last>>37293133qott what's your favourite kind of water
>>37301773Dihydrogen monoxide
>>37301792no i meant like carbonated or tap or well water or spring water or whatever
>>37301773I think I have a thing for him
>>37301796Thought this was sheen.
>>37301797Warm tap water
>>37301773CIA IS BLOCKING GOD
>>37301802yeh sesshoumaru is hot>>37301810decent choice, cold cold water can hurtimo well water is a lot nicer than tap/city water, but even a nice glass of room temperature or maybe very slightly cool tap water after a long walk or run or bike ride is just the most delicious thing imaginable
>>37301796you need more sleep cuz those bags make you look old. otherwise you’re gonna need to add chemical peels and a blepharoplasty to your looksmaxxing wishlist.
>>37301716>but I really like the open neighborhood the world feels alive and it's so great for immersion/storytellingi feel that. sims 4 just feels barebones compared to 3. the modern gaming industry has fallen. im running out of things to say because im so boring>>37301765can we play Minecraft with youactually, nvm. but does anyone want to play Minecraft or is everyone here a friendhaver that does cool things with their lives
>>37301773>qottI don't like water :(don't like how it tastes don't like how it feels on my skin
>>37301826>bags make you look oldmfw>>37301828i've never played multiplayer minecraftidk how i would manage moderation and i don't have money for a vpn so i could host without doxing myself to some degree>>37301833ugh but water tastes so good... maybe it's different in canada
>>37301826put chemical peels on eyes? i already do a chemical peel but not on eyes that sounds bad. i got an big acne scar and i’m trying everything to get rid of it but i think my modeling career might be over
>>37301853https://reddit.com/r/PlasticSurgery/comments/1epszpt/lower_blepharoplasty_chemical_peel_results_after/
>>37301875will any chemical work?
>>37301850i could host it later. it’s not hard. but, there wont be any of those special mods or whatever you use. it’s just vanilla so if ur picky and suffer from fried dopamine receptor syndrome. you may not like it but like I’m gonna host it way way later tho. im buying some furniture to comfymaxx while gamingill bring it up in like a week or so and ask again
>>37301883just sleep more. but if you’re gonna do it then get it done by a professional.
>>37301850eyes of a rapist
>>37301826Damn. Yikes , that hurt to read I will sleep now
Fuck I am tired. I went in at 9 A.M. and didn't get out till 8 P.M. Person who was supposed to be closing called in sick. I told the Phamracist I could do it, thinking an extra 3 hours wouldn't be that bad. I was so wrong. I am drained. What kinda beer does chat like? I need one.
>>37302142>What kinda beer does chat like? I need one.forever a malebrained incel
>>37302178UhhhSorry to tell you, but women do drink alcohol occasionally. I love wine.
imagine drinking alcohol lmfao holy cope much???whats wrong, you cant handle life sober?
all beers are gross. i drink steel reserve. gets the job done. i usually drink a 40oz daily. im probably going to stop. today is the first time ive been sober in months. ill give it a week before i drink again.
>>37302219>steel reservewhat chu kno about that? prolly nothin
>>37302219I've been non-sober a total of 5 times in my life. Drunk first when Kentaro Miura died, high in Washington state off some weed, drunk again here in Utah with my first set of roommates, we celebrated me getting up here, learned I'm a very lightweight drunk, 4th time was when I was sad. 5th was actually relatively recent, had a FtM friend over, and he and I drank some Wine together, cuddled, and fugged.
>>37302219>>37302248explains why you guys look so dysgenic
>28, fat, in a long term gay relationship>only now really questioning my genderFUCK
>>37302265i havent posted pics since i started drinking
not even on hrt or anything yet, but since realizing Im mtf,>sex drive plummeted and continuing to fall>appetite plummeted and continuing to fall>tolerance for alcohol and weed plummeted and continuing to fallwhats going on
>>37302288eesh its worse than i thought then
>>37302265I haven't posted a pic in awhile, and I'm back on losing weight. Eating less, and getting on the treadmill every day after work. My routine is this >Wake up, brush teeth, shower, drink a protein shake>Go to work>Skip lunch>Power through the rest of the day and fight off hunger pains>Eat something small for dinner >Treadmill>Go to bed or talk to my friends
parrot day drinkinghttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f_JygUgiweI
>>37302142Warsteiner if you can find a place that sells it. Trader Joe's has got it sometimes.Asahi for something more common.
Hey nerds! How r u tonight?
>>37302399drinkin steel reserve 211 8.1
>>37302399who is sass>>37302317idgi
OH SHIThttps://www.criterion.com/films/29429-no-country-for-old-men4K, FINALLY
hello computer people
>>37302399>How r u tonight?regretting most my life
>>37302672hihi
>>37302737I wish I could hit a reset button
qott blue>>37301054ps1 hagrid>>37301176samegrindr is calling to me I need to get laid
>>37302840cool moomin shirt
>>37302840bro you're literally out there sucking dicks and you think you aren't popular, how bpd are you?
>>37302823I wish I had the courage to end myself >>37302840>i have started driving for uber eats for money, it's alrightgrats frendon't let the machine grind you down too hard
>>37302896oh shit fair nvm
>>37301773I would let a dude with a body like that do unspeakable things to me
>>37302840I tip $3 on grub hub. I'll bump it to $10 if you deliver my food and let me feel your ass a little
>>37302955lel
>>37302840so you’re making porn now
Made a post on this board a little bit ago about my already feminine appearance and how I suddenly started realizing I was trans after a bar experience. Went on some rant about defying fate. Since then I came out to some friends. And they all already knew, had guessed long before I did. Is this good? Is this bad? Did I win or lose? They're all treating me like a girl, so I guess nothing's wrong???
