i'm losing my grip on realityi hate the consciousness trap so muchalmost ran over a couple the other day because i was imagining a separate reality while driving, literally forgot where i was for a momentlast night had an episode wher ei thought people were trying to break into my home, spent 30 minutes going around in circles with my combat knife in hand just because of one (1) unrelated sound that i heard outsidei know i need "meds" but i used to take them years agoand i don't want to anymore, they gave me permanent side effects and now i have random aches and extreme fatigue and the same fucking dreams all the time
