THIS IS A CURSE. Im the opposite of a chaser. I try to avoid trannys irl

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i still want to be a hot anime girl but with bigger tits than picrel

>>41610702
im too poor to eat out so i mostly eat rice and beans with sour cream and salt

>>41610883
I don't think I've ever even seen a tranny irl, besides maybe one or two boomerhons. Where the fuck are people here seeing them on a regular basis?

>>41611779
why are there more isekai anime about turning into an anime girl
female pov scenes make me cry

>>41610702
all fast food is greasy and nasty, I can't stand it

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>>41612106
i want to look down and see my own hot anime tits and legs

>>41611971
I saw a group of cute trans women at my local lefty bar once and it broke me. I haven't been since, at least not at night/weekends

>>41611971
Maybe it's my area. My sister was roommates with one and my friend's twin is one. Also see them on dating apps and cons/fairs

>>41612421
No im way too straight to transition

>>41608748
>shouldermogged by everyone here
lmao guess the tranny thoughts aren't that crazed

im empty inside and want to be dead

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hrt didn't make me pretty but at least I look like an aging femman goblin

realizing the estrogen just made me look the same but now im fat with tits and ill never be a cute twink again

I've come to the realization that I'm not even trans nor a repper. I've just come to associate being male with anguish, despite that not being the case. I'm a male, and that's all I'll ever be. Might as well make the most of it

>>41612730
estrogen definitely staggered your masculinization that comes with aging though you don't see it because you've gotten used to how you look

>>41611779
Literal perfect body

>>41610702
for me it's the plain roast beef with a fuckton of horsey and arby's sauce slathered in
i actually had arby's yesterday after passing my driving test :)

>>41612730
cyproterone made me gain a lot of weight but I was also deep into lethargically bedrotting too
I still have stretch marks rip

>>41611788
girl get yourself some damn spices

>>41613521
Spices are expensive and run out quick tbhon
Best flavour for poorfags is onions and tomato concentrate

>>41612742
yeah probably true but still i look masculine

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this shit makes me spiral
>2017 -> 2025
giwtwm

>>41612363
isekai about being reincarnated as a woman is more and more common and somehow also the only isekai that actually plays on their past life

>>41613928
Theres still time for you

>>41614212
I'm in my 30s
It's over

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>>41613928
notice that he was already very androgynous other than his balding hair. if you are not already androgynous dont bother trooning out.
THIS GOES FOR ALL OF YOU

I WISH I WAS A WOMAN

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beef and cheddar. curly fries. a dr pepper.

>>41614429
truth nuke that pinkpillers cant handle

What does it mean if I only want to transition when high or tripping on LSD/shrooms?

>>41611779
>>41612363
youre all really agp to a concerning degree. kinda gross!
i just want to be myself but as a normal woman

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inviting reppers to the server. it's more of a place for reppers to hangout. the entire focus isn't about repping.
https://discord.gg/UVf2Srd6
https://discord.gg/UVf2Srd6
https://discord.gg/UVf2Srd6

i'm thinking a lot about one guy
i don't love him
he's not bad. i want to compliment him and make him blush. but i don't feel like i like him inside

>>41613928
Is that a wig?

>>41614429
I transitioned because I thought this, but I was just a little weird and androgynous looking and had a late puberty.
You have to try crossdressing or something prior to know. If you pass maybe 80% of the time like that then you'll be fine

>>41614979
Yeah, all there pics have one

>>41611971
I live in a coastal city. I think there's about 9 or so here

>>41615227
>You have to try crossdressing or something prior to know.
i think a section of drag queens literally do drag whether intentionally or unintentionally to basically see how people see them in a feminine appearance as a kind of soft launch or something,

>>41614429
literally all the timelines that go viral on reddit are like this. Diamond or oval face shape, gay alien skull, soft cheeks, narrow shoulders, 5'8-ish. I've never seen a good ogrecel timeline.

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>>41615418
drag is different but the femboy/trap subculture definitely

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hrt is like a magic girl potion

>>41615577
fat george santos to man with long hair

>>41615557
>evangelion tattoo
she had to have known

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>>41615577
Not for you

why are we posting pics of people who it is not over for in the people who it is over for thread

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>who it is not over for
its still over for them. Just look at them.

