It's friday, anon! The most optimal day 2 take it easy!
I got very hurt again but I'll try to take it easy in spite of that.I might spend the next couple of days rewatching Eva since I'm in that kind of mood now.
>>82968285The best day of the year >B^). Hello, fren.>>82968333Just don't let it get you into a depressive mood and I hope you get better. Be careful next time too.
>>82963686i meant like w ur grandma>how about you, got anything planned for the weekend?there's the halloween party that's happening 2day, but other than that i'll probably visit mom's grave at some point this weekend>>82968333hang in there eikiit'll get better eventually, I promisewill u b rewatching the new eva stuff as well?>>82968640r u gonna dress up as smthg scary?hi there, animal anonhow r u?
>>82968665I'm doin' pretty well so far. No dressing up for me though, just gonna watch MATI and some horror movies whilst enjoying some mead B^). How about you? What will you be doing?
>>82968333>Just don't let it get you into a depressive mood and I hope you get better.I'll try my best.>Be careful next time too.I don't think there will be a next time. Not for a long while, at least.>>82968665>it'll get better eventually, I promiseI know. I'll be alright eventually.>will u b rewatching the new eva stuff as well?Maybe. 3.0+1.0 might finish me off, though.
>>82969020If you do get depressive, at least enjoy some Halloween candy B^).
barely taking it easy at workyesterday i felt suicidal and really did consider ending it already, i sat there for a while staring at my scissors and box cutter wondering what kind of damage i could do to leave alreadyor the bleach i had back at the kitchen, if a cup would suffice, i just really wanted to die alreadyi went take a shower and sleep instead, for now my fear of death won over the pain of being alivemood was destroyed earlier today but i got to work early and will leave on time for grandma's latersigh. things got so fucked up...i dreamed of breaking a bunch of eggs today too, my fridge was on top of a counter and someone had placed eggs in front of the door without me realizing, so when i opened it, they all rolled downwhat a waste of food...happy halloween.
>>82969162Happy halloween, fren. Hopefully the catharsis of it all has helped out. And also maybe this can help cheer you up :) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RmyaQrQFQ7M
>>82969191eh... the only thing that helps right now is work, having stuff to keep my mind occupied withit's one of those times i see what people meant back then when i was told something like>you either get hurt while living or you hurt yourself for not having livedmy memories are so hazy from back then too, or at least, a lot of them are...either the times were that bad or that empty
>>82968677there is gonna b a halloween party that the college ppl organized. Gonna go there. But frankly, idk if i'm gonna stay that long... I've made a new fren recently and i kinda wanna play games w them...what movies r u gonna watch?:pensive:>>82969020>I know. I'll be alright eventually.hopefully u'll get better sooner rather than later>Maybe. 3.0+1.0 might finish me off, though.is it that bad? I haven't seen the new stuff>>82969162wut made u feel that way?
>>82969162Hang in there Junas. We can all be sad together.>>82969930>hopefully u'll get better sooner rather than laterMe too. I don't want to be sad forever.>is it that bad?The rebuilds have grown on me. Visually I think it's very nice (minus the 3DCG stuff). I was referring more to the content.
Who else team drinking alone on Halloween?
>>82970032u should find some way 2 distract urself while u feel this way>The rebuilds have grown on me. Visually I think it's very nice (minus the 3DCG stuff). I was referring more to the content.Is it moar heavy than the original?>>82970184i'll try not 2 drink 2day. Last time i got drunk was rather bad 4 me
>>82969930i read oyasumi punpun and it reminded me of my upbringing, which highly depressed memade me realize how fucked up i turned out to be, how bad i screwed things up, etc.and all that made me sick of pretending things are ok or that they will be ok, my pessimistic nature can't be suppressed foreverthey're not ok, i'm not ok, it's all fucked and likely fubar>>82970032you know that doesn't make me feel any better, i like to be alone in my miseryfuck off and be happy instead>>82970184i'm sleeping the night off as i ride the bus to grandma's, fuck drinking
>>82970189>i'll try not 2 drink 2day. Makes sense, just nothing else to do really.>fuck drinkingHealthy way to go about it desu.I'll try not to over do it,
All the sadness I should have had has suddenly hit me all at once. This sucks...>>82970184I'm alone on Halloween but not drinking. >>82970189>u should find some way 2 distract urself while u feel this wayI should, but it's hard to do anything when you feel like this.>Is it moar heavy than the original?No but I know one part will upset me...>>82970215>fuck off and be happy insteadI'll try my best for your sake!
