Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supportI'm sick :<hey >How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
hiiiHere's a bunch of helpful links> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7>a first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/> wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic> bpd workbook:https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read> bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
Evening /cat/, praying for a speedy recovery.>>83062333>How are you doing today?Pretty good. 6AM leg day. When I was walking out my house it snowed for the first time, so that was a nice change of scenery. Winter's the best season.>Any plans for today?Working on homework and playing vidya. I was gonna practice driving for my license but the slightly inclement weather ruined it.>When was the last time you hurt yourself?November of last year.>Why did you hurt yourself?Frustration with my lack of direction.>Is there anything bothering you right now?I crashed like 3 minutes ago but I'm alright.
>>83062638hellothank you!>it snowedwoahope you don't get sick>homework and playing vidya.have fun gamin and best of luck on your license how do you feel about getting it?>crashed like 3 minutes ago but I'm alright.it better stay that waywhat were you angry about if it's okay to ask?
I fell off the wagon today. I got overcome by guilt and sent her an email to apologise for everything I'd sent and said I'd try my best not to send any more. Hopefully that'll be it for me.Otherwise I'm doing alright.
>>83062676>hope you don't get sickYeah but I'll come back stronger if I do so it's chill.>how do you feel about getting it?About time honestly. My country has this arbitrary restriction where you gotta wait a year between being able to do the written and road tests. I'll probably use it to grocery shop mostly.>what were you angry about if it's okay to ask?Less angry and more just sad and tired. I only got 5ish hours of sleep but I didn't wanna break routine again so I went to the gym anyway. A while after I got home I crashed into a chair and spiraled for about 30 minutes half asleep till I woke up. Was bothered about not having any desire to live beyond fulfilling my obligations. Still unresolved but I can do what I'm supposed to now at least.>>83062786She might eventually message back something negative out of annoyance, and that'll sour your memory of what you had before. Better off not contacting her to avoid that.
>>83062786hey hey>fell off the wagon today.but you are better now?>said I'd try my best not to send any moreI guess if you had to send something, this might be the best thing to send though hopefully you better not send emails like that every week>I'm doing alright.that's goodwhat did y do today? watcha doing now?
>>83062960>Better off not contacting her to avoid that.You're right. I need to keep to myself after this.>>83062990>but you are better now?A little.>though hopefully you better not send emails like that every weekThis time it's definitely out of my system. I hope.>what did y do today? watcha doing now?I got a small amount of work done. Now I'm just killing time.
>>83062333hey cat, sorry. Hope you feel better soon. No need to force yourself to chat if you aren't feeling wellTake care!>>83062638hi again anon!Reminds me, I started reading chainsaw man part 2 the other day. I finished part 1 couple months back and kinda sat around a bit before starting. Enjoy it so far but heard there's mixed opinion on it>leg dayGoing to do mine in a few minutes. Gotta keep up like I > it snowed for the first timenice. I like till I have to scrape the sidewalks at least>>83062786hey discanon>sent her an email toi don't think you had to, but at this point just leave it at that. Maybe things change maybe they don't, but think this is a good stopping point>Otherwise I'm doing alright.doing anything else today?
>>83062960>but I'll come back stronger if I dowell, stillstay safe>where you gotta wait a year betweenwhat! that sounds pretty dumbI wonder what caused it to be that way>I'll probably use it to grocery shop mostly.samethat's what I do, mostly because I don't like driving >5ish hours of sleep but I didn't wanna break routineIt's my opinion, but I feel not enough sleep will hurt yourself more than breaking your routine once or twice >not having any desire to live beyond fulfilling my obligationsyeah...>but I can do what I'm supposed to now at least.at least that >>83063217>A littleat least a little but do you think there's something that could make y feel even better?or maybe you don't mind it that much and you're just chilling?>definitely out of my system. I hope.well it's good to hear you say that >small amount of work donegood job \o/>Now I'm just killing time.anything fun?>>83063607hey officeanon >Hope you feel better soon. thank you!it's not that bad fortunatelyjust some bone pain and stiff joints bit I don't have a massive headache or a sore throat>No need to force yourself to chat if you aren't feeling wellnp ^^thnak u for caring but I'll try to reply every so often
>>83063607>i don't think you had to, but at this point just leave it at that.I made the mistake of rereading one and realising I came across as some kind of lunatic. But yes, if there is a stopping point it's now.>doing anything else today?Not really, I'm just trying to keep my brain relatively calm.>>83063639>or maybe you don't mind it that much and you're just chilling?I wish I was doing more stuff but I just don't have the energy for it.>anything fun?Mostly just watching YouTube videos. I can't even slack off right...
>>83063882>wish I was doing more stuff but I just don't have the energy for it.can't blame ya, what do you wish you were doing?>YouTube videos. I can't even slack off right...hey that's finethat's what I did too, though I know that just because we both do it it doesn't make it goodbut anyway, have you found anything interesting? if ya haven't it can reccomend some videos that I think are fun to listen too or watch ^^
>>83062333>I'm sick :<oh noes... :< but you know what's also sick? your trips! :D>>83062638hello, anon!>Pretty good. 6AM leg dayhow did it go?>it snowed for the first time, so that was a nice change of scenery. Winter's the best season.that's awesome and i wholeheartedly agree. sadly it doesn't snow very often where i live.>>83062786hi discanon!>sent her an email to apologise for everything I'd sent and said I'd try my best not to send any more. Hopefully that'll be it for me.it's a rough time for you two, that's for sure, but you'll get over it all eventually. give it time.>>83063607hi, officeanon! how are you today?
>>83062333Attention whore cringe general #649
>>83063639>just some bone pain and stiff joints bithmm well glad you're not feeling too bad, but those aren't great symptoms to have. I always associate with having the flu. Just don't overdo it and get some rest if you need to>>83063882>came across as some kind of lunatici'm sure it's worse in your head than it actually sounds. take it easy>keep my brain relatively calm.hmm is there anything else you can do to focus on something else? I saw you mention youtube videos. Just anything you want to watch or some hobby that takes your mind of things. Just best to avoid trouble is stay busy>>83063993hey Yuanon!>what's also sick? your trips!underrated comment. I completely missed the trips>how are you today?I'm okay. A bit sleepy since had a rough night but all right. How are you? Having a good weekend?
>>83063607>hi again anon!Hallo officeanon >Enjoy it so far but heard there's mixed opinion on itI liked part 1 more but part 2 is also alright. Part 2 is of mixed opinion probably because of the pacing, part 1 was paced very well while part 2 can feel a little all over the place. As well it denji seems to have some character regression later in the part which people disliked (but you could argue that's part of his character too). It's much more of a study on asa and/or denji specifically with less spotlight on the rest of the cast. Who are your favorites? I really liked Angel and Power in Part 1, Yuko and Asa for part 2. Hard to pick desu fujimoto kills it with character design.>Going to do mineHave fun.>till I have to scrape the sidewalksBlizzards bring 30 minutes worth of shoveling to my driveway is when it gets annoying to me.>>83063639>not enough sleep will hurt yourself moreProbably would, but missing routine bothers me a lot more than missing 2 hours of sleep would. I'll ease off on hurting my sleep for the sake of scheduling in a week or two. You are right though.>wonder what caused it to be that wayThe idea is you spend a year driving with a licensed person in the passenger seat so by the time you do the test you'll be 100% ready (since that's basically what the driving test is). Nobody needs a year for this, should be 3 months tops.>yeah...wdym>>83063993Hallo yuanon>how did it go?Pretty great, missed one machine that was out of service but hit all my PRs from last week.>that's awesome and i wholeheartedly agree. sadly it doesn't snow very often where i live.Damn straight, best part of winter? You get to wear big ass jackets all the time, comfy and cool. Too bad you don't get it much, but not shoveling is nice at least.
>>83063975>what do you wish you were doing?Watching more Eva, so I just watched another episode and came to the upsetting realisation that I'm the worst aspects of Shinji and Misato at this point of my life.>but anyway, have you found anything interesting?The only YouTube channel that I can recommend in good conscience is The Infinite Review. His videos are some of the best on the site and it's criminal that he gets barely any views for them. Not sure what to recommend specifically but maybe these to get you started.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XLMTuLdSxaIhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OiznN5wClg4https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=twrL1MPXBA0https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8KgRLLPOHq8https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TLrKZcY2ScIhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ikaxgs-T9as>>83063993>but you'll get over it all eventually. give it time.Hopefully. The initial shock has warn off, at least.>>83064077>i'm sure it's worse in your head than it actually soundsI come across as very upset in them, but hopefully you're right.>Just anything you want to watch or some hobby that takes your mind of thingsI've got some model kits to make at some point. Soon, hopefully.
