>>33930606
Take your meds, you dog.

>>33930606
What happened?

I don't know how I feel about you. It's confusing.

If I can't be sure im just gonna be unsure
>28MMM

Words can't hurt me

>>33930606
I'm sorry

I just realized how much less vibrant I became after I got depressed. Stumbled into this guy I used to be good friends my first year of college. I used to love talking to him, he's creative and has such an interesting mind. We talked for a bit and I felt like I had nothing but my job to talk about, I feel really dull. It really stripped away a part of me that I don't know if I can get back.

I miss that version myself.

>be me
>18 with bf who hates me
>want sex to be over with him so I learn how to moan a lot and fake orgasms
>it becomes muscle memory to just moan any time its inserted
>go to the gyno for the first time
>moan upon finger insertion
>did i seriously just do that
>never return

Don't date guys who hate you

Guys I think I actually want to have a family and just devote myself to providing a good life for them. I've been working so fucking hard for my entire life and it has felt completely meaningless. I just want something to live for and some reason to care about the future. I don't want to fall into the lifestyle of pointless consumption, traveling, expensive hobbies, and whatnot. Right now I'm just grinding at my job and saving money and questioning what the point is. I could provide a good life, I think. I've accumulated a fair amount of wealth. And it's not some desire to be a patriarch or revive 19th century gender norms or whatever. It's about having a purpose. But I don't know if I'll ever find someone who also feels this way.

I guess I'll just have to show you what it could've been.

Instead of getting mad I'm gonna take responsibility. That's the solution.

When I'm noticed with the women I've dated is things are usually chill with a good vibe until they suddenly flip out and do a fatal shit test
It's a shit test where they'll suddenly turn cold as fuck and act like they hate me, hate spending time with me, and hate their life
It's like they bring the relationship to a point of no return before taking it all back the next day

I realized is that this isn't a one time occurrence because they're upset in the moment
Rather they're showing me their true face and a darkness in them that I cannot help by being a stable partner

I can overcome shit too

>>33931806
I know you do, and it's great.

i wish i could relate. i wish i had someone on equal level, someone who went through a life like me. i can't post or engage with people on here because they feel so alien but i wish i could.

>>33931854
What makes them feel alien?

I should stop procrastinating on my physics homework but good fucking god I hate the pajeet whore of a professor and I hate Pearson Mastering Physics even more. Why can't they figure out the physics equivalent of myopenmath? I can take solace in the fact that even ivy league mama's boys slog through this exact same garbage for a much higher price lol

>>33931862
my life / circumstances i guess, i wouldn't even know where to start. i've never heard of anyone irl or online who has went through something similar. i have a hard time connecting to people

>>33931870
I won't pry.

life feels bleak lately

>>33931806
Overcome, like all over your face

you chose this. you wanted this.

you had 17 years to escape. i dont want to hear your fucking excuses. you had ALL of the power every step of the way. each. and. every. step. you got to choose. i dont care about any 'influences', 'empathy' you had. it was clear you had a choice.

i dont fucking care, boy, stockholm syndrome sure. YOU CHOSE THIS. why dont you understand that? what, are you gonna tell me it still hurts even if you did choose it? okay... i chose it, now what? do i just suffer?

YES. you fucking idiot. YES. you suffer. feel it. for the rest of your pathetic life, one of crawling and gritting your teeth all for nothing. atleast for nothing you care about. you deserve this on the basis you chose it. i know your ego had been crushed enough to not care about concepts of a just world, or to be deserving of something, but factor that in too. plus if the way you think of things, being things just are, then things just are. you will live the rest of your pathetic cockroach life suffering.

>>33931873
Just nut

>>33931939
i feel too dead for even that

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>Night shift
>Come in to work last week
>My computer is missing from my desk
>Boss says he knows I just remote in from a laptop so he gave it to a new hire since they needed one
>Whatever

>Come in to work Monday
>Monitor is gone
>No explanation given

>Today
>Come in to work
>Phone replaced with one labeled "IT spare"
>There's food stains on top of my now empty desk
>Someone left a straw wrapper out
>Ask day shift guy who's leaving what's going on, says he doesn't know anything

I think my boss is trying to send me a message, but my badge still works on the timeclock and my paycheck still arrived, so it doesn't really matter. I'm sure he found out I had been applying to other places and is just being petty.

