what has been the lowest point of your life so far?
>>82968033jerking off for about half an hour in a bathroom with mosquitos coming in and out biting me all over but i didnt stop because it felt good all around and i came
>>82968033right now, i have no GED, no drivers license, and nothing to put onto my CV. I'm fucked because I live in a second world shithole. I can't speak my native language well, and my eyesight is poor so I can't go to a trade school. I'm literally fucked, my parents have no qualms on evicting me since I'm irreligious.
Its a tie between two years ago now and todayTwo years ago, I had one friend and was in a fake relationship with a girl I had nothing in common with, and very depressed, almost to suicide. And unemployedToday I have a bunch shallow empty acquaintances and ruined friendships, Im unemployed, struggling to find the will to make my life better and feel very stuck.But the pros for now: better diet, daily rituals, no weed, controlled drinking, will to liveIts all so tiresome.
>>82968033The fuck do I know. anyways have a bump, i'm interest in anon's stories
tie between conversion therapy and getting raped
>>82968033When I was in 5th grade to 7th grade my anxiety and depression were so bad I'm pretty sure I was having a prodromal schizophrenia episode that later went on remission, like I was this close to having a psychotic break and what saved me was a fucking nintendo 3ds my parents gave me
>>82968071I relate to this. In that stage of my life I was so afraid of people, and delusional. Maybe it was diet, maybe it was something else. My mother buying Minecraft changed that for me, for better or for worse.
in 2018 I essentially didn't existI was a 25 year old neet. uni dropout, never had a job. I had no form of valid identification, No driver's licence, I had no phone. I was a neet and never left the house aside from going for walks at night. Lived with my mother and wasn't even on welfare so I had literally no money. Was a hardcore gooner. There were about 10 nights when I had a belt around my neck hanging from the door. My younger brother had a gf who he brought over for six months during 2018 and I didn't even meet her until 2019 because I'd just stay in my room. My life isn't good now...but man those were dark times. If I ever was going to seriously kill myself it would have been that year.
>>82968062get out of my board normie cockroach
At the height of my porn addiction I developed a fetish for being forced/blackmailed into submissive or humiliating sexual acts so I gave all my personal information to an anonymous person I met on reddit and let him essentially take control of my entire life. He took pretty much all of my money, forced me to do many deeply humiliating things that were too much for me, including forcing me to have sex with people he chose, and he ignored my pleas for him to let me go after almost a year. He got me fired from my job and sent a lot of really explicit videos of my to my family and girlfriend at the time and basically destroyed my whole life and then ghosted me. I don't really have anyone to blame but myself since I did literally ask for it but still the whole ordeal was pretty traumatizing.
>>82968134>lowest point of your life so far thread>I had one friend and was in a fake relationship with a girlYeah this nigger is NOT struggling
>>82968033>33jewluminati kikerolled ch-ch-checkombo breakereasily when i was 21 living with 3 other broke ass dudes, smoked weed all day, ate sub 450 cals daily because poor and too stoned to apply for gibs, only saving grace was that i pounded a femboy i meet in the apt building laundry room like 3 times a week and got head regularly, but god damn i almost killed myself
>>82968163Fuck you, you dont understand.the friend hated my guts and only tolerated me because I had a carMy gf was special ed and we had absolutely nothing in common, she didnt even know how to cook. It was a pathetic time for me because I simply did not have enough self respect to leave.
Every new day
when I was a kid I used to watch my dad beat the shit out of my mom so probably that
Pretty much all my uni years have been fucking awful.First half I lived in a pajeetcore neighborhood that felt like a different planet with a roommate I was terrified of (zero fault of her own I was just ridiculously insecure, avoidant and anxious) so I ran away to my parent's place every weekend and not taking good enough care of my cat. Second half it I hated everything about my life so much I went days in a row not showing up to lectures, getting out of bed only to go shit/piss/eat and play katawa shoujo all day.Still mortified with guilt every time I think about these times
>>82968188Are you perhaps black
>>82968230if your one of my roommates id like you to think extra hard about this question and really rack your brains to think which one of us it was and if I am the black one.
>>82968247No I just think you were acting like the most stereotypical nigger ever. Wanted to see if my pattern recognition skills are sharp
>>82968161Were you on a bunch of drugs or something? Or did you do all of that because of porn? Wild. Are you gay/bi? Why did you want a guy to do this when you had a girlfriend?
>>82968287>Were you on a bunch of drugs or something? No. I did take poppers a couple times but only because he made me. Otherwise no.>Or did you do all of that because of porn? Wild.Yeah it was pretty much entirely because of porn. I watched myself fall further and deeper into increasingly degenerate fetishes and it got really hard to stop. It got very dark.>Are you gay/bi?No, I consider myself straight despite everything. I'm not attracted to men, I only had sex with them for a while and even then it was only because I didn't have much of a choice.>Why did you want a guy to do this when you had a girlfriend?I don't know. I partially liked the idea of being controlled by someone else, I liked the idea of sneaking around or having a big secret, or submitting to someone. The urge to surrender to someone else's control was overwhelming at some points.
>>82968033>what has been the lowest point of your life so far?The death of my parents and grandpa. Everyone who loved me is dead.Only child. Incel. NEET. Autist. I cannot die soon enough.
