Very little is pleasurable in life anymore. I've lost everyone in my life either to saying stupid shit while drunk or being too judgemental in some cases. I finally find a group of really cool guys I really like being around but immediately ruin it by getting drunk well beyond my limits and saying crazy things. There's obviously always more friends to make but these dudes are regulars at a barcade I love going to more than any place on Earth. Even worse, they run a monthly meetup for fans of a niche game genre that's my favorite. Now I'm getting close to becoming infamous at this place for being a drunk jerk and I've ostracized myself from a whole community of likeminded people.
>>33931148Sober up and be nice to people, you might undo some damage. Works well if you can organise or provide for social events.
>>33931170Yeah my last experience made me want to become sober for good. I'm typically fairly nice to people though I can make insensitive jokes sometimes. I just worry because my last long term friendship was destroyed by me drinking too much one night and saying and doing too much. I'm worried that another possible connection has already been severed by the same exact thing.
>>33931183You could try explicitly apologising to people effected and publicly giving up alcohol (which would help you do so in boozy settings if non alcy options are available)
>>33931195I did this but I worry it might not be enough. I literally just met these people and their first impression of me was that. It's not helped by the fact that I went there about a month ago, talked to another group of people and made myself look like a Nazi with all my jokes and shit. I feel like I'm one bad social interaction away from getting a PSA written about me in some Facebook group/Discord.
>>33931252Consistency then I guess. Or find a new scene while remaining sober.
>>33931279That's the thing, that WAS my scene. I've been in a couple of scenes at this point based off passing interests. I wasn't too upset when I left these scenes. But arcade gaming is my favorite thing in the whole world. Shmups are one of my favorite things in the whole world. I finally visit a place that's filled with people like me, that's the only place like it in America but I immediately fuck it up by not being socially conscious and drinking too much.
come there not drunk, with fresh mind, and begin a conversation just like nothing happened before. behave contradictive to how you did drunk, move strict, increase your humor level temporarily, don't miss a bad joke, be perfect at being not-drunk.if it doesnt help, do it several times
>>33931148Stop getting drunk
>>33931148lmaois that normalgo in the other direction and live to make other's suffer out of spite for other's are just as responsible as you are for the horrific state of the world You will find other Machiavelli types on your quests and once you get over the penultimate hump of regret, you will live vicariously through monsters and perhaps even leave a legacy of terror
>>33931148Fight, you lousy drunk! Can’t you fight?
>>33931148Who said you need pleasure, fag? You are here to fight. Fight!
>>33931148It is never over when you can still fight.
