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Dear mods, please remove this homosexual spam thread or move it to the containment board where it belongs >>>/lgbt/ (33th thread, and you let this particular one pass 2677 times you incompetent fucks)Thank you
>>83853864i'll delete my thread, but we should have some quicker bakers. can't have a general down for so long!
>>83853894Just make it on page 10 like we used to
>>83853916i was asleeping
When's a good time to tell the 35yo guy you're chatting up and wanna meet up with, that you're a 29yo virgin?
>>83853931if you're already 'in', then whenever. being a virgin won't change anything. i suppose sometime before you end up boning at least so there's an understanding you may need some instruction or patience
Meow I'm kinda cold wwwwaaaaaa
>>83853873Seethe harder whore
IKE NAI N DA DAMENANDASENSEI NI PONPON DAIKE NAI N DA DAMENANDASENSEI NI PONPON DA
>>83853873i'm on your side, current gen is shit and filled with trannys and bishits, all the good gay men gone to discord
>>83853864Any other geographycels here? I'm not even that unpleasant or ugly, I just live in the middle of nowhere
I was quite surprised to see blood on my socks when I finished working out because I didn't feel a things guess I'm just too powerful
>>83854014okay then where's the discord
>>83854015I too live in San Francisco
>>83854015>I just live in the middle of nowherehow nowhere we talking
>>83854034Could have been worse, you could have lived in Miami and experince the hardships being a lone bisexual.
>>83854034real niggas live in sausalito
>>83854014That's true but you don't have to limp wristedly agree with this idiot since the thread for gay robots, in theory, does belong on this board
does this ever happen to y'all
>>83854059this white boy is aight. he cute!
>>83854059I don't have friends they don't know I'm gay and thank God they're never trying to set me up with girls or fags
>>83854027you would know if you belonged here, fuck off enemy
>>83854054How so? gay threads belong on >>>/lgbt/ not hereI don't know how it's allowed, you don't see the other boards filled with fag generals like "gay anime fans" or "gay music fans"
>>83854094i've been fagging this board up since 2014. i wish i could fuck off.
I'm actually happy to see more anons in their very late 20s or early 30s post recently because it's tiring to be around boring, annoying zoomers on an outdated site not made for them anyway. Go watch TikTok or do your homework lil guy.
>>83854040Rural Latin America kek. I'm probably the only gay person for miles.
>>83854014>>83854094did you ever consider that when you slink off and hide in a discord, you leave the thread to the people you don't like?
>>83854106Cartel beheading when?
>>83854098Robot threads belong here not lgbt
>>83854106oof. i've known some faggot SA anons, but they always managed to get by living in the urban centers. maybe there's some uncontacted tribes nearby you can get some tribal dick from?
>>83854098They literally do though. /mu/ has a lot of threads titled something like "ITT: best gay musicians" and people reply accordingly; /co/ has shota generals; /a/ has homo threads every Thursday. I think you're just retarded.
>>83854098this thread has been here for over a decade and its not against any rules.
>>83854124this is not a robot thread, it's a faggot thread.
>>83849830broooo i just read it again like 2 weeks ago toohow didst thou come to be so haughtily yclept,and whither wanders durendal? does sarsen wield it yet?that oliphaunt you blew, til with blood it was wet --o that holy sound, which centuries remember yet!i am not named oliver, or else 'twere surely Meant. Aoi!
>>83854105>see younger anons posting with the exact same self righteous confidence in their worldviews I did as a ned>know that I can't sort their shit straight as I was just as obstinate when I was their agethe cycle never ends, and we only come to the right conclusions too late.
I hate when I feel immobilized like I can't do anything right now despite having things I want to do. I just don't feel like it and like I don't have energy. But it's just that I can't get myself to start. Once I start it will be daijobu.
>>83854163put the screen down and take a nap fool
>>83854169*injects estrogen into you*
>>83854123The slums where cartels operate are urban.>>83854125I'm probably going to be able to live in an urban area in a year or so. My geographyceldom is (hopefully) temporary. It's still frustrating though. Tribechad doesn't want me
>>83854146>been reading lord of the rings trilogy>multiple times where Sam caresses Frodo or holds him and says to himself how he loves himdamn I came for the well dressed setting and world building and stayed for the homopandering. I live for this shit.
moving a primal rural hung feisty cartel-raised gay guy in my nordic cunt.... living happily together... hot...
>>83854163same here, brother. i've started and dropped more hobbies than a bird has flown. at some point you just can't will yourself to do it anymore. what's the point, when it'll just be the same thing that's happened a thousand times before?
>>83854136I'm more of a trvecel than most pussyfuckercels. I've seen the virginity loss thread, y'all are sexcels.
