Not going to write my whole life story but as a 30 YO man, with autism, ADHD, major depression, generalized anxiety, OCD, plethora of personality disorders and undiagnosed PTSD & CPTSD - is it over?I live in constant soup of anxiety and depression. Literally nothing can make me happy (even alcohol doesn't help anymore).Trying anything only makes me more miserable, old hobbies are a chore, just as everything else.I only talk to my mother and my 70 YO neighbour. Any relations that I will build (out of luck, once every few years), I will fuck them up.Either by doing something specific or by being myself and they'll grow tired of my mental issues.I feel like I tried it all - meds, religion, faith, working out, yet things are only getting worse. I'll try psychotherapy next but I feel like it's the last resort.Have you ever known anyone in such a bad state and if they ever gotten out of it at least partially? Is there hope?Being alive literally hurts me.
>>31134131i see young kids kill themselves a lot, makes me feel life is worthless, i feel like my brain is too damaged to have a ME section so i just rot and lose my brains while being indoors, missed out on HS and humiliated myself badly, nothing interesting in this life but i put too much stock in dying in my sleep
>>31134148>ME sectionWhat's that? Either way your post didn't help anon, on the contrary.
>>31134161just a personality ig, a sectcion that identifies my own body im just a bunch of dumb thoughts im not a whole person anymore, and for the past couple years my brains been abusing me basically and i do feel like my own brain matter is genuinely hurting yet even tho it feels like its serious i cant reach out and see whats wring, stopped talking to any people i could talk to etc 15 16 17 18 just waste
>>31134131>I feel like I tried it all - meds, religion, faith, working out, yet things are only getting worse. I'll try psychotherapy next but I feel like it's the last resort.Have you tried meditation?
>>31134239Somewhat. Only "nibbled" on it. My ADHD made it insufferable. I'm somewhat meditating every time I get out of my zone in my mind.Tried OOBE as well but it didn't work for the same reason. Never tried any drugs or hypnosis.I may try medical marijuana some day.
>>31134131The way out is being married and having children to a kind hearted woman with a good soul, modest, well raised, soft spoken, loving and pretty.Sadly only about 1-2% of the women are like this nowadays and they get scooped in high school or college the latest.
>>31134311I don't think so. I would be a horrible father, I don't know how to raise a child, I wouldn't have patience for it. Plus I'm an antinatalist, I wouldn't bring any poor soul to this hellhole.
>>31134296Do this, half an hour a day.
>>31134318All that can change, you could become a great father but you need a great woman and those are extremely rare nowadays. That's the painful truth.
>>31134352No, because no one with my mental state would be a good father. And no single woman would ever change me. And no good woman would ever want me.
>>31134378>And no single woman would ever change meThat's not how it works, you change yourself with her help. >And no good woman would ever want meGood woman? That doesn't cut it I'm afraid, what I described above is not good, but great women. You never met them I know, most men never have, so you have no clue what a great woman even is. It's a completely different game and it would drastically alter your perception and your life. But yeah chances that you even see one is close to zero since you don't go out much.
>>31134450>You never met them I know, most men never have>But yeah chances that you even see one is close to zero since you don't go out much.What's the implication here?
>>31134347Already tried this. Literally does nothing.
Bumping
>>31134131>I feel like I tried it all - meds, religion, faith, working out, yet things are only getting worse.100% of the time I read this, it is a lie or half truth at best. Just because taking a shower doesn't get you a gf doesn't mean you stop doing it because 'it doesnt work'. Doing anyone one of these things for a few months and then shrugging your shoulders going 'oh well' is not how being hale and healthy works. They are building blocks you use to create yourself.
>>31134131>cut out screen time>do no stop working out, mark progress upwards>get long term goals to work for >get skills that make you a benefit to yourself and the people around you >but that's haarrdd Then suffer and die
>>31134871Get meds, schizo. None of those threads are mine. How is it any similar to those? Absolutely 0 IQ.>>31134879Those things sound like something you aim for when you are normally functioning, not TO be functioning normally. You are mistaking cause for an effect.>>31134869>Just because taking a shower doesn't get you a gf doesn't mean you stop doing it because 'it doesnt work'.Doing the same thing over again and expecting new results is the definition of insanity. Also, weird comparison.>They are building blocks you use to create yourself.WTF is that even supposed to mean?