>>37302981i hope youre doing good. i think youre cute and id be sad if i ever stopped seeing you here
>>37302961Seriously though, good job getting out and working. I know it sucks for now, but things will get better. Not rotting is that best decision you could make
>>37302896isnt laf friends/irl acquaintance with wren
Oof I think I (You)'d wrong >>37302981>>37303000
>>37303028Good luck Marie. Working a shit job really motivates you to seek something better for yourself, to use your educational background instead of doing robotic shit like delivery or retail. Hope you get sth better soon
william the conqueror was the correct heir, godwinson was a usurper, completely illegitimate tanist conspiracy
Anyone else think the whole trans puppygirl thing feels a little astroturfed? Like a psyop almost?
>>37303100it's just a trend, npc zoomers pick up on them and it becomes their personality for that cycle
>>37303100not reallyI see it else where outside of here it's just pretty common now
>>37303100not. pupby
heck when I was in highschool I knew a kid who'd wear her fetish dog collar to schooleven would let people lead her around with the leash sometimes
>>37303130met a girl who identified as a dog oncedidn't know her game
>>37303130this wasn't any of the transwomen I knew either anon is rightit's a very zoomer
>>37302981well someone posted a webm of you sucking dick
>>37303137I've only ever seen news coverage and internet talk about otherkinwere they cool? like as in a nice person
>>37303155she seemed nice, desu I was weirded out by it cause lack of internet and very conservative upbringing, scene kid is an insult around here
>>37303152damnI remember there used to be a guy who I'd see on the bus always wearing a clipon fox taildon't know much else about him besides that and the fact that sometimes I would see young people pick on him over the tailI always liked seeing unique people on busrides tholike this one guy who was big and had a big beard and always was wearing what appeared to be a cloak but when asked he'd call it a "medieval blanket"cool bus weirdos are the best
>>37303187I wish I had this kind of bus weirdo instead of violent teenagers
>>37303187you live around white ppl>>37303192you live around black ppl
>>37303208nope all white
>>37303100u think cargirls are astroturfed, too? and bunnygirls?
>>37303165>lack of internet and very conservative upbringingfair>scene kid is an insult around hereI remember pre 2010 emo was sorta a dirty word around herebut my brother got me into like my chemical romance and fallout boy anyways
>>37303162fuck that I’m sorry hopefully lessoned learned
>>37303234I didn't really have an upbringing
>>37303208back when I'd see medieval blanket guy I actually lived in the poorer more coloured part of this cityand not a extremely white almost all jewish neighborhood like nowthe worst people to meet on the busare white people after a hockey gamehands downdo not go out at night on game night
>>37303230>cargirlsik it’s typo but need. mine’s been making this weird noise for months ..
>>37303192>violent teenagersouchyoung people here tend to like to crowd the back of the bus and be loud but not violent get some scary crazies sometimes tho
>>37303272it's fairly rare but inevitably you're going to see someone drunk at 10am trying to catch the bus
>>37303295>you're going to see someone drunk at 10am trying to catch the buskek that's meI was that person before succumbing to being a shutin
>>37303311I don't imagine you starting a fight over it tho
>>37303329yeah, nahmore likely to cry and fall on the floor than anything else drunk
>>37303337lol same
hurt my thumb tendon somehow yesterday fml how am i supposed to gym when i can't grip weights.>>37301773>qottsparkling.
>>37303380sounds like u won the rest day lottery. also sounds like you might need some gloves if you don’t have them already
>>37303380heya you make it through the night okay
>>37303420heya yourself maiq. fell asleep early ln sry if you responded after, hope you’re doing well :)
>>37303418yay. i think i hurt it holding my phone too much binging a tv show over the past few days. love being old lol.>>37303420hihi got my six hours in melatonin finally kicked in.
>>37303472>hurt it holding my phoneah yeh, been there. good news is thatll heal a lot faster than a weightlifting injury, just don’t push it or it’ll turn into a rest week
i sit at the back of the bus and stare out the window or sit on my phone and ppl still try to bother me i hate it i just take ubers now
Any spiritual or dream interpreter trans girls?Recently un repressed and decided I'm gonna transition I had a dream where my childhood home had neighbours who were shadow people with red eyes, they had a shadow dog with red eyes too, they looked threatening and spooky but didn't do anything or feel threateningThen a homeless women came out of my house after I locked it, then I shouted at her to leave this was my house, I forgot my hrt (I don't take the pills yet) and it started snowing and then 3 more homeless people showed up and tried to get into my house, the locks wouldn't work Then I phoned the police and woke upWhat does it mean
>>37303452hello frauke I had calzone for dinner just livin it up hbu>>37303472poor thumb
>>37303552>calzonefuck now i want one. or pizza…..watched Rec while on treadmill earlier, prob going to watch the 2nd or some anime before turning in. decent for found footage/spooky season but nothing special
>>37303597Rec ?big recommend for calzone btw so delicious
>>37303657Rec is a spanish found footage movie sry for confusion! remade as Quarantine in the US (version i watched as a youngin), basic zombie plot etc etcwonder if any pizza places are still open..
>>37303721oh I have been watching a 7 Day To Die let’s,play on YT so also in the zombie mood
>>37303760it’s fast paced, short, and free (in US) so won’t hurt to check out! food has been ordered :P
>>37303760>7 Day To DieI played that on gamepass when I was living with my brotherkinda jank but kinda funI liked it
tfw no blacked gf
>>37302888>>37302896i want to see pls
>get worried about transition >remember I have a house, woke corpo job and money for ffsI need to relax.
