I've been lately diagnosed with autism and given some meager neetbux. I am not gonna argue over it being correct or not. I wanted neetbux and spent a year arranging it all. I am hesitant to tell my bf though.He is already constantly moaning that I don't have any responsibilities and my life is so damn easy. He hates working and pays our home bills (home is mine though) and I am scared he will demand of me the meager 300 bucks I get from this crap. I kinda want to use them for my hobbies and shit, I don't get personal money from anywhere else. It seems that it is much easy to talk about important stuff with strangers rather than with family because strangers dont expect anything from you. I am constantly hiding trivial shit from him because I am scared he will track inconsistencies between stuff I say. I think I was meant to die alone after all. Then I'll die quickly though because I am objectively very sickly and have constant meltdowns, but he doesnt care that I am mntally ill like for real, because I have high G factor, he thinks I am pretending to be useless. Well my mom is the same. Only my therapist tried to understand why I fucking complain so much and are permanently depressed, buit for family their opinion on my pain is just "life is supposed to be suffering". Is it really my problem? Like they don't do anything to make their lives easier, dont seek help. Why couldnt they annoy goverment agents with their " I hate my life" instead of me? I felt inspired when my rape victim got neetbux, for PTSD(it is male btw). Maybe I should tell him after all?
*rape victim friendLol the typo is funny, kinda
>>82929390300 bucks a month of completly disposable income is way more than most people. yeah it would be a dick move to squander it all on shit while leaching off of him. at least save some of it
>>82929390I just let my fembot gf lounge around and worship her, make her dinner most of the time, while paying all of the bills, and dicking her down.Sounds like you got a bad bf.
>>82929408I have creative hobbies so its not squander. Everyone needs enrichment, and I stopped caring about video games 2 years ago. I also buy a lot of our food, and all food I buy that he can eat as well (he is vegan) I share half of it with him. If I relied on him for food, we'd starve because he doesnt care to eat at all. I try to save as much as possible but try imagining how much you can objectively save off 300 bucks. I will never be able to save up enough from it for any type of independence. So it seems futile>>82929417We are europeans, not americans, so women are by default treated as equals not goddesses.
I wish i can get neetbux but i am not autistic
>>82929390why not break up?
>>82929444>We are europeansAnd?>by default treated as equals not goddesses.Well, sounds like you got a bad bfFembots are goddesses
>>82929617Over what?>>82929576Look it up, there are many ways to go about it.As for mental disability stuff like ocd, adhd, ptsd can also count.But there are also various poverty subsidies, jobless bux and so on.>>82929617Over what?>>82929627You just want to fuck me.
>>82929691>You just want to fuck me.I have a girlfriend and I'd never cheat on her, I already worship her between working and taking care of her, how would I find the time to cheat?Didn't think I'd ever get to say "I have a gf, sorry foid"
>>82929751Okay, my apologies.It's a different culture here. No simps available
>>82929691>over whatthe fact that you're so stressed out over needing to hide your meager income from the guy that you don't appear to like anyway.
Maybe take on more housework? I don't understand your bf though, he doesn't have to pay rent and I'm assuming you don't make him pay that much for something he wouldn't have if he lived on his own?
>>82929787I like him.>>82929831I didn't understand second sentence but basically he just pays for heating and electricity and such. I don't want to make his life more stressful. I think he feels entitled to more idk since I just inherited this flat and didn't work hard for it or anything. Maybe he wants a buddy in suffering, but I suffer already just in a different way. I don't understand his problem with work to be honest, since he doesn't have any hobbies and is socially doing OK. My issues with jobs is that I want to be doing sth else not lying around and also environment being too much. When I cook for his coming he says he is not hungry and stuff gets cold, so I stopped bothering.
>>82929390Man is working his butt off paying for all your shit. Of course he'd be envious of your situation. Hiding your income from him is cruel, you're treating him like a slave not an equal. Not surprised you're autistic seeing as you can't understand his perspective.
>>82930344>I don't understand his problem with work>Says the person who refuses to work
>>82929390baka babe....i would never treat you like dat....u dserve better
>>82930389I dont refuse to work or have a job, I cant have them because I am disabled retard. Even so my issue is not work, but jobs specifically. I have no issues working at my own pace and I dont like being idle. But in job enviroment people get ick from me. >>82930379He is not working his ass off, his work is very easy and chill and he does not have anything else he would like to be doing with his life anyways. > Of course he'd be envious of your situationWhy doesnt he work on getting his neetbux too then? If he is perfectly healthy then how is he justified in being envious of an ill person? Thats the dumb part here.
>>82930731Tbh you sound like a cunt the way you talk about your boyfriend.
>>82930778We are talking about issues, so I am explaining what is the issue. Why would I describe his positive parts in a thread when it is simply unrelated to the theme at hand?
>>82929390>he thinks I am pretending to be uselessThat would be because you areIf you can write that post you can do work, you're not disabled you're an entitled brat who is just being enabled by a broken system
>>82929390can't help your household situation but I've been discovering lately that occasional marijuana use is really helpful for depressed autistics, it's been transformative for me. depending on where you live it shouldn't cost any more than 10% of your $300/month and has myriad benefits. you literally GAIN gray matter in certain brain regions from using weed (notably the cerebellum, which is a bottleneck in high-IQ autistics). just make sure not to overuse it and to alternate high and sober periods on a reasonable basis, and to vary the activities you do while high.and you might find yourself being better at domestic tasks and emotional support once you're less depressed so your boyfriend won't have to see it as just another thing to complain about.
>>82931094I could do work on a farm but not in a modern environment, that relies on services and social interaction. What the fuck does being able to write has to do with it. Literal blind and handless people can type and have posted on this website. >>82931136I do already, I mean we both do, and yeah honestly it helped in a lot of ways, to be more creative, focused and to fix relations with my mom; but not enough of a boost to be complete person unfortunately.
>>82932019well in that case you could just try to get more out of it rather than viewing it recreationally. get into meditation because they mesh with each other really well, and you'll find you won't need to use as much product to experience happy and cerebral effects. it's much better to not carry a tolerance and have more sober time for structured pursuits while still being as relaxed and playful as a heavier stoner.vipassana, metta, and eventually jhana are the main meditative practices to look into. however, deep concentrated sitting isn't the only approach and you can do just as well by bringing it into passing moments in everyday life as Sayadaw Tejaniya instructs.
>>82932613>vipassana, metta, and jhanaor to translate that into english: mindfulness, lovingkindness, and ecstatic states respectively. I don't want it to sound so esoteric but those are the names the practices are known by.
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