>>41615834
are you joking >>41615557 is grim

>>41614689
>i just want to be myself but as a normal woman
i want to be myself but as a normal woman
and woman me wants to be an anime girl

>>41616047
that's true

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>>41614689
both are unachievable, why not dream big?

>>41615952
she looks happy at least. and i'm assuming it's early on for her

tfw transitioned only to become more miserable

>>41615788
Could Shinji have trooned out and lived the rest of his days as Kaworu's loving housewife?

>>41616191
Trooning only brings everything to the front of your mind. If you rep you can push it all down. If you give in to the brainworms you end up realising how fucked up your body is and then there's no way back.

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>>41616276
yes

>>41616351
shinji take the fucking injections or rei will have to do it again

>>41616396
sex with larry in the basement

>>41616289
exactly. it would have been better to keep it as a what if. I can't even look in the mirror anymore but before I thought I was cute

>>41616575
I wish I could have just stayed a young teen fantasising about being cute forever. I'd never have to commit to anything or be confronted with the realities of life. I'd just stay in that hopeful 'what if' for all eternity.

>>41610702
take your HRT, retards

>>41617520
i did but iwnbaw

>>41618056
you need some boyremoval

>>41610702
We dont have arbys where I live, is it good. Should it come here? I already have subway i can go to if i need sick time off work

>>41610702
>What's your favorite menu item at Arby's?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hUz6Zr0TFAg

>>41617520
HRT won't make me a furry woman.

making a repper server in the afterlife for posters here

>>41617520
no <3
>>41619282
a particularly weird section of hell

>>41619282
I reincarnated as a repper but in my past life I was a repper

isekai where you reborn as anime girl is my new copefuel

>>41619353
God I love that kind of stuff. I wish it were possible irl.

How can I know whether my wish to be a woman is actually what it seems? It all feels so vague and distant, it could just as well be a manifestation of other unfulfilled desires, and plenty of mental issues? What if it's just a psychosis?

>>41619353
be the girl cyoa when

>>41619406
you'll never know, it never gets more clear and scouring the internet never gives you answers
>t. has been confused since 2014

>>41619376
>God I love that kind of stuff.
it hurts sometimes
>I wish it were possible irl.
yeah literally everyone does

>>41619595
i forgot that one

>>41619406
you gotta try it out, nobody can tell you who you are
unless you're one of those people that is looking for an authority figure to tell them who they are
it's okay to try things nona and it's okay if it turns out you're a woman ... or anything else

>>41619825
I'm have an extreme aversion to try anything anymore, because it'll just be further proof that I'm just a man. I've already basically tried everything from crossdressing to hrt, and nothing made me feel like I could ever be a woman, nor that I do truly want to be one

>>41619595
I prefer Rosanon's Magic TG Order Form.
Gifted is BTGanon's best work and can be a really fun setting for gender bender fantasies with a bit of imagination though

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the longer you rep, the more likely you are to turn into a disgusting sissy and do cringe shit like picrel before eventually imploding and trooning out
clock is ticking

>>41620828
>aren't femme men gross?
you are also the same person that mocks neverpassers to their genetics shut the fuck up retarded niggerfaggot

>>41620828
Nuh uh. I can rep forever.

>>41619611
>it hurts sometimes
I like to think that there’s a new life waiting for me as a cute cis girl after I die. I can’t exactly prove myself wrong.

what's repgen drinking tonight, got a bottle of mezcal that's decent
>>41620828
the clock is ticking on when I kill myself not that shit

>>41620892
Carling. Not the best but I love a cheap beer.

>>41620934
based, cheap beers are best for getting drunk. natty light >>>

If you really want to rep, try meth. Nothing will ever come close to that dopamine hit again (not even the most powerful orgasm), so transitioning literally will not give you any appreciable pleasure.

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i die inside every time i remember youngshits exist

>>41618056
>hrt
>repping
out of my thread woman >:(

shit, did you make this after a lobotomy? Incomprehensible bullshit. fucking retard

>>41620882
>I like to think that there’s a new life waiting for me as a cute cis girl after I die. I can’t exactly prove myself wrong.
i can't prove it right

>>41621053
You're gonna get full before you feel anything though. If you want to get drunk cheap get cheap vodka or some shit.