(girl from 2001): New farscape intro sucks balls
losers
https://youtu.be/9K0QAlEqXHg?Rep coming to terms with transition, I know I have gender dysphoria, I know this is inescapable My repression used to be perfect, I could browse this board outside rep gen and never feel anything I'm scared that this change was made by outside forces, 5g, subliminal emetic warfare through this board, witchcraft
>transition when you're old>relax
Is mitfug still fugged? is it safe to come out now?
i wish my chair was as comfortable as my bed so i could sleep in it
>>37304421this thread is a great place to come out :^}
This is the worst hell, I hope I choke in my sleep
>>37304526if you're a faggot maybe
>>37304529whats up my dude
I went to bed with a dreadful feeling of agp shame, it was right after I tried looking up porn for the first time in months. Tranny porn and shitty feminization hentai. It just hit me about how vile I used to be. Chasing that high that never came, cause it doesn’t matter how much you fantasize that ain’t you.Anyway I slept and woke up thinking to myself…wtf am I doing right? Like not even questioning my identity straight up…why am I transitioning in the first place? The feeling didn’t last long, but for a moment I wasn’t feeling dysphoric or anything just weirded out at my still male body and what I am doing to it.It’s so weird isn’t it? My male parts aren’t useful or functional anymore, but the rest of my body isnt exactly in line either. As if…I am just killing myself for nothing.Guess that’s what happens when you transition so late. Hrt won’t do much. Even my boobs are still tiny so many months in…frustratingBut the worst part is my reluctance to just progress socially and in other physical ways. Clothes and cosmetic changes for once. So annoying right. Not that dysphoria doesn’t exist but I’m just…idk what kind of hesitant. Too afraid to be social and seen as what I am I guess:Agpmalemoder.So I just don’t bother to get the help I need from those who could help me. And I’m too dumb to figure anything hung myself especially shit that Google won’t answer.Oh well.
>>37304603Ah nothing dude it don't matter, I cut my shit up over nothing heaps because I'm a schizo cunt. Is coooool.
hate when people "keep in touch" with extremely sporadic two word repliesif you're saying a dozen words and a gif to me in a year you're not maintaining a friendship you're just making yourself feel like you aren't ignoring me
>>37304628come on just tell the story browe're all friends here
he didn't tell the story, motherfucker
you mother fucking fucker little faggot hmm
i love you you faggot
>>37305041never get them cut sweet angel
I can’t even get myself to ask for helpI’m so patheticAt this rate I’ll waste an other month doing nothing
>>37305041meds...
Had another dream where my Mother was nice to me...again............
>had another migraine plus nightmares>wake up more tired than when i went to sleep>tfw probably not going for a run todaykms sobbing etc>>37305070what's happening
>>37305089Need to ask someone a question about something but I just really feel anxious over doing that and I’m just procrastinating on it.It’s not even a weird question I think I’m just scared of interacting
>>37301773My boyfriend wants to pay my bills. We live together and he wants to take me back to build us a house on the land he owns in Mexico. But we both wish we could have kids in some way, he wants me to be able to stay home and raise a child. Obviously that's physically not possible but aside from that on paper he has no work history as he's always worked for cash under the table, with family, handiwork, etc. Right now I'm the breadwinner with my office slop job and i hate it. He failed a drug test for a good paying job that he finally got a call back for after applying to a bunch of places (most don't bother bc no verifiable work history). And he got hammered at work and drove home fucked up again. I'm so tired why can't I just fix him
>>37304587
gm gm
Hey girls hope u are all doing well. Hang in there it'll be ok
>>37305568hi gm darling
>>37305597We can only hope
>>37305734real
Time for workEverything sucksI hope a rock falls and kills everyone
>>37305734Stop hurting yourself first
are these agp? my ears aren’t pierced but i bought them to manifest it
>>37305734Yea, why are there people like this? I've never felt the need to hurt anybody. If I'm hurting others its to teach them a lesson. So they stop hurting people. It's so chaotic to just be mean for no reason. It's the opposite of human nature.I think it means they were hurt carelessly too I guess.
>>37305826Unironically trauma, I don't want to hurt anyone either
>>37305834What was the trauma, if you don't mind talking about it?
>>37305812>unholy earings>features a holy symbol >also cross of saint peterkek??
>>37305850Oh not me lol, I had a normie upbringing
>>37305853true lol, i guess newage people think an upside down cross is unholy when its actually even more pious as it means they're not worthy of it upright, only jesus was
>>37305734therapy and ocd medication
>>37305870it’s the thought that counts
hi thread hope ur well
>>37305899not gonna argue with that but the star needs to be inverted aswell inverted star makes the goat face shape and so is pretty stylistically "satanist" or pagan or whatever you're going for
>>37305594hello Clara Bella how is your morning goingI got stuck in traffico
>>37305906hey hey !
>>37305917yes the star annoys me i’m not a gay wiccan
>>37305919im doing okayyy im nervous about work right now because my team lead told me to do something that I haven't done but neither of us are clear on how to do it. im just watching a movie in the background though. i just remember I also need to do a report for work today so I'll just work on that now actually
Why do I constantly feel sick latelyLike mental fog and wanting to rot in bed more than usual. Unmotivated too, I have so much shit to do…
>>37305938holaaahow ya goin
>>37305976Levels good? If they both crash it makes you feel like shit
>>37305957similar situation w mewe will get through it !>>37306012it’s going it’s going hbu
>>37305906hiya
Checked where my sumo pull is atCould be worseAlso seem to have had a whoosh in water retention because end of week 3 was 224lbs and now I'm 220 a couple days into week 4
>>37306065You can do it, break the cycle, be the positive change. You can express your pain without being abusive
>>37306050an embarrassment and mockery of trans women. youre not even close to mimicking the female form. youre just a delusional manape living a fetish
>>37306065please just kill yourself already. it wont be bad i promise, youre brave and strong you can do it!!
>>37306040ehi'm really burnt out i thinki wish i could take a sabbatical or something>>37306041ahoy naz
>>37306050sry about: >>37306131i cant help it. i just like hurting other people how to stop feeling the need to do that
>>37306065you’ve been through a lot, and your pain is real and valid, but you need to realize you don’t know what others have been through either. they could be going through more than you can imagine. it will take a conscious effort to start changing things, but once you do, your autopilot will catch up. i believe you can find the empathy and understanding you deserve. sorry if anything i said felt judgy. that wasn’t my intention.
>>37306190haha sike. i never felt sry about that. im a fly that feeds off shit. that ugly ass gym orc-looking thing should off himself
can’t stop thinking about all the wasted years
>>37306315u mean the dark ages?
>>37306409all my ages are dark
why am i so unlikable? what is wrong with me? how can they all tell i’m bad?
