It is my birthdayA fact literally no one alive is aware of16 years ago my mom died of cancer after years of slowly wasting away in front of meShe cried and cursed and blamed me for her death even as I fed her and changed her bedpan, all the way to her last breathI have not recovered yet, and I don't think I ever willI have been utterly alone ever sinceKissless virgin and suchI'm in my apartment right now, on 18th floor Should I do a flip?
>>33924896My life has been nothing but a string of shit as well.I sit here, against the inside of my wall locker. Today's an off day for me. Four day weekend. I think of going down to a gun range and blowing my head off. All pain, and for what? FUCK. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Fuck. Fucking fuck fuck fuck. Life is shit. Put here just to suffer. I DONT FUCKING KNOW!
I'm sorry friend. May you have many happier birthdays moving forward. Make a wish for me? Hugs.
>>33924896If your mother is no longer with you, then it’s one problem solved. You just need to stop feeling guilt over it.
>>33924896Happy 34th anon!I really want you to have a great birthday, maybe change your clothes, your sheets, shave or clean your room. Whatever it is that you choose, I think that you should celebrate with a pleasureful surrounding the fact that you are still going <3Life is unfair to some of us, you may feel stuck in the past; but you see, life keeps just going forward like time does.
>>33925021Asians are so ugly
>>33925047I guess what I'm trying to say is that you are capable of overcoming your past, your life is ahead of you and your mom chose to live hers the way she did, she has no say in how you are going to lead yours.
I wish you well friend. I hope one day you will recover. May Allah ease your suffering and bring peace to your life.
>>33925050i bet youre a beautiful person
>>33924896https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rZN5qsXbRJA&list=RDrZN5qsXbRJA&start_radio=1
