Its like I can't be productive at all. I have important shit to do(I have to study for my exams) but it's like I am going through some paralysis. I literally can't do shit. Even if I push myself to sit at my desk and get started, I lose focus or get sleepy all of a sudden. This has been going on for 6-7 years now, this loop of constantly wasting opportunities, wasting my potential and shifting my goals. I can't afford to do this anymore. It feels like my brain is eroding, depleting as time goes on. I am 21, and I can feel that I have gotten slow. I can't commit to anything, I started learning the piano some time ago, but quit after 2 months, I have been learning German for a year but at this point I don't even do my flashcards anymore. I don't know if I am just lazy or there is actually something going on lads. I cry myself to sleep 3-4 times a week, I absolutely hate everything about myself, have massive insecurities about everything to a point where I am really sensitive towards any criticism or banter thrown my way and I feel stupid and incompetent every single day.
>>32331553>Even if I push myself to sit at my desk and get started, I lose focus or get sleepy all of a sudden.This is too vague, could be anything. You may have some kind of vitamin deficiency or malnutrition problem for all I know.>I cry myself to sleep 3-4 times a week, I absolutely hate everything about myself, have massive insecurities about everything to a point where I am really sensitive towards any criticism or banter thrown my way and I feel stupid and incompetent every single day.Dude if you are feeling this way literally all the time obviously you won't be able to concentrate on anything?? If you have unresolved emotions that demand your attention all the time, you'll be distracted. One of my friends keeps getting mad because he can't even watch a show - he's "watching" it, his eyes are on the screen, but he doesn't remember the events, the dialogue, nothing. How could that be? Because he's in total internal panic spazzing about a million anxieties and then just goes "nah you know what I'll ignore that and watch a TV show". You cannot ignore distress. Address your distress and you'll have an easier time focusing. Sometimes addressing distress can be a long and treacherous process, especially if you have been bottling it up for years.To contrast with me: when I get anxious or upset about something, I think the matter through to satisfaction. Then my brain ticks it off as done and I can focus on other stuff.You are worthy bro. And you will be okay. Don't trash yourself.As practical advice, talk to your uni tutor. Get some depression accommodation. Then put aside distractions and work for a bit, and focus on clarifying your emotional and mental state. Then approach work again. God bless, king.
>>32331553You have low self esteem, that's for sure. You might be depressed, so go to a doctor. Some therapy might be just what you need.
>>32331553Yeah, you're fucked. I was like that at your age too, now I'm 33. Dropped out and never went back. Never was able to fix whatever was wrong with me. It's over. Hope you have better luck than I did, bud.
