Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supportIT'S... MONDAY :oHello>How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
hiiHere's a bunch of helpful links> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7> first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/>a wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic> bpd workbook:https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read>a bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
>>82864005>>How are you doing today?I am still sick and useless.>>Any plans for today?I finished my new OS and it runs wine and games just fine.>>Is there anything bothering you right now?Just being sick i guess.>Good newsI went to a haunted trail last weekend and had lots of fun. >>82864005hi cat, how was your day?
hi>>82864005hru cat?>How are you doing today?fine , nothing new gladfully>Any plans for today?almost finished studying, i have to study a tiny bit more so i'll leave it for now for some hourshow was your day cat?what are you doing now?
>>82864255hey>still sick and uselessthat's sucks :<you gotta recover before being useful that's normal >runs wine and games just finegood job was it difficult?>haunted trail last weekend and had lots of fun.any spooky happening happened?>>82864333Hellofool trips >nothing new gladfullythat's nice, so can you just telax today?>study a tiny bit more hope it's not difficult :<>>82864333>>82864255>how was your day?I went to a pretty big bike ride and had fun yayoh and I saw a rabbit
>>82864455>that's nice, so can you just telax today?yep :>>hope it's not difficult yes dw it's not>I went to a pretty big bike ride and had fun yayawesome pal! i suppose that took hours right?>rabbitrabbit! what color was it?
>>82864776>yep :>woo :Dso how have you been relaxin?>it's notgood>suppose that took hours right?yep about 8>rabbit! yep I was riding through a park after dark and I ran alongside me for a bit>what color was it?grey with black bits o the end of his ears :3
>>82864455>was it difficult?Downloading the new distros I was trying took forever. But other then that, it was fine. I had to go with a less secure OS to keep the programing language simple for me.>any spooky happening happened?It wasn't as fun as last year. But that might be because we went on friday instead of the weekend. Or I was just prepared. Last year, Half the staff chased me as soon as I bought the ticket. This year, there were 3 of the main guys greeting us and I checked every corner.We did have some fun just messing around with the characters and screaming for no reason. I liked the doctor character that tried to see my teeth.>oh and I saw a rabbitcool rabbit.We had a guy dressed as a rabbit. I think he had less grease and baby oil this time.>>82864333hi rem>almost finished studyinghave you leanrt a lot.
>>82864941>so how have you been relaxin?watched some yt videos whlile eatingi ate a chocolate and i don't feel wellit didn't taste really good and i felt something in my stomach while eatingbut its okay>yep about 8woah that's alot i didn't expect that, glad you had fun!i like it, i hope i can have something like that soon>ran alongside me for a bitcute bunny :D>grey with black bits o the end of his earslovely!>>82864979cynic!>have you leanrt a lotyeah i suppose
>How are you doing today?Meh, didn't get to studying like I wanted to. >Any plans for today?4chan then text bf.>When was the last time you hurt yourself?It's been years but I started to miss it a lot. Not even an orgasm can bring the relief that cutting did. I hate myself for cutting deep enough to get scars, but those were the best one desu. Just seeing the blood come out brings a relief. >Why did you hurt yourself?Was a fat autistic uggo that got bullied. >Is there anything bothering you right now?Trying my hardest not to get into cutting again, but it's hard to resist.
>>82865171that's me, didn't notice the name
>>82864005It's so sad that femboys are only interested in other femboys. Take /cat/ for example. He doesn't want me because I'm big and hairy. He wants someone who looks like him. Smol, petite femboy.
berry tirerI'm going to sleep so goodnight friends >>82864979>did have some funthat's what matters it sounds like fun though I thought it'd be like a hiking trail thats rumored to be very haunted >think he had less grease and baby oil this time.huh?!>>82865171>ate a chocolate and i don't feel wellstupid chocolate! D;>hope i can have something like that soonooo are you gonna go on a bikeride too?
i cant sleep..>>82865807 #>gonna go on a bikeride too?yeah maybe one day, i'd like to
Just sliced my face, with a boxcutter. Right eye to bottom of cheek. To intimidate a wife beater. She cuts herself too, because of him. I intend to be his end. I feel no pleasure from doing things like this but it is a necessary evil, makes me look like a victim. The hunt continues. I'm already scarred to shit but i need fresh ones for plausible deniability. She won't need to cut anymore, not when my mission is finished.
>>82864005hey everyone, i installed cyberpunk finally and cleaned up my drive for a bit. apparently i had around 50gb of bogus shit
hey was busy but thought id post once cause school starts back tomorrow so will probably be too busy with that. got this cute elephant plushie as a late birthday present which is cute>>82865192hey anon. cutting is oddly additive in the worst way possible, i haven't done it in a while and i can barely resist it myself, hope you can feel better at least <3
>>82864005hi catbro. sorry for being super late again. went into the deadmines with my friends again and this time we cleared it. \o/>>82864255>I am still sickget well soon!>and useless.are not. :<>I finished my new OS and it runs wine and games just fine.good job!>>82864333hi rem! hope you're doing well and thst studying went well.>>82865192>didn't get to studying like I wanted to.hm. maybe you'll get to it tomorrow?>4chan then text bf.did you have a good time? and what did you guys talk about?>It's been years but I started to miss it a lot.you think you can fight the urge?>Was a fat autistic uggo that got bullied.sorry that happened to you. :<>it's hard to resist.you can do it, fren. i believe in you. (*^*)9>>82865807sleep tight!>>82866079hm. not sure if what you're doing will have the desired result. can't you call the cops or some other institution on him?>>82866491hi chev!>i installed cyberpunkhow's the game? having fun?>apparently i had around 50gb of bogus shitthat's a lot! :0 i guess stuff accumulates over time.>>82866629hey, buddy! :D>school starts back tomorrow so will probably be too busy with thatthat's ok. just try to have as much of a good time as possible. just make sure to stop by from time to time and tell us how it's going, ok?
