this is such a stupid post and I think im gonna regret it later but wtv I don't know if its worth mentioning, but im f18, also mentally ill.(diagnosed bi-polar. now unmedicated, dont know if it'll add to my post but whatever)I spend alot of time online, like a concerning amount. I used to be able to balance my social life with my online life and keep them completely separate. but after some events with both I'm at a complete lossI lost my irl friends out of petty drama, people grow apart thats fine. in that same month I lost my online group too because of chronically online bullshit that divided the group completely. I'm aware discord users are just weirdos but it still hurt(mid october, 2025). Since then I feel like I've lost myself completely. I haven't spoken to anyone since. not on discord or irl.I literally spend all of my time in my room watching youtube videos and scrolling now. Its kind of chill, but I miss having people to talk to. I've noticed now when I try to make friends my brain makes the dumbest decisions known to man. I used to be able to just walk up to people and chat but I've literally regressed. like my heart sinks and I freeze up or I say something insanely unfunny. in an online sense I do the same thing?? sorta? like if a joke fails I literally die.What do you guys recommend I do?? Do any of you guys want to be friends?? How would you even become friends with someone on 4chan if the entire thing is anonymity?? im rambling sorry
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>diagnosed bi-polar. now unmedicatedPlease don't.Mood stabilizers are great long-term and usually don't interfere with anything.>Losing friendsYup. All too close to home. Mood shifts sucks.All of this you end up getting isolated. Mostly self-imposed.
>>34248153I'm sorry about the loss of your friend groups anon. I'm not a zoomer so online friendships make me think of neckbeards and permavirgins. Anyways, I know a lot of the generals have like their own discord groups. like for example on >>>/int/ I can tell all the Dutch general people know eachother same for the /film/ general on >>>/tv/ I'm guessing you could go to a general for something that interests you and ask for a discord group link or find one in the archives or something. Or you could go to >>>/soc/ there's a lot of extreme weirdos on there though.
>>34248186Ive used mood stabilizers, for some reason my body reacts horribly and I'm left feeling sickly. My mother doesn't like the idea of me taking meds anyway, so we stopped seeing the psychiatrist shortly after. I've just been using coping mechanisms my old therapist taught me when shit gets rough, but I've never self-Isolated for this long. Its been literal months. I don't know how long it'll take for this to go away.
>>34248196LOL, yeah honestly its probably for the best if you view online friendships that way. do you think they'll actually let me join their servers though? I dunno I've been thinking about it but im deathly nervous of getting clowned on those.
>>34248277I'm at exactly where you are - still dealing with the fallout of lost friendships 3 years ago. Only then i've gotten my diagnosis and now take 200mg LamictalThankfully i've been doing really well now. However, i've only regained one friend out of 6 i've completely lost.And even then we don't talk very often.I consider myself to charismatic and well-spoken. However, my life circumstances disallow me to get new friends. (Maybe my stubborness, pride and fear too)And i've been reluctant to make a new discord account ever since that last crashout.Besides, i'd have nowhere to go anyways.So i wander here. Because i get freedom to say mostly what i want. And maybe help some anons along the way with my knowledge acquire during my journey.Unfortunately we can't be friends, you're far too young. I'm 11 years older than you.If i were about 16~22 i'd add you in a heartbeat. Your experiences hit really close to home.Best of luck though!My final note: being bipolar sucks. It stole many years of my life. Please take it seriously. It's devastating how it lulls into a false sense of security and then shatters the very ground you walk on.
