>>41043940
>>41043940
>>41043940

Dawn cracks the dark
And it breaks the silence
Of my waking hours
And my heartbeat's licence

For I hate the trees
And I hate the flowers
And I hate the buildings
And the way they tower over me
Can't you see?
I get so frightened
No one else seems frightened
Only me, only me

Ba-ba-ba-ba-ba, ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba, ooh
Ba-ba-ba-ba-ba, ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba, ooh

Why do I all of a sudden feel dysphoric again? It's been like a month fuck this shit

ur period

>>41059956
mh yes my meriod

nonas, what's the most retarded thing which happened to you recently that has given you hope?

mine was seeing a video of a kpop demon hunters songwriter, noticing she has the same long face as mine but is super pretty and thinking that there's a shot i could look ok after ffs

this is so delulu and i'm cooked, but it's this kind of thing that keeps me going

nothing gives me hope about anything

I'm not a chad patrick bateman or an attractive man
I'm just a hon

>>41060255
FFS maybe but I doubt it will make me pass, maybe it will make me less masculine but I don't expect muxh

want you to make me feel
like I'm the only hon in the world

>>41060678
I think I've been conditioning myself for a while to accept not fully passing. It's really hard after puberty.

But I'd totally accept looking feminine and sometimes cute. Even if it's not great or unclockable I think it's miles better than what I'm stuck with rn

>>41060850
I'm not sure how to be okay with it
right now my face makes me feel horrible, even worse than my height or shoulders
I don't know if ffs will make my life bearable

i'm too old to hate myself in the way that i do but ive been severely dissociated most of my life so i like to think im just catching up

>>41059574
acab shit thread listen to sewerslvt

>>41061374
grow up

>>41061467
nah make me, faggot

her music sounds all the same

>>41059574
i don’t hate first responders, firefighters and emts are cool, i just hate cops

masculinzed on hrt award

i look really nice and feminine today

>>41061569
same desu

>>41061563
thinned hair on hrt award lmaooooo it's overwari da

people who complain about hairloss are retarded like it’s literally solvable with zero effort. Pmo sm

walking around with a silk bonnet and hoop earrings

>>41061658
masc chad

>>41061696
god no

>>41061594
i lost my hair and bricked my transition by being anorexic

>>41061611
i ordered minoxidil last night i still want to kill myself because i was in denial for a long time and now its too late

>>41061611
>with zero effort
you're stupid be quiet

>SWEETIE
>HON
>LOVE
i must look so fucking weird

>>41061767
meds

>>41061789
be nice to me

>>41061797
ok dear now take your medicine love you

>>41061767
>SIR
>BRO
>DUDE
>MAN
I know I look fucking weird

>>41061765
d u t a s t e r i d e
u
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i
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>>41061881
I'm on it you fucking moron and it was not zero effort

youre actually a bad person if hrt has minimal effects on you
everyone knows estrogen is magic

poster above me is right

why am i like this why do i need validation from so many different people
why am i whoring myself out like that for crumbs of attention
why am i just generally so unstable

>>41061949
nah I'm a fucking awful person and HRT has been alarmingly effective on my ancient withered moidcored manpilled malemaxxed ex-repper body

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i stabbed myself with a needle and did the good thing this morning

>>41062024
heroin?

>>41062055
nah just estrogen its not heroin time yet, thats the next time my life goes to complete shit

>>41061995
okay ill just kms then

>>41062164
or you could change your regimen and do whatever it takes to fix your shit

>>41061995
are you back with her?

>>41062177
if your shit is fixable youre a fakemoder

>>41062226
nah that's gay

im a fakemoder

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>>41062228

>>41062245
fix ur shit fagot

having empathy towards men is your first mistake

>>41062261
Exactly
Not this absolute gigahon ogre coming into the school library with a full 5 o clock shadow, a dress, and the shittiest wig i have ever seen
Like wtf bro take your humiliation fetish back to the bedroom kek
At least he makes me look better i guess
Sigh
I hate hon moders, DEATH TO HON MODERS AND PLASTIC WIGS!!!!!!!!

