Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supportI only have one image of Hooni saved on my computer edition>How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
>>83867543Helpful links I don't want to forget>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7>a first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/>a wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic> bpd workbook:https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read>a bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
>>83863303>is there a lot to clean?so much I didn't even finish it all>maybe I'll watch ghost in the shellmaybe I should watch this sometime. I'm watching Lain right now and it's quite odd lol> I really like hot showersme as well. As much as people talk about the "cold shower" i could never bring myself to that>>83864983>About all I can doYeah sorry, that does not sound ideal but it's a lot of place sadly that have little to offer than the outdoors It's what I notice traveling around the US and everything is good till it rains. Imagine it's like that up there many places too> today' way too coldsame today. I'm so tired of winter>but it's not my nature.Not my friends nature too since she is not self sufficient at all. Needs to be bailed out on the smallest things and had to play security guard for her everytime she had to stay out late somewhere not really safe for work events. >>83865843>It's been way too long.me and my orthodontal followup> Look for the machines with a big cube on them.very well might not have it at the one I went to. not a huge place by any means and I'm in North America so far from asia>Isn't generational wealth supposed to be a huge motivator?for some reason, a lot of american boomers are like this. You see immigrants still get the concept, but white americans don't at all>some of the inheritance she got from my grandma.very fortunate. honestly, i know when my family dies there won't be a damn penny passed down to me.>A plague of locusts sounds pretty awfulwe have that every some often herehttps://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Periodical_cicadasThe USA is hell on earth
People with actual depression dont cut themselves. People with BPD and psychosis cut themselves. People with BPD are mistaken for people with depression and keep on having their attention seeking culture reinforced. As a fellow depressed individual Go kill yourselves for all I care. Oh wait you wont which is why you do this shit.
hey everyone hellohow is it going?>>83867543thanks for the thread :D waddup??>>83867591>didn't even finish it:0>I'm watching Lain right now andI should watch that one tooI saw the ps2 game thing on yt>about the "cold shower" yeap all I sometimes would do is make the water super cold and splash it all over myself and the quickly make it warm
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>>83867543>>How are you doing today?Pretty tired, arm's sore. >>Any plans for today?I should to taxes or school work, idk if i'll get to it.>>Is there anything bothering you right now?I scheduled a career couch to understand why I'm failing interviews. I'm a little concerned that I couldn't get replacement tegaraderm for the tattoo and had to switch to lotion, but I think this one will be alright.>>83867681hi cat>>83862157>I remember people arguing about if they had feathers or notYeah it depends on the dinosaur species. some had more then others. Velcoraptor definitely did. This had some artistic interpretation. It got a big red eye and orange tips at the end of blue wings. would a predator be so colorful? Maybe, some birds and a lot of snakes are. I went with blue for a program langage I learnt. >>83867591hi officeanon>>83861568>you doing much this weekend? nah>Hope things are cleared up by you with snow. it did. just recovering.>One you drew is pretty nice toothanks.
I am 27 years old, a grown fucking man. Why the hell did I just cut myself a few days ago?I got in argument with my parents. My mother wanted to raise my monthly food bill from $150 to $200. When I told her I'd just buy my own food, she offered that I pay for a third of the utilities instead. I am umemployed and struggling to secure a job. I have some savings built up, but it still felt like she was twisting the knife in the wound. I used to pay rent to my parents. I talked them out of that.I don't know why but I felt so angry. It's not like I could've just hit them or whatever. I tried to contain myself around them so I walked out. When I got to my room, I just started cutting myself. It felt good. After a few minutes I realized how stupid I was being and quickly washed up in the sink and threw some bandages on. It was my sister's birthday and I really didn't want to ruin it for her. I put on a long sleeved shirt and talked to friend for a bit. Then I celebrated my sister's birthday.I'm intending to keep it a secret from my parents and friends. The last thing I want to do is use my wounds for attention. I don't want to guilt trip my parents into treating me differently. That being said I've been keeping some distance from them.I remember cutting a few times when I was a teenager. But nothing like this. The funny thing is, I'm not Borderline (my therapist has echoed this sentiment) yet here I was cutting myself. I was just angry and I didn't have an outlet for my aggression. I have Depression, OCD, and Autism which makes my head a very difficult place to be. My parents are aware of my challenges but there's so much I'm just not comfortable talking to them about.The scars are already starting to fade, except for this one deep one on my wrist. There's a cut, half a milimeter thick, and it's still kinda fleshy and sticky, as per when I changed the bandage two days ago. Hopefully I won't have to be wearing long sleeves into the summer.I dont know what to do
>>83869006hey anon> pay for a third of the utilities instead. I am umemployedthat sounds so dumb, she's only making getting independent more difficult for you>talked them out of that.what if you told them you got no more savings and so you can't pay>intending to keep it a secretyes I think that's a good idea too>won't have to be wearing long sleeves into the summer.I guess it depends on how visible they are >Why the hell did I just cut myself a few days agoyou have a lot of crap on your hands and it's all overwhelming and it makes some sense that when you got angry and wanted to do something you hurt yourself It simultaneously gets the anger out and it's also q distraction from what made y angry because your brain's focuses of the wounds and that you have to take care of themnot that it's a good habbit
>>83869283>you have a lot of crap on your hands and it's all overwhelming and it makes some sense that when you got angry and wanted to do something you hurt yourselfIt simultaneously gets the anger out and it's also q distraction from what made y angry because your brain's focuses of the wounds and that you have to take care of themnot that it's a good habbitSo I'm not going crazy?
