Emo Anthony Forever

I'm Almost Okay Edition

it's over.

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>>34458521
It's never over! Believe in yourself!

I'm philosemitic and want a Jewish boyfriend.

CAN
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PUT
MY
BALLS
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JAW

Oh thank god

I'm losing my mind

As long as you wanted me too, I would go wherever with you. I'd leave absolutely everything in my life behind. I wouldn't go back for my clothes, my computer, my wallet, my IDs, any sentimental or useful thing I owned, I would just leave it all behind and not say goodbye to anyone, I wouldn't say a thing, I'd just disappear, I'd chuck my phone too, I'd just follow you to wherever and just start over. I'd figure it out. As long as I had you, everything else just seems so easy and inconsequential.

>>34458317
I love you. I want to say I’ll do anything for you. I really would. I’m not sure where I’ll go, but I will be at ease knowing you’re okay with the rest of them.

>>34458648
Did *you* post this you stypid ass hole. You browse 4chan frequently and i know itm youre such a manipulative liar. Starting to think that you are a fed. Or a time traveler fycking with my brain. Im at the motel 6 if you even care you dork

>>34458648
If this is my love, this is the sweetest thing you've ever said and I would do the same. I want nothing more than to be with you.

Everything is getting worse, music, movies, cartoons, video games, fast food and even the internet. Life nowadays feels so dull.

Am I the only one who loved using Windows Media Player from Windows 7 to listen to music?

>>34458714
Trvth nvke

>>34458722
the sick visuals made it super memorable for a whole generation.

>>34458722
I liked it too and this anon is right>>34458714

goddammit

okay everyone i am talking about needs to leave /gioyc/ right now. this is MY thread, you guys shouldn't even be here. don't read my posts

>>34458826
What if you're not talking about me

I had someone I know irl just lie to me. There was suspicions about them doing something real bad. I won't go into it. I asked them about it and they told me it wasn't a big deal, things were being over exaggerated. I believed them because I trust them as a friend. Then later on I find out that they were lying to me about how serious it was.
I trusted this person. I told them some heavy stuff to them because I trust them, and I find out they're a rat bastard.
They didn't do anything personally to me, but for some reason I feel I was backstabbed. It still hurts to find out the truth that my friend was not the person they claimed to be. I swear, you can't believe anything people say.

Everything and everyone else is just one big futile distraction. I thought I could get some enjoyment out of being angry and upset by things, I was hoping that the anger meant significance. Which made you less significant. But I notice I pretend to be angry over certain things. I just want to be mad. But I don't care. I don't care about them or what they think or how they feel. I don't care about all this...stuff. Man, what am I doing? I don't feel like me without you. I'm not really living life unless you're a part of it. I could be near you right now

>>34458826
This is MY neighborhood though

I feel like I let everyone down and wasted my youth and several people died from drug related causes because of me being emotionally unavailable, and like, I just don't know where to go from here. I'll do whatever it takes to get better. I'll do anything. I just can't see anything working. I love you all. Please don't give up. Please don't use dangerous drugs. Please try to make the world better. I'm sorry.

I can't believe she died. I can't believe how alone I am. I can't believe how many small moments could have made all the difference. I'm such an idiot.

>>34458826
I am pretty sure the guy I keep vaguely alluding to is in these threads which is fucked because it means he probably saw the posts where I confessed to cheating and lying and other vile shit I did behind his back. I don't think he realizes those posts are me though.

I'm sorry, anons. Please never give up. You don't know what people you might effect even if you don't think they love you.

yes i am aware this is all my fault and the problem was i hurt myself with my own delusions but i make it your problem. so what? i will keep doing it

I really think the only thing you can do to get out of your situation is kill yourself. Fill your car with cement blocks and drive off into a lake. I don't see what else you could do.

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I'm so resonating with pic related right now

sheep in wolf's clothing acting like i'm the hunter but i'm just acting in self defense. i am NOT the one.

i'm sorry but i just laugh at the things you say. it's just funny what things you are stuck on and find so serious. are you struggling?

i cant believe we're getting married. shit doesn't seem real at all, how did it even come to this, i know a lot of external factors are at play here but is what we have the real thing?

the way some of these guys act makes you want to just slap their mom

>>34458937
Ur a pathetic psycho for using 4chan to communicate with someone who doesn’t care about u. Them setting boundaries worked. U wanting them dead shows they’re above you in status and spirit.

>>34458983
>using 4chan to communicate with someone who doesn’t care about u
yeah who would do that? that's so embarrassing haha

>>34458988
He does it because she blocked him everywhere. He can use burner accounts and outside numbers, but he knows from the past that she doesn’t give a fuck about him because he’s a loser. That’s why he wants her dead. He’s throwing a narcissistic rage. His ego was hurt by her.

