Diagnosed with pretty severe depression.Last year, my childhood dog died. She was my best friend. I don't have any friends. Losing her thrust me into suicidal ideation. I don't have anything anymore. Around a month after she passed, my parents agreed to adopt again. We had the new dog for 2 weeks. I woke up one morning to my mom telling us she was returning him that afternoon. I've been very very depressed. I voluntarily admitted myself to the hospital last week as my suicidal ideation was peaking. I fought hard for my parents to agree to adopt again. Their stipulations were a bank account with 500 always in it, and for me to deep clean my bedroom.I haven't been able to sleep in my bedroom since my dog passed. Far, far too many associated memories. But i know adopting again will bring hope and structure back to my life, so I powered through it, and the room is deep cleaned. Furniture's moved aside, rug shampooed, windows wiped and everything. I fulfilled their stipulations. They said they want to paint the room. Fine, right? The ONE guy they are willing to go with won't be able to paint until January. They will not consider an alternative painter. Even with my promise to pay for it in full.My suicidal ideation is at an all time high. I fought and sobbed through wiping every last trace of my dog from my bedroom due to the promise of another one coming soon. They will not listen to me. They truly do not care. I tried to communicate how badly I'm doing. They know I am suicidal. I expressed I can't exist in this limbo for another 3 months. They do not care. I truly don't have anything left. My hobbies all bore me to tears. (Gaming + illustration) I've found myself sitting down to boot a game and then being like, "wait, what's the fucking point?" I don't know what to do. Each day is a horrible slog. I have nothing and no one. I don't think I'm going to last. What should I do?
Idk what to do with my days and my time. Nothing holds my interest, nothing brings me happiness.
Whew you know it's bad when you have to resort to 4chan and still get nothing.
Idk bro sounds rough, hope better days come for you soon
>>33931488Idk where you live, but look up pet loss support groups. A lot of big cities will have them, usually led by a licensed counselor. It can help
