is love even reali cant comprehend with my retarded brain how someone could love me or how i could love someoneit doesnt make sense how someone could commit themselves to me or how i could trust someone enough to love themi need to blow my brains out why was a i born so wrongim scared of dying alone but i dont know what else i could do, most people arent into autistic depressed twinks
OkIn the most original way
>>83078224what does this mean ???pls explain Im retarded
>>83078216not sure if bait but I'll bite.I'm a depressed autistic foid who looks kinda like picrel. autistic depressed twinks are my absolute favorite.I love unconditionally but am losing my ability to trust because my love almost always ends in heartbreak.make of that what you will .
>>83078250this isnt bait idk how it would beyour response feels like a fed post thoare you gonna try to groom me into shooting up a mall or something because im not gonna get assraped in guantanamo
kylarrrrr <3>>83078216i, i,i almost misread what you said and thought you implied someone did commit to you and youre questioning them... unless thats what you meantidk, srry, idk what 2 say :(
>>83078265no I wouldn't we'd probably just end up in a 3 month situationship where I text you every minute and then get sad seeing a cat that reminds me of you after you leave
>>83078283someone did express feelings for mebut she's a normie so i know she's just using me for attention i just want someone who actually would care about me and love me
>>83078297if it wasnt online id probably do thisbut i cannot handle being ghosted anymore its mind breaking and causes me to spiral really bad
>>83078308I don't really ghost or leave people unless they're 30 year old pervert dudes who add me on here to send me their peepees.
should i get drunk it would be easier to influence me and id want to hang myself lessi dont wanna be hungover but who cares anymore fuck you
>>83078317ive been told this a lot and i always end up getting ghosted!!!!
>>83078328well to be loved means to put yourself out there a little bit. What's so damaging about being ghosted by someone you barely know? After the connection is where it hurts.
>>83078302ahhhh, well, you can try going through the motions, just to see how it ismaybe youll be lucky and she will be a rare good persondo you feel you have anything to lose by saying either yes or no to her?
>>83078341because i get connected to someone long enough that i actually believe they care about me before they ghost me
>>83078347day 100000 of forgetting to hit update before i post igjfiudnhjktd
>>83078347i would lose time and money. she also barely shares my interests, only talks about her interests, has had multiple relationships before, and said she would've randomly tried to kiss me if she could read my emotions morei don't want someone who would randomly touch me without consent id cry and cut myself if she stole my first kiss like that
>>83078359hm. I don't ghost people I'm connected to. What I'm getting from your replies here is that the only thing holding you back from being loved is the fact you've let your own ideas and previous connections affect you so much you're shielding yourself from it.
>>83078368yes this is very true. im very scared of connecting because i don't want to get hurt againeven if i barely know someone and they ghost me it still hurts because am i really that horrid that they'd ghost me even if they barely knew me??
>>83078384you are sensitive. I understand because I am too. maybe the other person didn't feel the spark or maybe they just had other things going on. It doesn't mean they hate you or think you're horrid. You can't expect the majority of people to love or hate you, it's the small circle of people who do love you that matter, and the circle of people who hate you, unless you've done some great misdeeds, will always be smaller.
>>83078414but no one loves me and everyone leaves meso doesnt that mean everyone hates me
>>83078418I wouldn't leave you but you refuse to take that as an answer. You're manifesting it. And no, everyone doesn't hate you. It takes far too much energy to hate someone for everyone you didn't properly connect with to hate you.
>>83078428why are you so confidant you wouldnt leave me when you dont even know me
>>83078432because I have kept people in my life long after I shouldn't have. I've fought to keep people in my life at my own expense, and I've never broken that promise.Even if you made me rip my hair out, I doubt you'd be different and I'd make some magical exception for you because I suddenly decided to hate you.
>>83078441youd be surprised!!!idk like im very picky about people i talk with what interests do you have
>>83078216I read despising as de-pissing. sorry anon
>>83078467it's okay! im glad you found joy in my post!!
>>83078457I'm mega autist weeb, I collect consoles and physical media, I draw, I'm a programmer and modder of stuff, I collect CDs, my wall is covered in sanrio, pokemon, music and vocaloid posters. I collect a ton of toys too, lego, virtual pets, dolls. I really have a billion interests, and again I feel like you're the one putting up these walls.