>>83064077>underrated comment.thank you. bit proud i thought of it. :>>A bit sleepy since had a rough night but all right.oh. what kept you up?>How are you? Having a good weekend?i think it was. didn't get everything done i wanted to, but i worked out, hung out with friends and even worked on my hobby-stuff a bit, though not as much as i wanted to. in the end, the workouts wore me down too much. also didn't sleep well, so my plan to get up earlier failed pretty miserably. ^^' now i'm just watching random youtube stuff. how was yours?>>83064102>Pretty great, missed one machine that was out of service but hit all my PRs from last week.dang, but what can you do. good job on those prs, though. that's quite impressive. >You get to wear big ass jackets all the time, comfy and cooltrue. i think i own more different jackets than any other kind of clothes. i do have my favorite, though.>Too bad you don't get it much, but not shoveling is nice at least.word. i don't think i'd like snow as much as i do if i had to deal with that on the regular. for some reason i really enjoy driving when it's heavily snowing. it rarely happens that i'm out and driving when it starts, but it's kinda comfy. also nice that i can get the winter-yua's out again. ^^>>83064276>The initial shock has warn off, at least.glad you're somewhat back on your feet. and thanks for those links. i'll give that channel a try.
>>83063993>oh noes... :<noeses even :c> but you know what's also sick? your trips! :Dso sick it's terminal brah I guess I'm all good now B3How are you today?>>83064077>but those aren't great symptoms toyep but I can handle it, sore throat qnd headache I haate >rest if you need toooh I'm restin just spent most of today in my bed>>83064102>ease off on hurting my sleep for the sake of scheduling in a week or two.hope you don't lose too much sleep before that>>83064102>Nobody needs a year for this, should be 3 months tops.i guess for some though I needed a little more>wdymwell ya know, life's not too great >>83064276>watched another episodehave fun>upsetting realisation we all do some of the things those characters do, that's why they're so popular to an extend they're relatable >YouTube channel that I can recommend in good conscience isthank you ^^
>>83064102> liked part 1 more but part 2 is also alright.some pretty big changes right off the bat that I wasn't sure of when I first started, but have enjoyed what I read so far (though am admittedly not very far)>could argue that's part of his character toonot there quite yet since only seen him a little where I'm at, but way I see people irl regress all the time. If it doesn't hurt the narrative, don't think it's a big deal even if it is annoying(which also might be the point sometimes)>Who are your favorites?>Hard to pickyeah tell me about it. i'd probably go Makima and Aki if I had to pick. Not really anyone I disliked at a character, though certain characters like Kobeni I'm always surprised hear say she was there favorite. Not far enough into part 2 yet, but do like the Asa/Yoru dynamic and agree Yuko was very good and genuinely disappointed she was around for such a short time>Have fun.thanks. Decent enough workout>gets annoying to me.It's not fun. Easily my least favorite part of winter. The part that gets me is the ice getting stuck to the sidewalk. Try my best to scrape it off, but it's hard. I'd treat it with salt ahead of time, but have a dog now and don't want to risk him trying to lick it up>>83064276>I come across as very upset in them,i think that's understandable though. You're not a lunatic for being sad when you should be. But again, leave it at that>I've got some model kits to make at some point.what kind of models are they? some of those seem very time consuming, but honestly probably does seem like something you can just pour time into
>>83064514>what kept you up?didn't get to bed late since had too much house work to do. Was a bit stressed trying to finish up some work on top of it. And just a bit high strung when I finally did get into bed. Hoping things are better tonight>i worked outhow'd that go? Guessing well enough if it tired you out for the weekend!>my plan to get up earlier failed pretty miserably. probably for the best than actually managing and being miserable and tired whole time>how was yours?was all right. Not too eventful. I did some christmas shopping, played games at the mall a bit more, and that was about it.>>83064640>sore throat qnd headache I haateagreed. I don't like coughing. I get really sick back to back. One time was a bad cough and difficulty breathing. That was horrible and made it hard to even sleep. But I got covid after and that wasn't bad. Being feverish and hazy is all right with me. Kind of comfy just sitting in bed napping all day>just spent most of today in my bedas you probably should. Kinda wish I had an excuse to do that
not much has changed. i still think about killing myself on the daily. today is a particularly bad day. i really don't know what to do anymore
>>83064514>and thanks for those links. i'll give that channel a try.I hope you enjoy it!>>83064640>we all do some of the things those characters do, that's why they're so popular to an extend they're relatableThat's true. I find I relate to them more than more than anyone else in fiction. I've already done my equivalent of cranking one out to a comatose Asuka. Please euthanise me.>>83064690>You're not a lunatic for being sad when you should be.You're right. I'm not usually that impulsive though so I figured it reflected pretty badly on me, I guess.>But again, leave it at thatI'll try my best. There's not really anything else to tell her at this point.>what kind of models are they? Anime girls.>some of those seem very time consumingYes, they usually take up a whole day for me. Which is probably a good thing when I'm like this.>>83064760What's got you down?
>>83064514>good job on those prsThanks.>Own more different jackets than any other kind of clothesNice, what's your favorite? I've only ever had 1 at a time, 2 I you count track jackets. Could be nice to have more, you into fashion?>driving when it's heavily snowingStrange cuz Ive only ever heard people hate it, but you probably get pretty light snow. Walking anywhere after a good snowfall will leave you wet past your ankles here.>>83064640>i guess for some though I needed a little moreMakes sense makes sense.>life's not too great Life itself couldn't be better, it's just my internals are all wrong. It'll sort itself with age probably.>>83064690>but way I see people irl regress all the time. If it doesn't hurt the narrative, don't think it's a big dealYeah exactly, people forget Denji is still just a high schooler and expect him not repeat mistakes. You can make a good character thats hateable imo.>MakimaEvil ass hell, but she's a good catalyst for everyone elses development. 2nd best horseman next to war.>AkiBased. His arc of losing his revenge fantasy in favor of protecting his new family of power/denji was great.
>>83064640>so sick it's terminal brah I guess I'm all good now B3glad to hear it. (^-^) still, get comfy and take it easy.>How are you today?i'm good. just tired and worn out from my workouts. can't really concentrate on anything right now, so i'm just watching some random vids on youtube. how are you spending the evening?>>83064752>too much house work to do. Was a bit stressed trying to finish up some work on top of it.gotta have everything ready for winter on top of your usual chores and work, i suppose. :< how did it go?>And just a bit high strung when I finally did get into bed. Hoping things are better tonightmakes sense. still got any plans for today?>Guessing well enough if it tired you out for the weekend!pretty much. :> starting to get adjusted to the increased weight. it's a rough, but, as a friend likes to say, pain is weakness leaving the body.>probably for the best than actually managing and being miserable and tired whole timeyeah, i'm not arguing with my body on that anymore. still might be better if i get used to getting up at least an hour earlier. carpe diem and all that nonsense.>was all right. Not too eventful. I did some christmas shopping, played games at the mall a bit more, and that was about it.good. you deserve some quality time for yourself. and what did you get? i need to think about some gifts, too. maybe you can give me some inspiration.>>83064760hey lav! it's great to see you again! :D>not much has changed. i still think about killing myself on the daily.sorry, dude.>today is a particularly bad day. why? did anything happen?>i really don't know what to do anymorei've been there before. still kinda am, honestly. all i can say is that we're here for you if you need to talk or just to vent.
>>83065063>what's your favorite?hm, can't find the exact type anymore, since it's been replaces since i bought it, but this one come close. just no cords at the bottom and the zipper goes all the way down.https://mufflon.com/en/products/men/w300/mu-patrick-en>Could be nice to have morecan't really recommend. one will be your favorite you wear all the time and the rest just lies or hangs in a closet somewhere.>you into fashion?not at all. i just have issues with finding clothes i like, so i try this and that. most of my stuff is for fall and winter, though. no clue what i should buy or wear during spring and summer but a jeans and a t-shirt. can't even find shirts in a quality/material i like.>you probably get pretty light snow.yeah, no blizzards or anything like that at all and it's not like i'm getting out of my way. i know it's dangerous, but i try to.be careful.>Walking anywhere after a good snowfall will leave you wet past your ankles hereit's been years that we got anything even remotely close. where do you live, if you don't mind the question?
