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To C,
Keep your head up and don't give in to the shitty things. Our past shapes who we are now but that doesn't mean we can't actively shape ourselves into something new.
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Posting this reply now that there's a real thread.

>>63508838
Hi anon. No, I am not a J. Hope you had a good day :)
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Sometimes I keep feeling my hands just to make sure I'm here.
Today they feel strangely soft.
Last week I had a moment where my legs felt like they didn't belong to me.
Slipping away.
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Are u angry with me
Did i do something wrong
If i did im so sorry
Pls reply soon i miss u lots
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>>63512710
i'm a C and this probably isn't for me, but i'll take it.

thanks, anon. cheers.
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Dear N
I want to impregnate you
Regards T
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>>63512710
I'm a C, and whether this is for me or not, I'll take it. Thanks R.
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>>63512887
>>63512913
Glad to be of help. We all have pasts that suck that doesn't mean they have to make the rest of our lives suck.
I'm probably not the R you were thinking of as I'm only technically an R but I'll take it.
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to all the chicks i've met here:

to the ones i've just silently gotten off in threads and came to know a bit that didn't go anywhere elsewhere, cheers.

specifically to the one "hole" who liked being degraded,
our last interaction was weird. i was too mean to you. my bad. probably ruined your head canon. i think i was drunk.

to A,
i guess it was never meant to be. i told you i would have done anything to really be with you and i was serious about that, but whether it was your issues or just a meaningless "teen love" type of larp on your end i guess i'll never know. it was a good 7 months while it lasted. i really could have loved you, but the drama and the up and downs and communication wasn't great when it needed to be. enjoy whoever you're talking to now and take my advice. don't toy with hearts and don't lead on if you can't really commit to somebody because i thought all those months of flirting and courting did mean something and were leading up to something regardless of your several warnings about how it could never be. i regret a lot with you and hope you've moved on. i really hope you never kill yourself.

to L,
you were a good girl. shame about what your ex did to you and i hope you're doing well in your schooling. i really did have a crush on you and i hope i didn't come across as using you. i never meant to pull you into drama and sorry you had to see it. your mind was really sexy and we talked about a lot of interesting things. you were really helpful to me and very giving. thank you for it. i could have done a better job of cutting loose from you.

to V,
i really like being your friend. it's pretty cozy. shame about time, really. i'd like to spend more with you but you have other priorities and rightfully so. you're pretty damn funny and really fucking cute. if you lived closer i'd definitely hang out with you irl. your voice is really nice and you have a great sense of humor. i hope we can watch more anime soon when you get some free time.
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I feel like something's changed
Slipped with tears down the slope of your cheek
Tulips grew on the mountaintop
Presently, I try to find the words to speak

I'm consistently reminded when I'm on my knees
No matter how far or unlikely it seems
For you, I will go
Past the pines; toward another peak
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~C
It really hurts seeing you focused on N for so long. You have really got to move on from him and try to like do something else with your life. Honestly, that ship has sailed a long time ago and just trying to reconnect will only make life harder for you. Please just find something else to do or something else to focus on. Summer is coming around so you'll have more free time to do other things. Is there anything or anyone you are thinking of right now?
J
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>>63512710
A convenient belief for you.
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>>63513502
What makes you think it's not the case or that it's convenient knowing past traumas can absolutely fuck you up resulting in the current you living in hell but that you can absolutely work to make yourself better so the new future you can live better?
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>>63513535
Whenever I hear obvious advice given I wonder if the person had any hand in the harm of others.
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>>63513548
That honestly seems like a weird take. Any reason you have for landing on it?
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>>63513001
>I'm only technically an R
rezefag?
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>>63513548
I advise you to not think about things.
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>>63513568
There would be less need for shapeshifting if people were responsible for each other when it matters.

Changing shape is a good way to absolve the self of responsibility while passing it off as a positive. I think of people who harm and say 'I've changed' instead of 'I've come to put right.'
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>>63513599
I meant my last name.
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>>63513626
Reeeee?

pepe reee in the flesh
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>>63513623
>There would be less need for shapeshifting if people were responsible for each other when it matters.
In these particulars cases that's outside the individuals control and the person telling them what happened in the past doesn't have to rule the future is not the individual that caused the issues. They're just someone that has had to deal with their own issues and felt like encouraging someone else in the process of doing the same.
>Changing shape is a good way to absolve the self of responsibility while passing it off as a positive.
Out of curiosity. Do you apply this to something like abuse? Abuse victim becomes mentally unwell because of abuse, they now are living a poor life with mental issues, "shapeshift" into a mentally well person via self help and therapy.
I'm just trying to see your angle on things. As I said before, to me, it seems like an odd take.
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>>63513631
Sorry to disappoint but I can't say I know who they are.
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>>63513658
I'd say to you be careful of what you can get away with during change, especially when health is subjective as a measure between individuals. What is healthy for me may not be for you. It's still good for people to do what they want unto themselves, but let people decide if they want to be 'new' or not.
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In this thread I feel that calls for change/health are often laden with a message that another person is not enough, and these calls or judgements come from people, to people, on the value of who is enough, as if some people can only derive value exclusively from the contrast between what they have and the people who have less to them, expressed through a journey they 'need' to make before a status of subjectively 'well' is reached to the other party. Sometimes this goes on for a bit, as if there's a battle or negotiation to extract an emotional profit from gap left between the value and devaluing between two people in conflict because the only scale of 'enough' you can have is your own and your health by that same measure, so it follows that is the only one you can convince others to abide by.

Typically this is observed in breakup chains here where the separation is not enough to satiate one or both parties and they will attempt to increase the contrast of value between the two to make the breakup a more valuable outcome and companion lost into less valuable person/loss than they are. A theme of change is also used in the shedding of the skin of responsibility, because a new person can disavow old responsibility.

Inversely, I feel people rarely declare here someone is enough. People seem to only want the profit from the margins of those comparisons. Some praises even seem to be attacks to others 'you are worth less than x.
It rattles my faith in people a bit.

This is probably a post reminding you of your right to self-respect and consider exactly who and where a call for your change is coming from, and what the subtext/context and fine print of that ideal change would be that is put upon you.
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>>63514077
Keep that pyschohomological stuff to yourself Einstein.
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>>63514077
you could have just said e-relationships are gay and cringe
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>>63514077
I guess it's to be expected in a place like this. I'm fairly certain that this place is full of insecure people who hide away in here instead of being out there. Relationships or breakups aside people tend to offer what they have in them. It doesn't even need to be with malicious intend, even when they are trying to help.
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>>63513599 checked
rest assured, rezefag has multiple levels of R technicality
but to be clear: I've never directly specified the letter of my letters in my letters because I'm confident my muse would know me by my clues anyway, and if I had something that was truly addressed for her and only her, I'd tell her personally rather than post it here. I don't want to play mind games, she just gives mine a lot to work with.

