Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supportphew, last thread was a long one huhhey>How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
hiiiHere's a bunch of helpful links> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7>a first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/> wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic> bpd workbook:https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read>a bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c>bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
Hallo /cat/, nice dubs. First btw>How are you doing today?Pretty meh. Woke up at 5AM for an assignment I didn't learn was for marks until I made it to class which sucked. Feeling slightly lethargic.>Any plans for today?Pull day in the evening and finishing an assignment. Resting early since my sleeps been ass these past couple days.>When was the last time you hurt yourself?November of last year.>Why did you hurt yourself?Frustration with my lack of direction.>Is there anything bothering you right now?Home stuff, ion wanna talk about it. A little stressed about getting perfect on work but I'll manage.
Hello friends.>How are you doing today?Not great but I could be a lot worse. I've kept my urge to contact her under control today.>Any plans for today?I saw a therapist earlier but I don't think I'll go again. It costs too much and I didn't get any advice that I've not already heard on /r9k/... I feel like I've had more insight from watching Eva for the fifth time. Can't believe I got misty eyed during Magma Diver...I need to finish my submission for this conference this evening, ideally. It's almost done now.>Is there anything bothering you right now?I miss her>>83092623Best of luck with your assignments!
>>83092623helloo o/>nice dubs. thanks^^ >First btw your medal should arrive to you soon>assignment I didn't learn was for marks until I made it to class which suckedthat sounds frustrating, so it didn't go well?>slightly lethargic5am is super early so can't blame you>Resting early that sounds like a great plan>Home stuff, ion wanna talk abouthat's fine just hopin it goes well>>83092758Heya>>83092758>kept my urge to contact her under control today.good work d(^^)>didn't get any advice that I've not already heard on /r9k/...that doesn't sound good I guess the only extra thing therapist can give you is meds>misty eyed during Magma Diver...asukas roundness does bring people to tears often >need to finish my submission for this conferencebest of luck do you think it'll be difficult?
>>83093102>I guess the only extra thing therapist can give you is medsI'm pretty sure they can't even do that, I think I'd need a psychiatrist. But even then I'm not sure what they could even prescribe me.>asukas roundness does bring people to tears oftenI came to the horrible realisation that I'd been dating Asuka for six months. Any time she does anything nice I just kind of well up.>do you think it'll be difficult?It's not my best work, but if they don't like the idea I won't be asked to present, no matter how good my submission is. I have no idea what the interest in the conference is so it'll be anywhere from a slam dunk to a snowball's chance in hell.
>>83092758Hallo discanon>Best of luck with your assignments!Thanks>advice that I've not already heard on /r9k/This board is just about the last place I'd get advice (even if saying that is in of itself advice...). This general isn't as bad but imageboards still shouldn't be your lifeline for advice.>I've had more insight from watching EvaI've only read/watched a handful of manga/movies and I feel I've gleamed more life lessons from that more than any direct advice. With those you're forced to interpret what's there and relate it to yourself vs someone giving you advice that you can't piece together the logic of on your own.>>83093102>that sounds frustrating, so it didn't go well?*Wasn't for marks. I woke early for no reason basically.
