Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supportheya guysHow do you feel about winter leaving?>How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
waddup Here's a bunch of helpful links>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7>a first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/>a wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic>a bpd workbook:https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read>a bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
>>84155251hi office anon>Fujiomoto isn't always consistent with how things workThe only work I've read is csm. I think it's vague enough about rules that you could argue it works. Like I personally think devils weren't as much of a problem until very recently in the story. Society devolped mostly the same. We had a 6th sense at one point that may have equalled things out. People are pissed at increasing death from devils. The Gun devil explicitly rose the fear of all devils. The darkness devil never left hell, so a lot of powerful devils might only be coming up for the apocalypse. All of which could be seen as a contridiction in world building, but I think it can just be interpreted differently. >>84151093hi yu>a show stops dead in it's tracks for a prequel backstory iI don't know if skipping the hidden inventory arch would effect your enjoyment. There's a major fight at the end where we get the most famous meme from, and three characters make reappearances in the rest of the show. Other than that, it's a gojo hype arch. and a geto racism arch, but this is only relevant for the prequel movie. >>84164201hi guys, guess I left the threat for too long.>How do you feel about winter leaving?Idk. The snow was rough and getting work was hard. But at least I had excuses. The weather is still all over the place though.>>How are you doing today?Pretty nauseous and tired.>>Any plans for today?Playing civ and drawing I think.I had another interview, I'm hoping for the best. The job I wanted turned me down again.
>>84164342hey cynic!>But at least I had excuses. I'm sure you'll find new ones >The weather is still all over the place though.same here it was pretty nice last week but now it's rainy >nauseous and tired.from what? hope you get better soon, have you been drinking enough water?>The job I wanted turned me down again.D;
wrote a reply to some stuff in last thread, but lost it. don't think it was very important anyways, so i'll just leave it at that.>>84164201hi catbro! what's up?>How do you feel about winter leaving?good riddance. i usually like the colder seasons, but i can't i enjoyed them much this time.>>84164342hey! it's cynic! :D>I don't know if skipping the hidden inventory arch would effect your enjoymentmy enjoyment went from "pretty cool stuff" to "fuck this shit, i'm out". i'd say you could call it effected. i'll try again, though. just have to find some motivation.
>>84165196hey yuanon how was your day??>but lost it.D;>what's up?just worked on the map a lil bit Idk what else I did today it's a blur but alright >good riddanceexcited to do anything this summer?I might go on a train trip to the beach on the other side of the country again but idk
>>84165218>how was your day??bit annoying. guy wanted to let a kid fill out his lottery ticket, but i saw and had to deny taking it. gambling laws forbid children to take part in it in any way here. he was pretty pissed about that and started to argue with me.>Idk what else I did today it's a blur but alrightyeah, just another one of those days that sped by. not much of note happened. how's your map coming along?>excited to do anything this summer?nope. got no plans at all.>I might go on a train trip to the beach on the other side of the country again but idkthat's a lovely idea. no concrete plans for it, though?
>>84165366>he was pretty pissed about that and started to argue with meI think you did the right thing if anything he should've thanked you for maybe teaching the kid a lesson, lotteries are idiot tax >not much of note happened> how's your map coming along?slowly bu surely :]haven't taken any pics but I finished about 25% of the kyoto map >got no plans at althat's fine too >that's a lovely ideaI did something like that last year and id was alright but I'm wondering if maybe I don't wanna go to the mountains instead >though?nope last year I managed to get everything ready in like two days and I don't have a job so i basically can go whenever without planning it a ton And how's your evening? I thought about watching a movie with popcorn again today but I'll watch some yt instead
Hello everyone. Hope you're all well.>>84164201>How do you feel about winter leaving?I'm not looking forward to it. It's going to be unbearably hot soon which means I'll have to run my AC unit 24/7 again until next winter...>How are you doing today?I'm feeling pretty good, which is a pleasant surprise.>Any plans for today?I mostly spent today sleeping after yesterday's excitement.I got a bigger antenna for my radio and have left it out on my balcony for a while. It's managed to find five other nodes so far - the furthest is 7.6km away using three hops. So that's pretty neat, even if I've not received any messages yet.Now the only thing to do is sleep.>>84164342>Pretty nauseous and tired.Hopefully that clears up. Nausea sucks.>Playing civ and drawing I think.Which one will you play?>>84165218>I might go on a train trip to the beach on the other side of the country again but idkHow much is the train where you are?>>84165366>guy wanted to let a kid fill out his lottery ticket, but i saw and had to deny taking itIs this a common occurrence?
I refuse to contribute to a society full of retards that hate meI'm never going to workI'm not gonna generate wealth for some rich asshole or the governmentThere's no country I want to live in, they all suckHumans are annoying and destructiveI'd rather rot in bed and study all dayFuck society
Watching all the Fate series again has reminded me there's a lot of things about this franchise I don't like and straight a few series I just don't like at all. Still torturing myself anyway.>>84162934>someone who actually wants to be there with me.one of the most important things to learn in life is that you can't force someone to like you or want to be part of your life how you want them to. If someone is meant to be, they'll want to be without you jumping through hoops>I just put those in a mailbox with NO LONGER RESIDENT scrawled on and hope for the best.I still have this happen sometimes at the house I've been living at for nearly 4 years now..>since houses there are built to retain heat.all burger houses are made mostly out of wood. warmest part of my house during winter was my basement since it's concrete with tons of insulation in the ceiling. >>84164342hey cynic>I think it's vague enough about rulesI think that's the most important part of all is that he ultimately does not care a great deal about rules and more so about what makes sense for the story or narrative he's going with. Rules and world building come second as a result and therefore it's really hard to guess anything, especially if you look at his other work. That said, Togata anon made a good point this series has gone on so long and by far his most popular work so that could be influence a bit as well in regards to closing this off>>84164201hey cat!>How do you feel about winter leaving?good riddance! >>84165196hey yuanon!>but lost itme changing tabs and hitting the X instead>good riddance.i legit typed the same thing before I ever read your reply lol>>84165479hey bibbit>I'm not gonna generate wealth for some rich assholecompletely understandable not wanting to. It's all so tiresome and how difficult they make it to earn the right to labor tirelessly for them now... it's very easy to see why so many people are disillusioned
>>84165426>I think you did the right thingthanks. me and the law think so too, but some people seem to not like it when you call them out on their shitty and unlawful behavior. who knew?>lotteries are idiot taxeverything i sell at the store is. people would be better off if they just came in, handed me their money and left.>haven't taken any pics but I finished about 25% of the kyoto mapsince when are you working on that?>if maybe I don't wanna go to the mountains insteadalso a cool destination, but you need to be well prepared and very careful out their. lots of people underestimate it.>i basically can go whenever without planning it a toni see. i thought you might head there with that friend of yours.>And how's your evening?boring. nothing interesting is on right now. :/>I'll watch some yt insteadfound anything cool?>>84165438hi dinon! how are you today?>Is this a common occurrence?not that common, but people are always surprised when i have to tell them that the things we sell are gambling as well and have to be kept away from children. and then i turn around and sell a kid a trading card booster pack.>>84165479hi bib! what's going on in your life?>>84165623>me changing tabs and hitting the X insteadworst feeling in the world. all that profound wisdom. gone. just like that.>i legit typed the same thing before I ever read your reply lolit was a bad winter and it should feel bad. you got more reasons to not like it, though. anyways, how are you doing?
>>84165697>all that profound wisdom. gone. just like that.It's always the post that's just barely missing the character limit too, not short ones replying to a single post...>it was a bad winter and it should feel bad. tell me about. It was the worst winter I think I've experienced in decades...>you got more reasons to not like it, though.we can all agree it's not a fun time of year at all.>anyways, how are you doing?not bad. Watching more anime lately, prepping for a new job, and finished rearranging my shelves a little. Have too many figures and things now. Had to move some and also clear some space if I buy anything else impulsively soon.
>>84165824>It's always the post that's just barely missing the character limit toothis, so much. guess we're just mentally exhausted at that point and that's where the mistakes happen. :[>It was the worst winter I think I've experienced in decades...not even the weather for me. i just didn't get in a wintery spirit, so it just feels so wasted.>it's not a fun time of year at all.definitely wasn't. let's hope for spring.>Watching more anime latelywhat did you watch?>prepping for a new jobbest of luck, dude. you'll rock that job! (*^*)9>Have too many figures and things now.make sure it's sturdy and secure. wouldn't want something to happen to them.>if I buy anything else impulsively soon.anything you got an eye on? i got the next two volumes of fire punch today. and a painting brush. wanted to try out a kolinsky sable one. everyone swears by those.
>>84165438>Hope you're all well.hallo and thank you :>> hot soonD;how long is summer over there?>feeling pretty goodglad to hear that ^^ >spent today sleepingand r u going to get up and to anywhere?>got a bigger antenna for my radiothat's cool, how big is it?>much is the train where you are?they're pretty cheap tickets for to the other end of the country and back costed about 80bucks I think >>84165479hey bib >never going to workI get it, hopefully you're able to not have to do thatbut if not how a you going to live?>>84165623hello>Still torturing myself anyway.whyy D;>>84165697>but some people seem to not like it when you call themthey're always like that I see that especially when it comes to driving >since whenhm like yesterday >but you need to be well prepared and very careful out theiryep, I think it'd be fine, famous last words >might head there with that friendmaybe I will, we'll see>nothing interesting is on right now. :/D;I have a thing with youtube where it thinks it knows what I like and it basically just shows me things I'm not interested in >found anything cool?not really but I'll look closer
>>84165963> at that point and that's where the mistakes happen.try to ctrl copy when replying to long posts before clicking anything sometimes just to be safe>i just didn't get in a wintery spiritto be fair, I don't think most people have much spirit for winter past the holidays. Once new year starts and it's just cold without holiday lights and celebrations coming up, it just kinda sucks> let's hope for spring.hope it picks up for you then, warmer weather can improve the mood even if things otherwise mostly the same i've felt>what did you watch?still watching jjk ongoing, watching an episode or two of the umamusume series ongoing (finally got the second season), and watching absurd amounts of Fate as I mentioned(rewatched 2 series again and onto a third before I start some other ones I haven't seen)Of course! I'm extremely protective of absurd number of figures now>anything you got an eye on?not specifically. I already spent more money than I'd like to admit on some older scale figures and need to physically block myself from more. > got the next two volumes of fire punch todaynice, which you up to?>wanted to try out a kolinsky sable one. this is for painting miniatures?
>>84166080how'd your day go?>whyy I love the franchise and there's enough about it I enjoy, but a whole lot I find stupid and in some cases repetitive, but I have powered through the less than great
>>84166080>I see that especially when it comes to drivingyeah, that's another one of those minefields.>like yesterdayah, i see. then i missed that whileni was clearing stormwrought ruins with my buddies. what inspired you to do that?>I think it'd be fine, famous last wordsi'll take your word for it. i just see people die this stupid and unnecessary deaths all the time, so i worry.>it basically just shows me things I'm not interested inpretty much what happens to me as well. i turned my history off, so i don't have a feed, but the recommendations below the videos are complete hogwash. and i'm sure it still shows me stuff from channels i said i don't want recommensations from. it's a mess.>I'll look closersame >.>>>84166114>try to ctrl copy when replying to long posts before clicking anything sometimes just to be safedid so, closed the old thread and then realized i only copied the last reply, not the complete post. that's when i gave up.>it just kinda sucksi suppose you're right. not much to look forward to when we're through with the festivities.>warmer weather can improve the mood even if things otherwise mostly the same i've feltwould be nice. workouts would be a lot better as well. last one was good, but still got really cold at times.>still watching jjk ongoing, watching an episode or two of the umamusume series ongoingi still have to finish yyh. just wasn't in the mood for anime rn. haven't even seen any recent seasonal show, either. not that any caught my eye.>I already spent more money than I'd like to admitsame in general. i need to reduce my spending in general>which you up to?volume 2... took a but longer to get to me than expected. >this is for painting miniatures?exactly.heading to bed. good night, everyone!
>>84165623>it's very easy to see why so many people are disillusionedAbsolutely>>84165697>what's going on in your life?average schizoism>>84166080>how a you going to live?I live off of disability because of my various mental disorders and I live with family so I pay little in rent
Hi anons. I only posted here once and nobody probably remembers me I'm the anon who's depressed he's circumcised and has neurofibromatosis and has a 2D waifu Sataniawho I'm in love with. I don't know if I'm going to become a regular in these threads but I'm going to buy a box cutter tomorrow and start cutting again. I feel fortunate in some way my ugly birthmarks aren't cancerous but I can't get insurance to remove them because of it. My body will be ugly forever. Might as well scar it up, give myself marks I can control. I wish I could cut them off.How are you doing today?Not good as you can see>Any plans for today?It's Night for me so no>When was the last time you hurt yourself?Tomorrow>Why did you hurt yourself?It will be because of body dysmorphia >Is there anything bothering you right now?My ugly bodyMy waifu would be so shamed of me cutting myself I bet :(I'm sorry for posting ITT. I just want somewhere to vent
>>84164201Hope everyone has a great day!
>>84166482hi anon! dont worry about ppl ITT not knowing you we still like the company.
Hallo /cat/>>84164201>>How are you doing today?Alright, got a haircut.>>Any plans for today?Gym, games, manga, job applications it never really changes>>When was the last time you hurt yourself?About 2 weeks ago.>>Why did you hurt yourself?Anger at my inability to focus.>>Is there anything bothering you right now?Felt lethargic all day.>How do you feel about winter leaving?Not really looking forward to mowing the lawn again...
been sleepin but now I'm wakin >>84166157>how'd your day go?sorry, I fell asleep I couldn't answer pretty alright, I mapped and chilled >enough about it I enjoyI see, well then glad it's a net positive >>84166375>another one of those minefields.yep and many other things involving people >stormwrought ruins with my buddiesdod you have fun? sounds like it :>>what inspired you to do that?because it's in lsd >stupid and unnecessary deathsyeah but it's sorta interesting in a waymany people don't realize how close we are to death every day, often it takes just one wrong step >pretty much what happens to me as well. i turned my history offyep idk what happened, though I remember it being normal on the yt app, but I'm not using that, it's because all just ads ads ads and I'm not going to pay them so now I just use a browser with ad blockers >>84166409>live off of disabilitynice, you're able to afford all your needs for it? I wonder how it works in my country >>84166482hello yep I remember you, your situation is pretty specific so that makes it easier >going to buy a box cutter tomorrow and start cutting again.are you sure about it anon? idk if it's a good ideaMaybe there are some less harmful things you could do>aren't cancerous but I can't get insurance to remove themoh ;< how big are they? how expensive would it be to remove them?>Night for me so nohope you slept well >sorry for posting ITT. I just want somewhere to ventnothin to be sorry about anon >>84166986thank you hopefully your day is good too ^^ I just woke up ao well see how mine goes>>84167498heya>got a haircut.woawhat does it look like?>never really changesare you enjoying it?>mowing the lawn again...do you have to?
Hello everyone. I tried to wake up at a normal time but I kept falling asleep...My fren wants to visit on Sunday to play vidya and eat my pasta so I'm a bit (very) nervous.>>84165479Being a NEET's not so bad. I kind of miss it.Hopefully you can get some financial independence somehow.>>84165623>you can't force someone to like you or want to be part of your life how you want them toThat's true. I've also learned the hard way that you can't help people that don't want it either...>I still have this happen sometimes at the house I've been living at for nearly 4 years nowI lived in the same house for more or less my whole life so this is a new phenomenon for me.>warmest part of my house during winter was my basement since it's concrete with tons of insulation in the ceilingFor whatever reason the warmest part of our house was my bedroom. It almost never went below 25C, even in the dead of winter.>>84165697>how are you today?I'm well, but still recovering from Monday. I need to lock in and get some work done.>people are always surprised when i have to tell them that the things we sell are gambling as well and have to be kept away from childrenNo fun allowed in Germany... But that's probably fair enough, you don't want to give kids a gambling problem.>then i turn around and sell a kid a trading card booster packWhat sort of things do you sell in the post office? Or is it more like a convenience store there? Here it's just postal supplies.How common are public freak-outs in general?
>>84166080>how long is summer over there?Apparently we have four seasons, but it's just hot from March to about September. And then it gets slightly less hot.>r u going to get up and to anywhere?Only my desk.>that's cool, how big is it?About the size you'd find on a wireless router. I know some people get really big ones but that seems a bit excessive.>tickets for to the other end of the country and back costed about 80bucks I thinkThat's not too bad, especially compared to the UK. Are they high-speed as well?>>84166482Have a good sleep, anon. Hopefully you'll feel better in the morning.It's okay to vent here, that's what the thread's for.>>84167498Best of luck with your job applications. Hopefully one will pan out eventually!
>>84166375> that's when i gave up.no worries. We all know you tried> not much to look forward towhereas summer and spring everything feels>workouts would be a lot better as well. for sure. Damn cold has me feeling stiffer all the time so looking forward to not having to deal with that> haven't even seen any recent seasonal showas JJK ends soon, I'm lucking out because re:zero is coming back on. Also have Fate/strange Fake(which is still being released) to get to when I'm through all the other Fates I didn't watch so I'll be busy a whole>reduce my spending in generalI did a great job with this by not getting screwed by electrical bills this winter>took a but longernot a rush. I think my interest definitely peaked a bit more after that as things get more in swing>>84166409just try to live the life you want best you can. You don't have to follow their rules to enjoy life and honestly being free from it all is a worthwhile thing to try to achieve>>84166482>nobody probably remembers me i remember you as well!>has a 2D waifu nothing wrong with that! Are you loyal to your waifu? I think I have track records with this..>Might as well scar it upbe careful anon. Not telling you what to and not to do, but if you're not used to it already, this can be slippery slope. Just take care and try not to lose control of yourself> waifu would be so shamed of meno, i don't know the character well, but probably more concerned like most people are. >I just want somewhere to ventit's what the thread is here for. Take care and no worries>>84166986hope you do too>>84167498hey togata!>Not really looking forward to mowing the lawn the one thing I hate of the warmer months.