>>41062280
kys

vampy pumped and dumped me

>>41062291
No
It is disrespectful to everyone and selfish
I guarantee it doesn’t alleviate his dysphoria to have everyone stare at him in disgust, he could at least wear a cardigan and jeans and not a dress

>>41062280
gigahons belong to Christ whereas you're evil

Has to be a fetish idc, nobody with the same disorder as me could leave the house like that without jumping in front of a car

To top it all off he is fat as hell….. nigga get ozempic!!!!!!

you can stop writing about yourself now

>>41062351
Jesus would be kind that’s a good point
It just makes me feel horrible that we all feel the need to manmode and this beast is so selfish in comparison

>>41062393
I’m thin and don’t wear wigs, i used to wear one when i was a prostitute but even that was indian hair….. this nigga looks like fat albert einstein kek

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baldmoders, baldmoders
>>41062280
mald, moder
mald, moder

>>41062406
you aids infested retard you're seriously shitting about some out tranny while posting on a general called manmoder
either you're this stupid and can't see the irony or you're just writing about yourself which you can stop doing that self harm isnt healthy

i'm trainging to be a first responder
not a cop tho fuck them and their families

>>41062406
mogs me

枪杆子里面出政权

i’m joining the fags because i’m a gay man who has sex with women and twinks and trannies and sometimes men who remind me of my dad

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>>41062254

>>41062465
male homosexuality is reactionary

>>41062479
male homosexuality is precious

>>41062479
BASEDD

tired of this mentally disabled man

>>41062451
?
He isn’t an ‘out’ tranny, he is a man with a beard in a dress and plastic wig.
Duh i am posting in this gen, i am a tranny who doesn’t pass
He doesn’t pass either, not even as woman never mind female….. which is why he should take off the wig and dress

>>41062485
wrong they should transition now
in fact disdain for the summer hikaru died wouldn't exist if they were both trannies

>>41062499
ok now go back to your special ed class, sweetheart

i was a cute boy and now im an atrociously ugly androgynous goblin who wishes they were a boy

>>41062485
true and based

>>41062508
It doesn’t start for 34 minutes i got videos to watch for thursday lab ;D

every trans manga is either
ftm: "i hate women so much and i hate this tranny friend and whatever feminine stuff she (male) does"
or
mtf: "look at me spend thousands in surgery"

i'm gonna have a melty today

>>41051897
genuinely what do you even do with all of this if my date showed up with this id just bail like no thanks

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*harmonica noises*

it's 9 o'clock on a saturday
the regular crowd stumbles through
there's a rapehon sitting next to me
making love to his freshly trooned poon

he says "hon, will ya play me a memory,
you probably know how it goes
it was sad, it was sweet,
and i knew it complete
when i wore a younger MAN'S clothes."

hun, hun-hun, di dee dun
hun hun di dee dun, da hun

sing us a song, you're the tranno man
sing us a song, tonight
cuz we're all of us troons with a malady
and you've got us feeling afright

now john, 50, at the bar is a friend'a mine
he gets me my hormones for free
and he's quick with a poke, or to light up ya smoke
but there's someone that he'd rather be
he says, "jill, i believe this is killing me,"
as the smile runs away from his philtrum
"well, i'm sure that i could be a real girl,
if i could just alter my face"

hun dun dun hunnie hun
hun hun hun hunnie dun, da dun

now paula's a "real woman" feminist
who never had time for a wife
and she's talkin' with alice, who's still with her parents,
and probably will be for life

and the husstuss is practicing politics
while john, 50, he slowly gets pissed
they're sharin' a drink they call trannyness
but it's better than being a cis

sing us a song, you're the tranno man,
sing us a song, tonight,
cuz we're all of us troons with a malady,
and you've got us feeling afright

there's some pretty gross hons for a saturday
and one of them gives me a smile
and i know that it's me that he's comin' to see
to forget he's a hon for a while
and the piano, it sounds like falsetto
and the microphone smells like a queer
and they sit in their tears screaming slurs in my ears and say
"MAN, what are you doin' here?"

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>>41059574
iwnbaw. I'm so fucked up in the face and body. I don't think it's possible for me to be a woman anymore, I want to fucking kms. 2 years on hrt, 2 whole years.

>>41062597
im taking all that idk about u but gg

do you ever stopped to think how the average twitter tranny mogs the fuck out of any tranner but everyone here pretend that they don't
>>41062611
kys

>>41060993
> I'm not sure how to be okay with it
unhealthy amounts of copium

>>41062623
haha

thanks i’m hard now

>>41062661
what's so fucking funny?

>>41062499
is wearing a dress and wig not sufficient to be out?