>>37306183take me w you pls I could use one too
>kaiser's online system is downGuess I'll see what my care team had to say later
>>37306565im sure it's nothing importantprobably a message saying that their system will be offline for standard maintenance lol
slurping on daddy cock!
>>37306508youre probably just different and we have insticts that make us attack things we don't understand youre fine, theyre fine, move on
Larry’s a guy with a face kind of grim,An odd-looking fella, not sleek or too slim.He lives in a caravan, messy and small,A grumpy old man, not charming at all.With mismatched clothes and a permanent frown,He’s the talk of the town, but not in renown.He’s rough and he’s tough, but not very spry,Larry’s just Larry, the ugly old guy!
>>37306614lived experience>>37306626why do i have to be different? why can’t be normal? if different is not bad then why does it make me feel bad?
>>37306680Because they're anon, no repercussions. I like to think of anon as personified intrusive thoughts helps me filter
>>37306654nice poem
Larry one day had a curious thought,He'd trade in his trousers for something he’s not.He ditched his old boots and his grubby old cap,And stepped into heels with a wig and a snap.He fumbled with dresses, with lipstick and flair,But tripped on his hem and messed up his hair.Larry tried hard, but it didn’t quite land,He’s still the same Larry, just in high demand!
>>37306690being different is a huge blessing. cookie cut people just get ate up, you get an experience that gives you profound insight.
>>37306713it doesn’t feel like profound insight it feels like pain i want to know people and be known
Larry was fuming, his plan went awry,He glared at his mirror and let out a sigh.With makeup all smudged and his wig tossed aside,He logged onto 4chan, where anger can hide.He typed out his rants with fury and speed,Trolling the forums to spite and to feed.He’s Larry the menace, the keyboard crusade,Spewing his outrage in every tirade.He’s bitter and loud, with a grudge he can’t shake,Larry’s online, and it’s havoc he'll make!
>>37306743you are. dozen or so hear you right now and you have your whole life ahead of you. keep smiling and being positive and your life will get abundant with love
>>37306770it’s not reallife continuously gets worse and more isolating
mef (me) and larry (her) should star in a buddy movie with us as the buddies
>>37306780youre in a death spiral. we shape our reality in a feedback loop. you need to make an effort to break that. start going on walks and talk to people wherever you are.i promise you will be seen as a fresh breath of air
>>37306787i'd watch it
>>37306786fake it till you make it actually works if you put energy into it too
>>37306788but they don’t like me and they don’t like talking to me and i don’t like talking to them because they don’t like talking to me
>>37306036I think so last time they were 130~ e and bottoming TMaybe I fucked up my last injection but I doubt anything out of the ordinary happened
hey gals do you have any experience regarding otokonoko shipping outside of brazil? are they easy to work with? how long would it take for them to deliver assuming minimal meddling by customs?
>>37306600My EC is apparently back ordered and they're looking for a different manufacturer
>>37306839i think nobody likes or dislikes anybody, they're made up concepts, like being 'cool'. everybody is just on autopilot and not really thinking about anything but themselves.if you had some bad experiences, think of them as tests to grow. now if you pass the tests people have huge respect for you. grace is admirablethat being said, you can always improve your charisma by talking with lots of people one on one and work on being funny and making people smile. have faith and patience and just invest your energy wisely. i think everybody secretly loves each other, but we pretend we're so different
>>37306839have you tried not being a creep?
>>37306922there was a customer at work that had a lot of one on one conversations with us and no one liked him cuz he was weird>>37306925i don’t know how! i don’t even know why am creep! i just is! is there surgery to correct?
>>37306965you should stick up for them. another test you are failing
>>37307016they made me feel uncomfortable. some people are just bad and wrong unfortunately we should bring back asylums
>>37307025asylums are still around? ive been in a few. how exactly did the customer make you feel weird? if you want to lock up weird people you'd have to lock up everybody
>>37307050i don’t think they’d let me live in the asylums he was just weird and yeah and talked a lot and was not normal
>>37306999>wknot wanting to read the self-loathing and lashing out is madTrips of truth so I guess I must be
>>37307169ThisBodySoulBrainMindSpiritAll male
>>37307169um no, medical science doubles ever 2 months! and that numbers goes down daily. we're in a time of exponential growth as a speciesyou're born in a time of infinity possibilitiesif you only had a little faith
your all gay and boring can someone post something interesting
>>37307069hello meanmoder how are you today
>>37307214hello anon what's a song you like
>>37301773Lemon water.I'm really happy with the way I look from a frontal perspective, but I feel like I'm pretty ghastly from a three-quarters or profile view. FFS can't come soon enough.
>>37307227cope =/= facts
rainy day but still pretty warmmaybe it will be proper autumn next week
>>37307227good post ill take it into consideration >>37307229https://youtu.be/CqUdEc2cJMo
>>37307217i was feeling good because i was imagining romantic fantasies with ex bff but then reality settled in and i remembered that i will never be happy or have anything
>>37307256hmm not my taste exactly, what do you like about this kind of music?
>>37307273oh I do that too except I've never had a bff
>>37307313which others? why?
>>37307293its high energy and very cathartic while also being kinda emo
speaking words is so hard and working hard to do the man voice doesn’t help
Is watching anime for girls cringe
>>37307761what, like mlp?
>>37307871Maho shoujo…
>>37306892oh shiti had that and it took months and still didn't get a refillmaybe you could ask your doctor to switch to EV, since that's more available (at least it was for me, it got filled without issue)
>>37307949Yeah I'll probably switch back and just do higher frequency injectionsWeekly EV made me want to die the day before next shot, which is why we swapped to cyp
>>37307978??i don’t notice anything? u shuld be thankful it’s like having a period i never do my injection
Anyone else avoid trans related vids or things?Idk kinda…awkward for me to see trans people and I’m just this creature who can barely relate
>>37308030I tend to engage with them even more than when I was an egg because I like a sense of community
I want a misogynist ex incel bf who will listen to picrel with me…
>>37308030>>37308047yes i would consume so much trans content when pretrans and baby trans and now just seeing a tranny in a thumbnail gives me panick attack
>>37308047Oh I do engage with trans people just not trans related media.I still feel like I’m quite the outsider since I’m so old and barely trans by comparison. Although I’ve been trying to fix the last part
>>37308047>>37308072Pre trans I was terrified of those. Like they would damage me or make me feel less. IdkFaketranny moment. Agp brainworms and fear of being not trans enough and that being revealed. Maybe it’s still the same
>>37308081What constitutes "barely trans"?
anybody else desperate for dick>>37308062i used to flirt w that guy on twitter lol
>>37308030seeing pretty trans ppl makes me feel dysphoric and their voices usually too.>>37308197kinda. flirt from a friend is the highlight of my day but dude lives so far away.