>>82968285bump so thread doesn't die, original comment
>>82969139I have a lot of almond pocky in my room. That's very tasty and lifting my mood somewhat.
it's a scary day. happy halloween everyone, hope you can eat some candy if you celebrate today
Spooky bump
How do we save Eiki?
The rum I got is shit as a mixer tbqh
not a halloween guy so i won't do any halloween activities today. i've gone to some halloween parties in the past and those are only fun if your friends will dress with you as something fun, but since our schedules won't allign for this year (and since we didn't feel like it), i'll just spend this night sleeping, since i had some trouble to sleep for the last couple of days again (i had been fine for a month until now...)>>82968333>might spend the next couple of days rewatching Eva since I'm in that kind of mood now.i'm gonna rewatch blade runner 2049, been a while since i last saw it on the cinema when it came out. many people think that Ryan Gosling in that movie is very relatable, and i did too back then (i hated talking to people at the time). however, i now think that the character he plays in La La Land is one more people will relate to, specially because of the ending.this opinion might change after my rewatch though.>>82968665>i'll probably visit mom's grave at some point this weekendwill you leave flowers? you seem like a good son regardless =)>>82970215>oyasumi punpuni read it like 5-6 years ago, forgot it all though. i only remember i really disliked it and gave it like a 1 or 2 out of 10.you can't do shit about your past anymore so focus on the future. things can change so much in just a year...
>>82969813But laughter is the best medicine, fren. I do hope you'll get better and hopefully another meme will help. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UXwMkMpfx20>>82969930Hopefully you've enjoyed/are enjoying the party. I'm gonna watch Cloverfield's first two movies and the Exorcist.>>82970184B^). Yes.>>82972250Just fish for me today. Still a nice night, hopefully.
>>82970312>Makes sense, just nothing else to do really.okay i drank a little bit but not enough 2 get drunkenhow did u spend ur night, chem anon?>>82970215it's okayur probably not as bad as u thinky do u think ur fucked up?>>82970844>I should, but it's hard to do anything when you feel like this.get sumthing yummy then>No but I know one part will upset me...i wonder which one...>>82972250r u doing anything spooky 2day, lurker-chan?>>82974065it was okay. Didn't get 2 drunkenlots of ppl wanted 2 take pics w me>>82972535idk :(
>>82973593ye, I willi haven't spent much time with my mom cause she died when i was an infant
>>82974798That's good. Did you have a nice costume and that's why they wanted to take pics? Sounds like you did pretty well.
>>82974985probablyi cosplayed as Dante from Devil May CryI felt rather awkward though...
>>82975003Awkward but also people clearly enjoyed your costume B^). You should embrace a bit more confidence in yourself then, fren.
I wish I could sleep. I wish a lot of things.>>82973593>i'm gonna rewatch blade runner 2049That's one of my favorite movies. I hope you enjoy it. I will always kick myself for not seeing it in a cinema when I had the chance. I hope you enjoy the rewatch. >>82974798>get sumthing yummy thenI got something nice list night. I'm not really in the mood for eating now. Or doing much of anything honestly. >i wonder which one...I shouldn't be admitting that stuff here.
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>>82972535i don't think eiki needs "saving" imo. he has a good head on his shoulders, i think he just needs reassurance and maybe the occasional encouragement to keep going. otherwise i believe he's a very capable person, even if he thinks otherwise. but maybe i'm a little biased, idk>>82974065fish is tasty. what kind of fish? >>82974798i re-watched "what we do in the shadows," for like the 10th time. i got the dvd on a whim in a thirft store a few years ago and it became one of my favorites. it's not gory but it is bloody so fair warning if you plan on watching it. it's a mockumentary about vampires lol. i really like it! i usually carve a pumpkin for halloween too but i didn't this year. how was your party? have fun?