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>>41062545
you dont know ball
complete ball ignorance

>>41062683
if you didn't think yourself as a woman before it's not like hrt is going to make you one lmao

>>41062636
sorry, i'm a 'moder myself, it just helps me vent my self-hatred

>>41062689
Nope
Being a woman has nothing to do with it

my fellow manmoder, are we in agreement that cameras are our truest nonhuman enemy? i don’t like the way i look in the mirror, but sometimes i’ll catch myself in the right moment and i think i look alright, maybe i’ll make it. but anytime i see a photo of me i start looking for the combination of my brother’s gunsafe

>>41062717
i think its possible to look attractive with an estrogenized masculine face but bc of fat distribution and shit it necessarily is the kind of face that doesnt capture well in photos

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>>41062698
I did. but then I started coming to this board regularly and everyone uses male pronouns/deadnamee on me, and now I see myself as a ugly gay man.

>>41062454
>training for medic
Same
Imagine waking up from unconsious and a tranny is giving you mouth to mouth kek

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>>41062717
>my fellow manmoder
uhhh uh let me be clear: i'm ngmi

>>41062733
maybe, but i’ve felt like this even before starting hrt, so it’s not really just a result of fat redistribution

>>41062745
sounds like a good time to me

only if only sharty would date this place down forever

>>41062779
take

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my shoulders are huge, my height is 5'11, my voice is untrained, my female socialization is ZERO, I walk like a dude, look like a dude, and sound like a dude

IWNBAW EVER. I'm thinking of ending it.

dysphoria feels like grief

>>41062754
manmoder obama
>uhhhh, let me be queer

>>41062802
true

>>41062725
bite curb

>>41062877
bite my dick

>>41062899
nom :3

>>41062899
clean off

>>41062779
weak

sybau retard this board sucks and always sucked

>>41062725
what

>there are youngshit passoids my age
>i was probably repping before many of them even realized they were trans
>i did it to myself

>>41062934
>>41062948
no teeth ok?

i deleted twitter because seeing passing trans women my age is psychologically harmful to me

>>41063042
i was repping while people who are older than i am trooned younger than i did. shame is the worst thing, essentially mental rape. it taints all your hope and your whole future with fear. if you blame yourself the grief only paralyzes you further

passing isn't even the part that make me seethe it's the fact they all have cute girlfriends and it makes me jealous to a melting point

>>41063075
i ruined my life for no reason though

>>41063075
i threw everything away to troon out and now im a broke mentally ill man with tits

>>41063112
shoulvr sacked up and trooned earlier bitch

>>41062584
bad idea
go out and hug a tree or something

>>41063123
i came out to my parents as a teenager so they sent me to conversion therapy and it worked so i repped till 22

jfc tyler looks like one of the guys i slept with last month
chasers really do have a phenotype under 25 at least
something about a white boy with no swag and taking pictures at ihop or something just makes people chasers i guess

lil wop is kinda cute

>>41063085
if all the causal elements that went into making "you" are present, you wouldn't have chosen any different. and if those causal events and features are not present, then whomever those features are part of, and whomever those events happened to, is not "you." that hypothetical person is another one entirely. free will is the guilt-poisoned lie that keeps you bed-ridden, raskolnikov

i look manlier than i did before i started hrt because i started grinding my teeth like crazy and now i have a gigachad jaw

>>41063234
true!

i started grinding my teeth as an infant
now i have a mussolini jaw and no teeth

dentist said i grind in my sleep he real af for that

>>41063427
betchu give dat good succ

i have difficulty telling white people apart

i would look fine if my ribcage wasnt bulbous and disgusting

i dont

>>41063467
most astute hugboxer

>>41059946
Aliens messing with you probably

>people treat you well because they wanna see you happy and thats le bad
hugboxing is such a funny concept that couldve only came out a miserable tar pit like this board

i can't tell men and women apart
arr rook same to me

>>41063439
if i don't accidentally bite ya

>>41063136
i ate a huge plate of rice and sweet peas covered in hot sauce now i feel kinda ok

>>41063670
i think its evil to let people that dont look like women think they do

>>41063747
lmao

no one would care about pronouns if breeders weren't obsessed with telling their kids about other children's genitals

>>41063780
not sure why thats funny to you

guess i'm gonna just go to 711 and get some pizza or a hotdog with some skittles

>>41063795
it's funny bc im talking to a wall

>>41063811
its ok if you dont wanna talk about it

>>41063702
i hope that sauce was packed in umami or i'd go crazy

>>41063805
fuck here 711 is like only in the capital
/just swedish things

>>41063811
true

>>41063909
i got a small pizza and purple bag of skittles

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trannies

>>41064071
should’ve gotten a brookie

>>41064083
not a huge fan of cookies

>>41064071
post pizza and feed me skittles?
|||pretty plz?!?|||

>>41064239
pizza is half gone and no i eat all the skittles i'm a selfish bitch with my snacks

>>41064113
for shame!