>>82865301Why is the femboy ignoring me? Can anyone else weigh in on this?
>>82866696>just make sure to stop by from time to time and tell us how it's going, ok?of course I'll always make sure i take time<3
>>82866703probably because he's asleep?>>82866710>I'll always make sure i take time<3looking forward to it. (^-^)how's your day? any preparations for tomorrow or just chilling?
>>82866629Thanks, it just gets triggered when I have period because I see the blood and think "oh right cutting exists".>>82866696Installed a productivity app that helped some, maybe I'll get into the habit soon... We talked about his work my studying and what we'd do if we suddenly got rich. I don't think I can fight the urge for longer than a week this time it's too strong.
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>>82864005>>How are you doing today?Im doing alright, nothing noteworthy.>>Any plans for today?Play a shitty online game with friends late then sleep. Wash later probably.>>Is there anything bothering you right now?Mostly that I ate like shit for the past few days and bloated up to 160. Gonna try and drop back down to 150 or less.
>>82866802>how's your day? any preparations for tomorrow or just chilling?it's okay so far. and probably not as much as i should lol mainly have been chilling. how was your day?>>82866816>see the blood and think "oh right cutting exists".oh makes sense and that's a hard trigger to avoid in some ways>>82866899have fun with friends and stay safe
>>82866816>Installed a productivity app that helped some, maybe I'll get into the habit soon...the hardest part is always sitting down to start. if it helps with that, you should be on a good way.>We talked about his work my studying and what we'd do if we suddenly got rich.hope both is going well. and what would you do? i'd probably do absolutely nothing differently... ^^'>I don't think I can fight the urge for longer than a week this time it's too strong.just make sure that you don't go to hard on yourself and that you have everything to patch yourself up. stay safe. >>82866899hello, anon! :]>Im doing alright, nothing noteworthythat's good. if something noteworthy happens it's ususlly a problem.>Play a shitty online game with friends late then sleepdid the same today. what did you play?>I ate like shit for the past few days and bloated up to 160i feel you. didn't eat as well i wanted to recently, either. :/ might be the season. hope you manage to reach that goal.
>>82866970>it's okay so far.glad to hear it. :>>and probably not as much as i should lolyou'll be fine. probably.>mainly have been chilling.good. no need to stress about stuff that hasn't happened yet. are you watching anything?>how was your day?fine. went to work, got home, played some wow with my friends and that's about it. i should head to bed, though. it's getting quite late again.
>>82866970I appreciate this alot. Thank you.>>82866971>that's good. if something noteworthy happens it's ususlly a problem.Good or bad, its typically easier to get through the day if its quiet.>did the same today. what did you play?Minecraft server. I have a few other games in mind i want everyone to play but I dont have the funds to buy everyone a copy (nor the skills to convince them to play it anyways)>i feel you. didn't eat as well i wanted to recently, either. :/ might be the season. hope you manage to reach that goal.Ideally. Ive been stuck around 155 for the past few months after dropping from like 240ish in December. I still feel fat though so i wanna lose more.
>>82867039>its typically easier to get through the day if its quiet.word. fingers crossed tomorroe will be as well.>Minecraft serverat least you got something to kill some time with friends.>I have a few other games in mind i want everyone to playwhich games would that be?>I dont have the funds to buy everyone a copy (nor the skills to convince them to play it anyways)my brother wants to play arc raiders with me. neither my kind of game, nor my setting, but we haven't played anything together in quite some time, so i'll probably give it a go.>Ive been stuck around 155 for the past few months after dropping from like 240ish in Decembergood job, though! :D how did you manage?>I still feel fat though so i wanna lose more.it's a good goal, but don't be too fixated on the number, ok? watch out for other signs that's you're doing better, too.i'll be calling it a day now. good night, everyone!
>>82867099Sleep well.>word. fingers crossed tomorroe will be as wellI hope so.>at least you got something to kill some time with friends.I see them losing interest but its whatever. Nothing you can really "do" about it.>which games would that be?Project Zomboid. Favorite of mine.>my brother wants to play arc raiders with me. neither my kind of game, nor my setting, but we haven't played anything together in quite some time, so i'll probably give it a go.Its typically good to try new things. I hope you enjoy it!>good job, though! :D how did you manage?Ate less because I hated myself. Not a particularly inspiring story.>it's a good goal, but don't be too fixated on the number, ok? watch out for other signs that's you're doing better, too.Ill try.
>>82866696Police are useless here. It's up to me.
hi ^^my wounds started healing from last week >< so itchy tho...
still up! nice>>82866491yo chev>cyberpunkwoah how long did downloading it take?also hope you have a good day>>82866696yuanon!>deadminesworld of warcraft right? >hope you're doing we and thst studyjng went wellthanks, hope u2 doing well pal!>>82868637>started healingvery nice anon! stay safe :)>itchydon't worry, it'll be gone by time
good morning everyone, I'm so tired, and it's so cold I'm freezing >>82867002>you'll be fine. probably.i hope so hehe>are you watching anything?yeah but nothing really interesting >went to work, got home, played some wow with my friends and that's about itsounds like a pretty good and fun day I'd say, sounds great <3>should head to bedgoodnight and sleep well >>82868637hey that's great there healing, the itchynees is soo frustrating to deal with :/
good morning, everyone! don't have that much time rn, so i'll reply later.