hey everyone. hope everyone is well. I had a very strange conversation with my parents about stuff and for the rest i was just chilling with friends.>>83092488hey cat, what's up?>>83092623wassup anon>Woke up at 5AM for an assignment did it atleast go well? maybe you should go sleep a bit earlier then>>83092758heya>urge to contact her under control today.that's good, no?>I miss hersorry to hear that, maybe try to distract herself a bitconsidering it's almost become tradition now, listening to this rn, probably a bit cringe but hey: https://youtu.be/96ZAbJWyufU?si=c85MWaWYXhutOn_w
>>83093283>think I'd need a psychiatristoh I think you might be right well ig at least you'll save some money >dating Asuka for six months.that doesn't sound very healthy to be honest >Any time she does anything nice I just kind of well up.I do agree that is pretty cutebtw some time ago I was telling you about other animes and you asked for a link right? just asking because I think I forgot to do that >but if they don't like the idea I won't be asked to presentdo you hope for that to happen?>>83093420>Wasn't for marks. I woke early for no reasonoh that's even worse >>83093447Hey>strange conversation with my parents about stuffwhat was strange about it?>and for the rest i was just chilling with friends.nice >what's up?I studied a tiny little bit and now just chilling and watching yt videos >become traditionI think it's nice :]thanks
hey everyone>>83092488hey cat, how you doing?>>83092758>I miss hersome time has passed and you're still standing, i guarantee you that it will get better mate. glad to hear you're doing well holding yourself
>>83093420>This general isn't as bad but imageboards still shouldn't be your lifeline for advice.That's true, equally I suppose there's only so much you can do in a situation like mine so that would explain the overlap.>I've gleamed more life lessons from that more than any direct advice. With those you're forced to interpret what's there and relate it to yourself vs someone giving you advice that you can't piece together the logic of on your own.This is very much my feeling as well. I guess it's a lot easier to relate to characters and figure out how they're feeling and what they should do than it is to look at yourself.Have you watched Evangelion?>>83093447>that's good, no?I'd say so. I think I'm only pushing her away even further by doing that, so I need to exercise some restraint.>maybe try to distract herself a bitThat's the plan. I've been managing that better lately.>>83093548>well ig at least you'll save some moneyI'd probably be happier spending it on anime figures or something. Maybe I should do that instead.>that doesn't sound very healthy to be honestThe more I write or talk about it, the less healthy it sounds. In hindsight think I came down with a very bad case of "I can fix her". I still think I can.>btw some time ago I was telling you about other animes and you asked for a link right?I did, yes. I'd be happy to add your recommendations to the big list of stuff I need to watch at some point.>do you hope for that to happen?I do. It seems like a pretty fun, laid-back conference, if there is such a thing. So it'd be a good first one to present at.>>83093608Hello>some time has passed and you're still standing, i guarantee you that it will get better mate.I hope so. I was speaking to another anon earlier who went through something similar and he said it might take a year to get over, which sounds about right since it took 18 months for me to get over an equally sad thing a few years ago.
>>83093608hey heyhow's it going?I'm doing okay just chilling, I watched yt and posted on 4chan>>83093713>happier spending it on anime figuresdo you plan to get sum?>still think I can.the real question is does she want to be fixed>be happy to add your recommendationsokayyy just a sec>seems like a pretty fun, laid-back conference, if there is such aoh ao you're looking forward to it?
>>83093713azumanga daio subhttps://youtube.com/playlist?list=PL1ylb5IHEn99Diyx1RBSVTwWGccl9dubW&si=Z6ePm7i16DIpj-tklucky star dubhttps://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLWUMzvTN3fEKk1nzUNb3J1WOW6vAX1nnM&si=ZaxDS4eSRFMbgdQa:D
This has been a long tiring week. I just want to survive until Thanksgiving. So close, yet so far>>83092488hey cat how's your day going?>>83092623hi anon!>my sleeps been ass yeah, pretty much the same. I get up at like 4 most days and if I don't sleep super early, i'm messed up rest of the day. Been forced to work late too which is kinda the tough part>>83092758hi discanon!> under control today.nicely done!>It costs too much yeah, don't blame you there. It kinda is and you have to go a long time before you get any real benefit from it even best case scenario. I got something out of it, but it was a long time ago and really just helping me point to who was the problem in my life i was kind of ignoring.> finish my submission for this conferencebest of luck. I still have some work I need to finish but needed a break>>83093447hey chev!>had a very strange conversatiocat asked above, but curious as well. Those are always kinda the worst..>>83093608hey rm! How are you doing? Haven't stopped by in a day because had been overwhelmed with work, but hope you're doing all right. >>83093713>very bad case of "I can fix her"For me it's always "let's be worse together"
>>83093548>what was strange about it?idk my parents were talking about "woke", whatever the fuck that means. My mom also asked me about my sex life lol.>just chilling and watching yt videos nice, what are ya watching?>>83093713>so I need to exercise some restraint.probably, desu from what i've heard about this it's better that you 2 stay apart.>I've been managing that better lately.that's good to hear.>>83094171heya officeanon!>but curious as wellanswered in my reply to cat>Those are always kinda the worst..it wasn't exactly great yeah.https://youtu.be/SEox1Fgsi0o?si=XXhnLfW6N-0E8lLP
>>83093968>do you plan to get sum?I don't have any preordered but I might look around the place that sells them here for some good deals. They're usually pretty in-line with the secondary market prices.>the real question is does she want to be fixedI think she does. She was getting treated and told me that she didn't want to live like that for my sake, or hers.>oh ao you're looking forward to it?It seems like the only way I'll be able to make any connections here. So I guess I am a little.>>83093994Thanks. I love Azumanga. I've got a pretty decent collection of stuff related to it. Unfortunately most of it is in my childhood bedroom.>>83094171Hang in there anon.>For me it's always "let's be worse together"She made me better in a lot of ways, I think. I wish she could be selfish and allow herself to be loved, and selfless because I got a lot out of loving her.>>83094345>desu from what i've heard about this it's better that you 2 stay apartA lot of people have told me back. But I'll probably take her back if she promises not to do it again. Besides this she was the sweetest person I've ever met and I was shocked that someone so pretty and talented would even give me the time of day.