Actually I'm so indecisive that's the big issue here. Do I read my book? Do I watch my sport? Do I just listen to youtube? Do I game? Do I do I do I do I do I do I >>83854214That's not quite the same issue I'm having, that's probably worse. I can do my hobbies because I need something to fill my time with otherwise idk what I'd do but everything else sucks, other than stuff that interestes me.
>>83854059I'm the "gay friend" but uglier
>>83854242what have you been reading bro?;
>>83854059Ah, so this is how other gay people see me.
>>83854251idk if you take good care of yourself there's still appeal. like obviously that doll isn't attractive, but a person analogue who took care of themselves and was personable would be bangable in my book.
>>83854275I hate sports, I don't have smooth skin due to a diseases, my chin unironically looks like that one incel picture. I agree that one should take care of themselves, I try to groom myself at least, but losing weight and beauty surgery are another kind of thing
>>83854296a recessed chin isn't a game ender so long as you don't have the accompanying chud attitude desu. must affirm the importance of losing weight tbf
>tfw you're a falls-in-love-with-words-on-the-screen chadThe brilliance of this is when you eventually see how he looks he automatically looks better because you already have a favorable opinion of him. I feel sorry for love-at-firat-sight virgins.
>>83854269You will never bang boeing 737
>>83854317I rejected a dude because I knew I'd never live up to whatever image he had me.
>>83854317a eusexual..........
>>83854334Maybe I'll have better luck with an Airbus A380
>>83854343eusexual eslxual esexual
>>83854337I do it all the time, I don't care how good he think I am in his head, physical always come first and even if our personalities/MBTIs/stars allign I will suddenly remember I'm not enough focally and grow cold, he can find someone better
Low confidence cucks need to die for everyone's sake
>>83854309I'm a kind guy, try to be friendly so definire not a chud. But when I try to charm or reassure someone I just come off as a weird uggo probably, nobody wants comfort from a ugly nerd face
the 9th episode of the show is up -- https://kandybarre.substack.com/p/stupid-show-9in this one we're asking, who's alright? like who in american public life hasnt made a fool or a ghoul of themselves? i could only come up with a handful.i also get personal in the second half, and theres a musical number at the end.
>ywn have a bf who wakes you up by stepping on your face
>Objective reality now means low confidence
>>83854432in what context are you comforting people, and how do you know it comes off poorly?
>everytime you see whores with huge body counts it's usually ugly fat losers because they fuck other ugly fat losers and aren't afraid of their own shadow
Story will you send me money to open a bakery in mein? I'll give you a third of the profits I think that's a reasonable deal what do you say, business partner?
>>83854465fatties unironically give good head. they have a lot of practice stuffing their fatty fat fatass gullets
>>83854432i do, i could use another loveable ugly nerd's face to touch and kiss it
>>83854458I dunno, people asking info, guys lost in college or seeking emotional advices. Nobody ever said anything to me, except a gay guy who ran away from me (he approached me first btw) like he saw a ghost
>>83854192bruv we aint talkin fantasy here we talkin real histrynot like im readin it in the 1100s old french or anything but even the translation i have is over a century oldtolkein gets kinda boring when you read the actual stuff that inspired it and see how much more interesting the actual things are and how thin his calque is & how one-dimensional it is too. as much as the iberian muslims in the song of roland are clearly the enemy, and as much as their practices are misunderstood and disrespected by the medieval christian author, they are respected for their strength and fine works, and their courage is praised now and again -- and this of a people that, in the year 1100, was still a very real clear & present foe in the christian world. meanwhile the completely fantastic orcs are just bad, crude, suckworthy, bad, crude, monstrous, this and that. what does sauron even want? pooooweeeeer? it just starts to feel childish. if its morality is more basic and more tediously duelist than a medieval christian's, like, what else is there to say? "its for kids" isnt really an argument when you could read the song of roland or the aeneid to kids and they would get the gist. i read the hobbit and thought it was fine. i watched the lotr movies and they were fine. tree people cool. but since starting to actually read old stuff i have not had the least impulse to open a tolkein tome. just why, when there's so many of the actual things i havent read yet?
>>83854488imagine story giving you head but be careful you may break his teeth if your dick is hard enough
>>83854482Only if you come to Ohio and fuck my fat plus-sized slutty ass and thoat partner lmao.
>>83854499awww thank you anon *sniffles*what do you mean with "another" tho?
His last name is mozzarella hahahahahahaha
>>83854562He means he already has a boyfriend and he wants a side hoe
>>83854589cruel :'(
>>83854397Same, dude was telling me how I'm his doppelganger and willing to fly out next week to meet me.Then I took a look in the mirror lmao
>>83854435also heres an exclusive this-thread-only behind-the-scenes stupid show studio imagealso the 5 to 7 people who click through from here every time are really smart and just the best. youre the hope for the future! you! believe in yourself! we will do it!
if r9k had a augmented VR section where you could smell, see and touch things and interact with other gaybots avatars, would you like to spend a night cuddling with your fellow gaybots?
