>33M, given about 8 months to live by doc>spent last 3 months going places and doing things I wanted to do>going through advanced directives, last will shit with my lawyer>talking to the little family I have left>putting on a brave face for them>inside i'm a fucking wreck>tried becoming a christcuck, does little to help>don't want to canadian healthcare myselfI'm not ready to go. I have no idea what's awaiting me on the other side. It hurts, but I'm not ready for the pain to end. How do I man up and take my medicine?
>>34452242Person embracing dying within the next decade due to my piss weak immune system. Only guarantee in this life is that we will die. Life exists to form memories and those experiences will shape how we envision the afterlife. Not too dissimilar to your dreams.If you can find a religious path that grounds you then good. If not, then don't panic. Just remember that heaven is just unity with your conscious and to let go of all baggage.
>>34452242spend time in nature and observe the way of life
>>34452242It's okay to be afraid of dying, but do not be afraid of death. I've been around it up close plenty of times now, watched it all happen. I can tell you for a fact, that yes you won't be alive, but that's only because you will become more than alive. You aren't going to die into nothingness. You know this already, you were nothingness before your birth. And yet despite being nothingness before birth, life still happened. You still came into being. Not even the void of nothingness can stop the transcendental emergent phenomena of consciousness. You came form somewhere. And you are going somewhere. The architect of this Universe did not build staircases that lead nowhere. When I saw people die, all I saw was their body have life in it one minute and the next, it was as if the light inside switched off. And you can actually feel something leave the room, like the air gets sucked out of the room in a weird way. All that remains a body, but the person, the soul, they go somewhere. I am of sound mind and body OP. I was atheist most of my life, I know all the philosophical and ontological tricks in the book. I am telling you this as a statement of fact: God is real, you are not going to nothingness, you already had been nothing before birth yet you found life and reason tells you that you will not go into a void of nothing after. Your body will be gone, but that is all. You as a spirit will remain, untouched and very much alive eternally.
>>34452259AIDS>>34452242Cancer
>>34452281That obvious? >>34452259Sounds good. I'll try going back and remembering all I've done in this world. How they'll remember me. >>34452274I believe your experience, but I still don't think I'm ready for it yet. Maybe as the day approaches I'll feel differently.
>>34452404>I believe your experience, but I still don't think I'm ready for it yet. Maybe as the day approaches I'll feel differently.Don't count on it. No one is ready for it. Same is true with child birth, no man or woman is ready to watch that happen when becoming a parent no matter how many times they pretend they're ready. Death is the same, you won't feel ready. Accepting that you will not be ready is what will bring the paradoxical and bittersweet serenity. That and valium. Doctors will do kindness and offer that, it obliterates any anxiety or fear and gives a strong sense of calmness. My uncle went out due to cystic fibrosis of the lungs, died the same way someone would die if they'd been drowning under sea, lungs couldn't inflate. It should have been painful and distressing but he was calmer than a cow. So there's that to consider, the day of your death can be without fear of you should want it.
>>34452472>>34452404Oh and try and challenge the "brave face" you're wearing. If there's one thing I learned from being close to death as many times as I have, there is no satisfying release when the dying person pretends to be strong. Because his loved ones do the same, behind his or her back, when they walk out the room they mutter to themselves "we need to be strong for him/her. They're the ones who are dying. We need to all do our best to at least try to make their last memories super positive."Avoid this like the plague and demand honesty from your loved ones at all times. Show sadness, show fear, show anger or hurt. Because they feel it too, for you. And as messed up as that is, it's at least a shared experience a shared hurt a shared emotion, a connection. And people can't connect if they both mask up and pretend to be "strong". And the best thing a dying person can experience is connection before their time. So they don't have to feel alone when it happens. I failed my own mother doing that.
>>34452404>Sounds good. I'll try going back and remembering all I've done in this world. How they'll remember me.I'll make it a deliberate point to remember this thread and you OP. Even though we're strangers, I'll choose to remember what you trusted us anonymous chucklefucks with, your grievance of death and your resolve to die well. You got my respect bud. Not sure if we've ever unknowingly crossed words in threads before without knowing, if I ever offended, apologies man I was just shitposting. And for any times I encountered you in this site without knowing and you sent a meme and I laughed, thank you. And thanks for being part of this place man.
>>34452242>I have no idea what's awaiting me on the other side.Nothing is. You just aren't there any more. But that's not altogether a bad thing: if you don't exist, you can't be suffering
>>34452242https://youtu.be/2xGUDJtgPf4?si=X0b6v-qQTIO48LLS
>>34452242>tried becoming a christcuck, does little to help>christcuckDude...>I have no idea what's awaiting me on the other sideYou will sleep. Then you will be resurrected, punished for every misdeed you committed, and finally, eternal darkness, eternal death... That is, if you don't believe in him whom was sent.