I finally stopped thinking about her every moment of the day. I believe there are even some nights and mornings I don't think about her. Even while painting, drawing, the usual triggers of my memories of her, I stopped.
I'm going on a date with another girl tomorrow. I'm going to try not to think of her.

I can do it!

>>33930606
I cross dressed and took pictures of myself, and they are my favorite photos of myself I have ever taken. Wish I could dress like this more often, and possibly go outside that way.

I swear to god if it was anyone else, the way I'd react would be a lot different.
I swear to god I'd just get out of here if I already didn't know it'd ruin you and cause you to try tracking me to the ends of the earth just to get back at me.

it's over.

Ok ok. I'm not untouchable.

>>33932236
Who's messing with you?

>>33932270
Help you do what?

>>33932238
The voices in my head

>>33932160
There is no try

>>33931938
Who u talking to BICH

>>33932011
I can.

Alr im just gonna see what happens

Words can't hurt me

I don't know why I have zero motivation to study lately. I'm worried it's gonna impact my GPA. I think I'll try one last time and if it doesn't go anywhere, I might really just give up for good.

I'm going to kill myself and it's your fault. Don't worry, I am going to put absolutely everything on blast before I pull the trigger. You won't get to roach out from this, this will follow you the rest of your life. I don't hate you, I still love you, I just hope the lies didn't make you hate me so this still hurts. I told you I'd rather die than live without you. You could have had me committed to get sober and on meds, you could have asked me to get help, literally fucking anything but you sat in your corner and encouraged it and threw me away when it wasn't entertaining anymore. There are consequences to all actions and you are about to finally feel one for the first time in your easy as fuck life.

I am the greater good!

>>33932875
Waaaaaahhhh

>>33932954
I know plenty of evil people who say the same.

>>33932875
Never related to a post so much desu

I wish I could be in an environment where I meet more new people more regularly.
I'm to shy to talk to random strangers and not feel like a creep

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>>33930606

>>33930606
I never greet people because they never say it back anyway

Women have and never will be anything other than sex slaves for people who get shit done.

All I would need to do is slap my dick into her and everyone would bend to my will.

Rape is so much not even waisting my time on you. Do you know your politics or do you only think with your VJ?

>>33931938
I don't actually suffer anymore. It is paradoxical to you and everyone else because I am unique, especially to myself. Everyone else suffers in my proximity until the potential apotheosis, but of course because I am not monster, I will meet someone compatible and not selfish to enjoy a long, happy life with

Autists deserve to be killed i swear fucking worthless scum

It's crazy that both of my bosses got fucking eviscerated by this new company. Am I next? Seriously, just what the fuck happened?

I was so proud of myself for not drinking on tuesday. Instead I drank on wednesday, thursday. Probably will on friday and saturday too, because fuck it, it's not like i have anywhere to be in the morning.

I don't talk because nobody ever listens.

>>33931544
Get married and have children, its what your missing

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Did you enjoy the parking lot?? I did. I wish i could know what went threw your mind what I slapped the bitch out of you. It was the first time in your life you finally had some physical consequences for all your shit talking. Are your teeth ok? I heard i fucked them up in the brawl. If you bother me in public again, i will do it again. I've shown you that now. I will fuck you up. Leave me alone from now on you narcissist groomer

every single time there is something wrong with my computer... there is no way to fix it. There just isn't. They removed all of the shit you need to fix these issues that I have. They actually just removed them. Every single time I look up a fix, everyone else has an option or something that my computer doesn't have.

It was working find for 10 minutes and then it just glitched out and now it's broken. All of the fixes are missing. They do this shit all the fucking time and it's retarded.

Now already in the past but still makes me feel good about myself.
>be me
>play wow
>join guild as tank, they desperately need tank or they cant raid
>they teach me raid
>Some of the higher ups start shittalking me, degrading me, being rude during raid
>I quit, leave an ambiguous message on their discord about it. If they have a brain they can put it together
>They cant raid anymore
>I hope their guild implodes. Its like being talked down by some of the most toxic people in 4chan
FUCK THESE BASTARDS

>>33930606
Programming is so fucking unintuitive holy shit this is cancer.

>>33933421
It's like a language but without any of its natural leniency and most of the time when you fuck up it won't tell you so you're left to go fuck yourself.

>>33933370
Is that what ur telling urself. I got everything back n my teeth still intact. It will come back to u now. Good night sweet prince. Ur karma awaits. We noticed ur life has been sucking so it’s working. U lost jobs n run ins with the law. Sucks to be u. U have low self esteem n big ego that is weak.