>>37308108IdkHonestly I just feel extremely masculine in comparison and can’t seem to change thatBody aside ofc I’m talking behavior and way of thinking.I just fuck my body up in desperate attempts to changeBut idk I seem to lack something that all other trans people haveMaybe>>37308267Yeah dysphoria due to comparing myself seems like a daily occurrence
Was picking out some clothes and was lowkey turned on by my own body but not because it looked like a woman's but because it looked twinked out. I really should start wearing tighter clothes
>>37308337If it helps put you at ease there's a whole spectrum of femininity which includes butch/masc on itJust because you aren't a pretty princess gigafemme doesn't make you less trans, and a lot of the other stuff will improve somewhat with hormones and social ties
>>37301773>what's your favourite kind of waterour family cabin has it's own well and the water is crazy cold and fresh. Best water I've ever drank.>>37308197>anybody else desperate for dickI think I'm more desperate for a man to hold me. Dick is only a means to get there
>>37308391Mhm I get what you mean. And yeah being more social has helped a lot. I just feel reserved and a bit like an outsider more often than not. Maybe it will get betterI guess I’m still deep in the manmode and not out to people. Still struggling with taking new steps etc. and the struggle feels double when I doubt myself and see others get things right.I’m many months on hrt it feels like I’m barely accepting myself.
murder murder murder murder murder
>>37301773Bruh
>>37308471Based
i tried doing some freddy booger makeup first attempt could def do better okay?? >:(
kat did u watch the latest one piece episode..they adapted this chapter so well oh man
>>37308537eewww that looks so gnarly
>>37308537it looks like acne>>37308552>one slop
>>37308729yes! a lot of it is real scars! i’ve been preparing for a while!>>37308721thx
is it hard to sew belt loops onto a skirtor to undo changes if you fuck upive never touched a thread or needle in my life, skimming guides online it looks straightforward but im really shaky doing work on tiny things>qottcoconut water is good idk if thats being too obtuse with the question though>>37308537thats v gross looking so good job maybe
>>37308741idk but you should try with a pair of cheap pants or something
>>37308741why do you need a belt for a skirt? just take it in so it actually fits
>be me>be repper>have breakdown about how I haven't got to be a woman >Doesn't stop until I promise to myself I'll try and transition>feel better and more scared and cringe at my confessionNow that those feeling are back in the subconscious, tempted to scam her and not do it, hohoho delightfully devilish repmourThoughts?
>>>/wsg/5682637what do we think of the performance? this is who maiq thinks is a GREAT act"ress"
>>37308805keep repping soldier
maybe I should be a sexy nurse for halloween. i think samarjeet would like it
>>37308850Dress up as a boy :)
>>37308778yeah good ideai was partly asking because i just rly dont wanna mess this thing up>>37308784i dunno how to do that either :/ sewing belt loops sounded like the more straightforward thing and i have one that looks nice with it so i wanted to do thatthe one time i wore it i just pinched the side and stuck a safety pin into iti dont know anything about this stuff at all
>>37302219Damn, you're still here. I remember when you were 16. Now you're old enough to drink lol. What is 40oz? Is that a lot?>>37302399You're still here too, holy shit. Did you ever get out of Guatemala? Border has been wide open for a while.
>>37308343AGP
>>37308834I don't wanna, I'm gonna troon
>>37308906https://www.dreamcutsew.com/10-steps-to-altering-a-skirt-waist/you can just google how to take in a skirt at the waist or whatever, there's lots of resultshere's one that looks decent
>>37308946do you want to disappoint me(repgod)?
>>37308976Didn't you manage to get hrtits? nice repping lol
>>37309025stfu, everyone makes mistakes, i am on test now and i want you to not make the same mistakes also, i am def not malicious at all
>>37309025literally on a call with my team lead unironically repeating myself and saying "did you just hear what I said though" 3 times over and over and my team lead was not answering me a single time and just kept talking *at* me
>>37308537pretty cool !
>>37309082U should totally try to date bro
I didn’t consume female and queer media growing up and now all my mannerism are from anime and Jim Carey movies
i don’t trust women to be intelligent
>>37309105alrighty then-
>>37309082terribly frustratingmanaging people well requires a lot of skill and so many companies neither consider during hiring nor provide for training about it on the job
>>37309105ssssssmokin’
all my mannerisms come from a movie called “American Psycho”
>>37309114meegy wyt of >>37308814
i just want an Indian boyfriend so badly…..