>>34452513>if you don't exist, you can't be sufferingbut you also can't experience the little joys of life
>>34452259>Only guarantee in this life is that we will die.nah i hear in 9 months AI will have developed biological immoratlity for men
>>34452621>in 9 months AI will have developed biological immoratlity for men>>34452242>8 months to live by doc>spent last 3 months going placesToo late for the bus...
>>34452512Shit you're gonna make me start crying again. That means a lot. Thank you.>>34452609No need to go all fire and brimstone on me, it was tongue and cheek. I was baptized and confirmed as a kid but I hadn't gone to an actual church until my terminal diagnosis. >>34452621Haha, that would be just my luck.
>>34452638>No need to go all fire and brimstone on me,I'm just trying to tell you what's going to happen according to the Bible, I don't want to instill fear, I'm just telling you, if you're not saved, you will pay the exact amount you own and cease to exist. It's not as bad as people think, it's fair, and you won't suffer from anxiety not knowing what will happen.>I was baptized and confirmed as a kidThis does not save your soul.>I hadn't gone to an actual church until my terminal diagnosis.Going to man made churches also won't save your soul.
>>34452242>tried becoming a christcuck, does little to help>going on 4chan when you’re about to die Ahahaha die die die sshdhdhshlollllll
>>34452638>Shit you're gonna make me start crying again. That means a lot. Thank you.No problem mate. And do ignore the fire and brimstone poster, he's a part of a weird 'non-denominational' heretic pseudochurch. He haunts threads to delight in judging others and telling them they're going to hell all the time. Dude even has 666 on his post above lol Anyway OP, what things have you accomplished or wanted to accomplish in the time afforded to you? Anything on the bucket list you going to experience soon?
No hate like Christian love, am I right?
>>34452701>No hate like Christian love, am I right?Not everyone that says they're Christians are Christians, like this guy here >>34452684Not very Christ like, however, we're all bad people, whether Christians or not, that's the whole point of the gospel, that we cannot truly save ourselves
>>34452701>No hate like Christian love, am I right?Unfortunately you're right. Though it's been predicted by letters from St Paul, the charlatans and antichrists had been with the faith since the start. People demonizing others in Christ's name. Such a sadness.
>>34452691>Dude even has 666 on his post aboveYou say you're Christian, but you believe in these silly things, did you know this legend about the ending of the posts' ids comes from meme magick, right? You're not Christian, just like this guy here >>34452684You both hate God, and you hate the gospel, you rather OP go to hell than hear the gospel.
>>34452619>but you also can't experience the little joys of lifeYeah, but you won't care.
>>34452714Anon leave the thread and let the dying man have his space to talk about his experiences will you? You have all the time in the world to prosletyze and bother people. OP does not. His time is the most valuable resource to him at the moment and if you detail that you show complete disrespect. Go find another thread or something. He's already said he has begun rediscovering a relationship to God and Christ or tries to, that is good enough and also neither of our business that's between him and the big man upstairs. If you actually want to be sincere how about just chat with him for a bit, about life or something.
>>34452713>Though it's been predicted by letters from St Paul>People demonizing others in Christ's nameIsn't this what you're doing here?>>34452691>he's a part of a weird 'non-denominational' heretic pseudochurch>He haunts threads to delight in judging others and telling them they're going to hell all the timePaul also said not to be ashamed of the gospel, and Paul himself told people they were going to hell and not to call some people brothers and sisters. I said this before, you're lukewarm, you're ashamed of God, why not rip your Bible and declare yourself atheist?>>34452722>Anon leave the thread and let the dying man have his space to talk about his experiences will you?>His time is the most valuable resource to him at the momentYou don't believe in God, and you don't believe in the power of the gospel to save souls, you want OP to enjoy his remaining 6 months of life when he could enjoy an eternity with God. How can you be like this? That's a genuine question, really>>34452722>he has begun rediscovering a relationship to God and Christ or tries toHow so? Let's just ignore the part he says this:>>34452242>tried becoming a christcuck does little to help>christcuck>does little to help???OP is lost, and he needs to hear the gospel, you can keep on hating me in every thread I comment, it won't change my mind, because I want OP to be saved, I'm not ashamed of the gospel, I will preach in every place I go, be it 4chan, my work, or whatever.
>>34452242Just go to a cheap country like the Philippines, Vietnam or Brazil, max out your cards, and go fuck around if you still can travel that's something I would have done not point on being Christcuck or hanging around family
>>34452747You don't know what I believe. And I won't reveal that to you because again, I'd rather just listen to what OP has to say. And if you weren't so dense you'd be able to understand two things about OP's comments>Christcuck/does little to helpHe uses a buzzword because he is on 4chan. He uses it for parlance, do not take it literally. And he feels coming back to Christianity has done little to help alleviate his fear of death. If you took that as an insult against Christ you're a fool. Even Christ agonized and screamed on that cross, even Christ himself was so terrified of His own death He begged God to spare Him, the night before, He prayed and begged God to "Let this cup pass from Him". Which means "Please, I am too scared to be crucified, if it's possible can you please take away this responsibility."Even the Son of God was terrified to die. That's why I told OP it's okay to be afraid. He is not alone. Even Christ feared it. You can tell him these things in ways that don't need to smack gospel in OP's face. Talk to him like a fellow human instead of pretending to be a preacher.