>>82869650Good morning. Im a concerned friend of yours. Im glad youre okay but cold. Its very concerning when you dont answer messages.Is it snowing there yet or just freezing?
hey sorry for not replying ill do it when i have time but i have evening shift this week so 14-22 and have little time. germany was very pretty i always forget how flat and ugly the netherlands is also the autobahn makes traffic flow really nice. had a lotta fun tried to stop by an autohof first 3 times or so it failed because its kinda confusing but after that we got it down really cheap tabbaco so stocked up on that, also why sell vodka and cans of 1 liter beer at a gas station lolbut yea very fun just dont have a lot of time between work and friends and everything. also i remember you asking cat something about better hours with that i mean i can actually work fulltime here now off to work +___+
I haven't cut myself in over two weeks
hey guys :>>>82868637hello >wounds started healing from last week >< so itchy tho...you could put some moisturizer on them it might help with itchiness and should help them heal better >>82869117hello>>82869650hey hey ali >>82869701hello yuanon>>82870037Hey sludge>so 14-22 and have little time.understandable and don't force yourself to reply you should focus on relaxing and reply when you have the time because I don't want you to feel like posting here is a chore>now off to work +___+hope it doesn't tire you out how does your job look like btw?
>>82866696>>82869701hu yu>i'll reply later.see you latter.>>82865807>huh?!he was a big greasy rabbit
h everyonehow's your day going so far?mine was tiring and im feeling numb nowit happens alot lately>>82871179 yo cat hru?
>>82872078Hey>was a big greasy rabbitgoodness me >>82872143Heyo>how's your day going so far?decided to work on that project a little >tiring and im feeling numb nowwhat tired you out fren?
>>82872733>decided to work on that project a littlelovely, when will u finish it?>what tired you out fren?had to walk alot and couldn't eat well and the exam didn't go very well :/
>>82866696Oh, I'll get my desired result. The man is fucked. Fucking absolutely ungodly, unmistakably, fucked. He shouldn't have laid hands on her. It's over now, no threats, no second chances. I'm a dying man on a mission, and I absolutely refuse to die until the mission is completed. I have just woke up with fury. I'm going to neck medical grade protein, do body weight exercises and then finish the fight.
>>82867119>I hope so.today was alright for me. work was a little stressful, but what else is new, right?>Nothing you can really "do" about it.true. best you can do is to try to change it up a bit, but if they don't want to, what can you do?>Project Zomboidhaven't played it myself, but it looks fun.>I hope you enjoy it!thank you (^-^)>Ate less because I hated myself. Not a particularly inspiring story.doesn't have to be. sometimes the truth is enough. honestly, self-hate is one of the few things that actually motivates me to do anything.>Ill try.best of luck!>>82867927that's too bad. good luck, then.>>82869117>world of warcraft right?yup. me and my friends are playing turtle wow as long as it's still up. ^^'>hope u2 doing well pal!today was alright. how are you?>>82869650hi gator! how are you doing today? how was school?>I'm so tired, and it's so cold I'm freezingouch. :< make sure to wear some warm clothes and eat something nice and warming, then.>but nothing really interestingas long as it was good enough to kill some time, it's fine.>sounds like a pretty good and fun day I'd say, sounds great <3it was. (^-^)>>82870037hi sludge! :>>sorry for not replying ill do it when i have time but i have evening shift this week so 14-22 and have little time.all good. take your time and don't force yourself when you're not feeling it.>i always forget how flat and ugly the netherlandsnetherlands have their own kind of charm, but i think you can become blind for the nice stuff when you see it all the time and focus on the ugly things.>autobahn makes traffic flow really nice. had a lotta fungood to hear you had a nice trip. >first 3 times or so it failedi know what you mean. ^^>really cheap tabbaco so stocked up on thati've got lots of dutch people stop by to stock up on cigarettes. some buy stuff for 200-600 euro.
>>82870037>also why sell vodka and cans of 1 liter beer at a gas station lolno fucking clue. we really have an issue with alcohol here.>now off to work +___+hope you had a good shift.>>82871179hi catbro! :D what's up?>>82872078hey cynic!>see you latter.see you now! >.>>>82873308gotta do what you gotta do.
>>82873266>when will u finish it?it's a uni graduation project Idk if I'll finish it or when>>82873728Heyahow it goin?I'm okay not much happened today I just worked a tiny bit on that dang project
>>82874058>how it goin?going alright. just watching the new season of that survival show i've talked about before. don't feel like doing anything else atm.>I just worked a tiny bit on that dang projectgood job. what are you up to now?
>>82873692>me and my friends are playing turtle wow as long as it's still up.lovely, have funi wanna try playing some of the series but too lazy>today was alright.happy to hear that ^_^>how are you?fine now ig>>82874058>it's a uni graduation projectoh i seecould it be finished this year by any chance? :<
>>82874494>lovely, have funwill do! :D>i wanna try playing some of the series but too lazynot sure if you should bother if you don't have any nostalgia for it. blizzard is a dumpster fire at this point anyway.>fine now igthat doesn't sound very convinced, but i'll take your word for it. what did you do today?
>>82874606by far this is one of the best pics of yua i've ever seen>any nostalgia for itthere isn't, i never played it at all>blizzard is a dumpster fire at this point anyway.what's the problem? microtransactions?>that doesn't sound very convinced, but i'll take your word for it.:>i was feeling strange and numb but i got better and now i'm feeling uhh nothing maybe idk, that's the thing>what did you do todaynothing interesting reallya tiring day and the exam didn't go really well but i'm not really sad about that, i just feel strange about it
>>82864005HelloIt's been a while, hasn't it?
hey everyone, i guess i'm feeling a bit sad. ig i'd like to run away from belgium and europe entirely if i could
>>82874850chill mate, what happened? what's the matter?
>>82864005>>82864005>How are you doing today?I came home from work like 40 minutes ago, I'm resting for a bit.>Any plans for today?I have a class left today and I must continue my thesis during the night.>When was the last time you hurt yourself?1 year ago>Why did you hurt yourself?I had problems with my gf.>Is there anything bothering you right now?Mostly my thesis, I need to do a lot of research and is pretty exhausting.
>>82874903>what happened? i'm not sure, i took a walk around my home town and it just clicked to me that this doesn't feel like home anymore, too much has changed. it's probably changed everywhere.
>>82874926i see i get itthe sudden feelingwas there anything bothering you before that happens? maybe it's some kind of accumulated feelings, you know?
>>82874926Everything changes. What you probably miss is not the physical way things were, but the time period itself.