>>84168256>sorry, I fell asleep nothing to apologize for. Need sleep. I overslept by many hours today> I mapped and chillednice, glad you had a relaxing day.>glad it's a net positiveOne of the few franchises I'll stick with no matter how stupid or absurd things get>do you have to?I know this was a question for Togata, but here if you don't the government will fine you>>84168759>eat my pasta so I'm a bit (very) nervouscooking for others is both very enjoyable, but also very anxiety inducing. I cook a lot and still makes me uneasy when someone new is trying something I'm even used to cooking a lot>can't help people that don't want it either.I know the case you mean here, but even generally speaking, people usually need to help themselves. You can help them a little with guidance, but even then it hinges on their willingness to listen. >this is a new phenomenon for me.as it was mostly for me. Strange when the former owner was an NRA member and you get NRA scare mail about "Notice of Gun Confiscation" (which isn't real, they're just a dogshit org) and the mail person is dropping this at your mailbox.>warmest part of our house was my bedroomwas the same as mine as a kid. Think maybe because it was middle most room so had only one external wall facing outside
>>84167131Thank you :)>are you sure about it anon? idk if it's a good ideaMaybe there are some less harmful things you could doI'm not gonna buy a ox cutter because it'll be hard to get one today but I'm gonna buy a knife instead>how big are they? how expensive would it be to remove them?Most are tiny but I have a few gross ones that are big....>hope you slept wellI did alright. Hope you did too anon :)>nothin to be sorry about anonThank you>>84168764>It's okay to vent here, that's what the thread's for.Thank you anon. You are very kind>>84168848i remember you as well!Thank you! Sorry for not responding to you last time. Someone near me has been being dumb and I'm kept in an IP ban range. I need to use 4chan more carefully verifying my email each time>nothing wrong with that! Are you loyal to your waifu? I think I have track records with this..Yeah. I love Satania, I have a dakimakura of her and get custom commissions of her. I love her so much>be careful anon. Not telling you what to and not to do, but if you're not used to it already, this can be slippery slope. Just take care and try not to lose control of yourselfThanks for the concern. I used to cut myself a lot and I have a bunch of noticeable cat scratches. I'm too scared to cut deep sadly >no, i don't know the character well, but probably more concerned like most people areThanks I hope she wouldn't mind and just be concerned. >it's what the thread is here for. Take care and no worriesThank you anonEveryone here is so nice. Thanks for not judging me or my waifu. I hope everyone has a great day today.
>>84168256I forgot to tag you in >>84169198 sorry!
>>84168883>still makes me uneasy when someone new is trying something I'm even used to cooking a lotI'm lucky in that pasta is very difficult to fuck up unless you let all the water boil and then burn it, or add too much salt. Hopefully my nerves don't get the best of me...>You can help them a little with guidance, but even then it hinges on their willingness to listen.That's true as well. You see it a lot at university. Most professors will have pretty generous office hours and they're happy to talk and explain stuff if you're struggling, but usually the only time anyone wants help is after they get a bad grade...>the former owner was an NRA member and you get NRA scare mail about "Notice of Gun Confiscation" Are you a gun owner?Mine seems to mostly be bank statements... Although they have more or less stopped.Getting the little "no circular mail" sticker from the post office has worked wonders as well.>Think maybe because it was middle most room so had only one external wall facing outsideThat's the same for me. Since it was a semi-detached house (I think burgers call it a duplex) my room was opposite my neighbour's boiler, which probably didn't help.>>84169198>Thank you anon. You are very kind>Everyone here is so nice. Thanks for not judging me or my waifu. I hope everyone has a great day today.Thank you, anon. All the posters here are very nice and probably a big reason why I'm still alive, I think.>>84169235>im probably gonna fail most of my classes.Do you have the option to retake them? Might be worth it if you're worried about your transcript.
bumppworking on tha map :]
>>84169198>Sorry for not responding to you last time.no worries at all. Thread gets quite busy sometimes> Someone near me has been being dumbannoying. Glad no one around here where i am probably posts>I love her so muchis quite the commitment. pretty cool you feel so strongly. I have had characters I felt very strongly of, some probably crossed the line of being a legit waifu, but never got the daki pillows even though I have wanted to> I'm too scared to cut deep sadlyhonestly, feel better about your case if that's true. No harm in being afraid. Don't want to cut so bad you end up needing to go to the hospital. Causes a lot of troubles if you need to do that..>>84169235hi anon>im probably gonna fail most of my classes.hope it doesn't come to that for you, but also not much you can do if really sick. Any way you can reach out to instructors? If you've been out from illness might get accommodations of some kind.. idk>it was such a big urgeit's okay to relapse into bad habits sometimes. No shame there. Hope things get easier though.>>84169660>Hopefully my nerves don't get the best of meat the very least, most people aren't food critics so if you make something decent it's at least appreciated I'd think>usually the only time anyone wants help is aftermy experience with being tutor and a teaching assistant was basically noticing the same. To be fair, even if I struggled with stuff I know always hesitated to go to see them, but I was also more dysfunctional then than now>Are you a gun owner?nope, which makes it more uncomfortable since I don't want people getting the idea I have a gun I shouldn't lol>have more or less stopped.mostly the same, but sometimes have one odd piece sneak through with a different mail person on the route. And temp mail people just giving straight up to the wrong address since they don't care> my room was opposite my neighbour's boilerdoes sound like it would get a little toasty
>>84168759>Hopefully you can get some financial independence somehow.The only "job" I see myself doing is writing as an author >>84168256>you're able to afford all your needs for it?I am because I live with my mum and she doesn't ask for a lot in rent
>>84170418>if you make something decent it's at least appreciated I'd thinkI think it tastes pretty great, so hopefully she will too.>even if I struggled with stuff I know always hesitated to go to see themThat's true. The only time I ever saw one was after an exam so she could explain why I did so well (because I usually barely passed them).>makes it more uncomfortable since I don't want people getting the idea I have a gun I shouldn't lolThat's fair enough. I wouldn't want people thinking I'm a gun nut either, even though I'd probably own one to shoo off bears or something.>sometimes have one odd piece sneak through with a different mail person on the routeAt least it's rare now. Usually the only stuff I get is circulars that they paid to put a stamp on.>>84170419>The only "job" I see myself doing is writing as an authorMy mother does freelance short story writing for old people magazines and she seems to enjoy it. Maybe it would be worth looking into something like that.>i just really dont want to because it means i will likely have to do 4 years instead of 3.That's fair enough. Though in the grand scheme of things 1 year isn't much time, and I think it's probably worth it to graduate with a better degree (or any degree). Plus the second time around it should be a little easier.
>>84168759Hello o/>but I kept falling asleepmaybe you needed itso at what time you woke up?>fren wants to visit on Sundayaw that's nice ^^ >I'm a bit (very) nervous.I'm sure it all will go well :]>>84168764>Apparently we have four seasons,hot, hotter hottest and hot >Only my deswhat r u gonna do? play somethin or work?>you'd find on a wireless router oh ao that's not big right?>people get really big onesI wonder what's the biggest one you find>Are they high-speed as well?yep >>84168883>overslept by many hours today you probably needed it >with no matter how stupid or absurd things getwhy are you so attached to it?>here if you don't the government will fine youthat's stupid I don't think it's a this here>>84169198>Thank you :)no probby :>>hard to get one todaywhy?>but I'm gonna buy a knife insteadif you do, buy also some stuff to patch yourself up with,okay?>few gross ones that are big....have you checked how much it would cost to remove them?>Hope you did too anon :)thank you, I did though I didn't have any dreams >Thank youur welcome ^^
>>84170478> but its still just kind of stressful.I can imagine, but it's good that someone is aware and working with you all the same> weed soon so that it gets more manageable. Is it hard to get where you live or something? Where I am it's fully legal. Still a tricky topic since not all jobs allow you to smoke it, but have heard others swear by it to help destress>>84170990>I think it tastes pretty greatI'd trust your instinct on this since we can be our own harshest critic. What was the dish again? You might have said before, but it's been a whole>so she could explain why I did so wellvery unusual office hour visit for her I'm sure>though I'd probably own one to shoo off bears or something.I'm not opposed to the idea of having one. Are some that I considered buying if I had more money, but also don't want to go around advertising either.
>>84169235hey anon>my urges are pretty bad today though.sorry to hear thatcould you do something to distracted yourself from them a bit >im probably gonna fail most of my classes.what will happen then?>its so hard nowsounds concerning because you can't control yourself >just feel badyou think it'll get better with time?>thanks for readingnp>>84169244no worries >>84170419hello how was your day?>live with my mum and she doesn't ask for a lot in rentkinda strange she's asking for rent at all
>>84171030heya cat, how was your day?>you probably needed itprobably. Definitely before going away on Friday and weekend.. All and all feel pretty good though>why are you so attached to it?It was one of the franchises I got very into when I got back into anime around 2016, going as far as getting into the OG visual novel just to try it. Like the formula a lot, like the characters and lore, got really into the mobile game Grand Order(which taught me Gatcha patience since I saved 3 years straight playing everyday just to ensure I unlock my favorite Fate waifu and max her out) and some of the video games they released (thinking about getting Fate Remnant Samurai since heard it's pretty good). Even when it gets dumb, I still like it more than other stuff, just the parts of it I like I like I like so much that it's disappointing when it's not as good(or they keep bringing back the same annoying character in every iteration and I'm tired of him)>I don't think it's a this hereThat's good. I think here they say it's because it attracts rats, which there is truth to, but there's many other things that also attract rats no one cares about. It comes down to protecting property value for old boomers
>>84170990Forgot to reply to >>84170478 at the end there.>>84171030>so at what time you woke up?About 4pm after everything... I'll get up at a more sensible time tomorrow.>I'm sure it all will go well :]I'm a little confused by her intentions but I'll just play it by ear.>hot, hotter hottest and hotPretty much. Although November through February is pretty nice.>what r u gonna do? play somethin or work?The plan was to work but I didn't do much of that either. Tomorrow I have to get locked in.>oh ao that's not big right?Yeah. Just small enough to be slightly portable. I'll try again from my office tomorrow.I managed to recieve a message at 3am today, which was pretty neat. It just said "testing".>I wonder what's the biggest one you findThe biggest I've seen people use are like the ones used to get TV signals.>yepNice. The state of high speed rail in the UK is a national embarrassment...>>84171051>What was the dish again?Tomato and basil pasta with a bit of parmesan.>very unusual office hour visit for her I'm sureYeah. Apparently I answered one question really, really well and barely scored on the others.A similar thing happened with my master's degree, where I completely whiffed my exams but did excellent on my thesis and just barely graduated with a good degree classification by one mark. If anything went differently I probably wouldn't be able to do a PhD, let alone a funded one.>also don't want to go around advertising eitherThat's fair enough, I think if people knew I owned one they'd probably think differently of me.
hey, everyone. wanted to stop by earlier, but got lost in thought.>>84168848>We all know you triedstory of my life.>summer and spring everything feelsfeels like what?>Damn cold has me feeling stiffer all the timethis and i've got some backpain rn. need to do lighter workouts for now. :/>I'll be busy a wholelucky you. ^^ i guess i should shuffle my hobby priorities around a bit for now.>I did a great job with this by not getting screwed by electrical bills this winternice. we're getting screwed by gas prices right now. not much we can do about that, i'm afraid. (-_-)>I think my interest definitely peaked a bit more after that as things get more in swingwe'll vol. 3 came wrapped in plastic, so some shit will be going down in that book.
>>84171770eyo wad is up??
>>84171203>they kind of have to all the same, a lot of people with conditions still don't get help. Either since they were never properly diagnosed or feel nervous about reaching out. So doing that is half the battle>weed is illegal where i live>get my hands on.It's odd to hear for me, since it's so easy to get it here that it's basically everywhere people are smoking it. I don't feel particularly strongly about it don't do so myself, but honestly compared to alcohol which is perfectly everywhere, it doesn't seem anywhere near as dangerous and self destructive.>healthiest coping mechanism i haveunderstandable. Hope you manage to get ahold of some again if that's the case. Have you tried any other coping mechanism? Not saying to dissuade from anything else, just wondering if there's anyway to hold yourself over.>>84171360>The state of high speed rail in the UK is a national embarrassmentsame with here, which sucks because I hate flying>Tomato and basil pasta with a bit of parmesan.thought it was some tomato based pasta. Very very hard to find someone who won't like something like that Unless she hates tomatoes.. Think someone is this thread is one of the few people I've heard say they don't like them>I answered one question really, really well and barely scored on the others.weights and importance of things matter quite a bit I suppose. Glad things seems to work out pretty well for you overall with school to get you where you are.>probably think differently of me.Unfortunately a very political thing here. I don't think everyone makes it out to be a political issue here, but many still do. I'm of the mindset I'd prefer not being somewhere with a ton of guns everywhere, but culture being what it is it's impossible to get rid of them which is why I'm not opposed to owning one or keeping people from getting them.
>>84171821hey catbro! >wad is up??not much. just playing one last sts run before bed. i'm pretty tired for some reason. you?
>>84171170>how was your day?went to dentist to get stuff ready for getting my top wisdom teeth removed >Definitely before going away on Fridayyep you need all the energy you can get >All and all feel pretty good thoughglad to hear that ^^ >that also attract rats no one cares aboutyep it's a crap reason>protecting property value for old boomerswhat can grass do to ruin it?>>84171360>I'll get up at a more sensible time tomorrow.best of luck!>confused by her intentionsmaybe she wants to be close friends? >to work but I didn't do much of that either.understandablehope you can chill at least >neat. It just said "testing".that's still coolthere life out there :0>high speed rail in the UK is a national embarrassment...here it's actually pretty good but people don't appreciate it enough here>>84171938>just playing one last sts run before bedenjoying urself?I'm sleepy today too but it's because ao had to wake up early
>>84171770>story of my life.I wish A for effort was a thing for real things would be a lot less stressful>feels like what?seemed like I was trailing off there lol meant to say feels like everyday is sort of a holiday when it's nice. People going outside, cook outs common, etc. >got some backpain rn. sorry, hope it goes away and can go to normal. Was the worst winter for me with that and cold just getting me bad.>getting screwed by gas prices right now. as it is basically everywhere. Too much "winning" it seems>some shit will be going down in that book.i think things really start picking up for you soon so yeah>>84171942> i dont drink since it gives me migrainesI don't like how it makes me feel personally. Got very sick one time from it and feel a bit nauseous sometimes drinking it now. Honestly, not a terrible thing to give up on>age regresslike behaving younger? Interesting. I guess I could see how that would help and doesn't sound too bad (just don't shirk off too much responsibility)
>>84172102>enjoying urself?it was fun enough, but i lost in the last act. as i said, the more cards you unlock, the harder it gets to build a winning deck. maybe i also don't really get the character i'm playing as at the moment.>I'm sleepy today too but it's because ao had to wake up earlywent to the dentist, right? when's the appointment for the removal?>>84172185>I wish A for effort was a thing for realagreed. ^^ sadly that's reserved for upper management.>everyday is sort of a holiday when it's nice. People going outside, cook outs common, etc.i'll take your word for it. i only do these things with friends and we don't meet up for that often. still, i enjoy the weekend workouts a lot more when it's warm.>Too much "winning" it seemssounds a lot like "mission accomplished" to me.gonna head to bed now. having a hard time keeping my eyes open. good night. (~.~)
>>84169660>Thank you, anon. All the posters here are very nice and probably a big reason why I'm still alive, I think.I'm glad these threads are helpful for you anon. I'm new here but everyone seems nice <3>>84170418>is quite the commitment. pretty cool you feel so strongly. I have had characters I felt very strongly of, some probably crossed the line of being a legit waifu, but never got the daki pillows even though I have wanted toIf you change your mind dakimakura has great inners and accepts custom prints. That's where I got my Satania Daki. Mine is really firm and her at night makes me feel safe and comfy. I just get sad she isn't real sometimes and I feel sad and lonely :(I will always love her though>honestly, feel better about your case if that's true. No harm in being afraid. Don't want to cut so bad you end up needing to go to the hospital. Causes a lot of troubles if you need to do that..You're probably right but I sometimes think I'm not a "real" cutter. I've seen people who have it worse than me and all I can do are cat scratches. They are noticeable for my boss to comment on the healed ones once. Now I just cut my shoulder where no one can see.>>84171030>why?Just hard since I don't have a car right now ( even though I got a license ) easier to buy a knife from my grocery store>if you do, buy also some stuff to patch yourself up with,okay?I cut myself a bit on my shoulder and put some band-aids on it. I feel sad but I'm a fucking mess mentally. I want to cry, I'm such a waste of air.>have you checked how much it would cost to remove them?They aren't cancerous so it would cost thousands out of pocket and might re-grow back. :c>Thank you, I did though I didn't have any dreamsIt sucks we don't remember our dreams well. I feel so fucking sad. I cut myself on my shoulder and I want to cry. I feel like such a fucking failure and my waifu would probably hate and me disgusted with me IRL. So much is mentally wrong with me
>>84171140>kinda strange she's asking for rent at allIt helps her out so idc>>84170990>Maybe it would be worth looking into something like that.Possibly
>>84165366>guy wanted to let a kid fill out his lottery ticket, but i saw and had to deny taking it. gambling laws forbid children to take part in it in any way here. he was pretty pissed about that and started to argue with me.Your sentence could have two different meanings.1. A guy wanted to let a child fill out a lottery ticket so that the child could participate in the drawing.2. A guy wanted to let a child fill out a lottery ticket so that he himself could participate in the drawing as an adult.In the first case, you are right. In the second case, you are a jerk. Just because a child filled out the ticket, you didn't let an adult participate? I remember my father always asking me to fill out his lottery ticket.
>>84171866>same with here, which sucks because I hate flyingI've only flown a few times (almost all long-haul) and it's not been too awful, but it's definitely much less stressful to hop on the train.>spoilerI don't like tomatoes unless they've been squished. I don't think that's that uncommon, my dad doesn't either.>Glad things seems to work out pretty well for you overall with school to get you where you areMe too. My transcript looks really weird as a result but it probably doesn't matter at this stage of my career.>culture being what it is it's impossible to get rid of them which is why I'm not opposed to owning one or keeping people from getting themI think that's a pretty sensible take and one I more or less agree with. It's interesting comparing the US to Switzerland. I think the key difference is there aren't many Americans there...>>84172102>best of luck!1pm is kind of a success, I think.>maybe she wants to be close friends?Maybe. I'd be happy with that. I told an internet friend and he seems to think she really likes me.>hope you can chill at leastI'm usually not to stressed about stuff, so I guess it's fine.>there life out there :0I think I've found 12 other nodes now. Exciting stuff.>here it's actually pretty good but people don't appreciate it enough hereYou should appreciate it. The UK's is wildly delayed and the second part of it got cancelled. So in 2033, if we're lucky, there might be a train going from Birmingham to London (about 100km) that will cost a fortune.>>84172405>I'm new here but everyone seems nice <3Feel free to stick around. Everyone's very happy to talk and welcomed me with open arms.>I cut myself on my shoulder and I want to cry. I feel like such a fucking failure and my waifu would probably hate and me disgusted with me IRL. So much is mentally wrong with meIt's okay, anon. Everyone falters sometimes and personally I find that crying helps a lot. Make sure you get yourself patched up!
