Anyone else experience karma?>first year of highschool>complete self-loathing, chistian guilt closet bifag>really close friends with the local lesbian>summer break>lesbian is now a trans guy and is no longer okay with our usual edgy jokes>this is clearly too far for 15 year old me to tolerate>goin ghost>convince myself I never knew this person>rarely see former friend, but he's still super nice to me>stopfuckingbeingnicetomewecantbefriends>reach end of highschool and start feeling weird about myself>realise that i'm feeling gender dysphoria>repress>start dating a girl>"sorry, anon. I think I'm only into women">I'm really not a girl, I guess>repress>continue with my life and encounter chasers and closet fags who think fucking girly boys makes it not gay for years and assume these are the only people who would want me if I transitioned>repress>more time passes and more things happen and I can no longer repress>can't actually transition because of transphobic family>only friend might be transphobic>said friend might also want to fuck meI'm 24 now and I'm the most depressed I've been in years. I have nothing. I just want to be me. I want my friend back. I'm so sorry, I hope I never made you feel this alone
>>35510052>>lesbian is now a trans guy and is no longer okay with our usual edgy jokes >go ftm>instantly become more fembrained than before
