I (bpdemon who never leaves the house and only likes girly men) am starting to have an imaginary twink husband who talks to me about my interests, tells me he loves me and motivates me to eat/shower. I think I'm losing it.
>>83088018I'm a bpd twink. Hmu nigga
>>83088018where are you from and what are your interests, nona? :]
>>83088018ill be your real life non twink boyfriend who doesnt care about you, tells you he hates you, and discourages you from doing anything productive
>only likes girly menhow girly we talking
>>83088065Canada. Old game collecting, virtual pets, doll/toy collecting, console modding, the windows operating system and very cliche but sanrio stuff.
I was that twink boyfriend for a girl here until she broke up with me out of nowhere.I hope your imaginary husband fares better than I am when you split on him because I haven't left my bed in two weeks.
>>83088094>the windows operating systemBut like why?
>>83088092long hair and smooth face minimum, they don't have to look super good. The ones I loved the most were all shy grungy little autists.
>>83088103autism. I like linux too if you're one of those people.software development and history is cool.
>>83088098I'm sorry. I got left too and I still have trouble eating. Life didn't even feel real after that day, I couldn't sleep or eat or even play games and I really did try my best so I get you.
>>83088018Might be sign it's time for you to find someone bpdemon? It could be a sign
>>83088122I like computers but I'm not tistic about it. I'd offer to talk to you but I'm not a girly men, I would tell you to take care of yourself though.
>>83088018I wish I could date someone like you nona. I meet your preference but last relationship with a 4chan girl was bad
>>83088192>last relationship with a 4chan girl was bad>wants to date a bpdemon nextwat
>>83088200Last relationship wasn't a bpd demon. It was male attention whore demon
>>83088200im not insane about it or anything, just overly emotional and sensitive and need reassurance. I don't split if that what you're worried about but I feel if I don't label myself as such it'll lead to a bad outcome.
>>83088208you said the same thing twice anon
>>83088213Isn't splitting a core part of BPD?
>>83088216Not all bpds are going to want male attention. I rather mood swings than being paranoid about every male "friend" she has. Bpd is just going to very clingy which I'm all in for
>>83088226I suppose, but I'll never tell anyone that I hate them or block people randomly. I used to but not for some years now.
>>83088232>Bpd is just going to very clingy which I'm all in fort. never interacted with a bpd in his life
>>83088213Splitting is you subconscious telling you that person is bad
>>83088252>you*Your subconscious Forgive me I'm drunk
>>83088251Better than being abused and having cptsd. Messed me up in such a way that I can really only date 4channers now
>>83088270Man, I like bpd people but you're so wrong here. Dating a bpd is inherently traumatic. Their mood swings, the paranoia, the distorted self image. It's not fun. They're not just teehee so clingy manic pixie girls.
>>83088270The experts say there's a fine line between bpd and cptsd
>>83088293Maybe she did have bpd. That's an accurate description of how she was. Went from very loving to incredibly hateful and I always wondered why.
>>83088320Yeah man, she had fucking bpd like I told you 6 posts ago. They don't have stable personalities, they can't control themselves. Even with therapy they're still unstable and prone to weird bouts of anger over nothing. If you don't want to micromanage someone else's emotions 24/7 bpd is not the type of person you want to date. I love it because I'm a control freak but if you got ptsd from a bad relationship then stay away from them, you're just going to get wrecked man.
>>83088252I get those thoughts sometimes but I manage them, I'd never tell someone to their face I hate them or anything mwan at all.I'm more so very over emotional and afraid of people leaving me.
>>83088335Given the fact that here I am, on r9k, talking about my ex, on a thread about a woman labeling herself as bpd, you're right on the money about ptsd. I don't even know what I was hoping to accomplish here besides getting a random nona's attention. Being lonely is scary I guess
>>83088374Go find an autistic girl, they're easier to deal with and you don't have to manipulate them into not slicing and dicing their thighs
>>83088380They're usually all chad only unfortunately. I appreciate your advice anon and I thank you for that. This site is not good for me.
>>83088018I'm a twink, can I force you to go to therapy?
>>83088380I am austitic too, I used the bpdemon label because I'm afraid of overwhelming people with my emotions. I'm a year clean of sh currently and I don't see myself relapsing.
>>83088452That's good, stay clean>>83088437Yeah get off this site it's just a misery hole. Go live real life anon.
Unrelated to this thread but I find myself always fantasizing about giving someone the care and attention I never got despite being pretty vulnerable myself mentally. >>83088464>Go live real life anon.This
>>83088448In therapy currently but thanks, it's more the love and care that I like.
>>83088496I'm an autistic Twink but I'm brown, I meet all your standards though
>>83088496I'm an autistic Twink but I'm white and tall, I meet all your standards though
>>83088496I'm an autistic Twink but I'm Chinese and short, I meet all your standards though
>>83088496I'm allistic twinkie but I bad at smelling and shirt, I meat awl yore standards tough
I imagined my very own mentally ill obsessive gf while lying in bed this morning, got out of bed after like an hour just to see this thread??
>>83089006Nah we scared her off you're shit out of luck m9
>>83089006I'm still here! getting sleepy though
>>83089191So, what exactly do you imagine? I like to lie on my side and imagine a girl like pic rel, maybe her hair could be black or purple, and I imagine staring into each other's eyes lovingly while hugging, and I imagine she's cold so we hug very tightly, or I imagine the bed is against a wall and she likes me to 'enlose' her so she's no longer afraid of the dark or falling asleep. Sometimes I lie on my back and imagine her weight on top of me and her face in my chest or next to my neck, and her calling me her personal bodypillow and that she can't sleep without it! In my fantasies she's depressed and I help her overcome her ED and give her the energy and motiavion to get out of bed and talk walks/cycle in nature and find movies to watch on my laptop with her. Of course I also have erotic fantasies like her guiding my fingers to her pussy and showing me how to make her cum, and me staring at her cute face and kissing her when she cums, and licking my fingers cause I love every part of her.
>>83089249at night I imagine laying on his chest and him holding me when I have a bad dream. I imagine he has long hair that falls all over the pillow and I can play with it gently. I imagine him listening to me talk about all my silly games and he's like a game preservationist and yaps back at me. I imagine leaving kiss marks on his face too, and throwing all my plushies and hello kitties on him in a big pile when he falls asleep first.
>>83089272What's up with bpdemons and hello kitty/sanrio?!All that is wonderful and you should definitely go out there and look for him! What's stopping me is my depression and the resulting neetdom, once I get a job... and my own place... who am I kidding
>>83089343its a stereotype, yes. I found all the sanrio characters as a kid through the hello kitty ds games. usahana and my melody are my favorites. i hope i find him.
>>83088094you wouldnt happen to be a certain content creator who works in several mediums and makes vocaloid music would you ? i have a crush on her and this would make me sad because im not twinkie