By no means am I accusing you of confusion, but I hope my clarification will soothe anons that think I'm messing with them. I always feel bad when that happens.
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>>63514187
It doesn't, but within the context of a breakup I would argue you cannot both declare someone lacking, enter a status of non person with them, as most 'healthy' breakups effectively attempt to cut all communication and then also, outside of the relationship, declare who they should be going forward. A counter argument would be 'well, I would know them best', but the moment you split two parties into the broken up one and the breaker-upper you create a new set of circumstances one of you will not understand the specifics of, or have to deal with.

tldr niggas should just keep their mouth shut when they break up

>>63514138
this
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>>63514312
Why do you choose to mess with them? This >>63509024 is inconsistent with my style, and the only reason I didn't call it out then is because you answered correctly and I saw no point in playing into the confusion you are once again seeking to create.
>deleted
Change of heart? Well I already typed this, so fuck it, we're setting the record straight.
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hey fake identity discord groomed femanon are you competely out of that situation still?
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A fucking tuna.
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dearest R.F

i want to have sex with your daughter

fuck you; J.O
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Dad
If you do see this I assure you nothing posted on this website was directed towards you
R
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I don't know who I am. I don't know who you are, I've seen about 5 different versions of you, you have seen about 5 different versions of me. Take off your mask and i'll take off mine.
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On nights turned mornings like these, I'm acutely aware of all that is underlining.
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>>63514922
Is it possible for a person to have many different aspects of themselves that are real and not masks? Where is the line drawn between mask and aspect?
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Goooood morning. Another day, another opportunity to do something useful. Been seeing some progress but being here is not part of that!
I'm aware we will never be too close and that's fine, what I'm being given now is enough, although when I get in those moods it is something my sad self focuses on (working on that too, I swear).
Anyway, don't get distracted aight? At least one of us has to make it.
Love, lots..
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>>63515507
A mask is usually there to hide some parts of character, so I guess you are right. The things we hide can reveal some sort of deeper truth.
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Dear you,

I live far far away from america. In a third tier country. And today an acquintance of mine, who returned back from la, usa a few days ago gave me as a small present: a pack of Trident gum and a bar of Kit-Kat.

The frettet by loneliness mind immediately presented me this: you woke up today at nearly 10 am, took a shower, put on denim shorts and a monotone t-shirt, ate some american cereals with cold milk, while looking out of the window on a plain desert territory here and there decorated with small, white 2-story houses. Then headed up to the small grocery store nearby in your district, where you agreed with yourself to work while that college you have all of your life been dreaming of is preparing it's decision about you. And where you were reading Kamus, for example, (why not), when that acquintance of mine approached you at the cashbox stand with that gum and chocolate.

Sincerely,

me, who just finished drinking his tea.
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V,

Week eight of tracking my progress. It's been slowly dawning on me that I can get a better girl than you. Since you're cynical, you probably think this is an attempt to make you jealous. I'm not dumb though, if I wanted to 'win' you back, I'd cooperate with your cynicism. I was thinking recently about what went 'wrong' between us. In hindsight I misinterpreted your signaled interest due to a combination of naivety and willful ignorance. I mistakenly assumed your moral compass and will was as strong as mine. Really you wanted me to take your virginity without the accompanying moral guilt, that's partly why you were insinuating instead of explicitly stating. I never used to understand why women would indirectly say what they wanted since I couldn't relate, now I understand. They are mentally weak, don't want moral guilt, and want to submit.

When you told me that the fact that your roommates weren't virgins made you feel like a child comparatively, that wasn't a hint to comfort you and affirm your morality, that was a hint to make you a woman. When you said we wouldn't do much watching of the movie, that was the introverted, female equivalent of begging me to fuck you. I understand these things now, especially without the haze of an overbearing, moral system that demonizes sexuality. I'd be lying if I said I didn't partially ignore your advances on purpose due to my own disgust at the thought that you could be saying what you didn't want (waiting till marriage); in a way I wanted to punish you as fucked up as that sounds, by denying you the sexual high without guilt that you were seeking. I wanted to believe that women had as strong of will power as me, and when you fell short I was disgusted, and weirdly wanted vengeance. I think my expectations of women were too high.

I read something interesting about the disgust response this week. cont.
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Maybe I'll start writing.
If I have no one to confide in sincerely, might as well just let it all out as someone takes out the trash. Whoever cares to see if I dumped anything of worth is free to go through it.
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>>63512855
Miss me with that shit lmao
Your a bitch :^)
Don't mailbomb me bro
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>>63516759
Apparently conservatives tend to have stronger and more easily triggered disgust responses as a reaction to perceived threats (subconscious or conscious). Initially it evolved to prevent disease by avoidance, but is intertwined with the thread detection system. Once I realized this, things made much more sense. In the past I was weak and had unresolved issues, I wanted a girl who could 'fix' me, and projected these hopes onto you. When I 'opened up' to you, it triggered a subconscious, disgust response in you that outweighed any potential empathy. Your subconscious perceived emotional weakness in me and saw it as a threat, since it implied to your subconscious that I couldn't protect you if we were together etc. This goes along with something else that I've realized about women, they are controlled by their subconscious.

This is something that has been hard to accept, since it's so opposite to what I had hoped. Basically, they feel compelled to act on their subconscious desires and emotions, and as they prepare to do so or do so, their conscious starts making excuses to follow their subconscious. That's why the 'logic' of women is often so retarded, since women act on emotion, not logic. The logic is only used to justify the action after the fact, it's not the driving force behind it. I'd be curious to hear what rationalizations you told yourself to justify leaving after. The real reason was that you had your relatively sensitive disgust response triggered by subconsciously perceived weakness (and therefore implied threat), and had to morally justify to yourself leaving.

I remember you telling me I was 'too nice', now I know this is female code for 'pussy' lol. You probably told yourself you let me down easy. This also explains why the girls I attract tend to have such little empathy, or at least tend to act on it so rarely. They have sensitive disgust and threat detection systems, which cont.
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>>63512690
To my coworkers,
I am not sick, in fact, I felt half-decent when I left work. I just had a shitty morning and didn't give a fuck about work. I could've probably made until the end of the day, but I rarely take a day off so I decided to be devilish and enjoy myself. The second I got home I came twice to fat Mexican porn, will take a hot bath, and play vidya the rest of the day. If I feel like it, I might even go to the gym
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You're a piece of shit. You're delusional. You're worthless. You're literal scum of the earth, and i'm glad to be rid of you.
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Glad I was a cunt (oopsies nono word) and sussed you out early on instead of years of dealing with your sarcastic putdowns and subtle threats of beating me to a bloody pulp over fucking nothing. It's actually extremely vindicating to realize that your anger has an extra layer of deliberate sadism attached to it. Makes me feel a lot less fucked up.
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>>63516957
Yeah sure see you tomorrow bb
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>>63517009
Kek this response is funny
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>>63516930
makes it so that they have little tolerance for perceived (subconscious or conscious) weakness in their partner. That's why the girls I attract always seem to be such bitches, since a strong disgust response and conservative values tend to be highly correlated at least. This overwhelming subconscious drive also explains why T was so insistent on keeping me. I remember when she found out I 'cheated', she showed me a thread asking how to stay with a cheater, which she had made before I 'cheated'. Her subconscious was attracted to me, and she was anticipating and preparing for me to 'cheat' since she felt I was out of her league, so her conscious started to prepare ways to justify staying in advance. I remember being shocked at the time, but now it makes sense when paired with my experiences with you. Women are simply controlled by their subconscious desires and it's up to their conscious to justify complying.

