Have anyone here wasted their adolesence more than me?When I turned 16 mental illness got really bad for me and I became extremely passive as a result and would basically force myself to do nothing despite having a lot of desire to do something.>ages 16-20>did little to no exercise at all>diet was complete shit>didn't even play any vidya, watch any movies, watch any shows, listen to any albums or engage in any hobby or anything fun>didn't learn or improve any skills>didn't read any books despite wanting to>had money saved up but bought nothing, not even any clothes>never experienced having a girl be interested in me>didn't do any kinds of small self improvements like changing small habitsWhen I turned 20 I started therapy and tried turning things around like actually doing stuff I wanted to again like play vidya or exercise.But I'm 23 and I don't even have an education other than primary school, which in my country is from kindegarden class(ages 6-7) to 9th grade(ages 15-16). Also, to demonstrate my passiveness I went to this shitty school where you don't even get exams on a graphic design course that I never remember signing up for but I couldn't get myself to drop out due to my mentally ill induced passiveness. Which was 2 years of wasted life.I think if I had ended up in jail ages 16-20 instead it wouldn't have been much worse for me desu.
My life is a waste and pretty much cut in 2 distinct partsBefore 20> rejected > bullied > autoimmune disease and health issues > abused by parents > no TV no books no vidya no sport no school life no friends no money = youth wasted, I have no memories except being sick, poor, rejected, bullied, abused My life after 20 >goes outside 3 times a month for mandatory appointments>neetbux>play vidya 2 hours a day>coom 2 times a day and spends 3 hours a day doing it>rot on my bed doomscrolling when feeling tired and sick
>>83914618Start going to boxing classes or any martial art, but start now. Find the cheapest one.
Well, I won't say that kind of thing leads to suicide because my former friend commited suicide some years ago and he had an intense life, even if self-destructive. But seek help OP. You need a cause, something that moves you.
>>83914759Why is that important?>>83914774I am doing therapy. I have hope of things getting better but realistically it seems bleak because I'm such a loser.
>>83914618I used to think I was wasting my life by doing nothing all the time, but lately I have accepted that I am too stupid to do anything. My life can not be a waste if I had no potential in the first place.
>>83914618my brother was bullying me for some years so I was so terrified to leave my room I would eat nothing until mom came back from work which as you can imagine would be after 5PMI was so tired and starved that even sitting up on my computer chair was too much for me so I would just bedrott watching shorts on my phoneI am underweight and short nowHe leaves me alone now but I will never forgive me for all those years wasted of me just starving in my room
My life from age 13 to 18>wake up at 2pm>scroll 4chan>sleep at 3am