>>82874684>by far this is one of the best pics ofmaybe, but i like the ones chroma did more. might be biased, though. ;D>i never played it at allcan't have played everything, even if you wanted to.>what's the problem? microtransactions?more like macrotransactions. :p joking aside, it's just not the same people who make these games anymore and it shows. they focus on milking the people they still got trapped in their ecosystem instead of actually developing a good game. just not the company they used to be. they're done.>now i'm feeling uhh nothing maybe idk, that's the thingi get it. i'm not feeling any particular way, either. just tired.>the exam didn't go really well but i'm not really sad about that, i just feel strange about itsorry to hear that. guess you can't ace them all. :/ are there more to come?>>82874845hi kira-chan! long time no see! :D how's it going?>>82874904>I'm resting for a bit.best you can do after a long day. take some time for yourself.>I have a class left today and I must continue my thesis during the night.dang. your day is far from over, isn't it? :0 hang in there, fren.>1 year agothat a long time. well done.>I had problems with my gf.were you able to sort them out?>I need to do a lot of research and is pretty exhausting.good luck. hope it goes well.
>>82874385>going alright. just watching the new seasonhave fun then :>I'm glad you can relax and what did u do today and yesterday?I was on a bikeride yesterday >what are you up todownloading music because ai have how whenever i like something eventually soundcloud removes the song>>82874494oh also I'm sorry about your exam do you think you'll still pass it though?>could it be finished this year by any chance? :<next march I think>>82874845Heya how's it's been? :D>>82874850hey chevwhy are you feeling like this? what do you think changed?also what are you doing now can you lay down and rest for a bit, sounds like it might need it >>82874904hello>I'm resting for a bit.have a nice rest how was work?>class left today and I must continue myhow? that sounds very difficult >year agogood job not hurting yourself!>research and is pretty exhausting.and also you gotta work.. man..
>>82874952>bothering you before that happens? i wasn't really busy with it, i considered my hometown home by default and i was always hanging around different places i didn't care enough about to notice change. i guess i didn't notice the changes until they hit me in the fucking face.>maybe it's some kind of accumulated feelings, you know?perhaps, i know the migrant crisis (which i'd personally blame most for my alienation) started in like 2015 so i was probably way too young to even notice, let alone give a fuck. the economy has been going down too but i just huffed copium in that maybe someday it'd get better. I guess a breaking point for that was when i noticed my family and further family (we're like upper middle class, the rest of my family is pretty damn wealthy) was no longer able to do whatever whenever anymore.>>82874961>the time period itself.perhaps, i can barely remember things from then, I tried killing my inner child and probably all those memories with it. I do vaguely remember feeling a lot more safe and happy though.>>82875088>why are you feeling like this? a nice bit of nostalgia served on a plate of crippling depression.>what do you think changed?everything? nothing? I don't fucking know desu>lay down and rest for a biti tried but i cannot for the life of me.sylveon pic cus i like that pokemon
Will self harm aleviate anything? If so what ways won't leave marks?
>>82875082>Were you able to sort them out?Yes. It was a difficult time for both of us, but after long conversations and time to think we managed.>good luck. hope it goes well.Thank you very much, hope you are doing great! :3>>82875088>how was work?A slow day, but not stressful.>how?It's the only class in all week I had to take during nighttime, not something horribly difficult but taking notes past 9 pm is very tiresome. I drank a cup of coffee so I will try my best to at least finish some of my pendings for this week.
>>82875088>have fun then :> I'm glad you can relaxthanks. for now i just put on some stream for some background noise.>and what did u do today and yesterday?yesterday i just went to work and played wow with my friends when i got home. we cleared the dungeon we weren't able to clear last time. today i worked out, went to work, got home and then watched two episodes of the show i mentioned. that's about it.>I was on a bikeride yesterdaythat's awesome! :D isn't it too cold for that by now? how did you manage?>downloading music because ai have how whenever i like something eventually soundcloud removes the songthat sucks. :/ make sure you have a copy of those songs saved somewhere, so you won't lose them.>>82875277>after long conversations and time to think we managed.that's good to hear. hope your relationship is that much stronger for it.>hope you are doing great! :3thank you. (^-^) i'm a bit tired, but other than that i'm alright. don't really know what to do, though.
I'm gonna sleep bye>>82875187>tried but i cannot for the life of me.that's sucks :/maybe watching a movie could help? what do you think?hope you feel better soon though, sending hugs fren>sylveon pic cute :>>>82875264>aleviate anythingwhat do you mean?>>82875277>past 9 pmwhat the hell D:this should be illegal best of luck >>82875495>dungeonsounds fun and ye because of your pc you can play games together :D>too cold for that by now? how did you manage?I found out yesterday can put on more clothes and apparently that makes you waemer somehowalso it's not super cold here sometimes
>>82875680good night, sleep tight and see you tomorrow!>and ye because of your pc you can play games together :Dwe had a good time. just too bad that one of our friends who wanted to be our tank just can't make it. having a kid really reduces your playtime. :/>I found out yesterday can put on more clothes and apparently that makes you waemer somehowwizardry! :0>it's not super cold here sometimesi guess that's why they call it fall and not winter.
