i can no longer understand how a man could decide to transition. how a man could think they’d be better off as a woman, how they actually _are_ a woman. i do not understand how someone could have the willpower or capacity to switch genders.maybe i was never really trans in the first place, but i had intense feelings for 10+ years, but since medically transitioning, i can’t understand what i, or anyone else in the same boat, was thinking. how could somebody actually commit and go through with this?
>>35492995Bill Clinton got to fuck that
>>35492995>boymodingthen you didn't actually transition
>>35492995you
I don't understand how you CAN'T transition. Being a woman is just Mr. Pretending to be a man was far harder. It's just that simple.You probably have shame and internalized transphobia.
>>35492995Spock could say "aghhgh captain the cock cage you put me in was insufficient to stop the strength of my #vulcanCOCK and the plastic exploded. It was extremely painful, logically we should attempt using transparent aluminum next time" and then complain that the writers are too WOKE#GOWOKEGOBROKE#STARCOCK#CAGETRECK#PONFARRSpock would be so GAY LOOKING IN THIS SISSY DRESS!!!???! Live long and prosper? More like take long (dick!!!!) and CUM A LOT#WHAT THE HECK???And spock agrees that maybe it is illogical (Lotic) like you said but he is half human so he decides he will be a trans half of the time but not at work but then dr Bones accidentally mentiones that she (spock) is on HRT (titty skittles) to Uhura and she outs her (spock) to everyone and spock cries then kirk finds her and fucks her sexy style like outback barbecue sexy (if (you) know what I mean winky)#sexyspock
>>35492995I mean for me it was either transition or commit suicide because I was so dysphoric. While early transition was very difficult, things got easier over time as the dysphoria was alleviated. I live a pretty happy life now, and I never, ever regret making the change
>>35492995you will never be a man and your pronouns are she/her
>>35493012okay but how do I stop doing that?
>>35493012the cage is comfy and i know the wifi password>>35493032>I mean for me it was either transition or commit suicide because I was so dysphoricthat was me before transition. that's still me when i think about the future. but in the present...>>35493020>Being a woman is just Mr. Pretending to be a man was far harder. idk i bet it's like being retarded vs pretending to be retarded
>>35493067>that was me before transition. that's still me when i think about the future. but in the present...Girlmoding and actually living life as a woman is what eventually stopped this for me.
>>35493078i tried girlmoding for a month i didn't like it it made me feel bad and embarrassed
>>35493161It's honestly just something you have to keep doing until it gets easier
you have to be indoctrinated into it>>35493020"internalized transphobia" is a good example of cult-speak, they want to you believe concepts like it and "dysphoria" are real because accept those
>>35493207i've heard people say similar things about repression
>>35493161Why did you feel sad and embarassed? Did people say something or was this purely internal?How have your family and friends reacted?
>>35492995reminder that natalie mars started transitioning at 30
>>35493324The difference being that when repression gets easier it's because you're numb and dead inside, and when you transition it gets easier because you're actually able to live your life
>>35493410>Why did you feel sad and embarassed?becoz i don’t like being the weird tranny>How have your family and friends reacted?family is unhappyfriends acted supportive but i would be transphobic if i was them >>35493433desu after going through that month i wished i was numb
How many of you retards did vote for the Orange Buffoon that's about to end up raped in jail?
I'm at 3 years 7 months now and starting to feel similar... Like it's a joke that I thought I could ever be a woman or happy. I also accepted that no one's obligated to accept me or my identity so I still refuse to come out to anyone because it's all pointless
>>35492995
Because you are fighting your nature, you cannot find inner peace like this…
>>35493763i feel like i'm fighting my nature if i try to girlmode
>>35493847can't you just wear women's jeans and women's shirt and women's hoodies or whatever
>>35493847Made for extensive boyremoval
>>35493467>the weird trannyWhat do you mean by this? Do you think all trans people are weird or you specifically? Why?>family not supportiveHow much do you think this contributed?>i'd make fun of meAdd it to the pile of your obvious self-hatred. I'm not sure why you do though.