>>83869719>I'm not going crazy?depends on what you mean by crazy but probably not Though I feel your mental state might be worsening because of the constant stress and other mental issues but it's not really a problem with you it's the environment you're in Having to deal with that every day would make anyone unhappy
>>83870067My mental health has been a mixed bag. I'm a bit more in touch with reality, especially as I've gotten better at handling OCD. Sometimes I feel like nothing's wrong at all, but then my emotions will hit me like a truck.I remember when I was working at a job that made me miserable. I was a janitor at a college. I'd be feeling fine for one moment when suddenly I'd have this random panic attack. I'd start thinking of my future, how trapped I felt, my loneliness and the emotions would become very overwhelming very fast. I'd collapse on the floor struggling to breathe...and then in a few minutes I'd get up, feeling normal again.My parents have been out for a few days, leaving me alone in the house with my two cats. I've yet to tell any IRL friends or family what has happened, nor do I want to. I haven't gone out except to grab lunch with friends. I found myself completely asborbed in creativity, or watching anime. Steins;Gate in particular provides me a lot of comfort. I like its message about hope admist despair. It has a sway with me most stories don't have.
Last thread lasted a while.>>83867543>>How are you doing today?Good.>>Any plans for today?Studying Russian, playing super metroid, and watching YuYu Hakusho.>>When was the last time you hurt yourself?December.>>Why did you hurt yourself?Anxiety over passing college.>>Is there anything bothering you right now?The weather being shit has made going to the gym a hassle, and I've got to go shovel outside once I'm done posting.>>83867591Hallo officeanon>Imagine it's like that up there many places tooYeah it's the same up here.>The USA is hell on earthRather live there than here desu, way more stuff to do...>>83867681Hallo /cat/, what's up?>>83868843Hallo cynic what up
>>83871230hi togata>what upjust chilling and getting ready to watch the superbowl
goodnight fellas !>>83870561>collapse on the floor strugglingsounds awful what's your job now? does that not happen anymore >with my two cats.say hello to them for me :3>>83871230hey hey o/
>>83871742oh and hiiI didn't notice ur post sorry
I had a bit of a rough day after posting... All right now though, but man am I tired ahead of the week starting>>83867681hey cat>I should watch that one tooit's a very strange one to say the least. Not sure how I feel about it, but will finish>>83868843hey cynic>just recovering.i had to go out for a while today and still too much of it, really big pain especially trying to park some places. Hoping it all melts this week, but don't have high hopes>>83871230hey togata>playing super metroidbeen wanting to try to play a metroid game. Not sure if 2d or trying get metroid prime is best starting off>Last thread lasted a while.indeed. This ones off very slow, but I disappeared most the day which didn't help>got to go shovel outside once I'm done posting.so ready for summer and still have 2 months of this>Rather live there than herei was mostly half joking on that one. I sound a lot harsher than I mean to sometimes
>>83872143I quit that job and got a new job as an exterior cleaner last year, which brought its own problems. They promised me work over the winter and didn't give it to me, so I'm stuck without work. Thankfully they want to rehire me in March.Still, almost every job I've had has made me want to kill myself. I can literally feel my life slipping away every time I clock in, doing things I hate so I can pay bills. This exterior cleaning job threatened to fire me because I looked too sad at work. I want to leave but they're the only work I have right now.The kitties are alright! They've been demanding a lot of attention today.
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The only thing I got done was watching more YuYu Hakusho....>>83872514>Not sure if 2d or trying get metroid prime is best starting offProbably a 2D game since thats it's original incarnation.>This ones off very slowVery.>>83871742>chilling and getting ready to watch the superbowlCalm. I don't have much interest in team sports, I'll catch raptors games once in a blue moon but I mostly care for combat sports.
