AvPD trannies how long did it take you to realize that you'll never be wanted anywhere and every time you think you've found somewhere safe you're ridiculed and become nobody again?
Aliens vs predators was a missed opportunity
>>44042757true....
>>44042719i keep telling myself that i'll be better next time
>>44042826same and im still avoiding her right now
>>44042719avpdoids are subhuman, worse than bpdemons
>>44044516We're really not
>>44042719I just accepted that I was a monster.https://youtu.be/NgrM4_JMi9w?si=3B5B09cqPG5aMuYq
>>44044762you are, by a wide wide margin
>>44044770why? i dont hurt anyone i just can't bring myself to interact with the worldyou just come to the thread just to make already hurt people hurt even worse
>>44044812By not accepting the pain you cause people you are actually makimg things worse. Trust me, you are a massive shit, all of us personality disordered people are.
>>44044830then why haven't you killed yourself yet?
>>44044830i mean i guess i cause people pain but whats the point of someone coming here just to say im worse than bpdemons
>>44044862God wants me alive to do math, thats why ge made me. Not everything is about making people happy socially.
>>44042757its got a banger ovipositer scene to crank it to though
>>44044869because im a mean and nasty person i guessit is my genuine belief thobpdoids are more suitable to be in relationships with than avpders
>>44044869Cluster B people actually make people happy, you don'tpeople like NPD and Borderline people
>>44042719When I realized I'm broken and have bpd and avpd, I can't lose people but also I can't have functioning relationships no matter how much they love me so I'll die alone and never know happinessAlso, there's no need to be outing each other down wtf.. "My personality disorder isn't as bad as yours" or "Your disorder is harder to love than this other one"
>>44044884ugh i feel badsorry for saying mean stuff about you guys..
my diagnosis is unspecified personality disorder w traits of AvPD and BPD T~T
>>44044916Putting each other down, I hate when I'm a mobile poster, I keep making so many stupid typos
>>44044916I view this thread as a way to talk to my self in a mirror and to shape up the weaker avpds. We all think very similarly.
>>44044932sorry for the bad roll beepymoder>>44044927It's alright anon, atleast to mewe're all just suffering one way or another and if in the moment saying something mean makes you feel slightly better I'd rather that be true>>44044943I can kinda see itI hope anyone here won't end up turning 40 without having ever lived their life, saying as someone on track to do just that
>>44044986ehh its like most thingsit made me feel a little better in the moment but in the long run i feel worse for iti rlly ought to stop being a shitty person onlinegood luck with ur stuff avpders o7
>>44044986its nice to see im not the only one, but i think i've made good progress on things in therapy and at the mental hospital. im much more stable and better at taking social risks aand i have friends now which is cool
>>44044872based, also based wikispeditor
>>44044890>not using lemon on tendiesthat clusterBitch is a pleb
>>44044770are you the same anon that always shits on avpd trannies? you sound like you have some personal stuff going on
>>44045037goodluck anon>>44045092that's pretty great :)I feel more stable than I used to be, but that's about it for now
>>44044932>>44044986friendly reminder that shrinks can't tell a disorder from their ass in the case of troids and misdiagnosis rates even among cissies are 40% between bpd and cptsdthe latter being not exactly unexpected when you live da troid life
>>44042719idk, my ex still hates me for it i think o algo
>>44044830"The pain you cause people" this is avpd not avoidant attachment. Your ex isn't here.
>>44042719Avpdoids did you know you'll be alone forever and you're safer that way anyways? Better to be alone and not deal with any of this.Npdoids did you know you're either a giant on this earth or you'll never be good enough? You're not good enough to deserve anything. Better to convince us you are with tricks. It's almost as good.Ocpdoids did you know that if you maintain purity you'll be saved? Anyone who doesn't understand or follow that doesn't respect you. Better to drive them off or control them.Bpdoids did you know you aren't safe in love until you find an angel, and you're not worthy of your angel? Better to hurt yourself and everyone else until someone saves you or it ends.
>>44045742my money's on her being a self-hating avpdoid
>>44045785not her but i do sometimes think i was in the wrong, i think it actually is avpd
>>44045787good shit
sorry to everyone i’ve ever ghosted, it wasn’t your fault…..
>>44042719I ended up getting a very understanding and considerate boyfriend with a big penis, but I still avoid making friends.
>>44045815Maybe you have both, I'm diagnosed AVPD and never ghosted/ignored a partner. But yeah that's on you if you did that...
>>44044890I have BPD and I make everyone around me miserable. My friend with bpd tho makes everyone joyous
>>44045785My mind doesn't work like yours. I legit think I am the problem, I am the bad ex.
>>44042719>AvPD trannies how long did it take you to realize that you'll never be wanted anywhere...since i was a kid, i couldn't fit in any group and always had few friends.
>>44045750my psychologist who i see 4 times a week is mtf. unfortunately there ain't no getting out of this one
>>44048030I was able to find my tribe in college but by then the damage had set in.
>>44042719Until I was about 24
>>44047086It's not too late to change... Starting now is better than never
>>44044830How do we cause people pain?
>>44048272I am just a relationship nihilist now so I dont hurt anyone too too bad. My focus is math and quantum mechanics not making people happy. >>44048294We avoid people to avoid uncomfortable social situations. Yes, it hurts for us, but its suppse to hurt, they are pecking us on the social heirachy and determining our place. We havent learned our place. We are the sacrificial lambs of society, the sin eaters, the omela, by rejecting this you are messing with the natural social order and causing pain.