>>35492995>i can no longer understand how a man could decide to transition. how a man could think they’d be better off as a womani know i'm not better off, but i'd rather be some weird mishmash of femininity and masculinity then continue watching myself decay. puberty ravaged my body and when i finally had the ability to get hrt it was literally that or suicide. maybe it's different for you but it's this or death lol.
>>35493870i could, but i can't identify as a woman>>35493911>Do you think all trans people are weird or you specifically? Why?well if the trans people don't pass than they weird. but i tried going from male to female in front of people that know me which is weird>How much do you think this contributed?a lot>Add it to the pile of your obvious self-hatred. I'm not sure why you do though.because i'm a normal person trapped in a tranny's body
>>35494133Over thinking self elevating despiser of the body. Quit all these thinky thoughts man. Lean in and listen to the hum of the machine. What is in your guts? In which direction are you pulled? You have a plan, but you lack the will required to make it manifest. The doubt exist to delay action. You know what you want so do it.
>>35494224>You know what you want so do it.i simply want to be normal
>>35494257Why?
>>35494283normal is good
>>35494307Why do you say that? Normal is arbitrary. Its unofficial and subjective no? You and me have different normals. What about this universal normal is good? Just that its easier?
>>35494342normal fits infitting in is good
>>35493025medsyou need meds
>>35494368How old are you? Why do you get out of bed in the morning? What force animates you?
>>3549440923workthe people around me get mad when i don't animate myself
>>35494430Hypothetically in a space devoid of others, what would you want to do? Have you tried shaking your life up a bit? Some long term travel, a new state idk something. You seem aimless. What do you want to get out of your time on this rock?
How to Natalie Mars/Pornstarmaxxx?
>>35494468>Some long term travel, a new state idk something.sounds expensive and i don't think my parents would approve>What do you want to get out of your time on this rock?i don't really want to be here
>>35494496Why do you care what your parents think? You sound like a serf.
>>35494525i live in their house rent-free
>>35494540Do you have a therapist? Does living in someone’s house make them your freakin king? You know you’re old enough to decide these things on your own. You’re a conscious actor bb. Like it or not your life is in your hands.
>>35492995>want to be a woman>permanently anxious, embarrassed, and demoralized about having to be a tranny as a half-measureHonestly I get it
>>35494592>Do you have a therapist?i started seeing one again but i think it might be bad idea>You know you’re old enough to decide these things on your own.it's scary
>>35494653You need 300mg of DBAB and some goals dude. Keep seeing the shrink and actually try to do what they say. You sound depressed and aimless.
>>35494702>DBAB?i did many years of once a week or more sessions and nothing really came of it
>>35494726Dont be a bitch lol. Marineism. You need to find within yourself the energy to achieve your aims.
>>35494764what if aim is to kill self?
>>35494777Thats what the DBAB is for, and I don’t think thats your aim. I think your own guilt and fear crush anything that resembles a desire before you can act. Trapped in a cycle of thoughts and inaction. The thinking provides the excuses needed to justify further inaction. Self imposed restrictions to avoid experimenting and getting hurt.
>>35494855i'm not sure if it's a good idea. parent's will probably make me feel bad.too tired for real aims alsohonestly i don't see how being a tranny would improve my life now that i really think about it
>>35494902The gender stuff should be low priority for you. You need to like get yourself sorted first anyways. You need to get your own apt, job, n circle. Find some goals to chase and hobbies to practice. I’ll also add that what you think about ur gender angst is largely unimportant. That stuff is in the domain of feelings. You cant reason yourself into or out of it. You just gotta explore your feelings and see what sticks.
>>35494964i don't know if those things are possible due to economy i'm too scared to check for myself
>>35495021You just gotta send it. Everything in life is a coin flip.
>>35495053but when bad things happen that's bad and i don't want to risk that
>>35493763Do not underestimate my ability to wreck underestimate peace and create inner war.