hi /cut/! i hope everyones doing ok. for me its nearly 5am and i cant sleep and my alarms set at 7 :(
>>83873917should probably try and tired yourself out somehow
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>>83872540>almost every job I've had has made me want to kill myself.highly relatable statement unfortunately, working sucks>>83873855> thats it's original incarnation.what I assumed first thought, but also not sure how accessible those are. I don't tend to gravitate toward 2d games save for Mario, but we shall see>Very.I'm very swamped these days and going to be gone next weekend most likely for an event. I think Yuanon taking a break hurts the thread since it depends on core posters bumping>>83873917hope you managed to get sleep eventually
Hello friends. I've been pretty gloomy lately but I also haven't had any breakdowns, so that's good.I guess I just miss her a lot...>>83867591>me and my orthodontal followupI managed to book an appointment, but for some reason I can't get an actual dental examination, just a quick check before seeing a hygienist.I'm pretty sure there aren't any problems, but it's been over a year since I had them looked at...>very well might not have it at the one I went toYou can check https://zenius-i-vanisher.com/v5.2/arcades.php to see what machines are near you. It's how I know there's only one Pop'n cab in the whole country...>i know when my family dies there won't be a damn penny passed down to meThat sucks. I know my mother thought the same for one reason or another but there ended up being a lot of stuff my grandma accumulated over the years that she was able to flog on eBay. She made a pretty decent amount doing that.>https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Periodical_cicadasSpooky stuff!
hey guyys heyy hello :]How are you today?gonna reply to u all in a bit
>>83872514>had a bit of a rough day after postingoh man :<hope you're feeling better nowthough idk how likely that is>very strange one to say the leastyep, I've heard so>>83872540>an exterior cleanersounds kinda coolunless you're in the cold D:>didn't give it to meoh that's super annoying Did you sign some sort of contract?>they want to rehire me in March.I'm not sure yet can trust them>every job I've had has made me want to kill myselfcan't imagine why..>because I looked too sadwhat!!? lolthat's not legal, right?>The kitties are alright! aw I'm glad >They've been demanding a lot of attention today.as they rightfully deserve! >:3>>83873855>only thing I got done was watching more YuYu Hakushois it good?>>83873917hello anon hope you managed to have some shut eyeand if you haven't well at least this night falling asleep shouldn't be an issue>>83875547heyo>>83876391hey>been pretty gloomy lately but I also it is what it is... but I'll be hoping it leaves you :]and how is your day going besides the gloominess?>haven't had any breakdowns, so that's good.yay ^^
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Studying the Cyrillic alphabet, looks very cool. Also more job applications with the city, cementary work.>>83876391Hallo discanon, you learned Japanese right? What helped you the most to retain everything?>LinkI'll use that myself actually need a ddr arcade>pretty gloomy lately but I also haven't had any breakdownsDoes the gloom permeate whatever you're doing, or are you lying down and feeling it?>>83877634>is it good?Very. I'm already halfway through, gonna slow down my watching so I'll finish it sometime next month. What's up with you /cat/?
>>83862728hey cat hru?>what happened?uhhi went to some places and did some things back at that day>do you like it after trying it on?yes>thanks for sharing:D>maybe he could smell other cars on you?i think this can be true>>83862922hey officeanon hru now?>and kind of just taking it easy in noware things easy now?>Probably nothing that can be done freelancebut maybe there's something good for you even if it's not in freelancingdon't you think?>I'm not sure you're any more unhappy than you would be if you were constantly unhappykinda complicated, but i think it hurts the most how my mood changes quickly>I think you need to try not to see the bad times as a permanent statethis is a good thing to do overall but im not sure that's exactly my casenow that became an old topic, though it's ongoing in my life stillmaybe we should forget about it currently, i feel like i'm spamming it in the thread lately lol>one that constantly tries to bite everyonelol some cats are strange
hey everyone, decided to get some food and drinks today and as always a fuck ton of tarkov. made a pretty cursed scar-l setup but hey I got a bunch of kills with it so i suppose it works. played a bit with a friend and had some fun too.