im dyinghope you all doing better
>>83065316hey rem!>im dying hope you all doing betterwhy? D:
>>83065221>where do you live, if you don't mind the question?Picrel. It's alright I guess, people are friendly enough and the government isn't completely dysfunctional. It's massive so theres a lot of variety in terrain/ecology, but I don't get to experience much of it in my slice of the country. Where are you from?>this one come closeLooks comfy.>I just have issues with finding clothes i likeSame, I just wear clothes to wear them most of the time, nothing in my closet worth styling around.>>83065316Hey rem
>>83065387hey anon >>83065361not in the mood to talk honestly. im just dying. im so hurt
hey everyone, sorry i'm late again. tried to rest more, feeling a bit less sick atleast. listen to this : https://youtu.be/m5NyL0tnFOI?si=xaUJeQMqgpkDL4NY
>>83064760sorry times are tough still lavender. Always welcome here whenever you need to stop in>>83065044> not usually that impulsivewe all have our moments. No shame in that>Anime girls.nice xD I'd struggle to see the appeal of model making, but if it's anime girls I guess it's worth it in the end at least> they usually take up a whole day for mesee i struggle to find so much time to invest, so I'd probably get frustrated and feel rushed at some point along the way D:>>83065063>what's your favorite?Jumping in because I saw talk of jackets, but I wear a green(kinda military shade green) bomber jacket that's my default go to.>expect him not repeat mistakes. very messed up in the head and stunted.>Evil ass hellI've been a situation where an obviously manipulative woman who I'm convinced might be legitimately a psychopath in the true definition has tried to completely ruin my life, yet I was too far gone to leave a situation I should have, so I think the character struck a weird chord with me>losing his revenge fantasy in favor of protecting his new family Him saving Angel in the one scene got me. Hit really hard in the movie especially when I went to see that. Definitely the most satisfying character arc for me
>>83065387>people are friendly enough and the government isn't completely dysfunctional.what more can you ask for these days? >It's massive so theres a lot of variety in terrain/ecology, but I don't get to experience much of it in my slice of the countrywould be hard in a country that big, but hey, at least you have a lot of travel destinations if you ever feel like it.>Where are you from?germany. i want to complain so much i don't even know where to start, but it's it's not like i'd rather live somewhere else, either. one of those places.>Looks comfyit's a good one, but this kind of wool jackets aren't very warm on their own, but it's enough to bring me through the colder seasons.>nothing in my closet worth styling around.harder for guys anyways. we just don't buy enough, so we don't get much choice.>>83065703>not in the mood to talk honestly. im just dying. im so hurtthat's ok. maybe just try to go to bed and call it a day?>>83065707hey chev! how's it going?>feeling a bit less sick atleast.that's good. hope you'll be completely well soon.
>>83065073>on top of your usual chores and workand the dog> how did it go?okay enough. Just feel like I have more and more each weeks since never quite get through everything. At least I have clean towels. All I really needed in the end.>still got any plans for today?at this point just going to bed, but wouldn't want to do anything else anyway>adjusted to the increased weight.nice. Had some weight increases again recently and once again getting the jello arms locking up sensation I love so much>get used to getting up at least an hour earlierI mean I get up earlier than anyone and i've been wasting time like crazy so>deserve some quality time for yourselfi'm getting kind of good at one of the games. Very addicting. Was going for like an hour straight since finally got a hang of how to do well>and what did you get?a pair of scarves. We're doing secret santa and i got my sister and her fiancee i do not know anything about(they grouped them together for that reason) which made it even harder so got half off priced scarves.>>83065316hey rm, if you need to talk we're all here for you. Know you had things going on today. Even if things aren't great right now, things take time. try to take it easy.>>83065707hey chev, glad you're feeling a bit better. Still try not to overdo it too much
>>83066063>and the doghave to admit i kinda forgot about him. how's he doing?>Just feel like I have more and more each weeks since never quite get through everything.i know that feeling. all you can do is to try to not let get things too out of hand and deal with whatever is bothering you most first. good luck. o7>At least I have clean towels. All I really needed in the end.doing laundry... biggest reason for a minimalist wardrobe there is.>at this point just going to bed, but wouldn't want to do anything else anywayjust have a chill evening, then.>once again getting the jello arms locking up sensation I love so muchcan't say i'm looking forward to feeling like this, but progress is progress. good job to both of us. (*^*)9>I get up earlier than anyone and i've been wasting time like crazy sobodies going to get it's rest. nothing we can do about it. not that we should if we could.>Was going for like an hour straight since finally got a hang of how to do wellmust be nice to have a game like that. i'm just trying my best to get through some really tough brotato chars and the one i'm on now is pretty much just rng. kinda annoying.>which made it even harder so got half off priced scarves.i think most people i know already have scarves, but it's a good present if you don't know what else you could get.
>>83066024>call it a daythanks yuanon, im gonna do that soon>>83066063>things take timethanks mate.man i wanna destroy and kill myself, i just know i cant do it. the feeling in my chest is killing me i feel like it's burning inside, im so tiredsorry for my random rant without any explanation, i hope everyone's day was better
>>83066303>im gonna do that sooni'll be heading to bed, too. good night, fren. talk to you soon.>sorry for my random rantit's fine. you don't have to explain anything.
>>83065946>I wear a green(kinda military shade green) bomber jacketSwag asf.>...think the character struck a weird chord with meMakes sense, I got a similar thing with griffith.>Him saving Angel in the one scene got me.I loved seeing it in the manga and all the redraws of it since the movie came out are great too. I wanted to watch it in theaters but none in my area are screening it.>very messed up in the head and stunted.True>Him saving Angel in the one scene got me.I loved seeing it in the manga, and now with the movie there's tons of fanart of the two.>>83066024>germany. i want to complain so much i don't even know where to start, but it's it's not like i'd rather live somewhere else, either.I'd move there over Canada in a heartbeat lol, but grass is always greener. I got a laundry list of complaints about my country as well but this isn't really the thread. Least you got doner.>harder for guys anywaysUntrue, not harder more just guys care less about fashion in general so it seems that way.>>83065707>listen to thisHallo che, good track. Not remotely similar, but what do you think of this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SHNuXz2sN-w
>>83066063>Still try not to overdo it too muchyeah i'm being careful dw. how have you been btw>>83066303>i wanna destroy and kill myselfwhats going on man? wanna talk abt it? worried abt you yk. >i hope everyone's day was bettermine was okay, me and a girl got together ig. dunno how i feel abt it>>83066823>Hallo chesorry but that sounded rlly funny in my head, like i just turned into che guevara or something>what do you think of thisnot really my style i think, but it's pretty okayhttps://youtu.be/mJPxHdhSqWYwas listening to this for a bit
>>83066988>mine was okay, me and a girl got together ig. dunno how i feel abt itWhy the mixed feelings? If you actually like the girl it shouldn't be too bad.
>>83067616i do like her, maybe that's why the mixed feelings. I guess i lost the whole cutesy feeling of having a crush, and that kinda stings
Was in a game, proper reply now>>83066988>>83066423>like i just turned into che guevara or somethingFunny. What's a chevalier anyway?>was listening to this for a bitGood track, I need to listen to more metal. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9FjpIfSbB8Y>guess i lost the whole cutesy feeling of having a crushMakes sense, nothing says you can't keep talking to her but you're right.
>>83068097>What's a chevalier anyway?french word for knight, was my stage name when i played in my band, guess it just stuck.>I need to listen to more metalhttps://youtu.be/VoneNG3feyo?si=fjwsU5RUW8RyBxBd give this a tryalso really dig the song u linked>nothing says you can't keep talking to her i'll still talk to her dw, guess she's my girlfriend rn anyways. just kinda weird that it's all different nowsorry for the pic, literally ran out
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>>83065946>we all have our moments. No shame in thatI suppose so. I still felt awful though. Less so now that I've apologised.>I'd struggle to see the appeal of model making, but if it's anime girls I guess it's worth it in the end at leastIt is! Usually a lot cheaper than a figure of the same quality, too. Plus "I made that" is always more satisfying than "I bought that.">so I'd probably get frustrated and feel rushed at some point along the way D:You just have to let it takes as long as it takes. There's no deadlines for stuff like this.
>>83066988>worried thanks chev, i really appreciate thisdon't worry it happens>dunno how to feel about itthis strange feeling is dangerous for both sides sometimes, i hope nothing bad happens , wish you all the good luck mate
>>83069572hey dude, glad to hear you're alright. can always message me if u need to, if you've added me. If I see it i'll probably respond>i hope nothing bad happens i'm sure nothing bad will happen, it's just different ig...>wish you all the good luck matethanks man, i'll probably need it bahaha. been a while since i even considered love
thread still up, what a surprise>>83066262>how's he doing?Good I guess. Can't say much more than healthy and seems happy enough. Not sure as things start to get cold here, but he has a lot of fur>biggest reason for a minimalist wardrobe there is.even minimalist, still have to wear enough clothes for the week, for work specifically, and what not. I'm not filling up a walk in closet, but still have enough lying around after 2 weeks>can't say i'm looking forward to feeling like thisit is the very sign of progress though D: but fair enough lol>pretty much just rng.i'd say i don't know why people put themselves through rng hell, but I'm playing rng hell the game with gatcha still so suppose it's hard to stop even if you know it's miserable>i think most people i know already have scarvescan never have enough for winter! Honestly, being forced to buy gifts for people I haven't had a conversation with in 10 years it's the best i can do.>>83066303i hope you can feel a little better today.. Understand not wanting to talk. just try and take it easy
>>83066823>Swag asf.i got too many nice jackets. Honestly favorite part of the season. I got the heavy duty parka for when it gets down to arctic cold and I still insist on going hiking because it's less crowded then>but none in my area are screening it.I think my area has a lot of Asian stuff now (wasn't like this 15 years ago if I remember correct, I think it's people moving around) so I kinda luck out in this regard for having access to stuff I like.>grass is always greener. I got a laundry list of complaints about my country my country wins the award for most dysfunctional right now though! Shit, half the people I know work connected to the government and shut down combined with everything else has made my area feel like we're in a bad bad recession. Probably are at state level.>>83066988>how have you been btwI've been okay. weekend was fun but didn't get to everything I wanted to get done, but such is life>>83069323>Usually a lot cheaper than a figure of the same qualitythat was honestly the thing I was wondering since I buy figures, but never touched these. I've seen videos online of people assembling things at a sped up pace.>"I made that" is always more satisfying than "I bought that."in the end though, still had to buy both, but I hear you on that. I can understand the satisfaction, even if it's not for me>There's no deadlines for stuff like this.i have a hard time putting things down incomplete and coming back later. But my schedule being what it is, hard to give enough time to finish everything in one go at the same time.