>>34452722It's nothing new unfortunately. Had a family member like that when I was in the hospital. They aren't getting shit from me lmao.>>34452761Tempting, but my palliative care is at home.
>>34452404He's right, rationalism is firmly on the side of God's existence and the soul's immortality. Think of it this way: Nothing in the universe has ever or could ever fade away into nothingness. Any time something is destroyed, it merely breaks down into its constituent parts. Matter and energy are never lost, only transformed. Your consciousness is energy, and it's partless. There's nothing for it to break down into. So it can't be broken into parts and it can't be destroyed. That means it must continue in some form.
>>34452778You can get it overseas too if you love your family stay or otherwise party or ask your doctor to give you drugs and medical records and stay overseas
>>34452780Bingo. I forgot to mention that to OP. What is physical is a reflection of the spiritual. Physical matter cannot be created or destroyed, that's a Universal law of conservation. So even on the material physical level, eternity is guaranteed. And this applies to the spiritual.
1/2>>34452768>You don't know what I believeI do know, and it's definitely not God.>Even Christ agonized and screamed on that cross, even Christ himself was so terrified of His own death He begged God to spare Him, the night before, He prayed and begged God to "Let this cup pass from Him". Which means "Please, I am too scared to be crucified, if it's possible can you please take away this responsibility."You are as always framing things of the Bible to support your view, you don't want to know what the texts say, you want to tell others what it says in a way that supports your discourse.What you're referencing is Matthew 26:39>My Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as you will.Did you read it? Did you notice what you're ignoring and omitting? He does not end with fear. He ends with surrender.>Not as I will, but as You will.That is not a man trying to escape his duty. That is a man walking straight into it, with full awareness of the cost.You also confuse "the cup" with physical suffering, and in biblical language, "the cup" is not physical suffering. It carries the weight of judgment, burden, and sacrifice. Jesus is not merely afraid of pain, like a soldier fearing a wound. He is confronting the full gravity of what he is about to carry, AND he still accepts it.The other account is in Luke 22:44>And being in an agony he prayed more earnestly: and his sweat was as it were great drops of blood falling down to the ground.Yes, Jesus was in anguish, they were literally torturing him, but anguish is not the same as cowardice. Courage is not the absence of fear. It is choosing the path anyway.
2/2>>34452791The other account is about being forsaken is Jesus quoting Psalm 22>My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?This line is NOT despair in the empty sense, it is the opening of a Psalm that moves from suffering to vindication. To those who knew the Scriptures, it echoed a deeper message, not just abandonment. Look at the end of the same Psalm.>My praise shall be of thee in the great congregation: I will pay my vows before them that fear him.>The meek shall eat and be satisfied: they shall praise the Lord that seek him: your heart shall live for ever.>All the ends of the world shall remember and turn unto the Lord: and all the kindreds of the nations shall worship before thee.>For the kingdom is the Lord's: and he is the governor among the nations.>All they that be fat upon earth shall eat and worship: all they that go down to the dust shall bow before him: and none can keep alive his own soul.>A seed shall serve him; it shall be accounted to the Lord for a generation.>They shall come, and shall declare his righteousness unto a people that shall be born, that he hath done this.Does this look like being forsaken? Jesus knew the scriptures, he was quoting because he knew what was upon him. You literally tried to reduce everything to "Jesus was too scared and wanted out"
>>34452792>You literally tried to reduce everything to "Jesus was too scared and wanted out"He was scared and he wanted out that's why he asked. Yet he did it anyway because that's what courage is, being afraid yet still doing it anyway. You didn't need to write two pages of text to go over common sense. Please don't reply as I won't reply to you anymore
>>34452802>Please don't reply as I won't reply to you anymoreI accept your concession.
OP, just accept the gospel, just believe in Jesus' sacrifice as a sufficient propitiation for your sins. If you genuinely believe in Jesus, you have passed from death to life in Jesus Christ, amen.>John 3:16>For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.>John 5:24>Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that heareth my word, and believeth on him that sent me, hath everlasting life, and shall not come into condemnation; but is passed from death unto life.>Romans 3:23-25>For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;Being justified freely by his grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus:>Whom God hath set forth to be a propitiation through faith in his blood…>Romans 5:8-9>But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.>Much more then, being now justified by his blood, we shall be saved from wrath through him.>Ephesians 2:8-9>For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God:>Not of works, lest any man should boast.>Acts 16:30-31>Sirs, what must I do to be saved?>And they said, Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved…>1 John 4:10>Herein is love, not that we loved God, but that he loved us, and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins.
>>34452242If you're still around OP here's some fun questions for you:>When did you start browsing 4chan?>What boards did you browse the most in your time?>Favourite shitposts? Memorable moments in this Vietnamese Clay Pigeon Shooting forum?