I did Ayahuasca and met God. I'm still autistic though

>>82972524
somebody should edit that "fell for it again award" and make it "relapsed again award" would be pretty funny as the OP

>>82972579
>I did Ayahuasca and met God
Oh, how was he? Did you get any revelation at all or was it a quick peek?
>I'm still autistic though
That's a shame.

>>82972524
Nice OP pic! The last one didn't survive as long as expected... Hope this one does better!

drugs are gay and turn you gay mmmmmkay?

>>82972607
>somebody should edit that "fell for it again award" and make it "relapsed again award" would be pretty funny as the OP
Why not make it yourself as an act of servitude to the thread? I'm sure your effort won't go unnoticed.

>>82972637
i just might
originally

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>>82972637
here you go sorry if it looks like shit i did it in ms paint

>>82972673
Looks good hehe.
Didn't know how the original meme looked like :p

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>>82972524
Paroxetine got me feeling like pic rel

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Growing my own shrooms right now, just started. Injected 2 rice bags 4 days ago with B+ LC (can't see any Mycelium growth yet). Any fellow growers here?

>>82972616
1. Glowing ball of warmth, love, and light. Fatherly energy. I could feel the presence of God at any time for 4 months after the trip. It has faded a bit recently but returns with concentration.

2. Autism is a superpower

>>82972524
What do you do if ur pretty sure your molly is mixed with bath salts or meth?

>>82973181
>Any fellow growers here?
Used to. Lc to oats in quart jars to tubs of coir

>>82973307
You don't take it? What answer are you expecting, you dumb faggot. No drug is worth your life.

Fuckin' binged meth and ghb during a hookup yesterday and I'm still feeling fucked up over it. How long does this shit take to fuck off?

>>82973319
It's such a shame that I have to let it go to waste

>>82973318
How are shroom trps compared to LSD? I've never done shrooms, but I did acid semi often some 3 years ago. And how big of a yield did you get from your batch?

>>82973181
Nope but I plan on growing some opium poppies, I already got the dirt and the seeds, just need to build a planter box, get some sand and bird fertilizer.
>>82973307
Takes less of it, of course.
>>82973334
I've never done LSD but my shroom trip got me reminiscing about my childhood and talking out loud about the good old times of being a kid, at the end of the trip however the reality of my life hit me like a truck and the phrase "I'm fucked in the head" started to loop over and over for about 2 hours. I had some closed eye visuals but I was way too stressed to apprecciated them.
2/10 I wouldn't do it again, but YMMV.

Really wish the suboxone would get out of my system so I could feel my 7oh. Planning on keeping suboxone around for when I want to get off it (or when I run out of money for it) which is what I was just using it for, but damn, I wanna party again NOW

>>82973250
>I could feel the presence of God at any time for 4 months after the trip
Wow, those are some long-lasting after effects. Sounds cool, though. Like a 4 month long after-glow that seems beneficial and not harmful at all.
>It has faded a bit recently
As is expected, after all.
>Autism is a superpower
It sometimes seems to be desu. I might be on the spectrum myself, but I've never been checked medically. Just a hunch, but probably a right one to a degree, from my general behavior and social abilities, or lack there of.

>>82972966
>Paroxetine got me feeling like pic rel
After hearing a lot of flack about SSRIs, I'm glad it works for you!
From what I read it takes 4 weeks to fully work, and could have some nasty side-effects, so I'm happy you didn't encounter any, and maneged to stay on treatment for this long without giving up or falling off.
Does taking it really feels like a Serotonin reuptake inhibitor sound like they do? Is it any close to MDMA with the increased amount of Serotonin in your system, or is it more medical feeling?
I brifly tried to get my psychiatrist to prescribe me with some, for the Serotonin increase, but gave-up and now think it's a generally bad idea.

>>82973181
>Growing my own shrooms right now, just started. Injected 2 rice bags 4 days ago with B+ LC
Not a sroom grower but I think it's a very cool and economic thing to do.
Goodluck avoiding contamination or bad harvest!
I hope they'll grow well and will be potent to use.

Going on and off mutliple antidepressants has fried my brain and now I have no emotions, positive or negative. It's been around 4 months off everything and still no improvements. Been thinking about suicide a lot lately. If I have to live the rest of my life like this I'm just killing myself. Is there any hope for me

>>82973307
I don't think there's anyway to clean that sort of mix and extract only the MDMA. But considering Bath-Salts are a blenket term for a variety of synthtic Cathinones that should add to the stimulating effect of MDMA and are relatively safe on low doses, and Meth's not that bad, especially in lower doses too, so you might be able to get some value out of it yet.

So the answer is: providing you still are interested in using it, take less than you'd use normally (like 15-30mg max to start with, it's safer to be on the lower side of this range), in theory it should balance itself out, having the additional substances fill-out the spot for some of the main effects of the MDMA in it, if preasent at all that is.
Otherwise, if you're adverse to using a cut and diluted product, dump it all in the toilet and forget about it.