Morning.>>83068583>french word for knightMakes sense, it did sound familiar. I forgot all my French...>give this a try also really dig the song u linkedIt's alright, just wish it was a lit faster. What about this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KPIqzVJe1x4
Just got done shoveling>>83070442>i got too many nice jackets. Honestly favorite part of the season. I got the heavy duty parka for when it gets down to arctic coldDidn't know it got that cold in the states. Worst it's gotten here had my skin pulsing with pain after a a couple minutes of cold exposure.>and I still insist on going hikingWhich is awesome.>my country wins the award for most dysfunctional right now though!Nothing to argue here.
>>83070590>>83069963I fucked up the reply responding to this
>>83069963>I can understand the satisfaction, even if it's not for meIt's a nice, long distraction for me. And it's not /too/ expensive.>i have a hard time putting things down incomplete and coming back later.I see. I struggle with that too since once I start it's usually the only thing I focus on, even if I have to sleep between making it.
>>83069963>didn't get to everything I wanted to get donesucks, but there'll be other weekends right?>>83070442>I forgot all my Frenchnot really a common word anyways.>What about thisit's pretty damn good, thanks>wish it was a lit faster. give this a try, more raw black metal sounding ighttps://youtu.be/3XlqpxoBeYI?si=1cxjJbP_kGffBfwP
>>83062333It's been over seven years since I last cut myself, but I'm thinking of picking it up again. My life has only turned out worse since I stopped, I blew through all my money in a long episode of manic depression, my dog and cat both died, most of my friends have grown apart from me, and I still have no prospects (no driver's license, no career path, no house or apartment of my own). I just hate myself so much for everything I've squandered and destroyed, and the longer I live, the worse it gets. I just want to let out all the anger I have for myself, and I'm struggling to think of a more satisfying way to do it.
hey fellas hope you're doing wellI'm working on some uni crap rn
>>83071114>it's pretty damn good, thanksThe entire album is Chinese rock/metal it's awesome, lots of styles https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLsZK57YW7pTUqfllgHbnKAO_pu4zTA0kU>give this a tryGoooood track, reminds me of grindcore stuff almost but with the black metal sound like you said, hard.>>83071339>hey fellasHallo /cat/>hope you're doing wellWell enough. I forgot my journal at home so I'll have to do all my note taking on scrap paper, which is a bummer. On the plus side I found that knife I liked >>83014102 so I'll be able to cut myself today or tomorrow. How have you been doing?>working on some uni crapDo you have anything worth staying on your campus or do you just clock in and out for classes? People always talk about making friends and partying at college/uni but theres nothing going on at mine.
called the suicide hotline this morning. for some context, i have a very old, bad phone. we're talking 2 gbs of ram kind of phone. so, i call. i speak for a solid 10 seconds and the lady goes "hello? is anyone there?" so... yeah. my phone's mic didn't work. and i couldn't help but laugh. it snapped me out of wanting to commit. before anybody asks: yes, you're all allowed to giggle at my disgrace. i thought it was funny as well.
normalfag here. new to /cut/. i don't do it myself very often but my gf and i broke up and i was thinking about how much my love life has been defined by this stuff and i don't know where else to talk about it. i am a sad lonely faggot here's embarrassing things about me don't bully me with them. my first girlfriend was like 2 years older than me and cut like crazy and i couldn't deal with it at all and i think i made her habits worse accidentally and i feel bad about that. my second was defined by being an ex-cutter, had tattoos over them, the works. but it was always hovering over things. and then my third i left because she started getting the kind of mentally unstable i can't help with and part of that was cutting herself. i don't want to hurt myself physically because that would be a disservice to all of them but i don't know why i keep ending up in relationships about cutting. that's all thank you i hope you're all doing well
>>83070590>Didn't know it got that cold in the states.It gets quite cold in some parts of the country, north east and midwest particularly. Might be a little exaggeration in mine usually, but we have fairly cold winters. Last few have been record breaking with temperatures well below freezing for months, so got heavy usage of my heaviest jacket last winter and it's already quite cold here already>Which is awesome.i love finding ponds and lakes frozen over during winter. Even with all the barren trees, I do enjoy the empty trails quite a bit>Nothing to argue here.hoping things get a little better here soon. Lot of people I know lives have been hell from all the back and forth fighting over here>>83070982>it's not /too/ expensive.best type of hobby to have. I know figures can be expensive (I've blown a bit on some) and keep you preoccupied longer than a figure.>usually the only thing I focus onbeen a long time since I could focus on just one thing. In a way that's good, but in another way it's a pain>>83071114>here'll be other weekends right?i sure hope so lol Might try to make it out next weekend to buy the cheap shelving I wanted to get that missed this past one>>83071281hi anon, sorry things are so rough now. where have you been living if not on your own? Sounds like at least have enough contact with someone given that.Know things aren't particularly hopeful, but you still being alive means you can still change things, just might need to take it slow at first
>>83071339heya cat> uni crap rnbest of luck :/ hang in there even if i know it sucks>>83071699>nothing going on at mine.i've been out for more than a bit, but was my experience as well. Some schools just don't attract much by way of campus life>>83071752hey lav, if it got you out of it, that's all that matters. Means you can still have a laugh about stuff so hopefully things aren't as bad as they feel sometimes, even if it's still hard>>83071788hi anon>normalfag here.no worries. No one cares about that type of thing here. In fact, I'm probably very much one as well by standards of many.>i think i made her habits worse accidentallyunfortunately, people who struggle with the issues you talked about really are hard to gauge how things impact them. Not your fault, and I'd say you sounded reasonably considerate, just kept ending up in tricky situations.> i don't know why i keep ending up in relationships about cutting. how did you meet all these girls anyway? I'd certain types are more likely to be drawn towards this type of thing than others as a coping pattern specifically. Just wondering what they had in common other than cutting, may give some answers.
>>83071339Hi /cat/.>hope you're doing wellI'm doing pretty awful today, but I hope you're alright.>I'm working on some uni crap rnBest of luck!>>83072004>I know figures can be expensive (I've blown a bit on some)I've spent a stupid amount on them too. I guess it's better than spending it on booze and drugs.>in another way it's a painHow so?
think im at my lowestidk how will i get back to studying, im barely holding myself from falling apart, i wish i could pass this year without having to study alot because i cant study, my chest is so fucking heavy im literally dying. i wish some missile could kill me so i dont have to kill myselfall the ways that lead me to happiness are impossible. i wanna scream i cant
>>83072303Hang in there, anon. What stuff needs doing and when do you need to do it by?
>>83072332its far beyond this sometimes, my future itself is making my heart break, i dont find anything to live for unless if i reached the only way that can fix me, which is unlikely. i wanna die. nothing can make me feel any better
>>83072195>stupid amount on them too.me as well at this point, but not until I got a stable job so not a big deal.>spending it on booze and drugs.agreed. I barely drink, maybe a single beer here and there, and i don't see it causing me to miss out on anything that boozing would fix. All it means is I look younger than a lot of people years younger than me who decided to poison themself. That's my take>How so?just too high strung from doing too much. Essentially working two part time jobs, have other obligations, just always feel too much to do. I force myself to break so I don't go crazy, but still>>83072303>>83072419hey rm, sorry you're so down... Is that after therapy? I remember saying you had it Sunday and know you were feeling bad yesterday too. Know you probably don't want to talk and feel hopeless about things, but we're all happy to listen if you need to talk about it.hang in there, really hoping things can look up at least a little for you soon
>>83072419>my future itself is making my heart breakI see. I've definitely been there earlier in my life, and it's terrifying to think about the future. It scares me now, but probably for different reasons.I don't think there's a trick or a secret to finding your place in the world or finding things to live for, besides taking it one day at a time and having the future sneak up on you. There's a lot of pressure to find that stuff, especially when you're younger, but you don't need to. Most people haven't.>>83072506>but not until I got a stable job so not a big deal.Now I have a stable job I tend not to buy that many. Strange how that happened...>All it means is I look younger than a lot of people years younger than me who decided to poison themselfSome people think I'm underaged but I'm almost 30 now... That's the power of not drinking, I guess.> Essentially working two part time jobs, have other obligations, just always feel too much to do.I see. I'd have a hard time focusing on stuff if I had that kind of work, I think.
