I'm gonna get called a normalfag but I've pretty much lost mine. Was just a slow rotting over the past 3ish years then one day boom it was all gone recently. 2 of these niggas I've known since like 3rd grade. I like being alone but the way it ended stings.
>>83099234I rotted for about a decade. By the end i was making excuses not to see anyone, i was so used to being at home alone. It was an inconvenience to go out and meet with them. I was never very social to begin with but now I can barely talk to people at all. Can't look people in the eye. Boss hired a new co-worker, a qt petite girl, and I've been acting like a complete fucking retarded autist when interacting with her. I am.an embarrassment. Please god put an end to my misery.
>>83099234i never had any irl friends, just a couple online ones that i lost over the yearsi only have one now, he's been with me for like 11 years at this pointi'm sure i would've killed myself by now if not for him, online friendships can only fill the void to such an extent, but they're infinitely better than loneliness
I haven't been in contact with my co worker for a while. I should call him.
>>83099479I guess I been rotting for around 6 years now as NEET. I'm really fine with it but the rot really started with my friends around 3 years ago. They just grew up and are pretty normie more so than I thought since I am terminally online and alone most of the time. >I was never very social to begin with but now I can barely talk to people at all. Can't look people in the eye.Exact same. It's only gotten worse. Maybe some of it's due to isolation but I've always had social issues. >Boss hired a new co-worker, a qt petite girl, and I've been acting like a complete fucking retarded autist when interacting with her.Honestly I'm not even scared if women anymore just people. If I had to interact with a woman none of the anxiety is about it being a woman it's about another human I have to interact with.
>>83099522I'm trying to find some now honestly I have some anons on discord that I've only had like 1 convo with that I've been messaging. I can tolerate the abyss for so long many months without issue really but now I'm craving the connection again and it doesn't matter what as long as it's some relation and similar interests.
>>83099537My anxiety too is about dealing with any person at all, but it is worse with women because when I avert my eyes I look down bellow their faces, and women tend to be sensitive about men looking there. Men just find it funny or weird.
>>83099556Most of the time if it's a prolonged interaction I try and make eye contact for split seconds repeatedly but mostly look off to the side and down.
>>83099551that's good, for better or worse we're social creatures, so it's nice to see you taking the time to pursue some connectiontell me, what are your interests?
>>83099640It's a hard balance to find. My homies just naturally grew apart from me and I became more of a freak I guess. More asocial more of a loser hermit but I've always been comfortable this way so it's just how it turned out and it is what it is. >what are your interests?Honestly not much I am pretty boring but can be entertained easily. Random YouTube shit whether it be drama slop or basic political or philosophical stuff, some streamers or vtubers, Anime or people reacting to anime because I can be parasocial since I have no once to share the experience with. That's really about it I used to love vidya but I've lost touch with it in the past few years and it's been months since I've played any vidya. I mostly like single player stuff but still have an affinity for Rocket League and wouldn't mind going back to it just haven't felt like it in a while. I want to share in another hermits hobbies. Niggas that go to bars or or have gf's or jobs just don't seems compatible with me even though I've known them for years.
>>83099705>it is what it isi can't blame you honestly, reminds me somewhat of myselfbut yeah, i suppose it's time to chase after new friendships, and hope you find some lifelong ones along the way (and do your best to make them so)>interestshuh i see, i never really was entertained much by yt or vtubers, but i like reading about random crap online lolgames, i still play them now and again but it's been lonely since i moved out so i spend too much time here trying to talksp stuff can be nice, but i like some coop titles too, except i play them by myself, kek (e.g. terraria, mc, factorio, satisfactory, core keeper, etc.)rocket league seemed fun back then but i never played it, it's good you still have some affinity for it though>Niggas that go to bars or or have gf's or jobsyeah, not very relatable to me either, save for the job part which i forced myself to getbeing a digital hermit can fun but is too insanity-inducing for me to handle, i had to throw myself into more social situationsi'm a fucking shut-in once i get home though lol
>>83099883> i suppose it's time to chase after new friendships, and hope you find some lifelong ones along the way (and do your best to make them so)As much as I'd like to try I'm not sure I can now. I've always prided myself on being alone and linking being alone which I do but the thirst for human connection does not go away even if it's only a little desire. >yeah, not very relatable to me either, save for the job part which i forced myself to getbeing a digital hermit can fun but is too insanity-inducing for me to handle, i had to throw myself into more social situationsI'm a fucking shut-in once i get home though lolI think 95% of the time I can live in my head and entertain myself but the 5% is a poison that just gets worse and worse the longer the comfort in isolation goes on. It's an itch that I can't scratch now because they are gone. I really don't know how I should treat a friendship anymore. Should I even try if I don't meet their expectations or talk to them enough or often enough?
>>83100010sorry anon, i went out for lunch>even if it's only a little desire.i guess it's fine if you just post here every now and again then like finding some threads to interact with, some people to talk to, etc.it keeps my sanity in one piece somewhat, but may be good enough for youother social media may also help but they're often soulless and normalfaglands>Should I even try if I don't meet their expectations or talk to them enough or often enough?i'd say so, everyone's expectations vary a lotfinding someone similarly low maintenance may be a challenge but i'm sure it's possibleanyway i won't necrobump this so godspeed, anonit was nice talking, thanks for thattake care of yourself