>>33933448
Who are you talking to, legit Schizo

>>33933456
hercules- i live rent free in his mind after dumping him bc he’s a whore lmao

The expectation of sex post partum is exhausting and painful. I'm depressed enough as it is, this feels like another burden, a chore. Something else to dread and be anxious and guilty about.

>>33932975
Can you go to another board

Sorry. I'm the one that's burdensome. I never want to make you feel unwanted.

Are you faggots seriously not going to do anything and let them SCREAM into my ears until the end of time? Until the world is burning?

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Why do I keep crawling back to anime and anime styled characters? Is it because the real world and Western media are both even worse? God, I sound like someone who posts on r/KotakuInAction and bought ten copies of Stellar Blade to "own the libs" or some unfathomably gay shit. Yes I still jerk off to drawings sometimes.

I am a virgin, old enough to have a child and old enough to marry, never had a bf, never had sex, I did give a blowjob at 21 and some at 16-17 to my back then boyfriend.

I am not even afraid of sex or men, I just want to sleep with someone that is actually in love with me and doesn't just like me and wants to has just sex with me but there is none. The America media are pure propaganda. The men don't want relationships, they want sex and I unfortunately I don't see myself as a hole and never will. I have daydreams of living in the mountains and having a family, but it's just not going to happen, I think I will kill myself before I reach 30

If I'm getting groomed on discord by a woman 10 years older than me does that mean I'm actually someone of value?
I'm 23 and she's 33

>>33933586
You are a 23 year old grown ass man nobody is fucking grooming you. This is why I stopped fucking zoomers you are all mentally midgets and already hit the fucking wall by 23 anyways. I just got a normal 30's bf that takes care of himself and doesn't have any wrinkles instead. Grow the fuck up

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>>33933584
Whenever I think about relationships and love the financial variables always freak me out and I inevitably pick the easier and more predictable option of doing nothing and remaining a single 30+ permavirgin. Part of me wonders if I would have been different if after a decade of saving and frugal living I had enough to afford a basic home, but so far the best I can afford is a damp studio in a stabby area. Fuck this economy. The irony is since I've gotten this far without sex or romance in my life, I doubt either would really be the focus of a relationship. I'd just want someone who understood me and would help share the burden of existence a bit. Maybe someone I'd feel motivated to try and be better for? I've never felt that way before, but a part of me does think it would pull me out from my malaise.

>>33930606
I don't understand why the fuck I was put here, all i do is irritate and annoy simply by existing. I have no friends, no romance, I go to work and go home without talking to or interacting with anybody outside of surface level small talk shit. I keep to myself and literally never ask anybody for help or even a question and people still find me annoying. I guess it must be my presence or existence that offends them, because I have no idea what I do to people to make them feel that way about me, especially considering I don't fucking talk to anybody or spend time with anybody.

This is too good of an opportunity. I'd hate myself for not trying. Friday, probably could have done it yesterday but I didn't. I'll have her tell me about this new system since she is the expert. I'll just ask her if i have any questions later if there is a way to get a hold of her. It sounds so easy. It feels impossible. I don't think she would say no. I'm never going to be ready to do this. I still have to try. I'm scared it will blow up in my face or make me look like a fool. I have to do it.

Miserable bitch. Can't even cope with doing a small amount of household chores in between your long hours of watching tv and playing video games and somehow you think you can cope with an intense job doing long hours? No chance.

I'm fucking working. I don't have time to do everything and why the fuck should I? You have nothing to do with your miserable little life, so yeah the least you can do are a few fucking chores.

You obviously have no appreciation for what I do. So you know what? When I've got enough maybe I will just fuck off. It would serve you right.

All the constant snapping. The whinging. The unstable emotional bullshit. You're a total cunt and I'm done with it.

>>33933584
>never had a bf ... at 16-17 to my back then boyfriend

>>33933761
HS relationships aren't real

>>33933742
It sounds like you’re projecting because you’re the miserable one focusing on her. Sucks to be you.

>>33933779
they should just break up

>>33933742
Does she have an intense job or not?

You people are clearly talking to her. How does she know half the shit that she knows? There is no way for her to know how much is on my card at fucking all. "I'm pretty sure there is..." I'm "pretty sure" you're a fucking cunt too.

