Would you date a trans girl with confirmed extremely severe bipolar that is probably borderline schitzoaffective?Idk. Ive seen cute trannies Ive wanted to ask out and I always find myself thinking I dont want to subject them to my illnesses, guys are fair game tho.
>>43765849Date? NoMarry? Fuck yes
>>43765852O.O
>>43765849not gonna lie i would probably abuse you>t. antisocial tranny
>>43765906Ngl probably not as hard as I would back.
>>43765849yea because im similar and normies cant handle it, this relationship would be true love and nothing else
>>43765909how would you abuse me? ive had many try and they always fail
>>43765914nta but id cut my name into you id put cigs out on you id slap your ass as i walk by in the kitchen id put you in headlocks and choke you a bit in bed id fondle your boobs while we watch a show and you arent allowed to do anything about it id spit in your mouth while we make out and make you swallow it id obviously punch your tummy a bit sometimes id kick it too id call you names to make you cry and then id say now come here and sit on the bed with me, i love you alright everything i do to you is because of my love for you, youre my lover for life and ill make sure it stays that way; id nibble on your ears during sex and stick fingers in your mouth this isnt abuse but just sorta kinky sex id make you wear a collar and if im getting groceries i might also lock the door to the room youre in and make you wait for me
>>43766003give me your discord
>>43766014buggle_83364
hey im a bipolar 1 tranjny too. what is your mania like? i hallucinate like crazy but i'm pretty good at keeping my mouth shut and not making it everyone else's problem. the doctor always tells me like, you need to be on meds so you don't listen to what the voices tell you to do and it's like, thhe voices are people just like you why would i just listen to them because i can hear them?> ive been off meds for a while and trying my best to not get back on them. they make me a bad person so i try not to take them.
>>43766003The things that get me flustered yet I'll never have so I'll just have to settle on remote torment from the sidelines.
>>43765914Idk Ive held a knife to someones throat for abusing me b4. Didnt do anything but yk. I also got into a fist fight with them. That about the range of physical stuff.The main way I've done things is by pushing people to do things like when I pushed that guy into wasting his life savings for keks.
>>43766080Idk for me it usually takes the form of a small chorus of like 30 whispering voices all saying for me to hurt myself or murder people, it only rlly comes up when Im upset, and I cant really tell if its the voices that upset me or if I get upset then hear voices.Mania usually just looks like I dont sleep for 3 days and am able to talk to people. Well no, last time I had it I larped as an aristocrat for a month which desu was kinda peak.
>>43766175physically you could probably kill me, psychologically i dont think youd be that good at
>>43766003Actual hell desu. Id probably unironically kill you rather than live that life again
>>43766217Idk. Ive had a gun fired in anger less than a foot from my face at me and I wasnt at all upset by it and I've just never rlly been affected by it?It just takes certian triggers for me to get that way though. That time was because someone bumped my exes car.
>>43766194thats awesome. i get a bunch of voices talking to me at once too pretty often but they arent a chorus they're desynced by like 100ms and constantly say conflicting things and finish each other's sentences. i was playing subnautica 2 with my girlfriend recently and the in game hallucinations happened and i thought they were real hallucinations for like 5 minutes so i didnt say anything about it and then my gf was like you don't hear those voices and i was like oh i did just didn't know if they were in game lol.> it only rlly comes up when Im upset, and I cant really tell if its the voices that upset me or if I get upset then hear voices.i think that's pretty normal. hallucinations come from the mind after all. when the mind is overwhelmed it can't process itse senses as well either and can be deceived more easily>Well no, last time I had it I larped as an aristocrat for a month which desu was kinda peak.that's based af. what do you do to be aristocratic?
>>43766217>>43766236Well no as soon as I was shot at I was really shocked that the guy shot at me, but after I was back to the saftey of my exes car and off that guy's car (desu I dont rlly know who the crazy one was in that situation) then I stopped caring about it.The cops and emts were fucking retarded and ppb is useless beyond defending the ice facility desu.
>>43766003need this soooooo bad
>>43766249Idk I got super into different varieties of chocolates and cheeses and coffees shit like that and would constantly talk about how trashy all my friends are and I kept a perfectly clean house, ane how important refinement and taste are to individuality but was too broke to rlly do much more than that, but I did totally normiefy my wardrobe at that time with relatively modest fits which is a plus ig.
>>43765849yeah because i know most of them are just making it up and i can fix them with regular beatings.
>>43766266that's pretty cool. my last manic episode was triggered cause i went on a vacation and couldnt sleep on a plane and i went on a pilgrimmage to a bunch of holy sites and now i believe that i was chosen by god the be a prophet but i can't tell anyone that because they'll think i'm crazy
>>43766285Tbh manic episodes are so fucking fun like that where like. You'll discover some cool shit and then like suddenly have all this new info and stuff.I made a super expensive period accurate to I think it was to 1985-89 specifically Soviet uniform once with like 8 pages of written documentation and even charecter lore and shit behind it once as part of a manic episode so that was fun.
