Thinking about life and transition, making this post as a way to vent and think.>be me>age 26>on hrt 8 years>still live as a man>live in rural state>too scared to transition>feel happy with changes HRT made>still feel immense dysphoria from time to time>get sad most of the time I go to the mall since I can never dress like a woman (idk why this makes it sad but it does)>at a point where idek if I'm trans anymore or if I just a have a feminization/sissy fetish >think about srs but it seems scary and i worry if i might not like it>think about girlmoding but it seems scary, hard, and like it'd ruin my life>think about moving away to a big city but i'm comfy in my mom's houseidekI think I just feel torn between going "fuck it we ball" and just moving to a big city and transmaxxing and live as a tranny woman or just continuing to fester away alone in my childhood room as a eunuch boo ridley, each day losing more and more youth until I sui b4 30idk.Has anyone else been in this position? What did you guys do?How do you know if you are really trans?How do you know if girlmoding would make you happy?How do you know if you should leave your city and start a new life?How do you know if you should surgically invert your penis?
I'm same age as you and started same time hrt but I moved out of my parents house to the city but I stil boymode lol
>>44059138>How do you know if you are really trans?you are>How do you know if girlmoding would make you happy?it will>How do you know if you should surgically invert your penis?you shouldyw.
>>44059138do you have money?if so, gtfo of parents house. it is of utmost importance. do you want to die a man?
>>44059167what is the city like?what do you do for work?are you able to save money?any plans to girlmode?>>44059195woaw...>>44059248i would like to buy a house one day though
>>44059283Im person #3and yeah. I would love a house too.but let me be clear: if u dont position yourself to reduce barriers to social transition, you will just keep repping. And if you keep repping, there is a very high chance u will kill yourself. protect ur survival first. u can still get a house one day if ur smart about it.
>>44059138i say this as nicely as I can but you kind of sound like a loser OPnot in the youre a bum on the street way but due to the fact that you are pushing 30 and are so afraid to be yourself you would rather walk around as a man and spend your time browsing 4chan at your mom's houseget it togetherLike shit, I'm in the closet but my excuse is that I'm 18 and have no resourcesYou're old
>>44059314brootal but yeah op this commenter is kind if correct..Dont beat urself up about it tho. Use it as motivation.
>>44059283i work a boring office job and i save a lot of money. I don't even make that much but i save a lot just because i dont really buy much. it's kinda chill i just walk around and check out parks. i dont have any plans to girmode cuz im retarded and pussy
>>44059312ugh you're probably right...>>44059314give it some time hon, it could happen to you before you know it....>>44059330i see i see
>>44059330u should girlmode. you are brave and intelligent and capable :)
>>44059138You aren't alone. it sounds like we are in the same position, honestly, office job saving money while living with parents and all, except I'm 4 yrs hrt @ 22Does anyone know? My parents saw my most recent hrt package and opened it. It went better than expected (not great, still..). Do you have any friends that might be accepting? Do you think you could reasonably pass or atleast not embarass yourself? These are the questions I've been asking myself lately.>>44059248housing is expensive. tbhon, it feels pretty good to save so much for future housing and surgeries and whatnot>>44059314you'll probably be me in 4 years and OP in another 4 lol
>>44059248>>44059283>>44059759>housing is expensivelove how like half this thread is literally just the late capitalism experience troon edition
>>44059138> 8 years> doesnt girlmodeCis women pass bald in men’s clothes - how hon are u?