>>83854631Absolutely not. Most are probably the best smelling and looking guys, but they would have to touch and smell and see me in return and I have a huge issue with that.
https://youtu.be/QPqJ4rx7pFk
>>83854651it's not you, it's your avatar!>smellJust take a shower before
how do i, a gay non binary gnc he/they asexual autustic man can ever find a boyfriend
>>83854695What does this mean? Can you convert it into 4chan slangeroo?
>>83854705He's a sensitive autistic faggot who isn't too interested in sex
>>83854337If he's on Discord, chances are he's also uglyish and has no standards
I reported my Maoist ex eboyfriend to the FBI for extremism and he hasn't been active since. I might have ruined his life. He left me for a woman though so I think it's deserved
>>83854752Weirdly, being ugly doesn't lower one's standards. I would've been alright with him being ugly. Besides he told me he has high standards and is now dating women lol>>83854765Deserved. Not for being a commie but for being a prison gay.
>>83854765Why were you dating a retard? On top of him being a retard you also dated a animal of unstable identity that would have left you for a woman anyway? Was it non serious dating? What was wrong with you?
>>83854808You too, what made you be interested in him? Did he tell you he's unable to like men?
>>83854765And this is what I meant the other day about not being too vulnerable with your bf.
>>83854842He was fun to talk to, and he had that eccentric energy so he was very good at carrying conversations. He had hints of autism which made a lot of people dislike him on the server I was on, but I keep chatting along. At some point he mentions he's rich and tall, and that he hates how women his age are all trying to baby trap him. I thought he was bluffing but he showed proof. Realised I somehow landed an insecure chad, and rejected him. After that he became straight and is showing me all the matches he's getting on tinder lmfao
>>83854883I'm speechless. Please love yourself and look for actually gay guys from now on, not entitled narcissistic assholes.
>>83854883girl the fbi thing was unhinged, too much
>blinked and 2 hours have passedHoly shit
Would you break up with your bf if he had ugly grippers?
>>83854631I'm not interested in an orgy, fuck off to gaygen normie whore
>>83854931He rejected a said entitled narcissistic asshole if you couldn't tell
>>83855013I did, just making sure he remembers it. Thank you.
>>83854968my bf will be forced to wear socks during sex and all other activities
People always told me that I take my love too farThen refused to help meI was on the edge of something greater than beforeBut nobody told meEusexua
>>83854536>power?to further his ends (to mold the world in his image). sauron has no love for orcs: they're a means to an end, as are the easterlings/Wild people that he subjugates or has fall into his power under false promise of security and furthering their own ends. no offence, but have you read the books? this stuff isn't exactly obscure. it just feels like you're dunking on something for the sole purpose of championing your own interests.
>>83855173thats the extremely simplistic and genuinely primitive & childish morality i was talking about, yes. he wants poooooweeeeerrrrr and he'll do aaaaaannnnything to get it. ok. well in the song of roland, the muslim king of spain wants to defeat charlemagne and the christians, and he's willing to do some villainous things to do that, but he is still shown to be personally brave as well as cunning and fond of his family. he also has a wife whom he loves, and who loves & mourns him (spoiler), because for whatever evils he wrought on his enemies, he was good to her. thats not a particularly deep character there. thats a depiction of an enemy muslim ruler from the year 1100 written by a christian who thought muslims worshiped apollo and the moon and slaughtered every christian they met. even then its a far more complex character than "sauron" who has literally no qualities or characteristics other than being le powerful and le greedy and le evil. its star wars tier. whats actually interesting in tolkein is the world with deep history, the invented languages, the curious different species of humanish thing and how they get along together. he is responsible for the whole "orcs" thing even if i think his version was pretty one-note. yet even here, when you actually get into reading the things HE was reading -- things like the song of roland, chansons de geste, celtic sagas and norse eddas - and the things he certainly read and learned as a british schoolboy, ie greek and latin classics, chaucer, spenser, shakespeare - you find a far greater diversity of viewpoint and motive, far deeper characters including the "villains", and a richer, fuller world, which, moreover, is actually OUR world.