I say better safe than sorry, as you don't really know what's it cut with (it could be an unknown RC or some other drug that's completely different from Meth or Bath-Salts in effects and possible health risks), but it could be worth the risk with a little bit of experimentation to check the potency and look for any negative side-effects that might come-up; if, say, you experience too fast or too slow of a heart-rate, any internal organ pain, a bad/uncomfortable feeling, or similar effect on a low dose, it means you shouldn't take anymore of it or risk some serious health issues. In this outcome, the best-case scenario is you detoxing in the ER for a few hours then released sober and healthy; worst-case, you'll simply die of organ failure/an unintentional OD.
Personally and honestly, I'd risk it and dose-low to start instead of flushing it, but that's me and my druggie/economical way of thinking. I'd try to make it worth the cash-spent on principle, even if I'd be risking it a little in the proccess. In other words, I'd personally get high off whatever it is anyway.
Your choice in the end, I hope you make the right one.
Goodluck and have fun!

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I did cocaine for the first time last night, then again this morning.
I kind of hate it, the high was underwhelming and during the comedown I was tearing up laying on the floor hugging a pillow thinking about a girl I thought I had gotten over.

>>82975048
Give it time before you call it quits. Yes, more time than 4 months. 4 months is no time at all, really. I assume you spent much longer than that riding the antidepressant train. It'll take longer to even back out. Have faith. Play some good games, or read some good books, or watch some good movies, talk to a god of your choosing, shitpost. You'll make it. It takes time

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>do shrooms
>have a seizure
>do cough syrup
>have a seizure
>do a tiny amount of weed
>have a seizure
its not fair, i wanna go back to experiencing ego death on shrooms and rotting on dxm like i used to be able to, why did i have to suddenly develop epilepsy that gets triggered by drugs

>>82973328
>How long does this shit take to fuck off?
Not sure with GHB, but Meth can last for as long as 8-12 and sometimes up to 24 hours depending on tolerance.

>>82973538
NTA.
>the reality of my life hit me like a truck and the phrase "I'm fucked in the head" started to loop over and over for about 2 hours
In me experience, psychedelic headspaces can be easily navigated to avoid those kind of things from happening, with time, experience, and exposure to this state of mind.
How experienced were you at the time of that trip? It's a very common thing to get into loops, and it takes a bit of know-how in self-soothing to steer away from it and into a more manegeable thought-flow.

>>82972524
haven't done anything with my ass, I do love getting high and letting my boyfriend rail me

After failing to OD on benzos I can genuinely notice the brain damage get worse and worse. Might have to OD again (in minecraft jannies dont ban me)

>>82974893
>Is it any close to MDMA
It feels like a weaker DXM afterglow, slight nausea, a weird sensation of physical fatigue and sleepiness.
Sometimes I find myself smiling at nothing and my tolerance for bullshit has increased.
This is the only SSRI and SNRI that hasn't killed my libido.

>>82973307
Buy some again from another seller, MDMA is cheap.
Also test your drugs. A reagent test kit is cheap too.

>>82973328
Why did you do downer+upper? It's stupid and dangerous.
Also GHB only lasts for like 2 hours. You feel the meth still that can last up to 24 hours and have lasting effects afterward even if you're not under the influence anymore.

>>82975486
Coke is a status drug. It's objectively not very good.

>>82976661
actually it might not be so bad, just my anxiety getting worse and becoming more noided about any minor sign of brain damage

>>82974083
>Really wish the suboxone would get out of my system so I could feel my 7oh
From quick research, Suboxone effects last up to 24 hours, so you're fucked for the long-haul with this one, I'm afraid.
Don't waste good 7OH in a useless attempt to get high.
Just wait a day for the Sunoxone to wear-off, then party as hard as you want.

Also, saving the Suboxone for when you run-out of 7OH is a good idea since you probably abuse 7OH and are physically dependent on it consequently. You'd prolly be in for harsh withdrawals if you didn't have some Suboxone on hand.
Idk why you took some when not withdawing and a supply of 7OH to use if you were, or just if you wanted to get fucked, like now, for example.

Treat Suboxone as a valuable limited resource, as I hear psychiatrists won't prescibe it often and if so then not for long.
Though, your doctor's familiar with your case and might be understanding; so they'll write scripts when asked nicely without many questions.
Just don't tell them about the active drug use.
I hide my drug use from my psychiatrist and got both monthly unlimited Ritalin and Clonazepam scripts, which I often take recreationally.
They'd never do this if they knew I was using Meth or (rarely) take 4-6mg of Clonazepam.

Goodluck, I've never had a need for Suboxone or used any Opiates to relate.
But I definitely understand how frustrating it is to take lots of drugs and not be getting accordingly high, so I sympathize with you.

>>82976712
>It feels like a weaker DXM afterglow, slight nausea, a weird sensation of physical fatigue and sleepiness.
Sometimes I find myself smiling at nothing and my tolerance for bullshit has increased
I always wondered, so thank you for the insightful information.
>This is the only SSRI and SNRI that hasn't killed my libido
Interesting, as Paroxetine is actually considered one of the antidepressants with the highest risk for causing sexual side effects, including decreased libido and other forms of sexual dysfunction, among all the SSRIs, from quick research.

>>82975486
>I did cocaine for the first time last night, then again this morning.
I kind of hate it
As you should. Coke is a shit-tier drug not worth the money for the short weak high compared to other longer-lasting, more potent drugs like Amphetamines, which last from 4-6 and up to 8-12 or even 24 hours depending on tolerance, and are more euphoric if that's what you're looking for.

