like some of you have had to recovered and are still posting, right? what cured it? what'd you do?I've tried EDMR only so far, it helped get me functional, but im still not happy. Nothing is worth experiencing, i still get the visual warping when im stressed and my mind shuts down, my identity still shifts when im under stress, and i still have so many deep-seated fears of things other people can clearly just do.i just want to be better
Write down the things you dislike about yourself, not looks, but habits and mood swings etc.Write down when you first noticed them happening, what triggers them, etc.You WILL cry and be angry with yourself but once you start accepting things and learning new healthy ways to cope you will be happier.
>>83087882>but habits...honestly, its very hard to really assess the habits and stuff i hate. some of them i only hate because they're spastic and others dont like them, but I will try* when im low on energy, i dont do work* I complain often about problems I have to others and burden them with this information* when i find someone I like, I tend to cling to them for emotional support until i learn that they are disgusted by me in some way or annoyed by me, at which point I reel back and put up a fake front for myself (I only dislike this because i shouldn't be burdening others)* i habitually am incapable of assessing my own moods and feelings accurately* i dislike that my first instinct is to play a character around people to fit in (even if doing so is to my advantage, i hate it and it feels inauthentic)* I have an intense fear of driving>and mood swings etc.its very hard for me to tell what my mood is, im only ever really able to know when im entering a depressive episode, and that usually is a realization that only happens mid way through one>Write down when you first noticed them happening, what triggers them, etc.I will try this to the best of my ability, but if you can provide me tips on what to look out for with the habits i dont like, please do it.>You WILL cry and be angry with yourself but once you start accepting things and learning new healthy ways to cope you will be happier.wait so im just supposed to accept these behaviors as part of my life? im confused.
