world.I found it very therapeutic to think about death outside the context of a very bad depressive episode; it gives me a feeling of control that I don't usually get when I'm in a bad place. I started with Caitlin Doughty's YouTube channel "Ask a Mortician", which alternates between her experience as a funeral director/crematory operator and the death industry and discussions about death in history, and branched out from there.It might help you too, Anon.
>>7278134I'm sorry bro
>>7295519hey jackass, rotate before you fucking post, fag
>>7306122I think the guy should be a solid color to stand out from the buildings.
>>7287311Aye mang you mind sharing that?
>>7279723Thisdesu i did 200mg on my first and was perfect, but i was only told after it was 200 so i wasn't anxious about doing too much.
>>7306679This is why I only take showers.
Talking about my stuff makes me feel like I am begging for attention or help but I've been dealing with many health and mental issues even with all of my medications I have to push myself so hard just to go through the dayI just want to die but I got some strings left that I need to cut and I will probably do it this time
>>7290355i felt this in my soulwent through the same thing, maturity helps you realize the friends you made when you were a teenager may not be the friends you have when you are an adult, the hormones make everyone weird sometimes the space helps the friendship grow. Other times it’s helps you realize you were only friends because of circumstances.
>>7306863It gets better.Also ponytails are awesome.
I miss her
>>7307156We all do
>>7286767Happy for you anon, hope it all works out
>>7287491Have you ever considered travelling? I was in a very similar position to you a few years ago, dropped out of my studies, spent 6 months working full-time at some shitty cafe saving up everything I could before flying off around south America. Ended up finding a career prospect I loved (teaching) while I was out there and haven't looked back since.Obviously travelling isn't an option for everyone with family commitments etc, but if you've got the time and freedom to I couldn't reccommend it enough
>>7307156had this for almost a year now. can honestly say the best thing is to ignore her as much as possible and do fun things to distract yourself until you stop thinking about it all the time
>>72782401.Every morning look in the mirror and say to yourself "$yourname, I love you and I allow/permit you now and forever to be united with your ideal partner"2.http://galactanet.com/oneoff/theegg_mod.html
>>73078163 years down with 2 of them in therapy, hasn't ended yet.
honestly idek where to start or what to say. shit just... idk i just feel bad. Like, a lot. I’ve got feelings for someone who likes someone else. Classes are stressing me out and I just procrastinate all my fuckin work instead of studying. I’ve got family issues, and I’m literally just running off of coffee, cigs and weed. Pretty much the only thing keeping me going is my career goals and music, and the distant fleeting hope that shit gets better.
>>7289631luv u fag
My ex and I broke up almost 3 weeks ago out of nowhere. I was both hurt and relieved since I was not really happy but I was also insecure about breaking it off. I was busy making my costume for Halloween and then packing for my trip to Korea on Thursday for a week and a half, so it has been a way to keep my mind of the breakup for the most part. I removed her from my social media yet I notice that she still sees my stuff, up to yesterday. I don't know if she is doing to see what is up with me, if she regrets it, cause she has nothing else to do. It is like a little ghost still refusing to let go of my life for whatever reason and it stops me from letting go.
I lost my mom in the south tower in september 11th. Lost my pop when he tried to seek revenge in Afghanistan. Honestly thought he was stupid for going. Convinced myself I hated em both for leaving me. My mom went to NY for a business trip, and my dad sure as hell didn't have to go to war.Beginning to miss them after all these years. Rest in peace you two.
>>7308048Not happy should have been a sign.
>>7294489If I were you, I would take the next step. Like the otherguy said, you will regret if you don't do nothing. PD: I don't have the best english, sorry.
I'm approaching 40. I have a wife and kids and I love them, and a good job. But everything that I constructed my identity around, all the activities and preferences and hobbies that represented my sense of self, mean nothing to me any more. I simply don't care about any of the things that used to define who I am. So who am I now? I don't know and I don't know how to find out.