>>34458950
U provoked the person because ur a bully, they reacted and exposed u for being the aggressor, now ur playing the victim by saying ur acting out of self defense when in reality we all know ur the one to blame for the domino affect. Take some self accountability. We all know ur a sociopath.

i saw him post on 4chan just now and his post didn't get any (you)s and it made me lose feelings

I can tell it's you and I can tell you're trying to hide that it's you by changing up your typing style.

>>34459017
Psycho u just exposed urself bc that’s what u did with every girl u had a falling out with. We all kno. Stop playin urself. U lost every single time now ur left with crows feet and stds.

i am experiencing symptoms of "empathy" right now. you just don't know the whole picture. feels bad that i have to witness you blame yourself for everything. i decided it's better for you to have this version of reality, to believe that it was your fault for losing someone like the me you see me as. it's my gift to you. oh man if you knew what i was hiding from you

A man is only as loyal as his options. Never forget

>>34459017
Schizo. Your guilty conscience is getting to you.

i think you and i both know that occam's razor answers what we're both thinking. maybe you can't admit it to me which is fine, i'll say it for you: you just aren't that into me. you don't love me. you don't even like me. it's not a big deal. i wish you'd stop trying to complicate everything in an attempt to seem deep or make this poignant.

I'll never fully get over letting her down and I can never fix it now. I could have saved her but I was such a immature coward.

>>34459063
>I can never fix it now
You could if you just gave a shit
>I was such a immature coward
You don't have to be now

>>34459068
She's dead. There's nothing I can do. I'm broken. I'm an idiot. I'll never be okay now and I don't deserve to be. Thanks for answering though. God is so silent during times like these.

>>34459070
>She's dead
? What happened? How did you find out? Is this the same girl you were talking about in the last thread?

i'm sorry mom and dad

>>34459074
Yup. Just found out. Years ago. I didn't even realize how much time had passed. I think I realized years ago and was so traumatized that I just blacked it out til now. She OD'd. She was actually a great person and very successful in STEM but had a traumatic childhood, and I don't know if I could have saved her but I could have made things so much better. She reached out, I think, and I didn't know it was her, and I thought I had time to figure things out, and I didn't. And now I feel probably worthless for the rest of my life. And this is going to take so much therapy to fix that I'd be an old man before I could ever feel worthy of love again. I ruined both our lives, it seems. It was her family's fault this happened, and I don't want to talk about why, but I hate myself for not doing anything in time. I hate myself so much. Sorry. I can't stop crying and being angry.

I hate myself so much

I didn't want to fall in love with you in the first place. Why are you doing this to me? I feel like you're a demon or a ghost sent to haunt me. You reflect my own flaws back to me. You remind me of how much I truly hate myself. But you make me love myself too. I can't handle when you're around me and I can't handle when you're gone either. What am I supposed to do? I want to run away like always but I don't even know where to hide anymore. You are genuinely making me crazy, I keep thinking you're everywhere I look, like in this thread right now.

Dear wannable street racers of Philly:

Please kindly fuck off. Your loud af jet engines in your car is disrupting people's sleep...because they actually have jobs in the early morning. It's fucking stupid to practice donuts and other stunts on the public road with cars around all for shitty tiktok videos. What if you accidentally lose control and crashed into someone's car? Oh you wait you don't give a shit! You just speed off at 60 mph on a 35 mph road without leaving info. No wonder there's so many cops patrolling the area. No wonder we're getting speed bumps and cameras all over the place. No wonder my insurance is over $4k per year. It's because your dumbasses run red lights and stop signs.

Signed,
Grumpy old dude

>>34459083
Jesus Christ I am so sorry. You are living my worst nightmare. I'm sorry you have to go through this

I'm sorry. I'll try to just do good things with my time left on Earth.

>>34459094
I don't think I'm ever going to be fully okay again after this, and it feels like my fault.

>>34458692
I only found this thread just now out of interest because you mentioned that thread yesterday night.
I haven't been using 4chan since you literally sent me the thread via email in many years.

The fact you're at the motel 6 worries me, I found out via the banking app around 30 minutes ago. Why won't you answer my calls or texts, you said you would be an hour or so and just needed that hour away from me and would be back.
I miss you and love you so much please come back
I love you.
Please be safe and come back.

>think i died
>immediately move on to another girl

Ohh you thought I died yeah I get it you needed fresh pussy to wipe away your tears. How the fuck are YOU the one angry at ME because I SURVIVED??? It's MY fault for LIVING AND THEREFORE FUCKING UP YOUR CHANCES WITH HER????????