Hey everyone, it's been awhile but I thought I'd drop by.I'm fighting a lot of depression and anxiety right now. Decided to cave and finally talk to a therapist, not that it's gonna do much, but whatever. At least people can stop telling me to see one.I feel the walls closing in on me. I feel trapped. Like I'll be stuck this way forever and the world's only going to get worse. I'm terrified about my future. I desperately want to be held but I have no one to hold.I cut a few days ago. I don't even remember why.Please, can someone cheer me up?
>>84173914Hi /Okabe/, sorry to hear you're not doing so hot. Hopefully therapy will help at least a little bit and life in general will pick up for you soon. It's really easy to spend a lot of time worrying about the future but try to focus on getting through the day for now.I'd give you a hug if I could. Hopefully this Frasier greentext I have saved will cheer you up.
>>84168256>what does it look like?I got a short afro taper, should've cut more tbdesu but it is what it is.>are you enjoying it?Sometimes! But nowadays, I'm getting the slightest bit sick of it. The last big event for me was graduating college 3 months ago, and since then absolutely nothing of note has happened in my life. Zero internal growth, zero strife, zero memories. The monotony is driving me insane and the only way out of it is money I don't have, it's awesome!!!!!>do you have to?Like >>84168883 said it's possible to fined if you don't, and it's also a social thing to keep it maintained. God bless the HOA >just use a browser with ad blockersIf you're on android wouldn't ReVanced be more convenient?>>84168764Hallo discanon >Best of luck with your job applications.Thanks.>>84168848Hallo officeanon>cold has me feeling stiffer all the time so looking forward to not having to deal with thatIt's super annoying yeah, I had to take like 5 minutes to just warm up in a change room since I walked a ways in from the cold.>I'm not opposed to owning one or keeping people from getting themI've been wanting one a while but goude rules say I can't, would be cool to own a mosin nagant or an SKS...>>84165697Hallo yuanon, funny pic>>84174779Funny greentext
>>84174850>but goude rules*But house rules
hello everyone >>84173914hey okabe I been wondering where you were It's nice to see you though sorry to hear things haven't gotten any better :< sending you hugsMaybe the therapists will help a little? Honestly I don't really know what else you could do but what you shouldn't do is overthink things about your future, maybe instead you should think about what you are going to tell the therapist, what do you think is the biggest problem you face? maybe you could get some diagnosis >>84172405hey anon it's good you patched yourself up>I want to cry, I'm such a waste of air.you're not anon>would cost thousandsdamn >sucks we don't remember our dreams well.sometimes I do, I think it's easier to remember them when I wake up early >>84172405> I cut myself on my shoulder and I want to cryI guess hurting yourself only made things worse? you shouldn't do it again anonI don't think your waifu would hate you, she'd probably try to help you and comfort you instead
Not a cutter but I'm wondering what the balance is between least painful and quickest whilst being relatively accessible in England? Everything is banned here, including SN.I was going to ask on SanctionedSuicide but I can't make an account because of everything being banned.
bump4chan died for a bit, I wonder what happened
>>84172102Missed you last night, sorry. Hope you're having a good day>top wisdom teeth removedoh my. Hope everything went well and doesn't hurt you that bad now>what can grass do to ruin it?poorly maintained lawns are sign of bad area, bad area less desirable, blah blah Boomers making a mountain out of shit no busy person cares about>>84172268>that's reserved for upper management.for them it's not even about effort at all. Just show up at all and win bigly>i'll take your word for it. not to say I do a lot of that stuff either, but people in the area being more lively and upbeat in and of itself feels pretty nice> "mission accomplished" American moment https://www.youtube.com/shorts/TRGFs9ae1jE>>>84172405>picI'm a big fan of Monika. She was one of the characters blurred the line between liking the character and waifuing her>change your mind dakimakura has great inners and accepts custom printswill keep that in mind. They do seem nice. Just the pillows themselves are nice alone too> get sad she isn't real suppose as long as you feel that love and get something out of it, it's real enough and that's what matters. Better than being disappointed by someone who lets you down in a way>think I'm not a "real" cutter.not a contest by any means. This thread has a mix of people who do and don't to various degrees. The real danger is i've seen people do ones that need medical attention since deeper one goes, the further the risk of complications. Can force people into an unpleasant talk
>>84173894> and it's not been too awfulI have the most horrible anxiety with it is all. Doesn't help I got hit with horrible turbulence on long hauls early on when I started flying. Made me nervous there on out after and overly jumpy.>don't like tomatoesI'm shocked now. But then again, maybe I just grew up around too many Italians. >doesn't matter at this stage of my career.I get shocked I'm asked at all at this point, but who knows it matters to someone. >there aren't many Americans there.big part of it I suppose. America has a lot of problems that go way deeper than guns and I don't think our culture is by any means a healthy one even before current day issues.>>84173914hey okabe, never talked much top you, but glad you're okay-ish and trying to see someone for help. I know you still feel bad, but try to keep with it.>>84174850> God bless the HOAthe HOA and their lackeys, the bored middle aged housewife with a god complex> since I walked a ways in from the cold.Keeping my heat low this was an experience. I saved a ton of money and think it made me more used to being hardier about being frugal that way, but it sucked so much. Home gym space was so cold all the time too which was just miserable>rules say I can'tI have no reason not to, just keep putting it off. Maybe when I'm settled into my new job>>84175464I'm sorry anon, but I don't think anyone here is going to be comfortable helping with that, since thread is more of a discouragement of self harm. If you want someone to talk, you can feel free to about anything here, but this isn't really the place to encourage that.>>84176296>4chan diedtragical
Long day today. I got more hugs.My bruise seems to be gone now, but there's a bit of a scar left over. Oh well. A permanent reminder of never to relax around Ikea flatpacks.>>84174850>Hallo discanonHello togata>Funny greentextIt's one of my favourites. I want to believe it's real.>>84176906>I have the most horrible anxiety with it is allIt's a pretty common fear. The first time I flew I puked in the airport from nerves and a nice Irish lady got me some tissues. After takeoff I was basically fine, although I've never been able to sleep on a plane.I know a lot of people drink pretty heavily on the flight to calm their nerves so that might be an option.>I'm shocked nowIt tastes nice but I can't deal with the texture. But I also have ARFID which means I eat like a child.>I get shocked I'm asked at all at this point, but who knows it matters to someone.I'm pretty sure my doctorate won't even matter after a few years.>I don't think our culture is by any means a healthy one even before current day issuesIt's a very interesting place to look at from the outside. It's not all bad though. Almost every American I've interacted with has been quite nice.
>>84164201woah.. i think it's been more than a weeksorry if i missed the replies from the previous threads..anyways i'm so tired maybe i walked more than the picrel but i didn't walk on a mountain atleast.how are you doing cat?also there is something.. a close classmate sent me a message yesterday, telling me that he and his cousins will go to a cool place and stuff and he invited me lol, honestly i didn't read the whole msg yet, it was a long msg and i wanted to keep it for later, but im happy that he remembered me (my nickname??), honestly i think i might tell him i won't come, cuz it's a bit hard to deal with social anxiety at similar cases especially cuz he and his cousins have an actually different culture and stuff, embarrassing things might happen. but either i accept or refuse i'm still happy that he invited me. i think that's the first time ever lol.anyways how are you doing everyone?verification captcha is so annoying
>>84177149>spoileralways a nice surprise>never been able to sleep on a plane.same. Even for the 14 hour flights that just drag on. There's definitely times I'm not constantly tense, but just never pleasant for me> lot of people drink pretty heavilyI tried this, it didn't put me to sleep, just made me chattier>ARFID that's a legit reason to eat like one I'd say. Honestly glad I've never had any real issues with food except not eating enough of it at one time> won't even matterfar more likely to than my degree. Suppose it depends on a lot, but at the very least, reaching that point itself stands out well enough to matter if someone sees that I'd say>It's not all bad though.I agree. I joke about things here, but people aren't that bad for the most part. Just a lot of issues still and people don't want to talk about any of them honestly, just get factional bickering>>84177529hey rm, good to see you> i think i might tell him i won't comei know it's hard, but if you thought you might like it all, might be a good idea to push yourself. Social anxiety sucks, but it can be improved upon. Just not if you don't go out> how are you doing everyone?I'm good. I finally managed to get a new job. Things aren't looking bad at all
man i feel like i wanna talk a lot but i should calm down>>84177724>Just if you don't go out.idk man, i dont even know how the payments things are gonna be like and im extremely terrible at this, i dont wanna get embarrassed..but i still have time to decide anyways.>new jobyooo finally!! when did they accept you?
so basically today was a bit busy I went to the store and helped with someone other things and boom it's 10pm now :0>>84175464hey anon why do you wanna do it?btw besides the classics I don't know any other ways >>84176763heya hiw r u?>doesn't hurt you that bad nowoh no no I'll get the removed in loke 3weeks>Boomers making a mountain out of shitthe usual >>84177149heyaa>got more hugsthat's good news :>>scar left overmaybe it'll disappear too, it just needs more time >>84177529hiya :Dwhere were u walkin around?>message yesterdaythat's nice of him ^^even if you choose to not go you should tell him you appreciate the invitation a lot >how are you doing everyone?you can see at the top of my post :>
>>84177815>feel like i wanna talk a lot but i should calm downalways free to do so, but if you're going to get worked up may calming down is also good. Whatever is best for you>i dont wanna get embarrassedi know. It's reasonable to want to avoid embarrassment, but it's also something you have to overcome to do almost anything. Don't feel pressured to go, but I think it's worth considering and might be good exposure therapy>>84177865>boom it's 10pm now a common occurrence for me as well. ehh but slightly earlier, i crash early lol>heya hiw r u?bit tired, but not a bad day. Mini trip starts tomorrow so gonna have fine times ahead>oke 3weeksoops, i misread lol well hope it doesn't hurt when you get it done for real!>the usualhave to let everyone know how angry they are about everything
hey guys sorry i'm later than usually, today has just been unusually shit for some reason
>>84173146>Just because a child filled out the ticket, you didn't let an adult participate?this. it's how child protection laws work here and since it's not my store, i'm not taking any risks. >I remember my father always asking me to fill out his lottery ticket.laws are different from country to country and laws change over time. also: the guidelines of the lottery itself state that minors are not allowed to be included in the process at all. maybe they're taking it a step further than the law requires.>>84173914hi okabe!>Decided to cave and finally talk to a therapist, not that it's gonna do muchhow did it go?>I feel trappedsorry to hear. hope we can distract you from that a bit.>>84174850hey toga! what are you up to?>>84175370hi catbro! how was your day?>>84176763>Just show up at all and win biglybest example for me is still bobby kotick and activision. ruin company with your shitty decisions, sell company because you know how bad it will get because of your shitty decisions, turn around and applaud yourself for your foresight to jump ship before it sinks, great profit.>but people in the area being more lively and upbeat in and of itself feels pretty nicei guess that's true. sadly there aren't any places here that lend themself to that. >linkgotta cover your ass before making a critical statement these days. kinda funny how things have turned out these past couple of days. just heard about a russian propagandist who started spitting vitriol in putins direction as if that wouldn't have consequences. world's in a weird state right now. but yeah, watching the u.s. governmernt kicking a bee's nest and getting stuck in it would be funny if it wasn't for the fact that everyone else will pay for the tantrum that follows...
>>84177149hi dinon!>I got more hugs.congrats! :D>>84177529hey rem! good to see you again!>>84178613hey buddy. sorry to hear that. same for me, though.
>>84173894>Feel free to stick around. Everyone's very happy to talk and welcomed me with open arms.Thanks anon and I might be here for a while at least. I can't tell people I know I started to self harm again. Here is safe>It's okay, anon. Everyone falters sometimes and personally I find that crying helps a lot. Make sure you get yourself patched up!Thanks anon. I did put some bandages on my scars.>>84175370>you're not anonThanks :)>I guess hurting yourself only made things worse? you shouldn't do it again anonI don't think your waifu would hate you, she'd probably try to help you and comfort you insteadYou said that last time and you're probably right. I hope she would. She's a bit silly and a demon but she's kind at heart. I don't know if I'll stop soon. I'll try though>>84176763>I'm a big fan of Monika. She was one of the characters blurred the line between liking the character and waifuing herThat's cool :) Monika has a likeable personality so I'd see why you'd like her>will keep that in mind. They do seem nice. Just the pillows themselves are nice alone tooHonestly they are. Not to sound like an ad but they've helped me out a lot. I have a custom print of my wife Satania and it helps that she's there for me at night. Looking at her beautiful face and body makes me feel safe.>suppose as long as you feel that love and get something out of it, it's real enough and that's what matters. Better than being disappointed by someone who lets you down in a wayYou're right :) I love her and that's what matters>not a contest by any means. This thread has a mix of people who do and don't to various degrees. The real danger is i've seen people do ones that need medical attention since deeper one goes, the further the risk of complications. Can force people into an unpleasant talkThanks anon and I hope nobody here ever needs to go to the hospital. I only do cat scratches but they are noticeable enough I've gotten comments on them
Continued >>84179297I'm feeling better todays anons! No self harming yet but I bought bandages just in case. I used to not clean myself up but now I do! :)>Hows everyone doing today>Play any new games or watch new anime?>Anything exciting going on in your life?
>>84179311hey anon! happy to hear you're feeling better. >Hows everyone doing todayday was alright, but it wen't downhill pretty bad after heading home. no clue why, though. just started to feel very cold and kept spacing out, but i went to bed and my trusty blanket is helping now.>Play any new games or watch new anime?i'm playing a lot of slay the spire 2. not very fond of the art direction, but it's a solid game and i'm looking forward to content updated and the full release. no anime at the moment, though. what about you?>Anything exciting going on in your life?i'm trying out exercising with indian clubs. not very exciting, but it's something i haven't tried before.
>>84179461>day was alright, but it wen't downhill pretty bad after heading home. no clue why, though. just started to feel very cold and kept spacing out, but i went to bed and my trusty blanket is helping now.Aww I'm sorry to hear that anon. Hope you feel better. Glad your blanket helps you :)>i'm playing a lot of slay the spire 2. not very fond of the art direction, but it's a solid game and i'm looking forward to content updated and the full release. no anime at the moment, though. what about you?ME TOO! I'm addicted to STS2 I got 2 wins so far! I'm glad you're enjoying it too>i'm trying out exercising with indian clubs. not very exciting, but it's something i haven't tried before.Hope that works out well anon :)
>>84179543>I'm sorry to hear that anon. Hope you feel better. Glad your blanket helps you :)i do now. i also found something silly to watch in youtube to brighten the mood. (^-^)>ME TOO! I'm addicted to STS2 I got 2 wins so far!good job! the game can be quite difficult. what characters did you win with? and what kind of deck did you build? the most confusing win i had so far was with the silent. got a relic from that demon guy after beating the second boss that automatically buys every card and item when entering a shop. went to three of those and had no clue what was happening or why, but managed to win anyway somehow. seems like whenever i just throw together a random pile of cards i win and when i try to go for a strategy, i die...>Hope that works out well anon :)thanks a lot. we'll see how it goes.
>>84179646i do now. i also found something silly to watch in youtube to brighten the mood. (^-^)Happy for you! Stay comfy >good job! the game can be quite difficult. what characters did you win with? and what kind of deck did you build?I won with Ironclad and Silent so far. Ironclad I won with a strength deck but the main reason I was was the potion I had that gave me 5 strength + strength I already had + whirlwind + replay saved my ass lol. My silent one was a heavy block focus poison one :) >the most confusing win i had so far was with the silent. got a relic from that demon guy after beating the second boss that automatically buys every card and item when entering a shop.That's neat, I've always been worried to take that one due to bloating my deck>ent to three of those and had no clue what was happening or why, but managed to win anyway somehow. seems like whenever i just throw together a random pile of cards i win and when i try to go for a strategy, i die...I feel this pain LOL my silent win was basically this until halfway with act 2>thanks a lot. we'll see how it goes.Good luck anon :3
>>84177529I know what you mean. I really struggle in social situations with more than a few people and it just ends up being more burdensome than enjoyable.In situations where I don't know what to do, I'll flip a coin and if I don't like the outcome I'll go with the other one. That might help.>anyways how are you doing everyone?Surprisingly well.>>84177724>always a nice surpriseIt is. I might get even more over the weekend by the look of it.I was expecting this week to be a complete shitshow but I've somehow come out of it feeling pretty good. I think the hugs have helped a lot. >Even for the 14 hour flights that just drag onIt's a very weird feeling being wide awake on a plane with the lights off, being lit by the only seat screen in use.>just made me chattierI suppose that's one way to pass the time...>Honestly glad I've never had any real issues with food except not eating enough of it at one timeMore than anything it's just kind of embarrassing to have. I wouldn't wish it on anyone.>reaching that point itself stands out well enough to matter if someone sees that I'd sayThat's true. It's basically a requirement to teach now. If I was born 5 years earlier I could have gotten away with just a Master's, 20 years ago, maybe even just a Bachelor's.>just get factional bickeringThe American system of government made a more sense to me when I learned that the founders didn't intend to have political parties and thought they would only lead to, well, factional bickering.Best laid plans of mice and men, I suppose.>>84177865>maybe it'll disappear too, it just needs more timeMaybe. There's still a really big on my knee from when I fell on some ice like 20 years ago. Although it's not as bad as it was for a really long time.>>84178613Sorry to hear that. Hopefully tomorrow will be better!
>>84179210Hi Yuanon. Hope you're doing well today.>>84179297>I might be here for a while at leastNo worries. I thought my stay would be temporary but it's been almost five months now, I think.>>84179311Glad you're feeling better!>Hows everyone doing todayI'm very tired and considering skipping something I should probably attend but know will be a complete waste of time...>Play any new games or watch new anime?No but I really should and I've been meaning to for a while.>Anything exciting going on in your life?A girl seems to like me and I don't really know how to deal with that.