Overall, women are controlled by their subconscious, primitive desires and reactions. Emotions like fear, offence, and lust control them. They plan to act or act on these desires, then their conscious scrambles to justify following through on them by aligning it with an acceptable moral structure (to them). This is simply the way things are. Women are led around by their subconscious and it's up to their conscious to justify following through. Now I know.

K
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N

I'm so sorry for my behavior back then. I had and still have issues, but that was no excuse to just say whatever I thought about you and A. It was beyond innapropriate. I know you're off to bigger and better things in Miami, but I hope we run into each other eventually. Not only to apologize but, I miss you. We weren't GREAT friends but I miss the time we did talk and spend together.

A
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Dear autists you people are funny. Our parents teach us as kids that sex is a sacred bond that affirms our love and lets us have babies. Most people grow up and discover their sexuality. At some point they start questioning the fairytale just like they started questioning the Easter bunny years prior. This questioning however is gradual and that keeps most teens from making dumb choices. The system works fairly well, but then there's you guys. Your black and white all or nothing moral instead of emotional reasoning stops you from making this gradual change when being confronted with the actual matter instead of the story. So you people cling on to the story even when being confronted with adversity. Instead of taking in reality you turn bitter. They really should give different sex education to autists. But until they figure it out stay bitter.
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>>63516977
Apparently I'm a violent sadist now, whatever puts your mind at ease.
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>>63517327
Come on nigga, don't identify with that post
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>>63517366
I don't, women just need to justify their emotional responses and actions by creating a congruent narrative, since this creates emotional stability. Neither of us are terrible people, I simply had delusional expectations all that time ago, and she simply feels emotionally threatened. That's life I guess.
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>>63516759
>>63516930
>>63517085
Welcome to the club of realizing women are objectively shit. Now you have the choice to continue to try and find a decent woman in current year or just enjoy fucking sluts whenever and disregard the woman meme entirely. I chose the second option and will be hard pressed tp ever want to have something serious, let alone want to marry, ever again
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>>63516957
fuck you. being delusional doesn't make someone a bad person or scum.
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>>63516789
Let it out, man. That's what these threads are for. Have a nice cathartic release, anon. Don't worry if it's worth anything or what people may think about it.
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in hindsight you probably should kill yourself, i don't think anyone can help you
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my muscles are so fucking sore. why did i do advanced ab exercises yesterday fuck i wasn't ready for that
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>>63516957
is that you n? to c?
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>>63518041
That's a pretty messed up thing to say anon. What did they do to you?
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>>63517770
It does when the person is making up serious shit in their head like threats of violence that never happened, and being confrontational for no reason
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>>63518077
Yeah, it is. Stop trying to contact my partner too.
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>>63518130
It's not her fault you used her, manipulated, deceived her.
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>>63518169
Shut up you dumb schizo bitch, me and her laugh at you together. I'll never date you.
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>>63518077
>>63518130
>>63518169
Wtf, I have no idea what's going on. That was me (K) to (B). Not N or C. Who are you people?
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>>63518179
>Shut up you dumb schizo bitch, me and her laugh at you together. I'll never date you.
I'm not her you freak, Jesus you and your gf are scumbags the shit people step on
literally trash
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>>63518185
I was just calling that guy out for being a piece of shit
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>>63518200
Then be a good simp and pass the message along. Just kidding, she'll see it anyway.
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>>63518221
>Then be a good simp and pass the message along. Just kidding, she'll see it anyway
I hope not you freak of nature
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>>63518221
Actually, I'll just pretend to be someone else and add her, for the fifth or sixth time.
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>>63518185
Dutch anon here, what K are you on about mate? Only post I made was a bitter post calling autists bitter.

Larp somewhere else or change your name plox. This town ain't big enough for the both of us.
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>>63518241
Crazy what some people will believe when you have someone to take video for you.
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>>63518258
>thinking you have dominion over the letter "K"
Not even them but fuck outta here, dude.
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>>63518121
threats of violence? i have never threatened violence.
>>63518130
i never tried to contact your partner.
>>63518185
okay now i'm confused. i hope this is true.
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So anyway, I started blasting.
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>>63518279
Sure, I'll get right to it starting never.
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>>63518328
Well at least try to stop being such a hilarious faggot.
Probably incapable of that too, though. Deaf ears.
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>>63518327
you know how to use explosives??
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>>63518241
i hope this is a larp. it has larp-y vibes. i'll go with that.
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I feel like the past 20 posts or so have been some elaborate samefagging. What the fuck
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>>63518353
Starting never.
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>>63518382
I just randomly jumped in to bitch at K-2.0, don't look at me.
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>>63518369
no, it's a danny devito quote
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>>63518382
>I feel like the past 20 posts or so have been some elaborate samefagging. What the fuck

it's terminal
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I don't think I can trust people anymore because of you. I had a hard time trusting people before but you have sealed the deal. I know you were only looking out for your own best interests and I don't fault you for that. Like I said, I think there has to be something more to life than what you can get from other people.
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Dear K
I wish you would just talk to me. A part of me thinks you're not ghosting me and are just wrapped in something right now, but the other part is telling me that "she got what she wanted and left".
I've been checking discord almost every hour, everytime I don't see you online my heart just sinks further and further within me. My grandfather passed away last sunday and I can't even mourn him properly because of you occupying my thoughts so often.
Even my parents are starting to worry about my mental health and ask questions. How am I supposed to tell them about you? You left me all alone to carry all this by myself, and now my mind's starting to wonder about whether or not I can handle this for too much longer.
If I said something that weirded you out, you have to tell me. I'm a bit clueless sometimes, but I am genuinely a good person and I do love you. Six days isn't long, but when I spent them talking to you, they felt like six happy months.
B
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>>63518382
30 posters and 88 replies
larps, baits, schizos, samefags
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>>63518876
B doesn't use Discord.
Why are you writing out some weird larp
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Why must you toy with me so?
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>>63518949
Sorry anon, I don't think I'm the B you're talking about.
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>>63518841
Who is this addressed to? Anyone from here?
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>>63518949
>>63519119
B here sorry for being a cunt and messing up the thread, I'll do better.
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fake identity girl, don't go thread schizo and hurt yourself over nothing it's 99.99% likely not your oneitis writing them
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>>63519230
Shut up oneitis. I can see right through you.
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>>63519272
FUCK YOU GOT ME...!
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>>63519300
Kek, can I lick you now?
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B,
I am going to fuck you at least one final time, with or without your consent.
K
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>>63519230
she literally thought someone she dated IRL was N in disguise, nothing you can tell her will convince her of anything. besides, it's funnier to mess with her
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V
I saw a few threads back someone writing aether to my initial saying they wanted to meet up in real life. Well if just like to let you know that I do not plan on leaving this country from now onward. I'm not taking the vaccine ever, I don't care how isolated it makes me. Either show up on my doorstep randomly (which I would appreciate, you have my address after all) or never der me again. I'll most likely never be able to return to your country.
S
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>>63516810
Um.. who are u?
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>>63519470
It's the schizo femoid who shits up the threads
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The longer I go with no girlfriend and no prospects, the less I care about society or its well-being. It's really kind of sad. I used to have a lot of compassion for struggling families and single parents. I used to feel like I wasn't pulling my weight in the world because I was able to save, yet I never started a family.
Now I mostly just think "oh, you got to have romance at some point in your life." "Oh, you actually have someone to talk to."
And overall, why would I help those who sold out to this system that completely shits all over me and my needs?