>>34459017
the schizoest of them all

i found out something about you that makes me angry but i can't reveal to you that i know about this because if i did it would also reveal that i'm also a piece of shit. i'm mad as fuck that i'm the one going through this and having to contain my rage though. as if i don't wipe your ass enough for you already

>>34458826
No

I can tell that it's you and not only are you changing up your typing style you are also adding new info in an attempt to create confusion and distance from me. Sometimes you will write letters and leave initials and you put the wrong initials even. I know it's you

>>34458874
What did he do

>>34458906
Its not the drugs bub

>>34458920
He does. Get anxious

fuck you and your useless friends and family who are too afraid to call you out on your bullshit too. funny how you and everyone you know is miserable

>>34458937
Who hurt your feelings

Is my life over, anon? Is it all just pain, shame, guilt, loneliness, etc, from here on out. Claude seems to think so.

>>34458967
you a man or a woman

I think it was her family's fault and she was already on the road to ODing before they tried to get back in contact with me. That's what I want to believe.

>>34458950
Too edgy bro

will you leave me if you knew i sucked dick in my teens

>>34458931
You seem fun at parties

We barely knew each other. She latched onto me as a possible saviour. I probably would have loved her though. Who knows. Maybe she would have died anyway even if I contacted her right away.

>>34458983
To be fair tons of demon pos have status

>>34459170
i overdosed once because it made me feel like i was with him again. it could very well be true anon

>>34458988
The wizard knows all

>>34458997
Oh shit tell us more

>>34459154
and you know what? i'm ENJOYING it too.

>>34459002
Do you take accountability for your poopoo anon

>>34459033
Say that nigga name

>>34459193
That makes me feel like she died to feel like she was okay or with me and that kind of makes me feel guilt again. Claude is kind of helping because basically I wasn't ready to believe a girl like her(besides getting addicted to drugs) could love me, so I hesitated. I was raised to believe that love wasn't something I should expect, and I should be suspicious of it when available. I changed, but too late. I kind of feel like I never deserve love again now though. Ultimately I wasn't the person she needed at the time, but I still hate myself and wonder what could have been. Sorry to rant.

>>34459039
You did some freaky sh huh tell us

yeah i'm not seeing the forbidden love angle you keep trying to spin this as you pathetic avoidant narc loser

>>34459033
Your jus mad bc im hot and sexy and you smell like musty brussel sprouts

>catch someone cheating
>THEY start crying

How can anyone be this pathetic

>>34459044
Inside you are two hoes

>>34459060
I never loved you not since thailand

Her family didn't tell me she was like weeks away from dying when they contacted me. They waited til there was no other option before contacting me. I'm still a retard but I thought I had time to get to know her longer. It's still so terrible she's just gone forever. And there's like 0% chance I ever have a chance with a girl like her again anyway.

>>34459076
Cheers up sport

Nevermind about M. For C I shall be the greatest man there'll ever live.

>>34458983
fuck boundaries

>>34459088
Touch grass

I am attracted to one specific Tall Red Haired Woman who has prominent front teeth and prominent clavicle.

She is perfect.

>>34458692
Which one blood

>>34459241
And I love her. Not only attracted to her. But I love her. I love her so much.

>>34459107
Im smokin crack with hookers you wouldn't understand

>>34459129
Speak your truth sis

I want to throw a private funeral for her and think of a way I can do something she would like or honor her or something. I want to find and save a woman just like her if possible. I don't want to give up.

>>34459138
I know it's you, mr. schizo

>>34459152
Were p happy ngl

>>34459253
>I want to find and save a woman just like her if possible
Oh ho ho what did I say right here >>34459110 It's always the sentimental fuckers

>>34459240
grass aint shit nigga

>>34459217
Now I fr wanna know the tea

Who am I kidding. That was a fluke. I'll never attract a girl like that again. I guess all I can do is try and wait to die knowing I ruined my life.

>>34459260
I checked and verified. She is dead.

>>34459265
dumb mfer thinks it's forbidden because he's a man and i'm a woman and it's too different. honestly i don't know what he's thinking

>>34459224
That's why im here baby forget abt him

>>34459238
Ew nigga go pee somewhere

>>34459264
Fuck grass ni

>>34459269
Ohh he wants you to peg em huh

Should I just end myself? Seems faster than just waiting to die. I can't believe this is the timeline I live in.

>>34459299
No dummy

jesus christ why did you put me through this? how can you do this to me? do you know i have to live with the knowledge that this happened to me for the rest of my life? do you know how much this has changed me? i'm going to 80 one day still crying over this even if i never see you again. so so so many people you will never get to meet will know about what you've done to me because i will be talking about and thinking about this forever. good for you that you can just be like well i wish you the best but i won't forget you. i want to kill myself because of YOU

>>34459309
What happened? He's not worth feeling that way for