not a fan of the fake meanmoder
>>37309114yupppp, so im just resigning and trying not to care too much basically
>>37309151i am NOT meanmoder there are moders meaner than i
All my mannerisms come from people I look up to. I just absorb them and it's really embarrassing when people notice. I think I may have autism>>37309082Been there lol. Not sure what I do wrong sometimes I feel invisible
Wasted my youth repressing Didn't even get laid as the alpha male I pretended to be onlineI swear I was a teenager yesterday thinking "puberty will fix this"
>>37309179yup
>>37309160Marie is one of them fatass thought I was gonna pay for their dinner I said nay, and to my dimay I was slandered
>>37309179>I swear I was a teenager yesterday thinking "puberty will fix this"Painfully relatable lmao. Gaslit myself into thinking it was just a phase
>>37309174well for me its not that im invisible since im being told to do things but its more so that im treated as tho im incompetent
>>37309160your said I was CRINGE though so you are MEANmoder for now
>>37309204u were probably being cringe and i was just trying to help
>>37309214oh I hadn't considered that sorry and thank you helpfulmoder
If I was on hrt for 3 years and off for 2, It's still better than starting from scratch at the age I am now? Thought I could repress but my feminised brain chemistry won in the end I can't even pretend to be a man
All my mannerisms come from whoever I'm talking to at the time I'm like zelig from zelig I have no natural state
goshhh i miss ex bff soo soo soooo much ugh kms it hurts how badly i want to kiss him and cuddle and be with him and see his smile and make him happy i want him so bad ugh ugh crying
wish i had feminized brain chemistry and couldn’t pretend to be a man but i do it rather well>>37309247it’s called being a manipulative bpdemon
>>37309179so fucking realno personality to speak ofno identityempty shell for others>its just pornMaybe it was
>>37309253when people say bff what do they mean? I thought it meant best friend forever
>>37309266No...just like David goggins taught me...I CANT GIVE UPI have to try first
>>37309255I think that's one of the disorders I don't haveunless...
>>37309269that's what i meanmy ex best friend (forever)bc ex best friend would abbreviate to ex bf, which is ambiguous bc it could also be boyfriendhe was never my boyfriend, though i love him dearly. he's straight
>>37309373oh ok
whats up?
>>37309440my penor
y’all ever look at your steam library and go “holy shit i bought that? i’ve wanted to play that game for years!” ?
>have crushing suicide inducing gender dysphoria>pain is so sharp and real, feel the sorrow of a being a woman unexpressed>it passes>disassociate >rep personality takes over >"I'm not trans" >repeat Fighting against the fibre of my being to talk to this therapist next week, because the cycle repeats and I have to break it somehow...
>>37309487so much this!
>>37309487this but I feel like iwnbaw instead and its just me fighting the urge to detrans and the sadness from being a fucking joke nontrans male manthat was a few weeks ago, I think, therapy helpedtalking with people also did
>be me>be tranner>get attempted mugged>escape after throwing a punch>my brain: fighting back eh, how malebrained of you >feel bad
>>37309450you seem in a good mood for once
>>37309516actually no i’ve been paralyzed with fear all day and have been doing nothing but rocking back and forth at my desk too scared to exist
Will my transition be ok if I'm richOnly thing stopping me from repping
s'literally s'fucking s'over
>>37309482ye.. hopefully they discover immortality soon so I can beat them all
>>37309527you need a coping mechanism
>>37309390i seriously love him so much thoughit was a nice day out and i played w the dog outside and sat down and felt like crying bc i wish i could be sharing the moment with him instead of being alone or w my mother
>>37309558wtf...
>>37309576I don't think I've had friends since I was like 8, maybe that's good so I have nobody to miss
>stopping overthinking tranner doom spiral thoughts with my old repper self improvement quotesI can't be anyone else except myself, it's my job to improve it
>>37309558>925 games owned >19% completedholy adhd
>>37309599yea i have the worst adhd on earth. meds dont even help me
>>37309527just stop?
>359 games>29% completionit is overthough honestly that's thrown off from the game packs i've bought when they were super on sale
>>37309615are you on Adderall ? You need more speed
who tf actually buys video games lol
>>37309618stop? i’m not doing anything
>>37309635i kept getting panic attacks from it and couldnt sleep. im currently on a high dose of strattera
ppl who don't have sex
also how tf do u even have almost 1 thousand gamesim 30 and have been using steam since like the mid-late 200s, so like at least 15 years, and im pretty into computer games, and i only have 359i can't imagine how much of their rich parents' money a 20 year old spaniard must spend to have that many games in such a short time>>37309643me i pirate some but a lot i don't
>>37309659i have sex and then play games
>>37309657I hated speed the few times I tried it. Why anyone would like that feeling is beyond me.
one time i did meth i had fun i’d do it again
never done sexnever done drugsnever done rock and roll
wish I had more ketamine
>>37309664my account is probably older than yours and i bought everything myself. countless hours slaving on templates and other projects. i get to work fom home though
drugs are for the weakthe strong bitch on mongolian basket weaving forum 24/7
>>37309714oh is this not lasagna
Uber eats has been slow today :/ I've made half as much as i did yesterdayall this driving is helping me get acquainted with the local geography thoughfor example, i always drove past el segundo but i never actually stopped byturns out it's this cute little relatively affluent beach town sandwiched between the airport and an oil refineryi took this pic of a Bentley with one of the big refinery towers behind it lol
>>37309817*inserts dick sucking gif*
>>37309817oops
>>37309771No.
>>37309830webm*eat that if you are too hungry and you cannot wait hoe
shuld play bugsnax tonite or omori?
>>37309839shouldn't u be posting ur unwashed junk in mmg?
>>37309833oh ok that makes more sense>>37309817>>37309832>bentleywtfthat's not a bentleythis is a bentley
Fucking slow ass shit artstation reeeeeee lemme finish my shit>>37309677>i did meth i had fun i’d do it againMany such cases!
why don't we play a multiplayer game together
>>37309849>bugsnaxkinda cringe dark n edgy take on a kids show, millennial slop basically>omoriextremely cute but too heartbreakingi couldn't play it past the first few minutes bc it made me cry sunny x basil is otp tho
>>37309849bugsnax :33>>37309854nawr it's def a Bentleyidk much abt bentleys but theyre not that uncommon a sight in LA so i def recognize them
Trying not to regress, dysphoria doesn't go awayI need to transition, I can hide, I need to take my pillsI can hide I can hide I can hideJust take the fuckin pills
>>37309871i am scared of people>>37309876i guess i’ll just continue to rock back and forth in my chair and worry
>>37309912Do it anone
>>37309912don't do it
>>37309917you can't be more scared of people than I amI don't mean like using mic and stuff either just stuff with virtual avatars
>>37309974why tho?