so low i felt like it would be nice to vent out to some old friend i had like 7-8 years ago, last seen 5 years ago or so.but im never doing that. it's stupid in my casea
>>83878908hey chevim glad you had funhope you enjoy even more in the future
>>83878658>Studying the Cyrillichavin fun?>Also more job applications with the city, cementary work.sounds kinda cool nglbut what are your thoughts about it?>halfway throughglad you're enjoying itthough I'm not sure if you should slow down, it happened to me a couple of times when I decided to not ruah through a series to sorta extend the fun but what happened is that I just got bored of the show >What's up with you /cat/?not much, just relaxing :3didn't do much today and I kinda don't know what to do>>83878834heyaaI'm well just hanging out and I'm okay though feeling a bit off how was your day today?>yesyey ^^what does it look like?>:D:3and I'll share that I got some clothes I ordered today but I'll have to return them, out of them all I only liked a belt and one shirt>think this can be truedo u have cat nip?maybe one day before going there you should take a shower and put on some different clothes that your cats didn't touch and you could even put a little bit of catnip on them and that angy cat might like u Also how are your kitties doing??>>83878908hello>get some food and drinkswhat did ya get?>always a fuck ton of tarkovhav fun !>a bit with a friend that's nice ^^ >>83879198>last seen 5 years ago or so.i don't think thats a good idea if you haven't seen them in so long
(edited it and posted again)>>83879267>a bit offwhy? what's bothering you? wanna say?>how was your day today?painful>what does it look like?blue with a white collar>out of them I only liked a belt and one shirtthank you too for sharing :]what did the shirt look like?>shower and clothes that cats didn't toucha bit challenging to find clothes that aren't invaded by cats... unless if you mean washed clothes idk if that helpsand a cat nip i never really tried that, maybe some day>i don't think it's a good ideayeah it isn't, i was just being emotional i dont even know how he feels about me after these years , i cant even meet him irl again now
>>83879469>what's bothering you? wanna say?nothing in particular I just feel like I can't find anything as of late that makes me feel entertained but I also can't think like I'm not actually watching whatever I'm watching ughh.. I wish I could go on a bikeride >painfulwhat happen?>blue with a white collaroh I think I have one like that too ^^>what did the shirt look like?it's black with gothic letters>bit challenging to find clothes that aren't invaded by catshehe ^^>washed clothes idk if that helpsyep that'd probably do the trick >cat nip i never really tried thatyou can look it up on yt>yeah it isn't, i was just being emotionalit's good you're aware of this :>
>>83879223hey man, hope you're doing well.>hope you enjoy even more in the futuredepends if i can find some good gear and not die, but i'm having fun either way desu. i'm progressing a bit so that helps.>>83879267>what did ya get?just some pasta and a monster energy, it was pretty good.how are you doing btw?
>>83879901>pasta and a monstera well balanced diet ^^ >how are you doing btw?I'm okay though I don't really know what to do with myself and like I can't think but I'm not too bad I'm in bed rn having a chill time ~w~
>>83878834Hallo RM>>83878908Hallo che>>83879267>havin fun?Definitely. I've never (by my own volition) learned another language, so it's funny seeing letters and feeling like the shape is "wrong". Like the Cyrillic letter that makes an "f" sound doesn't look like it should sound that way. It's like seeing a car make bell sounds when it starts.>what are your thoughts about it?Could be really cool, there's no handling of the dead just cementary maintenance. I've only been once or twice to a graveyard, so being around one regularly would be interesting. Pay is good too, 20CDN an hour.>what happened is that I just got bored of the showYeah makes sense, I'll keep watching as I have then.>>83879936>I don't really know what to do with myself and like I can't thinkLike an "I'm bored" I don't know what to do or an existential I don't know what to do?
>>83875547Yeah nothing can really be done about it unless I'm extremely likely and get to do a job i enjoy. It's why I don't see much of a point in living. If I'm just gonna do somethin I hate for 40 hours a week, why am I alive?>>83877634It's not fun work, especially in the extreme heat or cold. I didn't sign any contract they just lied in the interview. It's a small business so they can get away with a lot.
>>83880118On a related note, the thing that's been keeping me going is...Steins;Gate. I love Okabe's story, a mad scientist's triumph over despair. I watched the movie the other night and somehow I liked it more than the first time: because love prevailed over all odds, hope won over trauma and regret, and Okabe was very truly alone. It was beautiful.I'm playing through the visual novel. It's been distracting me from darker thoughts. I haven't cut myself since I was a teenager so this is sort of a weird time.Hope y'all are well.
be heading to bebgn>>83880024>know what to do or an existential I don't knowI'm not sure how I'd ever discern the two desu :/I don't know what their differences are
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>>83867543I have a chronic sense of impending doom and I am strongly convinced a civil war is going to break out in the US soonI have not been able to relax or "clam down" in fucking years at this pointThe chronic stress is taking a toll on my physical healthMy problem is I don't know if I'm delusional or if I just know too much I'd love to think there is nothing to worry about but I simply can not delude myself or let my guard downI want to move my family somewhere else and it kills me that they aren't convinced of the same level of threat that I amMy life is a hell
Hi friends! I have almost got the platinum trophy for Sekiro (just one trophy left!) and that would mean I've platinumed every souls game! Ps remember I love you all
>>83880182The first is like "oh I got nothing to do for today" and the second is like "oh idk what I'm doing for the next year(s) of my life".>>83880118>If I'm just gonna do somethin I hate for 40 hours a weekReading this gave me a shot of dread, I really don't have anything planned out after getting work.. >why am I alive?No answers here, but I'm guessing this was rhetorical. I'm alive to serve my family and then die, everything else is just dressing up that fact.>visual novelWhich ones have you read or just steins gate>Hope y'all are well.Fine enough.
