This shit is long but I think I wrote in a concise enough manner so I won't omit anything and will just post in 2 parts.In the past I used to find myself having these sort of cycles of productivity and interest when it came to doing my hobbies / projects in my free time, with long 1-2 bouts of inactivity, just doomscrolling and fapping all day met with about a month of focused acitivies and going back and forth between these two statesThey really confused me as they felt random and I would get overly stressed and frustrated about never getting enough done / never being in the mood to do thingsBut, I decided to try cutting out all outside distractions, and I stopped using social media while sitting at my PC. I not only got more done than ever, but had a longer stretch of time doing things every day without stopping than ever. It really just felt like I was naturally doing things, there was a real naturalness to it. Even if I dipped into some distraction and scrolled for a bit or whatever I was able to on a dime go "Okay back to work" as if it were nothing. Just doing X task instead of Y. Really that's all it was. Doing one task instead of another, and recognizing a lot of social media just makes your mind fucking cluttered and unfocused.ButIt is only natural that you will not be a productivity machine 365 days a year, and as a result I am curious, how do you guys get back on track after taking a rest?
>>33921243The reason I'm asking is that distractions are well...distracting. I am finding myself using them again. I know I should cold turkey stop again but now, it's sort of becoming a new habit, I can recognize that my mind is feeling a bit like my old self. It is as if I gotta rewire myself, relock in, and sort of absorb and feel the new mind state again as its now been replaced with the lethargic one. Remind myself why I do the things that I do in my free time (again these truly are hobbies / pet projects) I guess this isn't the same cycling of peak and values as before since I recognize the truth but I just cannot act upon what I know is true. In a way the sensation is like, well I'm just doing hobbies / study because I enjoy it, but doing nothing is also enjoyable so what's the actual driving force here? To just act on willpower, knowing it's right, etc. and putting emotions a bit in the back seat? It wouldn't be so bad if this shit didn't literally fry your brain, make you unable to think clearly, makes time go by faster, etc etc. You just get caught in the vortex when that time could be spent elsewhere.I never take these rest periods purposefully but just find myself doing nothing, I dont let them bother or get to me so it's not like Im stressing myself out over being productive with my free time, but I do recognize that they're pointless - social media is pointless, scrolling is pointless. Anyway reddit spacing yadda yaddaTLDR; When you know you're doing something wrong / acting on your old ways and it's becoming your new habits again how do you snap them? Willpower? Because, since they feel enjoyable, it does not seem like it can be done purely based off of feelings but just trust in your own self process / goals
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>>33921248So fucking true broAnime is the answer
>>33922531Why does she look like she'll bust my balls?
>>33922611It’s spacezin of course she would
Okay I wrote this when I was really tired and noticed how poorly it’s written / typos but I do think it simply is a balance of willpower and not stressing and letting times like this passWhich is strange since they’re opposedIt’s why I worry about forming new habits I guess?
I will simply ban social media and fapping at my pc once more and see what happens and think about the person I wanna become / act like
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