>>83855173and when you learn the archaic and diverse languages in which these things are written, even slightly, you start to make a lot of real connections about history and different cultures. it bleeds through to how you look at and think about the language that you speak today. invented fantasy, whatever pleasures it may bring, lacks this deep root & spreading branches in our real world which real epics, sagas and old tales have. i like orcs. i've read the hobbit. i liked it. hobbits are neat and funny and the little world they inhabit seems very tidily arranged. yet when you read, for example, the shepherd's calendar, it becomes a lot less impressive, because his world of "hobbits" is in fact part-and-parcel identical with the pastoral life & setting of colin, cuddye, and the other shepherds told of by spenser. you see, in fact, that the only thing tolkein really invented was the round doors. hey, they're cute! but to think that he is responsible for much more is to be ignorant of the english literature on which he heavily drew. it's sort of like bob dylan -- a great many of his songs are in fact just traditional folk songs with half the lyrics changed to nonsense. there's nothing wrong with that per se, but to think dylan a great or original songwriter only shows one to be ignorant of the folk traditions on which he "built." i don't personally like his literally meaningless pseudointellectual vaguery one bit, dylan, and i don't at all mean to say that tolkein's like that -- tolkein is inventive on his sources and inspirations, and what he invents is usually pretty neat...but there just isn't nearly as much invention there as his fans think. i will close in saying that if you like tolkein, you owe it to yourself to read what HE read -- that is, spenser, virgil, chaucer, older translations of the eddas and sagas, etc -- their intensity and force impressed tolkein so deeply that he devoted his life to making fictionalized versions of them. 2/
>>83855173there is, of course, the language question, and if you have trouble with shakespearian or older english at first, don't worry, it just takes time, and you don't need "classes," you just need to start with the oldest things you can read smoothly and work back. longfellow should be alright for everybody -- the song of hiawatha is excellent -- and i'd also recommend coleridge's biographia literaria for being generally interesting and having no small degree of tutelary value in terms of reading and understanding older english writing and verse. /3
>>83855369books are not a checklist that need to scratch everything from your list. we don't need a 50 page explanation on sauron's explicit desires and his preferred breakfast meals; he wishes for order in the world, and he enacts it through espionage, martial strength, and soft power (as well as glimmer/magic, which is the fantasy taste). he will "do anything to get it" as any ambitious ruler would. none of this is "primitive", it is unnecessary for the story being told. the meat, as you noted, is in the culture: history, language, and the many stories brought up through song, poetry, or in narration.do real world accounts have more varied perspectives and are generally more complex? yes. if that's your fancy, go for it. i'm just getting the sense that you came into tolkien expecting it to rival thousands of years of human history, which no fiction can hope to match.>there isn't as much invention there as one thinksall stories are derived from real life or other's stories. everything is "invented". once again, what were you expecting?
>>83855491i just dont find "hes le evil" to be a particularly interesting basis for a villain. youll note that even superhero villains usually have a tragic story that explains why they "went bad" and some sympathetic characteristics. mr freeze wants to revive his dead wife. the joker was driven mad by society. catwoman helps prostitutes recover and get off the street. you know? compare lucifer to sauron. even lucifer, "embodiment of evil" and all, has a tragic backstory, which makes him a sympathetic character, because everyone's had the thought "if i were in charge, i would do it better." there's just no sympathetic or understandable quality to sauron at all. it's flat. you can prefer that, if you find it confusing when villains are also sympathetic, but in general that's seen as more interesting, and more "real," since few people are just "le evil" and nothing else. saddam hussein liked to dance. osama bin laden liked naruto. no one is actually as empty and just evil as sauron. it's a simpler story than anything you'll find in the eddas or sagas which are a thousand years old, and simpler than the bible, which is usually considered pretty straightforward in terms of good and evil. i think, moreover, that that sort of "less human than lucifer", "pure eeeevil" kind of morality is dangerous as an idea. thinking anyone is "pure evil" leads to just hating rather than trying to understand why. evil in real life is not a being of infinite malice, its a person who has taken a dark path & found ways to get people with him. trump, for example, is not sauron. he has motives, he has sympathetic qualities. people like him for reasons, not "because they're evil" or because they've been glimmerized. yet people who -- to me -- seem raised on star wars morality refuse to look at things this way. they declare things evil and don't try to understand why they're happening -- & that's bad, because it makes them worse at fighting against it.
>>83855703>he has sympathetic qualitiesto be clear, by this i mean "eats the same macca meal every day like a sperg," which is just funny, not that he's right about anything lol.