>>82975356Feel better soon and get some sleep, fren.>>82976411Actually there was a change of plans and I ended up getting Wendy's spicy nuggets instead B^). Otherwise it was gonna be some Alaskan pollock. It's a mild fish but it's still nice. Not as flavorful as catfish though, but not bad either.
>>82976421i haven't had alaskan pollock but i have had catfish before and it is pretty tasty. which of the two do you have more often? I also haven't had wendy's spicy nuggets, i've only had their burger before but i thought they were flavorless. are they worth the trip in your opinion? also how good are you at handling spice?
>>82976471Definitely catfish. Fried catfish and blackened catfish are just awesome. Wendy's spicy nuggets are nice, they mesh well with their BBQ sauce. I'm likely really biased though since it's all very nostalgic for me. I'd say they're worth the trip and I can handle spice pretty well B^). How about you, can you handle spicy foods?
>>82974798Also, I have a video for you, fren. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7XRxGCqpmVc some chemistry history in its more esoteric phase :)
>>82968285It's saturday, this won't be a day to take things easy I'm pretty sure, i'll try my best but it's possible I might find myself wondering why exactly did I did certain things. do you live in the present anon? cuz I do and all of what matters to me exist only in the present and that creates problems obviously, it's a short sighted shortsightedness that creates problems for me but I can't help it. Anon.
>>82976411>he has a good head on his shoulders, i think he just needs reassurance and maybe the occasional encouragement to keep going.Thank you, that means a lot. More than anything I need a hug, if I'm being honest.>>82976421>Feel better soon and get some sleep, fren.I just woke up from sleeping and I want to sleep even more. I feel like I'm going through withdrawal symptoms or something.>>82976542Better to live in the present than spend all your tone living in the past, I think.
>>82976770Hmm... Withdrawal symptoms you say? You didn't happen to leave any drinks unattended whilst out and about and fell asleep did you? Your stalker may be working hard to prevent you from getting your wizard powers, fren.Make sure to drink a good bit of water and to try and get more sleep.
>>82976778I don't think it's substance related. At least I hope it isn't.I'll try to drink a bunch soon.
>>82976793I am just joking, of course. Do try to not leave any drinks unattended where you know your stalker may be though.
>>82976811I'll try. I keep getting small gifts from her I don't like it.
>>82977053Tell her there's a NEET over in America who'd be fine with a stalker B^). Surely that'll work.
>>82977059I can try but I don't think you'd want to get involved either.May I talk to you about something privately?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sep5E3ssXLQ
>>82974798>how did u spend ur night, chem anon?Watching movies and random stuff on youtube. Ended up drinking way too much but somehow dodged the deserved hangover. Gonna take it easy today. Visit family graves later and then just chill maybe play some games.
gm everynyan!>>82975147i'm not used 2 this kind of attention -_->I got something nice list night. I'm not really in the mood for eating now. Or doing much of anything honestly.u gotta eat, anon! It will lift up ur spirits, i pwomise!>I shouldn't be admitting that stuff here.it's okay, we're all weirdos herebut u don't have 2>>82976411>i re-watched "what we do in the shadows," for like the 10th time. i got the dvd on a whim in a thirft store a few years ago and it became one of my favorites. it's not gory but it is bloody so fair warning if you plan on watching it. it's a mockumentary about vampires lol. i really like it! i usually carve a pumpkin for halloween too but i didn't this year. how was your party? have fun?it was okay, but i felt really awkwardmayb i should've drank moar...drinking alcohol in early stages is awful though cause even a smol sip of it gives me the tingles>>82976522nice, i'll give it a watch!>>82976542how come u won't take it easy?>do you live in the present anon?i try 2, but i'm a massive overthinker haha>>82977889what films did u watch? It's nice that u avoided a hangover, those r always bad. Last time i had one was a pretty bad xperience 4 me...