>>41064245
sweetie you're not selfish tho
skittles are made to be eaten, facts of life and all that

had a gun, had to be done - blew a man away

>>41064304
did the target have kirk in their name?

>>41064316
don't trust people you meet

>>41064325
i don't trust people period.
they are probably reptiloids furthering the trump agenda!

>>41064345
they might promise you that the river ain't deep

lol reached the bottom, returned to the surface with gold testes in my mouth!

i dont know what to do with my hair except buzz it off
i dont want to ask another living breathing human to give me a female haircut because thats basically rape

i mean i would lick it nice but idk kinda weird to you weirdos and all

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me on the left

>the kirk shooter calling is tranny gf my love in the chats
nobody calling me such things...

wish i was pretty so i could be a massive bitch to ppl on xwitter

same but also what the fuck? are they gonna dig for literally everything about this guy?

>>41064445
me on right and it's grim

>>41064445
i have left body and right skull

>one crackkker to gets murked and the us masks off as a surveillance state

>>41064445
me on the right except i have a bigger ribcage

>>41064445
it's really not fair that something as ugly and masculine as me gets filled-out tits when actual trans women don't

>>41064567
we all need proof

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>>41064555
trips of tr-wait no it's been this way since 9/11 lol

>>41064567
can i see

i just a big boobed manmoder to hug and do stuff with...
(stuff doesn't need to be sexual things you weirdos)

>>41064602
i have itty bitty conetits is that good enough

ofc not you dumb slut

okay then im going to kill myself

>>41064640
no, IM going to kill myself

noo dont kill yourself you're so sexy

im already dead its too late

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>>41062183

>Man
>49.55% confident

>>41064658
you're so fucking corny

>>41064664
which ai? nyckle?

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>>41064664

>>41064698
you're being mean do it with your own face

>>41064698
thats why we dontlike that ai. facialage is a little less huggy but its all hugbox

>>41064713
i did it says im a man

>>41064624
are they as qt as you? if so yes

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>>41064671

>>41064742
im not qt im a big strong man

>wake up
>go to brush teeth
>damn!!! i look like that!!!
>crackedmirror.jpg

>>41064650
a couple people have thought so, one of my exes didn’t admit to never being attracted to me and a few friends have had crushes on me. alas, i fucking hate my face & body and keep ruining my future

>>41064789
sounds like qt to me, "man"

>>41064851
fakemoder

need to be roommates with a broad 6'2 man so i can feel better about myself

how tall are you?

5'8.5 the average male height

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why am i 6'1?!

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im going to post my pics in chronological order of their EXIF date
this one is from the year 1

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this one is my next pic, dated 1923

>>41064974
move to the netherlands together with me! :D
>>41064989
genetics triggering male sex hormone release in a timed manner.

>>41064989
more woman per cm

>>41065003
im broke af or id be in europe already

>>41064989
should i buy more alcohol tomorrow? if so how much?

>>41065029
probably not wise i got mad at how short of a time i stayed drunk and felt ripped off stupid liver enzymes

fakemoders all over the shop

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here's one from 2002

this wallpaper from 2003 is nice
should jog the memory of some of you oldfag troons

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this is from 2004

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2004

>>41065132
idc much about my liver as my kidneys are shutting down lol
liver damage is slow and all

>>41064889
all of those confessions were from people into men before i got on hrt and ive gotten called sir more since starting hrt than before. just because a few people thought i was an attractive guy doesn’t mean i’m a passoid

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2005

>>41065332
no alcohol for u!

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2006

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this one is from pre-history

shut up

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>>41065443
xd

>>41065355
we’re waiting

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history is a mystery

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>>41065509
I love pyramid head so much she's my transition goals

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here's another ancient artifact giving insight into the ways of life our ancestors practiced

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>2005

>>41065485
im shy sorry >_<

>>41065522
enjoy the trip

reading old stuff about the apartheid in palestine is so grim
>2005 israel drops several rockets killing almost 500 palestinians, including civilians
>but also 4 israelis soldiers died
>ny times paints as equal violence from le both sides

>>41065541
c’mon nona, you already agreed to it. back in high school i told my followers i’d put a temporary tattoo on my ass and post it if i hit 1k and goddamnit, i did exactly that

>>41065600
nope not doing the reply isn't even there anymore

>>41065616
not even if i post my own ass in response to my own dubs in the reply you’re replying to?