>>82875082>might be biasedohhh i see it's presented to you, is it related to the one you're biased to? :D>can't have played everything, even if you wanted to.i see there's a huge list of games in the series>more like macrotransactions.that's actually funny xD>not the same people who make these games anymore>instead of actually developing a good gamei see how bad it is, kinda reminds me of sonic team at some point. but does that affect on everything blizzard makes?>i'm not feeling any particular way, either. just tired.i understand, hope you feel comfy and better soon ^^>guess you can't ace them all.yup. sadly to fix my grade in that exact subject but i suppose i didn't fix alot>are there more to come?yes, i still can fix some things so it's not that bad >>82875088>oh also I'm sorry about your exam>do you think you'll still pass it though?yup i'll pass it ( i think ) but not a good grade, but even if i didn't pass it it's okay it was just a small quiz but it DOES affect on my overall grades, hope there will be another one later so i can fix my grade in>next march I thinki'll be rooting for you! good luck pal>>82875187>i guess i didn't notice the changes until they hit me in the fucking face.well, i know it hurts to feel like home isn't home anymore but i suppose that's kinda the same in alot of places. i think one of the things that could help is that we should not associate belongings with things that change, places can be an example sometimes.but since you've already got the feelings and nostalgia and it's too late not to associate things with things; i hope you find something that helps you forget about this. :)take care mate>blame most for my alienation>was no longer able to do whatever whenever anymore.yeah that's obviously enough things to accumulate especially that it's there since 2015 or so.is there anything you wanna do right now to chill? if you're not heading to bed ofcmaybe have a hot drink?
>>82875680>what do you mean?Seems pretty self explanatory, but the question doesn't matter anyways.
>>82875264do you mean asking if it will make anything easier or better?if so, no. self harm is a problem itself, adding another problem to the list isn't a good plan.take care of yourself anon
>>82875799>is it related to the one you're biased to? :Dchroma drew some for me and posted them here. he's awesome. haven't talked to him in a while. i should reach out to him and ask how he's doing.>there's a huge list of games in the seriesyeah, but wow doesn't have much to do with the strategy games anyway. it's just losely based on those.>does that affect on everything blizzard makes?what do they make? they killed starcraft, they killed the warcraft rts games, they killed hearthstone, nobody really cares about diablo anymore and while i never cared for overwatch at all, i don't hear anything about that series anymore, either. now all they do is go around and close wow-fan-servers because those get more good press than their halfbaked releases. they just profit from the non-caring masses that won't leave no matter how bad the games get. i'm a bit bitter i. that regard, but i've been around since warcraft 2.>hope you feel comfy and better soon ^^i should just go to bed, but i'm in that weird state where i'm just too lazy to get up.>i suppose i didn't fix alotdid you check out vids on youtube or other social media explaining it? sometimes all you need is someone to explain the subject from a different angle.>i still can fix some things so it's not that badi see. hope it goes well.>>82875809i think what it does is make you care more about the present than anything elses. you've got something to focus on instead if all you other issues. doesn't make them go away, though.
goodbye, love you all. stay safe and happy
>>82876141Where are you going white gator?
>>82876002>i should reach out to him and ask how he's doing.that's nice! seems like an interesting dude, would like to see him here someday since i suppose he was here before me>it's just losely based on those.mhm i see>that won't leave no matter how bad the games getdamn dude it's really messed up, i never played anything famous from them but i thought like they're still going on like any other big company, didn't know all of that>too lazy to get uphey i suppose you should get up no matter what, how about some virtual motivating? :D>to explain the subject from a different angle.the thing is i understood almost everything so that wasn't the problem. the question itself was a bit tricky and i forgot how to get the right answer to that exact question>hope it goes well.hope everything goes well to you too pal!guess i'll call it a day. but i might not be able to sleep quickly.
Hello everyone.>>82876141Hey, are you okay? That's kind of an ominous message ;-; I hope I'm just worrying over nothing, I'm really tired.
>>82876333I guess we all worried, I didn't want to make it sound strange so I didn't ask him, but since he will see others asking him anyways I'll ask too.Why are you tired tho, anon?
>>82876356I sent a message to someone who i think is ose to him to check on him. Hopefully he didnt do anything bad to himself
>>82876242>i suppose he was here before meyup. hasn't stopped by in a while, though.>they're still going on like any other big company, didn't know all of thatit's one of those too big to fail situations. they merged with activision some time ago and then got bought by microsoft. it's about nothing but ips and names, but even the new indie studios by "ex blizzard developers" all fail miserably. whatever talent they had left a long, long time ago.>how about some virtual motivating? :Di guess it helped. at least i'm in bed now.>the question itself was a bit tricky and i forgot how to get the right answer to that exact questionah, i get it. happened to me as well. don't let it get you down too bad. gotta focus on what's coming next.>i'll call it a day. but i might not be able to sleep quickly.same here. good night.
>>82876366hopefully he didn't. >>82876436>hasn't stopped by in a whileyup i see>whatever talent they had left a long, long time agothe fall of good companies is annoying desu, not for the companies themselves but the good games they used to make. >bed nowgood night!>gotta focus on what's coming nextyup. thanks!
>>82876366you shouldn't do that if someone's going through stuff making them deal with people is the worst thing to deal with best to just let them be
>>82876503And let him die? Not gonna do that. I care too much
>>82876607I've been a lurker long enough i know he isnt gonna do a damn thing and nice virtue signaling
>>82876781You dont know him like I do so fuck off and kill yourself faggot
>>82875799>i hope you find something that helps you forget about this. :)thanks man, i have to do some errands tomorrow anyways, so maybe i'll do a bit of a detour and check on childhood locations if i can remember them.>is there anything you wanna do right now to chill? i played some warhammer 3 and yapped to yuanon for a bit. right now i'll just chill a bit more.>maybe have a hot drink?i'll get some coffee in the morning, wouldn't really be smart to drink now.sorry for the late response>>82876607best to leave him alone, not good to pester someone if they're having a rough time. I'm sure if they want to talk they'll reach out.
>>82876888Not pestering him, juat sent the one message and going to wait to hear back whenever he wants.
>>82876790i dont think he knows you at all lil bro your just being schizo
>>82876356I have been having trouble with my sleep schedule for the past couple years, but especially so for the past few months. I am not sure why. Sometimes I get enough sleep, but I just wake up so exhausted, and I am exhausted all the time. I am never well rested after waking up. Thanks for asking though :,>Anyway, I really hope my anxiousness has caused everyone to panic. That would really suck ;-;
hi>>82876888>i played some warhammer 3that's the newer total war right? how is it ? >>82877136>I have been having trouble with my sleep schedule for the past couple yearsthat really sucks :( have you tried getting an appointment with a specialist or something?