>>82968376Damn did you manage to recover somewhat after? Sounds like a pretty big downfall.
getting seriously ill at age 19; forbade from seeing doctors by covid-schizo parents; losing all my friends, prospects and love of life in the following five years; developing stpd.im 25 now and things are looking up. finally getting treatment for my illness and free from my dickhead parents
>>82968481It's been really difficult. I got dumped, I lost my job and it's been difficult finding a new one because when you google my name you find a huge wealth of fucked up shit I did years ago in HD. I had to move back in with my parents but even my relationship with them hasn't really fully gone back to what it was. My dad only speaks to me in short sentences and my mom isn't very warm either. It's also just affected me mentally, I have nightmares about him coming back and fucking shit up even more somehow and whenever my phone rings and I'm not expecting it I kinda jump a little. I actually had to be hospitalized for a short period in 2023 because I spiraled into a paranoid psychosis about it. So it hasn't been easy but I'm still here I guess.
>>82968544what was your sickness? for me it was asthma. I have the lung capacity of a toddler now because my mom refused to take me to the doctor when I was a kid and instead figured she could cure my asthma with salt lamps because they "de-ionize the oxygen in the air" which did not work and as a result I now have permanent lung remodeling
>>82968546That sucks especially the nightmare stuff. I had something a little similar but nowhere near as world shattering as that happen during a manic episode and it screwed me up for a bit. It was also probably caused in part by porn and a bunch of weed. Gay guys, especially off of the internet, are pretty sketchy in my experience so I mostly avoid them now and go for girls.
>>82968596What happened with you?
Probably that time I got so drunk I peed the bed... with my exbf in it. The hangover was so bad I was just laying on a pile of dirty clothes red as a lobster sweating delirious the next day
You'd think it'd be after a failed suicide attempt and all that followed, but no.The lowest point was probably breaking up with my ex, packing a backpack at 5am and taking a car to another city while she slept. I found a little apartment for rental pretty close to a touristy spot where I spent like a month doing drugs, drinking all day every day (literally nonstop from the second I woke up til I fell asleep) and sleeping with like 30 different girls, sometimes two in one day. Feeling lost and lonely and isolated. All the people I thought were my friends from the place I had lived for years didn't say a word or check on me. What little money I had was quickly going and I thought I had another suicide attempt coming up, but I was determined to succeed at all costs that time. It's an exhausting way to live.It eventually got better after a few years and I found another girl whom I ended up marrying. Funny how that works. I'm still broke and drink too much since then, though. Helps keep the pain and panic at bay.
living with a pervert and getting raped a handful of times over the course of about a year
>>82968664Kek you're like a male me
>>82968101>I was a 25 year old neet. uni dropout, never had a job. I had no form of valid identification, No driver's licence, I had no phone. I was a neet and never left the house aside from going for walks at night. HOLY BASED, all the other stuff sounds shitty tho, good luck.
>>82968033Being a neet after 5 years and gradually losing my temper, by playing Overwatch because losing was enough to remind me how much of a failure my life was. I was also obsessed with a redhead who a literal mane for hair, I randomly saw her around my neighborhood when I was going out for a walk, the hope to see again made me leave my house more than usual, of course I never had the courage to talk to her but it's probably better like that.
>>82968636Had risky sex with a gay guy, he took a photo of us after and I gave him permission to lol. I honestly have no clue what happened to him or if it will ever come back around to me but it was haunting me for a bit. I think hes fairly closeted but no one tells me shit nowadays so idk whats up, I just assume no one knows. Also sent him photos that were 100% me and uncropped on grindr. I look different now its been a few years, but gay guys love to upload that shit to weird forums so Im sure someone in my life probably found it at some point.Lost some friends because I told them I was having sex with dudes, no idea why I was a stupid kid lol. So I guess in the end I did face consequences for that, self imposed.
>>82968685Don't drink as much as me. I'm probs gonna develop liver problems in a few years, but I've accepted the fact. My gut is already doing kinda.. not good.
>>82968033>what has been the lowest point of your life so far?When I was horribly addicted to drugs. Story:>When I was 23yo I was a khhv neet.>I was able to get basically meth (via chinese websites). >First time I took it I instantly became everything I ever wanted to be: confident, focused, energized, no self doubts, smart, no anxiety.>I basically started winning the game. People like me, I had GF's, I kept getting job offers, etc. I was functinal for like 3 years.>But it became to easy to easy to take. Too tired? take it. Sick? Take it. Big project? Take it. Soon it was every other day, then everyday, then I was taking a shit ton.>It was like a demon took me over, I NEEDED to get as fucked up as possible all the time. >everything I built fell apart like a sand castle in the tide. All the "rizz" I had turned into poison. Women got scared of me, people didn't want to hang with me, my clever conversations became embarrasing insane rants etc.>My life reduced down to getting high in my room, being up for 5-7 days straigh then sleeping for 3.>My body weakened, like my highs got "mushy". My teeth started to break apart. I got cluster headaches that cause a perminent blind spot in my left eye.>Then I OD'ed. I begged God to save me promising to quit, and then 2 hours later I did some more.>My mom came crying begging me to quit, and I lied and then stole from her the same day.>I ended up homeless, and a nig mugged me and took my last $1,000 and that was it.That was dec 2019, and haven't don't drug since.
>>82968033My childhood.Used to have more emotions and they often dragged me down more than they did anything else. Now that I live for nothing it's nothing but up. Took too much energy to hate the human race rather than accept them for the stupid animals they are.
>>82968719I wouldn't call it consequences; If your "friends" dump you for fucking dudes then they were never your friends in the first place
>>82968804>people should accept all your faults What kind of bullshit weak nonsense is this? You can squat in your own shit all day and say others need to accept it, but it doesn't make you a better person.
>>82968829you view your homo phase as a fault?