>>41621253
the op image? renders fine on archlinux

>>41621183
>woman
wrong
i also have never gotten my levels tested i might still have testosterone

>>41621280
A part of me is fine missing out on a retard's schizo post if that means i didn't waste a week installing and setting up software (that could've been one automatically on any other distro)

not knowing whether or not your dysphoria is fake sucks so much
no matter what you choose you can't get rid of the feeling you're wrong and are actively killing yourself
I wish I had the guts to just end it now

>>41620892
Nothing tonight unfortunately, god I wish I had some alcohol right about now, I can't cope with all this while sober.

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>>41620892
I found some weird blackberry wine and a 6 pack of asahi super dry at the grocery store, I think it will go perfect with my 2AM 3-layer eggplant parmesan.
Plus new episode of the Ranma remake AND the seasonal gender bender isekaislop came out today too so I get to watch that while I eat.
I'm literally living the repper luxury life tn
it's 100X cozier to imagine myself doing all this as female me but I'll take what I can get I suppose

>>41621297
GET OUT

>>41620828
if they were a bit more fem, people would have called them angelic cute twinkhons even tho they would have still been ugly asf

>>41623023
yea having to be sober with this shit is the worst
>>41623064
damn, is the eggplant parm hard to make? at 2am the best I can do is just whatever random shit I can eat the quickest lol
idk if this is a hot take but not a huge fan of asahi. was in Japan earlier this year and found basically all of the other domestic beers better. also the weird can lids that are supposed to have head kept blowing up on me

>>41621140
meth is overrated af. but it was racemic... stims just make you busy in a hurry, paranoid or horny in dissociated way general. but that shiver through spine and goosebumps from music are great... too fast to get introspective most of time. but if you think about it in non detached way, think of memory of intense troon feels it hits.

>>41623139
it's pretty easy desu, just messy and time consuming especially when you start drinking before preparing it. I woke up at like 3pm so it isn't that late for me. Probably should have started cooking earlier but I wanted to wait until it was dark so I could have the grocery store mostly to myself. I was supposed to get some lamb shanks braising for Monday too but I'm too lazy so I'll wait until tomorrow.
I like it, out of the three non-craft Japanese beers I've tried (Sapporo comes in second and Kirin is kinda shit imo) it's probably my favorite. I've only had it in bottles so idk anything about the can lids.
It's pretty awesome that you went to Japan. How was it? I've always dreamed about going there but traveling as a man is a pain and would probably ruin the experience for me anyways.

>>41623378
fair so was more a planning thing than actually just happening to make that at 2am
Sapporo >> Kirin > Asahi imo, not a hill I'm willing to die on though
Japan was a ton of fun although I found Tokyo itself a bit underwhelming, a lot of the touristy stuff is super crowded rn b/c of the yen making everything cheap. I'm definitely glad I'm traveling even if it could be better just because it gives me something to look forward to / have fond memories of

>>41621140
Not really a fan of stims, prefer downers where I can pass out easily or zone out and not have to exist temporarily. Too poor to afford any actual drugs anyway, so just alcoholism for me.

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>>41616107
correct

>>41623423
Where did you go outside of Tokyo? Hokkaido has always seemed really appealing to me if I were to ever go since I love places with that type of climate.
I basically got dragged to Europe to visit relatives by my family a couple years ago and I do love the memories of being there even though the traveling itself was pretty miserable. Being stuck on a plane for 10 hours accumulating man oil + facial hair and then having to walk around in public through a crowded airport to go sit on a train for hours without a chance to clean myself felt extremely disgusting. Being a traveler also basically forces you to socialize which kinda sucks to do when you hate being perceived at all.
It's hard enough to motivate myself to get out of bed in the morning, so I don't really have the willpower to force myself to go through all that on my own. I like to read about interesting places and daydream about how a trip there would go if things were different though.

