>he's never going to feel true love for me>he will never see me as his girlfriend or eventually his wife>he will never see me as anything other than a joke>he will continue to string me along with scraps of affection while i cry almost every night cause he will never hold me>he'll never be the one protecting me every day and night>i'll never walk around with him and hold hands>i'll never even be a human being to him>at best i will just be an object of his lust, and even then, barely>all of the empty platitudes and fantasies he has told me are just ways to hurt me and laugh at me>im in my room drinking alone again wishing he was here with me anywayhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KndF53aAtNI
>>44204089im so tired, i dont understand why it has to be this way for me. i dont understand why i couldnt just be a normal man or a woman. i wish i could change, i do, but i never will because this is just who i am unfortunately. i just want to be his, but he doesn't want me. i can't even fault him, because who would want me? my beauty is skin-deep, i'm wombless so i might as well be dead. at least an infertile woman still has a vagina and all of the organs to make her produce estrogen, is still biologically a woman... i'm just some kind of third sexed thing, unholy by nature and miserable because of it. i just want him to love me. he will say he does and then in the next breath just fuck with me because it's funny. i would too, if i was him, i can't even be upset. trannies are disgusting. i'm disgusting. i just wish he could even see me as something other than a mentally raped eunuch. i just want to be his wife, i want to take care of him and his home, i want to have his children, i just want to have that life so fucking bad. why do i even care? i thought i was attracted to women for the longest time but it's literally been a cope to avoid the agonizing pain of this fucking lack, the lack of the ability to give a man anything other than my worthless body which isn't even good for being used. i can't get over it. i can't get over it. and he will never fucking leave me alone, even though he doesn't want me in any real way, he just enjoys toying with me so much that he will follow me around on the internet for years. if you're reading this, which you probably are, i don't understand you and i never will. i still love you anyway ahahahahahha fucking hell if i wasnt a coward id just order sn and kill myself. not proofreading so sorry if its an illegible mess
>>44204089Nona I know how you feel. He swears in his girlfriend and that he loves me and care more about me than anything but won’t so much as kiss me. He says it’ll get better eventually but we used to kiss, now we don’t, we had sex once, now we never do and he says he doesn’t want to anymore with me. He says I’m still his girlfriend though but what is the point if I can’t even kiss him on the cheek without feeling guilty knowing he’s just letting me for my own entertainment and doesn’t like it.
>>44204164it's such genuine suicide fuel im not going to get over him for months and months either im so tired. and he'll keep reeling me back in. for what? i don't even know why, cause he doesn't want me. nobody does, and if they do it's because they're gooners or closeted troons so what's the point. i will never be any man's wife.
>>44204179I’m sorry nona, I think we’re in almost the same situation. I don’t know what to do either. I thought I could move on but I’m so attached I don’t think I can pair bond with anyone else. I’m so paranoid dating bc one of my exes trooned too so I feel that so much.Maybe it’ll be okay though, I pray it is for you and you get your beloved husband
>>44204206sadly i think this will just be the new norm for me, either that or dating a "man" that's going to troon within the next year i'm just going to have to accept it's over
>countless chasers on 4chan waiting>"hurr durr but le ldrs bad actually killing myself is better!"ecks dee. femcels don't exist whether they're cis or trans. nice picture though.
>>44204247he's literally in another country right now you stupid fuck it is an LDR, im going to kill you then blow my brains out on top of your fat disgusting choid body
>>44204260>someone loves me but like I can't be next to him for a whileoh wow, such suffering. try being an actual incel.
it took me too long to discover this but this is why t4t is the only way
>>44204260>>44204274nvm both of u should kiss actually
>>44204274did you even read my post or did you just come in here to cope out and hijack my thread? he doesnt love me, retard, that's why i'm upset. he doesn't want me and never will. it's not about being far away for him. i'd wait years for this fucking asshole but he'll just continue to lead me on, as i said in my previous comments. but you just came in here to be an attention whoring faggot so you might as well troon cause you're acting like a foid. maybe that's why women don't want you.
>>44204284i tried t4t for years, t4c, just being with women in general. i don't want that anymore. i want to be with a man. i just want to be a man that will give me something that could be vaguely recognized as a traditional relationship. but tranny degenerates don't get that. we either get chasers that will troon out on us or force us to top them after we become reliant on them, or people that essentially farm us for entertainment until we go fucking insane. that's my life now. as you can see it's driven me to complete and utter lunacy.