Another thread, b?Go drink some tea, friend
>>83078477that's really cool!!yeah i know im putting up the walls but its more of a defence mechanism also i dont know if id mesh well with another autist because the ones i know never let me talk about what i like
>>83078493i would but i think I drank all my green teaand i have really bad meltdowns when i can't get the drink i want when im alone (yes its embarrassing and yes I should kill myself for it)
>>83078495a lot of autists lack conversational skills and don't know when they're monologuing. I've tried to train myself out of this. When they really love you you start to mesh really well and you get these walls and walls of you telling each other about your interests and sharing them and it's lovely.
>tfw silent brick wall who lets you talk all the timei love listening
>>83078511i wouldnt know but it sounds nicei wish someone would reassure me when im talking about something i like i always feel like no one is listening to me or they find me annoying and then I cry
>>83078514i like listening too but if im not allowed to talk about what i like i want to harm myself
>>83078526I try my best to do so. When I love someone hearing them never shut up makes my day, and as I said I don't think you'd magically be different or something makes you more hateable than others.
>>83078538i guessi dont really have any good things about me so i think that makes me different and I cry a lot and im really insecure and im really depressed and anxious and i hate myself
come back please i need attention
i... almost want to post my disc, so you can do the computer thing on the website thingbut... im avoidant and its mixed with other crap, so i would probably eventually ghosy
>>83078617you dont need to but i like talking with people a lot
true...wellllllll okay, thats motivation enoughmoorrttaall.#0im a pretty dumb, extremely boring rock that doesnt talk much, fyialso, guy btw, if thats 2 weird, thats alrightanyone else wants to add, thats cool too
>>83078507You just need to get dicked down and cuddled, it'll cure up your angst
didn't a bunch of people give you their discs last time or did they leave too? the allure of this site is that it's anonymous and non committal so a lot of the people here will be asocial. I'm so avoidant and emotionally closed off that I feel disgusted congratulating people for example
>>83078552if any of you sad twinks wanna add me im deathcactus (the girl arguing with him)
>>83078671you are a very sweet person for arguing with him
>>83078662who will do that to me tho i wont let ugly or annoying dick near me
>>83078665they did but most of them aren't talking to me ughh
>>83078671>>83078660added both of u btww
>>83078687they both fell asleep im gonna kms
>>83078878shame for you i must suppose, i am assuming your european or else you oughta go to bed yourself. What are you looking for when you add people here, you can assume most are antisocial here, which makes it a rather illogical place to look for friends. Good luck though i suppose, at least you have the balls to talk with people i cant lie and say i do.
>>83078908cuz people here understand me the most
>wakes up>first thing he does is necro his own threadomg b go to work already
>>83080536i don't wanna <3
>>83080545have something for breakfast first at least
>>83080554i don't eat breakfast. Also I hate that cat it pisses me off. Fagslop
>>83080575my image didn't attach I'm going to kill myself
>>83080575>>83080577>no breakfastis this how you stay skinny </3
>>83080587no i eat like shit i just have a really high metabolism and sleep a lot
why does no one like talking to me im going to blow my brains outhave any of you read Centuria
>>83080673they clearly do you have had like 3 maybe 4 threads where you have got over 20 replies. You just are impatient. It is very clear you are either underage or bpd. either way you should probably calm down.
>>83080712im lonely. everyone who added me isnt replying to me. i need constant attention because im a pathetic faggot
>>83078216Kylaar!Pls I wanna get to know you u seem cool and prolly share my interestsroosha_808 ,on cord
>>83080785dis nigga is so sad i'm in tears i'm tellin ya your life would be 1000x better if you watched inazuma eleven
>>83080785I understand u I was added by some people from soc and they didnt want to talk at all they just wanted me on their friendlist for some reason it was really annoying
>>83080785I genuinely cant comprehend how people like you exist. Were you never ignored as a child, or sat in silence for hours with nothing to do? You should be used to non existence of yourself. It is not because you are a pathetic faggot. You are lonely because you think like a dog or animal. It is stupid. Learn to be invisible and silent like everyone does.