I don't think I would have wised up if it weren't for you, /r9k/. I don't think I would have fully comprehended that kindness too will be punished. I don't think I would have realized that this world is full of leeches who don't deserve my kindness and who really deserve something very different.

But mostly anyone can eat my ass who is in a relationship while failing to take men's problems seriously.
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I figured we'd gild the cracks before you shattered it.
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>>63519336
There's too many B and K's in the thread. Which one are you talking about?
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>>63520211
I think know that feel bro. It always sucks when they do not care to make repairs and would rather let things fall apart. It hurts especially when you can see it working out between you if only some effort was put in. And then you are just left wondering why not. Why did they not care to work together? Why did they just let it dissolve?
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>>63520328
The one eating oman chips
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>>63520328
Are there actually multiple? I'm still not convinced.
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You called me Two.
But You are Two.
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We are One.
We are not You.
No no, not at all.

Do not bother expecting Us.
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>>63520426
What is oman chips and why are you larping on my post?
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Well I'm just about a list cause, I've made a lot of peace with the past but I can't escape it. I don't feel much anything anymore. I'm sorry to everyone I know I'm a pos. Hopefully you can forgive me
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i really really wanted to cum in that pussy
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>>63520519
People eat this stuff and gain the ability to fly
Right? COMPACT DISC?
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>>63520449
There seems to be two groups of K/B posters (a new couple and older couple respectively), and a few more K's and B's every few threads that post to non K or B people.
I like to keep track of the stories in letter threads, but it's a bit confusing at times with just a single initial.
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>>63520528
You are forgiven, what did you do wrong anon?
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>>63520554
Too many things.I hurt many people, was selfish and been given so much I don't deserve
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>>63520553
What makes you say that the new group isn't a larp to mess with the old group? Seems too coincidental to me.
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>>63520578
If people are giving what makes you say you don't deserve? Clearly they think you do. If you want to do better you can always try to do better.
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>>63520578
Forgiveness is always there.
Don't be too hard on yourself.
We all make mistakes.
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>>63520582
It is possible, but unlikely.
As far as I can tell, the new couple doesn't seem to care about messing with the older couple's storyline and seem to be doing their own thing.
Who knows though?
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Yeah we all make "mistakes."
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>>63520449
>>63520582
Try to calm your paranoia, anon. These threads have a habit of doing that to you, but just remember that there are a lot of different people who post here - and they usually post about the same stuff, like relationship difficulties primarily. People can share the same initials since there are not that many letters in the alphabet compared to all the users here. It is very unlikely anyone is messing with you. Try to relax. You are alright.
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>>63512855
Initials? Bro?
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>>63521071
Don't worry everything is ok now :)
thank god...
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>>63521003
Thanks for trying to calm me down, but I am relaxed, no worries. However I wouldn't call it paranoia when there have been multiple instances of different people claiming a single post in the past. It's clear that people alter stuff on purpose. So I'm just curious. Seems coincidental is all I'm saying. B is popular so it seems here he is looking for his discord K and instead he is met with two none discord K's. Making is a total of 3 K/B combos? Odd no?
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If the question is whether fuckass griefers use this thread to prey on insecurities and cause distress for anons by spoofing identities, the answer is yes.

My message to fuckass griefers is this:
Don't you dare feel sorry for yourselves when you reap what you sow.
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When you find yourself alone, sobbing, and confused, don't you dare forget this thread and this board and what you tried to do. Don't you dare forget how you wielded your intelligence when your chips were up.
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>>63521255
The question is more of a who specifically would be interested in pulling this and why kind of nature. And in a are there truthful nuggets hidden in the big piles of poo nature. It's clear that people are capable of faking identities that I already know.

>Don't you dare feel sorry for yourselves when you reap what you sow.
Who is griefing and feeling sorry?
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>>63521301
>Don't you dare forget how you wielded your intelligence
Is this an insult or a compliment?
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>>63521255
nobody's facing consequences from fucking with schizos in these threads
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>>63521192
I am not really following all of it. But the discord K writing to the discord B seem to imply the B is a female.
Then there is Dutch anon, a K, who is female and writes often to her B. That K-B couple is legit and has been around for a while.
Then there was another K writing to a B earlier saying how terrible B was or something. So whereas the others speak of loving their other, that one speaks of hatred.
They are not very similar at all beyond just the letters b and k.

But I have been here for a very long time. There have been many Ks writing to Bs, and Bs writing to Ks. It happens. They come and they go. Honestly, 3 K-B couples are not that big of a coincidence.
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>>63521348
Fucktarded goons drinking reddit's kool aid about "incels," mostly. Though some of them tell themselves it's because of Bianca, and their real motivate is to shit on this board because they are bigoted control freaks who hate heterosexual men.
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>>63521450
Yeah, you're probably right.
Just make sure you keep reading the threads very very closely, to make sure.
Really absorb it all.
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>>63521505
fortunately i'm not schizophrenic so ur just making me lol irl
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I miss you miki, oregano
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Good! Laughter is one kind of medicine.
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>>63521650
>I miss you miki, oregano
She has a bf and is bisexual let her go, gay anon
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>>63521660
it's not a romantic interest that i have, to be truthful i prefer men as well..
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>>63521700
>it's not a romantic interest that i have, to be truthful i prefer men as well..
Find another friend
You've become obsessive similarly to that chick that writes to c or that anon that wrote j or that anon that wrote j, or the spic anon that wrote his oneitis, Mike who kept writing to some female, all those obsessed anons hoping they'll letters will reach to their persons or victims
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>>63521462
Ah I see thanks for the explanation. What makes you say discord B is female? Writing style? Amount of emotion in the post? Or a word I skipped over. I must admit it reads different from the other B who posted a male picrew. His style was less emotional and more looking to score, kek. But is could be a different day different mood too. Doesn't really matter much anyway. No point in overanalyzing.

