i’ve wanted to transition pretty much since i was 4 but i’ve always been so shy and reserved that i’ve ended up repressing literally all of my emotions. i feel like i used to be feminine but now i’m pretty much just numb and apathetic. i don’t know how to get that part of me back, when i’m depressed i just feel like a man personality wise and physically and i just want to rip my skin off. i get really envious around women who just get to be themselves meanwhile i’ve heavily restricted myself for the sake of being comfortable.
>>42753124i was like this to getting on e will really help make you feel more like a person trust
>>42753124I promise you transitioning, even just by going by a new name and pronouns with friends, clears up a chunk of that depression. it doesn't fix everything of course but it makes things so much more bearable. don't linger on 4chan, this is where the self-deprecating and repressors live and they will drag you down and impact your view on yourself. make friends with other trans people with your interests and you'll see what makes life worth living
>>42753124To some extent, she has died. But transition will be the greatest, most fulfilling, most restorative adventure of your life. You should pursue it to the end, anyway
>>42753151taking e just made me rep my emotions harder
>>42753124>i’ve wanted to transition pretty much since i was 4no you haven't