>>83855724Sauron can be read as an entity that believes itself to be just and an "ends justify the means" type of character. But yes, he's not a good guy or particularly complex, so what? There *are* just evil bastards in this world. It's fine to write a story that has one as the big bad. It's not like Tolkien doesn't have nuances on evil in the book. When Sam sees a southern soldier get killed by a Gondorian patrol, he wonders for an instant his desires, his family, and whether he truly wanted to be there: if he wasn't just deceived under false pretenses to bolster Mordor's garrison.Gollum's entire character is how much his original self, Smeagol, resides within still and the arguments you see him have with Gollum on the hobbits being good people meaning no harm. Boromir is shown to have a stout heart, but his need for glory - a quality that is shown to be pervasive within the men of Gondor and a large part for its decline as opposed to "enjoying the hearth" - being his downfall and put him in the situation leading to his death.Saruman was corrupted by peering through the palantir overtime. This isn't directly compelling, but it shows simply how power corrupts. So sure, Sauron isn't an incredible example of a multifaceted villain whose motives are sensible or superior to the heroes. That's fine, as the focus is more on the hero's journey and of the characters and their struggles with good/evil that ARE featured prominently (seriously, Sauron is sparsely mentioned with only his minions/designs getting talked about). Tolkien has a good show of morality and of complex characters: I'll consneed that Sauron isn't the glowing example of that.
>>83855962>so what?so i dont think its interesting? and i think looking at things as pure good vs pure evil hurts people's ability to understand and fight evil things in real life? that's what. i mean i'm speaking from the perspective of someone who liked the hobbit a lot when i read it, and then as i got older & read actually old things i found them even more interesting and liked them even more. and it did take a bit of the "magic" out of tolkein's stuff because you can see exactly where he gets a lot of things. but i'm not really sure why you're taking this as pure criticism when obviously i like tolkein infinitely more than say, cormac mccarthy or someone else who just sucks. & i'm suggesting that you might like the things tolkein liked, which inspired him to write what he wrote, which would be the things i mentioned, which are not as difficult to penetrate as one might think at first. if you like tolkein shouldn't you be interested in what tolkein liked? i just realized ive been spelling tolkien wrong this whole time. but anyway...your judgment on the depth of character and such in tolkien's writing may differ from mine but i'd think you'd be interested in the old things he read which inspired his writing regardless of that.
>>83856066and I'm saying that if you're looking for that more nuanced look into morality, it is in Tolkien's works. it doesn't need to be represented in Sauron for it to be present, and I feel demanding the "big bad" be the one to express it is a bit arbitrary. I do feel like if the Hobbit, a children's book that was made before LOTR was even conceived, is your only reading material on Tolkien and not LOTR itself or the Silmarillion, then you would have a perspective on Tolkien as being more of a 1-dimensional writer on good/evil. I've consumed my fair share of world history and feel Tolkien - a man who was in the trenches and was a professor - was a man who knew the patterns of world history and of the human condition sufficiently to write authentic and morally authentic/real people. I don't think the works you describe are impenetrable, no. I've experienced what you've described on reading a book and seeing how it links with other stories, either as being the source or being inspired by older works. Maybe I'll get to them one day, and maybe I won't. I still have Dune to finish and then perhaps I'll get on with reading the greeks.
I regularly post on lolcow's /m/, /ot/ and /g/ larping as a straight woman because that website is so much better than this one
>>83856348I've tried using Lolcow as an alternative to 4chan, but the website is so filled with reactionaries that it becomes impossible. I know that the site was invented FOR moralfagged bullying (lolcow culture) in the first place, but it bleeds onto every other facet of the site too. Half the threads on /ot/ and even /m/ are hate threads or cringe threads, and even the threads that ARENT specifically for the purpose of hate are filled with meaningless bitching and reactionary drivel. 4chan is very retarded, but it's so much better than any other notable imageboard.
>>83856345i have actually read a fair amount of the silmarillion and found it reasonably interesting, but i dont remember it that well because i was like 9. i never found the lord of the rings books themselves interesting at all. i will also admit some degree of pre-existing annoyance because of the sheer amount that kids talked about legolas and gimli this and that at the time. i think the "root of evil" in a story is more important than the character itself. it's the difference between a tragedy and a simple morality play. i'm not sure if you've read eragon but in it the main villain galbatorix is quite sauronlike, yet has a tragic backstory you learn later wherein his partner dragon died young and he was so tormented by guilt he went le nuts & eventually killed another dragon rider and took his dragon. again its not the deepest thing but the author was 15. dune just blows though sorry, buncha mormon nonsense. asimov on the other hand was a chemistry professor. foundation rocks. & regarding tolkien's academic work, i believe much of it was in the domain of old languages and the interpretation of old verse in those tongues, which is exactly what i'm recommending to read. if you're reading translations rather than originals, i would try to find translations from before 1900, since the modern ones are often oversimple and the older ones would be what tolkien was reading/making. but like i said, at least with older english like chaucer, it takes surprisingly little time to be able to read it in the original language. the modern translations of older english verse in particular blow enormous chunks and completely lose the rhythmic element. i dont know old norse, old gaelic or greek (tho i did get a textbook on ancient greek recently) but i have read the aeneid in latin and its worlds different from the translations. anyway i would really strongly advise that you avoid translations done after 1950 whatever you're reading. people got kinda stupid after tv appeared.