>>37309912do not transitiondo not disappoint me soldier
>>37309985
>>37309288lol david goggins would tell u to transition
>>37309980why play vidya gaem? I'm just really lonely and want to make friends
>>37309852HON
>>37310020
>>37310020No that's what I'm saying, I'm gonna give transition the same energy
>>37310036oh ic. good on u
>>37310029>want to make friendssounds like i AM more afraid of people than you
isn't david goggins the crisis actor from the parkland shooting
>>37310051you go outside and stuff you have to be less afraid than me
>>37310056thats david hogg
>>37310035that is really wholesome, makes me a little bit less racist, just a little bit, i still hate darkies and shitskins..
>>37310083>says the gyppo
>>37310089i am white but i am not racist, i am ok with darkies as long as they do not act like monkeys, sadly most of them do so yea..
really can't imagine being a horrible racist personreally really can't imagine being a horrible racist person that posts their face and penis online
I am just a fucking manAn old useless man who will never be young and a girlIt is overI cantI AM TIREDI AM DONE
>>37310203you're being boringmake your breakdowns interesting to me
>>37310201fr
>>37310214is that papyrus
>>37310225the font?
>>37310236the font
>>37310201just look at the haitians that were brought to america and took over a town and trashed it, it is not even abt race, migrants are fucking awful, if europe would have not been infested with them also, i would have never felt the need to be racist, but they do not belong here, i do not hate you for being brown, i hate you for being somewhere where you do not belong and leeching off the local population while they suffer.. in some countries the governament cares more about the immigrants and give them more money than they care abt or help the local population, it is mind blowing and all of this so you no longer have a job or have to work longer hours or for less bc the immigrant dude is willing to work for peanuts, capitalism is evil and fucking horrible..
>>37310273>leeching>work for peanuts
boy wieners in ma mouth
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3WuKPVnrGGU
>>37309917>I guess I'll just continue to rock back and forth in my chair and worry do u ever curl up in a ball under ur desk and crythat's what i do when i can't deal with stuffmy desk and chair hides me from view which makes it better
>>37310291they leech at the beginning, they are an investment, that is why the government cares abt them, also not all of them will even work, most will just keep on leeching and causing trouble..
>>37310210what do you want a detailed explanation?>no dysphoria till I was 19>nothing to show as signs>repress for almost an other decade because lmoa imagine not doing that>brainwormed to hell from blanchard shit and then back to it because I am a porn sick adolescent and adult who used hentai and garbage like that to induce dysphoria in me>waste money DIYing, stopping, and wasting my time repressing extra>no feminine brain or soul or anything, just faggot>vaguely reimbuse my brain with false memories to feel more valid>gaslight myself into thinking I am truly trans>constantly doubt myself and have no idea what my identity is>cant even transition properly, all dysphoria stems from dysmorphia, my body is disgusting because i believe it to be>will never pass(faux truth, you dont need to pass to be happy)>constantly jealous, coveting literally entire lives from other trans people>unrelatable to them all the same>will never be touched by an other human being>will die alone and buried with my male bones and name
>>37310312migrants tend to be old enough they don't need investing in with stuff like schooling, so they're actually cheaper to get into work than a native baby
>>37310335are you still repping now?
>>37310368nomonths on hrtMONTHSstill no progress in my transition on most fronts, literally manmoding everwhereI feel male af and I am male af
need weightlifter gf
>>37310376Months is legit nothing please relax
>>37310376it's not going to do much at 29 unless you are really lucky apart from maybe fix your internal brain function that t seems to breakyou can learn to accept your fate and live in the little space left to you, I can help with that
>>37310431hrt does nothing>>37310454>fix your internal brain function that t seems to breakHOOOOOOOOOLY HON SCIENCE
i paid 10$ for items in a minecraft server and they still haven't delivered them i think i was scammed :/
>>37310395you are clearly racist lmao
>>37310462Objectively untrue by like, any metric
>>37310462how is that hon science? plenty of trans women talk about being able to think and function better after taking hrt
>>37310473kek>>37310492placebo
>>37310431SHUT UP MOST TRANNIES I KNOW ARE>out to everyone and express themselves like the bitches they are and pass>real trannies with 0 doubt of their own damn identity, have been since prehrt since teens>embraced their true selves and are now just going through the motions of medical trooning>can actually function and be rela around other peers instead of killing themselves because they are authentic human being not plastic wraps around a soul thats both male and a fucked up Cluster a b and c combination of the worst shit you can fathomI am breaking down>>37310454I am not 29I can accpet never passing and being a shitty fucked up body horror amalgami cannot accept feeling fake and being unable to relate to othersI cannot accept that I will never be loved because of those thingsI deserve to at least be hugged once with love and care>help fuck off chaser>>37310492HRT FUCKED ME UP I CANNOT EVEN KNOW IF THIS TRUE OR NOT I CANNOT REMEMBER ANYTHING AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAI am slowly deleting everything from my life. Old photoes, clothes, any object that could remind me of this life I never lived in. Even this house I am in I will move away from and maybe sell in the future.
>>37310509hello of a placebo to last this long
i don't understand how i can drink 40oz of beer everyday for a year quit it and have no urge to drink i thought you're bound to be addicted
>>37310515I'm not a chaser you stupid bitch now I will not help you
>>37310543hurr durr like you could>im notok but why should I assume otherwise, why would anyone want to help anyone and announce it like thatif you wanna help then just state your advice
i feel like my body odor used to be gym socks and now it's more like wet paper
>>37310557because lecturing people that didn't ask is fucking rudeyou don't get any help though
>>37310590oksorry for calling you a chaserno i dont expect help
I need a new fucking hobbyI cant just obsess over my shitty gender issues and sleep all dayBut I always feel so tired...
>>37310515HAHAHAHAHAWELCOME TO HELL, I AM HERE EMPLOYED BY SATAN TO TORMENT YOU, I HOPE THAT YOU HAVE A TIGHT ANUS>>37310610same, it is bc dyshporia, it is what it is
We adding oral minoxidil as a cope until affording transplants
>>37310627>it is bc dyshporia, it is what it isnah thats not realif dysphoria was real i would be actively trying to reduce it and only get motivated like most trans people once they get on hrtAt least at this rate it doesnt seem the caseIts just le depression...I cant even play games... I get motivated for a game then just order food and do that instead then back to bed...I hate working too, so annoying.
