I actually have friends and acquaintances who are willing to hang out with me. Some of them even reach out to me first in order to do so. However, I don’t really want to hang out with them. I couldn’t be bothered. Instead, I would rather stay home and fantasize (about having a life that is more satisfying than the one I have). It doesn’t seem “worth” hanging out with them, especially since I kept most of them around only because I thought they would have been good connections to have. They really annoy me despite being decent people. It feels like a drag to even consider planning anything with them. I only force myself to hang out with them so I can save face, be nice to them, and prevent myself from falling into true self-isolation rather than just staying on the borderline of it. Can anyone else relate? It feels like whether I am inside all day or outside with others, I feel trapped.
>>34555651I currently don't have any friends but I relate to this. Not necessarily the keeping them around because I think they're good connections part but definitely the rest of it.I think it's just a matter of preferring my own company and doing my own thing over having to compromise with the group, wait for people, that kind of thing because I don't understand what I'm meant to be getting out of doing the activity as a group unless it's literally required that there be multiple people to perform the activity. Like I have to go to my 3rd choice restaurant 45 minutes later than I wanted to for what exactly? So I have someone to talk to while I eat? Not worth it.
>>34555651you're isolated regardless, your interaction with them is superficial and isn't real, your psychological firewall is internally blocking social and emotional input from them anyway. they're probably aware of it on some level too. so why waste energy on pretending to like them?
>>34555704Oh god, I hope they're not aware it.
>>34555651Are you a chinese or some other kind of gook?
>>34556566they probably are. at best they'd think you're retarded, at worst it'd be mutual and their goal would be to take from you as much as they can. sane empathetic people would pick up on your disinterest because well they're empathetic and ditch you, and then you're left with psychos and people who pity you.
Do you actually feel a compulsion to hang out with other people, like a craving for social interaction?Also this inner world of yours more fulfilling than your real life?
>>34555651Just stop accepting their invitations and you will get your wish quickly
>>34556569No. I'm white. Why do you ask?>>34556602>Do you actually feel a compulsion to hang out with other people, like a craving for social interaction?Somewhat. The thing is, the people I do have in my life don't completely satisfy that urge. After I come home from hanging out with them, I feel relieved to head back home and wonder why I even bother going out.>Also this inner world of yours more fulfilling than your real life?Well yeah. That's why I retreat into this inner world in the first place. At the very least, it's more satisfying, amusing, and above all, sincere.
>>34555651>Can anyone else relate to this? I actually have friends and acquaintances No. No one on 4chan can relate to that
Trust me as someone who felt the way you do years ago but eventually lost my friends and loved ones, you do feel a worse pain if you lose them.Consider socialization something like eating healthy and exercise. Your brain is wired around needing it, regardless, so just put on a smile and go through it.
