I really don't wanna be a pretentious narcissist but it seems like cognitively and intellectually I'm in some kind of elite upper echelon.I don't feel smart and cool and special, though. I don't feel ego boosted and propped up. I feel alienated and distanced from all my fellow humans because I'm too self aware and intelligent for my own good and the only way to turn it off is with alcohol.And look, I'm not even some genius savant creative or something... those folk are definitely better than me, no doubt. But talking with any random cunt in any social setting, offline or online, there's just this disconnect.I can count the number of humans I've met in my more than 30 years of life that I would consider intelligent on one hand, and that's not because I don't interact with others. idk manjustfuckI need a goddamn drink
train on your self awareness
>>83896715I'm not autistic, I'm as self aware as I can be. That's what social anxiety is, I'm TOO aware.Unless you mean train my self awareness to be dulled and inactive socially then yeah that's what alcohol does but I can't be drunk 24/7
>>83896705>I can count the number of humans I've met in my more than 30 years of life that I would consider intelligent on one handThat's because you don't study or work in a field where above average intelligence is required. There's a shitton of smart people out there.
is thatredditspacingAnyway, you're just disagreeable and probably have low empathy. Your social circle also seems to be quite retarded, because I regularly meet people that match or outclass me, and I have a PhD.
>>83896731PhDs are a special class of retards though. Overexcited invalids usually. Very stupid nine times out of 10
>>83896747Overeducated* invalids
>>83896728>>83896731I never went to uni because I had a nervous breakdown instead and I'm pretty confident that did a lot of damage to me. It's way too late to go back now even if I had the money.I guess I got along better with the other kids in the gifted programs I was in when I was in school but I also probably wasn't developmentally where I needed to be because of helicopter boomer parents with a hot and cold parenting style that gave me lifelong trust and emotional regulation issues. If there's a place for me and people like me that isn't le r/r9k I haven't found it. I've never belonged anywhere and it sucks.
>>83896727you believe in social anxiety and have silly delusions of powerTrain on your self awareness.
>>83896705Most people aren't that intelligent, that's true, but thinking like this is usually driven by insecurity.Either that or you've squandered your intelligence and are genuinely surrounded by idiots like good will hunting or something, which is also on you.
>>83896752I'd rather be an overeducated invalid than just an invalid
>>83896760oh are you that rfk jr clone anon who keeps going into threads to say "le heckin autism isn't real"why do you feel the need to gaslight vulnerable anonymous people?
>>83896747Probably. I studied marine biology so everyone I meet is extremely chill though.>>83896757I would actually suggest enrolling in something youre passionate about, you'd have fun churning those gears.
>>83896760Kys>>83896789>muh passionate aboutNPC-speak
>>83896762>Either that or you've squandered your intelligence>like in good will huntingonly unintelligent people believe thatwhen is the last time you even watched the movie? In case you don't remember it ends with him basically saying "fuck you" to the entire system and chasing after his BPDemon crush several states away because Robin Williams taught him how to love again.The takeaway from that movie is love and empathy are far more important than functional cognition and having even one person who takes the time to understand you is healing and lifts people up far more than any education or other success in life can.Where the fuck is my Robin Williams? A surrogate father figure who listens to me and believes in me and gives me real therapy that isn't some by-the-book DSM pantsuit wearing cunt telling me to get more exercise and focus on my breathing techniques at ANY POINT IN MY LIFE would have saved me.
I hope you jerk your penis
>>83896815Good fathers were in short supply. This is why everything is broken.
>>83896803>passion is a word used by a different in-group than me therefore I reject the argument automaticallyNo different than the normies huhStudying and spending your whole life on shit that doesn't interest you is retarded. Congrats, no need to feel alienated since you are low IQ like the rest of us
>>83896830Maybe talk less like a tranny
>>83896821My father wasn't WETCHED. He didn't beat me. He was just a workaholic with no patience. He was almost never around, and the times he was around he just expected me to know things. That works fine for mechanical things I can easily understand, but how am I supposed to learn emotional regulation and how to navigate relationships like that?Maybe if I was less intelligent/weird and got along with an in group in school somehow but I've always just been a weird outsider who could at best make friends with the spergs in class who also don't really provide any amount of emotional support or growth.>>83896789>>83896830Passion isn't magic. It's a little late for that as well. I can't delude myself into thinking I'm a big fish looking out at my small pond. There's nothing I'm good enough at to warrant me believing I could be meaningfully good at it, even with a decade of training. The internet killed that.Again, I also don't have the money for uni. And I'd be surrounded by kids even if I did. If there was a silver bullet I would have tried it already. I've tried a couple, in fact. The best thing is to just try to focus on learning how to function as a basic human for now and anything else can come after I'm able to go three consecutive days without having a depressive episode.
>>83896885>The best thing is to just try to focus on learning how to function as a basic human for now and anything else can come after I'm able to go three consecutive days without having a depressive episode.Well this sounds on point to me. The right thing to start with.
>>83896705What was your childhood like? Were you praised only for your intelligence and nothing else? Can lead to a complex like I have
>>83896705you're just an alcoholic. sober up and get a grip.
>>83896842>that english word belongs to herd tranny, i can't use that word!>i am only allowed to use words from my herd baaaaa
>>83896937>Were you praised only for your intelligence and nothing else?Something like that. I feel like I was expected to raise myself most of the time. Histrionic tantrum throwing mother and checked out father, then in school all I get is "we can tell you're smart as fuck so why aren't you doing better."Endless No Child Left Behind droning on over the same curriculum to the point I just slept in all my classes, and my teachers let me because I still aced every single test. I was a C student though because I rarely did the homework.I've been trying to figure out what the fuck is wrong with me for 30 years and after my last relationship hit me with a truckload of trauma that new perspective and period of self discovery has made me aware that there's a whole lot more wrong with my family than I ever knew or acknowledged.I made the mistake of trying to discuss things with my parents and they had a histrionic boomer melty and said "WHEN ARE YOU GONNA GROW UP AND STOP BLAMING YOUR PARENTS" so I've distanced myself from them. I don't deserve that treatment, nobody does.
>>83896986Yeah, similar vibe here. Narcissistic mother who I spent most of my childhood with, before moving in with my very overbearing and protective father.What have you been diagnosed with in life? Your comment reminds me of my own experiences with being gifted and having ADHD
>>83896974Still sound like a tranny btw, just so you know
>>83896986Man. Relatable as all hell. We are going through the same thing.
>>83896997>What have you been diagnosed with in life?"Anxiety."I've had several therapists but none of them dug deep or cared, and I'm burned on the whole process now.>>83897030>We are going through the same thing.A lot of non-tourist OG robots are like us.Ostracized, traumatized, weird, potentially neurodivergent, too smart for our own good.The board got flanderized. All of 4chan did. Hell, most of the internet has become a disgusting self-parody of irony poisoning and severe unhinged unchecked narcissism.
>>83897103god imagine a whole board with people like us an no tourists, indians, or reddit screenshot farmers
I feel similarly, the few times I met genuinely intelligent people in my life they had something severely wrong with their personality, like obsession over some "disorder" they had or political obsessions like TDS. Even in my math program there were very few people i would consider "smart" even though most math majors are more about going to get some job like data analysis or something the very few that were interested in true understanding of the material and further academic pursuits were all giant faggots in one way or another like jealous of me answering a question right or being insecure about not being considered the most passionate. It is a very lonely life. I wish i took advantage of my youth and spent more time with women having fun.