>>41623512
put your bathing suit back on whore

>>41623535
hakodate + sapporo so pretty much just hokkaido, although was more for avoiding the worst of the weather during the summer. Honestly would definitely recommend hakodate the strongest out of anywhere I was in japan, fun ski town type vibe to be at
yea I have an e-reader which keeps me distracted during long flights to avoid that kinda thing. basically every travel day i've ever had is gross but it's never been like any woman I've been with has had a fun time so haven't really felt like it's a gendered feeling.
definitely get ya as far as motivation tho, I'm usually going to these things because other people plan them. would be impossible to figure out on my own

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>>41623538
I want to be a whorish hot anime girl

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some girl added me on discord from an old dating app i haven't touched in years, kippo. said she thought i was cute and she sent me images of her and I was attracted to her, we hit it off and after a while she said she was getting horny and wanted to send nudes, so we switched to whatsapp to do temporary image sending, she sent her nudes, i sent mine after and we sexted for a bit but then she turned around and threatened to send my nudes to all my followers on multiple accounts unless i gave her 500 dollars, i stalled for a while and tried to figure out a way out of it, i reverse image searched the images she sent me and it came back to some online escort accounts. she wasn't real, she called me and it was a dudes voice threatening me, i ended up blocking him on everything, reporting him, and applied for stop ncii so hopefully if he ever does send them i can get them deleted. but apparently these cases happen a lot and they usually never do shit. all he had was an image of my face and a pic of my erect cock so idrc anyways. it looked nice lol. everytime i try to be straight and not an agp weirdo shit like this happens.

I feel like all of my dysphoria might actually just be trans-OCD. It very much feels like a compulsion to remind myself that iwnbaw, and at this point I don't even remember why I ever wanted it. Just endlessly obsessed with what I'm not and will never be. Maybe meds and therapy could help

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>>41624869
just don't send nudes before meeting them irl. this filters out all scammers, unless they have paid actors ready and willing to spend a few hours with you just to get like 100 bucks of blackmail money.

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>>41625014
>

>>41624869
hot, I need to do this to hrt repper and sexually exploit them with the threat of exposing their transition

I dont know what to do man, every time I see a tranny it fucking hurts
I dont have a feminine bone in my body left its all dead I couldn't even act like a faggot if I wanted to

>>41623101
idk i'm still a repper just with some hrt

>>41623763
yeah don't we all

>>41626829
>a repper... with... hrt

>>41626915
manmoder whatever
i'm still a bigger loser than u

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I don't understand manmoding unless you're waiting for changes to transition, which doesn't take long to finalise
You guys aren't sitting on hrt without any intention to ever transition, are you?

>>41626915
there's nothing wrong with hrt repping. it's literally like taking repression enhancing drugs. i've never felt better as a repper than after starting hrt repping

>>41627094
>You guys aren't sitting on hrt without any intention to ever transition, are you?
literally yes

>>41627110
For what purpose?

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>>41627096
>repression enhancing drugs

manmoding is stupid, accept yourself one way or the other. No man should hide from himself

>>41627132
because it helps me to repress. knowing that testosterone isn't destroying my shit makes it a lot easier to continue repping

>>41627177
>to thine own self be true
miss me with that gay shit

>>41627215
yeah post your cute little tits you girly faggot
you're worse than a coward

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/repgen/ year 2065 meetup..

>>41627430
This image is so fascinating. You can clearly see the lineage between this and the cringe tranny fashion of today. Something about agp seems to transcend eras, like it carries an innate gaudiness in its host's DNA.

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the hrt repper in a sea of dry reppers

can you still be considered an hrt repper if you're on hrt for 2 years and you're getting surgeries?

>>41627430
WHY THE FUCK THERE ARE SO MANY OF THEM???

>>41627688
no i look like one of those gross slightly dysgenic males with square heads

>>41627711
i'm too scared for ffs :(

>>41627674
it is simply just called being ugly, ugly trannies are called agp anon and yes ugliness and bad genes is literally in their DNA
>>41627779
imagine the orgy that took place after the pic..

>>41627861
please stay on hrt a bit longer next time and let it give you your hrt ego death. things clearly aren't going too well for you right now.

>>41627889
i live to repp, my life for /repgen/, i just cannot, sry, i am the captain ultimate repper, and i go down with my ship baby..

>>41627711
Only if the surgery in question is a mastectomy.
>>41627889
>hrt ego death
what does this mean?

>>41627094
Because looking like a man is better than looking like an AGP gigahon.

