A few years ago I experienced this schizo sensation of impending doom, as if the world mind/spirit itself was trending towards pure blackness. A lot of people would frame that as mental illness and in a sense it is but I also believe it's experiencing reality more accurately for a brief moment. A lot of people probably experience this but shrug it off for the sake of their own sanity. It's not that the trend can't theoretically be reversed or that there's no goodness in the world whatsoever but the trend isn't going to be reversed because most people are ignorant of or in denial of just how bad things really are, and the balance between life and death drive is highly skewed towards death. Right now life for many people, for an increasing amount of people is like being trapped in a sewer and the best you can do is attempt to not sink any deeper into it. There have been too many cataclysmic shifts in the way people think in the last century or two. The public is losing faith in and lost the will to pursue everything, God, state, family, romance, love, companionship, reproduction, sex, art, knowledge, rationality, etc. All of this is being rejected for facile virtual abstract representations of the same thing. Reality has become more cartoonish and exaggerated. The world is run by the mentally ill and the retarded and there's very little if anything that can be done about it other than to sit back and watch it happen and to try not to get to much shit on your shoes. It's a miracle that things aren't worse actually, we should be grateful for the world we have now because in 30 years it's going to be way worse. You'd have to be deluded to believe otherwise. People who have strong grounding in philosophy or religion will fair better than the average person, the average person is fucked. Thanks for reading my blog :)
>>83090497The thing is: mind is fundamentally empty. Thoughts, concepts and emotions are not mind, they're the content of the mind. And as they can just arise from the emptiness and vanish into it again, they're all just illusion. That means: reality, that is made of thoughts, concepts and emotions, is complete illusion. In the end it doesn't matter if reality is great or terrible because greatness isn't more real than terrible reality.Some spiritual traditions have the aim to stop this reality-generating process and remain in the basic state of empty mind, as this is the only real peace possible.
>>83090706I tried meditation, it's difficult to do consistently and when you haven't done it in a while it's like you're starting again from square one. I've gone to that empty state before a few times but a lot of the time I end up falling asleep or getting agitated. It's peaceful but I'm not sure how to get any practical use out of it. I guess I need more consistency and patience but my mind is so hyperactive that it's really hard to perceive the emptiness or stillness of being. I will say I'm a lot less self absorbed when I've meditated and that's pleasant. I think I'll get back into it.
>>83090497God damn it man, its a Wednesday I don't need another existantial crisis
>>83090497>most people are ignorant of or in denial of just how bad things really areNever underestimate the lengths the average person (aka the normie) will go to in order to prop up the status quo. They're fully indentured to and dependent on it and they WILL fight to protect it, because they know they're hosed if it goes down, and beware their spite - they'll drag you down to hell with them if they can.
>>83090953I'm sorry, I was drinking and I have mental health issues