>>83071281Hello anonIt sounds like you have it very rough sorry to hear that though I'm not sure if you should start hurting yourself again, after some time it might just become another problem you're gonna have to deal with >>83071699heyo>do all my note taking on scrap paperhopefully the isn't a lot of stuff to note then>found that knifemake sure to clean and disinfect it well>How have you been doing?just sick and a bit tired but nothing too bad>clock in and out for classesI just drive to my classes and come back when they end, just what everyone doesThere's no partying or anything of that sort and any parties I've heard about was maybe at the start of uni when a couple of people went out and did nothing interesting just got super drunkThough I'm pretty sure those people were friends already and they didn't meet at uni>talk about making friends and partyingmaybe that was a thing 20 years agoIt makes me sad when people say this is supposed to be the "best time of my life" especially older people are delusional like that, though maybe they're not and actually it will only get worse from now on >>83071752Hiya lavyit's grtto see ya though it's not great you're so unwellThough I guess what can ya do, I'm not sure if it'd asked about it but what makes you so depressed? >2 gbs of ramyeah using the internet might be a problem with it especially now when none of the dumb people programming stuff optimize their stuff it so some websites even make my pc lag do you use 4chan on it btw?>yeah. my phone's mic didn't worklife's a dark comedy I guess maybe one day you could become an astronaut and get launched into space to see what clown wig and clows nose the earth is wearing >snapped me out of wanting to committhat's good to hear do you wanna talk about it? like is it okay to ask what were you planning to do?Wishing you the best fren
>>83071788hey normalfag>why i keep ending up in relationships about cuttingthat is strangewhere did you meet all the girls?maybe you're unlucky, maybe you have some preference you are not aware of?>>83072066Hello o/>best of luckthank youI finished the crap for today and how are you???>>83072195Hellu>doing pretty awful today, but I hope you're alrightI'm okay why r u feeling awful? the usual?maybe you could watch something to distract yourself?but not eva, something cheerful like azumanga or lucky starI can send you the whole animes, they're all on youtube in dub and sub versions >>83072303Heya >im at my lowesthope you manage to get betterbut can't blame you, they been overworking you Did something in particular happened that made you feel worse today?Maybe you could hug a pillow and take a little napsending hugs btw smarty-pants^^
>>83072506thank you mate. i dont think any therapist can help me unless if there was something that can give me more dopamine when i need itsorry for showing up and complain without explaining anything i just feel like i wanna scream and say that im suffering. it hurts so much.>>83072552thank you anon, i hope you feel better now, i hope you got through it.
>>83072688hey cat, thanks for your kind wordsthings keep happening, they kept happening until i started feeling like that. its not because of or about studying. everything in me is dying painfully i cant stop it nor make it fully kill me
>>83072066>>83072688my mom is mentally unstable so i think dealing with her has made mentally unstable women see me as someone with my shit together who they can open up to. reverse oedipus complex lol i don't want women who are like my mother but they want me. i met the first two online and the third irl... and thank you all for being so polite and kind. there are good people in here and that's very reassuring (both to me and the people who are suffering. i'm glad there's good advice being thrown around and not encouraging one another to do bad habits.):)
I haven't posted here in months. Cut up my ankles back in August for some inconsequential shit but other than that I've been clean. Been thinking of relapsing but can't since I'm forced outside sometimes. Hope you're all having a good Monday
>>83072688>why r u feeling awful? the usual?Pretty much. Going through pretty bad withdrawals again after relapsing yesterday. Wondering if and when I'll receive the package she said she'd send. And what will be in it.>maybe you could watch something to distract yourself?At the moment I'm trying to distract myself with a conference application that's due in a few days. Hopefully I can get that done tomorrow since it needs to be 400-800 words and it's already looking like I'll need to trim that down.>but not eva, something cheerful like azumanga or lucky starIf there's a time to fully appreciate Eva it's now. But I love Azumanga and I've got a small collection of its production art, so I should give that another watch.>I can send you the whole animes, they're all on youtube in dub and sub versionsI've got a bunch downloaded that I need to watch but if you've got an recommendations I'll put them on list.>>83072691>thank you anon, i hope you feel better now, i hope you got through it.More or less. I really don't want to sound dismissive (because I know how it sounds) but this sort of thing should get easier once you enter your mid/late 20s. Why that is I can't really explain, but you'll just have to trust me on that.
>>83072552> Strange how that happened.We want the things we know we shouldn't have lol my weird case I tried hard not come across as a weeb, then after I got really fit and had women come into my life, I suddenly weebed out again super hard randomly which is the exact opposite of what you'd think.>think I'm underaged but I'm almost 30 nowWhat I think about when I get carded. I think so many younger people so worn out so early from it all. I saw it happen to all my sisters and it's crazy to me> hard time focusing on stuff if I had that kind of worki have a hard time doing stuff i really enjoy most weeks, but kind of necessary and trying hard to make sure i don't end up in a bad place>>83072688>I finished the crap for todayglad to hear! Think the rest of the week will be better?>and how are you???had some trouble I got looped into with work again but other than that good. Just as always, not enough people working and too much to do be done and dealt with>>83072691>i dont think any therapist can help mehonestly, best they can do is help you figure out how to help yourself. I think most would say that. That said... One session is a very short time. Usually takes quite a few before it gets anywhere even in best circumstances. Was this as a result of something happened from that? Or more on your mind?Just concerned about you. Hate to see you feeling so rough
>>83072004>hi anon, sorry things are so rough now. where have you been living if not on your own? Sounds like at least have enough contact with someone given that.I appreciate that, thanks office anon. I'm currently living in the housing of a grad program I entered in a state of mania (and heavily contributed to my current financial worries, I've wasted thousands and have less than a hundred dollars in my bank account), but I'll be thrown out soon for failing my classes. I'm going to have to either move in with my grandparents and try to make it or give up and go into state housing with neetbuxx. Both options sound pretty bad, I don't know if I'm capable of reentering the workforce, but I also know (from plenty of others on this board) how miserable neetdom can be.>>83072622>though I'm not sure if you should start hurting yourself again, after some time it might just become another problem you're gonna have to deal withI appreciate your concern, thank you. You're probably right, it wouldn't be a good idea to pick it back up. It's been nearly a decade without it and I don't need to get back in that habit. I just don't know how else to let out this anger and self-hatred. Normally I'd turn towards suicidal ideation, but I had a couple close brushes with death recently (not from attempts, medical stuff) that convinced me I don't want to die. Still, just because I've grown a fear of death doesn't mean I've forgiven myself for how I've chosen to live, if that makes sense.
>>83072066>Some schools just don't attract much by way of campus lifeGuess they really only exist for big name unis, shame. Dubs btw>>83072622>hopefully the isn't a lot of stuff to note thenThere ended up being basically none which is nice.>make sure to clean and disinfect itI will I will.>makes me sad when people say this is supposed to be the "best time of my life"The sentiment (alongside it's dislike) seems common but I've only ever heard it online.>maybe they're not and actually it will only get worse from now onI can see this, with uni it's the last time everyone around you is the same age working to the (vaguely) same goal of higher education. Your path (do your assignments) couldn't be more clear, but at the same time you'll get freedoms you wouldn't get when you are younger. Versus when you've graduated it's not so clear cut and all you're no longer surrounded by peers.>>83072419>i dont find anything to live forDiscanon was right with this sort of thing getting easier with time, you aren't clairvoyant so chances are theres something worth living for you haven't seen yet. I'm struggling similarly with this but I'll keep my head up till I find something really worth iit. Hope you find that reason.