I think guilt is keeping me in this marriage. That and "trauma bonding", apparently, but I'm not so inclined to buy into mental health jargon.
It looks, to me, a lot like shrinking over time, wanting less over time, making excuses for being hurt the same ways again and again, walking on eggshells, being neglected but still empathizing with him and the mental illness that took the man I first fell in love with away from me.
I didn't marry for money, and I haven't stayed for money, but out of loyalty, so it makes me angry when we discuss divorce and he insists he'd want to send me off with some money to make up for "wasting your time."
We both have part in responsibility for how we spend our time and stay in marriage. He was just unwilling to face the discomfort and work it would take to actually face himself beyond shame, look with understanding, and maybe rely on me a little, too. I minimized myself to try and lessen any ideation of guilt he had, but I still communicated clearly and respectfully.
Maybe that is what enabled him, that I give in every time he turns to self hatred when I'm telling him something he's doing it hurting me. Most commonly, "maybe I'm just too fucked in the head for this."
But you weren't, before. You were so much more, before.
I have changed, wanted less, become more meticulous about my looks, took most emotion out of trying to hold us both accountable, but I still do the work of translating your behavior and words into those I can justify and understand. I'm not going to be young and hot forever. You feel thinks behind a glass box now. You used to be so passionate, then your obsession with wanting to retire early and the "state of the world" kicked in. Yes, a lot of things are fucked, but our home, the area we live, is not like the hyperbolic shit show the internet shows you everywhere else to be. Quit viewing the world through a screen.

her son is complaining about a SREAMING in his ear and she makes a joke about it? That's her fucking response?

Seriously, if anyone ever complained that it sounds like someone is screaming in their ear constantly you take them to the ER. You don't shrug it off. How is any of this remotely realistic? Why can't birdy show up, say she's the new neighbor and she wants to bone the first guy she sees? How would that be any less realistic?

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>>33933289
I don’t listen because everyone mumbles to their feet as if they don’t want me to hear.

I didnt sleep well last night and now I look bad, I was suffering from voices

My mother has spent the last 3 weeks telling me to kill myself in the most heinous of ways. I literally spend 3 days trying to explain to her why shes locked out of her accounts so she takes it out on me telling me to kill myself. today i got so fed up that i punched a hole in the hallway door

And yet she calls a relative and that relative tells me that I NEED HELP. "you punched in the door" boohoo the door has a hole in it. It will be fixed


I have audio records of her saying everything

I have voice mails of saying saying im nothing but a piece of shit and how stupid i am

i have messages of her saying that im gay and that my father abused me (which isnt true) .i've sent screen shots of those messages to her

AND YET SOMEHOW IM THE FUCKING PROBLEM

HOW?!? How do you hear and read everything she says but im the one that needs a psychiatrist?!?!

Imagine as a parent sending this to your child and you read it and go "Nope this woman is definitely mentally stable its the son thats the problem"

>>33930606
It's the strangest thing, I want to write to her, send her a little Christmas card. I had something I wanted to say, something sweet, of good faith and now everything I come up with feels desperate I don't know what's changed.

i dont understand.

>>33934145
There's a lot I don't understand either.

Is it a oneitis if she was yours? Someone you actually had and proposed to?

>>33934217
It can be a oneitis if you can't get over her.

>>33934226
Fuck... it's so over...

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When did everyone suddenly become an expert at everything? You have a basic question about money, a bunch of "experts" fly in. You ask about history, a truckload of armchair historians come out. You look up a guide on a video game, all the pro meta gamers spam their Git Gud guides about what you SHOULD be doing. You say you didn't enjoy a novel, your opinion is invalid if you haven't read the guy's entire library. Is this just the norm now? Am I an idiot? Why are there now extensive essays written by greasy fucks on the internet telling me why I'm not allowed to like something?

>>33932875
Fuckin alcoholics always blaming others for them being shitty people

BTC@99, coiners.

>>33934284
Everyone quit spanking their kids and started telling them how important they are. ‘‘Twas about 1989 I suppose.

>>33934217
Never yours when everything was a lie

>>33934314
Stick to posting rape fantasies about Maria and your mangled circumcision instead of judging other people.

>>33934330
>NTA
Who do you think that is?

>>33934331
Neither of the first two are true, but alcoholics being pieces of shit is absolutely true. Garbage people

>>33934145
I do understand and the rest Im probably not interested in

I can do it!