>>83094171hey>has been a long tiring week.I feel bad for you friend >how's your day going?studied a little, chilled, watching spooky gta sa stuffwbu? u relaxing?>>83094345>parents were talking about "woke"my one friend is sorta like that I could really rant about it because I hate how politics aren't actually about policies and facts but about popularity but eh..>mom also asked me about my sex life lol.you told her anything?I wouldn't answer >what are ya watching?spooky gta sa stuff >:3 >>83094446>might look around the place that sells them here for some good dealsyou have like store with those?>think she doesbtw does she goes to therapy or something >seems like the only way I'll be able to make any connections here.ooh you want friends?>Unfortunately most of it is in my childhood bedroom.you have azumanga merch??woaa
>>83093447Hallo che>did it atleast go well?It wasn't for marks so I could've just slept in lol...>become tradition now, listening to this rn, probably a bit cringe but heyBeen listening to this now myself, I know it's old but I just discovered it. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3flhkIhw1Pw , I've got something like your track in my soundcloud likes but ion feel like scrolling through it all to find it lol.>>83093713>Have you watched Evangelion?Sorta, I get halfway into the series and drop it lol>it's a lot easier to relate to characters and figure what they should do than it is to look at yourselfPretty much. "Are they stupid?" "Wait I do this" "Am I stupid?". For me writing/voice notes achieve a similar thing where I'll be able to assess my actions from outside myself.>>83094345Related, my mom was setting up filters on the home wifi and accidentally blocked steam. When I went to go do all the setup for her she extremely vaguely hinted that I can "go on the sites I want since I'm an adult". I didn't even know she knew porn existed until like yesterday so that was strange...>>83094171Hallo officeanon >I get up at like 4 most days and if I don't sleep super early, i'm messed up rest of the day.Huuuuh, what do you need to wake up that early for, is your commute to a whole other state???
hey, everyone. just stopping by to wish you all the best. i'll be just heading to bed now. gotta get up early for a dentist appointment.
>>83094626>you have like store with those?I do. Little market stalls run by a bunch of different people. It's a nice change from where I used to live. >btw does she goes to therapy or somethingYes, every week. She's been having DBT for a while now.>ooh you want friends?I don't know if I'd go that far, but it would be nice to know more than a few people here.>you have azumanga merch??I do. Mostly production artwork. It goes up for sale pretty often on Yahoo Auctions if you want some yourself.>>83094658>I get halfway into the series and drop it lolFair enough, it's not for everyone.>For me writing/voice notes achieve a similar thing where I'll be able to assess my actions from outside myselfI've been keeping a diary for a few years now and I think it's helped a bit. It's nice to get my thoughts down every day, but I wish it helped more.>>83094730Have a good snooze!