>>44204089I have been stringing 3 lonely AGP boys along in my dms like this because of the extra attentionbuxx and I cant tell if youre one of them because every now and than they bitch and whine the exact same way you do and I have to act like a father and than spit some vague platitudes to get em to shup upNot a policule btw, theyre juat not aware of each other but are vaguely aware that I talk to other people and consider actual cis woman as a higher priority than giving attention to themTheyre all fatter than me too lmaoLozerzzz
>>44204290i found my gf by finding a tranny complaining about being a femcel on another board.>>44204299>he doesnt love menigga then find someone else, lol. there are countless chasers on this board and other boards desu. it's really not that hard.also, why haven't you killed yourself yet? it's extremely easy to do in any western country. you obviously aren't really that sad. you just are too scared to try to date someone new bc fear of rejection or something
>>44204326Holy crop please tell me this is fake. I want to cut after reading that, even if I try to get a different guy it will probably be a catfish or guy larping
>>44204333>chasersyeah case in point i dont want to be with a man who is obsessed with my penis (which i am extremely dysphoric about), i'm glad your girlfriend (rapehon) is okay with that but for me personally i'm not agp and don't want a moid to play with my """gock""". thanks. >why haven't you killed yourself yet?nigger
>>44204326>larp larp larpk
>>44204349they don't have to be obsessed with your penis. idk what else you would expect, though? you can't be that desperate if you can't accept a guy who likes trannies and is fine not touching pp>your girlfriend (rapehon) lol no>niggerno, actually. what stops you? are you just playing it up for the thread?
>>44204364>you can't be that desperateyou're right, i'm not, i just want to be with him, not someone who's obsessed with trannies and wants to exclusively date trannies. i liked him because he didn't like me by virtue of my transness, he liked my personality. me just being a biological moid ruined any chances of it being anything more than that. idk why you can't comprehend that some people aren't so desperate they'll just settle. i'll never settle. i only want to be with people i feel a maddening love for. i'm not just going to make a 4chan post and accept attention from literally any moid who will give it to me, that's extremely pathetic. but that's most trans women on here so i understand why you'd assume that.>what stops you?there is more to life than love despite my coping out so i'll always keep living if it means i can feel the wind in my hair and the sun on my skin. it's just painful and i'm drunk and upset. waow it's almost like i've been on estrogen for 4 years and have highly emotional/unstable responses to things and feel in extremes!i wonder how long it will take until your straight relationship becomes t4t once you troon out
>>44204387I’m desperate enough for chaser cock as long as he isn’t a repper or bottom
>>44204089Thank goodness you can read minds! imagine if you had to just guess and make stuff up and BELIEVE people when they speak, just to know!?
>>44204342I mean feel free to but that's a dumb reason to cut and youd be a fucking retard for doing it. You shouldnt put all your emotional weight into 1 guy regardless, it's entirelybyour fault you're feeling like this and I hold no empathy towards them precisely because it's entirely their fault for THIS needy as well and always going "ohhhh you can do whatever you want with meeee :333" like boy I sure will until you learn thats a dumb thing to say the hard way, cant do much through text thoughHe is not the issue, the long distance is not the issue, (you) are and (you) shouldnt act out or be a nonsense to his life regardless
>>44204406Sorry if that came across as a bit mean I was venting a bit but no human being could ever singlehandedly carry the weight of another grown adult all by themselves and that's a stupid thing to demand to begin with
>>44204400retard if he felt that way he wouldn't basically fuck with me for months on end and even after i literally sob and tell him how much i love him the next day he just treats me like his moid buddy that he likes to make fun of, sounds like you're the one who thinks they can read minds and analyze situations with minimal context. maybe you should take my word for it and realize i have no fucking reason to lie on my vent posted to an anonymous basket weaving forum you fucking tard. honestly everyone flooding my thread with annoying bullshit is helping me not think about him so thanks jeetz>>44204391yeah but the looming fear of them just hiding it is too much for me. i can understand liking troonz for their male socialized personalities or whatever but the dread of knowing they might just be hiding their true intentions waiting for the right moment is too distressing for me. at least with him i never had to worry about having to fuck him up the ass or worry about him trooning. if i ever try again im gonna be constantly thinking about it. desu it is my fault because i threw away multiple good guys after deluding myself into "muh transbianism"
>>44204414It’s okay, I’m an idiot I know I’m just angry I feel like I wasted years of my life on a relationship I should have known wasn’t working years ago, and I’m scared I’ll just get pulled back on
>>44204387Not interested in trooning. I'm glad you're not actually suicidal and are just attentionwhoring
