please help i don't want this...i just hit 6months hrt and reality is starting to set in.with my hair grown out i just look like an 6'3 incel (the ugly kind) now and i've realized that i'm ngmi despite what all the hugboxxers told me.getting on hrt was a huge relief, but lately dysphoria has started going crazy.especially the thought of having to manmode for the next like 8 years (reliant on parents for uni so no honmoding and too ugly to be a cute boymoder)i'll never stop hrt, but i'm picking up all the selfharming habits again that i used to have while violentely repping and i hate.but i don't see it getting any better for atleast a decade, it just feels so easy to let myself fall into that dark pit again and give up on myself, when i'm fighting impossible oddsi have no friends or relationship to live/improve for and i don't think i'll really find any in the mental state i'm in.might do something stupid
18 is the worst age to start hrt!
