How do anons deal with being alone? I was a normalfag growing up but overtime I slowly started to ghost my friends. Now I have no friends partially because of my self destructive behavior, I have no social media either. Just 4chan I guess if you want to consider that social media, I don't go out either beyond when I go work at my job and I avoid hanging out with my normalfag coworkers when they ask me if I'm interested in hanging out. I mostly watch anime, read manga and play games in my spare time but there is this nagging feeling in the back of my head that I'm alone, I have no one. I wish it would go away. Sometimes in the past I would get an itch to install Discord or some other social app to make friends and I would, but within the span of a week or two id find it all meaningless and swiftly nuke the account to then vanish. For some reason the social dance we repeat over and over just bothers me in a way; though I think it's partially because at least online everyone wants to discuss idpol and politics nonstop, it's very annoying. I enjoy being who I am, and yet there is a piece of my mind that still exists saying>conform or die aloneI don't want to die alone but maybe I I should accept that. Some people will still try to contact me years later after ghosting them and I still ghost them because they are normalfags, they aren't bad people but I feel we share nothing in common anymore. I have found that I more happy often being alone but it's that insecurity that eats away at me. I know many do drugs/alcohol to soothe the pain but I don't want to use drugs/alcohol to numb my mind.So anons, even with hobbies the lonely feeling doesn't fully disappear, is there anyway to make it go away?