Doc won't write me a prescription for tramadol so I'm binging OTC codeine until my not-so-legitimate tramadol arrives.

>>82976258
>why did i have to suddenly develop epilepsy that gets triggered by drugs
I can't smoke Weeed without getting a psychotic episode so I feel for you, anon.
I thought epilepsy is an inherited condition.
Hope you'll find a drug that works for you eventually, maybe try downers? Some of them, like benzos, are used to treat epilepsy anyway.

>>82972524
can anyone tell me some drugs that are harder than marijuana that i can get easily and wont fuck my entire life up?

>>82976661
>After failing to OD on benzos I can genuinely notice the brain damage get worse and worse. Might have to OD again
Afaik, you can't die from benzos alone and require other breath suppresants like Alcohol. Otherwise you'll just further the brain damage like an idiot.

>>82977202
Depends on your self-control but psychedelics can't really go wrong if you're not a total retard with the dosage.

>>82977222
any in particular you can name my friend?
i've heard talk of shrooms all the time and how good they are but i can't find any way to get some. Was almost about to try shroombars but at the last minute got told they're tourist retard shit.

>>82976964
NTA.
>Why did you do downer+upper? It's stupid and dangerous
Idk about the stupid and dangerous part. I do 4-6mg of Clonazepam close to the end of a Meth session while still under influence and it's great. Blissfully floating in a half-asleep half-awake state is very peasent.

>>82977231
It's a hot take but, DMT in changa form is great for people experimenting with psychs
you don't have to smoke enough to breakthrough, just enough to feel the effects and decide if the effects are for you or not.
if you can't get your hands on any psychs your second best bet is over-the-counter DXM in the 300 mg dosage, it's similar to psychs and it's not entirely overwhelming, so if you don't like it you can just ride it out.
quick flash of warnings: don't do it daily, and make sure you don't fuck yourself up with paracetamol overdose, it's not a quick and easy death.

>>82977194
>Doc won't write me a prescription for tramadol
You probably don't have a condition that justifies a Tramadol script, or are flagged as a "drug-seeker" depending on how much you share with your medical professionals.
>I'm binging OTC codeine until my not-so-legitimate tramadol arrives
Wish we had OTC Codeine here, or that I was able to order drugs off DNMs safely. Sadly that is not the case.
Have fun.

>>82977202
>can anyone tell me some drugs that are harder than marijuana that i can get easily and wont fuck my entire life up?
Psychedelics usually leave you with an "I've had enough" feeling and aren't addictive. You can use them once every 7-14 days and not build tolerance.
MDMA is also an option, it's very gentle on lower doses, but you can only use it safely once a month.

>>82977231
>any in particular you can name my friend?
NTA, but LSD is the first psychedelic I tried apart for MDMA and it has worked great for me. It does last long, though, so be prepared for the long-haul, and be good at self-soothing.

>>82977217
oh yeah i was high as fuck on xanax during the initial attempt, if i planned it out instead of it being spur of the moment id be comfortably dead right now

>>82977295
I do but I also came into that office with a slit wrist from a suicide attempt so that's probably why.

>>82977339
>i was high as fuck on xanax during the initial attempt
Wish I had a script for Xanax... Must've blacked-out at some point, right?
>if i planned it out instead of it being spur of the moment id be comfortably dead right now
Yeah, probably. Still hope you choose life, though.

>>82977343
>came into that office with a slit wrist from a suicide attempt so that's probably why
Yeah, that'd do it. They've marked you as a generic "risk to yourself and/or others" so they won't give you anything you can OD on easily.

>>82977401
bullshit, I already tried doing that before and you vomit before anything meaningful happens.

>>82977412
>bullshit, I already tried doing that before and you vomit before anything meaningful happens
I guess some people are better at keeping it in, as it does happen. Also I'm sorry to hear of your struggle with suicidal ideation, and hope you'll get through it fine and choosing life.

>>82977360
Oh yeah I blacked out for three hours, but somehow avoided any major anterograde memory loss that's noticeable, so lucked out big time.
>choose life
I'll make sure to choose a job, career, family and everything else as well <3

yo man u need to call the ambulance

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>>82972524
I feel bad for taking pregab daily
150mg or 75mg minimum
Its been since 2023

I'm gonna keep this thread from dying prematurely because I have the special halloween layout and I wanna keep it for as long as possible.

>>82977695
>I feel bad for taking pregab daily
Don't you build tolerance eventually?

>>82977758
600 mg could knock me out
So either 300 or 150 daily for safe zone
Also add caffeine if necessary

>>82977797
>600 mg could knock me out
So either 300 or 150 daily for safe zone
Hmm. I didn't think that's how it worked. I'd assume the body will get used to *any* dose taken on a daily basis, and build tolerance accordingly; requiring a higher dose to achieve the same effect. Especially considering how long you've been using. But maybe it's different with GABApentinoids, idk, I never had any. Maybe you're just built different.