>>35495072Bad things are inevitable and trying to avoid them at all cost just keeps you bad at dealing with them. It also prevents you from experiencing most good.
>>35495111i have $7k in my account should i move out with nest egg or keep saving and living with parents and blow it all on ffs?
>>35495139you should finish your degree and move out when you get a real job and make real money
>>35495139My disc is Gulagsky and I gotta ask s’more questions before I answer that ;~; That is not a bad starting point money wise tho
>>35495150i got my degree almost a year ago now but i don't think i learned anything so i gave up on getting a "real" job>>35495161added
>>35495171>i got my degree almost a year ago now but i don't think i learned anything so i gave up on getting a "real" jobyou can definitely get a job with a cs degree.
>>35495178>you can definitely get a job with a cs degree.tell me how then
>>35495188apply
>>35495240i've tried that
>>35495249ok well keep trying until you get somethingyou're clearly doing nothing, you have endless time to keep applying to jobs over and over for months until it works
>>35495262i don't like it thoand what do i do if i do eventually get a job? i don't know how to code
>>35495286>i don't know how to codechatgpt
>>35495323why even hire me then?
>>35495342because you probably know a lot more about computer science after 4 years of college than you think
>>35495372i took me 5 years to get my 3 year degree. no internship, no portfolio. i offer nothing>>35495360scary
>>35495400stop making excuses for yourself
>>35495404doesn't matter if i make excuses or not, no one hired me
>>35495434you stopped tryingapplying for jobs is zero work. You only think it's hard because you're mentally ill
>>35495457i hab to tweak my resume EBRYTIME
>>35495477that takes like 5 minutes
>>35495483it adds up quickthat's time i could better spend gooning
>>35495494I don't believe you spend that much time masturbating
>>35495499i wish i did
>>35495573mefmoder is cute enough to be a trad wife anyways just needs to not have crazy standards
>>35492995reminder
>>35492995Heyyyy bestie, this is what all the “cunt” transmedicalists and truscum were saying about no dysphoria “trans” people ruining their lives and discrediting their entire suffering. They outright said “listen up trenders, this aint some anime cartoon fantasy world on tumblr, your life will be worse but your dysphoria will be better so in a sense, your life will be better; IF YOU DO NOT HAVE GD, DO NOT TRANSITION!!!” They were very clear on this lol
>>35493032Which is why transmedicalists say GD is needed because otherwise there is no life threatening/damaging condition that justifies full insurance coverage.
>>35493433That is the key for people with GD (this includes some professional reppers who think euphoria is not dysphoria manifesting who later notice GD lol but a bunch never have any dysphoria, just pure “catgirl goes prrr” lol) as alleviating that lets their mental health and feelings become “normal” so even if they deal with transphobia and loss of male privilege or family or whatever, their life is better because they get joy and genuine interaction. This is another thing truscum got run out of mainstream internet lgbt communities over - they said “all you people thinking transition is a depression fix to the rest of your life being shitty are in for a rude awakening.”
>>35494368Since You AreFilledWith ShameSkinny tranny faggots fit in in Seattle and are normal! Lol
>>35495249Go get a master’s or second degree away from your parents in a more enlightened area where you can take out loans to fund life (and if frugal, help with transition) and transition before going into the job market lol Frfr job market bad now for cs, go and make yourself more employable with a cs/stats/math master’s/second degree or mba or something.
>>35495400Surely you can get tech adjacent jobs (pure IT) if you arent in the top x% that get swe out of undergrad.
>>35495494Or better yet, GROOMING! Lol
>>35493025anon i love you please put a baby in me
>>35496209do you think bill knows
>>35498328anon... bill was the reason
>>35497840>>35497852it’s been the plan to get some certs but ya i’m lazy lol>>35497809but nobody likes seattle>>35498385lol
>>35493025Did not read and you’re retarded but God do I have a little crush on you