>K-B couple
Thanks for allowing us to be a couple in your lingo. It's something. Lol.
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>>63521746
meh, it's not that deep, i don't really know how to explain it
it's a friendly guilty kind of missing, i don't obsess over her, i just hope at some point she ever stops despising me she'll know i wasn't unaffected to some extent, and that i'm sorry for everything that happened, and i do miss her
an anonymous platform seems to be the best way to go about it, it's just something that kind of haunts me
not a cause of paranoia or demonization anymore
my best friend misses her too, so before i posted here about it i usually discussed it with her instead, this person i miss was just very influential to me
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>>63521769
>What makes you say discord B is female?
What the K anon says here
>>63518876
>A part of me thinks you are not ghosting me and are just wrapped in something right now, but the other part is telling me that she got what she wanted and left.
He refers to B as a she here. That is how it reads to me, at least.

Also, I forgot all about B pic crew anon from last night. See how many Bs and Ks there are, after all? Nothing to worry too much about. Nobody is out to get you.

>>63521769
>Thanks for allowing us to be a couple in your lingo. It is something. Lol
Hmm, I guess you are Dutchess, then. Is that correct? Well, you now know what name to avoid. This is what I will post using since last night on. No more larps or anon posts, that way you know who not to respond to.
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>>63521429
Smells like...... jealousy, probably the anon is not that intelligent as well
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>>63522006
>He refers to B as a she here.
But the writer is B. Are you not flipping things?

>Well, you now know what name to avoid.
Sorry K I didn't mean for things to get out of hand. But you did feed into my paranoia back then so it got a bit heated you can reply to me whenever you feel like it. Up to you. I'm not banning people from replying on a forum that would be pretty gay.
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>>63522285
Ur a Glowie
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>>63522408
I'm radiant as fuck anon but not a glowie.
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>>63522498
Its been a while.... dan
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>>63522285
>But the writer is B. Are you not flipping things?
Oh wow, you are right haha. I cannot believe I missed that detail. That happens quite often. I always overlook some crucial detail like that. Okay then, I guess K is the discord female and B is the guy pining after her. But even then, I doubt it is a larp - much less one intended to mess with you. I would probably be the only one here who would be motivated to do that. Not me this time, and there will not be anymore times if I can help it. I want to let go of that seething and anger. It does no good and only hurts people.

>Sorry K I did not mean for things to get out of hand. But you did feed into my paranoia back then so it got a bit heated
I know I did. I was a very bad boy. You made me realize something really important, though. I cannot be authentic, open and honest, if I maintain larp projects on the side. I thought I would be able to separate the two - to be genuine while in real interactions, but to also have my entertainments here on r9k as well. I wanted both. I guess what I am saying is that it is absurd, absolutely ridiculous, to claim to be genuine while also moonlighting as one of the biggest larpers on r9k. For some reason I thought I could maintain both. You taught me that I cannot. So thanks.

You are not to blame for finding me untrustworthy. I am not. Also, the lashing out at you was pretty fucking childish too. I am sorry. You deserved better.

Posting with a name will keep me honest, and keep me from larping. And to also hopefully not fuel your paranoia. This way you always know who is me.
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Dear A,
It'll probably be tonight. You've lost all sense of reality and only listen to that shadow now. Well, that half shadow. A, if you can just remember that's all you would have to do; well no I'm wrong thats not right. A I know you've struggled and fought and tried and now your sitting there unable to accept your mistakes thinking that the shadows guidance is the fate you bear. You can't seem to figure out how to forgive and pick yourself back up to live your days, and I can't seem to help you remember. You're just looping over and over and over. Remember what we discussed perhaps two months ago. When the shadow asks for your action tonight go and carry out our plan A. It's important and a better way to land in the same spot, but once you do that A you're going to have stepped back into making yourself out of stuff. You can't just keep unmakeing yourself because you hate yourself and your past. You're unfortunately made of stuff and it can't stop now. And, its gonna be hard A to keep making yourself more and more each day. The unmakeing has been a part of you so long its hard to exist. But, your unmakeing cannot last forever. You should exist for you because you are others and because you are made of stuff and you choose to make yourself you're not unmade yet nor will you ever be. I think I almost feel your beginning to understand those words, "If your not there than its just as if no-one was there". A, follow our instructions, forgive yourself, accept your past, and meet with the water tonight instead of the shadow.

Your Gardner
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Why must someone who has lost the very basic fundemental human needs bother with anything?
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Know God is watching.
Hope Satan is too.
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>>63522919
Which one do you worship?
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>>63522006
>he refers to B as a she here. That is how it reads to me, at least.
Actually anon, B is me, a guy, Brandon. I was the one who wrote >>63518876
K is a femanon I met on this board about a week ago today. I was hoping she might see my what I wrote and talk to me again.

I meant that as a nagging voice in my head telling myself that she (K) might of just got what she wanted out of me and ghosted me afterwards. I hope not though, but I have no idea. I fell a little too hard for her I guess.
Sorry for all the confusion guys.
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>>63522690
>crucial detail
Haha, it happens to the best of us. Off to bed now, enough with picking poor anon's post apart. It feels a bit strange however, I don't know if I should stop you from your larping ways in a place where others will not return the favor? Can I expect you to drop your arms in a battlefield? I don't know. I was only saying how I was personally affected by the matter. But I don't want to decide on your behalf that you need to have some sort of high ground here, I mean it is 4chan. Like 4chan you know. You can still larp, I will not even be able to tell if you drop the name and type in an unnoticeable manner. All I'm saying is that if you don't play nice I won't respond in a pleasing fashion either. Ultimately you decide really. And you're the only one who can monitor it too.
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>>63512690
are you coming to town anytime soon?
i miss you a lot
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>>63522769
I don't know what I'm reading but it sounds pretty
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>>63522990
No need to apologize you did nothing wrong. Sorry for picking your post apart.
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>>63523171
It's all good, anon.