>>82977486
>I blacked out for three hours
Yeah, that makes sense, considering. Just how much did you take approximately?
>avoided any major anterograde memory loss that's noticeable
Yeah, definitely lucky on that one.
>I'll make sure to choose a job, career, family and everything else as well <3
Those are good goals, but know not everyrhing in life comes easy. Life will get better as long as you act to make it better, I always say. It'll take not a small amount of effort, but is achieveable, so consider working towards those goals instead of attemping suicide. I guarantee you'll see results in time as long as you don't give-up and keep at it. Easier said than done, but there's always hope, you just need to be ready to seize it.

>>82978078
>how much did you take
approx 300mg. i can notice the short term memory issues which cause like a doom spiral of getting nervous about it and then trying to think about what else i forget etc. etc.
>choose life
that was more a riff on trainspotting lol. but yeah it's definitely going to take some effort. My life has been at rock bottom for the past half decade due to severe mental illness which prevents me from doing anything. as a canadian citizen, when maid is legalized on march 17 2027 i will be signing up if that situation does not improve. if (most definitely when) they further delay this, i will simply overdose properly. but i will only allow myself to do so if i actually put effort into improving. only then will i actually be able to determine if my situation is truly FUBAR.

>>82978278
>approx 300mg
Damn, man. That's hardcore.
>i can notice the short term memory issues which cause like a doom spiral of getting nervous about it and then trying to think about what else i forget
Sure sounds scary. Wouldn't have liked that happening to me.
>that was more a riff on trainspotting
Idk what that is, and it went way over my head.
>My life has been at rock bottom for the past half decade due to severe mental illness which prevents me from doing anything
I have the same issue (schizophrania), but on disability now, which's a great help, and found worth in life after +6 years of suicidal thoughts. At some point I had a noose hanging in my room waiting for me to get the curage; I got close a few times and tightend the rope around my neck a couple of times, but didn't jump. And I'm happy I didn't. Suicidal thoughts usually don't come back once they're gone, so I hope you ride this through to the other side.
>when maid is legalized on march 17 2027 i will be signing up
Again, I hope you choose life. But it is your god-given right to off yourself whenever and however you want, as long as you're of a sound mind, and can consent to the act properly.
Goodluck.
>but i will only allow myself to do so if i actually put effort into improving
That's the thing though, you always have to keep on trying. Life has no time limit to where your effort should end. Be strong and keep at it!

Bumping the thread for good messure. Hope it lives until nightfall, then I'll have *actual* people to talk to.

>>82977695
Wow your memory and cognitive functions must be FUCKED.

>>82977248
On the comedown, sure. At the same time? No.

>>82977231
Shrooms are probably the best for a first psych experience, you can be done with it in an afternoon and dealers can't fake dried mushrooms.
LSD lasts the entire day (10-12h), mescaline makes you puke your guts out, DMT and salvia are short acting but overwhelming, HBWR seeds are legal in many countries but they're kinda shit.

>>82978908
>On the comedown, sure. At the same time? No
I've heard of a lot of people combining downers with uppers (usually, but not only, benzos and Meth) at the peak and offset time, and they seem to find it as a pleasureable mix. Also heard of people using benzos to calm the Meth's peak tweaking and steady their nerves while at work. Additionally heard of mixing Amphetamine with GABApentinoids.
It is a very common and popular combo (as accepted as psychedelics and downers, to calm the hectic mind space). I'm surprised you're not aware of it.

I keep abusing my dexamphetamine script like crazy every refill. I pick up 2 weeks worth at a time and they're gone by day 5. It's fun for the first 2 or so days then I'm basically avoiding the crash/complusivly taking them. I took the last of them 8hrs ago and am coming down now preparing for the next couple of shitty days. At least I have methadone and benzos to take the edge off. They actually worked really well for the first 2 months without me abusing them then one day the feeling just changed, it was a really weird sudden tolerance spike. At least I avoided the 'bathsalt' epidemic and fent/tranq-fent. My pre-methadone days were mostly humble PST and golden triangle #4 H along with a ton of experimenting with psychedelics.

>>82978908
>>82979066
They're poor mans speedballs. I used to shoot herion+meth occasionally since meth alone gave me panic attacks.
I've heard of groups using GHB together using meth to save someone who's ODing. Benzos are a staple in any druggies stash for comedowns/sleep/anxiety

>>82972524
pizza is the best drug

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I've got three bottles of Zzzquil, a half pound of Warhead Indica, and a fleshlight on order.

I was not planning on NNN, but I have notions now of edging and gooning every day until the inevitable...

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>>82979553
Sativa not indica fuck=

>>82979342
>They're poor mans speedballs
I see it as quite the luxury being able to have access to both of these potent substances, and using them to a perfect combination.
>I used to shoot herion+meth occasionally since meth alone gave me panic attacks
Understandable if a bit of an overkill to use Heroin instead of benzos, also IVing can be dangerous and wildly addictive so take care, anon. Although you're prolly already are an addict, if you shoot instead of oral Meth and snorted Heroin (being the lesser evil opposed to smoking/IVing it).
>I've heard of groups using GHB together using meth to save someone who's ODing
Benzos are usually used in cases of Meth toxicity as they relieve the vasoconstriction and cardiac stress, and are often coupled with Anti-Psychotics to lessen the mental effect of the Meth and the probable psychosis the patiant is experiencing due to Meth toxicity. I take both benzos and APs at the end of a session and so far didn't encounter any toxicity issues.
>Benzos are a staple in any druggies stash for comedowns
For sure. Nothing beats the floating feeling benzos (with Meth) cause, as well as their ability to make come-downs more gentle.