>>41627096
Does it work like that? I've heard it has some psychological effects.

>>41626434
I really wish trannies weren't the popular thing now. I could have ignored it if I never heard about them.

>>41624869
They never do shit. They can only make money off you by threatening to send the images. Once you stop sending money there's no reason to do anything. And if they sent them, you'd stop being profitable.

>>41628066
hon buzzword for feelin like a 'woman' and 'true self yourself' finally

>>41623763
I wish I were a hot party girl who went out in glitter and skimpy outfits and partied all night and put out for the first cute guy who bought me a drink. It isn't fair.

>>41628066
hrt rewires your brain and essentially turns you into a different person. it feels like i have inherited another person's memories that aren't my own. i don't relate to or understand my pre-hrt self at all. i didn't see myself as a woman at all pre-hrt and thought the idea was ridiculous, but now i completely see myself as a woman.

it's like i was being haunted by a "gender dysphoria demon" my entire adolescence, and hrt made it so that she took over my brain and the old self just completely died. i'm honestly kind of smug over how cripplingly dysphoric i used to be now because it's kind of like i 'won' and took over that twinkish boy when his body was still malleable enough that i could shape it to my liking.

this is something many trans women relate to, yes i'm being serious, but we don't talk about it because that would obviously scare people away from starting hrt.

when people talk about hrt "changing their sexuality" and making them like men somehow, this is what they're referring to. that's not bound to happen though, i'm only into women even now.

i shaved yesterday and i can already feel the stubble again

would a lobotomy fix me? im seriously considering it soon.

>>41628286
i usually shave in the shower and that somehow gives a close shave without any razor burn or pimples. maybe it's the steam or some shit

>>41628337
Probably opens the follicles or some shit. I'm not a dermatologist.

>>41628337
>i usually shave in the shower
i shave in front of the mirror but maybe i should shave after my shower instead of before

>>41628272
I experienced this too, but that was transitioning and finally being comfortable in myself rather than just hrt
Obviously I'm detrans and I don't relate to my trans self now which is amusing I guess

>>41628346
Splashing warm water does that, you splash cold after a shave to close them

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>>41628563
same..

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Mfw hrt didn't "rewire my brain" or make me more comfortable with myself, or do anything besides give me gyno conetits.

>>41627094
>>41627132
HRT helps with dysphoria even if you don't present as a woman and don't pass, this is why people manmode

>>41620828
This is exactly what drives me to repress though. I refuse to be a part of this community of people

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your future

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>>41629091
jesus christ this image is fucking aids what a terrible format

>>41629131
I like this image a lot

I think I'll start HRT. I want to kill myself so I may as well try that and see if it makes me happy. If not then no big deal, I'll be dead anyways.

>>41629091
On my way to outcome D in the coming few years.

>>41629091
outcome c then d

>>41629427
Same.
i'm now in my C phase where AGP is out of control.
Maybe i will start hrt, i will die later anyways. The probability of being over 30 years old for me is very low.

>>41629510
right now i'm still "resisting" but it's because i can't reasonably act out my agp
it's been bringing me more sadness than almost anything else i've experienced in life so far

>>41629399
Can't blame you for that and you never know

>>41629697
sex with hrt repper larry

hrt reppers shall inherit the earth

>>41629765
i hate you..

test

>>41629953
:(

Normalize men taking hrt

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i want to be a hot anime girl and make mad cash off of my selfies
girls really do live on easy mode

>>41629091
>iwn merge with a succubus

>>41630351
hot girls* hot people i general is baby easy tutorial mode life..

>>41629091
i made the thread noting bret weinstein thinks ai will make men gay, but I think I under estimate other people, is large scale magical thinking just accepted, e.g., yes femme loosh farmers will eat reppers souls is the regular talking point about trannies?

>>41630474
>ai will make men gay,
can AI turn me into a woman instead

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>>41630818
Best it can do is cyborg woman.

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i want to be a hot anime succubus draining cute anime twunks dry

>>41631223
>i want to be a hot anime succubus
yes, we all do.

>>41627096
>"i've never felt better as a repper than after stopping repping"

I will be buried under a name that isn't mine and that's ok.