>>37310652You know you can be both depressed and dysphoric
>>37310627calm down nowtheres a good lass
oh yeah mr sulu is gay lol
>>37310652cope
>>37310715DOUBLE DDs LETS GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO>>37310719sneed
i hate being male, dysphoria is killing me daily and no one can save meplease murder me please
>>37310768transition nowtake hrtdo laserbuy girl clothesdo ffsget fucked by other tranniesez life
how it feels not being trans
>>37310778NEVER>>37310780fuck you, i wish i was cis
>>37310791pleasesave yourselfpleasestop hurtingpleasetransitionit will be so much better
>>37310780Gonna transition out of spite
>>37310780how it feels being transsexual
>>37310797i am sorry, it is too late for me, do not forget me, ahhhh
>>37310850how can we forget you when you wont stop posting
old testament is cosmic horror
>>37310850it is not too lateplease just...help yourselfjust once
>>37310876being trans is LITERALLY cosmic body horror that is factually real
>>37310876its mad confusing too.in samuel theres this like king dude whos servant is like "imma run n tell dat to the king his son is dead"and david like, "naw don do dat aint nothing to tell dont run"and then david like "yo u other guy, go run n tell dat"n the other guy runs, then the other guy is like "yo but i rly should run too"and david like "ok yeah run"and the second guy is like imma run by the plains n get there first and he does and when he gets there hes like "yo king, son is dead" and the king was like "ite bet"end chapter.
having a dick is cosmic body horror tranny or no tranny idgaf that shit is getting the chopsome ppl rly need to worry less abt being a tranny and more about getting the testosterone outta their system
>>37310876>t. pillar of salt
>>37310925Allow me to introduce myself I'm doctor monster I work at a veterinary clinic as a secretary
>>37310945not even kidding if i could pay a vet technician $50 to castrate me behind the animal hospital or smth i would do that shit so fast
>tfw bottom dysphoria getting weakerHow
>>37310955Liarrrrr I wouldn't let them take your angel spheres
>tfw not trans but still mtf trooning and castrating myself and try to fit in as a girl and stuffKinda weird but I’m ok with itI wanted to die alone with no kids anyway
>>37310987you can't sit with us
speed running learning blender ig. day #2
>>37311045Ugh I'm sorry it's a tasteless joke. If I could I would alas, I'm unable due to the current circumstances I'm facing
>>37311093pssst pssst fuck off shoo psst
>>37311084holy shit you made that on day 2 of learning blender??
>>37311084da ba dee
any hrt shotas in the thread?
>>37311201esti un schizophrenic handicapat si retarded, fututi biserica matii, ia-mi coaiele in gura, suge-mi pula, du-te pe pastile si trateazate nenea
>>37311173kino and correct>>37311137yes!!!!
>>37311084>>37311256waow nicei could never get into sculpting, even with a tablet
i let the goat lick my shenis
mtfrens do u think it's possible for me to learn to not be scared whenever I'm in the same room as my dadhe's been hanging out in the middle of the house all afternoon and it makes me scared to leave my room and it's rly annoying and IDK what to do besides go out and deliver more Uber eats orders
>>37311256holy fugg it looks great, good job!!
i am an abusive piece of shit
https://www.youtube.com/shorts/ftKrV2J4dNE
>>37311510funny funny cow c: _(__)_ V '-e e -'__,--.__) (o_o) ) \. /___. | ||| _)/_)/ //_(/_(/_(
>>37309140I dont think I know who either of them are
>>37311539new fags cant triforce
>>37311539aw my cow didnt work
>>37311555:0 ohhhhh i never got that bit before now
>>37311543one of them is hontrapoints/philosophytube
mef advise number one: never trust anyone,mef advise number two: least of all yourself
>>37308814this is causing me so much panic
>>37308814eewwww wtffff why is toob in more stuff???? they're an ugly YouTube sissy?????? tell me this isn't gonna be the new face of trannies?????
>>37311256its alive!!! looks sick.
>>37311619apparently when she declared herself the most important trans woman in the UK she was manifesting.when the terf island genocide begins she'll be leading the hon brigades in the battle of london and we'll all be forced to hope she wins
>>37311631i hate this timelineso effing much
...what's wrong with Abigail?
>>37311672i am transphobic
just wait for the shitshow that's gonna happen when a bunch of actresses end up metooing toobthat's beginning to seem like an inevitability
>>37308814contrapoints is british?
>>37311682#metoob>>37311672she's obnoxious and too big for her boots
is it possible to dm a homebrew setting without constantly jerking yourself off?
>>37311619already is lol>>37311713oh no >she's a yankthat's philosophy tube, an ex bf of theirs who trooned out and is now skinwalking contra
Rape
>>37311790She's been making content and building an audience for years, what's the issue? That you only noticed her recentlyish?
how do i decide what creative endeavor to dedicate my life to?
>>37311822???i've known her from the day she transitioned and my problem is how she forced herself into positions of prominence in the UK trans scene without walking the walk for a bit. and also how she treats other trans people with a sort of disregard and contempt. im not sure what it is you're talking about. i have no issue with her as an actress or whatever, but i do think she's arrogant
>>37311858How long does one have to ingratiate themselves into the trans community until they are allowed to be representative of a part of it in some way? What does walk the walk even mean here? Is her perceived arrogance based on her as a person, or a character she plays for content creation?>>37311818So just transphobia then
>>37311900her as a person based on indirect interactions i've had with her>how longshe came out and immediately began taking some position of authority here and it was embarrassing
>>37311858>le jewish dentist syndrome
>>37311821>>37311874daddo...>>37311900he's a skinwalker creepy person w a fake phd and a bloated ego
>>37311623>>37311444>>37311303thanks! i made this one too!