>>82976041
I was on antidepressants for almost 10 years. I am so fucked. Hopefully it doesn't take another 10 years to return to normal

>>82979689
Its similar to fat fucks trying to lose weight. Did you become a fat fuck overnight? No. So you're not gonna get skinny overnight either

>>82979549
>pizza is the best drug
Yo, so true. I'm addicted to this one pizza place that has bacon topping, it's literally the best pizza I've ever had.

>>82979689
NTA.
>Hopefully it doesn't take another 10 years to return to normal
Do they help you at all? Would you like to go back to normal in the first place?
"While most people's symptoms resolve within a few weeks to a couple of months, a subset of individuals can experience symptoms for months, years, or, in rare cases, indefinitely. While many guidelines state that symptoms usually last less than two months, some studies and patient reports show symptoms can last for six months, a year, or longer. Gradually reducing the dose under a doctor's guidance is the best way to minimize the risk and severity of discontinuation symptoms."
-Google AI
So it would seem you're stuck for the long-haul on this one, anon.

Another bump to this thread in order to prevent its untimely death.

I wanted to be kinda barred out last night but shit I ended up falling asleep, I just couldn't fight the urges man, so I fell asleep in the most comfortable position ever and today, november first, I'm feeling like smeared shit.

Thank you all for reading...

Anything I should know before I combine alcohol and 4f-dck?

>>82973334
Idk. Never done acid but did 5 grams of mushrooms all alone in a motel. Was scary as fuck. I did roughly a gram all alone a couple weeks ago and it was pretty cozy.
>>82975458
The woman that gave it to me said she took some and it lasted twelve hours but who knows if it's from the same batch. She bought my tab the same time she bought hers.
>>82976955
Idk any other sellers and she gave me this for free. A testing kit is 70 bux or ones off Amazon are shit unless you know any good deals
Also I wouldn't have thought anything about it but the tab crumbled apart and she said it lasted twelve hours and the research I did said it's cut with something

>>82980559
>I wanted to be kinda barred out last night but shit I ended up falling asleep, I just couldn't fight the urges man, so I fell asleep in the most comfortable position ever
It's unfortunate you missed out on the high, but at least you were comfortable and cozy in the bed. Falling asleep and missing the benzo high sadly comes with the territory.
How much did you dose?
I wish I had some Xanax but it's a no-go with my psychiatrist and DNMs are not an option :(
>today, november first, I'm feeling like smeared shit.
Sorry to hear that.
Is it because of the Xanax after-effects or something else? Anyway, I hope you'll feel better soon.
Goodluck and have fun!

>>82980701
>Anything I should know before I combine alcohol and 4f-dck?
As a Ketamine analogue 4-dck is an anastetic, sedative, and dissocoative subatance. The mixing of 4-dck with Alcohol is highly discouraged as it can easily lead to respiratory depression and eventual death. It's no different than combining actual Ketamine with Alcohol.
Pluse the psycedelic effects of 4-dck will get out of control with Alcohol and may cause panic.
Im summery, I advise you to do one or the other but not both of them together as it carries many health risks and the danger of death. Maybe, and I say maybe a low dose of Alcohol (i.e., one or two 4% beers) will yield somewhat of an enhamced experience, but generally speaking, those two don't go well together, won't be anymore fun than doing them alone, and might've the opposite effect of harming the experience and overall fun; not considering the health risks involved.
But in the end it's your choice. Hope you make the right one.
Be safe and have fun!

P.S. where does one get some 4-dck?

>>82980137
I was prescribed them for OCD and anxiety but they never really helped me. I would give anything to go back to being able to feel joy and sufferring. I will never take an antidepressant ever again. This whole experienced has really turned me against psychiatry on a scientific and philosophical level.

My current state of emotional numbness isn't due to withdrawl, at least not directly. Basically I tried to get off, then got back on due to severe withdrawal, then switched to a different medication, then tried to come off again, then got severe withdrawal again, then reinstated again. It was only after the second reinstatement that I got this severe emotional blunting. Although I guess looking back I was always emotionally constrained but it's never been this severe.

Are drugs even worth it?
>Cocaine, Meth and shit like this will make you lock in and feel nice but coming down is crap and also they are addictive and make you angry
>MDMA and party drugs also have a crap comedown
>Dude Weed makes you lethargic, dumb and psychotic. Positive is you feel comfy
>LSD, shrooms, ketamine are meme reddit drugs and sure things are aesthetic when taking them but nothing more
>Alcohol and nicotine are just normie shit good for socializing
>Fentanyl and heroine will just kill you

>>82980991
>P.S. where does one get some 4-dck?
My friend says he got it from the professor.