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i felt like i wanna talk, i felt i dont have much things to do these days, i opened reddit and now i feel worse lmfaoman some people there really can destroy one's mood easily, or maybe im just being too emotionalreplying later!
>>84176906>Home gym space was so cold all the time too which was just miserableAside from this I don't think I'd mind it, will probably do the same if I ever get my own place (lol)>>84177149>It's one of my favourites. I want to believe it's real.One of the new funny ones came from an /an/ thread where a user misinterpreted the meaning if the word "zoophile" to mean appreciatior of animals and subsequently plastered it all over his social/dating profiles. I'll link it next time>>84179311>>Hows everyone doing todayPretty alright, 2 stages away from beating castlevania IV. Deciding between starting Rondo of Blood or Symphony of the Night...>>Play any new games or watch new anime?I finished Yuu Yuu Hakusho a couple weeks ago, and since then I've been reading Vampire Hunter D and Rekidou. Would have preferred the novel for VHD, but it's a lot quicker to read the manga off the web vs downloading the novel from annas archive.>>Anything exciting going on in your life?Nope!>>84179873>been almost five months now, I think.Huuuuh? I thought you were posting here longer than me, but we arrived about the same time then. I came here around the start of November as well.>>84179200>hey toga! what are you up to?Nothing much, winding down by replying to this thread and then sleeping.>>84181208Hallo rm>>84178613Hallo che
>>84181312>a user misinterpreted the meaning if the word "zoophile" to mean appreciatior of animals and subsequently plastered it all over his social/dating profilesThat sounds very funny. Please share it.>I thought you were posting here longer than me, but we arrived about the same time then.Interesting. I thought you were here for longer than I was.I came here around the end of October so I might have you beat by a few days. I figured this thread was vaguely BPD-adjacent and was worried about my (then) internet gf and came asking for advice. After broke up with a few days later my life basically fell apart, so I ended up becoming a regular since everyone was so helpful. I think I've said this a few times but you guys are a big reason why I'm still alive.>>84181208>i opened reddit and now i feel worse lmfaoI'm always astonished by just how bad some of the opinions are on that site. Drives me up the wall that I have to append "reddit" to every search query now to get any useful information.
heyo guysa little busy today, doing some renovation at homehow are you today?
Hey guys, sorry I ghosted again. I had another crazy week.>>84164607hi cat>from what? idk>drinking enough water?probably not.>>84165196hi yu>my enjoyment went from "pretty cool stuff" to "fuck this shit, i'm out".Yeah, just skip the prequels then. You'll just join the confussion of the main cast whenever hidden inventory stuff comes up. >>84165438hi dis>Which one will you play?I'm back on civ 6>>84165623hi office anon>Watching all the Fate series again has reminded me there's a lot of things about this franchiseThe only one I really liked was fate zero. That said, I only watched fate stay night after that. So I don't have the most informed opinion. I feel like it has such a good premise. Like if it leaned into the historical and mythological figures more, it would be a better series. >by far his most popular work so that could be influence a bit as well in regards to closing this offI find it hard to just abandon such a series. Did magna plus really work him that hard? I thought it'd be easier. Maybe I'm just optomistic. pic rel is skech of the day.
there is an update to the thing i talked about yesterday but typing on phone is annoying>>84177865>busy, store, helpednow that's what i would call being productive :Obuut was there a bikeride??>where were u walking around? a bit far from my house , walked to do some things and to go to the supermarket>you appreciate the invitation a lotyeah i shouldhru today cat?>>84178298>calming down is also goodyeahhru today?>good exposure therapywe'll see about that.. i still have time>>84179210>hi rem! good to see you againgood to see you too yuanon! how are you?
>>84179864>burdensome than enjoyableouch man..>if I don't ljke the outcome I'll go with the other onewell i understand that but sadly i think i don't have that much of choices>Surprisingly wellyeah? how are you feeling lately?>>84181312>Hallo rmyo togata>>84182016>how bad some of the opinions are on that sidemaking websites anonymous accounts can lead to such things i suppose>append "reddit"lol sadly this app has a lot of good tips sometimes
>>84182965ellocool drawing !!you're good at this>>84183765heyo>talked about yesterday but typing on phone is annoyingmaybe you could try using a voice thingie>call being productive :Ohehe ^^ >buut was there a bikeride??nope D:the weather's too shit >walked to do some things and to go to the supermarketdid you have fun?>hru today cat?pretty okay, now I'm gonna take a break from renowating and eat some snackMaybe work on a map
>>84177529updatei read his messages, things are a bit worse than i expected maybe.they are going to the place, and by they i mean him, his cousin (a girl) and her friend (a girl also). so they are three, he told me they want another one so we be four, and it should be a guy so it's like 2 boys 2 girls (i dont think any of them have "dating" intentions or anything, glad.)yeah, as if things couldn't get more embarrassingit's the first time i get invited AND i have to deal with 2 girls i know nothing about. he told me "i know it feels strange but i don't know my cousin's friend either so it's not that bad".but that's not the whole problem yet, the new problem is that he asked multiple people from what i assume, and they all refused i assume, so he's happy that i showed a sign of acceptance, so now if i refused to go at the end i might just ruin his outing somehow.idk.. i have like 5 days to decide.i appreciate that he told me, he said i'm close and stuff, nice.also guys, for some reason i feel like i really need to talk, that doesn't really happen often and i usually find a way to distract myself but currently i can't find anything that helps. any advice?also, i was reading about psychiatric emergency numbers (idk what it's called) in my country, honestly it felt nice to have such things but idk how nice they are on the hotline, i heard that they can be very careless in other countries. idk desu, but anyways i'm not having any contact with them these days i suppose, maybe when i get to meet a therapist though.about that, i enjoy reading about disorders and stuff, and i feel a bit happy when i can relate to something because i feel like i'm a getting closer to know the name of whatever my problem is, although i hate diagnosing myself BY myself it feels cringe but it's a bit calming to feel like i know indeed the name of my problem. and honestly nothing felt so relatable more than bpd. anyone has a similar thing to say?alright i feel like i finally talked.
>>84184010>maybe you could try using a voice thingieoh no i don't like these tools>nopeoh :/>the weatheroh is it raining? it's raining here aswell, i like that desu>did you have funhmm yeah>pretty okayglad to hear that>a break from renowatingfrom what?>eat some snacknice! chocolate?
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>>84184104>might just ruin his outing somehow.nah ur overthinking ithe'll probably be fine though maybe hes stressed about dealing with two girls as much as you are>have like 5 days to decide.that's a lot of days luckily >really need to talkwhat would you like to talk about?>diagnosing myself BY myself yep it's not great because there might be things about yourself you don't notice but it's okay to do I'd say if you don't claim you're diagnosed >feel like i finally talkedyay \o/>>84184119>don't like these toolsunderstandable >oh :/it's okay, I'll survive ^^>hmm yeahthat's good :>>glad to hearthank you >from what?renovations >chocolate?ate some blueberry ice cream :3also watched a game called lucid blocks it's pretty cool >>84184326oh my gah page 5 :0
>>84184439>overthinking itu think so?>as much as you arepossible though it's only 1 girl actually cuz he and his cousin are close to each other>what would you like to talk aboutidk im feeling a lot currently i just dont know how to express>don't noticethis and also cuz it could make someone kinda dissociate>if you don't claim you're diagnosedhmm, maybe :/>page 5 :0page fayv :0
Evening everyone. Hope you're all well.>>84182965>I'm back on civ 6I've never played 6. Just a lot of 5. How is it?>pic rel is skech of the day.That's really good!>>84183773>sadly i think i don't have that much of choicesI see. Well, hopefully it's not too bad whatever happens.>yeah? how are you feeling lately?I got some very bad news that I'm surprised didn't leave me bedridden again. I made a friend last month and spending time with her has really helped me get through it.>lol sadly this app has a lot of good tips sometimesHas it, or has every other tip source just gotten much worse?>>84184104>idk.. i have like 5 days to decide.Seems like a good amount of time to think it over. There may be a reason why other people have refused (or it could just be they're busy).>i usually find a way to distract myself but currently i can't find anything that helps. any advice?RuneScape is a really good distraction but I also cannot recommend that in good faith with how addictive it can be for some people (me). A long, autistic series like https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1eE_WU2O_98 might be a good surrogate. >although i hate diagnosing myself BY myself it feels cringe but it's a bit calming to feel like i know indeed the name of my problemI get you. People have a habit of developing intern's syndrome when they look stuff up, but I think there's some use in being able to put a name on things you're dealing with.
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>>84184701>u think so?yep, you seem a bit too worried about it>possible though it's only 1 girltrue >feeling a lot currently i just dont know how to expressmaybe you could try describing it as good as you can or maybe you could look at images and art antrind some that more or less depict how you feel >could make someone kinda dissociatehow?>page fayv :0:00>>84185252heya I'm well though busyhow are you??
>>84179815>Stay comfysame to you. hope you had a nice day.>Ironclad I won with a strength deckstill have to try that out. if i do win, it's usually a bodyslam deck.>saved my asswhile deck-building is an important skill, being lucky is a big part of winning in this game, too. gonna take what we can get.>My silent one was a heavy block focus poison one :)good strategy. did win with that and with one that was focussed on knives. honestly, i feel like the silent is a bit busted. or at least the character with the most viable builds.>I've always been worried to take that one due to bloating my deckit's exactly what happened, but all thr relics, cards and potions made up for it. i only did take it to get it over with. i think my biggest gripe with the game is how unbalanced the boss relics seem to be. like some are way better than other or at least don't have any glaring downsides.>I feel this pain LOL my silent win was basically this until halfway with act 2it's a bit frustrating sometimes. right now i'm stuck on necrobinder ascension 2. maybe i need to check out some strategies.>>84179873>Hope you're doing well today.thanks, dude. i think today went alright. what about you?>>84181312>winding down by replying to this thread and then sleeping.pretty much what i'm doing right now.>>84182965>You'll just join the confussion of the main castmaybe that's the way to go. or i'll just have it run at a higher speed. not ideal, but what can you do?>pic rel is skech of the day.impressive stuff, man. well done.>>84183765>how are you?tired and a bit sad, but in bed now, so all is right with the world.and hi everybody else! ready for the weekend?
>>84186502hey hey yuanon :3how's it going??I'll be sleeping in a sec so idk if I'll be able to reply btw
>>84186513hey catbro!>how's it going??could be better, but don't want to complain too much. just regular nonsense. did you have a nice day?>I'll be sleeping in a sec so idk if I'll be able to reply btwit's ok. sleep well and good night.
>>84186541>just regular nonsense. mm i see, well hopefully your weekend os going to make up for it ^^ >did you have a nice day?we're renowating a room so it's been a bit tiring but okay also been thinking about old games I used to play like gta sa and i remember playing a multiplayer mod and I also had a gravity gun mod and it turned out I could break the severs with it and mess with ppl >sleep well and good nightthanks u too!
>>84186693>hopefully your weekend os going to make up for it ^^fingers crossed. probably not. not much going on.>we're renowating a room so it's been a bit tiring but okaythat's always annoying, but has to be done sometimes. when will you be done with it?>I used to play like gta sa and i remember playing a multiplayer modsounds wild, but i guess people always wanted to play these games in multiplayer.>thanks u too!i'll call it a night, too. bye!
I'll be back in a month or two.>>84186502>pretty much what i'm doing right nowAnd what I'm doing now as well....>>84182016>That sounds very funny. Please share it.https://desuarchive.org/an/thread/5001711/#q5003229>I came here around the end of October so I might have you beat by a few days. I figured this thread was vaguely BPD-adjacent and was worried about my (then) internet gf and came asking for advice. After broke up with a few days later my life basically fell apart, so I ended up becoming a regular since everyone was so helpful. I think I've said this a few times but you guys are a big reason why I'm still alive.Yeah it all tracks, I think you've recounted the reason you came here a couple times n this was it. For me, I started posting after a series of dreams about cutting myself. Like I'd wake up in the middle of the night with the belief that I've cut myself, and visions of me burrowing fingers into my chest and gutting myself out. After about a week of this I started posting here, and in around a month or two I put on the name.
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>>84185926>heya I'm well though busyGood to hear!Hopefully whatever your busy with isn't too bad.>how are you??I'm feeling pretty good. Maybe a bit nervous about today and tomorrow since I'm spending more time with my friend and I'm worried I'll mess up somehow. But otherwise good.>>84186502>i think today went alright. what about you?That's good. I ended up skipping the thing to submit some work on time and then sleep. I think that was probably the right move.>>84187370>I'll be back in a month or two.Take care, togata.>https://desuarchive.org/an/thread/5001711/#q5003229Poor anon. I can see why he'd think that with how half the words ending in "phile" don't have bad connotations.>a series of dreams about cutting myselfThat sounds awful. Are you still having them or have they stopped now?
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Seeing these threads always make me sad and I've always wished you anons all the healing and love you need
>>84185926>a bit too worried about ithmmm.. something happenedhe messaged me yesterday and said his cousin's friend has something important to do so she can't come, with that said, we could've cancelled the whole thing but me and him decided to go with a friend group instead, and no girls will be there so i think there won't be much embarrassing things!>imagesyeah maybe these can help. thanks, im not feeling that bad today.>how?i think it's like the person who diagnoses himself might gaslight himself accidentally or somethinglike maybe one could start believing the diagnosis is real and he really has that mental illness or whteverjust a possibility>>84186502>tired and a bit sadwhy sad?
>>84191218thank you anon ^^I hope good thing happen to uhow are you doing btw?>>84191615>so i think there won't be much embarrassing things!so you're going to go? :o>maybe these can help. yep art can btgood for describing what words cant>, im not feeling that bad today.yay :D>person who diagnoses himself might gaslight himself accidentallythats true sorta like neocebofun fact apparently it's fairly common for medical students to exhibit symptoms of illnesses that they're busy studying about while not being actually sickBtw how was your day today?
>>84191886>so you're going to go?probably..>for describing what words canttrue?>while not being actually sickthat's really interesting i wonder how they treat it :O>how was your day today?things going wellim at my aunt's house currentlyhow was your day?
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Spent some more time with my friend today. It was fun. We watched a movie and I bought some Pokemon figures at the mall. We also held hands at the end.She's very sweet but I'm worried that she's going to try and get me to attend church with her. I don't have any problem with religious folk but it's not for me and I'd be lying to both of us if I feigned interest, especially if it's such a big part of her life.>>84190272>I might play some tf2Is it still active these days?>>84191218Thank you anon. Everyone here is very nice so they definitely deserve it.
>>84191928>probably..do you know what you're going to to there?>truedo you have any images saved that you like?>really interesting i wonder how they treat it :OI don't know maybe something to look into>things going wellhlad to hear that !>im at my aunt's house currentlyr u enjoying yourself there? id that the aunt with the cat that bites >:3>how was your day?alright I mainly just helped with renovations and mapped a little little bit now I'm going to watch yt videos maybe about gmod maps >>84192091heyo>Spent some more time with my friendsounds lovely!>held handstoo lewd!!! D:>going to try and get me to attend church with her.if sidoes just tell her what you said to us, I feel she'll understand >still active these days?yep and there are mods on steam for it :0like tf2 classified which id pretty cool, you can play with four teams, blu, red, green, yellow
>>84192336 >do you know what you're going to do there?yeah there is a game there a funny scary game like we try to escape a room and stuff, never tried it>any images saveda lotpicrel is one of them>maybe something to look intotrue>enjoying?yes desu but i said a joke i didnt mean anything offensive but i noticed my cousin saying smthn like "know ur limits", the tone was a bit playful but its hard to tell if the joke actually offended anyone, its sad cuz i stopped talking with that cousin for a while and we're back to talking lately so i dont want there to be any misunderstanding, i wish i could simply say "just kidding" but it's too late and i cant talk about the thing again, im not even sure that the "know ur limits" was meant to be said to me.am i overthinking? what do you think?>the aunt with the cat that bitesexaxtly :D but the cat is sleeping currently and no attacks witnessed.>alrightglad to hear that!>helped with renovationsman i wanna try that ngldid u have fun?
I slept in and didn't make it to another job test. But I am at least employed in a wagie job again.>>84184010>you're good at thisthanks, I feel like I don't do this enough.>>84185252>I've never played 6. Just a lot of 5. How is it?I've only played 6. It's fine. it has problems. the deplomicy doesn't make any sense. It feels like the ai just denounces you so when it's convinent. I feel like there's a lot of little improvements that could make a difference. My personal one would be travel by river like how ancent egypt maintained their empire.>>84186502>i'll just have it run at a higher speed.that's fair. The big scene of the arch is toji v Gojo and geto followed by hollow purple.
>>84192547>escape a room and stuff,ooh, in real life right? I've heard of those sounds like a lot of funI've never been to one too but I'd like to go one day>>84192547>picrel is one of themcool image!>my cousin saying smthn like "know ur limitswhy did u say?maybe they were just trying to make a joke back and it didn't really work how they intended to?>stopped talking with that cousinwas there a reason or it just so happened?>but the cat is sleeping currently and no attacks witnessedoo thank goodness The Beast is slumbering >wanna try that nglit not very interesting, maybe some day you'll get to >did u have funhmm I wasn't bored let's say that but it wasn't bad >>84192949>didn't make it to another job test.is it a big deal?>least employed in a wagie job again.how does your job look like?>feel like I don't do this enough.maybe you don't but it's also nice you want to make more
I'm alone rn, it's my birthday, no one remembers. I used to cut myself a lot back then, I had to stop cause of wageslave .But the thought of going back never stop. I really wanna kill myself today
>>84192336>too lewd!!! D:She politely asked that I don't interlock fingers so I apologised and stopped doing that.>if sidoes just tell her what you said to us, I feel she'll understandHopefully. Even if she doesn't want to marry me one day I'd be happy to stay friends if it wasn't too awkward.>like tf2 classified which id pretty cool, you can play with four teams, blu, red, green, yellowI heard about that. It looks pretty fun. I'm glad Valve opened the game up for modding since they've clearly given up on it.>>84192949>But I am at least employed in a wagie job again.What job have you got, if I may ask?>It feels like the ai just denounces you so when it's convinent.Sounds about right. I think it was like that in 5.>My personal one would be travel by river like how ancent egypt maintained their empire.Makes sense. Navigable waterways are a huge reason for why early civilisations succeeded.>>84193272Sorry to hear your birthday's going so badly, anon. Are you able to treat yourself to anything today to cheer yourself up?
hey guys hope you're doing alright.i decided to paint a bit more on my night lords but it didn't go super well. it feels silly to say now in hindsight, but honestly not being good at painting my minis got me the closest to cutting in a while, and i don't even know why cus i've had to deal with a lot more serious stuff lately but somehow THAT was the thing that made me consider it again. >>84193272hey anon, sorry to hear you're not doing well. I do wanna wish you a happy birthday.