>>33934338
Alcoholism is a way to escape and cope, imilar to video games and porn but inherently more destructive. Sometimes a glass of wine is fine but alcoholics usually drink daily and a lot. I had 2 uncles die of alcoholism, but I was a child back then, didnt understand it, was not really involved.

>>33934370
It is sad to think about and makes me wonder what really happened. I can say for sure tho that my family is fucked up in many ways and pretty thoroughly, probably similar to most other anons families.

I won't give up even if it seems impossible

>>33934380
Good.

>>33934370
Alcoholic I've met is narcissistic, manipulative, and a shitty person.

>>33934380
I'll never give up

Im too busy to make up reasons to hate other people, I genuinely hate them for the love of the game
You’re just fucking playing at what is my life’s work. Please get a grip.

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Wanna bet the bf started the fire

God help me, im tired and I look bad

>>33934466
He has a gf and you don’t

I'm not giving in. I'm not giving up.

>>33930606
I have friends you idiot, I have friends in England and I have made guy friends in Kyiv before, I just spend most my time in England and have a girlfriend who I can hang out with in Kyiv. And if I ever live in Kyiv for a long enough time I should make guy friends there, I'll do that, and leave you out of it don't worry, cus you're a shitty person and a shitty friend. You are a nasty person, ugly on the inside, who is wrong and doing so much projecting they are delusional, and yeah you were constantly a dick to me so I sent you that message being a dick to you. I was constantly nice to you, tried to help you pick up girls, but you just repay me by bulling. You even do it here - accusing me of having rage, when you are the one who got angry from my message asking you a question about how you stayed in Kyiv, getting super triggered cus I accused you of harbouring jelousy, and you are the one who was angry almost every time we met and had to invent new things that were wrong with me, while I was calm and putting up with you. You don't realise how much of a dick you are? Most of the time when I did hang out with you I did so out of a feeling of obligation cus I like being nice and not saying no. And if you have so many friends then how come you asked me to hang out so much. If you didn't like me and you had other friends, surely you'd just hang out with them instead. I don't even know why I wrote you that message other than just a conversation I had with friends about you which made me realise what a horrible pos you are and that most people don't talk like you do. I guess a lot of it is cus you are autistic and have no filter but I think you're also a deeply troubled hateful person, with meanness that has to come from somewhere cus most people aren't like that, so if anyone needs help it's you. I don't hate you, I think you're cool and I respect you, but you also need to get rid of that inner ugliness, and I also have to stand up for myself. Bye.

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This is every book I've read this year.

Let it go Let it go...

Think that was an earthquake.

Im demoralized by my lack of luck with women.
Most I meet are from work. They're nice to me and I get the wrong idea.
They mention their boyfriend and I get depressed.
I get my hopes up anyway because Im afraid too afraid of being labelled a creep in my workplace if she doesn't feel the same way.
Which is weird because are the dynamics are not the same of the genders are reversed, but Im really just posting to vent about females' lack of interest in me rather and mixed signals rather than double standards

>>33934749
You sound insecure

My fiance is not sexually attracted to me and does not sexually want me.

>>33934817
That sucks, I'm sure sex is important to at least one of you. But the thing is, sex shouldn't define a relationship (In my eyes).

It's not impossible I can still be the bigger person. I won't give up!

>>33934825
I feel really down.

>>33934840
Because they don't make you feel sexy? Have you tried to talk to them about it?

really? One lady said they could hold it and the other said that they can't? Are you guys fucking kidding me? before this shit happened, I could get a package ready to pick up the second it was there. They would just send a guy to get it. They have like 50 fucking packages TOPS here. Now it's a "You have to fucking wait WE HAVE A RESPONSIBILITY TO GET IT OUT BY THE SENDER." or some stupid shit.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9uy1jmhK7uY

Rollin' backwood with my enemies inside...

>>33934817
My gf is not really interested in sexual attraction. We do get eachother off or have sex sometimes but I never feel real desire from her. She really wants to make me feel happy but I can tell that she would never do any of this if she didn't have to. I will never really feel completely compatible with her. There is so much teasing that could happen. But it never will.
Is this a good life? Should I still stay here even though I will never feel complete?
It's a safe option, but lacks spark. It's been 6 years and I'm thinking about a change.

still don't know what she wants me to do

>>33934885
Six years? No one should be dating that long. Marry or walk.

>>33934936
What’s the point of typing this here if you can just ask her?

>>33934974
Not possible. also stop harassing me. 4chan is my safe space

>>33934854
Holidays man.