>>83072850>see me as someone with my shit together who they can open up to.kinda makes sense. If you seem open to hearing them about that sort of thing especially. Would reckon it also depends on where you're meeting them online since know some place attract more trouble people than others>not encouraging one another to do bad habits.despite the name, it's pretty strongly discouraged by most here>>83072868hi anon, what's going you down you're feeling like relapsing?>>83073191>heavily contributed to my current financial worriesschool combined with housing for school will do that I'm afraid. tough for a lot of people, even more tough when you're struggling with so much and trying to balance>thrown out soon for failing my classes.are there any mental health resources at your school? Often times they'll have those. Might be a good idea to seek that out while you can sooner rather than later. > Both options sound pretty badIs your relationship with grandparents okay? Even if not perfect, probably sounds like the best till you can try to see if you can get yourself together. Not an easy thing to do, but probably easier to do that before going full neet than later>>83073582> only exist for big name unispretty much that or joke party schools where no one will ever take you seriously if you went to. My school was pretty small comparatively and focused a lot on science and tech. Not a lot going on, but I was also overly avoidant back then as well so wouldn't have benefited either way
>>83073092>We want the things we know we shouldn't have lolTell me about it...>I saw it happen to all my sisters and it's crazy to meMakes you wonder how much of it is genetic.>kind of necessary and trying hard to make sure i don't end up in a bad placeThat's fair enough. Your physical safety is probably more important than having fun. Not that you shouldn't have fun.
sorry for not replying guysI'm just feeling off so I'll just bumpand leave you some random thought recently I was on a little car trip (I wasn't driving) and I was super sleepy so I held my left eye open with my hand to try and not fall asleep I failed and I managed to (at least mostly) fall asleep with the eye open, it was a pretty cool experience, basically every so often my eye would like take a still frame of what was on the road and change it so something elselike at one point there were a couple of yellow lights and what I saw was, first everything but the lights turned black and then those floating yellow points turned into golden coins and an open a bag appeared above them as if those coins just fell out of it
It's amazing how, despite what we're all going through, this is still by far the kindest and most supportive general on the board. Love you all
sleep time goodnight, love yabtw u guys fel free to share your random thoughs too>>83074735hey anonpeople here a very nice and you're nice toi thanks hope life's not beating you up too hard
>>83066823>grass is always greener.that's what i always say. some stuff you just can't escape, no matter where you are.>this isn't really the threadtrue. best to leave the more divisive opinions at the door.>Least you got doner.technically correct and an awesome street food, but most of them are so bad quality that they aren't even allowed to be called doener anymore, just "drehspiesfleisch" (turning spit meat). it's a shame. and don't get me started on the price... >:[>just guys care less about fashion in generali condede that most guys don't, but it's hard to care about it if you're basically just a dress up doll anyway. that said, if given the choice, i'll go for comfortable over fashionable every time. it would be wasted on me anyways.>>83069879>Can't say much more than healthy and seems happy enough.what more could he ask for? sounds like he found a good home, at least for the time being.>Not sure as things start to get cold here, but he has a lot of furyou can always just buy a matching jacket. ;D>still have to wear enough clothes for the week, for work specifically, and what not.true. at least i can drag it out a day or two, since it doesn't really matter if my clothing as a bit dirty or disheveled. it'll be like that soon after i started working anyway. you wouldn't believe how much dirt packages and customers produce.>still have enough lying around after 2 weekssame. most of it t-shirts and underwear.>it is the very sign of progress though D:it is, but also just kinda stupid. working out with the goal to be strong, just to feel the opposite most of the time.
>>83069879>i'd say i don't know why people put themselves through rng helljust a lot of different characters in the game and most of them are fun, but sadly you always get stuck on the ones that aren't. i could just go and play a different character, but if i do that, he wins! >:[>I'm playing rng hell the game with gatcha still so suppose it's hard to stop even if you know it's miserablehonestly, i'm making the game harder on myself than it actually is. i could just beat the game on lower difficulties with more characters and unlock more weapons and items before trying the highest one, but i kinda just thought it would be fun to play it the way i do. i'm stupid like that sometimes.>Honestly, being forced to buy gifts for people I haven't had a conversation with in 10 years it's the best i can do.this sounds like hell. i'm just glad we're done buying pointless gifts in my family. if someone has a good idea, it's fair game, but noone is forced to. just bring something anyone can enjoy like a game, puzzle or some food and it's fine.
>>83075186Hallo yuanon>drehspiesfleischFunny word, I'd steal it for my own use if I could even pronounce it. Is this just how German reads normally or does it look this weird (to English speakeers at least) to convey how bad the meat is? Side note English being a germanic language always seemed weird to me, theres tons of crossover with the romance languages and it's super noticeable in Canada with everything labeled in French + English.>I'll go for comfortable over fashionable every timeMakes sense makes sense.>>83074561>btw u guys fel free to share your random thoughts tooI saw something funny on the bus a couple weeks ago, I'll link the pic next post. Night /cat/.
>>83071752hey lav!>it snapped me out of wanting to commit.glad it worked, even though not like it was supposed to.
>>83062333hi, i'm new. i learned about this place from /lgbt/.>How are you doing today?i'm okay. i got sent home early because i had some sort of allergic reaction, and i forgot to clarify if i'd be using sick time for it. i can't afford to lose hours anymore.>Any plans for today?i took a shower and decided to put away some stuff in my apartment to distract from the itching. i wish i had a car so i could run to the store to grab some bins. my roommate comes home late when everything is closed sadly. i think i'm gonna work on some DND stuff..>When was the last time you hurt yourself?a couple weeks ago i think.>Why did you hurt yourself?i was feeling like a massive fuckup and this pieced of a chipped wall i found in a bar was really sharp. i wanted to see what it could do.>Is there anything bothering you right now?feeling fat and broke, both of which are my own fault.
>>83075449>Is this just how German reads normally or does it look this weird (to English speakeers at least) to convey how bad the meat is?in german you can basically just combine descriptive words to create a new one, but it's more something that's done in laws and bureaucratic texts. at some point someone defined what a doener has to consist of, so there needed to be a word that needed to be used for everything that isn't and that's what they came up with. complete nonsense and nobody calls it that. meat's still bad either way.>English being a germanic language always seemed weird to me, theres tons of crossover with the romance languagesit's a melting pot of different languages and cultures. there's just so many people who contributed to it. britons, romans, saxons, normans, danes. did i miss anyone? just a lot of influences from a lot of places.>it's super noticeable in Canada with everything labeled in French + English.same here. like the word for something sounds very similar in most of europe and then the german one is completely different.>>83075582>hi, i'm new.hey, anon! welcome to the thread! (^-^)>i learned about this place from /lgbt/.i learned about it on /cm/ of all places. weird how it comes up on different boards, but here we are. :>>i got sent home early because i had some sort of allergic reactionwhat happened?>i forgot to clarify if i'd be using sick time for it.better get that info as soon as you can. just wait until you get well. you need some rest.>to distract from the itchinghave you talked to a doctor about it?>i wish i had a car so i could run to the store to grab some bins.maybe tomorrow?>i think i'm gonna work on some DND stuff..what are you working on?>this pieced of a chipped wall i found in a bar was really sharp. i wanted to see what it could do.sounds gnarly. hope it didn't end up too bad. :0
>>83075449>>83075068>btw u guys fel free to share your random thoughs tooWeeks ago found a girl with this bag on the bus, we talked about anime conventions and lucky star. I had other funny bus stories but they escape me now.
>>83075582>both of which are my own fault.i don't know about that. i've learned that there's a lot of people who want you to think that way. especially the ones that sell all that garbage food and the people who fight tooth and nail to not pay you what you deserve.
>>83071281Come on anon, you know well that cutting again won't solve anything. Trust me, i know the desire too, though probably not to the same degree. I trust you can make the right choice here. Send some prayers my way if you can please <3
time to sleep now. good night, everyone. (~.~)
hey to anyone who's still uphttps://youtu.be/1q6mpnrfgV8?si=mVhJivHDy5hBsQhn
>>83075700i dunno what happened, honestly. my face and neck and head were just super itchy from the moment i woke up. it wouldn't stop and felt like burning so my manager said i should go home and i agreed. i'll probably ask my roommate to go to the store with me tomorrow. we need organizers for the closet. for DND i need to clean my folio, coffee got spilled on it last session and it's all sticky. idk if i can soak it in water but i may try. as for the piece of wall, i cleaned it before using it. i typically avoid infection pretty well for some reason anyway.
>>83073951>are there any mental health resources at your school? Often times they'll have those. Might be a good idea to seek that out while you can sooner rather than later.To be perfectly honest, having been in and out of therapy for almost a decade, I'm just really skeptical of the whole institution. I feel like I'm too far gone for that.>Is your relationship with grandparents okay? Even if not perfect, probably sounds like the best till you can try to see if you can get yourself together. Not an easy thing to do, but probably easier to do that before going full neet than laterI'm on good terms with my grandparents, it's probably the better option. After all, if I fail at that, I can always resort to neetdom, but if I choose neetdom, it'll be much tougher to rejoin the workforce.>>83075763>I trust you can make the right choice here.I didn't end up cutting myself tonight, so at least I chose the right choice today.>Send some prayers my way if you can please <3I will, and thank you for your kind words, I really appreciate it.
>>83076062I really like the riff on thathttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2HL-gGLu8Jo
>>83074561That's okay, I hope you feel better tomorrow!