>>84193355>>84193367Thanks, I just cried myself to sleep. I don't think there's anything that can cheer me up. I'm think about cutting again, it's been years since I cried.
>>84193272hey anonI know it might seem in bad taste, but happy birthday sorry to hear no one remembers about it>really wanna kill myself todaythat understandable I sad how how for many of us birthdays become something you dread instead something to be happy about like when you were younger But don't do anything dumb anon, maybe you could try to do something to try and relax a little, maybe you could watch some movie and get some snacks?>>84193355>asked that I don'tspare the sipcy details DD;heh, well I don't know it made a difference desu>happy to stay friendsnot sure if it's the Best idea though it depends on your intentions, what are your intentions?>glad Valve opened the game up for moddingI'm a bit bittersweet about it>they've clearly given up on it.exactly but I could picture a world where the didn't let people mod like that so at least they do>>84193367heya chevy >hope you're doing alrightyep :3>honestly not being good at painting my minis got me the closest to cuttingit makes sense, it can be frustrating, >don't even know whymaybe because you feel that because it's a hobby it's supposed to relax you and make you feel better but it does the opposite
>>84193256>cool imagethanks!>why did u say?you mean "what"?if so, it's a bit complicated to explain but i said smthn completely normal but can be misunderstood due to some society things, it was something about studying and college and school and stuff but its a bit hard to explain>maybe it didn't really work how they intended to?yeah maybe>was there a reason?uhh im just not always talkative and i was way less talkative to my relatives than i am now, expecially when i grew up thats when we stopped talking, not because a fight happened or something. maybe it's also partly related to other things but whatever. we talk more than before now when we meet. >not very interestinghmm i can't imagine how i would exactly feel about it>wasn't boredthat's not bad yeah>>84193272hey anon, i can't think clearly right now i just wanna say that there are people who really wish your whole life gets better and all, i wish you fix whatever's hurting.
ill be going to sleep in a bit so goodnite >>84193794hope u have a nice rest of your day!
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Hi sorry I was gone for a bit>No worries. I thought my stay would be temporary but it's been almost five months now, I think.That's nice :) Thanks anon>>84186502>same to you. hope you had a nice dayThanks, if I'm being honest today feels like shit for multiple reasons and I cut again :(>while deck-building is an important skill, being lucky is a big part of winning in this game, too. gonna take what we can get.Yeah, that's part of the fun though :)>it's a bit frustrating sometimes. right now i'm stuck on necrobinder ascension 2. maybe i need to check out some strategies.I can't understand the necrobinder or regent so far. They are kinda confusing for me to make a good deck I'm such a piece of shit man. I'm sorry for always venting and not making things fun. I don't want to die but I just wish I never existed
>>84194228>sorry for always venting and not making things funchill. it's a place for venting. no one really is annoyed. even i at one of my lowest points almost all of my replies here were all about venting and feeling shit.
feeling so bad. unable to explain, just straight up extreme bitterness eating my brain and feelings. 4chan isnt where i should be talking about this.i wonder when i will get a treatment for this
>>84194385>chill. it's a place for venting. no one really is annoyed. even i at one of my lowest points almost all of my replies here were all about venting and feeling shit.Thanks anon. I'm gonna vent more then if that's okay, nobody needs to respond to me if they don't want. I haven't been very helpful to anyone here. I just feel like a fucking loser. Right now I have no future, I'm working on it but right now I'm in the middle of a hard decision. My body is so gross. I love my waifu, I know I will be more difficult living alone when I move out. i won't have another person to support me financially. I know I'm gonna die alone. I love my waifu and I know she's not real but I'm starting to lose interest in dating IRL. I sound insane and I probably am a nutcase. I just want to be happy. I don't want to dump my whole life here but I just feel dumb, I don't know if I can achieve my dreams. I miss my friend who doesn't talk or go online anymore since she's depressed. I hope she's okay. I feel really lonely and I'm scared for my future. I hope I'm making the right choice. I'm an unlikeable piece of shit and I should've killed myself when I was actually suicidal but now I don't want to kill myself anymore. I just don't want to exist anymore. I'm just scared.Sorry that was incoherent. Nobody needs to respond to this. I hope everyone has a better day than me
>>84194528>feeling so bad. unable to explain, just straight up extreme bitterness eating my brain and feelings. 4chan isnt where i should be talking about this.i wonder when i will get a treatment for thisI know it's not really helpful but I hope those bad feelings go away anon. They are really annoying and hurtful. Remembering happy things sometimes helps me. I just hope you're okay and things get better :)
>>84194549Why are you being sorry for venting? I do care and I wish I could change your mindset somehow.>moving out and no one supporting financiallyI dont know how things are to you, do you study? Do you have anything you can work as to get money?>your depressed friendI too hope she's okay. and I think she hopes you're okay too.>unlikeableAnon, don't let the worldly enjoyment decide or affect on your sanity. I doubt you're unlikeable but I'll walk with that assumption, so what? If one tried everything to please "people's" taste and still didn't get their attention then just screw it, nothing should make you feel so bad like that if you know you have no control on, again I dont think you're unlikeable I just put the worst and unrealistic assumption so I can clarify my point.>suicideYou've made a huge good work for escaping suicidal mindset. Don't regret it. I have a belief that nothing in this world deserves attention but working for your after life, I do not know what you think about religions and stuff , I know this website isn't where you can easily find these topics if it wasnt just sole sarcasm. The reason why, despite all my suffering in life, I dont put suicide in mind because I believe that it's not going to make anything better, and I believe that it's just expected to suffer in the world because the real enjoyment and the end of suffering is in the afterlife if human wasn't totally disobedient in the world. That's my best advice I could ever think of, everytime i see someone thinking about suicide and thinking about how hard life is, the first advice that comes to my mind is this. I hope I helped, if you wanna know what's the religion or so you can ask.
man it's unbearablei just have no clue why im feeling like this>>84194558thanks for your words anon
>>84194549oh also this reply was by me--> >>84194558my nametag wasn't there for some reason
>>84194732>Why are you being sorry for venting? I do care and I wish I could change your mindset somehow.Thanks anon. You are very kind. I won't apologize for venting>I don't know how things are to you, do you study? Do you have anything you can work as to get money?I'm very confused right now. I'm trying to study to achieve my dream of being a hardware engineer but I'm behind most people my age. I have a great alternate option right now but it would require me to give up my dream of moving to Japan and work a job I'd probably hate. I don't know if I'm smart enough to do my dream job. Feel confused right now.>I too hope she's okay. and I think she hopes you're okay too.Anon, don't let the worldly enjoyment decide or affect on your sanity. I doubt you're unlikeableThanks anon that means a lot. > If one tried everything to please "people's" taste and still didn't get their attention then just screw it, nothing should make you feel so bad like that if you know you have no control on, again I dont think you're unlikeableThanks anon. You are one of the first people to not call me crazy for living my waifu.>You've made a huge good work for escaping suicidal mindset. Don't regret it.Thanks I'm gonna try not too. I would've missed out on great things if I did>I do not know what you think about religions and stuff ,I feel a bit confused right now. I would say I'm Christian but I feel confused. Some prayers have been answered but they could be coincidences. I feel really confused about this stuff.>I dont put suicide in mind because I believe that it's not going to make anything better, and I believe that it's just expected to suffer in the world because the real enjoyment and the end of suffering is in the afterlife if human wasn't totally disobedient in the worldThat's a beautiful thought anon. I hope ever human can be happy in the afterlife>I hope I helped, if you wanna know what's the religion or so you can ask.You did and feel free to share!
>>84194750thanks for your words anon no worries! Hope I helped a little>>84194841No worries
Sleepy 4chan.Almost everywhere is a bit slow currently on this board.>>84194896No need to thank me anon!>behind most people my ageHow exactly behind them? >a great alternate optionWhat is it?Is it having a job you might hate?>Thanks anon that means a lot.Np anon>>Thanks I'm gonna try not too. I would've missed out on great things if I didThis and also it wouldn't have been the best ending.>feel free to shareoh it's Islam
>>84194996>How exactly behind them?Most people my age are finishing college and I haven't started it yet>What is it? Is it having a job you might hate?It's an a union electrician job. Not sure If I really want to do it but it's the "safer" option. I'd need to give up my dreams for it though since my skills would be uselsss in Japan and it's not a job I'm interested in honestly but the pay would be fantastic>This and also it wouldn't have been the best ending.Yeah you're right anon>oh it's IslamNice :)
bage 4 bumbis it raining outside your houses?
>>84193486I'd give you a hug if I could, anon. I hope things pick up for you.>>84193557>well I don't know it made a difference desuNeither do I. I don't really understand how relationships work, let alone relationships in Asia.>what are your intentions?I don't really know if I'm honest. She's cute and nice and I like her but I don't think I should try and foster a relationship that seems like it's destined to fail because of different values.I'd be happy to stay friends since I don't really have any here.>I could picture a world where the didn't let people mod like that so at least they doYeah. Things could always be worse, I suppose. Valve is (usually) quite lax when it comes to their IPs, which is nice.>>84194228>I'm sorry for always venting and not making things fun.That's what the thread's for, don't worry about it! I think everyone here has done there fair share of sadposting.>>84194549I'm not sure how helpful this is but I could have written a very similar post ~5 years ago.I was a NEET for a pretty long time and spent three years getting rejected from the Master's degree I wanted to do, but eventually I got on it and my life managed to slowly turn itself around after. I also dated someone for the first time at 27.I'm not quite sure how to reply but if you've got any questions I can try my best to answer them (but you'll probably have to wait like 10 hours).What I can say for now is that>>84194896>I'm behind most people my ageLife isn't a race, the only way to succeed is to go at your own pace and ignore what everyone else is doing.
im cutting againi just wanted a little cut but ended up going fasciai didnt cut for a week after starting on new meds but ig their wearing off now
>>84195894thats cool wow fascia post it
>>84194996it's time where most of the worlds population is sleeping
>>84164201hello friendshappy to see /cut/ is still going hows everyone?ive surprisingly been mostly happy these past few months, if you ignore university stuff like exams. It really does get better eventually, girlfriend helped me too to be happy and i really hope im making her happy tooless happy news is that my NES stoppedworking for no reason at all once i finally got 2 games for an affordable enough price, but!, ill find a way to fix it eventually >>How are you doing today?today was chill, as chill as can be avoiding uni responsibilities>>When was the last time you hurt yourself?been clean for about 9 months now, if i did it, you can too ^w^kind of get urges sometimes but they arent strong enough to have any affect on me
time to giddy up good afternoon frens>>84195894hey anon make sure to patch yourself up very wellif it's that deep you might need stitches desu>new meds but ig their wearing off nowor maybe they have yet to kick in>>84197275heya :Dit's very nice to see you ^^>hows everyone?pretty alright I'm glad the weather is getting warmer and sunnier >been mostly happy these past few monthsthat's great, happy to hear you got what you deserve!>NES stoppedworkingyou'll probably be able to fix it I feelif it happened on it's own then maybe it's just some dirt inside and that needs to be cleaned up>>84197275>finally got 2 gameswhich ones?>chill as can be avoiding uni responsibilitiesyou got any hig tests any time soon?>clean for about 9 monthswo a :ogood job!>kind of get urges sometimethat's normal don't give into them fren, not that I'm worried you would
>>84195808>>84195808>Life isn't a race, the only way to succeed is to go at your own pace and ignore what everyone else is doing.Thanks anon, I hope I'm making the right choice too regarding my current path>>84195894Like cat said just be sure to patch yourself up later anon. Hope you feel better. I wish I could hug you and all others anons ITT. Nobody deserves self harm. I wish you the best
>>84197460hey anonhow r ya doing today?
Drank last night, first time since new years. Woke up with new wounds on my arms and legs. And a bathroom full of bloody razors and paper towels.What a life.
>>84197329heya cat nice seeing u too>I'm glad the weather is getting warmer and sunnierhere its the opposite lol ive been freezing these past few days>probably be able to fix it i sure hope so!>which ones?i got the original super mario bros and super mario bros 3!always wanted to play the originals the way they were meant to be played>got any hig tests any time soon?yeah tomorrow in databases and idfk if ill do well at all and CANT bringm yself to study>that's normal its weird isnt it? getting urges back to do such a thing so long after you stopped doing it, the human body works in odd and weird wayshru doing?
>>84195808>Life isn't a racefelt nice to read that even though i have nothing to do with this or the thing you replied to.thanks for sharing your wisdom disanon.>>84195027>Most people my age are finishing college and I haven't started it yethey anonwhat's the matter exactly? what didnt you start yet? isnt there anything you can do to get things done instead of trying to figure out an instant solution?>but they would pay fantastichonestly i have nothing to say im afraid a wrong suggestion could make things worse...i hope you fix everything though anon.how are you today? hope you're feeling better today.>>84195894im late and you probably did take care of the wound, but again, take care of it and i hope you dont ever cut again.
yesterday was a nightmare. i got myself to sleep peacefully by gaslighting myself and imagining unreal things, at least it worked.it was so bad that i even thought about trying to reach out to someone, not that one friend i talked about here before, but someone who is kinda related to him. but i didnt anyways. to this point i dont exactly understand what happened, would like to find the true mental reason of my mood swings.currently i feel calm, would like to stay calm like that, not extremely impulsive nor extremely sad.>>84197329and hru today cat how is everything going
headache thoughhaven't eaten or drunk anything for like 14 hours or sojust small chocolate biscuit thingies i ate few just now
>>84198796hey anonsounds like drinking was a bad ideawhy did you do it? were you having a bad day?>>84198809>opposite lol ive been freezing these past few daysare you on the other hemisphere or just a coincidence?>sure hope so!when will you try opening it up?>super mario bros and super mario bros 3!cool , have fun with those !I've never any mario game other than 64>yeah tomorrow in databaseswell then I'm wishing you lots of luck!>idfk if ill do well at allwhy?>its weird isnt it? getting urges back to do such a thingin a way, but it's sorta like that with other addictions too, even with food addiction, people like that who've lost lots of weight still get urges and feel hungry often, unless they take drugsI guess it's just your brain got used to getting shots of dopamine like that and it's want to keep getting them>hru doing?pretty good, it's been a chill day, I worked a little bit on a recreation of lsd dream emulator kyoto then took a break and ate some strawberries, now I'm thinking about watching a movie but idk what to watch >>84199258hello o/sorry to hear yesterday ended ip not being good do you know what triggered that?>gaslighting myself and imagining unreal things, at least it worked.It's a good way to fall asleep, I do that every night pretty much >but i didnt anywaysgoodit's unfortunate you get feeling like that but I'm glad to hear you are able to control yourself fren! >currently i feel calmhope it stays that way :<what did you do today btw?>cat how is everything goinghru doing?it's been a chill day, I worked a little bit on the map, then took a break and ate some strawberries, now I'm thinking about watching a movie but idk what to watch>>84199402them it's not surprising you got a headache `~`make sure to drink and eat something friend!!
>>84199446>it's been a chill dayglad to hear that>strawberriessounds nice! didnt you have dinner yet though?>idk what to watchim not the best for suggesting ._.>do you know what triggered that?it was a long day and later, late at night i took a look at some things i made on my computer, were small creepy disturbing videos i made two years ago when i was doing selfharm more than im doing currently.>a good way to fall asleep, I do that every night pretty muchwhy do you have to do it :<>glad to hear you're able to control yourself:D>what did you do today btwnothing intersting yet>not surprising you got a headache desu not sure if it's headache i feel something in my head but overall my whole body feels weirdbut yeah not surprising, not the first time>make sure to drink and eat somethingyup im waiting for food to be ready :]
wanna eat grapesthats the only thing i want from summer maybe
>>84199446>why did you do it? were you having a bad day?Yeah. A bad day haha.
page 7 alert page 7 alert>>84199664wanna talk about it anon?