>>82877631>that's the newer total war right? how is it ?it's alright, magic is a game changer which idk if i like. i'm new to the newer games anyways so i do kinda suck. been playing my first campaign on normal campaign difficulty and hard battle difficulty. i'll probably play a few other campaigns until i get a hang of the units and then i'll swap to VH/VH, cus that's what i was used to in medieval 2 and rome 1
>>82877677oooo maybe ill look into it more, i tried the second but wasn't a huge fan... magic makes me reconsider to >< i definitely prefer playing irl warhammer tho ;p
>>82877845>magic makes me reconsider it's stupidly busted if you use it right. some faction (i think khorne stands out there) don't get it, but khorne is stupidly overpowered anyways.>prefer playing irl warhammer never done it, i'd need to get my minis painted tho so give me like 25 years
i went oevr a month wjthout doing jt and i guess that just mesnt fuck all i dont know why i dont just go deeper msybe i cant it feels like no matter what j rnd up just making scratches that stop bleeding in a minute maybe thats good im not sure st least i fhink jm out of usable blafes now i feel horrible
good meowrning guyshope you are well I gotta do uni crap x.x
>>82876888>and check on childhood locationsthat's nice but make sure it doesn't bring harmful nostalgia mate>i'll just chill a biti guess you already did now :D>wouldn't be smart do drink nowif it's coffee yeah indeed>sorry for the late responsedon't worry mate!>>82877136>sleep schedule for the past couple of years>past few monthsthat sucks really, i can imagine how annoying it is to have this problem for years, hope you fix it soon>exhausted all the timeis that mentally or physically? also did you ask anyone professional?>Thanks for askingnp anon :D>anxiousness everyone to panic i don't think it did, don't worry
>>82878775cutting whether deep or not isn't the solution ykif you're willing to feel then cutting will just make everything worse, find something healthy to distract yourself with and get rid of everything that reminds you/helps you with cutting.>>82879168heya cat!hope you're well too!>uni crapgood luck! need some virtual motivation? my virtual motivation helped yuanon a bit i guess xDanyways i have to go for like 7 hours, would be cool if the thread lived til that time
>>82879217>>82879217>hope you're well too!thanks >some virtual motivation? oh dw I'm oka but thanks for the thought>have to go for like 7 hours,sleep time?anyway the thread won't die, no worries
good morning. didn't sleep that well today. @.@
>>82880191hey yuanon why u couldn't sleep? :<maybe you could take a nap later
>>82880412>why u couldn't sleep? :<it's not that i didn't sleep, i just had issues waking up. way later than i'm used to and now i'm feeling a bit weird.>maybe you could take a nap lateronly chance i get would be later in the evening, but i think that just would ruin my sleep even more. i'll try to endure.see you later!
>>82877631>have you tried a specialist?No, that sounds expensive.>>82879183>Hope you fix it soonThanks>mentally or physicallyAlmost always just mentally. It feels like crap, just stressed or emotional, without any energy, drained. So tired. It is so much worse when I am anxious, I wish I could cry.Again, thanks for listening. I do feel quite a bit better having told someone this :]
>>82880456>had issues waking up. way later than i'm used to maybe it'll get better later >. i'll try to endure.okay then good luck with that>see you later!byea
Everything has been chaos all week. I just want to be done with today.hope everyone else has been doing well
>>82879168hey dude, what's up?>>82879183>harmful nostalgia matemost of my harmful nostalgia can be found right in my house lol>i guess you already did now :Dyup, overslept dramatically so im gonna have to postpone my plans to tomorrow>>82880191hey man, guess we're twins in that today haha.how was your day?>>82881805yo dude>Everything has been chaos all week. what happened?>. I just want to be done with today.i get it, looks like today was a shitty day. tomorrow it's gonna storm here all day so imma have to plan accordingly.>hope everyone else has been doing wellcould be better, but also could definitely be worse/
hello >>82879569>sleep time?no, the great place of studying xD>>82880191>didn't sleep wellsorry to hear that, when will you sleep again?>>82880502>almost always just mentally>stressed or emotional without any energysorry to hear that anon, could you say the reason behind that? only if u wanted, i can listen>worse when im anxious i wish i could cryi totally understand you, i hope you feel better soon>quite a bit better having told someone thisglad to hear that! you can always tell us everything here whenever u want!
>>82881860>right in my houseouch dude, i hope it's not that bad and it doesn't affect on you>postponewell i guess you slept well atleast no?
>>82881860hey chev!>what happened?work chaos. tech issues all week everywhere. Even more than usual. All outside of control, but still stressful to deal with blow back from>it's gonna storm here all day so imma have to plan accordingly.yeah, take care. Weather here has been decent. A little chilly, but I like that. Just hope we don't end up with as bad a winter as we did last year with extreme cold for months>could be better, but also could definitely be worsewhat i tell myself every day lol>>82882325hey rm, how's your day going?
>>82881805hey bud>has been chaos :<what would happen if you put less effort?>>82881860heynot much I just say at home today and watched vids on yt feeling pretty demotivated nglwbu??>>82882325>studying xDnooo D:at least you're back home right?
