Who do you live for in your country? I recently realised that I'm trying to be perfect at everything because during my youth, my (single) mom would constantly yell and shout at me for not being good enough or, in her words, not using my "full potential". By having/working on many achievements (career, education, athleticism, looks, hobbies) at once I'm trying to prove to her and others that I am in fact ambitious and using that potential. I'm constantly (even on 4chan) farming for compliments and validation, because it reassures me that I'm doing good. Even my shy and submissive personality I developed because it gets people to like me and sympathise with me, and it doesn't offend anyone, so avoids confrontation (works splendidly)I don't see any value in myself and my life besides being successful and impressing others. I think I don't even have any aspirations or personality of my own. Does this happen in your country?
>>24438902you probably overanalyze everything.
didn't read your post jungfrauanon
>>24438902Eines Tages wirst du merken, dass es absolut nichts gebracht hat, sich für andere krumm zu machen
>>24438902>my "full potential"Ha. The system is violent and absurd, huh? Good job on your achievements, now achieve your own dreams. And if you don't have a dream, then rest more until you figure it out.We can't live your life, you're on your own and that's a good thing.
>>24438902I live for myself and i'll die for myself
>>24438902I'm practically the opposite where no one actually had any expectations of me and I could do whatever I want. So I ended up as an underachieving loner with a massive ego built on literally nothing. I think you guys call it "Wohlstandsverwahrlosung" or something like that.
>>24438907Very stunning and brave.
>>24438909das rite
>>24438902>I recently realised that I'm trying to be perfect at everything because during my youth, my (single) mom would constantly yell and shout at me for not being good enough or, in her words, not using my "full potential". By having/working on many achievements (career, education, athleticism, looks, hobbies) at once I'm trying to prove to her and others that I am in fact ambitious and using that potential. I'm constantly (even on 4chan) farming for compliments and validation, because it reassures me that I'm doing good. Even my shy and submissive personality I developed because it gets people to like me and sympathise with me, and it doesn't offend anyone, so avoids confrontation (works splendidly)I'm sorry to hear that, anon. Do you have any siblings you are close to and that that are less demanding than your mother? What is your relationship with them like? What about close friends?
>>24438902>Who do you live for in your country?>I don't see any value in myself and my life besides being successful and impressing others. I think I don't even have any aspirations or personality of my own. Does this happen in your country?No one, i let myself go and basically do the least amount of work possible, it's a sad existence, i just wake up and distract myself until it's time to sleep again >momMy parents were absent and abusive respectively and when the abuse reached critical mass i became what i am today. It sucks, i hate everyone, they all only talk to me when they need help, i think im losing my mind