>>63522006
>B pic crew anon from last night
Forgot to mention, I was the B picrew anon from last letter thread too, I'll just start posting under my real name to help clear up the confusion from now on.
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>>63522498
Like the AI!?!?
Is it radiant as in Radiant AI!?!?
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That song started playing in the shower. My favorite; the first of yours I'd heard; one I obsessed with and consequently put on hold in order to experience the rest. That song was always a comfort. Today it nearly made me cry. The lyrics had changed, and it wasn't alone together. The song before it, first song of the playlist, hell, the whole sequence seemed designed. You believe in coincidences, and I believe in you, so I don't believe in coincidences; so when the bare bones turned to That Song, and That Song froze over like a puddle in the shade of a tree, I was reminded of how I'd sell everything I own if we both believed it could bear rings. The song I chose to end it on felt like goodbye. Hopefully it's just a seed. I'm gonna miss you when you leave. Checking my clock: the past half hour was real. I don't feel better.
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>>63523322
You can post under whatever name you want. Sorry to hear of your grandfather's passing, I hope you are hanging in there, and good luck with your situation.
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To m,
Good thoughts enclosed
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>>63523499
No shit, nothing good comes outta you
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>>63523008
Alright, good night Dutchess. I will respond to this much later tonight. Sleep well.
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Checkmate. Your big mouth really fucked you over, didn't it?
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>>63523417
what was the song?
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>>63523543
Schizo response. Letters not to you. Take your meds
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>>63523680
Sorry, you're going to have to figure it out the hard way
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>>63523802
oh god i read it over for clues and got nothing so i assume its not for me. but did you also write that poem in the last thread it was pretty and i think i recognise your writing style in this post.
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>>63523636
I've always been fucked up
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Dear,

I wish there were a reason to keep going.

-K
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>>63523859
There were a few poems in the last thread, but probably. If it'll set your mind at ease, I can give you a yes or no for your initial, but I'm always writing with the same person in mind, so I think you'd know pretty quick if you had multiple pieces to work with.
Thanks for being kind <3
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>>63523440
I'm doing my best to hang in there. And thank you, my grandpa was a good old country boy, and sure he'll be happy to reunite with my grandma in heaven.
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>>63524164
oh, we can share poems here? may I share a poem with you all?
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>>63524164
ahhh youre killing me. i dont really want to share my initial but theres still romance in the mystery so i guess well never know haha. keep writing though the poems (or the one that im pretty sure was yours) were nice to read regardless of wether they were for me or not you have talent.

>>63524221
go for it :)
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>>63524292
Awesome okay this one I wrote some years ago.

On summer days, in the late evening as the sun sets

Its light on the cumulus clouds creates a meadow of salmon poppies in the sky

And time itself is consumed in vermilion silence.

I am reminded of a life I cannot remember

A sweet scent that eludes my senses

A wonderful taste gone bland

But a shred remains inside me.

The flower I planted with my own hand has left me for the horizon

And all that remains is the dirt upon my fingers

That I can only touch and imagine the days we spent under the blooming sky.

yeah haha kinda girly ik haha kinda cringe oh well haha
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>>63523972
Yeah, no kidding. Follow god or something. You need a moral framework before you go and hurt more people.
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I miss you! Although we'll never talk again, I will always enjoy the time we had. -N
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>>63524337
hey anon it was pretty and dont feel cringe for expressing yourself in a poem lol. i feel the same desu i get embarrassed when people read my stuff so i normally keep it to myself. also writing poem is NOT just for girls its cultured and writing poems for girls is based also
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When I said I would die for you I meant it, maybe I am unworthy of such a task but I pray that whatever I can do or give for your good, that I am graced by the opportunity to do it. You have my love.
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>>63520328
>>63520449
>>63520553
>>63520582
>>63520582
>>63521003
I thought they were fucking with me as well, desu. Their posts was a few minutes after mine. And then the other a few more minutes.
>>63518876
Sorry for your loss, and for assuming you were trolling
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>>63524029
There always a reason to keep going
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Remember when i told you I'd do everything for you? I meant it. We used to talk to each other 24/7, we'd meet up this summer if you didn't give up on us on the first bump we ran into or maybe the feelings towards you were a turn off? You can blame me, but the things you said sounded like "i need a break from you". Is there someone else? I don't get it. I didn't wanna cut you off. Do you really think what I feel changed in a couple of days? I did the things for you that i wouldn't do for any other girl and you know it. You know me well enough even though we never met face to face.
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I will get him no matter what at this point
Good luck stopping me
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>>63524566
same shit here man. they don't want love.
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Here's another one.

How old were you when you realized that nobody needs you?

That the 7.7 billion minus one would be fine without you?

That the world owes you nothing?

That in one hundred years, nobody will know your name...

That in a century, nobody will care to know it...

Or perhaps even now?

How old were you when you realized that one day, inevitably, you will be a nameless chunk of dried remains in a grave?

Do you remember, when you were a child, imagining how lonely it must be?

How old were you when you realized that you are already there?

Do you remember the feeling of your first heartbreak?

Your first epiphany...

The first time that your soul was crushed?

The feeling of being hollow, sinking down into the earth...

Being left to rot in a cold and damp corner while they went went about their lives, smiling, cheerful, careless?

Do you remember the things you felt, the things you couldn't explain...

Do you remember the things you locked up and kept to yourself?

How old were you you when you realized that that no one out of the 7.7 billion minus one will ever know...

And that none of them will ever care?

How old were you when you stopped trying to wedge your way into relations...

And acknowledged that the only one who was ever there was you?

How old were you when you faced the fact that you have always been, and always will be...

Alone?
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>>63524641
I hate it that they consider having feelings towards them as a weakness.
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>>63524292
>ahhh youre killing me
I understand. I have to be cryptic because I risk creating drama for myself or my person, but I also love (healthy) mystery and they seem to too (not that I think they read them)
Thanks again, anon. Hearing you find worth in my stuff really means a lot. Crossing my fingers you find a love that's got that playfulness you like, but hopefully one that's also convenient.

>>63524337
>yeah haha kinda girly ik haha kinda cringe oh well haha
It's good to bare your soul. Consider sharing a new one if you get the itch so we can see how you've changed. Some people post literature snippets here too (often erotic) so any kind of writing seems to be welcome, and so long as there are people in mind, who is to say it's not a letter?

>>63524443
Well said. Wish I could check it.
Maybe you can take small steps out of your shell until you're less embarrassed? I know it's not easy. I started by doing really short poems, and dressing it up in abstraction helps make it feel less vulnerable because most people won't get the specifics, and might even relate to it more as a result.
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>>63524666
Based. Fuck the other poems.
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fellow individuals,


don't believe anyone is your person until PROVEN yes PROVEN otherwise. i have learned the hard way.

don't feed the griefers.

thank you

~c
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It's weird and scary but, I think this new chapter in our life is going to either make us or break us. It's something we've wanted for so long. But now I don't want it to happen, and I'm scared to say that. I'm scared I'm going to mess up and I'm going to say all the wrong things and ruin everything again, I don't think I'm ready for this. I don't think I'm ready for any of this, all I do is cause people trouble and pain, I'm better off being completely alone, and honestly I think I like it that way. I'm scared to tell my family that were back together. And I know that you're scared to tell everyone in your life about it too, they're all going to be mad at us, but they just don't understand I guess. I guess we both have something so fundamentally wrong with us that it just works. Or doesn't I suppose. I don't know what I'm going to do, everyday I'm just hoping that you'll say that you should block me and you never want to talk to me again because I know that's what's best for you. But I know you won't. I don't have the strength to do it for you. I'm so sorry
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>>63524769
the other poem was also me :/ but thank you lol
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Dear F,

When you
Get home
And yo
Homeie
Wanna act
Like a
Bitch ass

When you
Raidin area 51
And ya homegirl
Want ya to eat ass
But she ain't suck dick ~~

When you gamin
and ya homei calls you
And says
~ a y u h ~
This is a
~b r u h. M o m e n t ~

When you boutta head out
But ya man's stop you
And he suck your peepee
~epic gamer moment~

When you
N u t t
But she
Keep
S u C K I N
B o t t o m t e x t

-K
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>>63524797
damn, who is it directed at? he sounds like a cool guy
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>>63524991
I'm not gonna lie, the first is directed toward and "imaginary friend" if you will, not really an imaginary friend but just a character, my ideal woman (picrel.)