I just got back from my weekend away. Was nice time away, had a lot of fun, and socialized more than I have in quite a long time. Was pretty cool, but man I'm tired.>>84179200>, turn around and applaud yourself for your foresight to jump ship before it sinksfailing upwards at it's finest>gotta cover your assespecially if you work for Fox News. There's this weird thing that they act like criticizing military operations is the same as criticizing individual service members, which is mind boggling since I'd say being opposed to meaningless wars is more respectful to service members than wanting to see them die for foreign interests, but maybe that's just me >>84179297>I'd see why you'd like herI think I also inherently have a soft spot for the lonely villain characters I've come to realize> but they've helped me out a lot.glad to hear and i can see how they would. Definitely think it over some point>I hope nobody here ever needs to go to the hospital. always hope so too, but the thing I hope most of all s people get what help they need. If someone cuts and messes something up bad, it's serious and a scary thing to confront possibly getting help and facing someone finding out, but honestly at that point the risk of getting hurt, sick, or having serious complications is the biggest worry
>>84179864hey discanon, how did your weekend go? anything interesting happen?>being wide awake on a plane with the lights off,being well aware you're the only one awake especially. I pass the time always by watching half a dozen movies. None of which i ever like much> one way to pass the timeI got lucky over the years being sat next to friendly people on some of the flights I was on. Makes it a lot more pleasant than dealing with some of the unpleasant people i got stuck next to> just kind of embarrassing to have.end of day, it's not something you have control over, so i'd try not to feel too embarrassed with that in mind even if i get it> basically a requirement to teach now.interesting. I still see a lot of people at universities here teaching on just masters, but i get everywhere is different. Things change though everywhere>didn't intend to have political parties yeah I'm not overly political and wasn't even at the best of recent times. I don't pretend like I have all the answers, but it's hard to look at the beginning of the US and not feel astonished at how badly things went off the rails from what was intended. There's a reason I suppose they talk a great deal about the founders here without going into too much details about any specifics past the vague freedom part>>84181312> will probably do the same if I ever get my own place As I said, it is very convenient. Would like to get out more though, so think I'm finally going to sign up for muay thai like I think I mentioned once or twice maybe
>>84187370>I'll be back in a month or twolooking forward to it. stay safe. i'll try to read more fire punch til then ;D>And what I'm doing now as welli sense a pattern here, but i can't put my finger on it.>>84188384>I think that was probably the right move.gotta do what you gotta do soemtimes. good job.>>84191615>why sad?just the usual stuff. nothing noteworthy in particular. i'm better now, though.>>84192949>that's fair. The big scene of the arch is toji v Gojo and geto followed by hollow purple.might be that i'm just not feeling anime in general atm, so it'll take a while until i'll get around to watch it. there's other stuff i want to focus right now.>>84194228>if I'm being honest today feels like shit for multiple reasons and I cut again :(damn. sorry to hear you're having a rough time. what happened?>Yeah, that's part of the fun though :)true, but it sucks when you run into the test subject multiple times in a row and lose because you draw all your damage in the invincible phase and all your block when it isn't. then again, just didn't find any of the big payoff-cards, either. better luck next time. :p>They are kinda confusing for me to make a good decksame. what i figured out (and had confirmed) is that doom is a total trap and you can't really build a deck around it. on geneally good cards is a nice bonus too have, but you also need big damage cards to make it work. it's best to go for a soul- or osty-focussed deck. still hard to do when you miss the high damage dealers. in general you want to have some kind of engine going and usually need a lot of power for that.regent is tricky as well. i don't think i've made a smithing or a minion deck work. kingly kick is a decent card and so are most of the one's with star cost, but you need to be able to generate those frequently. i think void form works well with those cards too. since it makes them completely free, no power or stars required.
happy to see yuanon and officeanon back!>>84200288>>84200368i hope you too are fine
>>84200406you two*
>>84182965> I really liked was fate zero.That is the easiest point of entry for the franchise. It stands well on it's own, isn't another anime school setting, animation is good, and think the story is well done even if the lore probably gets a bit confusing at the end if unfamiliar with Fate, but shouldn't matter much.>only watched fate stay night after that.that's honestly where things went wrong, since fandom agrees that one is quite bad and dated unfortunately, which I agree with. Unlimited Bladeworks is really the one to watch after Zero and has similar quality, followed by Heavens Feel which is confusing unless you watched Bladeworks but is my favorite route adaptations of the original visual novel that started the series. past that it gets much more questionable.>Like if it leaned into the historical and mythological figures moreit helps a little maybe. I find it cool when someone I know comes up. My favorite servants of all were all characters I didn't know much or anything about before seeing them in games or series> really work him that hard? I don't know if he's overworked, but more so meant end of day as odd as Fujiomoto seems he does have an editor and the publisher probably works closely enough with him that it won't be too outrageous. Obviously Fujiomoto shapes the story itself and don't discount him to be weird, but people seeing a really unreasonable upset probably don't have much to worry about, but will see>>84183765hey rm, was away a few days but back now, how are you?end up going anywhere?
>>84194228>I'm such a piece of shit man. I'm sorry for always venting and not making things fun.don't worry. nobody here thinks that you are. we all have to vent and it's good that we have a place where we can do that without anyone judging.>>84194549i can relate a lot to what you say. i just don't have any interest to engage with people the way everyone insists i should and i have a deep rooted hatred for myself, so whatever i do to improve, it always seems futile. still, i'll try again and again. what else can i do?>>84197275hey sis! good to see you! :D>It really does get better eventuallyreally happy it worked out for you. you deserve it.>as chill as can be avoiding uni responsibilitiesvery relatable.>been clean for about 9 months nowlet's gooo! here's to another nine months. (*^*)9>>84197329hi catbro! how was your weekend?>>84200193>Was pretty cool, but man I'm tiredundarstandable. any kind of social events drains all live out of me. what did you do?>failing upwards at it's finestthey just bought their way into that social group and that's that. if you have more than enough money, you'll always make more.
>>84200193>maybe that's just meevery single decision that lead us to this mess was retarded, but now that we are here, all you can do is go through with it until it's done. everything else would lead to even worse consequences for anyone involved. as you said though, not like the people who are doing what they are told now had much choice in the matter. :/>>84200406hey rm! sorry i'm absent so often these days. i don't want to, but i just have a hard time showing up as often as i used to. :[ how was your weekend?
>>84200526>was away a few days but back nowhow are you? how is everything going? how's work?>end up going anywhere?not any unexpected place just went to visit my auntand currently im visiting someone else.>how are youtrash ngl, the thing that's making me feel a bit better is that i might cut when im alone at night hours later
>>84200586>sorry i'm absent so often these daysall good mate i hope everything is going wellhow are you?>hard time showing up as often as i used towhy though? what's the matter?>how was your weekendcant explain in words i think it's right to say i was okay then nono okay xD
Hello everyone. I had an exciting day today. I'm also very worried about one of my internet friends right now. I've been nudging him to give posting here a try but I'm not sure he will.>>84195808What's got you down, anon?>>84197275>less happy news is that my NES stoppedworkingI guess with tech that old it's bound to happen eventually. Fortunately it's also much easier to repair than modern stuff. My guess is that it's probably a dead capacitor, which should be easy enough to swap with a new one (or all of them at once, ideally).Best of luck with your university stuff.>>84197460>I hope I'm making the right choice too regarding my current pathYou won't know until it's over. But if it's something you're set on doing, it's probably the right one.>>84199258Sorry to hear about the mood swings, hopefully they'll ease up soon. All sorts of things can bring them on so it's hard to pin down a cause.
>>84200193Glad you had a good time, rest well!>>84200288>how did your weekend go? anything interesting happen?It was very nice. I had my first kiss.>I pass the time always by watching half a dozen movies. None of which i ever like muchMy in-flight movies have been pretty good now that I think about it. I've watched 3 Kubrick movies on them and those were all great. Emirates have very good movies so I'd recommend flying with them if it's not too much more expensive.>Makes it a lot more pleasant than dealing with some of the unpleasant people i got stuck next toFortunately I've not flown enough to have been sat next to anyone too bad. At worst it was someone a few seats away watching TikTok with the volume on before takeoff.>i'd try not to feel too embarrassed with that in mind even if i get itIt's not too bad but it makes eating out a bit of a pain. I'll have to bring it up with her sooner or later...>I still see a lot of people at universities here teaching on just mastersThat was the case for most of my lecturers. Very few had a PhD. I was taught by one of the top guys in the country in my field and he only has a bachelor's.>it's hard to look at the beginning of the US and not feel astonished at how badly things went off the rails from what was intendedI don't know if it was hubris or just wishful thinking from the founders that everyone would have the same ideals as them. I can't pretend to be an expert on it but it seems like another case of humans ruining a good thing despite lots of warnings not to because it's what we do. It's a topic I should look into more.>>84200368Hello yuanon. Hope you're doing well.
>>84199561>glad to hear thatthankies ^^ >didnt you have dinner yet though?oh I did, I had some tomato soup>not the best for suggesting ._.that's okay :>>creepy disturbing videos i madehm I see maybe you should delete them so ot doesn't happen again?>why do you have to do it :<oh dw, it's not like bad I just think about things that make me feel nice >nothing intersting yeteven jot interesting stuff is pretty interesting to me I'd say >my whole body feels weirdhow much sleep did get last night? might be a combination of things >waiting for food to be ready :]what's for dinner?>>84199611do you have any favorite kind?>>84199664a bad life?>>84200189:o>>84200193heyoosounds like fun who did you socialize with?>>84200368hey hey heyI been busy helping with someone renovations and also working on that map I'm pretty close to being done wbu??>>84200813hellowhat's been so exciting?and what's up with ur friend?>not sure he will.that's understandable 4chan is pretty offputting to people
>>84200902>what's been so exciting?I spent some more time with my friend today. We did a bit of figure shopping and I cooked her some pasta, but mostly we just talked a lot.>and what's up with ur friend?He's very suicidal right now. I'm trying my best to comfort him but he seems pretty set on ODing soon.>4chan is pretty offputting to peopleIt is, but he already posts on this board pretty often. You might even recognise his threads.
>>84200813>hopefully they'll ease up soon.thanks disanon!>>84200902>I had some tomato souponly that??>maybe you should delete them so it doesn't happen again?i love these videos so i won't delete them, but at least i dont always watch them like they are not always on my mind, it just happened that i felt like i wanna take a look>i just think about things that make me feel niceoh okay. glad to hear it's not bad!>even not interesting stuff is pretty interesting to me I'd saywell i was visiting someone just now and i'm finally home>how much sleep did get last night? might be a combination of thingsoh well when i was having that strange bad feelings episode i was already awake for like 15 hours and before that i only slept for like 3 hours and half soo.. yeahi slept well today but i'm still feeling bad>what's for dinneroh it was some grilled chicken and stuff
>>84200577> any kind of social events drains all live out of meit's the poor sleep and diet that do it for me, but I'll bounce back from that fast>what did you do?probably message on discord without going into extreme details here, but overall very fun time>they just bought their way into that social groupthe value of the MBA. Why self studying is 100% worthless in some areas, but then again what do people actually learn in those programs that they remember>>84200586>, all you can do is go through with it until it's done. everything else would lead to even worse consequenceswhich is 100% what's going to happen since the current government has no appetite for problems that last more than a month and Republicans were already going to get historically annihilated at midterms even before this nonsense. You can't get people onboard to support wars in the USA since people hate each other, which is I suppose they didn't wait for the conveniently placed battleship to get sunk this time.>>84200406I am glad to be back too, but traveling anywhere does tire me out so bad. No idea how much longer I'll be awake today since I'm exhausted>>84200595>how's work?Easy since I'm leaving in 2 weeks lol Then on to see how the new job goes>trash nglanything you want to talk about? hope things improve.. and without having to resort to cutting
>>84200637>hope everything is going wellhow are you?right now i'm feeling alright. went outside, and had a nice workout today. the only thing annoying me right now is that i'm stuck on slay the spire. >:[ it's not really bothering me, but i don't know what i'm doing wrong, either>why though? what's the matter?i'm just very tired when i get home and having a pc now makes it easy to just scare at a screen and do nothing instead of engaging with anyone. i also have other things that i do in the evening now, like playing wow with friends on mondays.>i think it's right to say i was okay then nono okay xDmakes sense. my mood is swinging a lot, too. how are you today, though?>>84200813>had an exciting day today.hope it was a good exciting. :>>I've been nudging him to give posting here a try but I'm not sure he will.he's more than welcome to stop by and see how he feels about it.>>84200821>Hope you're doing well.as good as i can, i think. today was nice, though. wishing you the same.>>84200902>I been busy helping with someone renovations and also working on that map I'm pretty close to being doneah, yes. you said so before. how that coming along? and how did that map turn out? are you happy with it?>wbu??i'm good. went outside, worked out (found some new and fun exercises) and other than that had a chill day. even managed to get back into painting yesterday, which was nice. :>
grabbed the knife and kept hitting but didn't cut, still painful though.can't remember the last time i made my arm bleed.anyways, not feeling any better. see you guys, replying later
>>84201215doesn't sound goodI think you should get under a blanket, pit on some chill video and try to wait it out until you feel better here also vid recommendations https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=EGIwcPA1_34&t=1shttps://m.youtube.com/watch?v=RDydoTqoEuM&t=1sHope u feel better soon
>>84201075>spent some more time with my friend todayaw that's nice maybe you should get her some gift for next time>pretty set on ODing soonthat's a bad idea do you know why he wants to do that?>only that??I have some other things too like a sandwich ^^ >just happened that i felt like i wanna take a lookoh I see >glad to hear it's not bad! yep ot just helps me go to sleep>visiting someone just now and i'm finally homethat's cool it's been a while since I visited anyone, but I'm happy about it I don't really like visiting >like 3 hours and half soo.. yeahthat's so little :onot sleeping enough can actually mess you up for a long time >still feeling badsorry to hear about it fren>some grilled chicken and stuffsounds tasty >>84201136>how that coming along? pretty smoothly maybe we'll be done in two days> how did that map turn out? not done yet but I'm pretty happy with it, I think it's an mostly accurate recreation >new and fun exerciseswoa what kind?was the weather nice?>get back into painting yesterday, which was nice. :>lovely ^^what figs u worked on?
>>84164201What does self harm help with, and has anyone here burned themselves with lit matches before? How was it?
>>84201477Forget I asked.
>>84201508>Forget I asked.why?
>>84201551Because if the answer to the ladder question was yes I was considering trying it myself to pass the time, but then I looked at the box and pondered the intent of it's creation and what it really meant, were I to take that, that had some good meaning behind it, and use it for this, and then furthermore, missuse myself, against myself. I know that's not good, however much of a joke and a fuck up of a human I am.
>>84201566Forgive my language by the way, when I put that language out there, even if it's just from me, I put that in other peoples heads and that's probably not good for them either.
>>84201566Basically, among many things it would be an act of a lack of forgiveness and mercy towards ones own very self. That's tragic. However terrible this world is, I don't need to mirror it's regard for me, to myself. Or something..................
>>84201566it's good you decided not to do it anon>joke and a fuck up of a human I am.why do you think so?>>84201593no worries ^^
eep time gnigt
>>84201624>why do you think so?I don't even know where to begin, and I don't really know how to describe it at the moment to be honest. It could even be massively self sabotaging nonsense in my head. I could call myself a fool, but then that would be a self fullfilling prophesy.>>84201904Night Anon.
>>84201129>it's the poor sleep and diet that do it for methat's pretty bad, too. ^^ good that it doesn't keep you down for long, though.>overall very fun timeawesome. i'll reply to that tomorrow. too sleepy now.>Why self studying is 100% worthless in some areasat least you know how you get fucked over if you do. not that you can do anything about it, but at least you know.>the current government has no appetite for problems that last more than a monthwhy they want to drag everyone else into it as well. :/>people hate each otherwill get worse. that's for sure. i can see it in myself. i've got no patience anymore.>>84201215at least you didn't go through with it.>>84201418>maybe we'll be done in two daysgood luck with that. o7>I think it's an mostly accurate recreationof what?>woa what kind?light indian clubs. you just swing around some clubs and it's really fun. can become very complex if you really go for it.>was the weather nice?it was. :]>what figs u worked on?10 man squad of drukhari wracks. just got the first layer of skin done, but it's something.>>84201904same for me. good night.
>>84198293I'm doing better :) No cutting today, how are you anon?>You won't know until it's over. But if it's something you're set on doing, it's probably the right one.Good advice I hope you are right >I had an exciting day today. I'm also very worried about one of my internet friends right now. I've been nudging him to give posting here a try but I'm not sure he will.I hope your friend is okay>>84201215I hope you are okay anon, sending love >>84201904Goodnight
Afternoon bumps
why are people so mean to me just because I cut myself :(
i cutted and iwanted it to go deeper but i didnt
>>84200189>wanna talk about it anon?Not really. But I tried getting off my meds. Turns out it wasnt the best idea. Then again I was cutting and other means of self harm even while I was on them so.Add to that I've fallen madly in love with the nurse at the psychs office.>>84200902>a bad life?Yeah.
>>84201136>hope it was a good exciting. :>It was. I expected it to end quite badly at a few points but it was fun and I'm in some disbelief that it happened.>he's more than welcome to stop by and see how he feels about it.I've let him know but I don't think he has any interest.>as good as i can, i think. today was nice, though. wishing you the same.Good to hear. Hopefully things keep getting better for both of us.>>84201215Glad you didn't go through with it but I'm sorry to hear that you feel like you needed to. I hope things get better soon.>>84201418>maybe you should get her some gift for next timeThat's a good idea. One time I saw her I gave her a US Government pen as a gift. I'm a very good gift giver.I treated her to some ice cream yesterday.>that's a bad ideaI keep telling him that but he won't listen...>do you know why he wants to do that?He's just really sad and lonely, I think. >tfw no gf taken to the extreme, I guess. I try my best to be there but he also doesn't want to talk to me.>>84202267>Good advice I hope you are rightIt worked well enough for me, and I hope it works for you too.>I hope your friend is okayHe's been like this before and he can usually snap out of it but I'm worried he won't this time. I don't think he's in immediate danger but he might be once his next prescription arrives.
mornin bumpanother busy day how are you guys doing??>>84203643many people tend to look for someone vulnerable who standards out to bully Even kids do that, it's in their nature in a way
>>84200821>rest well!thanks! My biggest issue is recovering from how i eat while away. I usually eat super healthy with lots of lean protein and veggies so when I go away and eat fries and junk because it's hard to find real food, i get kinda sick after>spoilerthat's awesome and really happy for you. Huge step and can't understate how glad I am to see how things have looked up for you>watched 3 Kubrick movieshard to go wrong with any of his films. Don't remember having such a good selection when I would fly>Emirates my flight routes have been across the pacific from the us so only ever been with different asian or US based airlines >watching TikTok with the volume on before takeoff.that ain't nothing. I've had kids who just wouldn't stop the whole flight, a dude who kept falling asleep and leaning onto my seat, and more but those are the highlights>I'll have to bring it up with her sooner or laternot such a significant thing that you need to worry>wishful thinking from the founders that everyone would have the same ideals as them. It came apart rather quickly honestly. Think I've heard people will agree by the time Jackson put more emphasis on democracy things started heading for the direction we are today. Ultimately, the same thing that ruined the Roman republic, populists who courted masses to accumulate personal power, is what will be the death of America in the end.>>84200902hey hey how have you been?>sounds like funvery tiring. Feeling a bit sick today>who did you socialize with?complete strangers i met for the first time there lol>>84202011>that it doesn't keep you down for longfeeling a bit rough today, but hopefully passes soon.>reply to that tomorrow.no worries. I crashed super early yesterday > want to drag everyone else into it as wellIt did go rather quickly from mission accomplished to "why isn't anyone else helping?". Does not bode well
>>84202011>will get worse. that's for sureI don't see the states having any future at this rate. There's always been conflict between parties and states, but it's getting a bit harder to reconcile. A certain amount I always believed was political theater, which is still true to an extent in some cases, but as true as it was 10 years ago
Today I learned how to use chopsticks. I really shouldn't have put it off for so long considering how long I've been in Asia.>>84205259>I usually eat super healthy with lots of lean protein and veggies so when I go away and eat fries and junk because it's hard to find real food, i get kinda sick afterThat's fair. I usually have to adjust whenever I switch to back a crap diet. I should probably stop doing that...>Huge step and can't understate how glad I am to see how things have looked up for youThank you. I think I owe it to this thread, at least indirectly. Both in terms of nudging me pretty hard, and also keeping me alive when I was at risk of topping myself a few months back.>Don't remember having such a good selection when I would flyI guess you can always preload some on a tablet.>only ever been with different asian or US based airlinesThat might explain it. I flew Air France to visit home and they had some good movies too.>I've had kids who just wouldn't stop the whole flight, a dude who kept falling asleep and leaning onto my seat, and more but those are the highlightsI've heard of crazy stuff happening on US planes but thankfully I've not seen anything anywhere near that bad (and it sounds like you haven't either).>not such a significant thing that you need to worryYou don't think so? It makes eating out kind of a pain.>by the time Jackson put more emphasis on democracy things started heading for the direction we are todayYou could it started even earlier with the 12 amendment, changing the VP from being the second place guy to someone you vote for specifically. Stuff was designed to make compromise necessary but it seems like parties just gave up on that. It was probably a lot easier when the country wasn't very big.>populists who courted masses to accumulate personal powerI'm worried for the UK because it looks like the next election will be between left-wing populists and right-wing populists (who both seem like Russian assets).