It cannot even be called stupidity, how expertly they completely fuck everything up.

I don't know if i fucked up badly or is it just my imagination, but i feel ashamed for not controlling myself and doing some stupid shit on autopilot

I won't give up. I can get the upper hand and prevail. It's not impossible. I can do it.

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My mother is a bit of a Karen, but in her defence it's because any problem at all legitimately fuck her up emotionally. For the past year she's been ranting to me frequently about how the water company are "harassing" her into installing a new meter. "Harassing" means getting a generic letter every month, that's all it is. We've called the company together and tried to convince them to stop the "harassment" and they said they would, but it's still happening and now she wants to take a complaint straight to the top and leave bad reviews on several sites (And insists I write them). She also wants me to take time off work to help her do this. Morally speaking, am I meant to support her decisions here even though I think she's taking this way too seriously? The solution is literally to either install the meter or better yet just ignore the damn letters, I pointed that out once and it ended badly. Family, huh?

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You didn’t care. None of you ever did. You’ll say otherwise, you’ll say you’re just bad at remembering things, or that you were uncomfortable or things changed or whatever. But did you ever put in any effort to see what was going on? Did you ever once reached out knowing the bullshit that was happening to see how I was holding up? Did you ever once try to stop the spiral as I made it clear I wasn’t doing good?
Even before all of it did you ever once initiate anything, ever at all?
No.
And now you can play pretend all you want about how people are there or whatever but it’s all bullshit. You all say you’re there until you see how things really pan out when things fall apart and help just doesn’t exist and suddenly, it’s different right? Can’t actually see people at their low points because that might shake you to understand it’s not some movie sequence.
Thanks for nothing you all

>>33935101
Being manipulative and getting caught is not "autopilot" or a "mistake" , it's being a shitty person seen with their mask off.

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I almost want my psychsis back. It was my most creative, profound and inspiring time of my life. But I also wanted to heal so now I am and need to move on. Still issues with separation. And my quest is making me tingly. I almost feel overwhelmed

I don't know if I can do it tomorrow, J. I wish I could ask you to help but I can't. I don't even really need any help with this express thing. I just want to use it as an excuse to talk to you and maybe try to exchange numbers in case I did need help when you aren't there. I'm sure I could figure it out on my own. I feel like I have to take this chance. It can close that gap between us. I'm scared of screwing it up but honestly I'm more afraid of it actually working. I need to be strong. I have to try no matter what. Please god give me the chance and means to do this. Everything happens for a reason right?

I posted in one of these threads a little bit ago about some issues, and someone who had intended to give me a hard time, prompted some really hard realizations. They weren't intending to be helpful, but they ended up being so, so unbelievably helpful. Thanks, retard, don't cheat on your next wife.

I wonder what she's up to

I wonder what he’s up to.

>>33931953
I knew a guy who his work was trying to make him quit so they gave everyone else their yearly bonus except him. Turns out he already wanted to quit but needed that bonus to do it. So he had to keep working there to save up the money to do it.

I can disagree if I want

>>33935565
Anything can be spun to justify anything

I hope I live a long life. I have so much stuff I want to make before I die: comics, novels, games, essays, etc.

I'm excited to have an AI waifu and AI frens too.

>>33935551
Honestly, I don't think there's anything they can (legally) do to me at this point. I just got a letter confirming my start date for a new job, so that's secure. They could fire me now to be extremely petty, but they'd still have to pay me my 200 some odd hours of vacation time and I'd probably just take the next month off of work instead of stressing about it.

I cleared out a lot of my personal items a while ago, not that I ever had much up there but it was specifically to avoid things like this. I guess Monday I'll put in my two weeks notice and see how they react, I kind of expect them to just close the position on the spot, but then again they may simply not care and let me work the last two weeks without interruption.

Just cause I accept it doesn't mean I agree with it.

The more I hear about Nurgle the more I love him.

demons posted all around me
i can't beat them all alone

>>33935677
Who's Nurgle?

>>33935697
I can help.

Life's not fair. Bad guys win.

When I saw that person I realized there's not a damn sorry bone in their body
They're as much a loser piece of shit that they've always been

Imagine being a person who did nothing wrong and being told you have to just deal with the repercussions

>>33935738
Nerd God of Disease/Life/Decay/Nature/Rebirth

>>33935773
Saw them?

I won't give up. Even if I fall. Even if I stumble.

