>could have dated a tranny friend >i was with someone else when I had the opportunity >I don't like foids really but this tranny does something to me idk>think I have some brain rot from being a former /pol/lack but I'm not racist honestly I'm not>think just white top black bottom mlm porn gets me off and maybe it's a neuron mixup that I want to do that to a minority mtf idk>just really want to fuck, beat, and dominate thin, weak, curly haired bottom bitches>she gets with someone else though >she's happy>I'm happy for her>they break up>flirt and joke a bit>shoot the shot >doesn't work >she wants to be friends but idk I can't get over wanting to fuck and hold her >try to ignore her and can't for like a week>finally yesterday I was able to get off to my normal husstuss fantasies>trying not to talk to her>very hard but don't want to keep wallowing in the feeling of rejection but also don't want to be her friend that wants to fuck her pretending like I don't God at least I'm starting to go back to straight hussie shit in my fantasies. maybe it was a good thing it didn't work out cause I'm deeply homophobic and only like men normally. some random transbian crush kind of gross I must admit. don't know if I'd even like it or just psyopped myself into wanting to try it out. so tttt, how do I get over her completely? she doesn't want me back and idk what I even want from her now. idk why stay friends if it bothers me so much to think about her. like if I could just stop feeling that way maybe we could be friends but I feel that way. I'd give her everything she wanted and all I want to do is hold her and make her happy but it's never gonna happen.
>>35510697I asked her why she doesn't just block me cause I already know I've been annoying coomershe said she wants to stay friends and it'd make her sad to lose a friendwhat? don't you think you have already in an abstract sense? cause *i* don't want you as a friend. I want to be your top. I seen everything you said about your unhappiness with other partners. all those things you wanted out of a relationship are all the things *i* wanna give you.
>>35510757asked her what she thinks about work. she reluctantly will work but wishes she didn't have to. I asked her if you didn't what would you do? games and travel and stuff. shoot girl if I had my way I would never make you work, in fact I'd prefer you didn't cause I wanna come home in my cowgirl boots and hat and women's flannel and see you smile when I get home. you said they never held you and always made you hold them. if I got ahold of you, you'd never even remember what it was like to feel that way. sucks being 5'11? I'll make you feel small and weak Bae. ex cheated on you? monogamous, never cheated in my life and would never dream of it. I only want you. fuck I can't even masturbate lately without thinking about you and I don't even want to necessarily. I wanna stop this and move on seeing how you don't want me. stay friends? I think that's gonna hurt me maybe a bit you know. maybe it'd be fun for you but I'm gonna feel weird thinking about you and being aroused by you. especially a type of way I don't feel like I feel voluntarily.
>>35510781talking to the void. idk tttt. I just don't know. every day I do this just feels so stupid like why I cannot just stop giving a shit. I think maybe it's starting to pass but every time I talk to her ugh. I try not to talk to her and it just makes me think about talking to her. I'm such a retarded fuckin male brained tranny.
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