Tfw a repper but my life is super comfy because i put in 0 effort and never leave the house.>Never have to exist as a man socially because i'm NEVER around others.>Dont look into mirrors except when brushing my teeth so i never feel that bad>No friends so i dont have my pictures taken ever.>Pretty light dysphoria or w/e.>Parents are upper middle-class so i can just continue doing that until age 40 and blow my brains out after.>Genuinely its so tolerable i will never have to get on e and social transition is impossible because i dont and never will have a social life.Negatives.>Dont even have hobbies anymore>Am an alcoholic bc i cant have fun sober>Lowk wasting my life, future prospects, will never get laid and am missing out on everything i could ever have.>Testosterone rapes me daily but it's tolerable since i've accepted its just what it is.How do i make my life hellish so i have a reason to try to do better/ how do i get rid off Avolition and Schizoid tendencies so i can have any sort of a life repper or not.I kinda lowkirk hate talking to normies. They're good people but we have 0 in common and its always just fucking weather talk or what you did on the weekend like i dont rly care.
>>42961729torment your parents until they kick you out
>>42961745My dad is too autistic for that and i like my mom and wouldnt wanna stress her.
you do realise that you can take hrt *and* still be a man, right?
>>42961809trvke nuke
>>42961756Your choice, but whatever you do don't listen to these trannies saying you can take hrt and be a man. Eventually the hrt makes you into a gross old tranny and the trannies know that they are just trying to trick you into being like them.
>>42961855Obviously there is effort involved outside of just HRT if you want to pass. I know people who just want to minimize how t impacts aging or like how e makes their brain feel its not a big deal
>>42961862Yeah normal people don't do this. I honestly doubt you know anybody like that.
>>42961895I know one they/he on estrogen and an NB on estrogen. We're modifying our bodies how we want in this bitch
>>42961930>men on HRT>look inside>non-men on HRTWhatever you say lol I'm just warning OP because you intentionally make it sound like he can be a normal cis guy on female hormones.
>>42961975op sounds like they hate what T does to their body. there is a solution and who cares what label you still choose to use.
>>42961729you need to take the pills. Just transition. Yes it takes time and it's hard but let's face it you don't really seem to have any other options. You'll sit on your ass for a decade or two watching youtube essays and playing vidyas and at some point you'll realize you haven't moved an inch in your life and all the wasted time will never come back. You'll decide too late that it's time to change and get on HRT. It will work but the short bliss you'll feel will be quickly replaced by the dread of not having done it sooner. Plenty of people have gone your route already nona, not just baddies, we all know the outcome. What you're experiencing is not new, it's exactly why HRT and trans people exist. Admit you're a tranny and get in touch with your local community.>my life is super comfyYou think you can call what you're experiencing life but your really just crawling on the surface like a critter. You deserve better. you should read The Tartar Steppe by Buzzati, than you'll get it.
>>42961729>Tfw a repperfinally fucking admitted it >How do i make my life hellish so i have a reason to try to do betteryou don't, you start hrt.>how do i get rid off Avolition and Schizoid tendencies you can't, you start hrt.>I kinda lowkirk hate talking to normiessame.
>>42961729>Never have to exist as a man socially because i'm NEVER around others.then there's no fucking reason for you to start hrt either because any tits you grow won't be seen by anyone, and everyone will accept you're gyno because you're a thin little slob.
>>42962196for you NOT to start hrt*FUCKNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
>>42962196TRVECLEAR HLVCAUST0 REASON TO DO HRT.>SlobIm 96lbs but my frame hella wide.
>>42962154>Admit you're a tranny and get in touch with your local communityMy local community are learning disabled gay manwhrows who blow dads from grindr, annoying quirky chungus theyfabs qt college and like 1/2 lowk trannies that live their life and i havent seen them outside of a few rare encounters in public transit. Cryptid tier
>>42962315I live in the middle of nowhere and yeah they're not doing anything wrong but the two trans girls i know on my small campus are quirky UwU types..you should still get on E op. You can get it online just dont end up regretting not starting sooner i say this as someone who was on the fence too
>>42962354I dont want my penis to shrink down doe. I dont have infinite inches to spare.