30 really isn't old. You're still young. My problems are quite as severe as yours but they do echo a lot of similar issues. Autism, ADHD, anxiety/depression, undiagnosed PTSD. I have times where I really feel like there is no future for myself and no hope of getting better, it's not easy to dig yourself out. Start with short term goals, things that are easy. I don't know your situation but for me my hygiene and my house gets put on the back burner when I'm in a bad low. Start with those things. Sometimes you have to autopilot through feeling shitty and force yourself to be productive, to act happier. Say what you will about cliches, but faking it till you make it helps too. Dwelling in my depression and anxiety, disassociation, does literally nothing for me. But if I pretend things are ok and just try to go through the motions each day without dwelling on it? It goes a long way towards helping me recover. It's not easy. Nobody here is going to have the right answers for you. But even with the issues you have, it's not hopeless.
>>31134908Lol people are giving you genuine advice and you’re shitting on them. Kys worthless neet
>>31134940>Lol people are giving you genuine adviceLike what exactly? Haven't seen a single one yet ITT. Only retards implying I didn't do anything to help my case or half-assed all my attempts.
>>31134131>autism, ADHD, major depression, generalized anxiety, OCD, plethora of personality disorders and undiagnosed PTSD & CPTSDYou're full of shit. Stop with this attention seeking behavior and go outside.
>>31134923>but for me my hygiene and my house gets put on the back burner when I'm in a bad low. Start with those things.I'm already taking care of that because of my OCD and germphobia.>Start with short term goals, things that are easy.NOTHING changes ANYTHING. I did have smaller and bigger goals. Achieving them made me feel nothing. Doing them were like a chore.Even when I passed driving test, I felt nothing. Even when I passed my last exam at uni, I felt nothing.The same nothingness one feels after brushin his teeth. It's like "okay, done, so what?".>Say what you will about cliches, but faking it till you make it helps too.>But if I pretend things are ok and just try to go through the motions each day without dwelling on it? It goes a long way towards helping me recover. As I said, not for me. I must be in a worse situation because none of that normie cope bs works for me.The only thing that worked for a few weeks was one antidepressant but it gave me horrible SE and stopped working either way.Now, nothing would make me happy. Not even winning 10 billion dollars.>>31134964Geez thanks anon, how couldn't I think of this before?
KEK little twerp got my howie archive posts deletedfor shame
>>31134131bro im going to be honest. Quit the internet, Quit social media, Quit this board. Im only back because im going through an intense breakup and don't really need to move as im in college. You need to drop it all. Buckle down. Sprint.
>>31134131Another case of the little bitches.
>>31134131Do you have a job? I'm similar but at least I have one. Other than that we're basically the same guy. I don't see my life going anywhere personally.
It's over buddy.
>>31134131Do you want to be better?
>>31134131You are clearly very neurotic. The good news is that psychotherapy is surprisingly effective for neurotic problems (hating yourself, feeling hopeless, worrying more than is necessary etc.)The bad news is that you also sound anhedonic (don't enjoy doing anything), which therapy usually doesn't help. However, there's a very real chance that you don't enjoy anything solely because you are neurotic (e. g. telling yourself "it's not worth it" rather than doing something and becoming bored). In that case, therapy can even help you enjoy life more (it's something called "behavioral activation")In any case, I definitely recommend therapy because it will reduce your suffering a lot (you're exactly the type of person that therapy can help in terms of how much they suffer)When it comes to how.much you enjoy life, therapy might or might not help. If there's a public park or a forest or something like that near where you live, taking walks can definitely help you enjoy life more, but it has to be long enough (as in if you walk around in nature for at the very least 30, preferably 60+ minutes on one day, you will enjoy life more the next day, possibly already in the evening)
>>31135082I just dont want to suffer anymore. And feel some happines at least.>>31135077Shitty implication. Women dont do anything for me anymore. I even stopped watching porn recently, im so unmoved by them.>>31135000Meds. You need them. And your shitty schizo posts were probably autodeleted.
>>31135101Thanks anon. Actually best post ITT. Kinda gave me some hope.