>>83076682> I'm just really skeptical of the whole institution.I hear you on that. I've been in and out as well and it just doesn't seem like it's useful. It helps some people, but problem is I think most mental health professionals aren't qualified to help genuinely troubled people. They're there to give pep talks to people who had a bad breakup or a single sad day.>I'm too far gone for that.I don't think this is ever completely true, but it is much more difficult if you've been in this state for a prolonged time unfortunately...> it's probably the better optionhonestly, just being in the same vicinity as someone is always better than being on your own. Especially dealing with what you are. > rejoin the workforce.know you have to try and stabilize first, but hope you can sometime soon. Not sure what else to say, but try not to give up. It's tough even in the best of mindsets right now
good meowrning errybody Ya guys have any plans for today?I'll have to prepare for two tests and make some dumb program>>83078252thank you ^^I am a little better >>83075714woa that's a very cool bag
desu it'd be better if the thread ended and we got another, starts up new conversation.>>83062333>How are you doing today?A little more sluggish this morning but alright. Needed more than 5 hours sleep but I can't miss the morning.>Any plans for today?Working on very important assignments and cutting myself. If I don't get near perfect on 3 of them I fail lol...>When was the last time you hurt yourself?November of last year.>Why did you hurt yourself?Frustration with my lack of direction.>Is there anything bothering you right now?The way home is gonna be a piss off in sneakers, I can't wear boots to the gym so I'll be wading through slush.>>83079507>woa that's a very cool bagIt is, good morning /cat/.
I woke up from a dream where she sent me a picture from inside a plane, implying she was on her way to visit.I feel compelled to tell her because today is somewhat significant for us. I really hate my brain...>>83074735I think most anons are quite nice, it only takes one to shit up a thread.>>83079507Good luck with your tests!
hey everyonesorry for my depressing replies lately, give me some time i might come back better>>83076062and hey chev can u send your discord username again? i don't have it
>>83077236>I really like the riff on thatit's definitely a good song, just not a big fan of the vocals.song you sent is also pretty good, been a while since i heard that band mentioned.https://youtu.be/jsr0pwihGto?si=p1fJfVQqSMPGV2Mz>>83079507heya cat>Ya guys have any plans for today?just gonna relax and eat, don't feel like dping much today.>two tests and make some dumb programhope it all goes well>>83074735i think it's just not worth it for me personally to be a dick here, I'd much much rather contribute to making it a pleasant space. hope you have a good one anon>>83079787hey rem.>sorry for my depressing replies don't worry abt it man, it's better to voice it here than just let it simmer inside. >your discord username again? highrider854
Shit workout shit news from home and now I got a pile of work in front of me fuck my life
just a bunper before i reply
>>83079644Heya>got another, starts up new conversationwe can always do that rn I guess >more than 5 hours sleep but I can't miss the morning.man that's nta lot of sleep hope you get through today without getting too sleepy >important assignmentsD:that's the worse>them I fail lol...and what happens then?>wading through slush.is the weather that horrible there?maybe you could bring second shoes with you?>>83079777Hellowoa trips>feel compelled to tell her because todaythere's no need for that it's just a dream anonyou'll probably get more of those>Good luck with your tests!thank youu!!>>83079787helloo>sorry for my depressing replies latelydon't be sorry you can let out all your depressng replies here, it's better than keeping it all inside have a nice day fren <3 >>83080124hii>gonna relax and eat, don't feel like dping much today.heck friggin yeah>hope it all goes wellthankit probably will become I'll cheat >:3>>83080428sounds like a bad day :\
Hi everyone :3I hope that you are all well, and that you will be well if not.
>>83072066>Means you can still have a laugh about stuff yeah. i've been feeling well enoug hever since it happened. might be quite stupid but i felt it was a signal. i cannot kill myself now, not when my life is so fucking comical from time to time.>>83072622>I'm not sure if it'd asked about it but what makes you so depressed?you might've in my first post of the thread. sorry for not replying to those, i felt kinda bad after posting those n so i stopped checking. ^^" honestly, i don't have a reason. i was sad bc i didn't have anything to do, or a clear future yet. that, and some issues w friends.>yeah using the internet might be a problem with itit is! the stupid "x app has stopped working" is unbearable. have i mentioned i cannot use popular apps like tiktok because it won't open them? tbf, not being able to use tt is a blessing in disguise. my brain won't rot as much.>do you use 4chan on it btw?not really. only when i'm like, really desperate and bored for some serotonin. >do you wanna talk about it? like is it okay to ask what were you planning to do?ah, i'd rather not. mostly because i feel like i didn't even had a reason. i just spiraled out of control. i'm glad i called the hotline, though. >>83075465hello yua!>glad it worked, even though not like it was supposed to.i'm glad as well. this day is being great so far. knowing that if i didn't call i might've not lived to see it makes me feel... thankful, in a way?
>>83081407>there's no need for that I know. I didn't tell her about the dream but I sent a message anyway. I feel like an addict, and a very hopeless one at that. >you'll probably get more of thoseI really don't want to. I've had dreams where we were raising a family together and getting another one of those now might kill me...
>>83081407>hope you get through today without getting too sleepyJust woke from an hour long impromptu nap, still lethargic.>and what happens then?I sign my life away to the military and kill myself once I realize the world has passed me by during my time there.>the weather that horrible there?Yeah it is. Still my favorite season, and I'll look into bringing boots.>sounds like a bad dayIt sucked couldn't even cut myself since the knife got dulled by heat. Literally got nothing done, if I slept earlier and wasn't a pussy that'd solve a fourth of today's problems. Whatever, I'll live.>>83081418Funny pic>>83081452>not really. only when i'm like, really desperate and boredI'm the opposite I phonepost almost exclusively, now I'm wondering about mobile clients...>>83081709>I really don't want to. I've had dreamsA partial cure for bad dreams is filling your head with a million other things to daydream about, reading fantasy of sci-fi stuff is pretty good for this. Speaking of dreams, I had one where I was discussing mathematics with a cute girl that was on the bus. It was funny since I'm pretty bad at math but in the dream I was a wizard.
time to disappoint my parents, its been years since ive visited these threads... thought itd got better
>>83081909Same anon. It just never seems to fully go away. I hope there's an event waiting for all of us that will get rid of this disease..
>>83082124if there are any old heads (been on these threads for yonks) they'd probably remember the "cock-cutter" guy... a tard who'd cut himself while jacking off... unfortunately, thats me.
>>83082172oh hey I remember you how's it going? I'm guessing not great
>>83081418what did they do to simon D;helothank you hope you are well too>>83081452>sorry for not replying to those, i felt kinda bad after posting no worries there's always another time to ask again so I don't mind >clear future yet. that, and some issues w friends.so I guess just a feeling that things aren't well and they probably will get worse I have the same thing >stupid "x app has stopped working" is unbearable.sounds very annoying :<sometimes there are "lite" versions of those apps that are less demanding and also opening them in browser might help a bit but like I said they're not optimized well>blessing in disguise.I agree heh ^^ I don't use it too, I just use youtube and avoid short form content >not really. only when i'm like, really desperatebut it works of ur phone okay?>ah, i'd rather notthat's understandable and do you want talk about something else? just generally about how's it going?>i'm glad i called the hotline, though.that's was a smart decision >>83081709>feel like an addict, and a very hopeless one at that.I guess you are in a waybut she doesn't respond to you right?>really don't want towell you might not, and hopefully you don't but you are really attached >>83081862>from an hour long impromptu nap, still lethargic.ugh naps always make me more tired>sign my life away to the military and kill myselfhow lovely ...>Yeah it is. Still my favorite seasowhy do you like it?>Literally got nothing done,that's how it sometimes itmaybe you could dedicate the rest of today for relaxing to make tomorrow better
>>83081862>reading fantasy of sci-fi stuff is pretty good for thisI'll give that a try. Thanks.>>83082620>I guess you are in a wayMakes me wonder how I'd deal with an actual, chemical addiction. Probably terribly.>but she doesn't respond to you right?No, but I know she's reading them (and checking on me in other ways) and she sent me an email a week ago telling me not to do anything stupid.>but you are really attachedNo kidding...
everything is fucked man. my gf isn't doing good, and thus i'm not doing good. i feel like shit, i can't eat anything. i tried calling my friends for some distraction but they were busy. i'm fucking tired chief, but i wanna stay awake incase my girl needs me
crazy long thread :0>>83076099>my face and neck and head were just super itchy from the moment i woke uphm. ate anything strange or maybe changed the laundy detergent? can be related to odd stuff, sometimes.>i'll probably ask my roommate to go to the store with me tomorrowhow did that go?>coffee got spilled on it last session and it's all sticky.reminds me of the time when i poured ice tea in my dice cup during a 7 hour session. it was a bit draining mentally. ^^'>i typically avoid infection pretty well for some reason anyway.that's good to know. still, better safe then sorry. take care.>>83079507hi catbro! :> how was your day?>>83079787>sorry for my depressing replies latelyno worries>give me some time i might come back bettersure thing, but you're always welcome. (^-^)>>83080428>Shit workout shit news from home and now I got a pile of work in front of me fuck my lifehad an absolute garbage day as well. actually kicked a box so hard it tore and my foot got stuck in it out of frustration. ^^'>>83081418heyo! same to you, fren.>>83081452>this day is being great so far.let's gooo! :D how come?>thankful, in a way?makes sense. i'm just happy you're here.>>83081909well, welcome back. sorry to hear you still got those urges. how have you been?>>83082172bit before i got here, but i've seen you post before.>>83083547>everything is fucked man. my gf isn't doing good, and thus i'm not doing good.i suppose that makes sense. :/ what's got her down?>i'm fucking tired chief, but i wanna stay awake incase my girl needs meyou're a good guy and i'm sure she appreciates you being there for her.
