How do I fix my projection problem? Something changed recently, I don't ever recall doing that. And now I do. Am I running from something? Honestly cant tell anymore. And my seemingly low self esteem due to always getting bullied as a kid and my troubling household. I never stood up for myself. Everyone from staff at school, to other kids, to family bullied and abused me in various ways. I dont want to sound like im whining, Im just stating whats been done to me. How should I recover? How do I stop projecting and love myself again? The only way I see myself ever getting a chance at life again is by not caring, which I'm doing, but I feel like I'm not doing enough of that since I'm making this thread and all. Help?
>>32317690Also been dealing with feeling extremely sadistic. I feel like Ive been soaking up so much hurt, it made me numb and now when someone feels bad, or hurt or whatever, (especially if they deserve it) i either feel nothing or feel really good. I once even interjected like a complete retard "ahaha, you're hurt!" once in a social setting (Freudian slip or whatever) and felt just a tinge of regret, then went back to being a doormat for people to step on once more.
>>32317690can someone point me in the right direction/help me?
>>32319007The thing that started working for me was accomplishing things. Going to the gym, getting better at my job at work, overcoming challenges in life like being unemployed, building a computer. Things you can be proud of. You can't lie to yourself like a woman. You'll subconsciously see through your own lies. Be the you that your current self would look up to.
>>32319213what if im stuck in an enviroment that does everything to bring me down/mock/shame/ridicule me? how do i cope with being stuck here until i move out and learn on my own for once?
>>32320075work on getting out of the situation