>>82881225>maybe it'll get better latersorted itself out, i think. better set an alarm for tomorrow so i don't wake up late again.>good luck with thati think i managed. not entirely sure. at least i'm at home now.>byeaam back. how was your day?>>82881805hi officeanon!>I just want to be done with today.hang in there! how is it going?>hope everyone else has been doing wellthanks. today went alright. at least i don't think anything went wrong, but you never know.>>82881860hey chev!>guess we're twins in that today haha.dang. what kept you up?>how was your day?quite alright, actually. work was chill. just ate something and now i'm considering what to do next.>>82882325>when will you sleep again?hm. i'll try again in about 5 hours. ^^
>>82883233hey cat, how's it going?>what would happen if you put less effort?probably someone would notice things are falling apart and get fired as a result. Then again, that can happen even if you work your hardest anyway, end result is the same.>>82883491hi Yuanon, how are you?> how is it going?it's going. Just not sure where. I'm tired and ready for the weekend. I'm taking off early tomorrow so they I can say I can't be called in the evening. So there's that at least> i don't think anything went wrongwill surprise later if it did. Have had those before
>>82883878>how are you?i'm good. not much happened, though. really looking forward to the weekend, though.>I'm tired and ready for the weekend.you deserve some rest. the last couple of weeks have been rough for you.>I'm taking off early tomorrow so they I can say I can't be called in the eveninghope the remember that. :<>will surprise later if it did. Have had those beforei'm always hoping for the best, but experience has tought me to prepare for the worst.
>>82882347>i hope it's not that bad and it doesn't affect on youeh, i've given it a place for now. used to bother me a lot more.>well i guess you slept well atleast no?not really haha, it was pretty awful desu. still managed to get everything done for now.>>82882556>tech issues all week everywhere. nobody resolved it yet? >still stressful to deal with blow back fromi can imagine, i hope it doesn't set things back too much>>82883233>watched vids on yt what did you watch?>feeling pretty demotivated nglsame, but what's keeping you down?>wbu??eh, i tried out zenithals but fucked those up>>82883491>what kept you up?nothing really, watched a lot of vids on zenithals to prepare. still managed to fuck it up badly. I was gonna ask you about it but i forgor so i'll do it now. I noticed white scar dried a lot more grainy and flakey than chaos black did. I'm not too fussed to strip it, but I will redo it. I'll put the cans in some warm water before and shake them each for atleast 5 minutes each. Should I spray the white from a different distance than the black? people from my lgs told be it was cus it was drying mid air. humidity is a problem rn but i can't change that unfortuntaly since i need to ventilate the place lest i wanna chemically gas myself.>quite alright, actually. work was chillglad to hear it man!>just ate something and now i'm considering what to do next.what did you eat? also DO NOT play warhammer 3, it pissed me off quite a bit last night. I took out a khorne faction cus i wanted their lord for a khornate army, but i didn't get the lord and had to replan my entire offensive, gonna hunt for a slaanesh lord now instead.
>>82883491hey hey>sorted itself out,phew>an alarm for tomorrowyou usually wake up without one?>not entirely sure. at least i'm at home now.that's what matters what are you going to do at home now?>how was your day?hm I just sat inside and chilledoh also worked on a uni thing >>82883878just chilling >apart and get fired as a resulthonestly if a company is replying solely on you so much they immediately notice huge losses because you need doing your best then the company is probably going to shut down soon anyway >end result is the same.and yes have been working there for a whileI'd take months of years for a new employee to fill your place if it is even possible it sounds like you work a lot >>82884205>what did you watch?watching an old charborg stream vod>what's keeping you down?uni, it seems pointless whats keeping you down?>tried out zenithals but fucked those upwell you can't get better if you don't try and mess up sometimes
>>82883968>not much happenedif my day ends with that, I'm considering a good day. Best you can hope for sometimes>the last couple of weeks have been rough for you.Hoping if I can make it to end of November, I'll catch a break at Christmas>hope the remember that. i am going to go drinking and then to watch the chainsaw man movies with my brother who I did talk into going in the end. I won't be reachable even if it's a crisis>prepare for the worst.usually smart to do so after all. Just need to be careful not to create the worst by worrying about it>>82884205>nobody resolved it yet?resolved now, but anytime something goes wrong, it's a huge pain even if no one is to blame really.> hope it doesn't set things back too muchprobably lost a day or two of time, but not really much to do about that.
>>82884205>still managed to fuck it up badly. I was gonna ask you about it but i forgor so i'll do it now. I noticed white scar dried a lot more grainy and flakey than chaos black did. I'm not too fussed to strip it, but I will redo it.can you send me some pics? you gotta adjust the distance accordingly. sonetimes it comes out great, sometimes it just fucks up. had a can of army painter red that was grainy as fuck for no reason and a friend of mine had several cans of vallejo fail him in a weird way. just kinda exploded paint on the minis instead of spraying them.>humidity is a problem rn but i can't change that unfortuntaly since i need to ventilate the place lest i wanna chemically gas myself.you can try to spray outside. that might help. gotta try different stuff.>what did you eat?stuffed bellpepper with some rice.>DO NOT play warhammer 3easy. i don't own it. ^^ just played more brotato and i just can't win with that character. at least the way i was trying to win with. guess i have to change it up.>I took out a khorne faction cus i wanted their lord for a khornate army, but i didn't get the lord and had to replan my entire offensivesounds like an odd system. good luck with getting that lord.>>82884683>phewvery phew indeed.>you usually wake up without one?i only set one if i need to get up early, but i usually do the later shift now, so it's not necessary.>what are you going to do at home now?there's some guys who do a commentary series on the child's play/chuckie movies. watching that rn. maybe i'll play some more brotato after that.>I just sat inside and chilled oh also worked on a uni thingnot much reason to go out now, is there? also: good job being productive today. :>
>>82884683>just chillingmy brain is fried, so that's all i'm up to now>immediately notice huge losses businesses are resilient. They don't always need someone who works well, just someone who throws enough shit that sticks to the wall that it's not all on the floor at least. I don't even make that much. Not anywhere near what other people my experience level make. But market has been bad for years>it sounds like you work a lotunfortunately yes and I don't exactly enjoy what I do either. gotta pay bills somehow
>>82884709>if my day ends with that, I'm considering a good day. Best you can hope for sometimesi hear you. that's how i try to take it too, so today was a good one.>Hoping if I can make it to end of November, I'll catch a break at Christmasi hope you do, too. D: what about turkey day? do you get a off for that?>i am going to go drinking and then to watch the chainsaw man movies with my brother who I did talk into going in the end.it's cool you guys could put your differences and disagreements aside to have a nice evening. ^^>I won't be reachable even if it's a crisishow it should be.>Just need to be careful not to create the worst by worrying about iti can't see you do that. you seem like quite the capable guy to me.