>>44042719i've known it innately my whole life
>>44042719i think i fully understood when i was around 18 as i kept backing out of any kind of intimate relationship with other ppl out of fear. when i started hrt last year there was a brief period where i thought now i felt better abt myself i could get over my avoidant tendencies. but now they're back just as bad as ever so i have just kind of accepted ill never be close with someone or have any kind of relationship
Ive came to the realization that im fundamentally incompatible with any human on earth as a result of having AvPD. Even if i did manage to ever get into a relationship i would only end up hurting them and it would be impossible for said relationship to ever last. I just have to live the rest of my life hopelessly loveless, all because by random chance i developed a personality disorder, completely outside of my control.
>>44042719cope and gayget help
>>44049216Incorrect, you did choose this, your dumbass made a retarded choice about socialization around 3 years old. Make friends with other personality disorders. Narcs are fun!
>>44049276I dated a guy with BPD for a brief bit if that counts. Ive never met a narcissist before though, but they dont seem to be that bad.
>>44044516Lying nigger faggotBPD’s are a threat to the general population
>>44049492You cannot be AvPD while also simultaneously hating on people for having BPD.
a lot of this just comes down to trauma and PTSD or more likely CPTSD, anyway>>44049512why not?
controversial but I think people with personality disorders should stop hating one another when normies throw infinite more hate and fake some of them for attention
>>44049518>why not?because we are in the same boat as them. we all have a personality disorder that we did not choose and cannot get rid of, and are hated by society because of it.>>44049556true and factual
>>44045742no thats not me, this was a momentary lashing out>>44045793not it either
AvPD isn't even real. It's just another thing you're using to doom over instead of working on your anxiety.
>>44049645Bitch I paid like $300 for this disorder. I had to sit down in a room for 2 hours to take an official psychological disorder personality test. I did this twice actually for insurannce reasons.
>>44049970Some assholes including it in a questionnaire doesn't mean anything. I probably took the same test lol
>>44050064I care more about what two Doctors of psychology have to say about my mental disorders than some guy on 4chan
>>44042719honestly, nobody wants to deal with clingy sad people without a backbone or interests. all insecure socialization is based on crabs in a bucket mentality, neurotypical or divergent autists. you need to find real friends, and to do that you need to figure out how to be happy and interesting on your terms. please stop putting others on a pedestal and go try new things, youre only hurting yourselves.>>44044769very cute asuka!
>>44050511>please stop putting others on a pedestal and go try new thingsthanks i'm cured now
>>44050700there is never a cure, there is only the struggle, and getting strong enough to pick yourself up faster than the last time. thats the truth, the only people not worried are so obscenely stupid that they are barely functional and coasting through life.
>>44050700The weaponized autistic jannies who totally can't look up people's IP's to dox and lolcow sure are fucking salty tonight. Enjoy living in the now. Loose ends get snipped
I avoidant and haven’t smelled a woman’s hair in 5 years and I’m willing to settle for a tranny with a sub-20 bmi atp
>>44050852brother's settling for another nona's treasure
>>44050911Can you wear a dress and shave when I fuck you?
>>44050839>The weaponized autistic jannies who totally can't look up people's IP's to dox and lolcow sure are fucking salty tonight. Enjoy living in the now. Loose ends get snippedi'm gonna be honest i don't know what that means, i just read something and got triggered and reacted to it instinctively, i will do better next time
>>44050852>I’m willing to settle for a trannyMy vagina cost more than your house, you're not coming near me
>>44050983Sorry babe, got a different flag, dresses aren't really my thing. Only if I'm feeling lovey, otherwise youre getting the rockstar fit. You can rip my jeans though
>>44042719Wow, I just realised that today, great...>>44050852Really anon? What are you like, are you a masculine dude? I have a 17.8 BMI.
>>44051068>no gockngmi. maybe go after trans men.
>>44051105Nope I’m 6’3 and built like a xenomorph, kinda caked up for some reason though
>>44051125Oh no, gross horrible chasers will stay away, how awful
i want someone to obsess over again, it's been so long. but i interpret everyone negatively and am sensitive and prone to lashing out so i can't even make friends very well. i think i'm not a very enjoyable person to be around but at least i'm lucky enough to find some basic hobbies fairly fulfilling. i still crave deep connection really badly though
AvPD and autism made me a complete mess socially. i can try masking as hard as i can at work to at least seem like a human being(barely works) but the moment someone actually tries to get close to me, everything falls apart again.>>44042719I don't know when or if ive realized but ive been trying to accept being alone. i cant even count the times ive been hurt or hurt others while trying to create bonds. im just not build for this.the worst part is everyone telling me again and again "you need other people to be happy", but i cant have other people. its not a question of wanting. i can only people that i can find happiness in other ways in this world.
>>44052357I just learnt to mask at work which involved creating a persona
>>44052401A what
>>44042719im so jealous of those onlyfans twitter trannies where life is just like a constant orgy and validation for them... i know thats a pathetic thing to be envious of but its true.
>>44052590i get you.
>>44045846i make everyone miserable and also make my probably bit closer than friend best friend with bpd miserable too and she also makes me miserable
im sry u alll sffr all avpd r my frends so u will alwys hve 1