>>83877634>but I'll be hoping it leaves you :]Thanks /cat/!>how is your day going besides the gloominess?I didn't really do anything yesterday, so I felt bad about that. Today will be more productive.>>83878658>you learned Japanese right? What helped you the most to retain everything?On and off over the years. I'm not even N5 yet lol. But Anki is very good for memorisation.>need a ddr arcadeI remember when DDR was everywhere but I can't think of the last time I saw a cabinet.Do you like DDR a lot? Have you tried any of the other Bemani games?>Does the gloom permeate whatever you're doing, or are you lying down and feeling it?Pretty much whenever it feels like it.>>83878908Doing stuff with friends is always fun. Well, usually.>>83879198There's an old friend I've love to talk to again but he's not been seen by anyone in about five years. I miss him a lot.>>83881668>I am strongly convinced a civil war is going to break out in the US soonFrom an outsider's perspective, I don't think that's something you need to worry about. The pendulum always swings back.In the meantime I'd recommend not looking at any news if you can avoid it. That's been my policy for a while and it seems to work well enough.>>83881695Which is your favourite Souls game?t. has only played Elden Ring
>>83871230>>83871230how come you want to study russian?
>>83882089>Reading this gave me a shot of dread, I really don't have anything planned out after getting work..On the bright side, not every job is terrible, just most of them. For me I want to escape the rat race and make a living off my creative outlets. I've made a few bucks off of it already. It's not easy but it sure beats having a boss. At least, you have to find a job you don't mind doing.>Which ones have you readI've read a handful. Slay the Princess is a pretty fun one. Steins;Gate I'm reading right now but it's loooooong. Just disappearing into another world helps me a lot. Steins;Gate gives me hope when I need it most.>>83881668>I have a chronic sense of impending doom and I am strongly convinced a civil war is going to break out in the US soonI understand where you're coming from. I will point out news stations always exgaggerate everything, but on the other hand I can no longer deny the possibility of civil war.It's worth of note that even in countries with civil wars, life goes on normally in a lot of areas, and it's rare for a large percentage of the population to die. That being said, I'd move to a rural area if I were you.Finally: THERE IS HOPE. We can make a difference in the world with small acts of kindness. I know that sounds like a shitty motivational quote but if we focus on helping the people around us, we push back that darkness just a little bit. The darkness cannot comprehend light. And in the end, good conquers evil, for it is in evil's nature to eventually destroy itself, whereas goodness preserves and cherishes life. Do not fall into the trap of despair. That is what the Enemy wants.All we can do is do the best with the time that's given to us. Maybe you won't be able to stop a civil war, or save the world, but you can protect and love your family, friends, neighbors.If your situation was hopeless, their propaganda wouldn't be necessary.I know I'm just a random anon, but I hope my words can give you some comfort.
>>83879813>that makes me feel entertainedowD:isn't there anything you like doing? an old hobby or something?>wish I could go on a bikeridewhy can't you?>what happen?thingstoday is worse>I have oneit's nice>black with gothic letterssounds cool really i like this>you can look it up on yti think i saw a cat getting addicted to it idk if that's the same thing>>83879901 >i'm progressing a bit so that helpswish you all the best things!>>83882244 >not been seen by anyone in about five yearsouch.. nothing new about him at all ever since???
hey guys how are you twoday??
>>83884682tired as a bitch missed my alarm by 3 hours I'll reply in a minute>>83882372Interest in their cultural exports
>>83885319heyooo>missed my alarm by 3 hours I'll reply in a minutenoo D;why? did you go to sleep super late?
>>83883315>ouch.. nothing new about him at all ever since???Nope. We all just kind of assumed it was suicide after a while. We did a little funeral/wake for him in Animal Crossing.>>83884682Hi /cat/. I managed to get some work done but I'm very tired after that. I'm not 100% sure I'll get everything done on time, but I'm cautiously optimistic.
Not being able to cut myself at will is pissing me off. Better off not having any good knives for self harm, but it's still an annoyance not being able to.>>83885846>why? did you go to sleep super late?I went to sleep fine, just turned off my alarm when I wokeup and went straight to bed.>>83882244>I'm not even N5 yet lolHuh? How do you even work then I thought you'd need proficient? No need to answer if this is prying btw>AnkiWill do.>Do you like DDR a lot?A ton, easily my favorite arcade game.>Have you tried any of the other Bemani games?Nope, I've only ever been to 2 arcades, so I haven't seen that many machines.>>83882605>I want to escape the rat race and make a living off my creative outletsWhat do you do?
>>83886421> Not being able to cut myself at will is pissing me offProbably for the best...>Huh? How do you even work then I thought you'd need proficient?My work is entirely in English and I don't live in Japan, flights there are just very cheap.>Nope, I've only ever been to 2 arcades, so I haven't seen that many machines.I can relate. There were almost no arcade machines where I used to live. I need to start taking advantage of having some near me now. Once I've sent everything off I think I'll just spend the whole day there playing Sound Voltex.
hey everyone! it's been a while. hope you're all doing well!
>>83886388heyaa>managed to get some work done good job was it difficult?>but I'm very tired after that. sounds like it wasthat's am after doing the smallest thing for uni classes >I'm not 100% sure I'll get everything done on timehey and if you don't manage that I'm sure waiting a little bit longer won't kill them>>83886421>pissing me offkeep on not cutting ^^not doing it even though you want to os when you make most progress, controlling your emotionals and actions >just turned off my alarmI see, did oversleeping a bit get you in some trouble?>>83887055hheeyyoo :D watzup?