>>43766290Yeah. People act like bipolar is the worst shit of all time but you can get some cool results due to it. I wrote an entire book during a manic episode in like 2 weeks and it's just kinda cool to have written a book at all. it's nice to look on the bright side of being different sometimes.do you generally focus on embodying characters in manic episodes? it's interesting that you mentioned two things that are so similar.
>>43766003id also make you cook me nice meals and we'd eat together at a dining table, i then do the dishes while you watch the tv and i tell you to turn it off, i scoop you up and princess carry you to bed id let you lay on my chest in bed afterward and id play with your hair and whisper sweet nothings id put one hand on your butt and give it a little squeeze as a way to say goodnightthen the next morning id turn you over and make love to you
>>43766306I mean yeah escaping myself has always kinda been a fixation (I wonder why)I was a DiD larper for a while, I tried to be an artist for a while, another was the whole mid 20th century new man of steel/new Soviet man thing.Every mania episode kinda seems to end on the same note of 'I want to be literally anyone but myself. I do not care whatsoever who it is, just someone else'
>>43766306I was writing a book then found out it was nearly identical to Owl House. I had never watched or knew of that show before. Made me feel like I was both slow on the pulse of things and would just be seen as a hack if I was to put it out there. Fuck my life.
>>43766306>>43766326Tbh its probably in large part responsible for the absolute amount of isolation and rootlessness I find myself in. You could excecute my entire family in front of me and cover me in their blood and I wouldnt flinch at all. If you cannot manage to form a solid identity because of mania episodes constantly being centered on uprooting your identity then yeah no shit.Its been a long noticed pattern Ive already had that every couple years I get a completely new set of friends and discard all of my old ones, and I dont seem to have the capacity for truly long term friends because of it.I guess if my identity is a slot machine like that then the massive amount of social popularity I found in my late teens was just me hitting a mania jackpot, and so hopefully someday when my brain pulls that lever again I will find myself in so certian a state again.
>>43766080Also yeah Ive found the best way to lock in when manic is to just shut the fuck up and not interact whatsoever beyond direct orders and the retail script.Tbh the new man of steel larp was extremely useful for that and so as a manic episode it was extremely self contained which was nice.
>>43766326>'I want to be literally anyone but myself. I do not care whatsoever who it is, just someone else'sounds really close to a fugue state. be careful about that stuff and maybe try to ground yourself rather than indulge it.>>43766337aw, im sorry anon. you arent a hack. a lot of stories are pretty similar to one another. it's natural to feel vulnerable about the things you put a lot of your heart into.
>>43766346>Tbh its probably in large part responsible for the absolute amount of isolation and rootlessness I find myself in. You could excecute my entire family in front of me and cover me in their blood and I wouldnt flinch at all.same loli think there's an issue with bipolar that sort of shuts off your empathy because your brain just gets too stimulated for emotions like that. i don't think it makes you a bad person either, you just kinda become empty inside because your heart is literally on your sleeve and nothing's left inside. >>43766366>Also yeah Ive found the best way to lock in when manic is to just shut the fuck up and not interact whatsoever beyond direct orders and the retail script.yeah. it feels really horrible to be in a good mood and start talking to people then they say stuff like "based schizo" or "take your meds" and you feel bad for opening up because nobody will understand you becasue you're in "psychosis". it's a bummer and better to just stay quiet about it yeah. i think 4chan is a relatively popular site for bipolar people because it's a safe space to type shitloads of text and say things without fear of social blowback or overwhelming your social group
>>43766372Creatives often write similar stories and get inspiration from similar places. It wasn't really about caring what others think, but that it took the wind out of my sails. I know some people might've enjoyed it and I could've just written it for myself but it was also my trans awaking story. It's then I realized that when I thought I was so clever, I walked myself into another trap designed for people like me to fail when I should be walking myself off a bridge.
>>43766418Idk. Tbh I kinda wish bipolar got somewhat of the same cutesy treatment as ADHD autism, like it fucking sucks to have and I hate that all the fetishization stuff about bipolar basically boils down to>Look at what an insane freak this person isLike. I fucking hate that out of all the disorders I have out of all the bullshit Ive gone through I ended up finally hitting something where its like oh. I cant tell fucking anyone in my life that I have this shit because there is a very solid chance that theyll just dissappear on me if I do. More than transness more than autism more than ADHD, hell more than even my terrible politics or worldviews. I can talk about having been raped more easily than I can talk about bipolar irl.