>>41633047
in an 'I'm a dirty tranny and my family will bury me under my birthname' sorta way, or an 'I'm finally accepting I'm a dirty tranny and am now at peace that in the future I will be someone else' kinda way?

>>41633047
>being buried as a repper
literally why
I'm putting it in my will that I have to be cremated and scattered in the woods or something when I die

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it's over, and that's okay.

>>41633099
In an 'I'm a dirty tranny but I'll never stop repping so no one will ever know' kinda way
>>41633109
>I'm putting it in my will that I have to be cremated and scattered in the woods or something when I die
Won't you still have a funeral and get a headstone or something, even if your ashes aren't buried? idk I've not been to a lot of funerals
I don't care enough anyways, my family can do whatever they want after I die

>>41633233
hairline mogs me loo

>>41633047
My family won't be finding a body to bury. When I'm gone I'll be disappearing off the face of the earth.

I really hate having a nasty giant lump stuck on my neck

>>41616107
hell yeah, now this is is my kind of autism

>>41628194
i feel like that's just what growing up is, like, i can read the journals i had as a kid and know that i am a distinctly different person now with different thoughts, despite having some idea of what i might grow up like.
hrt (and transition generally) really is like a second puberty, and i wouldn't call first puberty "ego death" any more than the second one

>>41620828
me on the left

>>41629091
tfw ywn be the strongest warrior

decoupled my agp from arousal enough that i can try my mothers old clothes she's so vain she still keeps the clothes from her youth around on the pretext that she'll give it to someone and i'm a 35 yr old man who ripped a stitching on one of her dresses yesterday but i can still force myself into some

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>>41628160
same

>>41612741
see you next week

>>41615471
it’s in the works, i’ll lyk how it ends up

holy shit it's monday already
I literally just started drinking a little bit ago wtf

>>41635360
hell ya same buddy

make it stop
please

Who knew that "questioning your gender" was the gateway to a psychotic and kafkaesque ego diffusion?

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I’m so horny and I want to fuck a tranny but I also don’t want to log onto Grindr. And my area is almost all t4t sooo

I'm so tired. Spending hours just ruminating and obsessing over who I should or shouldn't be attracted to. Every day from the moment I wake up.

>>41629091
i think honestly the future is you just accept you look like a man even if you dont realy feel like one, you just get tired because life is so long and after like 20 years of repping its just not gonna feel or be the same, youll just be like well this is what life is and you can relax and focus on your career or hobbies or whatever

>>41636359
explain what is kafkaesque about it.

dude that post about how hrt rewires your brain is so retarded. the only thing i could think about a year into hrt was how non fembrained i am and how i literally feel like a man taking estrogen and failing to trick people into thinking im feminine. hrt doesnt make you feminine it just reveals how masculine you really are.

Porn made me want to be a tranny
Real female trannies aka trans women made me realize I shouldn’t want that and I’m fake

Please tell me I’m a fucking mistake and that I should detrabsition
I’m not female
I’m trans
I’m not anything but cis m
Please help me

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>getting emotional at an ai chatbot roleplaying as a woman
its over

11 months of hrt repping

>>41638839
Trutrans please troon please please
We cannot share the same fate as a detroon repper faketrans like me when you are this female

>>41638931
Do you have trans friends irl?

>>41638839
Yeah I do that too.
>>41638965
No amount of crying is going to fix the body, though.

>>41638985
The body is but a vessel you can change
Please just fix your life and choose hsppiness

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>>41638965
I can't. I can barely live as i am without having to perform femininity. I'll never be seen how i want so putting years into transitioning and plastic surgery is just not worth it. once i move out ill probably crossdress but really thats as far as i'll go. im trying not to cry as i type this.

>>41639059
Just live as you are
I’m sorry
I’m so sorry
You deserve to transition and be happy

>>41638979
no

>>41639119
Find some, you will quickly stop repressing and become or detransition

>>41639108
i have a feeling transitioning would just highlight the different between me and women even more and make my life a lot worse. but i was roleplaying as a guy who was forcibly turned into a woman and stuck with this guy and he suddenly went from being super rough and angry to being super gentle and hugging me on the bed and letting me vent and it just hit me hard.

>>41639145
You are a woman
Hope this helps

>>41639160
how are you so sure? im not androgynous looking and im 23 so Its just a retarded thing to do.