>>83887055oh btw I'm going to watch cowboy bebop today and eat popcorn >>:3
>>83887135>hheeyyoo :Dhi catbro! :> how was your day?>watzup?not much. just went to work, came home and now i'm watching some stuff on youtube or twitch. whatever catches my eye.
>>83887262>cowboy bebophope you like it>eat popcorn >>:3it better be the salted kind :pman. those new captchas sure are annoying...
Hey cutbros, I've been cutting for a while now, about 4 months. I've been making good progress, but I've been hovering about 6 pounds above my goal weight for a few weeks. Any advice to finish the home stretch?
>>83887271>how was your day?pretty good I'd day it went well :>>went to workwas it okay? any annoyances if you wanna talk about it?>watching some stuff on youtube or twitch. whatever catches my eye.found anything cool?>>83887294>hope you like itthanksI just finished the first episode and it's okay I'll kkep watching >better be the salted kind :pit isI don't think I'd like that buttery one, I've never tried it>those new captchas sure are annoying...I actually like them more than the old ones but I'm dyslexic so you know treat is as a little brain warmer upper how many do you have to solve to post?
>>83886421I'm interesting in writing, film, art, visual novel design, you name it. Of course it's extremely difficult to make any sort of living in those industries. I understand the odds are against me but I'm trying my best to hold onto hope for a better future. I'd be much happier working indepedently. I've been more productive than ever creative wise, and my endurance and skill has only increased. I'm enjoying it more too. It provides an escape from the horror of everyday reality. I'm trying to remain positive and fight the overwhelming negative thoughts. Cutting myself last week out of nowhere, despite having not done it in over a decade, really fucked with my head.Hopefully, I can leave an impact on someone. Stories can change the world.
>>83884682hey cathow are you today?>hrugot something to worry about, something about someoneand apparently i will have to spend some hours at night studying, kinda tired already>>83886388>suicidei hope he just fixed his issues and kept living peacefully..>Animal Crossing.sorry that sounds funny. i know what yall did for him is nice though>>83887055hey yuanonhow are you?
>>83887336what do you mean by good progress anon? can be understood in 2 different ways
>>83887888Well, I'm down from 195 to 155. I'm leaner than I've been in years, but I'm still not lean enough for abs. I'm trying to get down to <15% body fat.
>>83887781hello anon how are you today?>>83887877eyoo>how are you today?just hanging out I think today was a good day>something to worry about, something about someoneoh my best of luck! :<>will have to spend some hours at night studyingow :cyou got a test coming up?oh and btw cats can't get addicted to catnip
>>83887920>hanging outmhm still can't go on a walk?>today was a good dayglad to hear that>best of luckthanks>got a test coming?on thursdayand a whole lot of exams next 2 weeks>cats can't get addicted to catnipis that something you discovered by yourself, cat? xD
>>83887336you could try a ketogenic diet. takes a long time to fully adapt to it, though.>>83887679>it went well :>yay! \o/ what did you do?>was it okay? any annoyances if you wanna talk about it?pretty normal day, i'd say. had to wrap a parcel that came in for storage in two plastic bags since it probably contains dried fish, but that was the most noteworthy thing today.>found anything cool?just watched the new tasting history vid, then daily dose of internet and some sfuff about the new logitech mouse. now i'm watching a streamer play half sword.>I'll kkep watchinggood luck o7>I don't think I'd like that buttery one, I've never tried itit's alright, but it's more about the sugar than the butter, i'd say. ^^>I actually like them more than the old ones but I'm dyslexic so you knowi can see it, but i felt like two times was more than enough. got a bit more complicated since last time i posted as well.>>83887877hi rem! >how are you?tired, burned out, but still trucking along. what about you? how have you been?
>>83888024>ketolol, no but seriously
>>83888052have you tried it before?
>>83888024>tired, burned out, but still trucking alone:[is it still because of work?also is that why you weren't active?>how have you beenbad most of times, not in the best relationship with my brain
>>83888133Yeah, ketosis is a meme. Keto in general is a meme, just like any other fad diet.
>>83887951>still can't go on a walk?oh hm I guess I can but I don't really feel like it now lately I been taking the bus to a mall fairy often to return some clothes >glad to hear thatty ^^>whole lot of exams next 2 weeksoh man T_T sorry to hear that fren>something you discovered by yourself, cat?hehe noo :33there are studies about it actually
>>83888024>what did you do?nothing ^^But I just felt okay>was the most noteworthy thing today.that's good >history vid,there's a new one?>streamer play half sword.if it fun?I think I'm going to watch some horror games before sleeping >more about the sugar than the butter, i'd say. wait, there are sugared ones?>like two times was more than enoughactually for me they started getting less complicated with time and now I often just get verificaton not required grr stupid 4chan now thinks this is spam!