>>42962951it doesn't always shrink your penis. I was hoping mine would shrink desu but after a year it still is like the same. I just have a really hard time getting off now i kind of need a vibrator
>>42962974>Doesnt always.Im not a gambling man and knowing myswlf i'd get on it for 4 months ruin my dick, go homeless bc chuddy parents and then realize i was just a guy always
>>42962951you've already resigned yourself to being a permavirgin so why would this matter?
>>42964037I like having a penis and i wouldnt want it to shrink down.Its the only moided feature of mine thats something to be proud of.I mean there doesnt need to be a reason beyond "I dont want my dick to shrink."Thats bodily autonomy.
>>42962154Considering all the retarded incel shut in trannys on here and on twitter, hrt does nothing to stop these losers from being deadend shut-in neets. All that changes is they get gynocomastia
>>42961729Me for like five yearsIt's not fucking worth it
>>42964080fair enough
>>42964101I think even if i overdose on estrogen and buttfucked nothing will rly change. I'll just keep sitting in my room and doing nothing day in day out. Fuuuck.Imagine being an ugly dysgenic sub5 incel with ugly gynecomastia breast. So over.I think my issue isnt in being a man at all(as ive said it rarely comes up anyway.)
>>42961729>Claims to have light dysphoria >Life ruined by dysphoriaMFW. Just HRTrep OP, it will be more tolerable. You can get top surgery if you don't want boobs. If you do it in the beginning it won't scar
>>42961895Many cases in the board
>>42968572I dont think its dysphoria im just ugly for a man and that sucks
>>42970759your penis won't shrink dumbassyou clearly want this despite making a million excuses
>>42971094>your penis won't shrink dumbassBut trannies talk abt this happening a lot.Unless thats just AGP MEFslop?Cant be.
>>42970759But men are valued by achievements not looks
>>42971100It can happen unless you use it. You just don't get morning woods and some people report lower libido but prog can reverse that (my experience)
>>42971100think about it this way, logically. imagine the penis as a balloon that fills with blood. the amount of fleshy tissue that forms the penis logically cannot decrease or increase, in the same way a balloon cannot get larger or smaller. the size is an immutable characteristic. and the same amount of liquid will fill that balloon each time.
>>42971137Ah yeah, it kinda feels emptier sometimes
>>42971137You can develop scar tissue but i dont think atrophy itself does that...Hmm..
>>42971114Not true.Accomplished incel = Tryhard doucheUnaccompliahed chad = cool rebel.If you get money you can betabuxx for a blown out harlot but its not like you'll ever get true love
>>42961809What's the point? You'll grow breasts and develop erectile dysfunction but that's it
>>42971321Does it make you cuter in any way?
>>42962269there's a new rib remodeling procedure to take care of this body type, you can have an hourglass figure regardless of your frame. non-invasive too. there's another thread about it right now.
>>42971404Thats rly cool but im against major surgery and also i will never have the money or anything nor do i desire to pass as a woman.All i hope for hrtwise is to look like a cute male. If i were to bishymaxx i have the frame to he attractive leanfit man. Its just my face that sucks.Idk.I've seen the rib remodelling pics tho. Real happy for trannies.
>>42971473>Tfw a repperok bud
>>42971482Im just using terminology. Idk what else to call it. I just want to be a cute male.
>>42971497if you truly want to be male leave this place and never return. all that being here will do is confuse you as to your identity, have the opinions of others influence you, and impede your progress. be free from this place and live your life. there are many other 4chan boards if you still want to stay on the site.but you continue to remain here, day after day. and that's because you identify with the people on this board.
>>42971609Yeah with cis males on hrt.
>>42971384Yes and if you hate the results you can stop anytime, but stuff like breast growth stays and nipples enlarge pretty fast which is noticeable with just a shirt. Also if you're under 25 you can still get permanent bone changes from E
>>42971299Looks alone don't give you real love either
>>42971609Unironically my biggest fear is that I only trooned because of this board. I so deeply dread the possibility that I'm actually a case of "social contagion", no matter how unlikely it may sound