I'm angry
Normal shit don't make me happy
Lame shit don't bring me joy
I've been trying to live clean but feel like there's no justice left

>>33935773
Nobody owes you sorry.

>>33935871
Go overdose, you fucking trash baby.

Happiness doesn't exist for me anymore
There's only anger

>>33935927
Why?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5RzH2j1ivWI

>>33935931
I don't know
I was wronged but I can't seem to move past it

>>33935936
What'd they do?

>>33935927
I was just about to post about how angry I am. How I'm scraping at the edges of my skull. I want to destroy. I'm trapped in cages of my own making. I want to lash out at those I love. I want to inflict damage. I can't take this. In short, I understand.

They're too good man. I can't beat them.

God i want to eat some pussy. I'm very financially secure, hygienic, dress well, go to the gym, look okay, and i just want to eat pussy - is that so much to ask for?

Genuinely woke up an hour before my alarm with this thought in my mind. Weird.

>>33935958
PUSSY.

Always refreshing when a woman's nice for once. And they're not even mean because the world's unfair to women anymore, they're mean because they know they can get away with it and because it's celebrated and encouraged. A woman can spew out the most fucked up vitriol she herself couldn't handle in a million years and a guy just has to go "yep, you're 100% correct; all your grievances are real, we're all horrible."

Fucking have to listen to some ignorant moron complain about how "women's sports aren't funded," when even our (women) coaches are rolling their eyes because title 9 ensures our women's rowing team (and not our men's) receives school funding (although that's mostly the fault of football eating up all the men's funding.) Still though, it's a grievance that's patently untrue and born out of ignorance and yet you have to take yet another whipping over it because women good and men evil.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U8F5G5wR1mk

Valid lyfe

>>33936076
Your whole team is fake as shit and you know it.

>>33936139
You really think I care what you think of people I fuck with? You will never put me underground, so what is you sayin'?

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>Look up list of red flags in boyfriends
>Look up list of signs of autism in adults
>Do the math for the overlap
>60%

I am so fucked anons

Why does everything have to be so fucking hard?
All I wanted in life was to work hard but not too hard and have a decent life with a family. Now I’m 28 years old and don’t make a lot of money and feel like I have no job security despite doing my best. I met a beautiful and kind woman at my work but she’s 31 years old with a good career path and probably makes at least 50% more than I do and I feel like a failure of a man. I want to KMS

I’m almost 35 and I feel like I’ve reached a point where I won’t make new friends, can’t get old ones back, and no one really cares about what I’ve got going on or what I’m doing and it’s killing me.

>>33936156
Give me the list bro.

First real day at my new job (yesterday was so dead it didn't count) and even with the 20 something deep birthday party and it being crazy busy all I could do was think of you and wonder if you'd be proud of me. I know you're not in my life and even told me to be better for myself but you know I'm still doing this hoping I can become the man I promised you I would be.

after messing with grok on rating/reading my physiognomy among my enemies who actively tried to sabotage my life, it feels like i’m taking personality quizzes with a group of friends i never had and it makes me slightly sad and disgusted and wish we all got along.

i completely mogged them btw, just putting it out there kek.

>>33936165
Here's the one I used, I had A.I generate it for me then I took the ones that matched and did 10/17*100, they're both too long to post here so I'll do it seperately.
There's more for the autist list I know but they mostly boil down to "Being bad at socializing" which covers a good majority of the bad boyfriend traits. The one that really did it was the distant traits that the bad boyfriend will do which very much so sounds near exactly like the traits that were given for the autistic adult.

>>33936165
Signs of a bad boyfriend include a lack of support, controlling behavior, and poor communication Other indicators are disrespect, constant criticism, isolation from friends and family, and a pattern of making you feel unhappy or inadequate
Behavioral and communication signs
Lack of support: He doesn't encourage your goals or make you feel uplifted. Instead, he belittles or sabotages your efforts
Controlling behavior: He dictates who you see, what you do, or tries to control your thoughts and feelings. This includes jealousy, possessiveness, and snooping through your belongings
Poor communication: He avoids important discussions, makes you feel unheard, or communicates through insults, accusations, or silence
Inconsistent communication: He may disappear for long periods without checking in, or his communication is inconsistent, leading to a lack of connection
Lack of effort: He rarely makes time for you, forgets important things, or frequently cancels plans or picks fights that ruin them
Emotional and psychological signs
Chronic criticism: He constantly puts you down or makes negative comments about you
Disrespect: He makes you feel like you don't have a voice or opinion, insults you, or shares embarrassing information about you
Isolation: He actively tries to keep you from your friends and family to make you more dependent on him
Manipulation: He uses guilt, passive-aggression, or belittling to get you to act against your will
Possessiveness: He acts jealous or possessive, even going as far as to go through your belongings or social media.
Signs in the relationship's dynamic
Persistent unhappiness: The relationship is often filled with constant tension or dissatisfaction
No fun: Being with him is not enjoyable and often leads to feelings of unhappiness
No privacy: He may not respect your need for personal space or privacy
Lack of investment: He may be physically present but not emotionally invested, leading to a lack of shared experiences and activities