YuYuKinosho>>83886522>Probably for the best...I guess. Lack of agency is still frustrating>SpoilerWould you live there full time if you could tho? I think my personality (among other things) would alienate me there, I prefer Canada.>>83887055Hallo yuanon>>83887135>controlling emotionalIt's always been a one and done thing though, not really a worry for me to do it again.>>83887336FunnyYou'd prolly get better advice on /loseit/ but for me breaking up and shrinking my meals + cardio throughout the day sufficed.>>83887781>Stories can change the world.It's the only way you can live forever.
>>83888228>is it still because of work?not entirely sure, but work doesn't help. maybe it's seasonal depression. hope it'll get better in spring.>also is that why you weren't active?pretty much. just had a hard time engaging with anyone. played some games instead.>bad most of times, not in the best relationship with my braini can relate to that a lot. how is that pesky thing bothering you?>>83888270>ketosis is a memehelped our species through the ice age, but you do you. hope you find something that suits your goals.>>83888321>I just felt okaywell deserved and the best way to achieve that. :>>there's a new one?yup. on gumbo. wish i could get some good ocra where i live. love that stuff, but hard to get here.>if it fun?it's alright. my usual guy is ill, so someone else fills in for him. switched to someone playing mewgenics.>there are sugared ones?yeah. here buttered/sugared is the standard you get in cinemas. took a while for them to also have the salted popcorn here.>they started getting less complicated with time and now I often just get verificaton not requiredhm. i had easier ones before, too. maybe it gets easier the longer you post? i'll keep an eye on that.>this is spam!the spamiest spam to ever spam.>>83888385hey toga! what's up?finally read the first volume of fire punch. decent enough story so far. i think i'll order more volumes at my local store. thanks for the rec.
>>83888385>not really a worry for me to do it again.okay o7>>83888472>best way to achieve that. :>luck:3>on gumboa what?I'll have to look it up>mewgenics.meow?if ur bored check out a channed called cybershellot has strange topics for videos but they're strangely entertaining even though idk what hes talking about >here buttered/sugared is the standardWHAT?!they don't know whats good>easier the longer you post? i'llI guess >spamiest spam to ever spam.you say one good thing about that and they have to remind you to not enjoy your posting experience
>>83888472>What's upNothing much. I'm feeling pretty good right now, just hit a new PR on shoulder press. Normally my bench is shit if I hit it after shoulder press, but I hit my 8 rep max no issue. Feeling good.>Fire punchAwesome you're liking it so far, what's your favorite part up to now?
what's good /cut/. went back to cutting a day ago. A very close friend of mine told me they're moving to another city in a year and it tore my heart. kind of stupid now that i think about it, considering i still have 365 days with them. fuck this stupid disorder.>>83887781>Hopefully, I can leave an impact on someone.maybe try making friends with similar interests as you anon. not only do they understand the struggle, but in creative industries, having contacts makes things way easier. it doesn't have to be some formal phony shit like american psycho, one of the best contacts i ever made is a close friend who played dnd eberron with me in high school.
>>83887920Hullo cat. I'm okay...I've been feeling rather depressed and anxious. Trying to concentrate on art but it's hard. Once I'm done drawing I'll probably have to go the gym. It's awkward running with long sleeves on. I'll probably play Steins;Gate when I get home (I know I've been yapping about it but I just really love it)How are you? I hope you're doing well.>>83888385It's one way to live forever, I think. There's also eternity with Jesus, but I'm not here to proselytize anyone. People underestimate the impact stories have. Art is important, it's how a culture expresses its most important ideas.>>83888623I have a few creative friends, I've been making contacts with a few VN developers who seem interested in collabing. Networking is hard for an autist like me--I think it's better to make actual friends than "business contacts".Hope y'all are well. I'll be going as /Okabe/ from now on.
Test post, hope you don't mind.
>>83888555>I'll have to look it upbasically a stew from southern usa.>meow?new game from the binding of isaac guy, i think. you breed cats and send them out on roguelite missions with xcom like combat. it's weird. like everything that guy does, i suppose.>channed called cybershellwill do. thanks.>idk what hes talking aboutusually for the better.>they don't know whats goodthe plebs hadly ever do>they have to remind you to not enjoy your posting experiencegotta press that 4chan pass on people ^^>>83888567>I'm feeling pretty good right nowthat's great :D hope it stays that way.>just hit a new PR on shoulder press>I hit my 8 rep max no issuecongrats. seems like all your hard work is paying off.>Feeling good.you deserve it.>what's your favorite part up to now?hm. i don't think i've got a favorte moment or anything like that, but i do like that it's rather fast paced and i'm enjoying the setting so far. told officeanon before that it has a bit of a metal gear vibe to me.>>83888623hey anon!>A very close friend of mine told me they're moving to another citythat stuff is never easy. friend of mine moved to the other end of the globe. i maybe see him one every couple of years now, but it's actually not that bad. every time we do we just pick up where we left.>kind of stupid now that i think about itdon't be too hard on yourself. at least you recognize it for what it is now. hard to do when you're in a rather emotional moment.