>>44059138>How do you know if you are really trans?I struggle with this immensely>if I was really trans, I'd have transitioned long ago instead of repping for so long>but cishets don't think about these things literally ever in their lives>and even before I knew what transexuality was, I knew something was wrong>yet if I was really trans, I'd have transitioned long ago instead of repping for so long>etc
>>44060394you're really trans
>>44059312>And if you keep repping, there is a very high chance u will kill yourself.It's really not a big deal for some people. Like I don't have an irl social life so I don't really care if the old relatives/friends I see like twice a year or the randoms on the bus think I'm a man
>>44059356>>44059759nopethe second I come out I am blocking this website on my browser and never coming hereI am deathly afraid of getting addicted to this place and being an old tranny still kicking it on passgen or some shit>give it some time honIdt im a hon desu at least not the stereotypical kindim black and short kek
>>44060937I feel weird even being on this board considering how fucking racist it is on this 4chanIdk if that's betraying the stereotype of being a black hussie(being agp seems like a white exclusive thing for the most part)
>>44060962>I feel weird even being on this board considering how fucking racist it is on this 4chanThere are racists on every corner of this website but there are plenty of people who have been exhausted of the retarded /pol/ shit infesting every board for the past however long. and people use 'nigger' here just because they can, same way '-fag' gets appended to everything or normal people use profanity like 'fuck' in contexts unrelated to the real meaning>being agp seems like a white exclusive thing for the most parttragic
>>44060962>I feel weird even being on this board considering how fucking racist it is on this 4chanthe entire rest of the site sees trannies as like the ur-evil after mass /pol/ infection I was here before racism was normalized too and I'll be here for a long time beyondget out now if you think you canbut most of us are here forever
>>44060962>>44061047oldfags will know that prior the arrival of the 2016 election tourists, the sale of the site to hiroshimoot, gamergate, and especially before moot was getting buttfucked by Epstein's buddies for cash to keep the servers running, this site wasn't so anti-trans
>>44061129distinctly remember pre-2015 threads on /b/ with trans posters who were just like, the local flavor (getting banned for avataring a lot)4chan used to be just weirdos not weirdos through the fucking looking glass of the americanized right wingim so fucking ancient
>>44061129I see it starting to revert back a bit. Like on /v/ or something when someone randomly brings up trannies mid thread they get ignored a lot of the time or even told to fuck off. Not all the time but way more than 3 years ago
>>44059138girl, please listen because this is really important. You need to dedicate the next year of your life to move to a relatively accepting city and starting a new life. I know it’s scary, but you’re committing suicide every day the way you’re going right now. If you move to a city, make an income, and girlmode, your entire life will open up. You can be happy I promise you. It was the scariest time in my life but I can’t even imagine if I didn’t go through with it. I believe in you, I really do. Please live it’s not too late and you’re stronger than you know
>>44061204trump fever is coming to an end and the people consumed in it are reverting to the labor-leftish politics they always should've had out of their own self interest (and 4chan posters god willing are reverting to just being strange)there'll always be some scars though
>>44059138im about to turn 30 and my "transition" was a predictable failure since im very avoidant, anxious and ultimately what i hate the most is my bone structure which hrt does nothing about. the only thing hrt did that i like is make me less hairy.
>>44061260you dont know anyone elses life but your own, you dont know anything. guess what, if you're born in poverty, the third world, bad genes etc. you have no chance, some people have no chance. what will it take for you to get this.
>>44061742there was more than enough information in op's post to discern that she has many options. you're right as a general matter but that's irrelevant here
>>44059138time to start moving to an actual city and not some backwards shithole state. I'd suggest chicago but if you come up to the tranny capital of mpls I'll buy u a drink. But seriously it'll be the best move you make. just gotta find a job after you move here so save up
>>44060923it is a big deal that youre living like that.you arent getting the necessary amount of social contact and feeling if belonging. Its bad for u
>>44061838>tranny capital of mplsis it really? I like the timberwolvesnot from anywhere remotely nearby
>>44061838watch out in this heat wave nona
>>44061854idk but it's the place a lot of trans people move to because it's the cheapest blue city in a blue state. I live in loring park so I can walk over to the 19 any thursday and meet a bunch of other trans people. I'm early in transition and retarded so I don't but you can probably make a ton of trans friends.I don't like the twolves but they are pretty beloved. sounds like you gotta make a move. (chicago is still better tho)
>>44061884my job has the ac cranked so the hoodie is NOT coming off
>>44061893omg nooooo i didnt realize u were boymoding….the season of boymoder death… if ur too hot theyre too hot let them inside…
>>44061885girl go frolic with the other trannies im begging u… just be brave. u can do it…
>>44061916I'm manmoding because i'm retarded and repped too long. i dont have boobs but the nipples are big and poke out now :(
>>44061930no such thing as too long girl… how long have u been on hrt? and do u have any trans friends/ people ur out to in the city?
>>44061955about a month. I dated a tgirl and now we are friends but I got a little beef with her lol. I have some acquaintances through her but I don't know those girls well. I had some hookups/dates pre hrt but no friends otherwise. I've been semi open about being non binary with non-work people but I'm probably a woman now when i get laser. idk.
>>44059138Idk but stay goated nona
>>44061987damn huh… congrats i suppose, u just started. how old are u, if i may ask?
>>4406200928. I repped pretty hard and I'm still unsure of everything. I'm hoping to move again to restart everything but that might be a mistake cuz mpls isn't bad
>>44062026mpls is very good! Yeah, if you dont have a fucked reputation then no need to move, i dont think.sorry you repped so long. till 24 for me. Your next year will be very intense… hopefully mostly in the good way
>>44061742>b-but what if I’m a quadriplegic in a small Indian village in the 5th century if the message to not give up is so offensive to you I think you have some internal work to do and I hope you can come out on the other side
>>44062250trvke
>>44061838everyone hates trannies here tooin fact, I found people were nicer to me down in like southern indiana