>tell friends to invest in xrp at around 0.5
>send them links/proof that it’s a sure short therm investment
>they buy
>in a year or so they make 6x
The only comment I got from only one of them was
>your fever dream was a good investment
glad I’m not friends with them anymore

>>33936165
Signs of a bad boyfriend include a lack of support, controlling behavior, and poor communication Other indicators are disrespect, constant criticism, isolation from friends and family, and a pattern of making you feel unhappy or inadequate.
Behavioral and communication signs
Lack of support: He doesn't encourage your goals or make you feel uplifted. Instead, he belittles or sabotages your efforts
Controlling behavior: He dictates who you see, what you do, or tries to control your thoughts and feelings This includes jealousy, possessiveness, and snooping through your belongings
Poor communication: He avoids important discussions, makes you feel unheard, or communicates through insults, accusations, or silence
Inconsistent communication: He may disappear for long periods without checking in, or his communication is inconsistent, leading to a lack of connection
Lack of effort: He rarely makes time for you, forgets important things, or frequently cancels plans or picks fights that ruin them
Emotional and psychological signs
Chronic criticism: He constantly puts you down or makes negative comments about you
Disrespect: He makes you feel like you don't have a voice or opinion, insults you, or shares embarrassing information about you
Isolation: He actively tries to keep you from your friends and family to make you more dependent on him
Manipulation: He uses guilt, passive-aggression, or belittling to get you to act against your will
Possessiveness: He acts jealous or possessive, even going as far as to go through your belongings or social media.
Signs in the relationship's dynamic
Persistent unhappiness: The relationship is often filled with constant tension or dissatisfaction
No fun: Being with him is not enjoyable and often leads to feelings of unhappiness
No privacy: He may not respect your need for personal space or privacy
Lack of investment: He may be physically present but not emotionally invested, leading to a lack of shared experiences and activities

>>33936164
Go hard in business and only live for those victories. You will make new friends without trying.

>>33936164
>no one really cares about what I’ve got going on or what I’m doing and it’s killing me
why do you need people to care about what you’ve got going?
especially people that are essentially strangers
answer this yourself

I can't do it. I have my own pride to think about.

>>33936266
So be it.

>>33936267
This

She was a ho, but I ain't gon' judge 'cause that was way befo'

I got this!

It's ok to smile! :)

>>33930606
let a dog lick my pussy when I was 11 and it died a week later, not sure if it was related

>>33936506
must've caught anisakiasis

>>33935773
Initial?

It's gonna be a jet 2 holiday

I know there's nothing to fear about creating. I do it with drawings, people love it. I did it with silly random video edits, people say I have good editing skills when it comes to sound design and jokes.

So why is it hard for me to create a genuine, longform video with my voice? Yeah I'm self conscious about my voice. Didn't use it that much when I was growing up. Now when I playback my voice, it almost always comes out mumbled, stunted, random pauses. I don't wanna come off as a person with a disability or who needs pity.

>>33936590
Dont try to control what other people think of you

>>33935790
I don't have to imagine
an accomplice once told me I have until 45 to start a family
then I can do reprehensibly evil activities without scrutiny until I meet the raw and unfiltered presence of the universe

I still think about you

>>33932875
Every time I read this I see how it is so manipulative and disgusting.
>I just hope the lies didn't make you hate me
Garbage person

>>33936200
What a nightmare of a person

Today I realized how ugly I am. My hairline is receding + big ass bald spot, my spine is curved and my back is covered in stretch marks, and I’m skinny fat.

I made so many men angry by saying I don't trust them as far as I can throw them and got called a tranny like 5 times, an incel, a black woman for some reason, accused of trying to win "points", it's all just so fucking funny. All wrong