mm sleep time tirer goodnight guys!>>83889008oo you have a name now :oyou are now okabeanon hello o/
>>83889083Yeah might as well, everyone else here uses names.Okabe is my hero. A mad scientist who triumphs over despair. I like how he's flawed but he tries to do the right thing anyway.
some dude decided to sit next to me in the class and i can't tell him to go away. the dude is nice and i dont wanna hurt him but im suffering, im searching for the smallest chances to be alone, just for the dude to sit next to me all the time? i dont even remember agreeing to him sitting next to me permanently. idk what to do.>>83888306>to return some clothes aha fair>to hear thatgotta endure it :|>studiesmhm i see, so they just like it so much>>83888472>seasonal depression. hope it'll get better in springwish you all the good things yuanon..i feel like i never had something to call seasonal depressionidk i feel like im having the same things for a long time, not divided into seasons, it gets better sometimes and worse sometimes>had a hard time engaging with anyonei hear you.. take all the time you need!>i can relate to thatsadly.. cuz it's so annoying>how is that pesky thing bothering you?i've been like that for a while but it felt so bad lately and i was able to describe it by saying i regret being happy a lot of times. i feel like i have two moods/personalities in my brain that switch a lot, and it's so tiring when they switch. a "happy" mood that i mostly feel bad during it's time i feel like im faking and i hate myself when it becomes like thatand a sad mood that makes me feel so calm but makes me regret falling into the trap of "happiness". i prefer this.because no matter what, whenever i feel happy i'll probably have something to kill my happiness after.and a big reason of my mood swings is socializing. sadly, i have to socialize sometimes.
man im sick of almost everyone irl. i wonder why would someone annoy other people as if it's a daily routine. sometimes, the idea of leaving everything behind and isolating even more appeals to me. all i want is to be alone for now. but my future will be in danger.
I'm too tired from everything going on, but things are okay. Just want to say hi everyone and will try to reply to everyone after I get some sleep since didn't really get much other night and don't want to be incoherent replying. Take care everyone and see you all soon
>>83882244Hmmmm, I think my favourite souls game is Dark Souls 3 desu, I have like over 1000 hours into it, but I think all of the games have their positives
>>83889083sleep tight!>>83889112>everyone else here uses names.and i forgot mine. stupid me. :p hi okabe! don't think that name rings a bell, though. where's it from?>>83889179>some dude decided to sit next to me in the class and i can't tell him to go awaygotta be careful. same happened to me and i've been friends with that fucker for 22 years now... >:[>idk what to do.if he doesn't do anything that's out of line, maybe just roll with it?>wish you all the good thingsthank you. that means a lot. same to you, fren.>it gets better sometimes and worse sometimesyeah. it might depend on if you get out, get enough sunlight and a lot of other factors, some physical, some mental. for me it's been a bit worse lately. how are you holding up in general?>take all the time you need!i took a long enough break, i think ;D>i regret being happy a lot of timesinteresting way to look at it. i usually try to aim for being content rather than happy. being happy is a powerful emotional high, but that usually leads to a crash and a pretty bad low.>i feel like im faking and i hate myself when it becomes like thathm. that's sounds like an odd state of mind. usully you don't really think about other stuff while being happy or having fun and that's not really faking it, is it? are you alone in those moments or with other people?>a sad mood that makes me feel so calmi've got something similar. whenever i let myself have really sad and self-deprecating thoughts, i have this sort of tingly sensation running down my spine. it's really addictive and i have to actively stop myself from going down that road by focussing one anything else.>i'll probably have something to kill my happiness after.sadly often how it is. i guess people like us need to take calm and content over happy, but we can always hope for the best. (^-^)
>>83889179>a big reason of my mood swings is socializingsame. i'm incredibly bad at it. can't avoid it all the time, but maybe dictate the situations to be in our favor, though.>>83889239>as if it's a daily routinesome people just don't have anything better to do. :/>>83889284hey officeanon! have a good sleep, buddy. you need it.
>>83888555>>83888472>gumbohttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jaYO74GiLpY>>83889033>bit of a metal gear vibe to me.That's weird, it's about as un-metal gear like as I can think off what little I know from beating the first game. Can't say much about military or politics in a frozen lawless wasteland, what parts did you see as metal-gear like?>hard work is paying off.Thanks thanks>>83889083>>83889284Nights>>83889179Even if you're forced to sit next to him, saying you got a bad headache could keep him out of your hair if he talks too much.>whenever i feel happy i'll probably have something to kill my happiness afterI get this too, less as distinct moods but more instantaneously. Like I'll have something positive happen, and then I'll be flooded with a wave of self hate before I've had a moment to be happy. Been happening less often.