>>83080809jus sayin if it was me that wouldn't happen. *wink *wink
>>83080800is that a genshin thing or am i being retarded
>>83080809LITERALLY just fucking message me omg it's not that hard
>>83080818i am invisible and silent that's why im addicted to attention when i get it.
>>83080830it is NOT genshin impact bruh what are you on... ts might jus be the worst response i've gotten to inazuma eleven. may even kill myself.
>>83080822Im kinda scared to add people now cause I can get attached easily and there were 2 girls who added me in the past and love bombed me and I fell for them heavily but they both ghosted me later randomly. I don't want to experience that again.
>>83080845inazuma is a place in Genshin </3 I'm sorry I'm so retarded please don't hate me
Holy shit why am i bothering i am retarded i mean even for 4 chan i am retarded my god i am going to bed.
>>83080855this is why I hate foids. getting ghosted is year ruining for me
>>83080830can this mf stop saying dumb shi and just add my discord already I have no aura don't ignore me roosha_808 NOW
>>83080862what does this mean??? bothering with what
>>83080855nah i get you fully bruh that shit sounds horrible, but you seem chill so i wanna friend ya up and lather you in a thick coat of honey
>>83080857i'll forgive you if you watch the whole series in the span of 2 days,
>>83080888i can try!!! the fastest i watched something was HxH 2011 in 3 days
>>83080863I feel no hatred towards those 2 girls I just want to know what made them do that considering they were both telling how much they love me at the start, I let my guard down and showed my vulnerable side to them and I naively believed I finally found someone who loves and accepts me so getting ghosted later really felt I getting hit by a truck.
>>83080870THeres no point is there No effect. I will remain in stasis my whole life here and nothing will happen no matter my choices or actions, i should just go too sleep for the rest of the year. Maybe a war will start or something.
>>83080906i'm cryin bruh do you need to include an image everytime you reply to someone i feel as if you'll run out of material eventually
>>83080940nigga go do smth like come on you can't be witherin in bed all day long. believe in me who believes in you or smth like that. i promise you it gets better eventually
>>83080958no i have a lot of art of him he's my husband
>>83080918i hate them because i allowed myself to let them hurt me so i really hate myself
>>83081075Yeah I get you. I got very depressed after aswell and that made me lose weight which is annoying. I sometimes have 0 appetite all day even tho Im already rly skinnny....
>>83081158yeah ive started eating less too because of how much i sleepit's really easy to spiral ugh
>>83081328yeah I also sleep a lot and my sleep schedule is really fucked up
>>83081352sleeping all day is so fun but i feel so miserable after it sucks
>>83081575I feel awful too but I can't stop cause thats best way I can cope with being an antiscoial, friendless, weak, malnourished looking skinny boy
>>83081676you're so me. sleeping is easier than thinking or cutting these days
>>83081965Yeah, the only thing that keeps me from ending it is the faint hope of finding a girl who will love me for who I am, I don't care about friends or earning money if I just found one special person I would dedicate my life to them
>>83081965holy shit b you cut yourself?
>>83082150literally same. I just need someone who cares about me and actually loves me, then ill have a reason to live
>>83082244not deep enough to bleed. I just use scissors cuz it hurts. if i left marks then people would find out
>>83082261fuck you fuck you fuck you im falling in love with you
>>83082261wow you're actually just like me I use scissors too for the same reason
>>83078250please be in europe
>>83082768why im a pathetic loser with no good qualities
>>83082791it feels nice and no one can stop me because there's no proof it happened <3
>>83078250>autistic Check>depressedCheck>twinksFucking God damnit.
>>83083327>good qualitiesgood or bad is relativewhatever the fuck you've got, i want to feel it with you
>>83083336yeah exactly it also feels nicer to use
>>83083380you can add me ig vasilijia on disc
>>83083438yah the dull dragging feels really really good on my skinfeels more like torture
>>83083472no ;) because i'm already in your contacts...
>>83083481which oneive added a lot of peopleyou better not have ghosted me
>>83083494why would I ghost you?