>>83856431>>83856348i always get banned instantly for breaking some arcane rule. made a thread wrong or in the wrong place? did "infighting" in a thread that's "not for that"? banned for life. i know its hard for them to keep troons out but still lol.
went to a concert yesterday and I got a boner when the guy patted me down
Installing a dating app gave me an existential crisis and made me wanna put a bullet through my head. Just give me a fuckin 4chan bf at this point.
>>83856672I know where you found this image creep
i met two different people from soc while i was in high school and they were both tall, skinny and really attractive. i couldnt really keep on with it since i was living at home still, and also my parents took all my electronic things away after the second time cause they found out...
>>83856456we'll see. i'm feeling more of a philosophical angle, so will look more towards plato and socrates. I have read translations of the Illiad and Oddysey, but they weren't all for me. perhaps they'd be better in greek for the reason of meter and rhythm you describe, but reading is a consumption hobby for me: i'm not going to be learning/studying languages so as to have a slightly superior experience with some books. we'll see if I ever stumble upon chaucer, as I imagine caterbury tales would be a breddy cheap buy at a bookstore.
finally actually cooking instead of doing frozen food, but its another meat only dinner as I didn't even feel like putting some hash browns in the oven. I'll be hungry again in a few hours regardless.
Read a gfur comic before getting out of bed then had to leave work early b/c it had me BRICKED UP all morning
>>83856750well what im saying is, with older english things, you dont have to take classes, you can just go back from modern thru the centuries and its pretty enjoyable the whole way. as in, youll learn enough 1800s words from 1900s books to read 1800s things, then enough 1700s words from 1800s books to read those, then enough 1600s words from 1700s books to read those. and then you're at 1600s stuff like shakespeare, spenser, donne, and other elizabethans, and from them + coleridge's biographia (which again is enjoyable in its own right) i learned to read chaucer reasonably well. so none of it was "work" really as far as older english things.i cant claim to have "studied" that much on my own, thats really hard...i was just reading things i liked the whole time through really. as far as latin, i took that in middle/high school which is where we read & translated the aeneid but i dont have enough of it to read most things on my own. also i didnt really read many books at all from like freshman year of college til like 3 years ago kek. dota2 and wow and all that. i actually only started reading again to stop posting on 4chan so much and i randomly picked up the portable coleridge with excerpts from the biographia literaria from my parents' attic, i think my mom had it from one of her college classes. its a reaaaallllly interesting if a bit "nonstandard" in kind of just being his thoughts on lots and lots of different things.
>>83856799i made a biiiiiiiiiiiig pot of chili
>>83856844I've never even had chili because I wouldn't try it whenever mom made it.
>>83856837>read/look at lewd stuff>get horny because work soon>only get more and more horny until I either jerk off and have to rush to work or don't have time and have to spend all day at mid horny levelsthe worst part is that being horny is a kind of power boost where I'm more productive/focused.
>>83856885i didnt used to like it with beans in it, but now i do. my dad would make it with just a pound of ground beef, an 8oz can of tomato sauce, and a packet of mccormick chili mix, then serve it with rice and shredded cheese. apparently it's a bit weird to have it with rice vs cornbread/crackers but thats how i still do it. healthier with rice vs those too. i prefer to use ground pork or turkey though, especially as beef is so pricey now, and i chop fresh onions and garlic and add hot sauce or chili flakes rather than using the packet. it was 1 of 2 things i cooked for myself when first living in an apt during college, although then i used a tsp each of garlic powder, chili powder, onion powder and a half tsp of salt in place of the packet rather than chopping things fresh. pretty darn quick and easy meal either way, i would cook a big pot then eat it for three days. quite efficient, i never had to go out for food, saving time for gaming, and i saved a lot of money compared to eating out as well, although i spent it on socks and clothes so its not like i was that parsimonious moneywise. anyway. chili's tasty and quick.
>>83856842it sounds like a sensible path to making more antiquated works more accessible by reading the works that were inspired by them, sure. yes, a lot easier to do things when you're actually enjoying it. you never know where you'll find the inspiration to come back to something. I only read as something to do at work.