>>84164201Can I post here if I'm uncircumcised?
>>84206169THAT'S NOT ALLOWED
The nurse at the psychs office asked if I could whip myself with rubber bands instead of cutting. Which I tried but it didnt hurt enough so I cut my wrists to make the rubber bands hurt more.Wtf is wrong with me.
>>84164201>How do you feel about winter leaving?mixed feelingsi love going out at night during the summer and just chilling, aswell as the beautiful nature. but my pollen allergies are pretty annoying, and i dont like sweating when sleeping.>How are you doing today?im okay, havent posted much lately. but ive gotten better attendance at school so thats something. i also cleaned my room a few days ago and its still clean so thatsn ice>Any plans for today?study for some upcoming exams and chill, i bought my cat a lil heating pad so he can stop sleeping in my wardrobe on top of my clothes lol (or on my chair)>When was the last time you hurt yourself?i havent kept count but ibe done pretty well lately, it must be since around the last post i did>Is there anything bothering you right now?not especially, just school stuff and stuff im nervous about
still busy with renovations >>84205259hello o/hopefully it's not something serious you're sick with >>84205985practice makes perfect!try to use them often >>84206370sounds like you really want to feel pain >>84206416heyo meowster it nice to see ya !!>pollen allergies are pretty annoying, D:>i dont like sweating when sleeping.DD;do you have your window open when you sleep?>better attendance at school so thats something. i also cleaned my roomsounds good good job !does that mean you might be getting a bit better?>study for some upcoming examsis it going to be difficult?>cat a lil heating padcute >and stuff im nervous aboutwanna say what??
>>84206792>still busy with renovationsrenovations?>heyo meowster it nice to see ya !!its nice to see you tooo>do you have your window open when you sleep?in the summer time i want to, but then mosquitoes attack me in my sleep. i have a little window with a net i keep open, but its not the best>does that mean you might be getting a bit better?i think so. I've been feeling a lot better lately>is it going to be difficult?yes and no, mostly just tiring>cutehe hasnt tried it yet though :C>wanna say what??my lips are sealedddd
>>84206955>renovations?yep we're renovating a room in the house>to, but then mosquitoes attack me in my sleepyou gotta get nets on all your windows, I have that and I haven't seen a mosquito in yearss>been feeling a lot better lately\o/>mostly just tiringwell hopefully you don't have many more then>hasnt tried it yet though :Cmaybe hes too hot too or maybe it doesn't smell enough like you so he don't want it>lips are sealeddddokay keep you secrets then
>>84206416>and i dont like sweating when sleeping.I feel too cold if I leave the AC on overnight but if I don't then I wake up all sweaty and gross. There's no winning.>study for some upcoming exams and chill,Good luck with your exams!>>84206792>still busy with renovationsHopefully they aren't too disruptive. My dad started renovating the kitchen like 16 years ago and it still isn't finished...>practice makes perfect!I started off with some doritos today and I'd say I'm probably competent enough to eat stuff with them now.I'll give it a go with some instant ramen next.
>>84207143>yep we're renovating a room in the houseoh okayy>you gotta get nets on all your windows, I have that and I haven't seen a mosquito in yearssthis neck kinda sucks, they get in anyways. and just through the windows somehow>\o/until i started crying... *gasp*>well hopefully you don't have many more theni have 5 this week>maybe hes too hot too or maybe it doesn't smell enough like you so he don't want itidk maybe>okay keep you secrets then:3>>84207392>I feel too cold if I leave the AC on overnight but if I don't then I wake up all sweaty and gross. There's no winning.i dont have an ac so idk abt that>Good luck with your exams!thankss
things aren't so much better today in fact i only slept for like three hours, i had a drink i'm not sure if its energy drink but anyways i think it helped me stay sane.feeling my stomach is empty, barely eating anything really, now im just having some snacks.a kinda embarrassing thing happened to me at a supermarket and it's still annoying me but i think it'll be cooler later.i was waiting for a chance to meet a friend and walk together and talk about things, i felt like i have many things i could say, yeah we finally met up today but i barely remembered any topic, and after that i, as usual, felt so tired and bad for "oversharing" even though i barely shared anything.social experiences aren't my thing currently.haven't felt that bad for a while>>84201284>>84202011>>84202267>>84204285thank you all for your replies.and sorry for not replying, i'm so tired
>>84193256hi cat>is it a big deal?No, I just pretended I was scheduled for sunday and no one was the wiser.>how does your job look like?Not good, but it's a job and it isn't labor intensive. Just pays low.>>84193355hi dis>What job have you got, if I may ask?A loading dock gig>I think it was like that in 5.oh great, I can't escape.>Navigable waterways are a huge reason for why early civilisations succeeded.The game does give a boost for settling on a river. I just think war units would also use it rather than be impeeded by it. >>84200368hi yu>might be that i'm just not feeling animethat's fair.
>>842080034chan did't like the post so I had to split it.>>84207798hi rem>and sorry for not replying, i'm so tiredthat's okay, take a rest.>feeling my stomach is empty, barely eating anything really, now im just having some snacks.When you get a chance try a full meal.>haven't felt that bad for a whileI'm sorry to hear that.>>84206792>renovations have fun cat>>84206169lol, it's ok anon
>>84199446>just a coincidencewe are on the same continent lol, its just that its gotten colder here for whatever reasonor maybe im just easily getting colder>when will you try opening it up?prolly tomorrow hwne i have free timeill try to have fun with it even with how wonky it can beive never played 64 btw>why?im not very good at academics soi think i did okay, but cant be sure>and it's want to keep getting themi guess sommmm strawberriesim guessing you still dont upload your maps anywhere yeah? also did u end up watching nay movies?>>84200577heya yuanon hru?>really happy it worked out for youif you had told me a year ago id have called you crazy lol, funny how stuff works>here's to another nine monthsill try my best!>>84200813heya discanonthese threads are probably the best community online ive ever found, and on top of that its anonymous too, your friend doesnt have anything to lose! hes got more to gain lol>My guess is that it's probably a dead capacitorim going to try and troubleshoot it tomorrow, from no light at all i got it to a flashing light, it just doesnt stay on for long enough because i noticed it loads up the games to the tv (than k God for low latency on crts), theres plenty of tutorials to follow, i just hope i wont need any special equipmentalso thanks
hey guys, didn't check the thread today so here i am, sorry if i didn't reply to anyone
>>84205985>so long considering how long I've been in Asia.ha, it was actually same experience for me. I actually didn't learn how to until after I was back in the states when i started using them... Really strange indeed, especially it's really not that hard>switch to back a crap dieswitching either way is rough. The one problem with healthy eating I've found is it can be really hard to actually pull it off while traveling places.> nudging me pretty hardwe all need it sometimes to get through shitty times. Glad you ended up finding the thread>preload some on a tablet.my nerves always get the best of me anyway. I think I downloaded a bunch of episodes of anime to watch offline one time, and barely watched any since it's hard for me to enjoy things I actually want to do while in the air>crazy stuff happening on US planesthat's a lot of those low cost carriers that only operate domestic. People flying international don't tend to act crazy. But people paying almost nothing to fly to Florida or Vegas, that's when you have to worry about unruly crowds with fights breaking out. I heard them screaming all out hurling vulgar insults while I waited for a flight one time. Glad not to have to be on one of those planes> It makes eating out kind of a pain.for sure, but it's not really a huge shattering thing that isn't easy enough to work around. >make compromise necessaryless and less of it these days as everything is about trying to shut out the opposing side and jam your agenda through. >wasn't very big.yet it already had signs of issues even early on, it was destined to fall apart when things got to the level of complexity and scale we're at now>who both seem like Russian assetsOur political parties don't even pretend to represent American interests anymore so I get what you mean by this. It's so bad feels like it's deliberately being driven into the ground>>84206792good luck with the renovations! Already feeling a little better so hopefully tomorrow
>>84207798no worries. Try to get some rest and eat some more. Don't be too hard on yourself. Will talk later>>84206416hey meowster> love going out at night during the summer and just chillingit is quite nice. I'll sit in front of my house a little bit these days already> pollen allergiesthe worst. Though I think mine are finally less severe. Does anything you do help with them?>>84208286hey sisyphus! good to see you again!Missed your post earlier since I had a bad headache after coming back from a trip, but glad you've been doing so well lately>>84208336no worries, hope everything is going well
>>84204285>It worked well enough for me, and I hope it works for you too.Thanks, I'd like to become a hardware engineer but I'm not sure if im smart enough....I'm going to get back on my ADHD meds and start studying>He's been like this before and he can usually snap out of it but I'm worried he won't this time. I don't think he's in immediate danger but he might be once his next prescription arrives.Well all I can say is I hope his next prescription makes him feel better>>84207798No worries anon, no need to apologize :)
Want to end my shit but bleeding out is so difficult to do. I heard you start having spasms and your head starts to hurt a lot until you pass out and die
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hi threaddlittle morning beansim going doctor today
>>84210481Psych or surgery?
if any of you are older than 20 it's so fucking over btw
>>84210631i will add: just do drugs instead
Morning everyone. Hope you're having good days.Waiting till noon for the final Chainsaw Man chapter to see if Fujiomoto does the funniest thing ever.Also I spent a tiny amount of money on gatcha for the first time ever to get the Umamusume anniversary pull and did not regret since I got 4 new 3 star Uma's out of it, which I consider money well spent in the end.
>>84207504>i dont have an ac so idk abt thatI only moved to somewhere that uses AC recently. It's pretty good.>>84207798Hang in there friend. The bad feelings will pass eventually.>>84208003>A loading dock gigLike on a big crane?>oh great, I can't escapeCiv's AI has always been pretty odd. I think they do it on purpose.>I just think war units would also use it rather than be impeeded by it.I'm sure there's some kind of balance reason behind it. That or Sid Meier hates water.>>84208286>these threads are probably the best community online ive ever foundI've been telling him that everyone here is very friendly. I suppose you can bring a horse to water but you can't make it drink.>it just doesnt stay on for long enoughThat makes me think it's a capacitor problem.>i just hope i wont need any special equipmentYou should just need a soldering iron some solder, some cutters, and a desoldering wick (plus some replacement capacitors rated the same as the originals). It shouldn't be too expensive but it might be a bit of a pain.Let us know how the repair goes.>>84208336Hello chevalier, hope you're doing well.
>>84208571>especially it's really not that hardYeah. In my head it was this really difficult thing but it was just a matter of watching a 2 minute youtube video...>it can be really hard to actually pull it off while traveling placesI can imagine. I guess the only way to truly know that you're eating well is to cook stuff yourself.>Glad you ended up finding the threadMe too. I'm glad everyone else is posting in it.>it's hard for me to enjoy things I actually want to do while in the airI see. Have you ever taken anxiety meds for flying?>But people paying almost nothing to fly to Florida or Vegas, that's when you have to worry about unruly crowds with fights breaking outMakes sense. I think I read somewhere that flight attendants found flights in and out of Miami are the absolute worst.I don't understand how people can treat their fellow man like that.>it's not really a huge shattering thing that isn't easy enough to work aroundI suppose I've managed to live this long without too many issues, so you're probably right.>everything is about trying to shut out the opposing side and jam your agenda throughI was going to mention that but the post was too long. Tribalism depresses me and it seems worse than it used to be, even in my lifetime. Hopefully things get bad enough that people realise it's a bad idea but not so bad it's irreparable.>It's so bad feels like it's deliberately being driven into the groundIt's probably stupidity or (more likely) greed/personal enrichment than making things worse on purpose, but it doesn't really matter if the end result is the same.Who knows. Maybe things will get better one day with some new blood in office.>>84209049>I'd like to become a hardware engineer but I'm not sure if im smart enough...I think you can do it with enough persistence.>I'm going to get back on my ADHD meds and start studyingBest of luck anon!
>>84211449>just a matter of watching a 2 minute youtube videoin both of our defenses, I think if you didn't grow up with it, it does look impossibly difficult>only way to truly know that you're eating well is to cook stuff yourself.for sure. And I'm not overly obsessed with eating healthy while on trips like that, but if I find myself in position to even get a side salad somewhere, I'd go for that, but even that's not always an option> ever taken anxiety meds for flying?no, though I know that is an option. I don't regularly see a doctor or fly often enough to pursue it, but if I ever need to again it's good to consider>out of Miamioh i could definitely see that>treat their fellow man like that.Everyone thinks they matter more than everyone else and devalues everyone else as a result. You see it in traffic, you see in how they talk about people they slightly disagree with, and so on and so on. >live this long without too many issuesi don't even see it as needing to go out of the way to even mention. People should be up front about issues that could effect future significantly if they have a relationship together, but this is barely a problem i feel>Tribalism depresses me and it seems worse than it used to bealways been a thing here and always been pretty bad, just more and more lines being drawn between people over things. I've never seen myself belonging to a certain group, so I feel nothing along those lines, but I get to some extent why people cling to it. Problem is inter group conflict will always be a thing. I do believe it's deliberately encouraged here because it benefits both political parties, but some will always be natural>greed/personal enrichmentagreed. It's the same thing in any system. Always be people looking to loot and abuse anything they can get away with.
>>84211449> some new blood in office.I'm curious in many ways what will happen here when baby boomers are out of the picture. They're a huge chunk of the voting block here and always support a lot of things no one under the age of 60 cares about
hi all havent showed up in a bit, hope life has been kind to everyone>How do you feel about winter leaving?no winter for me, its been 36C/96.8F since february over here :/>How are you doing today?bad>Any plans for today?today is nearing its end so im about to go to bed>When was the last time you hurt yourself?a few minutes ago>Why did you hurt yourself?bulimia relapse after 12 days clean, blew more than 10% of what I make from my internship on food just to throw all of it up, im lightheaded and weak because of it and in general life is just a bit of a fuck currently>Is there anything bothering you right now?my legs hurting from compulsive pacing, the feeling of never being satisfied with my body, the nagging sense of doom that im throwing my life away
>>84211874hey tamago! Good to see you again, but wish it was under better circumstances. Sorry things have been tough.>36C/96.8Fquite toasty, but honestly... would rather have that then the winter hellscape we had here... Was way below 0C with ice blocks everywhere most of February for us>weak because of it and in general life is just a bit of a fuck currentlyi know this has been a continuous struggle for you. One I know I can only say I hope you overcome. Have you had anything today that you managed to keep down at least?
>>84212069>would rather have that then the winter hellscape we had hereguess the grass is always greener on the other side because 0 sounds like a dream to me ^^'> I know I can only say I hope you overcomethank you, it may not seem much but it genuinely means a lot :>>Have you had anything today that you managed to keep down at least?I kept down 2 slices of peanut butter toast during breakfast with my mom at least
>>84210631Im 34. >it's so fucking over btwI know.
>>84212086> grass is always greener Suppose so. I sort of liked the heat in your corner of the world, but I also stayed in nice places with no worries about running the AC non stop>genuinely means a lot just hate to see you struggle with so much, especially I know it's similar to my own issues I used to face>2 slices of peanut butter toastgood. I'd say that's better than nothing and has some good nutrition to it. Hope tomorrow treats you better though>>84212120+30 /cut/ posters are assembling>t 31
>>84212202I dont trip. But I think I posted here late last year about burning out from work and started to feel like shit and beginning self-harming again.Im also the guy that have blogposted once or twice recently about falling for a nurse at the psychs office.
>>84212244T. >>84212120 (and (2.86% content))
CSM final chapter has me convinced the publisher killed Fujiomoto when he handed in the real ending and this was what we got instead. What in the actual fuck.>>84212244i enjoyed that webm, I have a dog, but these types of fun things only happen with cats>I dont trip.all good. Most only do it here since it's too confusing for those who post everyday otherwise.>burning out from work and started to feel like shit hope things have been going a little better. Work has a way of ruining your whole life if things are rough. I'm getting away from a shitty job that's dragged me down a while finally and it's a huge relief.
>>84211861>I think if you didn't grow up with it, it does look impossibly difficultThat's true. My friend (I guess gf now) told me that she holds them wrong and that I'm doing it correctly. So maybe it is as unintuitive as it looks.>if I ever need to again it's good to considerThey might be able to prescribe it so they're taken as needed. They did that with beta blockers for me once, although those just stop the symptoms of being nervous.>You see it in traffic, you see in how they talk about people they slightly disagree with, and so on and so on.That's true. The worst part is it only takes a few people acting like that to ruin it for everyone. I get the impression that most people don't act like that, which gives me some hope.>but this is barely a problem i feelI guess it depends how bad it is, some people have it a lot worse but I can usually find something I'll eat on a menu.>I do believe it's deliberately encouraged here because it benefits both political parties, but some will always be naturalI think you're probably right on that. Some people want to be a part of something and politics are "important" so people cling to it.>Always be people looking to loot and abuse anything they can get away withThere's a reason why the best leaders are dragged kicking and screaming into that position.>They're a huge chunk of the voting block here and always support a lot of things no one under the age of 60 cares aboutI assume it's similar in the US but they have the UK by the balls with a vicelike grip.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b5aJ-57_YsQ is a pretty interesting watch if you've got 40 minutes on 2x speed (or just skip to part 10 for the old people bit).>> 84211874 Sorry to hear about the relapse. 12 days is pretty good though so try not to get too discouraged. Progress is rarely linear but with any luck you'll be able to go even longer next time.Hopefully life picks up in general for you too.
>>84212328>hope things have been going a little betterThey aren't. Was put in a psych ward 2 weeks ago because I said my suicidal thoughts had gotten more vivid. I'm cutting myself daily. And I've relapsed in boozing. It is what it is.
