hungry hungry hungry hungrythirsty thirsty thirsty thirstyhow long can i go withoutwhat i need
i dont want to be alone anymorei dont wantto have nobody to talk toanymore
>>82606026What's your reason for having no one to talk to?
>>82605615Spa is that you!?
>>82606250nobody.. exists? like that? anymore? i don't get this question. why don't they exist? in short, i am too clingy,n ot good enough, shouldn't exist, plenty of reasons, but they all boil down to my fault.
>>82605615Do you really need food? You most likely need water.
>>82606292Fair enough.Are you going to strive for change, or are you destined to rot out for the rest of your days?I mean this in honesty, but if you really do crave others and you're self aware as you seem to be, you can do it. It's not easy though, obviously.
>>82606373i have been changing and trying and failing and being rejected for longer than i care to admit. i don't care to try anymore. i will rot with envy and jealousy instead. there is no magical world where i end up connecting, the red string of fate is severed and incinerated. i am too hungry and nothing i eat makes it go away.
>>82606428A shame.Tip for hunger though: Drink a full big cup of water, wait 10 mins. Only then eat, assuming you're still hungry.Get well soon~
>>82606454there is no water cup of human affection to fill myself up on
>>82606373not OP, but being self aware makes things harder. you start questioning your actions in a rather demeaning way.>>82605615i made a friend on here like half a year ago, i was her only friend. she was nice and fun to talk to, but she was very clingy and insecure. she tried taking all of my time, all day. it was draining for me, but it was understandable because she was all alone and i just didn't have a lot of free time so it was not going to work. are you a neet? is something else going on in your life right now?
>>82606477i have nothing going on in my life at all anymore. everything has fallen apart.
>>82605615>>82606026>>82606292>>82606428>>82606475>>82606492did you draw those of just took it from somewhere?
>>82606492then what are you waiting for? you can't live like this forever. what has fallen apart? did someone break up with you?
>>82606515theyre from pinterest
>>82606515Spa took them from Pinterest o algo
>>82606529>>82606534thanks frens you are my favorite frens <3 mwah
>>82606477>not OP, but being self aware makes things harder. you start questioning your actions in a rather demeaning way.It's a necessity though. But "hurting yourself" is part of the process, picture it as climbing somewhere rocky while you see your knees and hands get cut. But you're still climbing, right? Giving up is way easier though~>>82606475>there is no water cup of human affection to fill myself up onDo you play any games, read manga or stuff like that, nonny? I've taken a bit of interest.
>>82606550no, it's not a necessity and you are not necessarily climbing, you are just hurting yourself. we need to stop romanticizing the suffering of people and try to help them instead. OP needs to see that there are people out there that are willing to listen, to care, to be that kind of person they might be looking for. you can be a person like this for them. no need for rocky ways.
>>82606517all of my persoinal relations. and yes.>>82606534i am not spa,,>>82606550all my passions and hobbies are in greyscale and no longer give me any sense of accomplishment or happiness. doing things by myself or for myself makes me mentally distraught. i want to share things with someone close to me. i want to do things with someone close to me. i want to be close. i want to talk about silly daily platitudes and nonsensical things.>>82606600i have searched for so long for those people and stumbled and fumbled everything away. i do not think i will find such things again, in a way that interests and makes me obsessed, again.