>>82973334
>How are shroom trps compared to LSD?
Only did LSD, but from what I've heard Shrooms are more body high and less mentally taxing on common low-mid doses (1.5-3.5g) with vivid pastel-like visuals. They're also shorter-lasting than LSD is (4-6 hours vs. 8-12 hours), lack the stimulating effects of LSD, and are prone to cause nausea; so take on an empty stomach in the morning or after a 3-4 hours fast to minimize the risk of vomiting.
Personally, LSD is one of my favorite drugs; I like the visuals style (tv statics, RB 3D, fractal, and melting), long-lasting effects, and the stimulation. I take it whenever I've got some alone-time without any resposibilities and tune in to some music (I recommend the yt playlist "cool kids do acid" if you can find it) or look at art (looked at a painting of a village and the villigers looked like they're moving, going on with their day), art takes a life of its own on LSD.
So I highly recommend LSD as it was my first psychedelic apart for MDMA and it does the job perfectly and predictibly on doses of 150-250ug (+300ug is where it stops being predictible and goes out for a wild ride), especially if you're sitting at a PC with mostly full control over what stimuli you'll be exposed to at a click of a mouse, audio or visual.
It's good to mention that being good at self-soothing is a big pluse and knowing how to navigate thought patterns easily comes with time and experience, but once you get the concept it's easy to avoid thought loops and other common traps psychs are known for.
Goodluck and have fun.

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>>82976597
>How experienced were you at the time of that trip?
It was my first time trying more than 1g of shrooms, I fucked up to be honest but I've had stronger experiences on DXM, difference there is that I was too paralized to even speak.

Drugs are worth it for people who don't have an addictive personality that can use them sparingly for fun, thrill or novelty. One things for sure, they aren't going away anytime soon so keeping people educated and trying to keep them clean (knowing what you're taking) should be a priority.

Psychedelics are much more than meme 'look at the pretty visuals' drugs. Tripping can be very useful for self refection or having a spiritual experience.

Something like kava tea is an amazing substitute for alcohol to wind down.

There's also nootropics which can help with a multitude of things but ymmv.

>>82981592
Kava sucks. You'll sooner puke than feel any relief

>>82980794
>it lasted twelve hours
That doesn't check out for synthetic Cathinones (Bath-Salts, q2-4 hours) but does for Meth (8-12 and up to 24 hours depending on tolerance). For reference, MDMA lasts for 4-6 hours.
>She bought my tab the same time she bought her
Tabs? You mean pills?
You only suspect it as being cut from the description of that woman?
How strong did the woman say it was?
If it's pressed pills than there's no messuring your dose properly, it's all-or-nothing.
I say, she survived the high, why shouldn't you? That said, you can never know what's in those pills. I'd even wager a guess and say the pill contains around 50-100mg of Meth on the lower side of things with the avarage size of the pills these days, but it's only a guess. Knowing how strong she said it was would narrow it down by a lot.
If you decide to do it, make sure you have the proper time to experience it fully without distractions and have some benzos on hand if things get a little too hectic or there's noticeable cardiac stress.
And for the love of all that's holy:
**Stick to buying MDMA in crystal form ffs!**
Idk how many times I had to say this, but it's safer as you know it's not cut with anything and can be messured on a scale for accurate dosing.
Goodluck and have fun!

>>82981261
>My friend says he got it from the professor
Ominus and not very helpful, but thanks for the effort. Would be cool if you actually got it stright from a clan lab though.

>>82977195
well, i think epilepsy is something that can come and go
like some of the genes are there for it but not enough for it to manifest on its own until a big enough trigger happens, and they've always been focal seizures which are more mild than other seizures
i also get them off drugs or atleast the aura, but its always significantly more intense on them
>downers
they seem like they'd work, probably opiates too, but they're all extremely addictive and more likely to be life ruining
i just wish i could try dmt because i spent a bunch of money getting all the equipment and took the time to make it but its so intense i'd probably risk my life doing it, but settling for anything less than psychedelics just doesnt seem worth it

>>82981351
you should do more than that, when i took enough all my thoughts would eventually stop being coherent and i just go into this sort of state where i feel like i'm made up of every sensation i'm experiencing instead of a conscious mass of thoughts and ideas

>>82981045
>I was prescribed them for OCD and anxiety but they never really helped me
So you should've stopped right there, not go for 10 fucking years! It the treatment does not work, change it or stop it untill a better option shows itself. That's the mindset of my psychiatrist.
>I would give anything to go back to being able to feel joy and sufferrin
You will again, as long as you abstaine from taking anymore. The body can heal itself in wnderful ways, trust your body.
>This whole experienced has really turned me against psychiatry on a scientific and philosophical level
Understandable. It's common with public psychiatrists. But perhaps consider a private psychiatrist? Ime they'll go above and beyond for you and actually care about your current condition and the progression of the treatment.
>Basically I tried to get off, then got back on due to severe withdrawal over and over again
That's why you don't quit cold-turkey, but gradually taper off, preferably with the guidence of a doctor or ask ChatGPT to write you a tapering schedule.
I truely believe that you'll get your emotions back with time, you just need to ride it out.
Stay strong!