>>83094446>But I'll probably take her back if she promises not to do it againyou do you ig, I just don't think it's a good idea.>>83094626>my one friend is sorta like that some of my friends are like that too, but they atleast have the tact to know it's a meaningless term.>actually about policies and facts but about popularity yeah, but the benefit of that is most people don't bother to look deeper into it.>you told her anything?idk she just asked if i did it that i did it safe so i said yeah and then she asked me if i do stuff often and then i just said i've only done it a few times ig. i tried to cut that convo as short as i could.>I wouldn't answer i didn't rlly wanna, but i appreciate my parents atleast not being judgemental about it.>spooky gta sa stuff >:3 oo nicee>>83094658>Been listening to this now myselfreally sounds like a relic of bygone time lol>ion feel like scrolling throughthat's fine manhttps://youtu.be/g2qCdXE21og?si=fKDiydsuVDN-gC_3
I'll be going to sleep so goodnight friends btw I'm almost healthy yay
>>83094345>my parents were talking about "wokewhat I hear everytime I visit my parents. I couldn't even tell you what it means at this point other than things my dad doesn't like lol>My mom also asked me about my sex life lol how considerate??>>83094446>might look around the place that sells them here for some good deals.whatcha looking for in particular though is the real question?>made me better yeah, had those kinds of relationships too. The thing is, it's often more complicated than what you say. A lot of people have trouble controlling themselves, but also there is a bit of choice in how she acts as well. >would even give me the time of day.and ultimately this type of thinking is also what i think you need to change, since it's too hard on yourself. It's possible to like and think highly of someone without doing this
>>83094626>I feel bad for you friendthanks. I've been through worse, just still pretty bad>watching spooky gta sa stuffooh now I'm curious what you're watching >wbu? u relaxing?relaxing and finishing work but soon to be done>>83094658>, what do you need to wake up that early for,I'm working two jobs and one requires me to work closely with someone on the other side of the world. Honestly morning isn't bad, just evening times when I'm trying to finish the half of what I didn't wrap up in the morning that gets rough>>83094730hey yuanon! All good. Hope you had a nice day and see you soon>>83095096goodnight cat!
>>83095286>you're watchingthis :>https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=5ibIzHRo51s&pp=ygUcdmluZXNvdWNlIGpvZWwgZ3RhIG15c3Rlcmllcw%3D%3D
>>83093713>it took 18 months for me to get over an equally sad thing a few years ago.might seem difficult but you know you can do it and have enough patience. it can be a shorter matter of time at the end.>>83093968>I'm doing okay just chilling, I watched yt and posted on 4changlad to hear you're doing okay.>how's it going?missed talking to you normally honestly. missed replying to everyone, lol. hope it gets better.>>83094171hey officeanon>So close, yet so faronly 2 days until your weekend right?you can do it mate> because had been overwhelmed with workdon't worry mate, hope everything went good with you>How are you doingidk i'm feeling strange right now. well, thinking about it again makes me wanna die so i think it's safe to keep feeling "strange" instead of trying to identify my feelings, don't you think?what about you tho? how have you been doing lately?>>83094730hey yuanon, wish you a goodnight
>>83095196>other than things my dad doesn't like lolits such a meaningless fucking word anyways.>how considerate??ikr, ig i should've done the powerplay and just asked her for hers, i'll do that next time.
>>83094997>I just don't think it's a good idea.Plenty of people have told me it isn't. Love makes people do stupid things, I guess.>>83095096Have a good sleep!>>83095196>whatcha looking for in particular though is the real question?Nendoroids and figmas, mostly. I don't have much space here.>but also there is a bit of choice in how she acts as wellOf course. She didn't have to act like that, knew how bad it was, and did it anyway.>ultimately this type of thinking is also what i think you need to change, since it's too hard on yourself.I came to terms with the fact that she liked me, it was just a surprise I guess.>>83095698>you know you can do it and have enough patienceWe'll see. That last one was incredibly difficult and I had bereavement counselling for it.
>>83095876>We'll see. That last one was incredibly difficult and I had bereavement counselling for it.good luck anon.
>>83092488Sorry guys, I appreciate all the guidance and support you all offered me in the last thread, but I just bought a boxcutter and I'm gonna break my clean streak. I just can't take my fucking life anymore, and it's all I can do before I fucking rope.