>>7278012Have a good chick friend I admitted feelings for recently, said I'd want something more if she were alright with it but I would be happy still being friends. She replied she couldn't reciprocate- at the moment- and would like to continue as we were.Wasn't lying about being happy but God I just wanna eat her pussy.
I'm moving away out of my hometown in a year and I am terrified that I am going to socially isolate myself even more than I already am since I'll be even more able to excuse it to myself, not knowing anybody there and all. I'm afraid of getting even more stuck in a vicious cycle of not going out and meeting more people due to not having anybody to do it with, thus basically becoming a hermit and dying alone and forgotten
I've been with my girlfriend for three years. We met at college, but I don't really feel anything for the relationship anymore. It's like living with a friend. We don't have much in common and I'd much rather spend time alone than with her.I can't leave because we're co-renting and this town is too expensive for me to move out right now. I feel completely stuck. Occasionally she asks me if I see a future with her. I lie and say yes.
I just want to be happy
>>7303031I have felt that exact same feeling for 4 years since my father decided to put a gun in his mouth and end his suffering in order to make him less of a burden on our family. Ever since that day my mental health began deteriorating. What i'm trying to say is get help, go to a doctor and tell them about your problems maybe they will refer you to a licensed psychologist. I've been in therapy and on meds for these past 4 years, it makes life a bit more bearable, it won't save you or bring back your lost sense of belonging and happiness, the rest is on you to get the desire to tell yourself that I can make a change, maybe something good will happen somewhere down the line. I've had a lot of more disappointments than successes but keep going you don't fail if you try again over and over again maybe for years whatever it takes but you fail when you decide to take your own life. Stay strong, cool to see another person feels the same as me
Been coasting along in gradschool in one paper by virtue of the fact that a study group I flaked on hadn't removed my access to their shared drive. They did that yesterday. Taking a few days off in the hopes I'll manage to catch up enough.
life's great, just graduated high school with a great gf, home's great, nothing to complain about.A conversation i had with my friend the other day keeps sticking around though; all about human connection. dunno, it's just something i only recently realised i crave. I can kinda understand drug addiction now, it's a substitute that can fill that void.haven't had a good cry in a long time either, so i figure getting drunk and watching requiem for a dream to celebrate the passing of my dad a year ago should do the trick.wish me luck anons, and good luck you all in return
I'm working full time in a job that's been a dream of mine, though I'm getting more and more tired of it by the day. They expect so much from you and I feel really good about the quality of the work I give in, but it's never enough for them. I want to take a break but I can't really. Home life is pretty mundane. I'm young, still living at home with my parents and my sister. Dad doesn't like my sister, my sister doesn't like my dad, and my mom is stuck in the middle of it. I wanna leave this place behind, but I know that I can't just turn my back on family, no matter how bad things are getting. It just doesn't sit well with me.But, I'm happy with the friends I've made, both online and through work, so I don't completely feel alone. Life's alright, but it could be better.
>>7299285Same. I push people who are even remotely attracted away for fear I can't express emotions. I like to laugh to show people I look alright but don't really connect. I feel myself drifting away in a shroud of darkness. A shroud I can't escape but rather would embrace. As I feel it would be better to be in darkness rather than the presence of others.
>>7306098Has she actually given you a concrete reason why?
>>7294489You need to stop associating her motherly traits to your actual mother. Its killing your vibe. You need to be very distinct about the mother/mistress differences that exist in your relationships. Your designed to fuck so tap into that drive through a little play :^)
>>7294203Try to stop repressing your inner anger in the real world. You know that there are times where you need to act on the offensive but may not take the chance out of fear/worry. Possibly not though. Take a look at the vid and see if it relates to you.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cViZ6wVysKk
I'm 19 and joined the german military after highschool. The Army will give me a masters degree in economics and the pay is stellar. In return I signed up for 13 years. I was really optimistic at first but now having the next 13 years predestined for you fills me with fear.I dont know if I made the right decision, and the worst thing is that I still can go back, but have to make a decision in the next month. Its tearing me apart.