>>82606600I'm not saying there's no other ways, and I agree that you can seek/help someone without the need for hurting, but I can't in good consciousness tell someone to rely on it, it's exceedingly rare.For self awareness it is though. A huge part of it is discovering yourself, the good and the bad. And the bad? That stuff hurts, it's inevitable. Thing is that hurting is the same proof that you care about yourself enough to give a shit about it, it's growth. It hurts real good, no kinkshame. Just... don't get yourself stuck on a self-pity cycle, it can happen, we're human.You have a good heart though nonny, likely enough to still disagree with me here~
>>82606611You are spa don't lie to me
>>82606611being alone truly is a horriblemaybe you'll find someone one day
>>82606611>all of my persoinal relations. and yesdid you nuke them all at once?>>82606611>have searched for so long for those peoplei am 30 years old and i found a person like that a year ago. though i don't think being obsessed is healthy for anyone
>>82606611>all my passions and hobbies are in greyscale and no longer give me any sense of accomplishment or happiness. doing things by myself or for myself makes me mentally distraught. i want to share things with someone close to me. i want to do things with someone close to me. i want to be close. i want to talk about silly daily platitudes and nonsensical things.I know you know this but you got depression, clear-cut right there. My condolences though, you yearn for true connection, huh? Well, it has to start somewhere. Interpersonal relationships are complicated, but at it's core it's still an exchange of interests and trust, until it builds up enough that it doesn't even need maintenance or risks breaking.I guess in your analogy, it becomes a WATER TANK, like a HUMONGOUS water tank you can DROWN ON~
>>82606644>picoof...
>>82605615food and water probably very soon
>>82606635>I can't in good consciousness tell someone to rely on it, it's exceedingly rare.yeah, but it's the same with hurting. i'm going to follow your analogy. you don't go climbing without gear. a person that wants to feel obsessed, basically fused with the other person is rarely going to work, unless you find another person exactly like you. that will inevitably lead you to loneliness. there's something we have to address before the person goes climbing again, and we don't really know much about OP. >likely enough to still disagree with me here~pretty much, but i can see through your words that you want to help and be there for OP and people in general, which is already pretty rare on r9k. i just don't think suffering or hurting is needed for growth.
>>82606639i have no idea who that is>>82606648no they disintegrated over time adn culminated into what i have today, ntohing>>82606661yes, i know i am depressed. the cause is constant social isolation and lack of intimacy. it has started somewhere and ended everywhere again and again and again and i am tired of it. i dont have hte nergy to "start somewhere" again when thats what ive done all my life.i want to drown on love ghghjk>>82606713probably never again sis
>>82607133>the cause is constant social isolation and lack of intimacyStop running away from people who get close to you, simple.
>>82606026you can message me on discord: areyoumypersonmaybe I am your person! >>82607133drink water it make you feel better :)
>>82605615>its on its dryfasting arc nowthis greatly exacerbates mental illness ime and you are already a very annoying cunt, good luck
>>82607307i literally run after people close to me until it explodes.>>82607340its a metaphor but i could do with losing sweight anyway i guess
I weigh 160lbs and am 6'0 how big are you mentally distraught one
>>82607351>i literally run after people close to me until it explodes.I don't at all believe you. Your image choices, what you say, and how you act are hallmark BPD or PTSD case. You people are all the same. You think they leave, you think they are mad at you, or you think hate you when they don't. So you ghost or abandon them, while saying they're the ones who left you first. I guarantee it.
>>82607385i am diagnosed menhera but not bpd. i do have ptsd though. no i do not ghost or abandon people, i keep people in my lives as desperately as i can because i have nothing going on anymore>>82607371about same since last you asked sis
>>82607416>about same since last you asked sisI'm a boy! With boy parts, like a brother! :)
>>82607416You have stuff goin on everyday you're just too busy living to notice it!
>>82607437pray tell 3 things in my life then stalkerchama because last i looked i rot in the same 20 foot radius every day
>>82607133>no they disintegrated over time adn culminated into what i have today, ntohingwhere are you from? what kind of people do you like talking to?