>>82981088
>Are drugs even worth it?
Some, yes.
>>Cocaine, Meth and shit like this will make you feel nice but coming down is crap they are addictive and make you angry
Coke is a shit-tier drug. But Meth is a high-tier drug (that carries a lot of health risks). You can avoid Meth's comedown with stratigically taken benzos as I've been doing and it feels nice. If used properly, the addiction risk can be nerrowed down to virtually zero % chance especially considering the long-lasting effects, you just stop dosing when you reach the desireable level of high and stay on it for very long without compulsive redosing to avoid a crash. Also the making you angry part might just be a you thing as Meth mellows me out. Amphtamines in general are pretty ok, though, and aren't as risky as Meth but do have a higher risk of compulsive redosing and consequent addiction.
>MDMA and party drugs also have a crap comedown
MDMA is not a party drug and it's a shame it got that name. But doing it once a month at doses lower than 180mg in a chill, cool environment will not have neuro toxicity or a crash and will be quite gentle.
>>Dude Weed makes you lethargic, dumb and psychotic. Positive is you feel comfy
Weed gives me psychotic episodes so no positives for me. Aside for that all is true.
>LSD, shrooms, ketamine are meme reddit drugs
LSD is a wonderful drug! Some of my best memories were on LSD.
Ketamine is supposed to be pretty good and have a psychedelic side to it, it must be good if people go through 4g a week. Though I never tried it. Idk anything about Shrooms. But all of those are legit drugs and aren't a meme at all.
>Alcohol and nicotine are just normie shit good for socializing
True enough. I'm addicted to Nicotine bad and it's not getting any better.
>Fentanyl and heroine will just kill you
Idk about fent, but Heroin can be used responsibly 2 days every 1-2 weeks with no addiction risk. If you stick to snorting it's easy to manage. There are a very few health risks to using it.

>>82981912
Yeah I really wish my doctors told me that hey maybe it's not such a good idea to be on a med for so long or told me about safe tapering. They all told me that you only need to taper off for a month but that was a fucking lie. This time I figured out how to make custom dosages and tapered off for about 6 months. These doctors just don't give a fuck.

>>82978900
So illegal drugs in general :((

>>82981351
>It was my first time trying more than 1g of shrooms
There. It should become easy-peasy the more you do it and learn to navigate your thought patterns. Being good at self-soothing is a huge pluse. Loops are a common trap with psychedelics and I wouldn't write-off Shrooms just for that. Try it again on a 2-3g dose in a good setting and mind state. It should be better with time, and by god, does it get better. Experiment and dare and you'd not be disappointed.
Maybe try some LSD? It's a wonderful drug and is awfully predictable at 150-250ug (+300ug is where it stops being predictible) especially if you're sitting at a PC and mostly in control of the stimuli you'll be exposed to, audio and visual, at a click of a mouse. It lasts longer but having passed the peak (at 1.5-2 hours in. Google AI and psychonautwiki say the peak lasts for 3-6 hours on avarage but I experienced a decline in intensity after 2 hours tops and sometimes as low as 40-60min depending on tolerance), it's smooth sailing all the way through (remember, you're not tweaking, you're peakimg). With some nice color flashes and fractal visuals.
It was my first psych and thought me how to direct the trip easliy to positive places with minimal discomfort in the proccess despite being a long experience. Tbh it does take a toll physically and mentally at the end of the day, being this long. But shouldn't be used more than once every 1-2 weeks to avoid tolerance buildup.
That said, you won't regret trying it!
>I've had stronger experiences on DXM, difference there is that I was too paralized to even speak
It's unclear whether you were paralized on Shrooms or DXM from that sentance.

>>82982735
>It's unclear whether you were paralized on Shrooms or DXM from that sentance
Oh, I was paralized from the DXM.
>Maybe try some LSD?
Sadly, I don't have a plug or the kind of money to order from a DNM, I got the shrooms from the clearnet.
Once I finish growing my poppies I'll try growing some San Pedro's, Mescaline sounds fun.
>Try it again on a 2-3g dose in a good setting and mind state.
I'm sure that was the issue, I had just moved out and it was my first time away from my mother in 24 years, the apartment sucked and the neighbours were worse, I had to return to my mom's home.

>>82981592
>Drugs are worth it for people who don't have an addictive personality that can use them sparingly for fun, thrill or novelty
True. I carefully consider myself as one of those people. I use Meth responsibly for fun once every 7-14 days.
>they aren't going away anytime soon so keeping people educated and trying to keep them clean (knowing what you're taking) should be a priority
Also true, proper education and harm-reduction practices are important for a healthy drug-consuming society.
>Tripping can be very useful for self refection
Obviously. Tripping can be very introspective and will force you to face issues you'd otherwise burry deep and suppress, leading to overall better mental health (most of the time).
>Something like kava tea is an amazing substitute for alcohol to wind down
First I've heard of it and it seems to be available in shampoo form in my country. Interesting.