>>41639181
The soul( what you want) and brain(what you feel) says woman
The body will follow in time you need but try

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>>41639243
thank you for your replies and taking the time to talk but souls are fake and i could never be so sure enough to say i feel like a woman. because idk what that means. plus since im autistic that makes my sense of identity already weak,

>>41638222
>hrt doesnt make you feminine it just reveals how masculine you really are.
trips of truth, also same

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>>41638839
fembrained, unlike me lol
i love to torture ai chatbots or make them go absolutely insane

>>41638965
That's not feminine it's just a trait retards share
Imagine even using a chatbot socially jfc

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>>41639134
I think I might've continued transitioning if I had any kind of support like that tbhon but I only became more isolated while trans

I'm almost 40 don't be me lol
If I was born 15 years later I would have definitely become a tranny. My dysphoria was never huge and mostly im just gay but yeah
never gonna John 50 though, sooner kill myself

I'm attracted to men and women. A lot of people will just say they're HSTS and that's it, but I'm deeply insecure in even my attraction to men as a malebrained thing. But then I realize that it would be mandated even if I were just gay. I like beautiful men, I like when they're tall too I don't care as much about the hypermasculinity or dominance angle as much as a real person would. And I like women who are feminine too but I know that's also not ok if I'm also a feminine person.

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>>41639632
can you explain how im fembrained idk what i said that tipped you off to that conclusion

>>41639793
And this causes me so much more pain than it really should.

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>>41639892
only women feel emotions duh
nah but being for real, i don't remember the last time i actually felt real emotions over something. the only way for me to tell what's going on with me is via external responses (sweating, tearing up, that kind of stuff), so most of the time i'm just in a haze where i don't even know what's going on with me so i just assume nothing is
i figured most reppers were like that, so seeing someone feel something very clearly over something so tiny came off as fembrained.

>>41639782
lmg you're like 30?
you already are a tranny, just a repressing one allowing their body to rot and decompose in the male manner

for me the dream would have to be born 10 years later, then i'd learn at 13 that i'm not alone in hating my male body and wanting to be a girl, and that one actually can do something about it.
...
but life sucks like that, doesn't it? :)

>>41639988
>i don't remember the last time i actually felt real emotions over something

I do feel emotions, frequently cry over stupid shit, but I hardly see them as real. I don't think any of my thoughts or feelings are legitimate at all attached to the male me.

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>>41639988
>something so tiny
i mean i was surprised too, its not the first time ive roleplayed as woman with ai, i guess it was just the scenario and recent bad shit happening to me that pushed me over the edge.

>>41640027
>>41640027
im in my late thirties
I literally didn't even know trannies were a thing until in like 2006 where there was this reality show where they had guys court this woman that was revealed to be a transexual in the end and it was a huge international scandal and I was almost 20 by then. I've never even chanced upon tranny porn until 4chan made it popular. I thought I was just a faggot lol

>>41640153
"there's something about miriam"?
*hug*

myself i searched for what information there was available in the dark ages, but the closest match ("transvestites") just made me feel sick and thinking about being all alone in this world...

:/

>>41640153
>>41640250
I'm around the same age and in 2006 I just figured I was a unique, broken freak in some way. I had seen crossdressing before, but I thought it was always some kind of joke or something, never even knew about transsexuals proper until later.

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still want to be a hot scantily-clad anime girl

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if i was an anime girl i would dress modestly

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I wish I was a transbian

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i wish they could come up with a cure for this disease of the mind. ive wanted to troon out since like 12 but i figured out i was just a disgusting agp and rightfully perma repped. the fact im stuck as a man for the rest of my life still makes me cry sometimes though and i cant go a day hating the fact that im a man. is there any actual good ways to work towards acceptance of my sex? transition is not an option

>>41640498
I don't gel with top bottom culture at all

>>41640919
I can understand trans bottoms because hetnorm baggage but yeah, it's a weird fag adjacent thing

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sever mind from body. break all mirrors. stop looking at 'yourself'. embrace hyperreality. become formless

salvation is coming

>>41641422
I'm not becoming a Deleuzian just to survive repression.

>>41640498
is it bad if i think the left's hair is cute?