>>82977889Chem anon, give me your wisdom in terms of pyruvate and acetyl-coa. I once more offer cute animals videos and animal facts as an exchange. Vid related is a jar of sea butterflies, they're a kind of sea snail. Their group is pteropoda and they have sea angels in them too :). https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pteropoda>>82977952I just dislike lots of attention, which is why I wouldn't even want to go to a party. You'll get used to it if you like the attention though and keep going out into public. It'll be harder for you to take it easy that way though.>nice, i'll give it a watch!Hope you enjoy it, fren.
>>82977952also meant 4 eiki>>82975356>>82977999honestly, i'm not sure i like it either... I much prefer 2 take it easy with close frens rather than complete strangers
>>82968285it's caturday now !
>>82978017Same, although I do also enjoy total solitude for extended periods of time too but I am very certainly mentally ill in some fashion.>>82978023I must post a cat then.
>>82968285Now that it's Saturday, what do I do?
>>82977952>what films did u watch?Occult and Noroi, both are found footage j horror from the 2000s. I feel very nostalgic towards 2000s Japan even if I never visited then.>>82977999What do you want to know about pyruvate etc?
>>82978069I shall do so as well
>>82977952>u gotta eat, anon! It will lift up ur spirits, i pwomise!I'm eating. I'm not completely bedridden this time. Just slightly depressed again.>>82978077Take it easy! As easy as you can, at least.
>>82978100I'm curious mostly about what kind of sugars might be easily made with pyruvate(besides what plants already do) and if you know anything about converting acetyl-coa to pyruvate. I need to do some research on the latter. Most of what I remember is that acetyl-coa may be used to produce ketones for one of the microbes I was looking at for its carbon fixation. Ketones are lame though and I want sugars >B^(In truth the experiment/project I intend to do doesn't actually need me to know for certain any of this, but it'd be nice to know so I could try and maybe do a test or two to figure what it is I'm working with.>>82978103Very good, another is necessary then.
My friend said she is going to try and get me sectioned because I'm an unhinged. What I can also do, is hide in plain sight. I want the name of the man who molested her 24 years ago. It's not the same man I attacked with the wrench. Then it's over, I'll go down by police gunfire. I just need some resolution. If she really didn't want me to do this, she wouldn't have shown me the cuts on her arm. He's the source. He's the key. This will take a while, but I have multiple people I can get the name from. Finally. A reason to live, again.
Gonna go to a fire at my bf's friend's tonight. I am going to make them some pumpkin pie dip and bring ginger snaps and vanilla wafers to dip in it. The boys are gonna cook up the brats. I think I'll bring a few joints too I know they like weed. I am getting his one brother to warm up to me more I think he gets that I'm just a normal person. Wish me luck that I don't fuck up and make them all hate me kek
Legacy boomer here. My sinew dies, so I'll finish my whiskey here. Give me one of them funky animal facts while we at it.
>>82978841Word on the grapevine is that animal anon got a 3 day vacation, so you'll have to be factless for a while.
I think I might visit a woman of the night. I don't know. It seems like a bad idea.
>>82978144I mean the type of sugars you can make more so depends on the enzymes you are dealing with or are you talking about a pure lab synthesis. Enzymes you can also mutate either through directed evolution or DNA shuffling followed by selection to force them to either use a different substrate or make a different product.
taking it easy at grandma's placewe went outside and bought a bunch of goodies, including a new pair of shoes and thermal gloves, so that was nicebeing here with them is incredibly soothing, it eases the loneliness a loti no longer feel suicidal or bad about being such a mess, it is what it is and i'm like thati do apologize for dumping that on you guys, i just had no one else to share it withstay safe out there, i'll always believe in you guystreat yourselves to something nice this weekend, a good dish, a small decoration item like a lamp, anythingthank you for everything>>82973593>things can change so much in just a year...some things never change, but some things dome being a moronic fuckup is likely on the never changing side, what might change is in what sense i'm a fuckupbut it's fine, i just want to be accepted for being like this and loved despite it>>82974065>laughter is the best medicine, fren.kind hard when the mod you're in doesn't let you laugh at things you normally wouldthanks for your attempt and patience though>>82974798>ur probably not as bad as u thinktrue, i'm likely much worse, kekand well i could explain but i don't wanna go there again rn, hope you'll understand