>>84212945I'm sorry to hear all that anon. Has anything that's been done helped? or are you just feeling like things are spiraling? And how long has it been like this?
>>84213749>Has anything that's been done helpedI did get ketamine IV once a week for a couple of weeks. But any positive or negative effects left as soon as they removed the IV. It's intended to be temporary but for couple of days at least.Aside from that I've tried 5-6 pills that have done fuck all. The only upside I guess is that benis didn't get perma-heemed by SSRIs. Once I quit them I felt like complete ass but at least that wasn't completely done.In a couple of weeks Im scheduled for some "psychoanalysis". As if an autism diploma is gonna make the depression go away.
how are you all doing everyone?idk have much cool things to say today, atleast right now>>84208599>Don't be too hard on yourself. Will talk lateryeah. hru today?>>84208010>that's okay, take a rest>When you get a chance try a full meali did, thanks!>>84209049>No worries anon:)>>84211443>The bad feelings will pass eventually.yeah, that's what swings are :/
>>84212935>did that with beta blockers for me onceI've heard others say that they asked their primary care doctor to just give them something to relax on flight and most will do so pretty easily. i should probably get a primary care doctor either way some time..>few people acting like that to ruin it for everyoneusually has to start somewhere. One person being an asshole triggering other people who get worked up easily is usually the thing, and it's really hard to walk things back and just ignore things for some people>usually find something I'll eat on a menu.I mean, worst thing that comes out of it is you need to look at a menu ahead of time before going somewhere. I've seen people drop literal bombshell level issues after starting a relationship, this is nothing>Some people want to be a part of somethingI'd reckon most people do. Maybe part of the reason again politics is as nasty as it is now can also be attributed to the lack of wider community is causing people to overemphasize things they can formulate a sense of community and identity around, and running too wild with it. > if you've got 40 minutesskimmed a little. Might skim a little more. Interesting a lot of the same problems here. I think the housing one in particular is universal across the west. Old people not dying and now big corporations buying up land doesn't make it easy, especially with youth unemployment and underemployment at an all time high> the old people bitpretty much here too. Cut the social welfare programs that help the poor, but the elderly still need their hand me outs. It amazes me they're still mostly delusional about how bad the economy here is, as they are delusional about just how badly every generation from gen x onwards despises them
a classmate venting out to me in dm's , he spelled my name wrong and eventually this mistake leads to him saying another classmate's name, therefore he's maybe venting out to the wrong person.i really wanna tell him i'm not the one he mentioned, but i dont wanna make him feel embarrassed.. BUT i wanna tell him who i am...
I've been to the west US where was too hot for long sleeves, and I believe my classmates have seen the scares already, while one of them, during one of our conversations, subtly expressed disdain and contempt for his little sister, who suffered from depression and did sh, which disgusted me.But whatever....
>>84213905update: he spelled it right now. didn't need to tell himand damn i had some sips of a tea, too much sugar in it, i'm almost trembling
>>84213954i dont get it, did he despise you or her?
>>84164342Literally me, I played CVI and drew for the whole winter...>And did nothing except for that, now my mentor is getting mad at me
>>84213854that sounds like the condition is very severe. Have you communicated things haven't been working you? I imagine they need to keep cycling approaches if that's the case, which I know is probably tiresome, but hope you can try to stay openish if for no reason but showing you're cooperating and trying.Never went through what you have going on, but think others have. I would say trying to be open minded is good if you can manage, though agree with you that in regards to therapy and any kind of analysis, I'm never very confident about those things on their own.>>84213863hey rm>yeah. hru today?Doing all right. Read manga and went to the arcade for a bit. how was your day?>>84213905>maybe venting out to the wrong person.are you sure about that and not just misreading maybe? if he's venting might also not be communicating clearly. Hard to imagine someone getting that mixed up, but honestly I think it's better to mention than not if you have concern. Can't pretend to be someone else>>84213954are you sure it was contempt? I think people have a hard time knowing how to react to these sort of issues.
>>84214048>went to the arcade for a bitmhm do you have a lot of arcades there?>how was your day?full of nothingbut i'm chilling currently>not just misreadingyeah he really wrote someone else's namebut later he wrote my actual name so i guess it was just a typo>Can't pretend to be someone elsetrue, glad i didn't have to correct it myself
one of the worst evenings in a long time, ate uncooked instant ramen noodles and white monster. didnt cut. how is yall's evening going?
>>84214083>one of the worstwhy?>uncooked instant ramen noodleswhy..>didnt cutwell, glad to hear that>how is yall's evening going?i'm fine i have things to drink and some nuts
>>84214073>you have a lot of arcades there?not a lot, but I live right up the street from one I like, so it's convenient and go there a lot>but i'm chilling currentlynot terrible way to spend the day. As long as you're happy with things> so i guess it was just a typoit happens>>84214083what's going on so bad? it doesn't sound very active, but didn't hear anything that awful>. how is yall's evening going?pretty uneventful. Should probably try to be productive a little bit since had a lazy day
hey hey everyone another busy day though I'm in bed now having a chill timehow are you?>>84211874heya tamago it nice to see ya :DDthough sorry to hear you haven't been doing well :/and it's very hot where you are D:
>>84214336>I live right up the street from one I likei see :] how often do u go?>As long as you're happy with thingsyeah and as long as it's not always like that.. atleast for me>>84214356>hey everyonehey cat>busy daywhat did u do today?>i'm in bedcozy>how are you?i'm fine i'm chilling, going to bed soon
>>84214381>what did u do today?renovations :obut we're almost done \o/>cozyyep ~w~ r u cozy too?>fine i'm chilling, going to bed soonglad to hear thathow are you relaxing also I'm going to get my blood taken tomorrow
>>84214356heya cat, what have you been up to? More renovations?>how are you?manga and gaming day. Wasn't bad>>84214381>how often do u go?almost once a week with some weeks off. Good way to kill an hour or two do something I find fun.> it's not always like that.. atleast for meyou were working very hard because of studies until recently so i think you earned some lazy days where you don't have to do much
>>84214517yep more renovations :>sounds like you're having a chill day ^^very glad to hear you can relax a bit
>>84213983despised her, but it's disgusting for me
>>84214560> more renovations must be doing a lot there. Hope it's all going well. >very glad to hear you can relax a bitthanks! I have some time to use before starting new job and leave the old so thought i'd use it a little
>>84214296>why?i am a failiure, i dont have anything im good at anything. both my siblings (one older one younger) managed to acomplish something great, yet i am the ugly one. Im the failed son.>why..i dont deserve it any better (no will to boil water)>i'm fine i have things to drink and some nuts deez nuts ahaha (kill me) what good do u have for drinkin?
>>84211449>I think you can do it with enough persistenceI hope so>Best of luck anon!Thank you!Chainsaw Man ended today and it was really hopeful. I'm going to get my life on track and achieve my dreams anons!
>>84204285>I'm in some disbelief that it happened.don't be. you deserve good things happening to you.>I don't think he has any interest.a shame, but it's his decision. maybe he'll come around.>Hopefully things keep getting better for both of us.can't say that it did for me. you just be happy for the both of us.>>84205259>feeling a bit rough today, but hopefully passes soon.i understand. i've been eating like shit for a while now and i'm feeling it, too.>no worries. I crashed super early yesterdaydidn't manage today, either. it was a rough day.>"why isn't anyone else helping?"isn't that the question. what else can you do other than bully, threaten and extorting your allies into compliance?>Does not bode wellwe'll see.>>84205266>it's getting a bit harder to reconcile.not just in the states, but pretty much everywhere else, too. can't have a discussion about what you can agree and act on together. you have to be on board with everything either side says or they'll just screach incoherent nonsense at you.>still true to an extent in some cases, but as true as it was 10 years agothis shit is so blatant here that it's not even funny anymore. noone in any political position is interested in actually making things better. it's all just shitflinging with no substance at all, which drives people away and towards more extreme political parties.on a side note: took me an hour today to send a package to the us. shit's getting out of hand.>>84207798>and sorry for not replying, i'm so tiredall good. i don't have any energy left, either.>>84208003hey, buddy. how's it going?>that's fair.i guess i cycle through stuff. right now i'm just playing slay the spire 2. finally defeated ascension 2 on necrobinder. what a drag that was.
>>84208286>hru?worst i've been in a long time. everything is bad, nothing's going right, i've tried nothing and i'm all out of ideas.>if you had told me a year ago id have called you crazy lol, funny how stuff workstrue. ^^ hearing that gives me some hope, though.>ill try my best!that's what i want to hear! >>84211874hi tamago! good to see you again. :D>hope life has been kind to everyonesadly, it wasn't, but what you gonna do, right?>so im about to go to bedheading to bed as well. should have gone some time ago, but i just couldn't. just kept staring at the screen.>bulimia relapse after 12 days cleansorry to hear you're still struggling with it. 12 days is pretty good, though.>life is just a bit of a fuck currentlycan relate to that. what's going on?>>84212328>CSM final chapter has me convinced the publisher killed Fujiomoto when he handed in the real ending and this was what we got instead. What in the actual fuck.i feel like japanese authors either get so invested in something they're never able to end the series or just get so fed up with it they just end on a note of pure spite. what happened?
>>84210481>>84203770I'm sorry for not responding to you but I just hope you got help with your wound and you are okay
>>84213854Sorry to hear all that anon. I hope things get better, even if it might seem impossible.>>84213863Hello rememberme. I'm doing alright. Tonight I'm going to watch a comedy show.>>84213894>i should probably get a primary care doctor either way some time..Probably a good idea. Are they a pain to get in the US?>it's really hard to walk things back and just ignore things for some peopleThat's true. I try to stay optimistic in spite of that though, as difficult as that can be sometimes.>I've seen people drop literal bombshell level issues after starting a relationshipWhat kind of things? Like crazy drug habits?>causing people to overemphasize things they can formulate a sense of community and identity around, and running too wild with itThat's probably a big part of it. Everyone wants to feel like they're part of a community and its not uncommon for people to bond over a shared hatred of another group.>I think the housing one in particular is universal across the westPeople like the idea of cheaper housing but I don't think most have realised that comes with other things they might not like (i.e., their house losing value and more people living there).Incidentally he has another video on how the housing crisis is responsible for a lot of other problems.>Cut the social welfare programs that help the poor, but the elderly still need their hand me outs.I don't know about you, but I fully expect to not get my state pension either because it's completely unsustainable. Made the mistake of being born in the 90s, I suppose.>>84214356Hi /cat/. I hope you have a good snooze.>>84215527>you deserve good things happening to you.Thank you. You do too, so I hope things get better for you!
does anyone have a preferred bandage brand or type? also why don't the cuts on my legs bleed right away, do i have bad circulation?
>>84217148I just use plain old bandaids but I know steri strips get recommended here sometimes.
>>84217217whats the point of steristrips? just to reduce scarring?
heloo guys :3i think I'm going to go on a bikeride today :]also I'm having some uni troublesI'm thinking if I should pay and try to retake 2 failed classes, one of which I have been trying to pass like 3 times now and I just can't :/or maybe not pay and quit uni completely and try to get a job to see how that goes Also if I quit uni I can come back to it any time really but I'll have to go back like two semesters so if I do come back to it I'll have to do two semesters to graduate I'm kinda getting sick of it honestly and I'm not really planning to get a job in the field of IT>>84217022hello o/thank youuhope you're doing well!>>84217148not really I just use whatever >don't the cuts on my legs bleed rightthat's normal, sometimes and on certain areas on body it takes a while >>84217276if the wound is big you can close it up with steristrips to make it bleed less, heal faster and leave a smaller scar Also sometimes it's necessary to close up the wound to make it stop bleeding
>>84215527> i'm feeling it, too.I'm just finally starting to get back to normal. Next time I go somewhere, I'm planning around this better>threaten and extorting your allies into compliance?that's the part that has me convinced this admin had zero plans for this till Israel strong armed them to agree. It was last month they were trying to bully Europe over Greenland and using thinly veiled "all options are on the table" language, now throwing a tantrum now wants to be in another pointless fight in the desert. It's just tiresome at this point. > pretty much everywhere elseagreed. I'd say things are all around more volatile everywhere on politics issues. Only thing interesting with the states in this regards is both the extremity and fact states that border each other pass laws that are at odds with laws of their neighbors. It's just around weird how in the US, pockets are very much looking like completely different countries with significantly different sets of values> it's all just shitflinging with no substance at all,honestly I don't even know what's worse, when they were all the same and put on a show, or this recent stuff we're it's dysfunctional and they are all out to get the other side. Don't know I care either
>>84215559> just get so fed up with it they just end on a note of pure spiteafter reading the finale, 100% he did not want to write part 2 is my best guess. It's one thing to disagree with the direction the author takes a story when they're invested, but I just all around think he didn't give a shit at this point after dragging out the final fight of the series for a mind numbing number of chapters.> what happened?spoiler for the whole series but it's so dogshit at this it doesn't even matterit's a timeline reset back to the end of the first chapter ever. Basically nothing happened, no one remembers anything, mostly everyone is alive again it seems? None of the relationships happened and MC is basically just a loser who never got powers ever and has no memory of anything that happened. It's like a fanfiction tier ending, but a really bad one since there were significantly better ideas from people guessing what would happen next.I'm amused most of all since the ending sort of vindicates the main villain of the first half since she wanted to remake the world without suffering/bad things and they were like "no you need the bad for the good to be worthwhile", but now we reset to Disney tier nobody died or got hurt ending. So technically my opinion on who was in the right is 100% factually correct.I'm done rambling
>>84217022>Are they a pain to get in the US?you have to schedule for like a month or so out for first visit. I might try to do that when I get new insurance>What kind of things? Like crazy drug habits?that, significant health issues, other things that would greatly impair the ability to have a long relationship. I think if something is potentially an issue that would prevent long term relationship or marriage one day(even if not thinking about these things at all), it's better to bring up sooner than later, since it's a lot harder down the road.> bond over a shared hatred of another group.unfortunately, that is very much a thing. And a very popular one in the US especially and has been for a while.>I don't think most have realised that comes with other things they might not likeIt's a tricky situation since I own a house, but I definitely think the prices are way too high and honestly would rather lose a little value than have young families priced out of the market because of ancient boomers and investment firms. Only old people being able to afford housing is not a good thing. It's a disastrous issue that if there are downsides to reversing, I think they need to be crossed since this isn't sustainable how it is.>not get my state pension either I think it's agreed upon our version, social security, will probably dry up at some point. They've said it for years of course, but I think when the last boomer dies, it will need to be faced for real.
>>84214356heya :>>it's very hot where you are D:forecasts say its at least one more week of it, though they've been saying that for a month now :/>>84215559>should have gone some time ago, but i just couldn't. just kept staring at the screen.happens to the best of us :L>can relate to that. what's going on?well mostly my eating disorder, but that aside im currently working an internship for my uni and i just feel... useless? My internmates all have stuff to do and I kinda just sit there doing nothing because I'm too shy to ask for anything to do. Even when I DO get stuff to do my eating disorder gets in the way anyways and I barely get anything done or do a terrible job at it. I'm basically just showing up and wait for it to be over. Zero progres on my final year project at the moment either so I just get that nagging feeling in the back of my head that I should be doing something but I do nothing everyday pretty much
>>84217407I'm bias because I work in higher education, but I'd strongly recommend retaking those classes since having a degree will help a lot with getting a job, even if it's in a different field than the one you studied. You might be able to take a different class for the credits you need (even from a different faculty) instead of the one you've failed three times, which is something you should look into.>>84217407>hope you're doing well!Thanks /cat/. I'm a little nervous because I have a really important presentation on Friday and might get kicked off my PhD if I mess up really bad. But probably not as nervous as I should be.>>84217799>you have to schedule for like a month or so out for first visit. I might try to do that when I get new insuranceI see. Are you uninsured right now? I only sorted out mine a month ago (incidentally, while I got maimed by my table).>that, significant health issues, other things that would greatly impair the ability to have a long relationshipAh, I see. Reminded me of this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v7uWXRYL_5MShe mentioned that shad a cancer scare a few years ago and might have problems having kids, but it seems to be in remission after surgery so I'm not too worried. I'm more worried about meeting her parents, honestly.>would rather lose a little value than have young families priced out of the market because of ancient boomers and investment firmsA rare kind of person, I think. Good on you.>I think when the last boomer dies, it will need to be faced for realIf it's like ours, it's basically just a ponzi scheme where 12% of the budget goes to it. With an aging population it's just not going to work out...
>>84208599hiiii>it is quite nice. I'll sit in front of my house a little bit these days alreadyits a bit too cold here for that, and with the winds. but it's nice that i can go out with jsut a hoodie and not freeze>Though I think mine are finally less severe.same, mine used to be worse so its improved atleast.>Does anything you do help with them?yeah the medicine i take for it usually works wonders so its no biggie>>84211443i dont think ac's are very common here, atleast not the places i've lived.>>84217407>heloo guys :3hiiiii cat, hru? ^^>I'm kinda getting sick of it honestly and I'm not really planning to get a job in the field of IThmm okay well, whatever you do just make sure you enjoy it, and dont burn yourself outits waffle day here :D so thats nice atleasti had a pretty stressful day, 3 exams back to back and a presentation.
>>84214446>renovationsaha btw did u choose to work with them or it just happened?>we're almost donenice :D>r u cozy too?i think i wasnt very cozy>how are you relaxingi can't remember exactly but i was somehow browsing internet and drinking something nice>going to get my blood taken tomorrowhmm why? what are you going to check?>>84214517>almost once a week with some weeks offaha yeah that's kinda alot ig :]>I find funyk i only tried arcade like once or twice in a mall, is there any other games to play like some table games or just video games?>you were working very hard because of studies until recently so think you earned some lazy days where you don't have to do muchwell i think i could say that's right. honestly i dont wanna get a burnout>>84214660why did he despise her that's so fucked up
>>84214783>Im the failed soni'm sorry cas..but i think it's wrong to just state this as a fact that can't be changed, no one knows what's gonna happen tomorrow so i think it you should keep trying to do something you feel good about>>84215527>i don't have any energy left, either.why D: ? what happened?>>84217022>doing alrightglad to hear thathow are you today though?(idk what time it is where you live)>>84217407>bikeridenice!>I can come back to itYOOO that really made me happy :Deven though you don't plan to get a job in the field, who knows what's gonna happen later right? at least you can come back later if u dont want to currently(why is 4chan being more annoying about spam these days)
