I feel like I’m hypersexual all the time, especially with what I consume online i.e. (sexual music, porn, sexual wattpad stories) I have a partner I’ve been dating for a few months now and I’ve tried my best to be loyal towards him but failed after he went to do training for military, I’ve proven my disloyalty when our contact became limited, we only got to talk once a week for a short amount of time, we aren’t in a physical relationship just dating online, and I haven’t physically done anything with the people I was talking to, but I’ve still let our conversations take inappropriate turns which I deeply regret, how do I build up the courage to tell him without the fear of losing him? I don’t even know if I should tell him, because I didn’t take the conversations seriously, how do I work on myself to become more loyal and respect my relationship, I’m not trying to justify cheating on him, but I’m used to being an attention whore, before we dated and when I was a bit younger, I’d send guys photos of my ass (fully clothed) I wasn’t even dating, I had no standards for myself, and enjoyed the attention I received, I believe I did the same thing here, because I enjoyed the attention I got, and felt like I couldn’t get enough of it, but please help, I’m willing to do everything I can to change those disgusting habits.
>>33927364Dont use the internet
>>33927399That’s easier said than done, and I need it for school
>>33927364I think forcing yourself to tell him is the best way. Right now, there are no consequences for being a whore on the internet. When you tell your bf, he will be upset with you. In doing so, you will have created consequences for being a whore and hopefully avoid that behavior in the future
>>33927407Why do you need it for schoolUse your boyfriends computer instead
>>33927413How do you suggest I tell him? I’m not confident in just saying “I cheated on you” I don’t even know how I would word it, how would I justify my actions?
>>33927413What if I don’t tell him?
>>33927432First off, you don't even try to justify your actions. Doing that comes off as not taking accountability for what you've done. It sounds like making excuses, even if it isn't If you decide to tell him, tell him exactly what you did. "I did something and it was wrong and you might be upset. I (whatever it is you did)"
>>33927442I don’t mean it in a way that I’m trying to beat around the bush, I’m just not ready to lose him over the stupid conversations I’ve had online, I don’t consider it cheating really, I haven’t exchanged photos or let it get too extreme, I have no friends, and just needed peace of mind, being sexual has always been a part of me, especially in my humour
>>33927461You don't get to decide if it's really cheating, he does. If you want to take accountability, that's how you go about it and hopefully the consequences, including potentially losing your bf, will make you not do it in the future. Or you can not tell him, but then there are consequences for your actions and you'll probably do it again
>>33927461If the convos werent that serious, he might not mind that muchAlso talk with him more? You could shower him with nudes and sexting to keep your sexual needs in check
>>33927602We have a weird relationship, it feels like sexting and doing other sexual things with him feels like a chore and is mandatory, we have a dom/sub relationship and he’s always bossing me around, I never get a choice or say in what I want to do, and 9 times out of 10 feel pressured to give him what he wants, he punishes me if I don’t.
>>33927557But if I’m aware of my wrongdoings haven’t I already taken accountability? I’ve cut those people off too.
>>33927696How come sexting with your bf feels mandatory but edging on it with random guys turns you on?Maybe have more initiative to feel you have more agency? Also talk with him if the dynamic you currently have doesnt like you or your relationship will go south regardless
>>33927775Because everytime we sext I have to force myself into obedience.. which I’m not very good at, I’ve told him about that many times and he says he’ll help me, but being pressured to do the things he wants me to doesn’t feel like it’s helping at all, and on top of that if I don’t do what he wants he gets in a bad mood and decides not to talk to me until I do it, or give me a set punishment to complete for being disobedient, I’m not saying I'm not submissive, but sometimes it feels really hard to follow his instructions, it doesn’t really feel enjoyable to me, when I’m getting told what to do and say, I want to do that by my own free will
I also have a question to ask any anons here, I was stupid enough to bring the whole cheating ordeal up in the most vaguest way and climaxed it, when I was feeling the overwhelming amount of guilt I did that day, I told him I was keeping something from him, and that he’d never forgive me for what I did, and some other things to further escalate it, I told him this a few days ago and we haven’t spoken since, I don’t know how to drop it, my boyfriend is uneasy about letting things go, he’s an over-thinker, and after I told him he told me it was stressing him out, he told me he has an idea of what it is, but honestly I feel I am being very selfish in this situation with not telling him, I’m just too overwhelmingly afraid to
>>33927862What does he even ask you to do?>>33927914Lol wtf if you already dropped that, then you're making it worse by not clarifying what you did, since he's prob thinking you had an affair already or a quick flingJust be honest about it already since he's prob imagining something much worse than what you really did
>>33927364Ew you still get your smut from wattpad?Its either AO3 or tumblr. I personally like tumblr the most. Do you wanna trade dirty fics?
>>33928106He usually makes me send him intimate photos, and makes me call him BDSM terms like “Master” and worship him, we do petplay stuff, and he also makes me describe how he makes me feel when we have intimate conversations
>>33928120I know it’s not the best option, but it’s always been with me throughout my teen years, sorry I don’t save, once I read something I feel like I can’t read it again, it won’t make me feel the same way
>>33928137Are there still good writers on wattpad? I haven been there since 1d split, but even then the good writers were rarely post. Atm Im reading COD fics with Ghost specifically, if you want some let me now ;)
>>33927364>wattpad Stopped reading right there. You are either a child or extremely retarded. Do you even know about the data breach?