>>83856974i work at home but i started reading old things partly to stop posting so much as i said, but also to distract from world events which seemed pretty hopeless at the time and i was just tired of trying to convince people not to be dumb. its not like its seeming much better now however ive decided that its up to me to do something about it if no one else will. it also goes a lot better arguing with "conservatives" if you have a ready command of classics and latin and can just whomp their asses and show how clueless they are about the "traditional" things they claim to value. coleridge's "speech at bristol" is a particularly good whomper to quote in that regard. in general idk how people force themselves thru the hard part of learning things. being in school is one thing but...making yourself learn things from scratch is reaaallly hard. i should make myself do like an hour every other day of reading that ancient greek book, thats the only way ive ever done anything like that at all, by having a schedule. i realized the same thing recently about playing the guitar. ive tried on and off to learn from various sources but it just never felt like i was getting anywhere at all. so i decided like, the only way im going to be able to do this is just instinctually, cuz i just dont have the patience to play scales & arpeggios or w/e 10x a day for years, i just dont, at least not without a teacher. so i just started to let my hands do what they wanted, just having it in my hands if i wasnt doing anything else, and uh, its going okay. i cant really "play songs" or at least not properly but i can kind of play it like a banjo. i like it anyway. and i dont think there was much of a chance i was going to have the patience to do it the right way. and if i do decide to try learning it right again, ill be a lot further along from my hands knowing the shape of things sorta.so yeah, i gotta like something the whole time or it aint happenin p much. not without a teacher.
>>83856719What about it? I ain't no shotacon...
My leg is hurting again, I hate it when it flares up and the flareup just started. I have several more weeks of this before it settles down.
>>83857257i feel like we're connected somehow because your leg seems to hurt whenever i start working harder again. sorry. i have to make at least *some* money. is it your right leg or knee? i get stiff/sore there if i sit for a long time, which i have to in order to do work.
>>83857406yeah it's the right leg, and the pain is more in the hip/thigh area. I have a pinched nerve from sitting on my ass all day for years on end.
>>83857493oh. i strained something in my like lower back right side over the summer and that gets a bit sore occasionally still, but that's just above there. after that i changed my work setup a bit so i dont have to lift heavy things as much. really should have a long time ago but i was lazy.
my snail is alive and healthily well in my 2 gallon jar now. thanks everyone for your concerns. he is occasionally getting covered in hair algae though. i'm not sure if its a problem but i was concerned since he looked really enmeshed in it so i plucked him up earlier today and de-algae'd him. the hair algae should stop outgrebeing once the pothos and chara grow in more and take the nutrients, but that might be a little while, so im still keeping at least a daily eye on mr snail. i could also get a shrimp, i think the tank conditions are good (and theres lots of ostracods which is a good sign) but i havent decided on cherry vs ghost. help me pick?? cherries have nice colors but ghosts are more fearsome eaters of algae and somewhat hardier. cherries bear live young also so its easier for them to multiply, compared to ghost shrimp which have larva that are hard to feed. they also eat their larva which is a real problem in a smallish jar. having written all this out, i'm probably leaning cherry. but then, there is the question of color.......so what do you all think?? i'm feeling green for some reason but they might be hard to see against green plants n such. ill have to go look at one at the store and compare its color vs plant green. like if its a deeper emerald they should be plenty visible.
me getting home from work and relaxing
>>83857725as close to purple. you want those royal colors
I have a job again. It's the same job I had before. I feel like there's no escape from this hell.
>>83858245at least there will be money to spend on temporary escapes from it
>>83858265Being able to buy more orks isn't worth the suffering of being employed again.
>>83854034>>83854050r9gay area meetup>>83854444quads of qruth, reality has shifted, the dragon has broke>>83854601cute fit :)
>>83858332>more lads 2 be bonkin' gitz with>not worth it
>>83858357>r9gay area meetupi've extricated myself from the GAY area years ago. would say that if you live in the bay area and still haven't found a bf, it's because you haven't opened your door to let one in or haven't bothered to take a bus ride to the mission to find one (and then get mugged)
>>83854106Country? I think I know who you are
Would you date a schizophrenic twink into choking?
>>83858643choking or being choked?
>>83858648choking other people (preferably my future bf)
sorry i'm kind of a lazy top so i'll let you suck my dick whenever and fuck your ass in whatever position you want but i won't be too proactive otherwise
not gay i just like birds and want to share with you all
He said yes and now I realize I don't have the balls to meet him, I'm a coward, I let him know about it and he said he is okay with it, he said I'll "get better once we get know each other a bit more and we probably will meet in a few months"I'm piece of shit, I got what I always wanted but the world wasn't the problem, I have been the problem all along, I'm way worse than I thought, I will try to improve but holy fuck I'm such a piece of shit.
>Discord ex-situationship ended couple months ago (closest I got to a relationship)>Talked a while after but just stopped>See him occasionally talk with other people in server >There's another person in the server that he is talking to a lot in DMs>Get nauseous seeing him praise him on the serverHow do I grow a spine?
>>83858867>grow a spineto leave the server?
>>83858791you've just stumbled onto this new problem. give it some time to let yourself process this new challenge, and then see how you feel about it. sounds like you have a lot of time to build yourself up to this if it's not for a few months.