>>82607466You drink a bit of waterYou piss a bit of pissYou post and give me a (You)~That's 3 thinks I know about you~~~Maybe if you open the door to your head, and show me the way to your bed I'll take you out on walkies ^3^
>>82607466>Drinks white monster>sits cross legged/knees up on PC chair more often than "normal" sitting>likes sushi
>omg anon no way I can't let you into my bed you'll rape mebitch it's the only place i can pick up your hand since you're so eepy
>>82607477the US. people who are as terminally online and internet poisoned and menhera, but people still adjusted enough that i can meet them in person. i want real life friends but i cant stand real life people you meet outside.<82607504weird post so no (you) for you so you dont get 3 things. i am a dog that needs walking and socializing though close guess>>82607533pink monster or red bull late ybecause white is sold outya sur eeveryone does thiseveryone likes sushi it comes free with beibng a weeb
>>82607504I'll give your (You), made me laugh>pink monster or red bull late ybecause white is sold outya sur eeveryone does thiseveryone likes sushi it comes free with beibng a weebI diagnose you with chronic white girl. I fucking hate sushi. I also can't really sit like that on the chair, hurts me legs.Also ew, US? EUGH
>>82607598Meant to reply to >>82607572oopsie daisy
>>82607598i wouldnt suggest attempting to become a doctor
>>82607572>i can meet them in person.i got filtered out real quick haha dang
>>82607598>>82607572Looks like I got my (You) anyway puppy Good girl! ^_^I am so happy~ Mwah I go sleep now, I am american too but my sleep schedule is sooo fucked uP! >_<I don't EVER meet iRL people because I HATE going outside but i would make exception if you were chill
>>82607612It's not just because of this one in particular but....>>82607385 was right. You really do type exactly like that, it's unpleasant to read.I hope you find who you're looking for though, good luck.
Oh wait I didn't get a You at all T_THow sadI only got a (You) from not the person.Now i'll never get to put a collar on op since sshe hates me. Sad day.
Every time the BPD person doesn't want to be clingy to me because I'm too nice.The only way to get a BPD person is to be like really mean and spit on them and say go kill yourself BPD person, but then they cry and go die and I don't want that I want the BPD person to thrive and stop bed rotting and get sunshine and be happy so WHY IS IT LIKE THIS WHY WON"T THE BPD PERSON JUST CLING TO MEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
>Ew you're creepy>ew you're weirdLike bitch you're wearing a diaper haven't showered in a month and are covered in self harm wounds I think becoming my princess puppy dog would be the LEAST of your worries
>>82607671talking about bedding people in 2 posts makes you very weird you should probably try to be friends to people before saying those kind of things>>82607668i found everyone i wanted and then i lost them all. the point is to have given up on finding again.>>82607725touch grass
>>82607735>talking about bedding people in 2 posts makes you very weird you should probably try to be friends to people before saying those kind of thingsBitch I would not "Bed you" until I have your father's permission and we are married and if you're not a virgin I would never "bed you"I explain It is the only way to touch your hand because look at you bed rotter no leave house sad cause no grass, sad cause no sun, where did my people go wah wah YOU ABANDON THEM ALL
>>82607735>friends to people before saying those kind of thingsFriends before sex? So you have sex with your friends? and I'm the disgusting one? I am the creep? YOU DON"T HAVE SEX WITH YOUR FRIENDS YOU WEIRDO
>>82607735>i found everyone i wanted and then i lost them all. the point is to have given up on finding again.Don't lie to me, Walt, I feel as if you still have hopes. I understand though.Do you still think about the ones you lost as you mull on days like these, nonny?
>>82607735>i found everyone i wanted and then i lost them all. the point is to have given up on finding again.Is that really what happened or are you lying to yourself and to others.Did you sleep with these people without commitment?Did you lead them on forever?Were they your same gender or different gender? Do you even know what a friend is?
>>82607774i'm thinking about them right nyow... part of being menhera and obsessive is to have your mind churning n thinking n contemplating and...hope just makes me hurt i don't want to have any.
>>82607504>I'll take you out on walkies ^3^>I'll take you out on walkies ^3^>I'll take you out on walkies ^3^>I'll take you out on walkies ^3^AS IF I IMPLIED SEX AT ALL YOU WHOREYOUR BEDROOM IS THE ONLY PLACE YOU ARE YOU SAYSAME 20 FT RADIUS EVERYDAYSO YOU NEVER LEAVE YOUR BEDWHERE ELSE WOULD I GO TO TAKE YOU FOR WALKYOU SO RAGEBAIT
eating alone sucks..
>>82608982Your rage bait is disgusting. Get over yourself tranny
ohh i recognize this person. disgusting
>>82609186i assure you i am not anyone you know