>>83062333Get well soon cat I love you <333
>>83082620>why do you like it?It's merry and jolly and snow is magic. For me the winters are as Canadian as the leaf and poutine, so if I felt anything but love for the cold it'd be an aberration. Winter animals are also are super cool, not that I see any where I live. Love the lynx.>maybe you could dedicate the rest of today for relaxingI wish but I'd just be backloading the work, not resigning the full day to failure because of a bad morning. Thanks for the concern anyway.>>83083660Hallo yuanon>crazy long thread :o:o>kicked a box so hard it tore and my foot got stuck in it out of frustration.Funny visual, bad the day was bad. I used to cut up cardboard boxes in my basement as a way to dealwith anger, it helps. What'd really be fun tho is fucking off to a junkyard and smashing shit with a bat, always wanted to do that on a bad day.Class got canceled so I'm coming home hours early, some reprieve for the morning. Anyone else browse 4chan in public or is that off putting? I'll check this thread and maybe /a/ for the CSM/DBZ threads, and ignore everything else.
>>83084149>Funny visual, bad the day was bad.yeah. what can you do? it's always those customers that try to haggle their way out of reality that get to me the most. >I used to cut up cardboard boxes in my basement as a way to dealwith anger, it helps.can confirm. had to cut up the box anyway, so i decided to let it all out. cutting it up actually did help me to calm down and i took my time with it.>What'd really be fun tho is fucking off to a junkyard and smashing shit with a bat, always wanted to do that on a bad day.i do have a bat somewhere. maybe ysome day... don't know if there's a junkyard anywhere close to me, though. :/>I'm coming home hours early, some reprieve for the morningthat's nice. hope you can chill a bit. :> any plans for today?>Anyone else browse 4chan in public or is that off putting?hm. sometimes i do, but it's usually just this thread. sometimes maybe /a/, but that's only once in a blue moon and if i got some break at work. i've got no reason to be out in public anyway. i'm either at work, at home or with friends and when i'm with friends i'm not using my phone a lot.
>>83082911>Probably terribly.I guess those you probably would've be as emotionally attached to let's say cigs as you are to her>No, but I know she's reading themthough you'll have to stop sending her messages I'm thinking what kind of thing you could do to help you, but I don't really know srry :/>>83083547It sounds bad sorry to hear this>awake incase my girl needs meis she needs something she'll call right?maybe just go to sleep and put your phone ringtone to be loud>>83083660Heya >long thread :0:00>how was your day?practiced for a test basically >garbage day as well. actually kicked a box so hard it tore and my foot got stuckstupid box :<how are you doing now? chilling nicely ?>>83083960thank you :]hope you're doing well >>83084149>Canadianooo that explains the snow ig>Love the lynxthey cool little guys with funny ears ^^>backloading the work, . alright then I hope working goes well>thanks for the concern anyway.np :>
>>83062333Why not cut other things or do clay stuff? It just makes you feel shitty. I like printing out pics of people i dont like and throwing knives at them.
>>83084861>practiced for a test basicallygood job. hope you feel prepared now. when is it?>stupid box :<more like stupid work, stupid boss, stupid customers, stupid me. the box is the most innocent in all of this. not that innocence proves anthing...>how are you doing now? chilling nicely ?yeah. when i came home i ordered some greek food, massively overate and now i'm lying on the couch, watching some stream and trying to deal with my aching stomache. my own fault, though. what about you? are you done studying for today?
>>83083660>what's got her down?mutual friend, pretty sure he killed himself. or atleast tried to make it appear as such. I wasn't that close to him, but she was and she's pretty damn devastated. >she appreciates you being there for her.I hope so, I find people hard to read sometimes.>>83084861>she needs something she'll call right?maybe, i don't think she's in the right headspace rn. it's kinda my responsibility to check up often and take care of her.>just go to sleep can't man, this shit has got me too stressed.
>>83084979name fell off im retarded
>>>83084892damaging your exterior is the point >throwing knivesthat sounds fun I too>>83084922>good jobthank you >more like stupid work, stuupid!>stupid boss, the stupidest!>stupid customers,stupidestest!>stupid me.no! not stupid actually >box is the most innocentoh I'm telling ya that mother trucker was hidin somethin, don't let the dull exterior fool you >ame home i ordered some greek food, massively overatewhat stuff did you eat?>aching stomacheyouch>what about you? are you done studying for today?just chilling watching yt videos >>83084979>kinda my responsibility to check upi guess, have you called her?hopefully she'll be okay>this shit has got me too stresseddo you what happened?
>>83084979>mutual friend, pretty sure he killed himself.that's rough, man. hope you two can give each other some comfort. we're here for you if you need us.>I find people hard to read sometimes.same. i always miss stuff that's obvious to others.>>83085052>stuupid! the stupidest! stupidestest!thanks for always cheering me up. (^-^)>no! not stupid actuallyif i wasn't, i wouldn't be working there. :/>don't let the dull exterior fool youthat's how they get you! :<>what stuff did you eat?gyros, bread and fries, but it was a lot. should have left some for tomorrow, but just kept eating out of frustration.>just chilling watching yt videosanything cool? i'm already in bed and could use some sleep aid.
>>83084690>cutting it up actually did help me to calm down and i took my time with it.Good good.>any plans for today?Homework.>usually just this thread. sometimes maybe /a/, but that's only once in a blue moonPretty much same, I'll post here from the bus if I got time as well.>>83084861>cool little guys with funny ears ^^My favorite cold climate animal is the manul, don't have them here unfortunately>>83084892What /cat/ said>>83084979Hallo che, listened to mgla - exercises in utility and fuuuuuuuck what a good album, thanks for the rec. Also, best of luck in helping your girlfriend deal with her grief.
>>83085217>thanks for always cheering me up. (^-^)no problem ^^I'm glad I can manage that>wouldn't be working there. :/don't blame the player, blame the gameand the game's rigged >that's how they get you! :< I'll say it the box deserved it!!>should have left some for tomorrow, but just kept eatingit happens i guess it's okay if you treat yourself every once in a while, you had a bad day>anything cool? I got some good bed vids https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=BAXEpLRmCzghttps://m.youtube.com/watch?v=wttUiY4xR6Q&t=27s&pp=2AEbkAIBand sweet dreams!
>>83085217>no mention of baklavaMissing out.
>>83085052>i guess, have you called her?i did she told me she was fine. guess i won't push any further.>do you what happened?i think it's in my original reply>>83085217>hope you two can give each other some comfortim gonna try my best atleast. i'm not really as shaken desu, more worried about her.>we're here for you if you need us.thanks, ig expect me to be a lot more miserable than usual here.>miss stuff that's obvious to others.yeah me too, it sucks.>>83085263>listened to mgla - exercises in utility and fuuuuuuuck what a good albumglad ya like it. the newest release (world-without-us) is actually an unreleased track off that album which only recently got released, i'd recommend that. otherwise give groza a try, it's a shorter album with only 4 songs on it.https://youtu.be/3D3OjNaaJBE?si=kmA35NNtL3KX4ns8>best of luck in helping your girlfriend deal with her griefthanks dude, god knows i'll need it
>>83085263>Homeworkgotta do what you gotta do. hope it goes well and will be done quickly, so you can have a chill evening.>I'll post here from the bus if I got time as well.good use of your time. at least you can distract yourself a bit while in transit.>>83085272>I'm glad I can manage thatyou're the best at it. :>>the game's riggedword. sometimes i just want to flip the table.>the box deserved it!!well, i hope so... ^^'>i guess it's okay if you treat yourself every once in a while, you had a bad daythat's true, but i just made it worse. i need to stop doing that.>I got some good bed vidsawesome. i'll check them out. :D>and sweet dreams!thanks and same to you.>>83085278>Missing out.that's true, but i don't think i would have survived getting those as well. i'm barely holding on as is...>>83085357>more worried about her.that's fair, but it's still getting to you through her. make sure to also take care of yourself.>expect me to be a lot more miserable than usual here.alright. we'll know how to take it if that comes to pass. o7i'll go sleep now. good night, everyone!
gn fellas byeya>>83085357>she was finethat's very good hopefully it stays that way >>83085457goobmight
i wish consoling could help me feel better i wanna die
>>83086086hello did it make you feel worse? :<
>>83086086sending you many hugs friend I feel bad for you
>>83062333>How are you doing today?good enough :p>Any plans for today?none at all i have just been playing videogames>When was the last time you hurt yourself?last week i punched my dresser until i was bleedingi didnt damage it much because im very weak>Why did you hurt yourself?i had a very bad day and felt overwhelmedi tried playing games to relax but lost and got trash talked every match until i got really upset