>>83858886No, to accept my loss and move on. Sadly that server has a lot of my other friends and I don't wanna leave them too.
>>83858896although easier said than done, finding another "situationship" or other would help give you something to focus on. if not that, there's only so much you can headgame yourself if you're constantly peering into the place with your mind filling in all the blanks in the worst ways. you just need something to take your mind off it, if you can think of anything.
I baked some sausage rolls today, and i feel happy. Now i just need someone to eat them with.
Forefathers one and all, bear witness!
>>83860358>used towhy would you sleep with your father's killer
>>83858190did you even LOOK at the chart? they don't HAVE purple. according to other things though, people definitely have gotten 1 purple shrimp here and there as a freak with mismatched blue body/red shell, but like a shiny pokemon the mutation isn't stable. but i guess if you have red and blue shrimp in the same tank, you have a tiny tiny tiny tiny chance of getting a single purple one lol.
that fuckin thumb in the mouth shit is so fuckin disgusting man if i saw that on your screen i would break your computer on the spot. disgusting ugly fucker rapist energy.
>>83860612That's why it's hot thoughbeit yay
Finger sucking is hot and sub pilled. I need a bf to stick his fingers in my mouth and make me suck them.
>>83860753it is vile, and along with the choking/slapping/spitting nastiness, evinces a disturbed, cold, consumptive, violent & predatory "sexuality," which, having in it not shred of love or decency, can hardly rightly be called such. it is gross, untender, and deranged. that these are the routes which so many young people apparently must take in order to stimulate themselves to genuine feeling shows, if it needed more showing, how deeply and darkly we have failed them as a society.these things come from the unwell mind of someone whose experience of other human beings has been almost exclusively through a screen since they were born. i can see in it exactly the violent and vile "pov" pornography in which they have subsumed themselves from young ages for lack of human connection. we have a generation of children who grew up far more alone than any previous in history.
>>83860857licking someone's fingers can be cute but pro tip, it doesnt actually feel like anything in real life. sex videos don't teach you what parts actually feel good. and licking someones fingers is a far cry from sticking your thumb in and gooshing around like it's a slime video. it's been real disturbing to see young folks go from watching playing-with-slime vids to playing-with-people-like-they're-slime vids.
>>83860913well no shit sucking fingers doesn't give much physical pleasure. It's a teasing thing, where you get the guy thinking about you sucking his pp the same way.
>>83860977i think you and i are about the same age. i understand what you're saying. i'm talking to young people who watch "pov porn", which is where the thumb-in-like-a-cantaloupe thing comes from, which is quite different. "pov porn" often has *just* the gooshing, slapping, and the vile rest, because it's visceral and textural, and there isnt even really sex in it, because you cant see the sex happening that easily from the pov of the sexer. inb4 people accuse me of looking at it because i know what's in it lol. ive been slapped in the face with enough nasty ass 4chan banner ads and spoilered pics itt i wish i never saw to know what the deal is.
>>83860905Mucho texto yawn you're a faggot
the 3rd episode of stupid smart is available now at https://kandybarre.substack.com/p/stupid-smart-3in it (fittingly) i read a 3 and a half hour speech from 1775 in one take while sipping ice cold vodkathis is a good one by the way. the speech i mean. i flubbed things a bit of a lot. but it was loong. some real gem quotes though. "public calamity is a mighty leveller." all i'd add is that someone has to actually do the leveling. that didnt used to be a concern cause people were more up-and-at-em then. these days, we all need the spur, and hard, and deep, or we'll just keep looking at screens.
>>83859670That's so nice anon, if only I was cute and in the mood for cooking today I'd have baked a sausage too and had a sausage fest taste test with a boyfriend...
>tfw ywn have a bf to tell him you're beautiful, you're worth it, you're the best, and you deserve it, you're a stranger, so you're perfect, you're a stranger, so you're perfect>I love the danger, you're the perfect stranger...
>wake up with morning wood>no boy here to nurse my cock until it's better
>>83861593So true but the other way around yay fellow posster
>>83861601do you also post on the possum thread or is your love of possums incidental
>>83860594>did you even LOOK at the chart? they don't HAVE purple.then you'll never be royal
>>83860612so true bestie. index and middle finger for them to suck on when you're railing them.
>>83861706>suck fingers>dick in shitholei think youre a little confused. you could just...suck the dick.
>>83861623Nyope I just posst here
>>83861767>dick in shitholeyes that feels good. also eating it out. but most importantly sticking my dick in there. >suck the dickI prefer being sucked than sucking desu
>>83861789that's a nutty coincidence
I need to find new vidya to play. I can't just keep playing the three games on rotation over and over again.