>>82981879
>i think epilepsy is something that can come and go
Never thought of it that way. I assumed that once you got it, you got it for good.
>they've always been focal seizures which are more mild than other seizures
At least they're not severe. So you have that going for you.
>downers seem like they'd work, probably opiates too, but they're all extremely addictive and more likely to be life ruining
I'd highly suggest trying benzos for recreation, just be careful not to go full retard and build massive tolerance and subsequent addiction. Opiates can be safely used with some self control for 2 days every 2 weeks. They have a very few health risks associated with them. The biggest harms of Opiates are addiction and IV damage, so avoiding that, and sticking to snorting and to low doses (10-30mg) Opiate use can be functional and easily manageable.
>settling for anything less than psychedelics just doesnt seem worth it
That's a big ask in your condition. Psychedelics are notoriously drugs with harsh and heavy effects that will most likely drop you at a consistant rate. Expand your horizons a little bit, try some Kratom or the more potent 7OH as they're legal in most countries (not mine, though). Get a script (or order from a DNM if possible and safe) for some strong benzos by complaining to a doctor (prefereably a private one) and try taking a high dose with a glass of 12% wine, ime that induces a lot of euphoria as long as you can stay awake. Don't focus on psychs as beggers can't be choosers. And you, my friend, are a begger.

>>82981739
Again. I didn't buy this. She offered so i accepted. And yes pill form. Has a coke bottle impression. Idk anything about street mdma. I told her I was looking for something to bring out my repressed memories and she said she would get me something. A year later she gives me this. She's also like "prepare to be horny for the next twelve hours".

How are you druggies doing?

>>82983344
Pissy. Suboxone is STILL in my system. I wasted over 400mg over the last day and a half trying to get high on 7-OH. The shit adds up... I'm grateful to have access to subs for when I need them but right now I wanna get HIGH

>>82980798
>How much did you dose?
A single grammer that I borrowed from a known individual, it wasn't that strong of a dose according to psychonaut but it still got me knocked out, and what do you mean dnms aren't an option, they don't sell alprazolam at the moment? cuz I really don't know about that since I get my drugs the old way, and can't your psychiatrist prescribe other benzos of longer half life like klonopin for example?
>Is it because of the Xanax after-effects or something else?
Probably, I don't take benzos that often but the after effects usually involve feeling very lethargic and lazy afterwards, this time around I woke up like that and kinda sad too, but by this time today I feel brand new.

>>82982336
>This time I figured out how to make custom dosages and tapered off for about 6 months
It's sad you had to take thing into your own hands while under medical supervision.
>These doctors just don't give a fuck
That's why I'm suggeting private medicine. Private doctors will go above and beyond for you as they are paid directly by you, not a public fund, and know they can be replaced in a second. It'll cost some money but pays for itself in peace of mind. Search for a private psychiatrist in your area and go for an initial exam, you'd be suprised of how much they care and keep strict and accurate records of every session. They're also more liberal with scripts ime and will prescribe you with benzos and Ritalin as if they were water. Ime with public vs. private doctors, the private ones gave a fuck as opposed to the public ones that just want to end their shift and get you out of the room as quickly as possible with a random script that generally treats your symptoms to call it a job well-done. Private doctors will put more thought as to what drugs to offer you considering the impact on quality of life and possible side-effects weighed against the benefit. You can't go wrong with private doctors. And if you dislike one, you can always switch to another untill you find your best fit. Seriously, in your situation it's something worth considering.

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>>82981592
>people who don't have an addictive personality that can use them sparingly for fun, thrill or novelty
Be careful, you can still end up addicted and rewire your brain into easily giving in to impulses.

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we're excused

>>82982787
>I was paralized from the DXM
Yeah, that makes sense.
>Sadly, I don't have a plug or the kind of money to order from a DNM
A shame. Getting a plug is easy in Telegram and DNMs. Maybe later then, when you have a steady cash-flow.
>I got the shrooms from the clearnet
Suprising place to get shrooms at, and ones that actually work, too. The laws in your country must be loose on Shrooms. Here it's legal for scientific purposes only. But it's unproveable as to whether or not you actually use it for research or personal use. You can always claim to be a hobbiest scientist conducting experiments on groth rates or something so Shrooms are in a gray area of the law with a get-out-of-jail-free card of a loophole. That said, I never took Shrooms and prefer to sticking with LSD as I love the longer-lasting effects, the stimulation, the visuals, and the headspace; without the nausea Shrooms induce or the short trip they provide.
>Once I finish growing my poppies I'll try growing some San Pedro's, Mescaline sounds fun
Growing your own drugs is a very cool hobby. Don't overdo it on the poppies though.
Mescaline is hardcore and should be very trippy and mind-expanding.
Extracting the product is also facinating in and of itself. You'll have to go full breaking-bad with tools and measurements, and yield some potent stuff if you grow them well enough. Unless you're going to pop the poppies and chuck the seeds in some hot water for tea, which's not as exciting.
>I had to return to my mom's home
I'm sorry to hear. I got my own place as soon as I got on disability. The apartment is small but I like it this way, and the neighbours are nice and quiet. I've been literally having the best years of my life in a very long time, living alone. Hopfully you'll be able to find a place of your own again and that it'd be nicer that the last.

>>82984129
>I don't have the kind of money to order from a DNM
you need maybe 100 usd to get a good amount of drugs, 150-200 if you want a good deal on a bulk order
lolwut

>>82983517
I don't really consider what I have fixable by any psychiatrist. There is no where near enough research on how these drugs work and what the ramifications of them are, especially long-term. I think I will just have to wait and hope it gets better. Thanks for the suggestion though