Considering how much suffering I went through in my life I often think it would have been better for me to not have been born. Even when my life doesnt suck its still just okay. Most of my time and energy is spent on trying to not let my life go to shit but it feels ultimately pointless. I dont get to enjoy things I simply try to avoid even more suffering.
>>83092468My death won't affect the world at large, but I know it'll affect the lives of those closest to meI keep on living because of them, and also because I'm kind of excited what else the world can pull out of it's hat
this painting is stupid because who even lives in such a place. it's romantic cope to appeal to people that do
>>83092468No it's been a horrible experience blantently. I feel pretty much the same as you all my energy and effort is put into avoiding more pain and suffering at this point. And it's all for nothing no hope nothing to look forward to. It took me a lot of years to fully process and understand just how much abuse, confusion and stupidity I went through in my life. Some people are irredeemably mentally ill sick and should never have children and my parents are among them. I never wanted to adopt a victim mentality but that kept me mildly in denial to the reality of the situation and how awful people treated me and how bad my circumstances actually were. When I finally stopped trying to justify it and put a"positive spin" on my life for my ego it really became clear how awful of experience the entire thing has been and stupid. But I have no desire to die early. In fact I wish they could discover eternal youth and I can gain back all my time I lost to awful people and abusive situations. But I doubt they ever will I think all these AI and robotics predictions is just future faking wishful thinking.
>>83092526I live on the coast and walk the beach every day. I prefer this time of year because there's few people around.
>>83092468>do you think your life is ultimately worth living?yeahmy life sucks but if i thought it wasn't worth living i wouldve killed myself already
No. I'm a nihilist. I plan to set myself on fire as my suicide method someday. It's going to be fucking badass and brutal. Maximize my suffering. I will livestream it too. I fucking hate everyone. People will watch it and be like "whoa very badass" "epic bruh" "sick on god fr fr" "damn that was hardcore"
>>83092929Nah, people who livestream their deaths mostly get made fun of.
>>83092929Saw a video of a guy that did that in nyc in front of a court house trump was at last year. Looks like a really painful way to die but sounds like you want that. Good luck anon.
You sound like a pussy bitch ass pussy faggot
>>83092616I bet you masterbate to the lolis you pervert
>>83092991Don't care. It'd be fun.Thats also from people who think life is magical a gift or sacred or believe in god or some higher purpose or whatever bullshit and they think its bad to not value it and all that shit. Come on youd watch me. Let me burn myself into your mind.
>>83093002Yes. Painless deaths are for cowards.