>>82884776>usually do the later shift now, so it's not necessary.ooh well I'm glad you can sleep peacefully and not worry about having to scramble yourself together every early morning >watching that rnhave you seen the movies?>play some more brotato after thathave fun going to sleep at 3am again?>not much reason to go outyep, it getting cold >good job being productive today. :>thank youit's not very productive I was supposed to do that last week but ya know >>82884824>brain is fried,ow :<put on a movie and go maybe lay down or have a nap fren>someone who throws enough shit that sticks maybe it's time to start throwing just enough and not any more than necessary?>don't exactly enjoyyea :/
>>82884683>watching an old charborg stream vodnever heard of him, did you enjoy it atleast?>uni, it seems pointless i'm sure it's nothing. if anything any degree is still better than no degree.>whats keeping you down?just tired and disappointed in myself. my sleeping schedule is laughably terrible.>can't get better if you don't try and mess up sometimesthat's true, but i hate sucking at something. it feels like everyone is able to learn stuff so quick but i can't. it hurts.>>82884683>it's a huge pain even if no one is to blame really.yeah that's true. sucks>probably lost a day or two of time if it's not happening too regularly that doesn't seem that bad.>>82884776>you can try to spray outside. that might help. gotta try different stuff.the weather is not optimal for it rn. it's been raining constantly and it's too cold for the primer to be used effectively. unfortunately i'm stcuk to only priming inside then. i'll try to heat up the cans to about 22 celcius in some warm water and see if that helps. i'm gonna try to spray the white from about 20 cm too, the black i'll maintain at 30-35cm>stuffed bellpepper with some rice.sounds nice. i had fries with some fried chicken, might be nice for some people but i dislike greasy food>good luck with getting that lord.yep, i think i'll just get sigvald as my slaneeshi one, he belongs to the same overarching faction so i can confederate him no matter what.>just played more brotato i've only really seen the spiffing brit vid on that game. seems pretty simple and fun tho.
>>82885222>I'm glad you can sleep peacefully and not worry about having to scramble yourself together every early morningme too. i'm really not great at forcing myself to get up, it seems. ^^'>have you seen the movies?no, but they put it in the background with a frame and watermarks all over it. it's also edited. and after seeing what the series has to offer, i don't think i will bother with it at all.>going to sleep at 3am again?i'll try not to. ^^' just a few more round and then i'm off. not sure why i have so much trouble going to bed recently. maybe i need to change my monitor settings.>it getting coldi'll try to not let that stop me from working out, though.>I was supposed to do that last week but ya knowi do. at least you got around to it today.>i'm gonna try to spray the white from about 20 cm too, the black i'll maintain at 30-35cmwhatever you do, grab something to test in on first.>i had fries with some fried chicken, might be nice for some people but i dislike greasy foodit's can be ok, but i prefer other stuff these days as well.>he belongs to the same overarching faction so i can confederate him no matter what.sounds like a plan.>seems pretty simple and fun tho.it is, but there's this one char i just can't get to work. maybe i should check out that vid as well.
>>82864005>>How are you doing today?Getting over my cold.>>Any plans for today?I spent hours trying to get Respondus to stop having an error when using the camera. It could collect footage, but decided it's not allowed to come from outside of wine.>>Is there anything bothering you right now?I helped by a laptop for my brother last year. I thought he'd get more out of a gaming laptop, but he expressed interest in the framework I had and eventually I listened. We bought him a new one.He has kept using his dying zbook running windows for all his games and programing. That wasn't really our plan and when I ask why he just says that it's already set up and he's scared to overload the new laptop. Which he just uses for scrolling the web. It's like watching this expensive jewel just sitting there when he could've gotten a gaming computer that replaces everything on his old system for cheaper. The framework can still be sold at the price we paid and I have a deal on the lenovo model I was going to get him, but he says he doesn't want to change anything right now.idk what to do, if anything.
I'm going to eepbye frenssorry for not talkin much
>>82885863goodnight cat>>82880191hey yu> didn't sleep that well today. @.@hope you sleep better tonight.>>82881805hi office anon>I just want to be done with todayso do I man
>>82885696hey cynic! (^-^)>Getting over my cold.how's that going?>It could collect footage, but decided it's not allowed to come from outside of wine.odd. did you get it to work?>It's like watching this expensive jewel just sitting there when he could've gotten a gaming computer that replaces everything on his old system for cheaperthat stings, but maybe he's just waiting for his old one to finally croak so he can completely move to the new one. it can be hard leaving a system you're used to behind if it's technically still "good".>he says he doesn't want to change anything right now. idk what to do, if anything.probably just let him have it. it's his money, after all.>>82885863good night! talk to you soon.
>>82886221>hope you sleep better tonightdefinitely will. just beat that stupid brotato character i've been stuck on for days now. feels nice.
calling it a day. good night!
hi everyone>>82883233hey officeanon! it's been a while>how's your day going?strange really can't really decide what to say about these things rn >>82881805>has been chaos all weekwhat exactly happened mate? if u wanna talk about iteither way i hope you get a chance to rest soon>>82883233>at least you're back home right?yup :Di wish i could say that the weekend will be cool and etc but i have 4 exams next week for each day. and the most difficult one's going to be on wednesdayi should study in the weekend too. i'm tired>>82883491>i'll try again in about 5 hours.i guess you're sleeping now :Dhope you get enough sleep hours>>82884205>used to bother me a lot more.well that's better than before i guess, happy for you>not really haha, it was pretty awful. still managed to get everything done for now.oh dude that's tragic, have a good night this time!
hi folks how are you all today ^^
>>82887244yo im feeling lowwhat about you
>>82888095samesies, had a midterm today but now im so exhausted ><