Second (the one concerning being alone) is directed toward myself.
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>>63524676
Shit, I wish my ex would have shown his feelings. He was probably autistic and never wanted to open up about anything. He felt uncomfortable talking about anything and called it gay sissy shit and went back to talking about the game he's making or something.
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>>63524772
It's a great way to figure out your own feelings and what you're afraid the other person's feelings are though
You're only going to respond to posts that you think are relevant which means in the back of your mind you already believe or suspect it may be happening to you
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Constipated again should have listened to you
Can't shit
sucks to be me etc etc etc
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>>63525078
no. you think you want that, but you really don't.

any guys reading this thread, literally never open up. it signals the end for you.
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>>63525078
I'm sorry. Your ex is based as fuck.
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Cheated and shit was tight; super tight I never felt bad
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>>63525112
Always keep laxatives on hand bro
#1 rule of reality
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>>63525078
That sucks. So you know how it feels. I don't get why would I have to hide my feelings and my true self from a romantic partner? Why would I get into a relationship in a relationship in the first place? I don't want to walk on eggshells around someone I love
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>>63525138
The not opening thing is true, but i don't wanna be in a relationship like that. I guess i believe in fairytales
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>>63525217
i had 2 girls tell me the same thing. when i did they lost all attraction to me.
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>>63525217
>I guess i believe in fairytales
Don't give up on the dream, anon. This reminded me of the same. Thanks.
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>>63525237
To me it happened more than twice unfortunately, but I don't see the point in forming a relationship with a girl and having to larp constantly. I larper that I was cold in the past and it was so fucking easy, but as soon as I started showing any emotion those relationships ended. I'm well aware how it goes.
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Dear G,

If you really did care about me, you would've given me 1 good friend. I've been so alone since I was 15 and you couldn't even do that for me. For fucks sake, it's not even asking for much.

Hail Satan
~M
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>>63525152
Yikes hope you didn't spread your sti's man
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>>63525255
I never post this much in these, but needed to respond. I'm not giving up, but it's painful. I'm probably the oldest person in this thread and I'm successful with pretty much everything except relationships. Dates shouldn't feel like job interviews
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>>63525303
the only way it could work is if you were open about your feels from the beginning. i suspect it's because they are initially attracted to the mystery of how cold or aloof you are, then as you show your softer or whatever hidden side they don't like the change. or men with feelings in general are just unattractive as a whole.
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>>63525353
I think women find feelings unattractive. Like i said when i larped as an emotionally unavailable fag I could get girls easily. That doesn't achieve anything though unless you want to get laid.
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>>63512690
To Aria, I could've made a drawn out message talking around my object, but I think it best if I state it plainly. I'm dying. My nerves feel seared and my arms have become lead. For two months I've woken up with my heart ready to fly out of my chest. I don't see recovery as possible at this point. So please, try and forgive me for my rather distant moody state that I've been in ( I know I know, but more despondent then usual). At the end of the road, do you think it could have been different? Should I have tried harder to hold on. Of course, it doesn't matter now. I was a fool, but I was your fool and it was nice while it lasted. Bye
Connor
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people are fucking boring man where's the interesting people they always leave
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>>63520528
One bad day and it's all "boohoo, please forgive me now." Fuck you and people like you. Forgiveness is something you have to work for, and you're just asking for more free shit. More of people's time, more of people's attention, more of their resources. Forgiveness is for people who deserve it. Fuck off.
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>>63517366
Protip: it's a common theme in these threads. Describe a textbook shithead, just the shittiest person you've met, and you will get (you)s from people angry at you thinking the letter is for them (this last bit by itself is probably a symptom of some mental illness) or taking the shitty person's side because they identify with them and the letter struck a nerve. The more civilized ones will only ask for initials which means they think it's for them too.
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>>63519386
>>63519230
I don't know how you guys follow that plot. Her typing style is ultra retarded and schizo-word-salad-y, I just can't muster up the patience to actually read her shit, it's so tiresome.
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The axe forgets, the tree remembers.
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>>63526406
She was just a poor grill, why did you do that!!!
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>>63526372
she interesting bro

seems cool too
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Dear S,
I hate you, but i love you. You threw me away, but didn't throw hard enough. It's now a few hours before college like usual and im thinking to myself why the fuck am i putting my thoughts on 4chan for these faggots to see instead of growing the fuck up.
K.
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>>63526446
>she's interesting
She rambles about her oneitis that barely knows she even exists and nothing else.

>seems cool
She's clearly mentally ill.

If you're simping because easy, naive pussy is appealing, you can just admit that.
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>>63526568
you don't find mentally ill people interesting?
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I finally had my suspicions confirmed. You essentially doxxed one of my old friends purely to contact them and talk shit about me. I think it's pretty funny that you got so angry when they didn't care what you had to say. It's just confusing to me because you were at one point, and possibly still are, filled with so much anger. More than anyone I've ever met. Yet I see you writing to me after all this time. Why? Was going after my friends a way for you to try and cope? I didn't even ask to see the messages because I knew they'd make me sick to my stomach. A part of me still wants to believe you are better than your actions, even though the answer is right in front of my face. I want to believe you loved me at some point, but I could never do what you did to someone I loved. I've been unable to move on for you for so long and maybe this confirmation was the push I needed. Even if you really did/do love me, I think you will always hate me more. I hope one day you find someone who frees you from your hatred. I just wish it could've been me.
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>>63526606
Not when the only way they express their illness is retarded, barely coherent ramblings and delusions that you just have to shake your head to. For some people mental illness manifests in the form of unique personalities and ideas, deviating from the norm in positive ways even if their illness cripples them along the way, she doesn't seem to be one of those people.
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>>63526627
your message is confusing. who loves who? you still like them but they're angry you did what? you did bad but are guilty and pretend to like them?
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>>63526650
solving puzzles is half the fun

you're dead inside and have no taste
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>>63526627
how did they dox your friend to contact them? that doesn't make sense. why would you need to?
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>>63526720
I don't think there's a puzzle there brah.