>>41065600
>followers
>high school
uh

>>41065536
Nation of Islam guys will do anything but read the Koran

>>41065676
it was my instagram meme account. i was 18 by the time this happened and i don’t think the picture was even that sexual.

i fucking hate my conetits and my ugly moid body
unsee cc/album#LAfC1CF6wcBt
i need top surgery so fucking bad so i can be normal again

sex

>>41065744
fakemoder

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how are you trans femme folx this fine day?

puffy nipples are so hot

>>41065813
bad

>>41065813
im hungry can you paypal me $20?

>>41065773
you wouldnt say this if you saw me in real life

>>41065340
you look like a woman fs and are gonna make it

>>41065929
>i’ve gotten called sir more since starting hrt than before

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looking for a boyfriend-free girl, any takers itt?

>>41065947
wya

>>41064445
left body + right head is me

>>41065947
we hate men here

>>41065942
not possible you're lying

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it's 2007
i'm just a kid
with unrestricted access to the

another fucking fakemoder

>>41065989
no it's true it happened to me too, I malefailed a few times in my first year or two then people started AGGRESSIVELY sir/he/him/bro/dude/manning me

>goes to the bathroom
>still a MAN

>>41066008
you're probably just clocky so people try extra hard to be mean

>>41065942
i bet ur cute stop lying

IWNBAW

>>41066052
yes, that's my point

>>41066124
:(

>>41065989
very possible. i don’t feel like i’ve masculinized on hrt at least, i think it’s unrelated factors. like i turned 18 right before covid and didn’t really do much after lockdowns, so i probably just didn’t have many opportunities to get called sir in my pre-hrt adulthood, compared to now when i’m trying to get some money by doing instacart and interacting with more random strangers. but yeah, i feel like i almost never got called sir before hrt, and now i do relatively often
>>41066055
who knows, maybe, but as i said >>41062717
> anytime i see a photo of me i start looking for the combination of my brother’s gunsafe

i live with my parents and they tell me what a big strong man i am every single day

>>41066143
this is why I ran away from home

>>41066153
i did that and i came fucking crawling back bc rent is cheaper

>>41066158
looks like me

take your fucking meds dude

im so ugly

>>41065650
yes i would then...

https://files.catbox.moe/fpc5ws.jpg

https://files.catbox.moe/5jb535.jpg

>>41066143
just my mom since the divorce (and my dad’s death) but same :(
i remember one day she sent me some random instagram post about being a mother seeing your son grow into a big strong man and boy did that not feel good. i know she meant it in the best way but still, shit sucks. not like she’d adjust to sending stuff about the joys of having a daughter if i came out to her anyway
>>41066203
would you accept the previously mentioned instagram ass pic or will i need to take a new one?

enter 2008

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you troons might enjoy this gem from the beforetimes

>>41066366
mogs me

idgaf stop posting

>>41059574
why am i not a woman. i was supposed to flower as a young adult in university not become super schizo insane

sex with men

vomit

drop ur furaffinity accts NOW

im crying over imagined scenarios where my non existent girlfriend complains that I overwhelm her by being too clingy

>>41066495
will you overwhelm me by being too clingy

>>41066495
stop being clingy

>>41066495
hot

>>41066514
you're probably far and i don't want ldr
>>41066520
no

>>41066578
well where are you?

>>41066578
this makes me even more desperate to change who u are

>>41066634
not in the us
>>41066643
whats wrong with being clingy

>>41066732
nothing is wrong but it activates the cuteness aggression that makes u wanna reshape the person by helping them to be not so codependent day by day

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eunuch priests, recuerdes?

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i'll end with 2009

duschkabine

>>41066821
ummm can you do this to me i have life-ruining problems with codependency

>>41066821
so you'd act just like the gf from my imagined scenario. And also I'm not codependent it's more like fear of abandonment

>>41067207
i always forget how weird Trans Girl Diaries got

>>41067247
come here
>>41067265
also u come here two i can take care of 2 people at least

i can’t stop getting twinks i guess i’m a real man

>>41067302
:( dont give me hope

>>41067945
wow, i think you're the first person to respond to qott 2

>>41068088
because it fucking sucked make a better qott next time

im so ugly

>>41068218
>>41068218
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>>41068111
i didn’t make the thread, i just found it funny