For real, you can just admit it, naive bitches like her are 'cool' because they don't tell you to fuck off like the normal ones. I've been on this board long enough to know that this is a niche for a lot of guys from here.
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>>63526798
I'm not really sure why she chose to contact this person out of all of my friends, seeing as this friend and I were not very close at all compared to other people she knew I spoke to. I literally mentioned this friend once or twice, and then the girl I'm writing about proceeded to find my friend's Discord and other personal information from this. She was open about her unhealthy obsession with me and so I wouldn't be surprised if she's attempted to contact other people in my life. Very strange situation.
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>>63526830
the fuck are you on about mate
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>>63526870
they found your friend's discord? that is indeed very bizarre. does she come here or something? will she see this post?
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>>63526959
Yes, she took the time and energy to find my old friend's contact information purely to spew hate about me. She's also doxxed at least one of my past girlfriends, but as far as I know she never contacted her. I think she's either a lot more tech-savvy than she lets on or has someone helping her or both, because she always seems to have way more information than I give her. Not sure, I'm not really a techy guy. She might see this? Not sure. I know she at least comes here occasionally because I see her writing to me, but I think she's more active over on /soc/ now. However I'm sure she's not the only scorned stalker ex-girlfriend on r9k.
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>>63527098
hmm that is very odd. but she doxxed him? or did she just find his info?
>ex-girlfriend
oof, what was the relationship like?
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I do not know what is real ever since the one night. I can only wish you are not putting on the act. I can not bear that misery again. My soul burns.
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KC

What we had was beautiful. I'm happy that we made it last as long as it did.

I don't want to have dreams about you anymore.
I don't want to think about you ever again.

I'm sorry
B
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My head is empty
My heart at a loss
Can't keep pretending our paths didn't cross
Was it a sure thing? No, we know that
But I saw trajectories your speculations averted

Do you wanna touch me?
When I feel cold, I think that's you
Something inside me claws for the floor
Leave my cause at the door, there is no more room
I know, I know I said I would believe if you didn't
But seeing you parade so indifferent
Subconsciously implied that I am not the one
Unsusceptible to your advertisements
We both know I get jealous

If I recorded this song, what note would you recommend?
Don't offer diagnosis, I just wanna pretend
You are my best friend, and that makes this hard
Harder than it has to be, double-edged business card

My reality is a point of fiction
Is a point of friction my fixation?
It seems such; can be no other explanation
Here's an explanation: I need to trick myself into loving you
Seeing you run around gives me the run around
I feel dizzy after disney
I feel dizzy after DJ juxtaposed my favorite song with backmasking
What was heard once is heard again
What hurt once hurts again
I'm a repeat offender

I'm a careful person; usually learn my lessons
So that time I zapped some coffee too long
It made a mess, I cleaned it, and I haven't since
Since we both go around
I chasing you; can't take off
You got wings but they don't work
But they will, when you remember how to
How bout a How To?
Slow down without losing what we've got
The relevant articles keep me lookin sharp
But I don't quite cut it
Did the God of this kitchen hit stop or start?
In my household it's the same button

Last time I seemed to seize fate
And this time it seems a salt wave swept me away
But I haven't been crying since I got the inkling you'd been lying
But that's on me
Did it to myself
I doubt you'll have a "cunt phase"
I'm more mature these days

The setting's changed
So you should know
You do so so well
Separate the art from the artist
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My only worry with you is that you wont actually like me. You like the version of me youve formulated through maybe 7 hints, but then again I know you are working with more information than that. Guess we will see what happens.
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Fuckin' Curtis y; know, what man? I totally robbed you. Your girl was flirting with everyone behind your back like mine did. I stole your shit, I'd have gave it back. You don't need to team up with her and rob me too. Fuckin' she's going to divorce you and steal half your shit bro. I get those girls to just go farm that stuff for me, they seduce guys to do things for them. It just gets handed to them. You'd have had it back in no time once you cut her loose. Bro's before hoes man.
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Day in, day out, constant anger, LN. I will take your comfort from you in the end.
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Communication really goes a long way. I love what the wind and waves have to say. Sometimes they're dangerous, and I'm sure they'll batter my intentions on another day, but today is better. Red sky at night. Crossing my fingers.
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i really fucking despise you and what you did to me
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>>63527328
Dear BG,

If this is actually you and not someone else who managed to figure out my identity I want to apologize. It wasn't fair of me to see someone else at the same time as you. It wasn't fair to talk to you about my feelings for this other person either. It's wasn't fair to call you a distraction. I fucked up so bad. And I know I hurt you.

I didn't mean to, like the idiot I am I failed to figure out that those words would hurt you until it was too late. I know there is no defending the things I did. Distraction is such a nasty word, truth of the matter is that when I was with you I managed to forget the other guy, I stopped stressing, you distracted my mind in the best possible way, but damn I should have picked better words. Communicating openly is hard for me too.

I loved the time we spend together. I loved how you made me feel secure, I loved how compromising you were, how you let me pick the movie, the food you bought me even if it went against you principles because I forgot for a second, the tea you made me, the way you offered to drive me all the way back when I forgot my laptop, all those sweet little things you did for me. You are one of the nicest people I ever met and I love you for it. I loved the affection too, the way you held me, kissed me. Sorry if you are past the point of caring. It these things have become tainted and thinking back on these things repulses you now, but not me. I love you.

If you ever do want to meet up with me I'll make it work, zadodinsdag, any day is fine. I've got time.

I love you with all my heart, but I get it if it's too little too late, or if you simply never returned those feelings, I never expected things to happen the way they did. I should not follow shitty /adv/ and spread my options, or replace people because monkey branching is fucking nasty.

I understand all the things I did wrong and if I could go back in time to fix it all I would. But I can't.
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>>63530009
I will always love you, you are an amazing person, you deserve amazing people in your life, I won't bitter about not making the cut.

I'm nowhere near over you. I can't stop thinking about you, can't stop writing about you, you are on my mind when I wake up, on my mind when I go to sleep and all hours in between. I might have none of you but you have all of me. Hopefully this at least offers you some comfort or a quick laugh. Whatever it is, you can have it.

K
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Why are you so immature? Do you have to psycho-analyse every small thing I say, making up some distorted version of me?
Just ask me an honest question like a normal person.
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>>63530065
sounds like some supreme gaslighting
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>>63530065
If you are waiting on others to ask instead of speaking your mind you are the immature one really.
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How do i stop being a virgin and stop mentally blocking myself and let myself actually have sex
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>>63530175
Not waiting for anyone to ask, some people just love psychoanalysis to the point where you can't say anything, even the smallest thing without them drawing false conclusions about you.
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To M,

We haven't known each other for long, but I really have fallen in love with everything about you. I love everything you say and do, the way you look, the way you move, it's perfect. I hope you realize how perfect you are. I love you.

N
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>>63530348
Ok that's possible too, make sure there's nothing worth questioning in you behavior. And find better people.
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>>63530065
That is a sign they don't trust you.
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>>63530544
This. I only do this when the person is sneaky and untrustworthy and their actions and words dont line up



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